#if you relate to her I'm sorry

[miguxadraws]

kissing w/ tongue

demon and nun AU by @spitinsideme

#bitch you got a new hairstyle for free! what you looking crazy for!! #and then there's the clueless idiot by her side #anyway #they were made for each other #hope i'm not bothering you by tagging you in all of my posts related to your AU #sorry spitsy!! #if it bothers tell me and i will stfu!!! #my art #tadc #the amazing digital circus #tadc fanart #tadc au #tadc ragatha #tadc pomni #harlequilt #buttonblossom #pomni x ragatha #digital yuri #ragapom #jesterdoll #tadc art

[egophiliac]

here's the Meleanor chibi speedrun! upfront warning for some flickering and/or flashing throughout from all the sped-up zooming/layer changes.

it turns out I only really recorded up to when I exported the PSD for the first time, so I went back and recorded a bit more to at least show a little of the reworked cape breakdown and background. and then bounced her rig around so you can see a bit of it too! the parts I'm not too embarrassed to show, anyway

even sped up it's still like 47 minutes (s-she took a really long time to make okay), so there are timestamps/chapters in the description if you click through! I certainly don't expect anyone to sit and watch it through, but maybe it'll be interesting to skip around in?

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers #sorry for posting again so soon but...it's related to the last post at least? #anyway enjoy me spending literally hours drawing a bunch of parts that i never even used #look we all have our little hobbies #i'm glad people seem to like how she came out! i was really scared to post her because i had so much trouble with the rig #but i forgot that meleanor is amazing and transcends silly things like technical quality and amateur mesh-weighting #thank you all for validating my obsessive quest to reverse-engineer tiny little anime characters for no real reason

[cottoncandysprite]

Y'all ever look back and realize your least fav character in your fav show was actually the one most painfully similar to who you were when you first watched it

#the guide my love I'm so sorry #to be completely fair tho most of the stuff I relate to in her came after season 3 (the last season when I first watched) #also shes not my least fav anymore I actually love her dearly in s4 and especially 5 #but yeah jesus christ shes so me from 3 years ago... #yall ever fall deeply in unrequited love with your girlbestie #whose cool queer friend group want nothing to do with you bc of how weird and awkward you are #all while dealing with trauma you had buried for years but you now realize severely changed you as a person #anyway. #wwdits #ramblies

[running-in-the-dark]

okay, Flynn fangirling over Darrington Dare might be the cutest thing ever

#the librarians #flynn carsen #noah wyle #like awww. he's obsessed with him 😌 I can relate #I'm not the biggest Flynn fan but he is adorable in this episode #also. that Darrington guy has the nicest arm hair I've ever seen. yeah I don't know either. it just looks really fluffy okay. #and. he is tall and kinda cute. and he is standing next to Jake. soo they are in love 🤷 #also also. Jake. I see you not rolling up your sleeves. that's highly unusual. hmm is someone insecure about his lack of fluffy arm hair? #sorry one day I will stop talking about how creepy the smoothness of his forearms is to me. but today is not that day. #it's just so funny I'm sorry #he could just stop shaving them (or whatever). then I'd stop talking about it. so. not my fault 🤷 #also Cassandra looks adorable in this scene so I didn't want to crop her out #and! I'm looking at this on my phone now and it's really really funny how pink my edits made his cheeks look. they were fine on my #laptop but tbh it's even funnier like this

[thepoisonroom]

i know modern dating is a hell because i once went on a date with this lady and when we were about to kiss i pulled back and went "oh sorry i thought we were a vase for a second" and she didn't like that in the least

#i was out there wasting my best material on audiences who were giving me nothing #personal nonsense #i do think my girlfriend gives me credit for being funny when even when i am being earnest which makes me feel very charming #she works in law and when we met i was like oh can i ask you a work-related question #and she was like big sigh assuming i was going to ask for legal advice #and i was like sorry but where do you buy your suits? and she did a very friendly laugh that made me feel super at ease #she was also very nice about it when i got too high and was telling her it makes me anxious that #i can't tell if zoomers who say slay a lot are gay or just very logged on #she was like 'oh i'm sorry for laughing you're just being very darling' and i was like 🥺🥺🥺 #sorry for girlfriendposting so much she's just the best partner i've ever been with!

