#if it's getting boring just feel free to unfollow i guess... i have zero energy to fight anymore

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#personal #cheyrants #if u wanna know why im so...negative these days... here's why hahah #so my mum keeps telling me to go out and have a social life #(covid isnt that bad here) #but every single plan ive made this month i have cancelled #because i just am not in the right state of mind to meet anyone #and that is thanks to my brother who is constantly belittling my authority and being rude and whatnot #it's just...his behaviors....he would be in prison if he wasn't 13 #but yeah it's my term break and instead of having that social life #I'm stuck at home supervising my brother then getting angry and instead of going out to relieve stress #i am just overwhelmed and cancel every plan and hide in my room and i am just spiralling into darkness rn #that's also why i am so tired to gif or edit anything anymore cuz suddenly nothing in life is worth it #it's so very tiring trying to tell someone to do their daily basic responsibilities while also keeping secrets for them because of guilt #like rn im keeping my bro's phone a secret from my mum because if i tell her he's gonna get sent to juve #and idk if I'll be able to live with that. i know it's for a good cause. i know it will reform him. but i also know he will hate me forever #i am so conflicted and idk what to do and I'm sick of crying every single day and having everything be my fault and I'm just so so tired #so yeah sorry for the rant #i know you guys followed for content so...enjoy another dumb cd edit i have in my drafts i guess #if it's getting boring just feel free to unfollow i guess... i have zero energy to fight anymore