#ik its a dumb thing to get mad over but i just!!!!! i still cant fucking understand how So many ppl hate AA4 !!!!!!!!!

[imraespace]

HELP hi guys😆😊 I have a funny story to share(it has a serious topic(?) just anemia so don't worry too much abt that) it will probably be long idk and also it's the reason I didn't updated the megumi smau yesterday so I say blame the discordians!

ALSO why did I blink and saw that I have 441 followers it probably went up but I'm too lazy to check.

okay anyways so my friend and I have this small server on discord it was originally my kpop server I made back in 2022 bc I wanted txt friends but then we kinda shut it down last year AND NOW ITS BACK UP! so we talk a lot in that server and SHE ASKED ME to pretend to be boys on the Greg bot yk the phone bot thing! so I was like oh okay! BC PPL ALREADY THINK IM A BOY ON MY REGULAR ACC so I used my second acc and created a whole other person(his name is ezra and he's a bleach fan.) right and it was harmless when we went on the Greg bot right made some mini bro friends right! I think someone actually wanted us bc they asked for our ig but um anyways.

EVERYTHING WENT GOOD UNTIL these two girls.

to understand my story better I have to over share on some stuff. my race is black and I'm anemic so since yk that my story will make some sense.

firstly when we said hi I said "yo" bc idk boys say that and my friend she had gave up on being a boy I just continued bc being a boy is fun.. AND WHEN MY FRIEND SAID HI she was like "HELLO" and boom drama started BC APPARENTLY THEY WERE LIKE "ik this call abt to be ass" and started talking abt how she said hello in all caps and my username (it was fw.ez HELPME) and I didn't notice them talking abt my friend first and only saw when they talked abt my username so I was like "dang dawg I'm.not even a boy" bc i thought yk harmless prank! but apparently I was using the word "dawg" wrong? WHAT😱 AND THEN PROCEEDED TO CALL ME WHITE. WHITE PPL CANT USE THE WORD DAWG? AND THERES A RIGHT WAY? so I was confused at first then I understood what they meant and told them im black I think they short circuit but still carried on with their arguments so I got mad and my chest began to race bc my anemia sometimes affects my emotions and I will get a tad bit emotional! so um I couldn't think straight I wanted to tell them some very bad words in dialect but they wouldn't even understand me so I was like I bet yall annoying as hell and it shut them up apparently AND YK MY FRIRND WASNT EVEN ON DISCORD I HAD TO DEFEND FOR MYSELF AND HER AND SHE CAME BACK AND WAS LIKE what's happening. GIRL. I told her what was happening and she called them dumb HAHAHA anyways then we came off the phone but THANKS TO THEM I HAD A RACING HEART AND A SEMI WEAK BODY with cold fingers and toes so I couldn't do anything I was going to write a new chapter for the megs smau bc I forgot to do it eariler in the day but I couldn't even think straight so I was up until 4am😒 with a racin heart and random emotional changes with my mommy gossiping abt some game we play(romance club it's like episode but better i recommend that you play the story called song of the crimson nile hehehheheja) and now IM HOME FROM SCHOOL BC OF THEM🤨😒😒

lesson of the day- ignore THOSE discordians!😉

oh and um a megumi update later when I'm feeling better🤫😉😉

#imraespace -♡ #funny story but its just me ranting a bit #imraesrandom

[maraariana01]

smh now i cant sleep bc im mad,,,,,

#its 2 am waaaaaaaaa #i just wanted to watch som ace attorney playthroughs n happened to stumble upon some jackass who hates apollo justice so much it's just..... #pathetic #like.........bro shut the fuck up #ik its a dumb thing to get mad over but i just!!!!! i still cant fucking understand how So many ppl hate AA4 !!!!!!!!! #FUCK #im so mad im gonna think abt apollo so i wont feel so mad #i love him Fuck you. #mara needs to stfu

[moonlit-imagines]

Headcanons for being Peter Parker’s Younger Sibling

Peter Parker x sibling!reader

warnings: bullying mention, blood mention

a/n: a fuckin reach, its been a WHILE since ive seen tasm

prompt: y/n is peter’s sibling

peter and you were playful kids

you were just a year and some months younger than him, so you had a harder time remembering your parents than him

but he always told you stories about them that made you miss them a little more

peter was a genius, we all know it

he was the one helping you with your homework most nights

“peter i cant do it!”

