#if not I'll just buy a new one at work

[mildmayfoxe]

yknow it is crazy to think about how much i have been able to improve my quality of life by selling art as a supplementary form of income. like obviously it's a second job and it's taxing but it's also so rewarding to know how much people enjoy my work and how much good it is doing me to like, feel like i can buy snacks at the store. to be able to get takeout every once in a while. like obviously those are extremely minor changes or things most people take for granted but to me it's huge. having berries in the house when they're out of season and more expensive. buying things for CONVENIENCE??! it feels so crazy to me to have such a sense of luxury which i know says more about the bleak feeling of poverty that's followed me around my entire adult life than anything else but i feel so much gratitude that i am afforded these small luxuries at least in part because of people that like my art. not to mention how nice is is to make things consistently again when, prior to 2020, i hadn't made art regularly in almost a decade. anyway. it's cool!

#of course there are extenuating circumstances! i finished my student loans in 2020 with help from family #i moved to a cheaper place in 2020. i get paid more now than i did then; even though i'm only working four days a week #obviously i am not RICH; i cannot afford to live by myself. housing here is crazy. but i can buy MEAT at the STORE #not only do i have SNACKS in the house i also have MULTIPLE KINDS! do you know how crazy that is. #and now of course a lot of it is combatting my wicked sense of guilt for buying anything i dont 'need'. like snacks. #but obviously i still buy them i just make myself feel bad about it for a while first. lmao #i mean i haven't done my taxes for 2023 yet who knows maybe i'll be hit with some big fees and i'll take this all back #but idk you gotta be grateful. anyway i think i'm gonna order pizza later #chatpost #i used patreon money to buy a new desk chair a couple years ago. a NEW one!! not one from the street!

[newtness532]

i need to buy new earphones, i was not made to be going places in a musicless world

#im back to using my old ones with the messed up sound #bc the new ones just stopped working completely #like okay you cant expect too much from the cheapest earphones that were shipped in just a plastic bag with no protection #and i made my mom call and they were like well she can pay to send them back and if we see sth actually wrong we'll send her a new pair #but if its a cut wire we cant do anything about it #oh well dude the wires were messed up since before i got them but i have no way of proving that #so I'll just go to the store and buy some new ones cause that's cheaper than paying to send them back and then get nothing #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

[astraltrickster]

I wish I could tell my 9-year old self that no, growing up and getting excited about "boring" things like kitchen appliances isn't sad, because contrary to what people would have you think it DOESN'T tend to totally change who you are as a person and replace everything else you love - they add to what makes you happy, they don't replace a damned thing, and the excitement is VERY genuine

But since I can't do that I'll just put it out here for any younger people who need it

You grow to love "boring" things because they improve your life, not because it's the only thing you're "allowed" to get excited about once you reach a certain age

Also! That stage in life has nothing to do with numerical age; you can fall in love with something "boring" at any time and it feels exactly the same! Loving the new kitchen appliance as an adult is no different from loving the Easy-Bake oven or the first thing you learned to make your own recipes with as a kid! It's not "turning into your parents" (scary), it's bringing out new joy in YOU! It's fucking awesome!

#lpt #personal #in totally unrelated news i put a high-end blender on payment plan and it has been a godsend for my disabled ass #i will never even WANT to go to starbucks again #and this was recommended by buy-it-once groups i'll probably have it for the rest of my life #and i was afraid it would be super loud because it's so powerful but it's actually the quietest blender i've ever owned #and i've owned...a decent fucking few in the ~$15-60 range #that left huge solid chunks after several minutes of blending #and either burned out their motors or stripped their drive gears before long #and did you know that with a sufficiently powerful blender you can make hot soup? #did you know that this works BETTER for cream soups than a stove because you can't burn it to the pan? #with me staring down wrist surgery next month this is probably the best thing i could have done for myself #yes it sounds boring as hell if you havent experienced it lately #but the joy of Holy Shit My Life Just Got So Much Easier is VERY real #believe your loved ones if they say they want a vacuum for [insert major gift-giving event here] #i am as autdhd-engaged over new blender recipes as i am over some of my favorite media #not more so! just equally! #because joys in life are additive! there is no max capacity for them! #the younger you realize this i think the happier youll be