[rotisseries]

I've said this before but modern au where the party's collective special interest is warrior cats instead of dnd so they call themselves the clan

#first and foremost the most important thing about st is that the party are LOSERS #if you ever forget this fact you end up MILES from the characters we know and love #anyway they hissed in the hallways at least once I know it #max not giving a shit about dnd translates to her being a pjo kid instead #not that there weren't kids who read both series I'm sure the party would like pjo too #but I feel like you were either a pjo kid or a warrior cats kid. not really both simultaneously #or at least that was my experience lmao #I was a pjo kid and I always see people online pick on or the other so. idk I didn't really think too hard about this #stranger things #byler #<- not byler related sorry #the party

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[sandinthepipes]

Yes, redemption arcs are good, but have you ever heard of corruption arcs?

#says any queer afab ever #or queer in general #or afab in general #the witcher #the witcher netflix #our flag means death #ofmd #wwdits #what we do in the shadows #merlin #bbc merlin #and we could go with the obvious route there and say morgana pendragon love of my life fucking destroy me #but also Merlin's corruption arc where he stops seeing the sunshine and everything is thick and heavy like molasses #oof i am WEAK #also may i say the industry has some issues representing good female characters #ok we have tons of good male characters but can you give me a relatable female character whose personality isn't just being a female #look at my gal morgana and take notes please #and then look ar my gal gwen and do the opposite with what they did to her please #I'm sorry i know you all love gwen and i kinda started liking the fanon version but the canon version #like she started sooo good and then what happened #why #istg if anyone says I don't like gwen becouse of merthur i will fucking burn your house down #redemption arc #corruption arc #inthepipes

[matbaynton]

"we need more complex female characters" y'all couldn't even handle leah rilke from the wilds

#very funny that the character i can sympathize and relate most to is also the one who get's the most hate 🤡 #like i GET it she's not the easiest character to love most of the time #but y'all need to learn what mental illness is i am begging you #(also she is a TEENAGER) #i couldn't stand her at first either but once i realized why that was #(seeing the things i struggle with and hate most about myself being exhibited by her) #i was like ....... oh🧍 #people genuinely seem to think she goes out of her way or has any control over the way she thinks and some of the things she does #when that's so CLEARLY not true #anyway #obviously i'm taking this personally lmao #sorry if the original text post has been said before i only started watching a couple weeks ago #* #the wilds #leah rilke

[punkeropercyjackson]

sorry, do you. do you think trans men WANT to be men? referring to your anti transmasc percy post. like youre transmasc so im assuming you know this already but how you feel abt a gender doesnt change shit about your gender. what does misandry have to do with trans men

I knew i was gonna get at least one person saying something like this to me over that post but ngl i did NOT see the beginning of this coming.'Do you think trans men WANT to be men?'Yes???????That's how it is in my case and it has been the same for almost every other trans man i've ever met.And i'm sorry but is that really what you took from me saying i think Percy should be a trans woman because it's canon that she's been abused by almost every older man in her life and had mostly male bullies so she canonically hates men as a trauma response and comes across that she wants to be a woman instead with how she acts so much unlike a guy because of the former and loves,respects and admires almost every single female character she comes across and that i don't like transmasc interpretations of her because they always take that away and all the other stuff that makes her compelling for the sake of f*tishizing her😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭????????

#like.i even said i see her as a man sometimes just in a transfem bigender way????transmasculine isn't the only queer kind of male gender jfc #this ask honestly reeks of entitlement why tf should i have to like transmasc percy when i've never seen content for it i liked #and i literally explained why + i relate to femme tgirls more than i do any other trans ppl and i'm exactly like percy so it was projection #'how you feel about a gender dosen't change shit about your gender'TO YOU MAYBE??I'm bigender because i love men AND women and wanna be both #i'm gonna stop talking now but this ask is genuinely driving me nuts.percy jackson i'm sorry the fandom is so obsessed with making you a guy #transnmisogyny #transmascphobia #biphobia #< last two for the implications of the shitty transmasc percy content i mentioned

[commsroom]

the way pryce degenders hera as a form of control feels even worse because there are a few occasions where she doesn't. "make it so she can't say her favorite word or give her a new recurring nightmare" and "trying to be the most adorable girl at the county fair"... it's reflective of pryce's general attitude towards others (less that she doesn't recognize their autonomy and more that she enjoys taking that autonomy away), and the particularly vulnerable position hera is in with even the most fundamental aspects of her identity, but it's also. just such a trans experience of womanhood. that even the people who want most to deny her any respect or recognition as a woman will still sometimes implicitly think of her that way and deride her within that context.