“that’s okay, y/n. look, start with two times four, that’s eight, then four times six, twenty-four, right?”

“can i say a cuss word?”

“sure”

“math is shit”

you would cry during homework a lot

you’d also pass out on his floor after talking for hours

and you’d either wake up facedown on the floor or in your room since uncle ben would pick you up and put you to bed

peter took it upon himself to take you back to your room, but he usually dragged you by the arm, sooooo

you’d play action figures together

he was batman, you were robin always

“can i be batman?”

“oldest gets to be batman so im batman”

“but i wanna be batman!”

peter walked you to your school before taking off on his skateboard

and he’d pick you up on his way home

on half-days your brother taught you how to skate

you fell a lot

aunt may had to patch you up

“how many times do i have to tell you those skateboards are dangerous?!”

peter got you your own skateboard so that you could practice without him

you would text him after you did a trick and he’d always say hell yes! show me when i get home!

being his photography assistant

really you were his assistant constantly

science fair was the most boring day of the year

“y/n, stand right here, i need to get something from my locker”

*judges walk up while youre left unattended and in a state of PANIC*

you were bullied in middle school, same as peter, he’d always stick up for you and get beat up instead

it made you very mad but it was scary, too

“how’d you get into this fight, peter?”

“oh, you know, just happened”

“peter was sticking up for me, uncle ben”

“was he now? you’re a good brother, peter”

lonely when he moved onto high school :/

but you got there soon enough

you guys were kind of loners, just ate lunch together, lugged around your skateboards, you were an artist, he was a photographer

just spectating the chaos of high school, rolling your eyes at the drama

“i have two bucks, do you want anything from the vending machine?”

“uhh, a coke?”

you saw peter get bullied by flash and lost your shitttt

you actually started a food fight after throwing mashed potatoes in his eyes

“what the hell, parker?!”

“sit down and eat your goddamn food, flash, or next time it wont be potatoes”

peter was half-proud, half-embarrassed

trying to see how long you could skate through the halls before any authority figures stopped you

sometimes......you guys got sent to the office together :)

*phone ringing* “hello, is this ben parker?”

“which one of them is it this time?”

the principal’s office was a trip sometimes

you and peter exchange your glances and wait to get scolded

“ah, the parkers, come in, lets have a chat...why do you two always feel the need to get in trouble together?”

“we just happen to get along really well for siblings”

no you fuckin dont lmaoooo

it was always something with you two

like always

*banging on peter’s door* “I KNOW YOU HAVE MY BROWNIES, PETER, GIVE THEM BACK”

*peter through a mouthful of brownies* “I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOURE TALKING ABOUT, YOURE CRAZY”

“is that my jacket?” -peter

“you mean my jacket?”

“y/n, i swear to god if you steal any more of my clothes it’s over for you”

“well, aunt may keeps giving me your clothes, so take it up with her”

and then there was just the little annoying things

“peter, can you stop clicking your pen?”

*clicks pen faster*

“you’re the worst”

and my personal favorite

“peter, open the door”

“why?”

“emergency”

*opens bedroom door* “what?”

“aunt may is making meatloaf”

“shit, uh...get your board, we’ll skate to mcdonalds and tell her we already ate”

peter and you RARELY ever brought your parents up until he found your dad’s briefcase, you didn’t have much to say

soon he was flooding his room with conspiracies and pulling you in to explain them

he began acting REALLY weird, but he was pretty open with you, he told you he went to oscorp

“YOU SNUCK IN??”

“your standards for me are way too high, y/n”

soon you started to feel not-so-good and weird things started to happen

“peter??”

“yeah? whats up?”

“this is gonna sound really weird...my hand is stuck to the door”

“it happened to you, too??”

