#if they dont get tired from walking

[spotsupstuff]

Does Caper self-project onto his puppet? Even if just sometimes (Talking about the iterator cabin fever). Just curious since he'd have to interact with Sparrows through it and I'm wondering if that would do much.

ah! i thought about this as one of the first things when considerin their relationship!

Sparrows makes it a point to always bully him off of his puppet like the good Iterator Mechanic/Admin that she is (when they aren't havin a Cuddle Session). when they learnt about these type of things back in school, it actually all horrified her So much that one of her projects was a detailed exploration of ways to prevent mental sicknesses like that. it was... all "too" humane, according to the teachers, so much so that she got a bad grade. she uses these methods with Euros either way tho, gotta make sure her boy is as healthy as he can be

it does often end up with her sitting on the floor of his chamber with the puppet suspended above her, unresponsive, while she converses essentially with an empty room. it sometimes fucks her up a lil cuz like that there is nothing shielding her from the reality of an Iterator's sheer merciless size. it's a one hell of a mindfuck. Euros keeps making fun of her whenever she spaces about it a lil n she kicks one of his walls in response

here's their most common set up for interaction

one of the preventive methods for Iterator cabin fever Sparrows came up with is basically forcefully taking one of their Overseers (ideally capable of live feed to the rest of the Iterator- Euros Can do that since he's in the Phone Operator Guild) for a walk like a doggy. can't get a cabin fever if u take in the sights and get to interact with your caretaker/friend, Boy

#Spot says stuff #rw #oc tag #oc: three sparrows #oc: caper of euros #all IMs make sure the iterators dont fall (TOO) deep into mental illnesses like the cabin fever thing #after the ancients are all gone tho? -eyes Euros- yeaaaaa he gets a bit too focused on his puppet. #n hey lookit!! Sparrows with an actual design at last the fuck!!!!! u can tell i was fuckin dyin at the end of the comic there #so fuckin tired... either way yea the point of the walk combod with live feed is takin the Iterators attention away from their little box #'you are more than that love!!! you are this small thing in my backpack and you are the big thing under my feet. feel through it.'

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[dishsaop]

does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing & #digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right) #and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh) #I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost. #anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic) #meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough. #im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY. #like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'

[smokeys-house]

I never really talk about my fursona too often bc I don't really have much reason to but I do have thoughts™️ about her to share from time to time. I don't really commission art of her either bc my moomin oc sorta takes then spotlight there and I've got so much story and lore for her whereas my fursona is just sorta. She was found in an arcade claw machine buried under everything else and though she looks handmade she does have a little fabric tag but the only thing on it is a small heart on both sides. That's about it story wise for now

#smokey talks #i dont even have a tag for her yet but her names just smokey cause its me so #shes a lil plushie but #she can be varying degrees of plushie from her normal mostly inactive form as a small ordinary stuffed animal up to #like. an almost furry like plushie that can talk and walk and do stuff yknow. but she cant be like that for a long time cuz she gets tired #sorta to represent me being disabled and not always able to talk #or move and do stuff. etc #anyway ignore me im just rambling thinking about her

[suffarustuffaru]

just so we’re clear about how tappei has a Type when it comes to who he wants to make the mc of rezero…..

#rezero #heinkel astrea #natsuki subaru #every time i make these venn diagrams they get both better and worse HAH #OK IF YOU DONT KNOW AGANAU IF. its an if route from the lost in memories mobile game #what essentially happens is that subaru doesnt die after the arc 3 loop where rem plays Twister and he carries her body back. subaru walks #a different path from the one going back to the mansion. so rems dead and subaru lives for another twenty years. shit gets a little wild and #subaru is now gritty and tired and more cringe fail. #as you do in these if stories. #i forgot to add that they have family expectations issues but yall already know that and im lazy to remake this HAH…. #maybe subaru has a divine protection guys. the divine protection of having a loving family. #a loving found family too. just as a bonus. just to rub it in. #hes the main character bc hes everyones manic pixie dream girl fr. who else could do it like him?? no one.

[mellomadness]

sometimes I wonder if I should take a gender studies class just so I can bitch every day about how an imaginary boyfriend is often seen as a requirement for a woman to feel safe enough to have fun at a club, or the idea that an imaginary person with a fake “claim” over me has more influence over predatory men than my own voice saying “No, I’m not interested, get lost”