#wolf 359 #w359 #hera wolf 359 #idk. working through something here #trans woman hera makes so much sense to me there's just. something particularly recognizable and upsetting #about the way she's always treated as another category of person no matter how she expresses her own identity #i think about that line. 'new recurring nightmare' a lot for another reason but it feels. kind of related too #people are so quick to assume hera's differences that they don't even think to ask if she might. not actually be that different. #even eiffel just assumes for so long that hera doesn't sleep when canonically she does. she sleeps and she dreams and she has nightmares #and people just kind of. overlook that. it's just one thing but it feels connected to the bigger things. you know. #also i'm sorry but this is why maxwell's whole thing feels so uncomfortable to me in retrospect #because once you go back you can see how much of the language she uses towards hera parallels attitudes cutter & pryce have #even if she's 'nicer' about it #'no. i think i want to.'? eughhhh #it's complicated but there are. aspects of it that bother me a lot.

[kneworder]

angry at the oscars barbie nominations but in an annoyinger way (i think nominating ryan reynolds makes sense but the best picture and best supporting actress noms are ridiculous)

#sorry but the more i think about it the more i really dislike the movie #ken was funny! he was silly and campy! i really did not care for the rest of the movie! #i just think the more you examine its take on feminism the more it falls apart! #it's inherently about a product! it's inherently personifying a product and making you feel sympathy for and relate to a product! #they are generating hype and engendering sympathy for something they are trying to sell you! #regurgitating second wave feminism without nuance doesn't make it groundbreaking it makes it like. fine i guess? #verilybitchie has a great video that put a lot of my feelings about it into words #idk it did not resonate with me at all and also made me kind of annoyed with how it contributed to the ongoing trend #of gendering things that aren't gendered and focusing on a segregation of gendered perspectives #tired of i'm just a girl! tired of girl dinner! tired of men are always thinking about the roman empire! #sure there are experiences more common to and relevant to women but i get so uncomfy with those kinds of generalizations #even when they're just jokes because after they get repeated enough they stop sounding like ones #just like. when you try to examine it in terms of any kind of intersectionality it falls apart #and i know it's not that serious but like come on. they literally do not once touch on any kind of intersectionality. #you can't be like 'it's a groundbreaking feminist movie!' because they said 'women struggle with misogyny' in 2023 #like i know it's barbie but i don't understand why there's this impulse to say that that's something that's never been said before #just because the president is black doesn't mean you've acknowledged like. racism at all. #just because you have two fat barbies with like four lines doesn't mean you've said anything meaningful about body image #and when you take an openly lesbian actress and give her short hair and make her strange and then have all the other characters #essentially socially exile her and still think she's weird after the resolution!!! #i would say that's like!! implicitly a pretty weird way to write gay people! #i don't want to rain on anyone's parade! it's silly! it's not that serious! i just also think it's not that good! #it's fine! it's fun! but i DO think ken is the best part of the barbie movie and for that i apologize

[lizardthelizard]

Every word you wrote about Tamara is just FACTS!!!!!!!!!!!! What I would have given for Grag & Tamara to be so broken because of magic, that they both had plans of revenge. Getting more people involved behind the scenes even. Tragic, yet understandable backstories and a real threat to Storybrooke from the outside world. The fears of some folks in town coming true (the whole E.T. thing Leroy mentioned in the hospital after Greg first showed up). The danger of having magic in a non-magical world.

EXACTLY!!! 'Tragic yet understandable' is the perfect way to phrase it, because OUAT is very good at including antagonists with these kinds of backstories (although, the effectiveness of this varies from character to character) and I'm sad that Tamara didn't get enough attention to receive the same treatment!

Okay, so, I'm gonna lay out some thoughts properly because why not:

(Disclaimer: I'm adding a read more because this got VERY out of hand. But please read on if anyone is interested in headcanoned Tamara backstory!)

(Second disclaimer: I've actually used this general backstory for Tamara in one of my fics before, although I wasn't able to go into quite as much detail at the time)

So, imagine. Tamara is a child (maybe 10 or 11). She has a happy family; parents that love her, a younger brother that she cares about a lot, a pet goldfish, whatever. And then imagine that, one night, 10 year old Tamara hears a noise from her brother's bedroom. She goes to investigate it but, when she opens the door, she finds herself frozen in shock. The window is wide open and her brother is floating in the middle of the room.

There's the faint sparkle of a glowing green dust on him and a dark shadow with bright, hollow eyes floats just beside him. Tamara pinches herself. She thinks she's dreaming. She's not. The shadowy figure spots her and before she can do a thing to stop it, the creature has taken her brother's hand and flown out the window with him. Maybe he cheerfully waves goodbye, maybe he doesn't even notice that she was there at all.

When Tamara finally works up the courage to move, she rushes to the window. Her brother is long gone, but there's a very fine sprinkle of green dust on the windowsill left in his absence.

