every time someone calls moirallegience just an alien qpr i wilt a lil like YEAH thats more or less the CLOSEST human thing but its also Literally Not That. like a qpr is fundanmentally not romantic and thats not even going into moirails whole Actual Purpose of calming ppl down. its just. aughhhhh pisses me off i see the confusion but, as aformentioned, aughhhhh
OH MY GOD THIS HAS BEEN BOTHERING ME TOO.... but i don't want to get petty at the people in my notes always saying "moirails are QPRs!" because in some ways that is the closest human thing so it's hard to be mad...
i think there's definitely some overlap in some ways. but NOT because moirallegiance and qprs are the same at all really, but INSTEAD because both relationships have unconventional boundaries defined by the people within them.
you know... like every relationship.
like the only reason the two have overlap is because they are both partnerships that emotionally care for each other but can choose to not bang (which is true for any romance anyway, even if it's considered abnormal). they're both just romances* that are unconventional to human norms, which makes people view them as the same thing when they're not.
i think the REAL issue here is that humans insist on using human words to understand things that are just, fundamentally, alien. can't we just appreciate alien romance for being... alien romance?
no, it's not platonic, it's romantic. it's just romantic in a way you aren't quite wired to understand, is all.
*in generalization, most QPRs are not romantic, because they are made up of aroaces who are life partners in a non-romantic way. however i want to disagree with you that none of them are romantic, because that is up to the partners in question.
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hypo empathetic rain is amazing, please share if you have anymore thoughts about that because im obsessed
I think Rain shuts down sometimes when it gets to be too much.
When the previous three Papas died "unexpectedly", he watched everyone else grieve and felt helpless to do much of anything. He didn't really know them, and of course it's sad they died, it's sad when anyone dies, but he can't seem to grasp the depths of everyone else's sadness.
Rain watched his pack cry. He watched Aether, the steadiest of them all, fall to pieces. He watched something bright and beautiful be snuffed out of Mountain's eyes. He watched Dewdrop go alarmingly quiet, scarily tense, and quickly retreat before something raw and ugly could make itself visible. Rain watched every second of it like an outsider looking in.
Nothing he could say would ease the sting or lighten the burden, honestly it felt like when he tried he only made things worse. His attempts at comfort are dry and almost disingenuous. Rain pulls away for everyone else's sake, allow them to mourn without his seemingly callous demeanor.
He goes quiet, fearing every word will come out wrong and misinterpreted. He stops meeting other's gazes, unable to stomach the glassy sorrow he can do nothing to fix.
He avoids. He withdraws. He makes himself scarce.
And he loathes every second of it. Not because he's angry at anyone else, they have every right to their pain after all. It is a frustration that roots itself deep in his chest, growing inward and tangling up in his ribs. Rain loves his pack more than the world, more than all of Hell could ever understand, but he feels he can do nothing for them, and that is what angers him - this awful useless feeling.
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sorry about that last rambling post, i didnt mean to sound like its worse than it may be, but i got no ... lense to view it through but my own, and the main reason i wrote it out anyway was bc i needed to get it out (even if posting it might be not the greatest idea) .. and bc it kinda showcases, i think, how my stories kinda write themselves, involuntarily in a way? its not like im not putting in any effort- but its like .. i cant STOP it always keeps going and even the dumbest idea stays in some form, its very hard to get everything in place bc theres so much going on all the while i am very slow at making anything, writing or drawing anything, especially anythign coherent is very hard bc not only do i get constantly distracted, i get distracted by my own thoughts suddendly skipping to a certain scene and me having to go throguh imagining in detail NO MATTER how many times i have done it before for the same scene that i already decided on how it goes, when theres a new idea it can take over my entire day bc i cant let go of it-
not trying to sound either like im the only that has that sort of problem, but i think its a big part as of why i start tso many projects without being able to finish them, or even start them bc i constantly have to fight my own thoughts from derailing into another daydream session, thinking of too much too fast than i can ever draw or even write about and not knowing what is worthwhile and what isnt (im telling you i have no idea what is good and what isnt, idk why but for all i know all things i do could be trash, or they all could be bad, maybe the one i thinnk is decent is actually worse than the things i deem not good enough and once i start to think no this isnt good enough i stop having fun making or thinking it bc im trying to do better
honestly its kind of impressive that i can get anything out at all, not to pat myself on the back there but even if i hate how long it takes me, considering how much im having to work just to start working on something at all, the fact that i could post stuff coherent enough for some people to understand AND LIKE is something i should be a little more proud of
