#if you follow me you are now a monster!

[rox-of-iu]

its that time of the week again lads,,,

(spoilers)

from the fic cultivate by @neonghostcat as per usual

#svsss #liushen #cultivate: slow life on a monster infested mountain #im here yet once again to offer everyone my nonsense #anyway one more comment that got cut off while I was taking pics of these #was that i looooove so much sqq (jiu) in this aaa can you tell sjahskjdhas #i love so so much how he is written absolute batsard meow meow I'm holding him like a bug <33333 #jsahdk #anyway sorry to everyone that followed for anything but cultivate but this is what yall getting as of now sorry #im rotating this fic in my brain constantly in between getting my ass handed to me by my studies lol

[semi-completely-original]

i usually don't post art here, but i'm unfortunately shadow banned on my normal apps since i reposted too many palestine updates. oops! i'll try my luck here instead

there's a fem!haikaveh takeover lead on twitter rn and one of the loudest champions of this is my lovely mutual who inspired this outfit by giving me femveh brainworms :3 she is a WOMAN IN STEM!!!!!

#kaveh #genshin kaveh #fem!kaveh #haikaveh #haikavehtham #kavehtham #man it's been so long since i've tried tagging a post normally #on this hellsite at least #i've long forgotten the conventions #i need to reconnect with my roots tbh #i hope this doesn't jumpscare the 3 people who followed me several months ago because i posted a monster high question #i'm actually a genshin fan sorry. my fault tbh #genshin impact #genshin fanart #modern au #my art #aw balls i should come up with my own art tag huh #uhhh. maybe later #if i post more mayhaps #YOU CAN EDIT TAGS AFTER HITTING THE COMMA NOW??? THSTD CRAZY WHAT. WHATTT #it really has been too long #fem!alhaitham #yes theyre lesbians :3

[bees-n-bones]

dungeonFebruary: a retrospective

here they are, all four maps edited together into a single dungeon over two floors!

it was a lot of fun to draw it, highlights (of both rooms and monsters) and further thoughts under the cut :D

first things first; some rooms

(you might need to click on each picture to read/see the whole thing)

just some personal favorites, rooms 15, 21, and 25 are stolen from references to stuff (if you recognize what: <3), 6 and 20 were both really fun to put together, and room 29 is the last possible trap of the dungeon :3

next up; monsters!

the first two are room spesific, the latter three random encounters, hence the numbers being written different, picking out just 5 to share was kinda hard, but im really happy with theese, yet again some of theese are stolen from inspired by stuff

now; for my thoughts on this whole thing

i had a lot of fun drawing and designing this, so much so that im kinda sad to be done, the ritual of sitting down to draw each day or to catch up on a few days was nice, and i really like designing silly little rooms and filling them with references i know my players wont pick up on

i might pick this format back up for a month or two this year and im Definetly doing dungeon25 next year, but im really happy i did this instead of trying to catch up on dungeon24 in full, doing it this way let me figure out stuff like how i want to format my notes for a larger dungeon, how many extra notebooks ill need (one for ideas and one beastiary, for now), and some general design rules for myself

all in all if you have read this far and think it looks kinda fun i say go for it! you dont need to follow a spesific month/year, thats just something i feel like doing, the point is to have a little creative challange to do each day for a set amount of days :D

#dungeonFebruary #dungeon24 #wow this post got long #dungeon designed to work with #into the odd #if you run into the odd and want to steal any of my monsters feel free! #but note that they might be overpowered #ttrpg #ttrpg dungeon #also im super proud that the maps actually line up #you can see the dotted lines where i split the maps between weeks #also also i decided to only pick out highlights bc 1. its a whole month of rooms and 12 monsters in total #and thats a lot to share (and write descriptions for) #and 2. there is a chance i will keep running it wich means some of the people i might run it for are following me here #and i cant spoil all the secrets now can i <3 #(i say as if you cant find every room note in my previous posts)

[therianimal]

Recently I've been talking a bit about how my last psychotic episode had a massive effect on my identity and self image.

I often use Picrew to show how I see myself moreso than how I really look - they're essentially self portaits. I noticed a pattern today when looking through old ones, and decided to compile some for this post. The first image is a compilation I made a couple years ago; the second I made today using pics from a few months ago (during psychosis); the third shows a Picrew maker that I coincidentally used two separate times, once before the episode and once during.