Of course, she goes to tell her parents and, of course, they panic. Tamara tries to tell them what she saw but they naturally ignore any claims that she saw her brother flying or that the person that kidnapped him was nothing but a shadow with white, glowing eyes.

There was no sign of a break in from anywhere in the apartment. And the investigation team are baffled as to how anyone could have clambered in and out of the window when the room is situated on the third floor of the building. Tamara's brother never comes back and it's eventually considered a cold case.

Tamara has always considered herself honest, logical and responsible. For a long while, she insists that what she saw was true. It's only after she starts getting therapy that she begins to doubt things.

Therapy does little to fix things. Her family is completely broken. A year or so down the line, her parents divorce. Tamara starts to visit her Grandmother more and more often and she develops a very tight bond with her.

Tamara grows up and moves on from it all as best she can. She eventually stumbles into the same conspiracy group that Greg is a part of. They don't connect right away, but, after a couple of meet ups, they discover that they have a lot in common and also come to realise that, perhaps, they're the only two people in this group that have actually seen real magic.

They eventually confide in one another, talking about how 'magic' has ruined their lives. How it's hurt them in ways that no one else in this group that they're a part of will understand. They connect (idk, they can still get together romantically if they want, although I personally didn't see much chemistry between them and the show only really paired them up for shock value let's be honest) and they start talking about fairy tales and Storybrooke.

(Side note, since Greg is kind of aware of Regina being the Evil Queen (right? or is he not aware of that until he reaches Storybrooke again?) maybe he's even able to suggest that it could have been Peter Pan/Peter's Shadow that kidnapped her brother. I like the idea that he's very overly familiar with a lot of fairy tales and stories is more than willing to consider them in the real world ever since his interaction with Regina)

Anyway, I don't know HOW (and forgive me if I'm missing something from canon here, I'm guessing it maybe had something to do with Pan) but I like the idea of Greg in particular managing to track down either August or Neal (since, aside from Emma, those two are the links that lead back to Storybrooke). And, from here, the pair of them start working on plans to get to Storybrooke.

Greg and Tamara are both therefore stuck with these similar backstories, involving someone they loved being taken from them by someone magical. And ALSO similar in the sense that...no one believed them when they tried to tell the truth about this... Not only would this be about getting some kind of revenge (Greg wanting to get closure on his father and then kill Regina when he confirms that she did murder his dad, and Tamara desperate to find some trace of the shadow that took her brother), but it would also be about proving that they were right this entire time. That they weren't lying or 'crazy' or making things up. That magic is real and it's dangerous.

I guess the dilemma for Greg and Tamara is: how? How are they able to prove that magic actually exists, in a world where magic is unseen to those that don't believe in it? (This is a question that I will be pondering on, but not one that I'll be answering here. This ask has already gotten too long, ahahah)

(Still, there's one final thing I'd like to address)

Because, you see, there's something so deliciously tragic about Pan being the one to cause this trauma in the first place. For him to be so heavily responsible for Tamara's tragic childhood and then him continuing to have a chokehold on Tamara years later on. OUGH.

That said? yeah, I absolutely would have preferred if the Pan arc had been kept entirely separate from Greg and Tamara's (aka, they were there exclusively for their own reasons and not just because Pan said so). Greg and Tamara deserved their own arc that had nothing to do with Neverland. No 'home office', no dumb crystal that was triggered to explode the town or whatever (or! DO include those things! but tie them exclusively to John and Michael's story instead!)

I just!!!!!! I have way more feelings about Tamara (and to a lesser extent Greg/Owen) than I know I should and I'm getting a bit weird thinking about her lately!!!!!!

#kat thank you so much for the ask btw I always get so happy when I see you in my inbox :) #uyghjsdfjsuhdjfjsdf this is SUCH a rambling mess omg SORRY #if I work out a little more of this then I'll make some kind of part 2 #also listen. I'm SO open for other interpretations and headcanons in relation to her character and backstory #I used the 'pan's shadow stole her brother' thing because there are a lot of elements that work smoothly with one another #but I also appreciate that there's maybe not enough 'magic' involved to justify her hatred for that specifically #ouat #asks #oh no I can't tag this as august meta. this is a first for me #ouat meta #KIND OF. NOT REALLY BUT OH WELL

[yashley]

“I’m really sorry.” “So am I.”

