#ik a lot of colleges are test optional for this year but i dont graduate this year

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i swear to fucking god if i get my scores back after taking the sats tomorrow and they arent what i want i am simply not going to college

#i am waking up at 6;15 risking covid and paying $100 for what?? #to possibly not get accepted into any schools anyways?? #i hate the collgeboard so much #i am seething w rage rn #i will get my desired score out of spite #i refuse to give them any more of my time or my money #i also have work tomorrow :( #seriously tho i will not be going if my scores arent 600+ #this is my second time taking them #im taking the subject tests #ive been doing the barrons practice tests and doing fine but im thinking ppl were lying when they said barrons #was harder than the actual test bc i went from a 460 to a 780 #thats a huge jump and idk if i buy it #not getting my hopes up #ik a lot of colleges are test optional for this year but i dont graduate this year #plus im missing one math credit (FUCK precalculus) so i cant go to any of the unis in my state #idk if i wanna go international #ive looked into it and its Appealing but it scares me #rambles