#venting #hnnnnng the double standard is really really making my teeth hurt recently #(in that I’m grinding my jaw at the mere thought of this particular breed of injustice) #I honestly miss going out with my friends. I miss going to bars and clubs and enjoying the night #but I wanna go with my friends and leave my boyfriend at home for once #he gets to go out and enjoy himself all the time with his friends and they never even have to deal with unwanted flirtation #meanwhile I go out in a tshirt and jeans and get fucking catcalled or flirted with just fucking getting groceries #and it’s not a narrative on beauty or anything. it’s about men’s perception of women #specifically predatory men and men who don’t realize they’re BEING predatory #perhaps it’s because I’ve been going to this fucking gamer school for far too long #and I’ve interacted with so many socially inept/incel men from there #who don’t know what no means or dont take women seriously when they do say no #or they literally cannot read between the lines of a woman politely declining their advances #‘but she was being so nice to me’ yeah bc if she wasn’t you’d either call her a bitch or try to force her anyway #anyway. I’m angry #im tired of living in fear of morons #I’m tired of not being able to go out on a Tuesday night and just walk the town with my friends #specifically my femme friends #we should be at the club!! instead we’re trying to make sure the group is like a school of fish so we’re less of a target #and like. I could talk about this on twt or reddit but. cmon. let’s be real here #MelloMoans #really does feel like we’re going backwards when it comes to gender equality and feminism #especially with the influx of the whole sigma male/high value male bullshit #I understand how it came to be I really do but that plus the whole pick me girl thing is just another toxic view of gender identity #and all it has resulted in on both sides is a wider degree of separation between the genders #therefore allowing both extremes to dehumanize every one that doesn’t identify as sigma male or not like other girls YET AGAIN #(and therefore also opens up the door for dehumanizing lgbtq+ folks but. let’s be real. that hasn’t really gone away yet :/

[autism-corner]

guy is noticing his depression coming back, but will not do anything about it.

#idk ive been diagnosed with dysthymia which was sold to me as mild but longlasting depression etc. #as i was in the process of leaving my psychiatrist she told me it was at that moment in recession =w=b #but one main thing im seeing now is that im skipping school again. (+ the horrors but we dont talk about those) #skipping school isnt BAD and all. and i do genuinely think its for the better but. that might just be the depression voice talking =3= #anyway i know itll get better again. hopefully soon. #augh also one thing i noticed is. the sleepy. getting back. #its been a while since ive had afternoon naps but now..... they sure are happening. #and these suck a bit more bc often i get home at 4pm which is in my mind too late to have a comfy nap. #yesterday and also a couple days ago i napped from like 8pm-9pm. which isnt really helping my sleep :) #but its not like i could STAY AWAKE or something. i HAD to sleep. #:/ #anyway its not like i can actually do something big about it... #maybe i should take a walk more. hm. #but my knees.... and the tired.... and things i actually have to do..... #sillyposting #yaknow. #=w=b

[rtgame]

i am at my fucking limit

#my mom is drinking again and she's so drunk she just broke a lamp because she's too drunk to walk #and its like. this is so cool. this is so fucking cool i love alcoholism #i am so totally not about to go fucking ballistic #i was gonna stay up for a bit longer because i didnt get out of bed until like. almost 3 #bc i came home from work yesterday to her drinking and it made me super upset so i just hid in bed #but i might just go back to bed. idk. im tired. im frustrated. im upset #i dont know why i bother anymore

[enkephalin3]

weird Feeling Where i have to be with my friends Forever forever yes the now now yay VS and weird I mjst get awah from rhem forevwr and into the C🌊.Beacause in so tired!!Ahhh!!!!!!. and It keeps switching Foreevr Repearedly🍚

#hhh&&+rj{|{{{{{>>>>> #Feel s Lke sometimes i get physically Tired from talking for to Long (Normal thing probably)But i dont like it becauseWANT TO BE Talk with. #With friend foreverrr*Cry**Cry* #Dont know if tbis Normal *Walking ariund in circles* #Ok sleepy Now beacuse Legs hirt bad from going everwher

[becca4leafclover]

I could write an essay on how the MCRP community fundamentally screws over pixel skin artists

I hate sitting in like 4 different corners and feeling like NO ONE actually cares about my work

#once again thank you aphmau for normalizing stupid techniques within mcrp production #this is mostly about the overwhelming preference for HD skins within mcrp / mctv communities #and the assumption that pixel skins are 'lesser' to HD skins or only good for WIPs for HD later #but it does also apply to the fact that mcyt skin artist communites can barely get their own work recognized even when a cc wears it #people looooooveee block game but hate the art communities that keeps it going! #dont even get me started on the disrespect modders get when people offer to pay scammy forks for faster updates than the modmaker themself #im just tired of people saying that my 128x skins are overrated when theyre complimenting flat-shaded shaky-lineart HD skins #with a 64x hair base probably taken from planetminecraft #like the doublestandard is CRAAAAZZYYYY #its a catch 22 of the HD asset set monopoly default drives off potential new pixel skin artists from the mcrp/mctv community #but those skin artists cant find a place thats not being walked over in the broader mcyt community that needs skins way less often than mcrp #for the record this is from someone active in hermitcraft/empires/qsmp and was origins mcrp backstage and still helps with mcrp projects #and who makes both 64x64 and 128x128 skins and whos made HD skins in the past #hc/empires/qsmp fanbases not the actual backstage of those #this isnt brought about anything in particular except being in 2 mcrp production servers that only promote HD skins #and some of my personal experiences #becca rambles #minecraft skins #mcrp #mcyt #mctv

[lcevinolusola]

