#if you wanna vent

[teaboot]

You know being transmasc after a life of growing up as the sole "girl" in male-dominated areas gives you a weird and complicated relationship with gender identity.

Like... being told straight to your face, "you're naturally bad at this cause you're a girl", "you're naturally weaker cause you're a girl", "you can act tough but you'll always just be a girl", "stop acting like you can keep up with the men", and even the well-intentioned, "Yeah women are like that, but you don't count, you're basically one of the boys"...

It leads you to this weird space where it's like. "Fuck you, women kick ass," and then busting yourself up to prove that you, a woman, *can* keep up, and not only keep up but do it better than anyone else, and taking pride in your femininity because it's not a fucking weakness, but at the same time knowing that... You're not a woman.

You're not a woman. You're not a girl. People just see tits and curves and decide that nature made you delicate, and then all of a sudden it's your responsibility to prove that you're not fucking weak, women aren't weak, while also saying, "I'm not a woman, though."

It's... bizarre.

I'm not a girl. But so long as I'm interpreted as one, I'm still gonna be held back by the same stereotypes. But if I ever stop being interpreted as one, then all the hard fucking work I put in to excel in my field is going to go down the toilet as "just something you can do because you're a man".

And fuck that. That's stupid, too. Guys shouldn't have their effort taken for granted like that, and it stings extra hard because you remember people just naturally assuming you suck and earning respect only to lose it immediately the second you step over to the "man" side. Because you've worked your whole life for something that as a man you'd just be expected to have naturally.

You SEE that shit staring you in the face, and worst of all people still walk around you in plain view and still talk about how women can't do shit and conveniently forget that you've BEEN ONE. "Because you were a man all along" or "because you overcompensate to prove yourself", whatever they think of to justify the cognitive dissonance that keeps their narrative going.

Nobody seems to consider that I'm not really different from women OR men, because those differences don't exist.

I'm not "naturally better" than women because I don't identify as one, and I'm not "worse than" men because I wasn't assigned the title by a third party. I'm just a person. We're all just people.

I'm just tired, man.

#Rambling #Idk #You can reblog if you wanna but it's just a personal vent

[stqrriichiigo]

i mean, if he doesn't, ill be sad, but as long as we're friends, it's fine

ah ok, good luck then! <33

#urluvvdomm #𔘓⁩ — dom.love letters #𔘓⁩ — https.inbox #if you wanna vent #im always here. <33

[youreviltwin]

"im gay" "im straight" okay????? its not a game for me troy?? im seeing real lava because youre leaving??? i dont wanna be crazy??? but i am crazy?????

#originally did simply i dont wanna be crazy but i am crazy #as a vent honestly but you guys might enjoy this so #abed nadir #community #geothermal escapism #troy barnes

[sad-leon]

TW!! Suicide Attempt, Self Harm, Implied Eating Disorder

i forgor the colour behind the dialogue but im too tired to add it now

im so tired and theres no resolution because nothing i can make will make me feel better. i Know my friends love me and think my life is worth living, but when it gets bad it gets Bad and theres nothing to do but pick up the peices

#sad•leonart #vent #vent art #tw suicide attempt #tw self harm #tw eating disorder #tw implied eating disorder #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rise leo #rise donnie #rise disaster twins #disaster twins #angst #idk i made this when it was bad but now im slightly better but i couldnt make a better resolution #and if you wanna interpret donnie and leo walking on train tracks or other ground in the first one #thats up to yall #i left it vague because i just wanted it done #and donnie gets knee braces because he can

[lomltrentarnold]

i think you’re pretty — trent alexander-arnold ₊˚ෆ

🍓 hana’s notes: in ma feels again (shocker) haven’t written anything in a while so please be nice <3

disclaimers: lil drabble, cliffhanger (you have been warned!) reader is a little insecure, but reader can pull girls and guys, childhood bestfriends my beloved trope 🫶 || main masterlist

“Wait, actually? You don’t think people think you’re pretty?”

You don’t even know how the conversation ended up on this topic. Sitting at the balcony catching up with Trent after you moved away. Now, he’s a big shot footballer and you’re working to get your degree.

Fifteen year old you guys would be proud.

You shook your head, it's not a new thought for you, “Nah, but that’s okay though. I think I’m pretty, but I don’t know if I am someone’s hallway crush or people just look at me and think — Wow, pretty.”

This is the type of stuff that you only spill on your diary, but it’s Trent, and he knows more about you than you do yourself.

It’s not something new you have come to terms with, after seeing most of your friends' getting crushes, getting hit on, going on dates and having relationships except you, you have made peace with it.

Trent’s forehead creases, as if the statement offended him more than you, “That’s crazy, tha’” Trent could not believe what you just said. You? Not pretty? Are you insane?

Turning your head to face him, you warmly smiled, “Don’t pretend, T.” and when you look at Trent, taking in his features, now this is pretty. “You’re pretty. People think you’re pretty.”

You didn’t know why you decided to say that. Maybe because the moonlight illuminates his skin and eyes, making him shine a little bit brighter. Butterflies swarm your belly, as your hand sweats.