“happening, pete. wait—this happened to you?? what is this???????”

yall done fucked up and got bit by spiders peter had so carelessly brought back into the house

it was an adjustment to say the least

and this adjustment got a whole lot harder that one night...you can remember peter just...so upset

you tried to chase him out to make sure he was okay, but uncle ben told you to stay with your aunt

maybe if you’d have been there...it would’ve been different, but when the cops got to your house you were at a loss for words

peter was covered in his blood still

“hey, hey, just breathe, okay? it’s not your fault, peter. just hop in the shower, yeah? i’ll take care of your clothes”

when peter took your advice and you were left alone, you just cried, you cried until he finally found you curled up in a ball in your room

then he cried, you just hugged each other sobbing your eyes out

peter got distant for a while, which was rough since the two of your were mourning for your uncle and dealing with these newfound powers

sooner or later he came around and helped you out, designing webshooters and a suit for you

“we match?”

*sigh* “yeah...yeah, we match”

ah yes, spider-team

you really tripped out new york at first, they thought spider-man was a teleporter

peter was still talking about your dad, but you really didn’t care, uncle ben was always going to be who raised you

you and peter would be covered in bruises after going out

“uh—peter punched me”

“y/n???!!!”

“I PANICKED”

just being dumb scared teens that cant function to save their lives until they get a little bit lucky

seriously like, every big villain you guys fought was just the worst

peter didn’t help all the time, he was good at provoking them sometimes

“hey, spider-man, you mind shutting up for a minute? for my sake?”

“sorry, sorry, just couldn’t help myself!”

he gushed to you about gwen stacy, he actually dragged you to her apartment to be patched up by her SEVERAL TIMES

yadda yadda yadda peter graduated high school! how cool is that? but he was late (what a surprise) even though you put off spidering today just for this

but he made it and you clapped the loudest for him

“thats my brotherrrr!!!”

cute family picture! (aunt may printed a bunch of them and gave them to you two and peter pinned them to his wall)

you and peter actually have a lot of pictures of the two of you just goofing off

he has one of you stuck in a trash can that cracks him up every time

seeing harry osborn again after YEARS

“wow, y/n, last time i saw you i just thought you were peter’s annoying little sibling”

“aww, it’s good to see you, too”

electrooooo

this guy really worried you bc like, bzzzz shock

you and peter weren’t equipped for that

it took a while, but you were finally able to deal with that

and several other problems

including peter’s breakup, which was a whole ordeal of its own

*peter laying upside down on your bed* “i dont know, y/n, you know? i wanna be with her so bad, i love her...but her dad is haunting me”

*you, drawing on your notepad with your legs propped up on his* “yeah, makes sense”

you actually had to tap out during the end of electro, you were hurt pretty bad

“y/n, hey? yeah, you’re okay. stay here, just stay right there, i’m gonna be back for you”

*thumbs up to show youre still alive*

but when peter came back for you there was bad news, he’d lost gwen

he ripped his mask off and fell to his knees, you could barely move but you powered through it, giving him a hug while he cried

“we...we better get home before aunt may starts to worry”

she was at work, so you two had the place to yourselves to clean up and mourn before the official news was revealed

“i should have listened to her dad, y/n, this is all my fault”

he was a mess, you couldn’t bare seeing him like this. it’s been so long since you’d seen him like this

the funeral was rough, peter was grasping onto your shoulder the whole time

he insisted that he was going to stick behind and stay with gwen for a while

“okay, i’ll see you at home...love you”

“love you too”

you gave him a hug and left him to his business, the next few months you were the only spider-person operating in new york...until rhino popped up

“im coming with you”

“you’re sure?”

“yeah, im sure”

(these are kinda ass but anyways im tagging my marvel ppl even tho ik this isnt mcu so just ignore this post if you dont care, sorry!!)

taglist: @alwaysananglophile // @rorybutnotgilmore // @locke-writes // @sweetheartliz07 // @queen-destenie // @natasha-danvers // @allthecreativeonesaretaken // @frostedgiant // @praellee // @emygirl // @lotsoffandomrecs //

#peter parker x reader #peter parker imagine #peter parker #spiderman #spiderman imagine #spiderman x reader #marvel #marvel x reader #marvel imagine #andrew garfield #amazing spider man #amazing spider man x reader #amazing spider man imagine #parker!reader #peter parker x sibling!reader #peter parker x sister!reader

[cullens-babe]

@ma-serannas-vhenan

Update >:))). AND THIS IS RLLY LONG MY BAD DHWBD.