[sysig]

I decided to give a go to @niennanir’s lovely print-your-own-fic recipe on my Inside and Out as a test run and I’m quite pleased with the results as a first pass :D

I wish I’d taken a few more process pictures but there was a slight lull as I had to go shopping for 12x12 cardstock lol, but! I do have a couple closeups/extras that I added for funsies :D

I went with freehanding the title and I think in the future I would opt to not do that lol, at least not without a printed template. That said, both LibreOffice and SAI refuse to recognize my SCII fonts >:0 If you notice on the first page, I used the Ace Attorney font in italic haha, it’s an okay alternative even if it’s not what I actually want |0 I am happy with the gold detailing tho :3c

I did have an unconscionable amount of fun freehanding the ship caption tho ahh <3 <3 Immediate happy stims upon completion, their names together look so pretty ♥ Credit to Zarla’s original minicomic on that one :3

I also managed to get the last sentence of the fic isolated on the last page thanks to the formatting haha ♪

I was also able to add a bookmark! Ma happened to have a couple very thin ribbons to choose from and red ended up complementing the green very prettily!

It reminds me of VUX tongues hehehehe ❤️💕💖💞

#What do I tag this lol #SCII #I am continually and incurably in love with papercrafts <3 #Hard to believe it's been since Pokemon Homestyle since I've given anything a go! These darn talented artists inspiring me! Lol #Honestly tho I would absolutely recommend this project :D The prep work is manageable and friendly and the action itself is enjoyable #Depending on how much you enjoy repetitive motions haha ♪ Folding and creasing the pages was very relaxing to me :) #I went for my own fic as a first run since y'know - I have very direct access to it lol #Plus it'd be less sad if I messed something up - I want to do right by my favourites from other artists! I'm allowed to make my own mess lol #Also finally convinced me to return to the loving embrace of LibreOffice after like a decade away lol #I just never had a reason to redownload it! Wordpad does exactly what I want 95% of the time! #But it couldn't do columns so okayyyyy fiiiiine I'll get it again (lol) I do rather like it :) #There's still some things I'd change! I'm sure you can see from the pages where you can see both edges that the layout's a bit uhmmmm #Skewed? Corner-heavy? Lol just a matter of changing the borders :) LibreOffice's measurements are wack tho :P #But I fully intend to do this again! :D Print a few test sheets first >:3c Legitimately looking forward to it! #Probably gonna do another one of mine next before I give a go to someone else's I'd like to keep #I have ideas for how to improve! And better and more plentiful supplies! It makes me want to make! :D #Oh yeah and being in the book-making mood reminded me of one of the Vargas-as-a-psuedo-bible ideas I had but didn't put anywhere lol #If I may posit for your consideration: Before as the Old Testament and After as the New Testament :3c #I'd Absolutely buy two versions - And a full version for the record lol I would easily own multiple copies of physical!Vargas lol #Fun thought to me hehehehe ♪♫

[11bountyhunters]

When I say "I want to dress cute" I mean "I want to dress in an outfit that I put effort in and feel good in."

#talk tag #college adventure #i tried to dress cute today and it didn't work #tomorrow is a new day so I'll be cute then! #i want to completely start my wardrobe over from scratch #but that can't happen yet #so I'm just going to imagine the clothes that I want to wear and dream #one day i'll go into a store and buy an outfit #and maybe discover my ''true'' sense of style

[jaggededges123]

so i could sense my computer dying last night (for good) and i quickly zipped my fanfic/wip folder and uploaded it to gdrive like sending up one last flare from a doomed expedition

#it was really sudden tbh #had to readjust my plans for today to go buy a new one because i can't work without one at all #there are still some things i'm going to try to retrieve from the old one but later #wish me luck for that i'll cry if my little fanfic library (other's fic for when ao3's down) is just gone and i have to redownload it all

[emdotcom]

Hisuian Zoroark is one of the sickest designs in pokemon, but the model on that bloke is FUCKED. It's really bad. If they bother to port her over to other games, you know they ain't changing that model, either, 'cept to make the textures paler & duller.

I continue to despise pokemon, despite being a pokemon fan, I fucken guess. At this point, I gotta go all in on summat else, like Cassette beasts.