Trent’s cheeks went warm, he thinks he’s the luckiest person ever to get compliment from you. His heart aches for you, but he decided to focus on the task at hand first.

"That's stupid." he spat out, making your eyebrows shoot up.

You lightly chuckled, "Excuse you? I just gave you a compliment."

"Not that." he sighed, turning his body around so that it would be face to face with yours. You noticed the disturbed look in his eyes, as you straightened your back before meeting his gaze.

"It's not that serious T, I'm fine." you assured him, an awkward laugh bubbling out. This took a serious turn, and you have no idea why.

"Do you remember James? In 8th grade?"

You furrowed your eyebrows, "The one that gave me chocolate? Yeah, what about him?"

He took a deep breath, "He said, and I quote, that when you laugh, he can honestly melt because you look so pretty.”

"We were kids, sometimes kids just say stuff-"

"And I agreed with him, and I said that making you laugh is probably one of the most rewarding things I can do because I love seeing you smile so much. You look so pretty when you laugh like nobody's around."

Your heart stuttered, but before you said anything else he continued, "And remember the girl that you worked with at the cafe down the road? The one with curly hair?"

You nodded your head.

"When I was waiting for you to finish your shift, she noticed how much I was looking at you, and she said that she gets it, and that it's sometimes hard to focus on making the drinks because you would look so pretty smiling while taking people's orders."

You cleared your throat, “That’s- That’s very nice of her.” avoiding the words that makes you question you and Trent’s friendship.

His tongue pokes out to lick his lips, making your eyes focus on it, “Sometimes I look at you and I go blank because of how pretty you are.”

What the fuck? What the fuck, what the fuck, what the fuck.

Your eyes searched for his, but he pointedly avoided it, choosing to stare down on his hands.

After finishing the story, Trent bellowed out a laugh, "You know how many people ask me for your number because they think that you're pretty?" he paused, "But they backed away because they 'know' that you're already someone's because of how I look at you."

Your mouth gaped open and close like a fish, slowly processing everything that he's telling you. "What?"

"They said that I look at you like I was smitten. Like I was in love." you were sure your pulse stopped for a second, hearing the guy that you had a crush on for years saying stuff you hear in songs.

Trent’s mouth was faster than his brain, he really should have stopped talking, but he couldn't. All of his words were all vomiting out of his mouth. He could feel his heart beating out of his chest.

"And then I said that if I was going to fall in love with anyone that I'd want it to be you."

hehe love yall <3

#THIS IS PERSONAL LOOK AWAY #literally a vent write #haha…… #no but you guys are so so so pretty #i kinda blanked out on trent's dialogue cause honestly i dont even know what i wanna hear in this situation #this is for me and my girlies who thinks that they're not pretty #me and my girlies who are surrounded by pretty people and think that people wont look at us because they have someone else to look at. #this is for me and you #i dont really know how to end this rip #hana writes! #trent alexander arnold x reader #trent alexander imagines #trent alexander x you #trent alexander arnold #taa x reader #football x reader

[girlyteengirl16]

i rather rip every inch of my fucking skin off than talk about my feelings

#mentally unstable #i hate you guys for what you did #I FUCKING HATE YOU #i wanna kms #i hate what they did to me #what is my life #FUCK YOU #tw depressing stuff #mental abuse #tw depressing thoughts #mentally tired #i want to be okay #trauma #bpd vent

[genericpuff]

vent post

#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once” #i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO #anxiety is a hell of a thing #and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever #i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up #and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken #but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship #i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it #i am cringe and i am free #self post #vent post #altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read #too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll #i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made #i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol #i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim #i think both things can be true #i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like #while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium #“perfectly balanced as all things should be”

[pain-is-my-game]

It's terrible knowing that if I ever show sadness or show anything emotion that's not positive towards anything whether it's my fault or not I'll either get blamed for it or told that my emotions are irrational.

#i will never care if you reblog #im so tired #i just wanna escape #vent #tw vent #cw vent #eldest daughter syndrome #sad thoughts #eldest daughter #eldest sibling #oldest daughter #toxic mother #emotional neglect #emotional abuse #emotional abandonment #toxic mothers #toxic mom #toxic parents #thoughts to throw into the void

[honeypleasejustkillme]

please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd fp #bpd vent #i’m so scared for you to leave me #i don’t think i can handle life without you #and i don’t wanna find out #fp bpd #borderline fp #borderline favorite person #beloved.txt

[genderkoolaid]

idk if this is a common experience but being a boygirl often makes me feel more like party trick than a human being. the reason i spent so much time talking about being multigender is because i feel like ive never ever seen anything that takes multigender identity seriously beyond just. jokes. no one ever seems interested in actually questioning what it means to be a man/woman when you are both. i cant count the times i've seen some (often lesbian) couple and immediately thought "i'll never have that because of my gender, no one would want me" and i know, objectively, i cant say no one would. but the point is that the only time i see being a boygirl brought up is in fucking joke tumblr posts and it makes me feel like its only something that can exist for a bit and not a way you can live your life. and thats just reinforced every time i have to deal with binarism (which is constantly)