I still love how Alistairs voice cracks sometimes when he’s in his goofy voice, how serious he comes at times, and how sometimes his voice is soft and not loud but,,confident in a way?? Even if he himself isn’t confident. I love him,,,

Yo I’m such an idiot. When they say “Lady” I expected like a human but it’s just werewolves.

OH WAIT NO ITS NOT THERE IS A SPIRIT (?) AND SHES THE LADY OF THE FOREST!!

Hnnng,,the keeper (forgot his name) is not willing to talk to the werewolves even though HE IS THE ONE WHO DID THE CURSE IN THE FIRST PLACE?!! I will force him to talk to them bc I’m an Empath™️ and WILL try to keep things peaceful >:((

YESSS I CONVINCED HIM TO TALK TO THEMM!! He better not harm them >:(. But I do see where he’s coming from. They did kill his son and then hurt his daughter all the same,,,that is terrible, but you shouldn’t give them an ETERNITY of pain. I wouldn’t like an eternity of pain, and so I wouldn’t be able to wish an eternity of pain on someone. Maybe a few years, but not eternity. But maybe I’m saying that bc I’m not him who knows-

NO!! I DONT WANT TO FIGHT HIM PLEASSEEE. I don’t want him to die,,the Dalish will not be on our side since we killed the keeper but like,,,making all those people suffer, even YOUR clan suffer because of your revenge isn’t right. They deserve peace now at least. They’ve sure learned their lesson and deserve a bit of peace,,,

OH. Alistair approves? I thought he would’ve disapproved just a little since I’m protecting wolves who have been cursed (for a good reason tbh even tho they don’t deserve it forever) and how they are dangerous. I’m happy then :))).

YESS! SPIRIT!! She can’t kill him since if they can’t show mercy then the keeper cant!! YES!! I LOVE HER!! I would LOVE for her to be my lady. I mean if I was under her rule lol. And I’m so happy I got to basically let everyone have peace. The keeper may have had to die, but maybe he’s at peace now with his kids. Idk if he had a wife but he may be at peace now,,,I’m happy it ended okay😭. What did you choose bc I’m curious👀.

Basically all my inquisitors approve of my Grey Warden since,,I’m terrible at making different inquisitors since they all just are Empaths™️. They have 100+ approval for my grey warden lol.

AYYY!! DANYLA’S HUSBAND GOT HER SCARF AND HES GONNA GO MOURN HER BUT HEY,,AT LEAST HE KNOWS SHE SENT HER LOVE.

YES!! Alistair came up like “(ɔ ⚈︣ ᴥ ⚈︣ )ɔ” bein shy and like a puppy and he asked her to sleep with himmm!!! I love him he was so awkward and shy but sO HONEST!! Precious baby🥺. Now it’s time to talk to my companions a bit more and such and lvl up before I do the landsmeet :)))).

OH NO,,OH NO,, in an Alistair walkthrough he said “King or no king I’ll find a way for us to work,” BUT TO ME HE SAID “Idk what it means for us. I don’t want to be king, but I will if it’s the best for our nation, and I don’t know what will happen to us. I need to think about it,” OH NO DBWBS. Don’t let me lose Alistair now no😭. If so, then I WILL pull a me when I made Bloom on DAI, not finish her, and do a human route for this puppy. I will do it bdbwbs.

I love Wynne and how she’s so nice😭. She apologizes for being harsh about Rose and Alistair and how she thought she (as in Rose not Wynne) would hurt Alistair, but now she realizes that they love each other so much. And I better be able to keep Alistair please,,

Ooh,,Zevran loved his mother’s gloves but they were never seen again,,I wonder if it’s possible to find them? Hmm?? If so, I’d love to talk to him more bc Ik he had a quest and if you don’t at least come a little close to him, then it will have an unhappy ending and ya know :))) I don’t like unhappy endings :((((.

OHH!! I already found his mothers gloves I believe!! Yesss >:))).

Leliana just starting singing and HNNG THE SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!! And Leliana apologizing when she was talking about the elves and saying how they were looked upon if they were well trained and realizing her words were a little harsh-ish. I love Leliana here and in DAI🥺.