#gale chatter #i have MINOR problems with the beasts but they are nothing + I ain't abt to be negative abt it online #it's a good game made by good people my complaints are so tiny you NEED to play it #if you like me wish pokemon would do more fun interesting things or miss spritework in ur pokemon #u need to try cassette beasts. I'll admit i haven't beaten it but what I've seen in the story is INSANE #also i generally try not to talk smack about indie games it just ain't right. biggest ip on the planet‚ however‚ #i can talk shit about pokemon all damn day. #the fucking way they keep using the same models the most minimal of animations & the pokemon keep getting pale as shit #to the point that pokemon like pichu are fucken impossible to tell from their shiny (slightly paler pichu) #the way that the designs are done in 2D & designed in it but then when it comes time to model they just. lose all charm #you get designs that were obviously not intended to have full 360 turnabouts (h. zoroark & emboar) #then you get deisgns that lose all their charm when modeled. in example -- look at the boltund model next to the art. #it's. bad. those are different animals. i feel NOTHING for the boltund model. it has no heart nor care in it just a means to an end #the gameplay never changes the sories have ALWAYS been lackluster they introduce cool ideas every other gen & ABANDON THEM #SO YOU HAVE A REASON TO BUY THE NEXT ONE BC IT HAS A NEW IDEA. MEGA EVOS WHAT'S THAT? DYNAMAX NOW. #the way they slice up the games to have exclusives SPECIFICALLY to piecemeal them back to you in 2 different games #so you either need to buy both (THAT IS 120 DOLLARS) or pay for online + have a friend. it has always been predatory. #it's. BAD. #& let's not pretend that 1/2 the lazy work is because the workers HAVE to be lazy. they pump these games out so fast that #nobody has time to write & revise & rewrite the stories which is fucking GLARING when you play sword or violet #in violet it is blatantly obvious they had the end planned first & then made up the rest as they went but had a hard time #connecting it back to the end so there's a noteable rush in the game & it sucks also if you call that game nonlinear i will attack you #IT ISN'T. IT IS DESIGNED SO THAT YOU NEED. TO GO IN A SPECIFIC ORDER. BECAUSE OF THE LEVELS #otherwise you'll hit a lvl 60 gym at lvl 40 then have to go back to fight the lvl 40 gym at lvl 70 #the studio rushes their workers & it results in sloppy implimentation of halfbaked mechanics & poor deisgns & writing #i pray that if there is a god that nintendo actually does slow down on these shits i would like the games my little cousins play #to not be such fucken rushed & undercooked hot garbage. fuck you

[magnusbae]

I confess, I am... kinda excited ; w ;

#sometimes i feel like all i do is just work and survive #once in a while get myself a takeout #i work so much and what for #i never buy anything it's so depressing to think about #since bookdepository closed even my occasional 'buy a book i'd never read' shenanigans stopped #i was lately contemplating buying a new pc‚ and while that's undoubtedly a treat‚ it does fall within my very strict: #'a useful electronic' category of allowed expenses #like i was wondering between ps5 / pc but again those are planned for for years now‚ and hardly can be called 'indulgence' given how #one is for work and the other is years overdue since i was waiting for it to be less expensive.. #ah‚ i babble 🙈 #i did decided i will not share this irl though #i figure‚ i want it to be my private little positive treat #without the unnecessary opinions about how a 'book is not worth that much' #i mean i agree but did you see the book #it's the sexiest book i've ever seen in my life #i am not sure if i'll go ahead and get oathbringer in a few years #but wok-wor are literally the two books i love the most #my most beloved #my light in the dark #-coughs- ok ok. #yeah. #this is the most you heard me babble here in a while -laughs- #i've had a rather rough few weeks and has not been present the way i wanted to be-- those i have not yet answered to-- i will-- soon. #buns.txt

[momotech764]

does anyone know where i can get a gaming controller that's like. quiet. i like hanging out with my partner while i play video games but the clicking from my xbox controller bothers them :(

(i've heard dualsense controllers are quiet but i can't find a wired one that i can use with my pc. also they're really expensive)

#part of the reason i'm looking for a quieter controller is to justify buying an expensive video game #and i'm not trying to spend like $130 in one go #it's the new armored core #but like. if i can only play it in a separate room from my partner then it's not worth $60 #between work‚ school‚ and hanging out with them i'll basically never play it #and i just KNOW it's the kind of game i'm gonna want to play for an unreasonable amount of consecutive hours #especially when i first buy it #and we don't currently have a desk in our shared room where i can play with mouse and keyboard #so like. fuck

[kyouka-supremacy]

Mmmhh...