#this is mostly a vent but yall can rb if you wanna #just. its a rough experience lol #m. #also if ur multigender + have similar experiences please feel free to add em

[crassinova]

Realization

+ additional

#gibsonnilson #fallout 4 #fallout #nick valentine #fo4 #FoOc Chancey #oc x canon #fallout oc #this was supposed to be a vent piece because because i had a sudden panic attack so i vented it out #but since i felt better after finishing it just looks like this is about how Chancey is freaking out because he realizes hes gay #its alot funnier now HHASGHASGAHS #like damn why are you crying about thinking about him huh??? you wanna kiss him so bad huh? i mean he has a reason but #it’s a secret for now

[teaboot]

Theoretically I enjoy living with people but unfortunately when you tell people you're a neuroatypical raccoon with twelve ongoing hobbies, completely random work hours, and a series of admittedly unusual lifelong compulsions they tend to hear that and go "oh haha you're trying to be Quirky okay" and then save their ten million questions and concerns for when you can't run away

#Im venting #Sometimes I HAVE TO sleep on the floor #Sometimes I HAVE TO stand on the coffee table #I own a blowtorch because sometimes I NEED TO USE A BLOWTORCH #What kind of lives are yall leading that you just NEVER HAD AN OOPSIE AND SPILLED BEESWAX IN THE KITCHEN #Like what isn't clicking here #'Why do you have a trumpet if you can't play the trumpets because I'm an ADULT #'The leopard is creepy' your FACE is creepy #Objectively I am aware that the way I do things is Not Normal but it's Normal For Me #And so many people demanding REASONS and it's exhaustingggg #I'm autistic I'm bored and I have ten thousand hobbies and a zest for life #If you don't wanna make paper mache body armor at 3pm on a Wednesday just be open about that #But like #I did warn you #I warn EVERYONE so I KNOW I WARNED YOU #*screeching*

[pennywise-fucker]

I see a lot of posts about "Stop dating people while you're damaged, heal yourself first" which can be all well and good

But

Stop choosing damaged people if you aren't ready to be with a damaged person. They tell you they've been cheated on and struggle with trust? Don't be with them if it would be an issue to help heal them.

They tell you they've been hit a lot and raised voices gives them a panic attack? Don't be with them if you're going to be upset over them crying when you throw a fit and start yelling over losing a game .

They tell you they need a lot of physical affection, or less physical affection, due to trauma? If you can't understand or deal with that, they aren't for you.

And you also never have to stay. Period.

But stop choosing people with damage if you're going to be mad at them for being damaged. As long as they're trying to heal, you can either be there or not, but don't blame them when they tell you exactly what you're getting into.

#venting #goes for men and women #some dudes dont talk because they were abused #give them a chance to grow if you wanna be with them #this is obviously excluding people using trauma to be abusive #or controlling #but man #some people choose the broken #and get mad when they can see all the cracks

[beanghostprincess]

My mental health and gender are whatever this relatable pathetic French blond has going on

#he's just like me fr #i wanna open his skull and study him he's such a wet cat me too #*screams into pillow* i hate life #kind of vent post or whatever #early sanji i love you you're so gender give me gender #he's so mentally ill me too #one piece #black leg sanji

[heavenfell-au]

You'd be angry too.

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#heavenfell #heavenfell au #underfell #undertale #undertale au #sans #my art #vent art #vent #you know that rage ? #that one where you'd happily see the world burn ? #that rage that makes you wanna rip your own throat to shreds if not others' ? #yes that one #i'm sick of being the collected one #of being the bigger person #i'm sick of it all. #just c-ptsd things #just bpd things #bpd #c-pstd #survivor rage

[incubicide]

a deeply unfriendly reminder that the fact that you have an ED is not an excuse to be a fatphobic piece of shit :)

you don’t like their body? don’t look. dont comment on it, dont poke fun of it, fucking ignore it. all you’re doing is wasting hot air and fueling your stupid fucking superiority complex for momentary clout to fill the gaping void in your empty soul and stomach.

i don’t CARE if you hate your own fat. i don’t CARE if you’re anti-recovery. your illness is not an excuse to be a bitch. you worry about your body and your body alone; and at this rate, your attitude as well.

or preferably, kys if you use fatspo and/or harass plus sized people :)

#fuck you all #ed bllog #i wanna be weightless #i want to be weightless #light as a feather #tw disordered eating #tw ed not ed sheeren #tw ed recovery #thinner is better #edblr #tw ed rant #tw ed descussion #tw ed vent #🕯️as a 🪶 #⭐️ve #tw ed but not sheeran #skinnii #i will lose weight #pro for me not for thee #ed rant #anablr #3ating d1sorder #tw ana rant #ed blog #tw ana shit #fatspiration #fatsp0 #tw dis0rdered e@ting #cw ed #notprojustusingthetags