Leliana trusts me and says how she feels comfortable around me and HMMM LELIANA I LOVE YOUU!! I have so many conversations to catch up with people. But it’s mainly bc I’m dumb and keep taking Leliana and Wynne and Alistair with me lol. Maybe I should take Wynne (I NEED a healer since I’m dumb and sometimes don’t notice people need healing), Morrigan, and Zevran. That’s an interesting pair. Mainly bc I’ll get to talk to Zevran more since he’ll be able to go to new places with me and maybe get more topics to talk about with him :))).

OHHH. I DIDNT REALIZE THE “Andraste’s Grace” FLOWERS WERE MEANT FOR LELIANA DABSB. I tried to give them to Zevran to try and make him be a little closer but he said no and I was like “oh? Do they only take specific gifts?” And decided the flowers seemed to fit Leliana since she is from the chantry and such and she did like them!! Now I need to find Wynnes personal item and Oghren personal item. If they have one I mean-

Aww. Wynne’s apprentice was an elf and she was young and thought he was arrogant and stubborn because he was young and knew nothing of humans other than what he saw in the Alienage. She wasn’t patient and just saw him as another mage and he couldn’t learn since he was unresponsive and closed off. And then she betrayed him off a ridiculous at the time and they had his phylactery and they hunted him down,,AND HES DEAD AND THEY KILLED HIM WHEN HE WAS LOST AND A CHILD!!! AND WYNNE NEVER LEARNED OF WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM, ONLY THAT HE DIED😭. At least Wynne learned tho. Ik it’s a terrible terrible way to learn, but at least she learned.

AND SHE SAID HOW HE WAS THE TEACHER AND SHE WAS THE STUDENT😭. AND I GOT A QUEST FOR WYNNES REGRET!! If I can somehow find her apprentice (forgot his name) THEN I WILL LITERALLY WORSHIP THIS GAME.

Oh no,,OH NO HYDRA. WAS THE HERMIT HER APPRENTICE?? PLEASE DONT TELL ME IT WAS BC I HAD TO KILL HIM. HYDRA NO-

OH THANK GOD IT WASNT HIM!! I WAS ABOUT TO BE SO MAD AT MYSELF SNWBD.

WOAH,,this is rlly long my bad. But love уσυ ( ˘ ³˘)💙. I’m excited to get DA 2 soon😌. But right now in gonna finish this but like I said earlier, if I can’t keep Alistair then I WILL start over dbwbdb. I’m that stubborn when it comes to wanting to keep LI’s lol.

#dragon age #dao #dragon age origins #dragon age: origins #da:o #da #hmmm the wait for getting DA 2 is killing me but it’s better than paying literally 20 dollars or 45 dollars for the game. #It only cost 4.99 but with shipping and stuff it costs 9.70 :))). Better than the other prices so👀👀 #But Fenris I’m excited and the voice PC bc it sounds SO nice. Like I’ve said multiple times a

[bastardenoch]

⚠️ CONFERENCE OF THE BIRDS SPOILERS ⚠️

alright welcome ya gutter rats! im gonna be sharing my thoughts on tcotb because everyone else is and GODDAMNIT i wanna be included >:( without further ado....

• BOOM right off the bat i FUCKING hate noor and jacob like i get that jemma had some issues and i didnt even really ship THAT super hard but like ??? ransom has been focusing a LOT on developing jemma for FOUR FUCKING BOOKS and now all the sudden jacobs head over heels for a totally new character and emma is barely even one???? bull-fucking-shit

• addison addison addison hes so baby i miss he

• i love enoch so fucking much like omg im so in love with him ??? i was reading in public and i couldnt stop smiling at everything he said ?? like why is he so fucking adorable ?? ALSO the fact that hes getting an actual canon personality rather than one we as the fandom completely created is making me so fucking happy :3

• speaking of the lil fucker can we PULEASE get him a love interest? can we PLEASE get enoch a love interest!!