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i keep thinking about how “is this what justice means to you, answer me neuvillette”, despite having been used in a case all those hundred of years ago, was probably a question that haunted - and still haunts - neuvilette during the entire time he has been chief of justice. i keep thinking about how they highlighted his struggles through time with both carole and wriothesley's trials. how guilty and powerless neuvillette must have felt for not being able to support and save those he recognised as vulnerable and victims before a system that corrupted their fates but that he wasn't able to change despite his position. the theme of being a casualty of a system no matter if you're the victim or the perpetrator in its eyes. the way neuvillette took, in both cases, things into his own hands. even if it was too late to fix the hurting carole and those who cared for her went through, even if it was too late to save her life; even if it was impossible to change wriothesley's past, his verdict and subsequent imprisonment; neuvillette went above and beyond, making use of his influence, to allow both melusines and wriothesley the opportunity of a better future - to melusines by making sure they weren't discriminated, to wriothesley by supporting his attempt at a second chance in life. i think part of the reason he's so intriguing is our awareness that this internal conflict he's bound to have is so complex. you have a chief of justice, or a judge, that is supposed to be imparcial and follow the law stictly confronted with situations of social injustice, unable to protect those who rely on him. you have someone who understands better than anyone what it means to be an outcast, being able to relate to those who are ostracised and have their pain weaponise against them. you have, in vautrin's case, a friend who cannot even showcase his own pain and is still expected to fullfil his juridical duties despite being personally related with those involved in the case. someone who people constantly turn to but whom he feels like he has no right to turn to himself. it's about the conflict between his feelings and his duty, between what's expected of him and what he can actually do. i think that's why the end of his story quest is so emotional and why it's so heartwarming to have him realise he isn't an outcast anymore, that he has a community there for him too. because a system is a system and he will probably never be able to save everyone, because yes he isn't human, but it doesn't mean he doesn't deserve to belong or that an active demonstration of love towards individuals and people he can relate to rather than the theoretical concept of humanity isn't meaningful. in fact, i'd it's a lot about that, about finding ways to be kind and how community gives meaning to life; how personal relationships and targeted kindness can shape society, or at least i think so
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people who insist on reducing all gender & sexual issues under white supremacist capitalist patriarchy to misogyny are a lot like class reductionists.
guys. no one is saying that class isn't fundamental to these antagonisms we observe. (maybe some are but that's....fairly detached from reality).
but why do class struggle, or misogyny, keep getting used to eclipse the racialized & colonial aspects of collective struggle, or undercut nuances within trans discourse?
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Its so strange enjoying a series where both the fandom and the creator. APPARENTLY. Dont know the characters.
Watching fans make remus in2 this Silly Guy, when his character is so much more than that, & making him into "intrusive thoughts", even though that's not what his trait is canonically. & being like "goodness, these fans. Im gonna turn on sanders si—" & then thomas & co r ALSO making him in2 a Silly Guy & reducing his character into "intrusive thoughts" despite having a 40 minute long video abt him & intrusive thoughts
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interesting that khuzdul doesn't have a 'th' sound when a lot of the most famous 'outer' names (originally from mannish dialects) the dwarves choose to use specifically do use that sound (thorin, thrain, thror, etc.)
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meanwhile my experience with being asexual is just like. constant self hatred and apologizing about it
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Hey I'm like actually so mad about how Stan's suicide was portrayed in the movies and yes I've been mad about it before but it's hitting me again.
Like fuck no, he didn't kill himself to fucking help anyone.
The ONLY reason they beat IT the first time was because Stan was there. Because all seven of them were there. And he knows that.
But he also wasn't trying to sabotage them.
He was scared. He's been traumatized. His worldview was shattered by the events of his childhood.
His suicide really isn't surprising, and not just because it's shown in the very beginning of the book and the beginning of the second movie.
There is a ton of foreshadowing leading up to it. There are hints and clues.
Stan's death was an action he made because he was scared. He was afraid. It was a part of his character arc. (That feels like a poor choice of words, but I currently can't think of any better ones.) He did it to save himself from a fate that he believed would be worse than dying.
So don't romanticize it.
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Feeling kinda anxious about this so justed wanted to put it out there again that I am able bodied and don't know a whole lot of physically disabled people irl, so if I ever do anything weird in depicting disabled characters (canon, OC, headcanon, wtv) please let me know and/or generally give me advice and point me in the right direction!
(preferably nicely because I am kind of very anxious, but if I'm being a jerk even on accident you obviously owe me nothing on that front!)
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Lemmy again
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tried to take a day off from writing. still woke up at 5am. let’s write then 😈🔥
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look, i know cheesy mostly answered that liam would listen to metal 1) because he was put on the spot and 2) likely because its funny to imagine liam ‘literally just some Standard Guy’ plecak as listening to music far more intense than he is, but tbh?? it is so fitting. like yeah, thats abt right for him. i cant even figure out how to explain how/if it coincides w what we see of him but like. its just the truth
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me, tiredly thinking, what if aphrodite kinda had like that thing like in the sil.ent hi.ll f trailer where flowers just grow everywhere but they hurt people. maybe...depending on her mood :thonk: but especially in her transformed form too. thinking about her charming people n making them dance toward her :') pretty n scary
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going to be real i don't know how i could stomach going to work lately if i didn't know the 'higher ups' at the place i work at are pro palestine and one of them has told me so himself more than once
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