#critical role #imogen x fearne #imogearne #long post #ygifs #but they were literally insane for this are you kidding me #you have Laura Lauraing up a Laura with that imogen emotion work she's pulling and then you have Ashley Ashleying up an Ashley At Her WHAT #like I JUST WANT THEM TO TALK ABOUT IT I JUST WANT AN ACTUAL TALK SHOW TO TALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #WHATS GOING ON THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #YOU LITERALLY have Imogen People-Pleaser-Or-Death actually saying So Am I and Actually Acknowledging In EVEN That Small Way #And it's like fearne is Actually So Heartbroken she's Stunned And Yet All She Can Think To Do Is Look At Imogen and Say She’s So Sorry #FEARNE???? we literally did not see THAT magnitude of emotional vulnerability with fearne since she Met Her Lost Mom Ok #and she’s There At The Mercy Of Her Emotions. because of imogen. because of how much she Empathizes with Imogen #and Imogen Wonderful Wonderful Imogen Literally Cannot Look At Fearne More ThanA Second After What She Did* #girls y'all are just insane for this this was The Moment that made me Break Down And Uproot my Not Making Gifs Thing after EIGHT YEARS it's #I know this campaign is so fast paced and plot driven but like it's been nearly 10 episodes and they've not Talked About This Okay #also obsessed with the stilted way imogen thanks fcg for bringing fearne back like it is SOO detached I'm chewing it #she literally spoke as if she wasn't there when you could see imogen relating to fearne by touching her shoulder and saying brought Her back #they literally already Went Through Much with fearne's parents reveal and the way imogen Allowed herself to Be Present in That Situation #no but literally I Think About Fearne Combating How She Regrets Orym Being Brought Back like Thats the gravity of it #imogen says Thank You Fearne and fearne just stands there nearly wanting nothing more than for the reality imogen Meant It

[rotisseries]

"she met a pinecone's fate" was hysterical the first time around and it's still funny but the longer I think about it the more unsure I actually am about the line

#it just feels so. callous. or like. it doesn't FEEL callous cause it's not portrayed that way and you laugh and I'm still laughing #but like. it's callous that is a callous thing to say and it's not like percy doesn't have dickishness to spare #but on this specific thing? really? he's not like that #like. this is after being told the full story so he knows what happened to thalia #and his response to effectively hearing about how this girl died for her friends and not just any friends but the people he's with rn #is “she met a pinecone's fate” a like. dismissive joke about what happened to her #like in the books percy empathizes with thalia's situation he feels for her it's tragic it's a somber moment😭😭 #she was a demigod more powerful than the others she was hunted even more than they usually are (percy relates) #and she died for her friends (definitely something percy relates to and would value lol) #and on TOP OF THAT. to say this in front of grover and annabeth? who clearly loved her a lot?? #like. percy doesn't like annabeth atp but he doesn’t hate her enough to be crossing those sorts of lines?? #and GROVER. is literally his best friend. can you not figure that thalia's death probably weighs on him #oh wait I just remembered at that point in the episode he doesn't know grover was with them lol sorry ignore that bit #anyway. like I get it it's funny and they have a lightly antagonistic relationship in ttc so it's funny!! #like haha he's ALREADY getting his digs in!! #but. idk. feels a bit mean :/ #pjo #pjo tv #dropping episode 3 thoughts mere hours before episode 4 lmao #I'm not gonna be able to watch 4 tonight though lol

[nostalgia-tblr]

you would think that i, with my Many Experience of writing fanfiction, would have foreseen the obvious trickiness of writing threesome porn where all of them are the same person and two of them have the same name and same pronouns and i have drawn attention to the fact that they look the same as each other but -

#“but why did sylvie change her name?” SHE DID IT TO MAKE THIS TASK EASIER AND I AM APPROPRIATELY GRATEFUL #making the other Loki use they/them did occur to me but plural-they is obviously in heavy use here so am not sure it'd help at all #anyway all-in-all this was a foolish plan but now i have several paragraphs and am thus deeply into Sunk Cost Fallacy land #or given the context perhaps it's a phallusy? #...i'm sorry i'm so sorry #YES OF COURSE THERE'S GOING TO BE A LINE ABOUT THEM COMPARING IDENTICAL DICKS WHY WOULD THERE NOT BE??? #WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU THINK I'D HAVE THE SENSE AND DECENCY TO RESIST THAT VERY OBVIOUS TEMPTATION???? #if i can get past the identification issues (and the logistical ones) this is FERTILE GROUND for both selfcest puns AND dick jokes #the spare loki lives in an AU where he got away from thanos's influence so he stayed in NYC and opened a swingers club #(someone please tell me if 'swingers' means the same in america as this doesn't seem like something i want to ask google) #fic related