My self image now looks very much like the "before" pics. Now that I'm both out of the episode and medicated I have essentially reverted to who I was before (with slight differences, plus some trauma from the episode itself). This is not meant to represent what psychosis "is" - psychotic people aren't dark or evil, but I thought I was and everything felt so frightening in the moment.

#I'm tagging minimally in the hopes that it will be seen by my followers and not be taken out of context by random people #that said you can reblog if you want #if it breaches containment I'll live with that but it probably wont #for alterhumans who didnt see my prev post about this: #I developed vampire and monster 'types during this episode #endelity or something like that #those identities faded away when the episode did #semi-intrusive thoughts about graphic violence haunted me during this episode #and it made me believe I was evil and corrupted #anyway I'm okay now #i mean okay is relative but #I'm not in active psychosis at least :) #tags for organizational purposes: #blue speaks #blue's psychotic episodeTM

[hensunrik]

mutually destructive unhealthy possessive ships are so...ooough oh my god

oh to be consumed alive by that incessant need blazing agonizingly through their veins the sheer hunger to cut each other up and crawl inside the crevices of each other's body, hopelessly and seamlessly entwining every fibre of their souls until one can no longer tell their beginnings and ends apart

the need to flood and fill up every nook every cranny and fissure driving everything else out until there is no longer even the hint of space left for anyone but each other

to carve one's essence into another's bones, indelible until the winds erode the earth, to drink each other's lifeblood until that thrum of vitality echoes in the innermost hollows of the other's soul, to no longer desire to breathe air unless directly out of each other's lungs, to voraciously feast upon each other's visage, them and only them inasmuch as any other eyes that dare cast their gaze upon either of them shall be gouged out, tongues that pluck up the courage to sing sweet songs of praise will find it turn to ash as they choke and thrash and drown in their own blood, hands that audaciously reach out will find themselves mercilessly severed and ground into dust

(until the wounds they leave on each other scab and scar with a permanence etched on their molecular structure so that it is no longer possible for one to exist without the other)

i'm thinking of people so pathologically frenzied fixated and obsessed the only acceptable death is the one to come by each other's hand. the once sweetness fermenting into a drug so addictive yet so poisonous accompanying them in the next life cycle and then the next, each becoming in turn an ember and a ghost burning feverishly through mist and shadow in hopeless orbit, always watching, always ravenously looking and drinking in, helpless to resist the siren call of falling into each other's path.

to consume and destroy that which you love with your own hands as the ultimate act of devotion.

a vow once spoken like the most tender of caresses in the quiet spaces where gentleness feels indistinguishable from cruelty, now an eternal haunting and companion of torment and ruination trailing the frayed tatters of a bond stubbornly persevering through oblivion and fire and brimstone, to the ends of the world itself,

to collide, to devour, to subsume, to fester, a virulent regrowth

and the cycle starts anew

#help it's the fictional blorbos they have wrestled and gained free reign in my head #this is not the right place to be dumping this but I did not want to post it on twitter and I am still pretending to be normal and sane and #hinged to the people who follow me on main but #ahhhh do you guys feel me. do u feel me #oh the perpetuation of past sins that will never be washed away..... #when each other's continuous existence becomes the embodiment of guilt and sacrilege and the desecration of all that used to be #codependence! corruption! decay! a perversion of everything that used to be pure now irrevocably darkened! mutually assured destruction! #i am you you are me the monster that you made me #the good shit #i love this trope *bangs my fists on my keyboard* I LOVE this trope bite hiss snarl I'm crazy i'm crazy i'm crazy #maybe one day I will write it..