• the hollowheart moments in this book were borderline too much im deceased like when enoch fucking winked at jacob ??? and when jacob elbowed him in the ribs?? stopppsbdjgs i cant take it

• hugh was SO BEYOND CUTE in the book like literally baby its the second best book for him (hollow city hugh was immaculate)

• me: i miss horace

ransom: hes right there

me: not enough horace

• emma was awful in this book purley because ransom stripped her of all individuality and power and depth in order to cater to noor and jacob (barf)

• millard was pretty cool in this book i still think hollow city millard, hugh, horace, and enoch were just peak character writing but its whatever i still love the dumb nerds

• i really miss cairnholm

• fiona being back only makes me happy for hugh,, ik if this fandom had more than 4 people and a soggy loaf of bread in it id get cancelled for saying this but i never got attached to fiona :/// like shes cool, cool powers, cute backstory, but its kinda hard to get attached to a character when they dont speak and “die” in the second book sorry

• did i mention i love enoch

• sharon is a king period

• like i really love enoch im literally going through my copies of the books and highlighting every enoch moment

• the conflict in this one wasnt strong but i didnt rlly mind cuz i j straight up love these characters and hearing all the little things they do o3o

• nothing was built up enough for me to strongly care

• the most interesting sequence of action was jacob taming the hollow in the deadriser loop

• SPEAKING OF THE DEADRISER LOOP WE DIDNT GET TO SEE ENOCH INTERACT WITH THEM AT. ALL. WHICH IS A FUCKING CRIME IM SO MAD

thank you for coming 🥰

[whydontwelovely]

Skin - Z.H.

Requested: yes, by @why-d-we for prize for contest!!

Pairing: Zach x Reader

Warnings: angsty , cursing , short(kinda) , abbreviations during texting convos

A/N: idk if this is what you were looking for ... enjoy !! :)

Summary/plot: “Our relationship is like skin. Once it dries, it cracks. Once it cracks, it bleeds. In our situation we don’t have a bandaid to fix us.”

You walk along the busy streets of LA looking for your boyfriend, Zach. You check your phone, 11:30 pm. He was supposed to be here over an hour ago.

You check your location, making sure you were at the right place before calling him. Voice mail. You relent and decide to text him.

You: hey where r u ?

Ten minutes go by...

You: did u get my calls ??

Then thirty...

You: pleeeaaassee reply

You: forget it. im omw to ur house :(

Induced with frustration, you hail a cab and make your way to Zach’s house, in which he shares with his friends.

You walk up to his door, but before you could knock, Zach opens the door.

“Where were you?!” you hiss.

“What? Sorry, I didn’t realize I had to be somewhere...?” he rolls with sarcasm.

“Our date!”

“Our what now?”

“Don’t act like you don’t know! You and I both know we had this date planned for weeks! Weeks! Why didn’t you answer my calls?!”

“Geez, babe. My frickin’ phone was dead, chill.”

Still in the doorway, Zach steps out and shuts the door, crossing his arms defensively, making his shadow dim in the night.

“Why are so sad when I happen to miss something? I’m human. I forget things, okay?” he says.

“I’m not sad, Zach, I’m frickin’ mad.” you spit.

“Chill, it’s just one date!”

“Why don’t you care?! This isn’t the first time you-“

“I what?” he interrupts, flustering you.

“You...you...this isn’t the first time you’ve fucked up our relationship.” the words come out like hot blades, and you could tell Zach was stabbed by them.

He goes silent and looks around before talking again.

“I? I fuck up our relationship? All you ever do is whine and complain like any old brat would!” this time, his words pierce through you.

“Fine. If I’m such a brat then why don’t you just break up with me?”

He laughs, but nothings sounds funny.

“Okay,” he says. “We’re done.”

You stand there in disbelief, wishing to take back your rhetorical request. You begin to walk away, but turn around.

“You know Zach, our relationship is like skin. Once it dries out, it cracks. And once it cracks, it bleeds.” you snarl. “And in our situation there’s no bandaid to fix us.”

He stands there, staring blankly at you.

He whispers, “That’s the dumbest thing I-“

“It’s not dumb, Zach,” you yell, surprising him that you heard what he said.

He uncrosses his arms, blantly calling defeat.

“It’s not dumb, if you let us bleed. It’s not dumb if all I could do was watch us fall apart!” you were crying now, your voice slightly breaking as you yell.

Zach kept his position, saying, “Go.”

“What?!” you say.

“I said go!” he screams loud enough for practically anyone to hear. Even his friends came outside.

He keeps his position still, tears slowly streaming down past his cheeks, sad to see you go. He wants to scream. He wants to tell you to come back. But like you said, there’s no bandaid to stop the blood from flowing.