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#its so exhausting being the only level-headed person in house and having to play mediator between my mom and my aunt #my aunt has one bad week at work and she gets PISSED at my mom for not answering her text immediately #and its like bestie my mom was driving home from work how about we calm the fuck down a little bit here #none of this is that serious why are we so pressed about inconsequential nonsense #and she was so pissy with me yesterday for not wanting to go on our daily walk together and like????? #number one she is more than welcome to go by herself if she wants im not stopping her #and number two it rained like HELL earlier in the day and by the time we would have walked the humidity was suffocating #im simply not doing that and i think as a 25 year old adult i am allowed to decide when i walk outside and when i dont #whatever personal rant over im just so tired of her man i really am she can be so nasty for no reason i dont get it #personal

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#you wanna know what i fucking did today? #cleaned inside my freezer. outaide of my fridge. did the dishes. dusted the blinds #cleaned the bathroom sink. took all stuff off the walls. cleaned the microwave. cleaned my bedroom window #cleaned the kitchen baseboards. under the fridge. under the oven #packed up my art supplies and some clothes #cleaned my bathroom door. front door. wiped my bedroom walls. cleaned the bathroom floor #cleaned my stove top. tidied my bedroom floor. and listed my dresser in two facebook sell groups #all within about 2.5 hours #isnt that fuckin wild?? im so tired #oh and i sold my table. i had to get up early for that. and i went for a walk to get a fun little drink #my apartment is starting to get pretty empty. furniture is going and stuff is getting packed into bins. its wack #i need to put my shit furniture by the dumpster. isnt it lovely how we put furniture by the dumpster so others can take it #i mean. the sign by mine says not to put furniture in it. so maybe its just some malicious compliance by putting it next to the dumpster #but ive heard that furniture goes next to the dumpster so that others can take it. thats where i got my desk and my mirror #im gonna miss my desk. its so cute and i love it. but i dont have space. i dont mind getting rid of the other furniture tho #its shit furniture from estate sales that i bought out of necessity #now someone can have my shit furniture if they want it #its kind of fun to see my apartment get emptier and cleaner tho. my moving time is coming up and im so excited #its wild to look at the list of shit i cleaned today. i made a list in my notebook so i could keep track of what i was doing #and its really satisfying to cross stuff off of a list. it takes up almost a whole page length #im exhausted now tho. that was a lot of fucking cleaning #okay bye

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

hands and knees begging myself to be responsible tonight bc i have so much to do but i can feel in my heart irresponsible brain is going to win and im gonna end up drawing and making myself more behind and stressed but like i spent 8 hours researching and writing art history texts at my internship do i fucking want to research for my history class tonight even tho i should so i can let the professor know if my topic is viable? no i want to draw. and like even research aside i need to do dishes and laundry and pack

#which frustratingly the relevant articles are from a journal our school doesn't subscribe to and like i could just ask her to change my topi #but like if i wait until after thanksgiving that is pushing it too close UGH #i hate school #i hate how busy i am right now ugh i was on the phone with my dad and he was like you sound really unhappy and i was like well thing is i #am and like i just have to slog through the rest of this semester but it is a hard slog #call my schedule oatmeal the way its fucking GRUELING #they werent lying that 25hrs a week internship but 1hr walking there and back 5 days a week (so 30 hours time) is a fucking LOT on top of #classes and teaching like im physically sore im tired and burnt out im behind on grading #i love the work im doing at the internship and i love teaching it is just challenging to balance both #and like i knew grad school would be hard and I knew this semester would be hard and i can get through it and i will get through it #i dont even like complaining about it bc like i signed up for this knowingly and i knew what i was committing to and the internship is so s #so helpful for me career wise and i really enjoy it and like my classes are also important career wise #im just constantly treading water but im drowning a little #every like mental health problem i have is being exacerbated #i feel like i have two parts of my brain like rational logical brain that knows what i need to do to get the tasks done and then wild #impulsive fun brain that just wants to goof off and that part of my brain has the steering wheel most of the time and i have to wrestle it #away to get work done anytime im not like in an office #which like yes that is a metaphorical way to describe executive dysfunction but i have not had time to try to get any diagnoses even tho #we've been suspicious for 6 years now

[lupismaris]

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#tired of being resilient tired of just getting by tired of running on fumes tired of it never being enough #i dont remember what it was like to be able bodied and stable anymore. i dont remember what my life was like. #i dont remember a before time. theres only this. only the too tired to drive safely and too much pain to walk the pitch and not enough sleep #too many medications and another to try and are you sure youve tried everything and maybe youre not trying hard enough #cause it's not like youre only a year and change out from two major surgeries and radiation on top of chronic conditions #no you're just not trying hard enough you should have bounced back by now says the chorus and the demons #tbd im just in the depression and self loathing pit this week. rugby season ends next week unless we make playoffs. #and ive barely managed to keep up with practices and barely made the social events because of my chronic illness #which i knew would be the likely outcome of my first season with the club and yet. and yet...