[werelocke]

Did some some ‘beauty and the beast’ type designs for a one shot I did the other day! This is Rhys and they got cursed for hitting a witch with their 2022 sports car 

#Posting art for the bots to look at I guess LMAO #Sorry if you still faithfully follow me here #Unfortunately I post more on Insta now #Also I just dont draw as much [shakes fist at capitalist machine] #My art #My characters #Original Character #OC: Rhys #monster design #creature design #furry #[sorry. being honest]

[sunnydayaoe]

#Ohhh I feel bad for all those who followed me for birdy coontent [all like. two of you] #I don't post many birdies. they usually stick to my sketchbook and between freinds ahaa #I feel emberrassed. this is my first post that breached containment. I thought it was going to be. follow the trend of like #I unno 30 notes? some followers giving me a like and like. 0 reblogs bahaha #thanks though. maybe I'll be posting a lot more birdy stuff from now on. if people actually like it #have some duke though! he is. birdy thing yes? monster? #[guhh.. big monster inspo reblogged the birdy post. it was verry nice. I was super flustered.] #[he reblogs a lotta artists though. so I'm real not that special but. still! it was cool. apperently we're mutuals?? I did not notice.] #wow sorry really put. all this into the tags bahaha #the duke [oc] #<- birdy thing #jbird's art

[kerryweaverlesbian]

Sam trying to inspire a group of hunters against the BMoL: and they've KILLED people.

Really inspiring Sam. Very convinving argument to a room full of killers.

#the inspiring speeches on this show are sooooo corny lmao #however it has righteous music behind it so it works somehow #sam: I fucked up where you all didn't because I'm an idiot who didn't think any further than their party line #of 'a world without monsters' which isn't even what I want bc I am friends with monsters #now. follow me. #group of mostly complete strangers: yeah!!! I'm convinced #spn liveblog

[thehappiestgolucky]

buggy husbands,,, bugsbands :)

#hollow knight #doodles #hk markoth #hk xero #crimson nails #hk gijinka #hollow knight gijinka #do not perceive me i have been thinking about them #rotating them in brain #ughghghg they make me soft #sorry for no doodles uh. monster hunter happened #again. god i love the game and i wanna ramble about it #sorry to like all my hollow knight followers my constant original brainrot is invading the bug territory #i can *hunt* with *NPCS* now i’m so happy you don’t understand- #anyway back to husbands. i just think they’re neat #it’s the: #._. smart x :) dumb for me #i’ve been thinking of them cuddles. markoth resting his head on xero’s chest cuddles #hearing his strong heartbeat and knowing what an amazing but it comes from and it relaxes him and lulls him to sleep easily #and i do headcanon markoth to actually have a decent sleep schedule and xero is the bad sleeper. but there’s just something nice about hi #*him. feeling nice and comfy in his smaller husbands arms knowing there’s nothing but care

[suncaptor]

I already feel like I have so many btvs opinions that no one would want.

#examples: 1.) fixated on Xander. my little guy with his little outfits and hes been through so much 2.) hate buffy/angel with the so much #energy and therefore can't stand angel too. besides getting into how it is a realistic portrayal of an older man preying on a teenager #it also is just literally illegal. anyways 3.) after watching the scene where faith sexually assaults & tries to kill xander and everything #else she does following i like. do NOT know if I will succeed at feeling much other than rage at her #she seems compelling and like a character i could like but the problem is the narrative cares more about her spiralling than xander so 😬😬 #also I find willow boring so far which isnt an indictment against her but that anti lust spell she was going to cast #on xander without his knowledge 😬😬 also idk if ill ever forgive giles for drugging Buffy #also buffy is a sweetheart but it frustrates me nearly always her emotions are the only ones that get weight #also i think that spn .uh may jabe had it right with make every monster a guy #ALSO the bigotry within the show and fundamental flaws are very similar to spn levels (though I know someone who agrees there ckskkz) #also i do think this show would hit different if you watched it as a teenager. THEN id be an angel guy THROUGH AND THROUGH #tortured poor little meow meow AND an IRISH vampire? #and faith was made for young me. for id have been obsessed. #but now i just look at them like ☠️☠️ stop please #incoherents #btvs #buffy #s.a

[selfcontainedunivcrse]

ive been thinking of a silly scp oc (Courtesy of my buddy making me get into it) . She's just some guy who works on the tech side of things. she's fresh out of regular science university and wanted a cozy govt job with experience in her field to look good on her resume while she works on getting her masters. This is not that

