#if they don't i'm going to be angry

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Don't Lose Your Head.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin guangyao #nie mingjue #blood #violence #I'm sorry not sorry about what I said - don't lose your head! #And with that - We are BACK to it baby! #NMJ has canonically been a very angry catboy this entire time (PD-MDZS canon). #The source of his resentment? Being forced to put on the cat ears. #There's an implication here that JGY was also forced to put on the cat ears and I don't have answers for that. Maybe so. #There's just a lot of resentful energy in this room rn. Oh god no paperxian is getting dragged into it. Oh No he's having a flashback! #I was going to have wwx's actual face be one of comedic horror but something about the un-emotive paperman got me laughing #so it stayed as it is. #It was tempting to put 'So no head?' as the caption but alas...the point is that there very much *IS* a head here.

[uncanny-tranny]

Whenever people who are entrenched in diet culture talk about how terrible chemicals are, I just want to whip out this:

#diet culture #diet culture tw #described images #image description in alt #'it's got CHEMICALS in it' and so do you! and me too! IT'S ALL CHEMICALS ALL THE WAY DOWN #instead of running from this world we must learn to embrace it #i'm not particularly angry at people who say this because it makes me think that they're incredibly invested in diet culture... #...i just don't want the whole 'food = bad' or 'bodies = bad' to go unchallenged... #...part of the reason why diet culture seems just as prevalent now (if not moreso) is partially because it isn't really... #...challenged or questioned without provocation. it's just assumed to be correct because it makes you 'feel in control' #when chemicals are bad you can control what chemicals you consume. it's individualistic and places the blame onto you for 'being good' #it places responsibility onto the person in such a way that it becomes impossible to fulfill #it isn't that i'm upset that people want to treat their bodies in a way they think is responsible... #...moreso that the *way* they go about it ensures that they're stuck in a cycle of self-blame and even self-hatred #because the METHOD is ineffective. not the desire to treat your body well #also the state of ohio looks stupid and i do Not respect it #it looks like a ball that is simultaneously deflated and over-inflated #also their state flag looks silly to me #it looks like the person who was making it fell asleep making it #i'm just clowning on ohio at this point. have never been to ohio but. are you guys okay

[ride-a-dromedary]

Halsin would tell you to go touch grass but mean it 100% sincerely.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #Halsin #go touch some grass and maybe you'll calm down #and someone just reacting so negatively to that like well you don't need to be sassy #and halsin is like ??? i'm..i'm telling you to go outside and it'll make you feel better? #i keep imagining halsin sneaking out of the elfsong to go hide in the park because it's the closest he can get to feeling #even remotely comfortable in the city and you just find him on his back staring at the peeks of sky and he looks so much better #than he did when his shirt collar was choking him and the pavement beneath him felt like a death sentence #i feel like people really get on his case for being so upset in the city and criticizing it but like...the man is literally wilting there #he's suffocating - it's like...well...like putting a bear in a cage #and expecting him to perform for you #he will be angry and wounded and try to escape #and only when you've completely throttled him into submission - broken him completely - will he stop fighting you

[iamumbra195]

Live picture of my reaction every time I see someone make a headcanon that Tyler is an irresponsible student like this kid isn't trying his best to keep his grades up really high while being a star athlete to get a college scholarship, despite being stuck in a nightmare dimension with creatures that want to kill him for seven whole hours every day and not knowing if he or his sister will survive long enough to actually have a future:

#i'm going to commit a murder #if ppl don't stop mischaracterizing him #like him and taylor are both responsible students that are working hard towards their future #why is that so hard to understand #Like NO #HE WOULD NOT SKIP ASSIGNMENT TO GO HAVE FUN #DID NONE OF THESE PPL READ CHAPTER 48 & 49 #THIS MAN HASN'T HAD FRIENDS OR FUN UNTIL VERY RECENTLY #HIS PRIORITY WAS TAKING CARE OF HIS FAMILY AND MAKING SURE HE AND TAYLOR BOTH HAVE A FUTURE #I'm done ranting now #sorry #this isn't directed at anyone specific #I was just angry so no bullying #school bus graveyard #school bus graveyard webtoon #sbg #sbg (webtoon) #tyler hernandez #taylor hernandez #hernandez twins

[rabbitprayer]

No desire to convert to catholicism but the desire to kind of pretend that no schisms ever happened.