#(Basically rant on my last two posts) #I know I've said it before and sorry for coming off as annoying– #but I really wish we still had a central bsd blog on Tumblr like fy-bungoustraydogs or bsd-central or things of the kind. #I think now everyone rushes to post news first. And although there's merit to it in knowing news as soon as they happen‚ #in the long run the death of this kind of central official content ***fan*** blogs is such a huge loss of fandom spaces‚ #especially for the archiving purposes they solved. Especially today that T/witter and G/oogle have basically become unusable. #Literally. Literally. I've been doing official content archiving since I was 11 #(because that's the very specific kind of mental illness I have) #and let me tell you that the quality of web search and especially reverse image search only got worse– #in a way that is very evident and noticeable. Which is crazy tbh and not how things should work. #If anyone would like to start a bsd-central kind of blog I'll be the first one to follow. #Actually if anyone actually wants to establish it feel free to contact me and I'll be more than happy to share the resources I have!!!! #It just needs to be something multi-modded for a series of reasons I won't get into right now #I just can't personally do it (not as main admin at least) because that would be modding my FIFTH active bsd blog– #and that's a little too much even for me. #On top of some ethical concerns I have regarding whether it'd be fair for me to mod a fandom central bsd blog– #when I feel like I can't genuinely share the same amount of love for the franchise other fans share #On top of. You know. Getting a degree eventually hopefully. #Then years after the blog has been solidly enstablished and aquired enough credibility it could even open a free donations found to invest– #in buying and scanning and releasing bsd content that hasn't been shared yet like the guidebooks or illustration books or everything else– #for everyone to see... #The dream. (Is realistically never going to happen) (Won't stop me from daydreaming about it every day) #((Still salty I couldn't afford the guidebooks only due to the shipment prices. I *would* have scanned and uploaded them.)) #That was a long and idealistic rant. Kyotag out #Edit: *Modding my SIXTH bsd blog #Apparently I mod so many blogs I lost count of them

[medicinemane]

I get very tired of dealing with people who are so busy being "practical" that they're just totally prescriptive

I tend to be, I think, a fairly pragmatic person. Like most years I spend about... maybe $50 on myself for the whole year (this year is going to be a bit higher, but there's also specific utility to what I'm spending it on). I tend to not bother buying myself snacks, cause I know I'm mostly hungry, and if I'm hungry real food is a better deal (I sadly tend to fail to get ahold of the real food either)

My point is that I tend to be very goal oriented (not in a ladder climbing way, in a I set goals and then work towards them kinda way), I tend to be very focused on what will push my situations into being sustainable, I tend to look for high efficiency, low cost, long term solutions

I was... I was talking to that friend I'll say is Dr Jekyll and Mr Dumbass (I was more trying to talk to my dad, but they were both there). It was definitely Mr Dumbass today

For one thing, he was already saying a bunch of really fucking dumb shit where... it's so stupid I'm not even going to repeat it, where it's like the answer for why we don't do that is because it's obviously a moronically stupid idea on top of being immoral, and also totally ineffective you dipshit

So I already wasn't in the mood for him

Then, while talking about visiting my grandma, I mention how in order to start cooking I need sharp knives, none of my knives are sharp (cause my mom's a fool and dulls them all), and how it would really help if I could just take a knife from my grandma since she doesn't cook anymore and just... keep it as my personal knife that I keep sharp

(I can't do this, cause my grandma is... bug fuck crazy, and legit believes that if you gift someone a knife they'll kill people with it which like... where do you even get that idea, like she has literally said before that she'd give money to buy a knife but wouldn't give one as a gift... what?)