#misc. #Currently her name is LabTech Girl. On account of being a girl and a labtech #She wants to get promoted to a researcher. She wants to do research #Currently i think she's posted to complex memory wiping. Because she was needed as a prop for a fic concept 4 a tale i like. hehe #Regardless she's kind of silly. She's taking the horrors in stride . #She's fine with the ethics concerns but she is forming packbonds w/ her coworkers #If they demote us to monster fodder we are being demoted to monster fodder together. Of course I'll help you break every regulation ever. #The most important thing is respect of yr coworkers if you are trying to get promoted. She believes this #But. She's silly to me :] Also her fiancee leaves her over the fact that her day-job is literally erasing the memory of hostages So she's. #Well. She's a bit bummed about this #Idk If mair follows this acc but it's mairens fault so now she gets to hear all of my silly little ideas in dms >:3 but. I present the cour #*2 the court: #Girl :) #she's also perpetually some nobody but she's like. She's convinced. She's gonna get promoted .. She's doing SUCH a good job they don't even- #KNOW about w/e shes slipping under the rug for her coworkers cmonn

[quietwingsinthesky]

unfortunately i unironically enjoy stupid my little pony horror stories why am i like this

#im sorry. i am!!! #cupcakes is ironic enjoyment to be clear cupcakes is. not a good fic lmao. but its like funny gore shock value. #BUT THERES GOOD ONES I SWEAR #GO READ BIBLICAL MONSTERS BY HORSE VOICE #GO READ THE WRITING ON THE WALL. ALSO BY HORSE VOICE. #GO READ LEVIATHAN. AGAIN BY HORSE VOICE IM STARTING TO REALIZE A LOT OF MY MLP FIC RECS ARE HORSE VOICE FICS #GO READ A FLEETING LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS (and its sequels) BY FLASHGEN #the blink series (various authors) is also a personal favorite of mine because i love the teletransportation paradox in horror #uhhh what else. why am i even doing this literally no one following me wants mlp darkfic recs #look i need to say something or ill explode thats how i function #The Visiting Hour…. good fic. Silent Ponyville is closer to cupcakes in terms of quality/vibe i think but its a fandom classic. #Somno Captis. Something Sweet To Bite. Rainbow Factory is good and let no one tell you otherwise. THERE IS NO LUNA!!!!! GOING HOME!!!! #im telling you guys. i promise. they’re good fics. #no one wants this rec list and yet. here it is. #and personal rec but like if you want a really long thing. The Secret Life of Rarity and its sequels. #again. cupcakes vibes in its slasher/gore nature. the first fic in the series drags a little towards the middle with episode recaps #But With Murder This Time. the public life of sweetie belle is great though. and obviously the next few fics in the series are fantastic. #genuine compliments for how it takes the ‘what if pony…. but SERIAL KILLER????’ concept and then has Serious Repercussions that end up #slamming into you like a brick wall and fucking up the entire world of the fic. i should reread that series. #anyway im done now sorry about this #mlp

[childofaura]

Ok I thought I was gonna be making one nitpicky rant about TLoU show deaths but

I guess I’m actually making two. Because I saw another death and while I find there was nothing broadly wrong with it, there was some cinematic choices that drove me bonkers that I just wanna stress over.

So the rest will be under the cut, but for starters, this is about Sarah and Tess

Ok so Sarah isn’t really the meat of this rant, but I do want to talk about her death scene in the show because several things about it had bugged me. And please, I’m not really here to talk about the race swap. Overall I think it’s a little sus, moreso because the actress is the daughter of one of the executives of the show; so it suspiciously indicates nepotism. But the actress herself actually managed to do a pretty great job for Sarah’s death so really I couldn’t give a shit. ANYWAYS, the show’s death. What bugged me about it was the fact that there were CUTS while Joel is trying to comfort her and struggling to pick her up. The beauty of the cinematic choice in the game, where it turns into one continuous shot the moment Joel crawls over to Sarah, is that it inherently puts us in that moment with Joel, and by panning the camera over instead of cutting each time, it really shows how Sarah is right at death’s door, like you can HEAR the exact moment that she cries her last little whimper and just... goes quiet, right when the camera pans towards Tommy’s face. The problem with having scene cuts is that it drags the scene out in such an awkward way. Plus, Sarah’s still actively crying while Joel is screaming for Tommy to help him, and then the moment it cuts to Tommy the audio just cuts out very clumsily. As it cuts back to Joel Sarah’s just already dead, and additionally it makes no sense for Tommy to call to Joel to have him realize Sarah’s dead when she was still screaming and crying right as the camera cut. And then additionally, I’m not fond of the addition of Tommy saying Joel’s name, it feels almost... cold and detached. Like the tone of that line is “Joel she’s dead, it’s too late”. Whereas in the game, he’s moving towards Joel and Sarah and he’s in so much shock because he’s watching his niece dying in a crying, bloody mess.