#[sigh] and we'll pray that our unity will one day be restored and they'll know we are christians by our love #txt #It's the bi-monthly angst about denominations don't mind me #whichever church I'm attending I know it's better than my very bleak new age era so it's not worth getting too upset over I suppose #what do you do when the UCC is too reformed and not litergical enough but catholics don't like gays or ordain women and episcopalians #make me angry because they like to ignore the atrocities they orchestrated in the southern united states and honestly every single #denomination has blood on their hands from various atrocities and ugh #too transgender for orthodoxy also #the eastern orthodox church in my city says that women can't wear pants that aren't obviously pants meant for women #so I can't check it out #I will keep going to my UCC church

[transmechanicus]

Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.

#my stuff #i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks #like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy #hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month? #can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control #can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me? #and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone #so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks #im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better #i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up #cause i can see that happening #i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something #and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends. #and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you #i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once. #and that's not me. that's not who I want to be. #i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.

[st-el-la-luna]

Thinking about König

Mainly, thinking about his anxiety being like my anxiety. It's social anxiety but more than the "oh no, people, scary!" That people tend to generalize it as.

That's not to say that it isn't like that. Yes, people are intimidating, especially large groups of them. Or if you're being put in a command position. Or if you're in a position to be judged... Which is most situations. (Public speaking, especially for school projects is especially bad).

But it's not just shyness. It's also the aversion.

Walking through the halls, with a dead sort of stare. Not intentionally intimidating, but it's very much a resting bitch face, look at me and I'll kill you sort of expression.

Saying as little as possible to people he's not comfortable with.

"yes."

"no."

"I don't like that."

"I don't want to."

"we are not friends."

Staring so intently at people that it unsettles them.

"-and that's why I think... Why... It's... Is everything okay, Colonel?"

"Ja, why?"

"You're, uh... You're looking very intently."

"This is just how I look. Eye contact is important."

"uhh... Right, it's just... I haven't seen you blink?"

"I blink when you blink."

Like, yes, of course there are situations where he gets mousy voiced or sweaty palms. But not at work, no. At work he's able to conjure up, maybe not confidence, but something.

At a restaurant though? Speaking softly, making himself small, saying please and thank you after every sentence. It doesn't matter what the server does, he's always soft spoken and polite, nervous. If he asks for no pickles and they bring him his dish with pickles, he'll eat it. If he orders a chicken sandwich and they bring him a burger, he'll eat it. If he tells them that he has a deadly peanut allergy and they bring him a tub of peanut butter... He'll send that back, but he'll be polite about it.

"Oh, ja, I'm sorry, I... This isn't what I ordered. Oh, no, no, it's okay, don't apologize. I'm sorry. You're busy. It's fine, I understand."

Sometimes during mission briefs he will randomly growl and smack his fist on the table. People think he's mad at them and straighten up, stop sipping so loud, on their best behaviour. He actually just got mad at himself, remembered something embarrassing from his past.

He almost acts like a narcissist. Passes by a mirror, winks at his reflection: "How's it going, good looking?"

Makes jokes about being the pretty one. People think he's full of himself.

He actually hates himself but has replaced negative self talk with show boating. He doesn't hate himself any less, but he tells himself to kill himself way less often!

Always has some sort of plan. An escape route, a plan of attack. Watching the people around him nervously.

Sits in the back of the room so he can watch everybody. Sits with his chair pushed far back so he can stand quicker.

Glares at people who walk by. Gives their dogs heart eyes. Prays that the owners realize and ask him if he wants to say hello. He's too awkward to ask permission. And he's too angry looking for people to offer.

Represses lots of anger from incidents he feels he can't lash out in, goes batshit in training or on missions. (I used to do kick boxing, the gym people had to keep coming up to me and moving my punching bag back because I was hitting it too hard).

The kind of person to, when going to someone's house, immediately look for signs of a pet. If he finds it. The animal is now his best friend. Goes to a party hangs with the dog type of beat.

Thinks smoking pot would help him. But the idea makes him nervous. Which he thinks, smoking pot would help... But the idea of smoking pot makes him nervous. But he–

Will just lie to get out of shit.

"Hey, we're going to get drinks tonight, do you want to come?"

"ah, I can't... I promised to get dinner with a friend."

Goes home and enjoys a night alone.

