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waltz of four left feet: you didn't realized how attached you are to the great mammon.

warning: angst/fluff, happy ending. mammon x gn!reader. enjoy reading!

you've been pacing in your room for an hour or two right now. it's been a week. it's been that long that you tried to ignore mammon. you've been avoidant and distant to him as of lately but for good reasons, you convince yourself. for good reasons! you don't know how or when, but you fell in love. how stupid of you to do so. considering the situation you are in - being a short-term human exchange student whose time in devildom is only limited, it's really not the best for the both of you to have a relationship. but you can't help your feelings from pouring out especially not when he gives you reason to live. you cursed to yourself. why the fuck is mammon so perfect? he didn't have to be. and now, look. you fucked up.

mammon thought he had done something wrong. you didn't even communicate with him well. it's killing you. should you just… knock in his room and confess? but you can't do that. that's too risky. then again, avoiding him isn't doing anything helpful either! you have to do something. so, here you are, sighing loudly as you knock on mammon's door. don't know what to do nor to say, you just have to see him again. you just have to. whether you burst out your feelings or run away, doesn't matter. this needs to happen. you waited and waited but there was no answer. no “go away” or a shuffle or anything. is mammon even here? impatient and filled with concern, you opened mammon's door.

nothing. the room felt empty. mammon wasn't there. where is he? you didn't want to ask any of the brothers in fear that they'll interrogate you or something like that. you sighed heavily. why are you so stupid? going here in the middle of the night. he's probably out partying or who knows what. you texted him from your DDD but there was no answer. you plopped down on his soft bed. you're just gonna wait for him here. right. yes. good choice. you laid on his bed and hugged the nearest pillow to you. it smelled like him but it didn't feel like him. gah. how did mammon make you feel so complete but at the same time inadequate as well? you always knew there was something missing in your life. you just didn't expect it to be him. you didn't notice the tears that fell from your eyes. stupid tears crying for nothing. you let yourself cry anyways, until you fell asleep.

you woke up with the sound of shuffling and thuds, the door slightly ajar, the light outside going in, you rubbed your eyes and sat. you caught a glimpse of him. it's mammon.

“MAMMON? where have you been?” you asked, walking towards him. he looked at you, confused as to why you're inside his room.

“MC, what are ya doing in my room?”

“i was waiting for you.”

his brows furrowed. “why? you should be asleep already. ya know it's unhealthy for you to be stayin' up late.”

you didn't know what to say. “i know, i just wanted to see you.”

he didn't answer. you can't look at him either so you don't know what kind of look he's giving you right now.

you took in a deep breath. “just… i'm sorry for avoiding you these past few days. i acted out. i'm sorry.” you said and find the courage to look at him, locking gaze — fuck — if he doesn't hold the most beautiful eyes you ever saw. you were embarrassed. he was your best friend and to avoid him all of a sudden with no explanation whatsoever really hurt him. he thought you were gonna replace him. he thought you realized what a scum he really is and you were leaving him. he really liked hanging out with you so when you blurted all that, he couldn't help but to lock you in his arms. he hugged you tightly.

“'m sorry if i've done anything to make you upset. i won't do it anymore. just don't leave me. don't ya avoid me like that ever again-”

you realized what you've done and returned the tight and warm hug. you rubbed your hand against his back. “no, mams. im the one who should be saying sorry. i- i was just worried. i promise i will never avoid you like ever again. im so sorry.”

you heard him sniffled. he was crying. that broke your heart. you let go of him to hold his face and wiped his tears away. “im so sorry, okay? the… the truth is i was afraid of losing you — i know how ironic that sounds. it's just, it's only weeks before i go back to the human world and i realized how attached i am to you. i thought maybe that if i avoid you now, it'll soften the blow but no. it made things worse. im sorry. im really sorry.”

“ya stupid human!” he buried himself in the crook of your neck again. “it's only natural that i'll be hurt when you leave. you're… my human, after all! but that doesn't mean you should avoid me. you shoulda just told me that!”

you smiled softly. “im telling you know, am i? sorry, alright? not gonna happen again.”

“ya better own up to your words.”

you didn't know when your hug ended but that night felt like forever. it was silent and it was just the two of you. a heavy weight was lifted off of your chest. you held mammon closer to you as he peacefully slumber. you sighed softly before caressing his face. “i love you.” was the last thing you said before falling asleep next to him.

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