So long story short, nothing wrong with the scene itself (though I gotta say I don’t think I’m a fan of Pedro Pascal’s line deliveries while he’s trying to stop Sarah’s bleeding. That’s less of a “one’s better than the other” and more of “that’s just my opinion that the emotion of the line delivery in the game was better”). Scene stayed true to the game.

But ohhh, OHHHH, you wanna know which death REALLY ruffled my feathers? Tess. Tess’ death was done so damn dirty in the show compared to the game (and side note, I hate the change to Tess’s character design. I loved the short hair held up by the headband, and I loved the short sleeves that showed her arms). I think by changing the entire death in the show, you take away from the character herself, and let me explain how.

In the game, they get to the Firefly meeting place, the Fireflies have been wiped out, and we find out Tess has been bitten. The military shows up, and Tess tells Joel that she’ll buy them some time and convinces both him and Ellie to leave. And the IMPORTANCE of her line “I WILL NOT turn into one of those things!”, which I’ll talk about. Joel and Ellie leave, Tess composes herself and gets ready to fight the soldiers. As you leave, you hear gunshots and hear Tess scream, and you find out she took out two soldiers; there was six guys and Tess took down two of them. This death is a perfect encapsulation of Tess’ character: resilient, stubborn, tough-as-nails, takes matters into her own hands. That is a death that treats the character with respect and actually plays into the character’s personality. It FITS. Tess is a woman whose life, her choices, it’s all in her hands and she will do what SHE wants to do.

In the TV show, they get to the Firefly meeting place, the Fireflies were killed by infected, and everything still plays out the same with Tess’ infection reveal (and I gotta say I’m not a fan of the dialogue choices nor am I a fan of the fact they tried to heavy-handedly push how Joel and Tess are a couple with the cuddling scene, whereas in the game the ambiguity of their relationship plays better into that final scene. I like the “Look, there’s enough here that you have to feel some sort of obligation to me” way more). Joel hears the infected, Tess starts tipping over some gasoline and grenades, and Joel and Ellie leave. Tess is panicking and frightened as the infected approach and flood in while trying to light the lighter, and then the BULLSHIT. The FUCKING KISS from the infected. And no I don’t wanna hear any ‘bUT it’S NoT A kISS, iT’S INfeCTiNg HEr’ excuses. It’s a fucking kiss disguised under the thin veneer of being some cool new infected lore, and it changes the entire death from a defiant last stance to a creepy, voyeuristic scene that’s going for a cringe-out factor. Like... Sure, you COULD explore that method of infection, it COULD be a neat behavior that we haven’t seen before.

But you don’t do that for Tess. She’s the wrong character to explore that with, and the show better actually try to stay consistent and show that again if people are gonna use the excuse of that scene being necessary. And the reason why it bugs me so much is because Tess, despite her short time in the story, is such a poignant character. She’s Joel’s partner, she’s OUR first partner. Taking that power out of her hands, putting her in this freaky powerless position where it’s like she’s being taken advantage of, does not compliment the character, especially when the death is a very easy to pull off trick that only solely relied on the lighter not working for cheap tension. If you wanted to give us a tense action scene, they could have actually shown us the Tess gunfight scene from her perspective, maybe give her one or two more kills than she had in the game. But this death was really insulting to the character.

TL;DR I’m incredibly autistic about all this dumb shit and it really just boils down to a difference of opinion.

#The Last of Us #TLoU #The Last of Us HBO #spoilers #I don't know if I even need to be putting spoilers for a nine year old game lmao but let's do it anyways #And honestly it's all just a matter of getting my knickers in a twist; I know there's a lot of people who are fine with it #And I'm not knocking them; that's their opinion #But I swear if it turns out that they don't EVER show that mouth-to-mouth behavior from them again in the show I WILL be pissed and call BS #And this isn't me saying the show is BAD; I think it's fine and I think at least (besides Tess) they're doing a faithful #and relatively thoughtful adaptation #I guess to me this doesn't seem like one of those franchises that needed a show adaptation #If you ask me we should have gotten a TV adaptation of Death Stranding #Just cast everyone from the game and boom; you have the perfect show #But anyways post edit in this section of the tags: why am I so ass-blasted over how Tess was handled? #1) I may be a little gay for her lmao; she was just one of my favorite characters #2) As someone who is so deeply invested in the character of; well; character this one really rubbed me the wrong way #And now that I type this I'm actually very nervous over how they're gonna handle Henry and Sam #You leave my boys alone you monsters; those guys practically wrote themselves all y'all need to do is follow the game #And let them die as they did; no M. Night Shamylan (however it's spelt) twist where Henry's infected instead and Sam shoots him and himself