Avoidant. Will just not do things that cause him stress. Hasn't been to the dentist in years because talking to the lady at reception makes him nervous. What if the phone signal is bad? What if it just keeps breaking up? What if she can't understand his accent? What if when he gets to the dentist they hate him for the state of his teeth? What if he goes to the dentist and they steal his teeth?! It's happened before! He's seen articles!

Gets adopted by extroverts by being unhinged.

"Hey, what are you thinking about?" Horangi asks.

"I heard that human meat tastes like pork... The best pork, actually." König says absently.

"Huh... And you know this why?"

"I was curious."

"okay... Let's go to dinner."

"Ja, let's."

A sort of dry air about him that comes off as a lack of empathy. But he's just got so much going on in his brain that he can't focus on emoting anything but augghskft.

Will stare off into space with a blend of the hundred yard stare and the most murderous expression known to man. He's not mad. He's just thinking.

Undiagnosed autism

Forgets people's names, gets to nervous to ask again. So he just calls everyone "you".

Acts cold and indifferent. He just really hates small talk, doesn't understand it. Why say something if it's not important? He doesn't care about your grandchildren. Or your wife. Or your morning.

Is the world's best host mainly out of fear. Asking if you need food or a drink or a blanket or if–

König who after confrontations, has to take a step back, hands shaking slightly. But who's also still super pissed and ready to throw punches at the drop of a hat

König who worries so much about physical affection that it just becomes too much. Hugs are suffocating, hands are held too tight, cuddling is like being smothers. But it takes him a long time to initiate anything. God forbid you initiate anything. Hug the man and he bluescreens

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#shout out to the time i was seeing a therapist #she asked me why i was always wearing a mask #i work around sick people and go to university #lots of diseases #she complained that she couldn't tell what i was thinking #forgot my mask one day and she was like #“Still can't tell what you're thinking” #she also kept stopping and getting really nervous #shifting in her seat #asking me if everything is okay #tells me I'm looking “very intense and angry” #meanwhile i was just looking at her #or that time i was told I'm intimidating because i “walk fast and don't smile” #like #ive got places to be #and i dont want to be here #or there #the quicker i get there the quicker I'm over with it #konig #call of duty #cod #cod modern warfare #konig call of duty #konig headcanons #cod headcanons #cod mwii #cod x reader #call of duty x reader #konig x reader

[kedreeva]

hello i’m sorry, i’m so sorry (I’mnotsorry) but has anyone written about the scars Steve is definitely going to have in a thin ring around the base of his throat from the demobat’s tail?

Those aren’t just bruises, in the first image you can see raised, damaged skin. Abrasions at the least, from the demobat gripping and shifting and sliding as it tightened its grip. Filthy abrasions, too, being from the Upside Down. Animal injuries are dirty. I have scars from YEARS ago that were small scratches at the time, discolorations now. I was scratched by a goose once when I was 10, and that minor injury remained lashed over the back of my thumb for well over a decade. I have thin, pale discolorations of my forearms right now from over 8 years ago, made by a the slip of a bird’s foot. A small circle between my pointer and middle finger from when I was bitten in high school, 20 years ago by a rescue parrot while I was helping out. Animals, even our mundane ones, have bacteria of all sorts that can become minorly infected and cause healing to take longer, to cause scarring to form. I can’t even imagine how much worse an injury from something in the Upside Down is.

I’ve seen fics where they talk about the one on his side, but these are the delicate ones I want to see mentioned. These are the ones I want to see Eddie touch with reverence for the horror of it, with respect for the fear that had come with them. The ones I want to see Steve draw in a too-quick breath when they’re touched, because he remembers the rough tail wrapped around his throat, dragging him down to his death, strangling the air from him. The one that bit him hurt him, this one made him panic, if only briefly. This one made him vulnerable to the others. These are the ones everyone is going to see, day to day. The ones he has to live with constantly instead of only with himself. The ones he’s gonna touch, himself, absently.

and i’m just curious if anyone else has written about them, or if I’m gonna have to do it myself

#stranger things #injury for ts #steve harrington #steddie #i'm not sure I'm gonna wait for an answer #even though I am still horrifically angry #and clearly just ignoring what happened in some respects #eddie is FINE by the way #in the hospital down the hall from Max and FINE #fine enough that he's going to hobble down the hall and sit by her #when no one else can/is around #because visiting hours may be over but he's a patient still #and he wants to be close to the only other person there that actually KNOWS #what really happened #even if she's unconscious #maybe BECAUSE she is #guarding her in his exhaustion because Vecna came for her already #and he won't let anything happen to people again #I don't have feelings at all shut up #hes FINE #everyone is going to be FINE