“Here,” Daniel jumps out from behind the boys, walking toward you. “I can drive you home.”

His whisper is soft and flowly heard next to your shoulder. You nod and follow him to his car.

The other boys step back inside, but Zach stands on the porch, same position, while tears leak out of his eyes as if it was his own skin that was bleeding and the tears were blood. But no one would be able to see that, due to the icy shade of darkness in the midst of the night. To him, the sight of you alone and less vulnerable with Daniel is almost as excrutiating as you leaving him.

The ride home with Daniel is quiet. He often takes looks at you, your eyes bloodshot and weary from crying. You turn your head so he doesn’t see.

He takes his free hand and holds yours with it. They are softer and more comforting than Zach’s.

The thought of Zach makes you cry even more. Daniel squeezes your hand tighter and says calmly, “It’s okay. He’s gone. You’ll be alright.”

The words toss and turn inside your head.

It’s okay, He’s right. You are safe now.

He’s gone, Is he talking about Zach? Or maybe Zach’s actions?

You’re safe now, You definately feel safe next to Daniel. Is it because of him, or because anything could feel safe after Zach?

Meanwhile, Zach sits on the couch, head in hands, sobbing. After an hour of Daniel not being back, he tries texting him.

Zach: bro where r u ? its been an hour 👀

Ten minutes go by...

Zach: i need 2 talk w u

Then thirty...

Zach: r u still w y/n ? ik u r

Zach: if u r, tell her im srry that i fucked up our relationship. i should have been the bandaid to fix us rather than b the crack that broke us.

Knowing that Daniel won’t reply anytime soon, he texts you.

Zach: im srry

Zach: u prob think im a dick

Zach: dont blame u

Zach: i love u, gn

No reply ... yet.

You: i accept ur apology

You: i still cant b w u, u have 2 understand that. apologies are not bandaids

Zach: just know that i do love u, tho. i rlly rlly do.

THE END

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[sun-uwu]

Vent time:/

Well it been a while and these are normally for myself since all the people that like them are only p#rn bots. As always it will be out of context:)

We've been talking since mid to late Jan. You're super nice and sweet but when you want to be. when we first started talking I loved it I really did. I fell pretty hard for you bc you are just my type. Tall, emotionally distant and glasses:).

key word "emotionally distant". You have anger issues its one of the few things I noticed about you. It's funny bc sometimes you'll come to me to vent about the things that made you mad that day. You do it bc you'll know I wont say anything and just listen to you rant. Like last time you ranted you called me and told me about some Krypto currency you put money into and how you accidently sold it. you were so mad bc it was at the highest price point its ever been at and how you impulsively bought it back with thinking of waiting for the price to drop lower so it wouldn't mess you up.

On that day we had a little miss communication about stuff. It was so dumb but ig to you it was just something and you were tired of me. I've told you multiple times I suck at affection. I love it but hate it at the same time. You got so mad bc I forgot to hug you before you left. I really don't know why you expect me to be like that all the time when you yourself are just the same. afterwards we made things up, were ok.

until a couple of days later you asked me if I wanted to take a break. I don't even fucking know what we are. I was so confused when you asked me. I thought things were going good till you brought up the fact both of us have been emotionally distant recently.

I should've said yes. I didn't though, I just left it on read till we could talk about face to face bc over the phone and through text I cant read your tone of voice or your facial expressions. I only ever base my final answers on other people. Honestly I think you hate that. in some sort of way its like lying.

your only ever doing that to avoid issues and it sometimes is never what you truly want to say. You really do hate liars. you've told me that multiple times.

I like you so much that I've literally told you about some of my traumatic childhood. all you said was " my poor baby ". I regret telling you. I feel like I have trapped you and I will use that against you. I did though put a love charm in you. Which yes ik is dumb but I really do like you and in some sort of weird way. you have become my new obsession.

There is so much more I could say about you. Like how when we first started talking I cried a lot bc you joke around to much and would say " we need to stop talking, don't even approach me at (?) " I cried so much when you did that. after the 2nd-3rd time I just went numb. I told you how that made me cry and all you said was " sorry I didn't know you would " but you also said t was cute how I cared so much to the point of crying.