[amazinlei]

Lamb: Fitre, I’d do anything for you!  I’d kill for you if you asked.  Please let me kill for you.

Fitre: No!

#inspired by when I was watching the simpsons earlier and this part was so cute aijdshdfsk #and yes I finally remembered the name of my spouse! #unlocked the summoning circle to turn your villagers into a power-up for going on crusades and in a disturbing way turning your partner #into a demonic power-up through to cheat the boss for one but also it's lowkey romantic if you imagine your spouse wants to come with you #but lamb just turns them into magic space #now fitre is getting into old age and I'm like D': #plus my relationship goals is ABSOLUTELY normie x monster couple who demon is incredibly protective of their mortal #but also the idea of the one who waits is like 'don't let yourself become a slave to your followers' #now the worshipped worships their spouse where they go and protect each other <3 #might draw this out since the idea is just so funny to me #Lei Plays Cult Of The Lamb #Cult Of The Lamb

[arborescreens-a]

Genuine question how the FUCK do you find people to follow on this goddamned website anymore.

#it used to be so easy! you'd get into a fandom you'd follow the big people! you follow who they follow! its FINE #you accidentally befriend them via silly asks and a dead meme about a character without a nose #you make joke roleplay blogs in 2012 that change your brain chemistry forever! #now i'm scared of looking at ANYONE in a fandom #unless they seem Really Chill #i know tumblr ain't about the follower count but it IS about the weird friends you make through mutuals #i've got nine mutuals and would love to figure out how to find people to get more #cause ill be honest most of the current ones are just my friends from elsewhere!! (i love you guys!!) #hey sorry EVERY SINGLE TIME i make a post i make 400 tags bc i'm a monster and the tumblr tag system makes me feel sexy and free #john rambles

[bonyato]

Sorry abt the occasional digiposting as of late, im coming to terms w/ the fact that it's starting to grow on me orz

#clenches fists. #wondertext #I started watching it w/ some friends recently..for nostalgia reasons in their case‚ but also to introduce me 2 the franchise as well #since it never rly was part of my childhood & i was curious as to what the fuss was all about hsjwjfj #Anyways i never rly took the events all that seriously since I thought shit was so off the wall it was funny But #after nearly 24 episodes i've found myself getting emotionally invested w/ the show at last 😭😭 it's been a journey #ive been progressively getting accustomed to all of its strange concepts . I think im desensitized at this point /lh #like evn the monsters themselves now have me like..ok...Youre not so bad after all. u got a creepy-cute kinda thing goin on &i respect that #(<- Used to find their designs unpleasant. still do a little bit even now tbh sorry But i do appreciate their uniqueness a whole lot) #But yeah i feel Like ive been put thru an entire character arc w/ this thang . #You should've seen the way i used to freak out during the 1st few episodes Everything was So Insane 2 me. it had me flabbergasted #it was like . Lighthearted charming OP song -> Children having a near-death experience in the most surreal way possible #-> Isekai moment -> We get introduced to the ugliest little beasts i've ever seen #-> They spend the rest of the episode almost dying Again -> beast transform into even Uglier beasts & go feral on each other #-> World's calmest most soothing ED sequence that clashes So Hard w/ the tone that was set during the episode it makes ur brain crash. #and thats more-or-less the formula that's been handled throughout the following episodes up until this point #but i suppose I've grown fond of it by now 🧎 I am a Changed man‚ i See the appeal‚ I Understand #well not rly prbablyBut at least each episode keeps me@the edge of my seat now as opposed 2 how i used to enjoy it in more of an ironic way #'tis nice honestly..I've become more appreciative of the kinda vibe the show handles‚ it's got a lot going on :} It's /insanely/ creative