[mspaint-flower]

yaaay requests are back :DD could you do flower (or len) from kyuutenchokka automation?

why so mad

#vflower #v4 flower #v4flower #vocaloid #vocaloid flower #my art #ms paint #i can hardly type that name i don't think i'm going to tag it #my only guess of this song's meaning is len does stupid things at school and flower is angry #like my sister said.... #(i did read the lyrics but i believe in aroace flower supremacy) #btw i know this request is like a month old at this point GOD I'M SO SLOW 😭😭

[duusheen]

The funeral

#ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #ts4 legacy challenge #ts4 screenshots #the light is AWFUL i'm sorry it was cloudy af (╯‵□′)╯︵┻━┻ #anyway that was the spoiler 💔 #Leif has always had the emotional intelligence of a rock lol #He's sad about the passing of his parents and he's hurt and angry because Jay has chosen to show his face NOW in this moment #But instead of TALKING to Jay like a mature grown-up man (which he isn't) he decides he's going to act like an asshole #Nothing new just Leif being Leif I guess #Have you seen Hope there? #She's not scared of Leif but of hearing her daddy talk in that tone #Jay has a special tone for Leif not exactly a growl but clear enough for everyone listening that he's not happy with the man's presence #this is part 1 of 3 btw 👀👀 #I love Jay's profile. I have 6000 pictures of his profile I don't know why I just like how he looks 😩 #pollock legacy #gen4 #jay pollock #miracle holm #leif pollock #hope pollock

[gideonisms]

the Immediate switch from "this is bearable" to "I wanna kms" any time my boss switches up the schedule by an hour at random (happens weekly)

#i feel like i am using 100% of my energy surviving and it's been that way for years #i can't think of anything better to try for. my brain just doesn't do that most of the time #i just don't even know what it would feel like if things were better or what i want #i don't have that in me #friends and family are wondering why i can't move on or set goals or get better or seem happier. and i just. #everything has to come out of something else if i do the laundry it comes out of the energy i have to go out #if i go out i lose the energy i have to feel okay while i'm at work #if i watch a show or read it comes out of my do the dishes energy #if i try to message people on dating apps it comes out of my work social energy storage and i get weird #if i do job apps or my taxes it comes out of the emotional regulation energy and i get angry unexpectedly #i just can't find a way to have more energy i have tried everything and i'm still so tired

[rainbluealoekitten]

can you imagine how betrayed by god lancelot must have felt after elaine raped him? because here is this knight who is just trying to do the right thing by saving a lady and it turns out that she will not take no for an answer, despite his love for the queen. she rapes him, and lancelot literally goes mad. he runs wild in the forest for two whole years as a trauma response. he tried to do a good thing and gets rewarded with this? and god really is behind it because the rape had to happen to conceive galahad. galahad, who is named after lancelot, who is grandson of the grail keeper, who will grow up to be god's most faithful servent. of course it had to happen one way or another. but there is only one other figure lancelot worships as reverentially as he does god, and that is guinevere, and he must believe he's betrayed her, that he's committed the ultimate sin. but it was all god's will. but lancelot continues to try and keep faith with the lord, and the lord keeps punishing him. for his love for the queen, he is expelled from god's graces and who takes up the quest for the holy grail? galahad. lancelot was never good enough for god, so he was manipulated to create someone who was. it makes me sick.

#maybe i'm just adding in too many of my own interpretations #it's definitely because i'm still so so so angry at having been assaulted 2 months ago #and then abandoned by the one person i have ever truly been in love with #and who i truly trusted to protect me and keep me safe #i don't even get a Bigger Reason behind that like lance and galahad have #but whatever. cast from god's graces and not allowed to go mad in the forest for 2 years #so i simply must explore ancient knights' psyches #blue screams into the void #lancelot #sir lancelot #le morte d'arthur #king arthur #queen guinevere #guinevere #the knight of the cart #elaine of corbenic #galahad #sir galahad

[anna-scribbles]

maryssa @carpisuns has been one of my best friends for over two years now, and I just want to take a second to talk about how wonderful she is and how much of a joy it is to know her. 