Anyway, Mr Dumbass starts going on about how I can just buy a new knife, and it's like no... in your quest for objective practicality you've lost all pragmatism

I don't need to buy a new knife, I need to learn to sharpen knives which... which I just have a bit of a block on cause I've had trouble figuring out how to sharpen stuff so far (I've come to suspect that which of the hard and soft stones you use first and second isn't intuitive and I've been trying to hone with the sharpening stone and sharpen with the honing stone)

Like... to get mean for just a slight moment, shut your fool mouth, you've got more money than I've ever even touched, and while you were poor at one point when you were younger you've clearly forgot, and not everyone can just buy stuff

Also you're saying a bunch of dumb shit tonight with such confidence and it's pissed me off

He's capable of being a very very smart and compassionate person, and then other times he's a damn fool, and far too often he... he talks about practicality without actually understanding how to be practical

Being practical requires working in the confines of reality

...I don't know, I don't think I have all the words I need to explain what I'm saying, but the point is he's annoyed me and people who act like him annoy me where it's like... nothing matters in the end other than if you actually solve something

You can talk all day about what someone "should do", but what matters is what they will do

So it gets frustrating talking with my family with him cause he has all this ideas where it's like... that functionally won't work, and like some of his great ideas are how I can just wait for my grandma to die and get the knife then and it's like... yeah... but I need a knife now dummy, and I have knives, and which is more useful?

Dropping a pretty penny on a new knife, or finishing learning a skill I really fucking need badly and that makes it so I can sharpen things for next to free forever?

...I'm just tired of having to do everything myself and getting no help, that's all. How about you shut your fucking mouth, stop trying to offer advice that's worse than my plans I'm already slowly turning the gears on making happen, and just let me bitch about my idiot relatives?

Laughing at this fool antics when he chooses to do that, legitimately is more helpful than any attempts to help

#last two paragraphs are things that sadly a lot of people could learn #sometimes you need to shut your mouth and just listen #and this is why I have my no advice without action policy #if the rolls were reversed; I'm not willing to suggest someone buy a knife unless I'm willing to pay for it #most I'll ever do is something like say 'Just wondering if this is something you've already tried' #like know someone who go hacked here; and I just asked if they're running two factor authentication now cause if not it might help #like that's the outside amount of advice I'm willing to offer without action #because it acknowledges that they may have already thought of it; and it more just tries to float an option than it does suggest shit #honestly... I think I'd be less annoyed if it was like 'what about buying a new knife?; rather than 'you should buy a new knife' #advice in the form of a question makes for a dialogue rather than dictation #lets the other person just explain why something won't work if they've already considered it #like in this case... money; way rather just sharpen shit and get to spend money on food instead of a knife #like... this is the crux of what I complain about with my grandma; that groceries are my number one desire with money #are you my grandma? suggesting that I just flippantly spend money once it becomes something you'd want to spend it on? #...and the answer honestly is that yeah that's usually how people are #they can laugh off wasting money on shitty over priced clothes; but when it's what they like spending on that's what everyone should do #...maybe I fail at it; but I try not to do that #try to just be a back up to people and support them in whatever matters to them #and once again; only offer advice when I'm actually willing to do something like drop the money on getting them the thing I think they need #eh... I don't want to share the other dumb shit he was saying cause... dear god #edgy stoned dipshit talk; you know? #framed as actionable policy #good guy; helped me move shit up (I mostly needed a driver) but... utter fucking ass too much of the time #there's reasons we're not closer

[kangaracha]

wouldn't expect a lot of queenmaker until ~christmas time, which is not what i would like to say but my body is just telling me to ease up after november and i'm hitting that pre-holiday slump so we're just chillin. we're playing a game for the first time in six months. we're doing a puzzle. my eyes are really blurry rn so i think i'll go to bed.

#i did manage to sit down and do a lot of planning for queenmaker specifically though #had a good chat with zom mom about pacing and stuff #i say 'ease up' like i haven't added more projects/tasks to the list #i've just half started looking at planning and editing rather than writing like crazy #picked up daily korean practice again #added my novel back to my wip list #we're now working on the basis of 'every time i hate my job and i want a new career i write 1k of my novel' #whatever works #this is a lot of tags for someone with very blurry eyes #the game thing actually doesn't help with physical illness my tv is too small and it just makes my eyes strain really hard #one day someone is going to give me the gs i'm owed and i'll get to buy a new one #technically i saved for a new tv six months ago my savings are just tied up in an offshore account called Someone Else's Pockets #these tags have gotten way out of hand #i just wanted to talk about my life idk #been too busy to talk to my friends about life? post it in the tumblr tags #anyway i'm sure z m or keeps or someone is all the way down here #Roundup! #queenmaker has like 16 chapters plotted #none of chapter 5 written but i'm definitely. looking at starting it. #nevermore i wrote 500 words #haven't looked at it in a week #know exactly where it goes so if i'm not stuck i'm circling back within a month #pirates is ongoing most nights #however i don't know what the scene by scene play is so #very much Just Vibing i added what i will call the cake scene today because i was emotional about an uneaten piece of cake from a month ago #so that's where pirates and my mental health are at #damn this is a full life update huh #systems check #heart (the novel) is truly at 100k now #i figured out the holes in the first part of it so i can actually connect all these dots now

[altruistic-meme]

yay we love adding an additional 15 stressors to an already stressed tf out person like yayyy whoopee that sure is fun :)

#im having a time ok #i already havd been super stressed about fucking everything #and now my parents are having me get my own insurance and phone plan and switiching the title of my car to my name #but theyre putting a lean on it which means if my car becomes unrepairable i will not be able to sell it or trade it in #to help cover the cost of buying a new car #especially bc my parents will be literally across the country 🙃 #and that on top of trying to decide if I'll be resigning my lease or moving #and i COULD move in with my sister and her gf but like #i mean that's also like a generally Good plan bc it'll cut my rent down by more than half what i pay now #but also from what my sister told me of the contract her gf is writing for it (in case i DO move in with them) #its like. heres a bunch of conditional stuff about your cats (including potentially not allowing them at all) #and conditional stuff about your health (????) as though I'm not fucking trying to work on that #as though I've not BEEN trying to work on it since i was fucking 12 years old #like is that. is that actually fucking NECESSARY? to include in this? like us in AWARE I've got health issues #I'm AWARE i have severe depression and anxiety #I'm TRYING to work on it but i ALSO just lost my healthcare and am trying to figure out the one my work provides #which also wont cover a whole lot and is not exactly like I'm dwimming in cash over here #anyway #ugh #shh ac #seriously shut up

[hilema]

Omg

#my friend asked me if i'm interested in the new saw movie and that she's going to see it with her friend on saturday #and my brain started instantly working extra hard like #“she's not asking me to come with them she's just asking if i'll see it myself sometime right?” #so i just replied that ive only seen the first movie #she told me this movie apparently sets in between the first and the second one to which i replied it would be nice to see that one next then #then finally she was saying something about buying the tickets beforehand some day and i'll have some time to decide if im coming with them #abdjwjdjakdvka so yeah most likely going to go see saw this saturday #like sure someone with a healthy mind wouldnt have doubted that she was inviting me with them but you know how it is

[loregoddess]

couldn't find a post to reblog so HERE look at the trailer that apparently dropped 4 days ago that I didn't know about until today but I was so stupidly excited to watch it anyhow

#final fantasy #ff7 #ff7 remake #in my defense I was at work and also recovering from a bad IBS night #also none of my coworkers are as into FF7r as I am so it's not like anyone was gonna tell me about this #my brother was the one who finally contacted me like ''yo so that new trailer right?'' and I was like waht #I still don't own a PS5 and have no intentions of buying one JUST for this game but like #I was able to watch Intermission so I know I'll be able to watch rebirth #although I DO want to play it bc I COULD FINALLY PLAY RED XIII MY DUDE MY SON MY GUY #I was so sad I wasn't allowed to play him in the first game #oracle of lore

[lonely--seeker]

I was so close to lowering my queque to acceptable numbers of owed artwork now it's all the way over ten slots again :(

#i wanna get it under 5 for when college starts will i ever be able to go back to those times #still thamk you so much i need money #forever thankful for the internet and people caring to commission #since im blabbering ! i actually need a new keyboard. ive been buying cheap ones and they've been lasting a year or so #but i think im ready to buy a better one if the world insist on it #and not because i still don't have 100% accuracy on the keys and i want to work on the dark #the e is just too far from the i and i don't wanna do the shortcuts again #aughhh if i could only get a new graphics tablet. I'll miss you forever I see you in my dreams girl