I first knew maryssa as an incredibly talented author, and then as an incredibly talented artist, and then as a dear friend. she is so wildly intelligent, thoughtful, kind, and funny that it’s so hard to picture my life now without her in it. hardly a day has gone by in the last several years that maryssa hasn’t made me cackle the ugliest laughter or made me want to start crying from her insanely thoughtful encouragement. she doesn’t take herself too seriously which is fun and refreshing but also sometimes makes me want to shake her by the shoulders and shout, “do you know?? do you know how incredible you are???” because she is. maryssa brightens up my life in such a unique way; it is so obvious how genuine her care is for the people around her. 

the notion that maryssa is selfish in any capacity is genuinely ludicrous to anyone who actually knows her. literally last month I mentioned offhandedly in our group chat that I was feeling stressed about money, and the next day I saw maryssa had sent me $60 through kofi which helped me pay for gas that month. any time any artist we know opens commissions, maryssa is first in line because she has such a genuine love for supporting her friends, both with a constant stream of encouragement as well as with her resources. she’s taught me so much by her example of generosity and thoughtfulness. maryssa is an extremely talented and highly educated writer and editor and has offered up her english skills to help me on so many occasions, just because she is kind. she’s listened to me talk about the dumbest things on my mind as well as the important things, and has always - since day one - treated me with kindness and respect. she treats everyone like that. 

when I think about what it means to be an encouragement, I think of maryssa. when I think about what it means to love people well, I think of maryssa. when I think about what it means to be brave, I think of maryssa. I wish that anyone who thinks they can know everything about a stranger from a few labels in their bio could have an ounce of the character maryssa has - that they could learn to be half as kind as she is. you don’t know anyone’s story until you’ve lived it. and how inspiring it is to me that maryssa has lived her story and come through it so kind and strong and brave. how grateful I am that I get to know her. 

#anna rambles #I don't get angry easily but I was feeling pretty angry today. #been seeing a lot of lies about maryssa that I don't appreciate. so I decided i'm just going to tell the truth #I love maryssa a whole lot. she means the world to me. #i'm really lucky to know her #I think she's off tumblr right now but send her some love if you can #she's great. she's really really great

[releasedfromthedream]

still have a ticket to the used in manchester 04/12/23 available please someone fucking buy it. £35 paypal. physical ticket i will post to your house. please.

#i need money and i'm still fucking angry i can't go and One person said they'd buy it then bought from someone else and i don't know what to #do #it's up on twickets if you'd prefer to buy it there #the used

[taegularities]

some men are textbook villains fr

#tw religion? #kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on #some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago #liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not #tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much #i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different #things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how #id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet #but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that #and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on #you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding #things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc #life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam #me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you' #AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you' #even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that' #and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone #(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it) #(nothing even ever started you bitchass) #also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it #mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal.. #but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared #my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN #'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean #i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective #but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back #and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever #anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol #def gonna delete later #but ty for reading if u did <3

[captainjonnitkessler]

"American individualism has a lot of problems and can lead to a loss of supportive community networks" - true, a problem worth talking about

"Individualism is a poison and anyone who wants to maintain a level of independence from their family, culture, or community is suspect" - BAD. WRONG AND BAD. THIS IS EXTREME CONSERVATISM DRESSED UP IN A PROGRESSIVE HAT

#the immediate backlash to anything perceived as american culture on this site is wild #like . . . the general idea on this site of 'community' as an inherent good that is always supportive #as though the concept of community hasn't constantly driven bigotry and fear and hatred of 'outsiders' #as though people throughout history haven't been forced to conform to all sorts of gender and class and social roles #'for the good of the community' #and obviously i'm not trying to swing the other way here. communities ARE important. support networks ARE important. #but they're not like. inherently progressive? #this is specifically about a comment on a post about unions in which someone claimed your individual voice isn't important in a union #YES IT IS. YES IT FUCKING IS OH MY FUCKING GOD #YOU NEED TO GO TO YOUR UNION MEETINGS AND MAKE YOUR VOICE HEARD. UNIONS ARE NOT MAGICAL ENTITIES WHO WILL SIMPLY SOLVE ALL YOUR PROBLEMS #YOU HAVE TO PARTICIPATE AND YOU HAVE TO MAKE SURE THAT YOUR UNION *IS* ACTUALLY REPRESENTING YOU PROPERLY #and like . . . you're allowed to be angry at decisions your union makes! i'm mad at my union all the fucking time! #i will ABIDE by the union's decision but I DON'T have to be happy about it and I'm DEFINITELY allowed to kick up a fuss if I want!