Recently you've been getting more annoyed of me. which I understand everyone does at some point. I really do wonder if you actually do want a break from me. when I asked why you said it you said you didn't know but deep down I think you are bored of me. Just fucking tell me you want the break and we can finally rest. I get so tired of you messing with me. just please say you want a break so i can take a break. I wont though ill only ever say yes when you say yes. please just say it. I'm so tired and I want to sleep without having to worry if you still like me or if you're cheating on me.

Technically you wont be though bc I'm pretty sure were not even dating were just still in the talking phase.

I'm contemplating if I should say that I want a break and ill come back when I feel better. Ever since I started talking to you I feel like my mental health has taken a turn down hill. last year I was doing so well until Jan when I started to base all my things of you.

Its weird to me bc you've told me about how you used to cheat on all the people you have dated. I think about that a lot. I wonder if you talk to other girls and I'm just a lil charm on you little bracelet that you show off to all you friends. I've asked a few times and you have joked about it but always say I'm the only one. Its also so weird to me that you were the first to say I love you. at this point I cant tell if you really do or you just say it to make me happy.

Remember the other day when you dropped me off home but right before you did me and you sat in your car for an hour just talking. it was really cute and I really liked talking to you but idk something felt off. like you only did it so you could make a move on me. if so you should've. it was April 24th national r### day.

I guess you noticed something was off bc its 1am and you just texted me " if anything happens I just want you to know I love you ". wow you even said "love" not "luv".

God I really am tired of everything but I still love you.

Well goodnight and thanks if read all of this bs. I'm going to go watch p### and cry:)

[heavyyhearts-blog]

actually heres my side

“ first, before getting to real stuff, aya has done this to other people in the past too. when she talked about them to me she said they abused her or abandoned her suddenly. i’ve only talked to one of these people, but they confirmed that aya actually abused, and then stalked them when they cut her off. i don’t have permission to post these logs so out of respect i won’t put them here. “

ive never been very clear in talking about my past experiences with most people. you make this sound as if every person that's ever "abandoned me" were all "abused" by me, when that's not the case. have i acted in shitty ways to some people? yes, but it never had anything to do with me being abandoned, at any point. one of these people, actually straight up disappeared from my life, and i have no idea why. they disappeared off skype and i havent seen them since. we had no problems between eachother whatsoever. a different example i can think of for someone i was talking about? they left because i was too stressful to be around. as in, i always complained too much and that kind of thing and it was too much to be around. i didnt even know them very long.  another example of a person i mentioned with that: they had really bad schizophrenia and like, trauma issues, and what happened there? they'd randomly like? actually start basically splitting on me and getting extremely angry at me out of nowhere for no reason, which i tried to be really tolerable of, until things basically got too much for either of us to handle and after a bit of dumb drama, we separated with , i believe, no hard feelings.

my point being? when i say "ive been abandoned by a lot of people" or whatever, im not literally claiming that i was abused by literally everyone and im some huge victim, lol. that last example? you could probably say i was abused due to the level of pent up anger they were throwing at me, , unprovoked

“ i’ve only talked to one of these people, but they confirmed that aya actually abused, and then stalked them when they cut her off “

first of all, this happened literal years ago. second of all, this person is still full of shit and i can't believe they still insist all of these bullshit lies. "aya stalked me" i hadnt visited your blog for months, i'd literally forgotten about you, yet you somehow still had it set in your head that i was "stalking" you. i wanted to remake my blog for a multitude of reasons, and one of them being, a more back of my mind thing, was, i didnt want you viewing my blog. so i remade. and, like, 2-3 days later, i got paranoid that you had somehow found my new blog, entirely new, so i asked my friend to go see if my new url was on there, because i didnt want to go back on your blog myself. and sure enough, there it was, my new url, even though i hadn't given it out to anyone or posted it anywhere, meaning you literally searched through notes of a post or something along those lines to find it. yeah ive explained this so many times now its fun :) not to mention your shitty friend(s) that would constantly twist my words around and lie saying i was doingthings that i didnt. and your only "proof" was logs of talking shit about me behind my back to one of my friends, you had no screenshots of me doing anything, because guess what, i never did it. wow. "i dont have screenshots because i deleted them all" okay bud. anyway

and now here's my main issue with everything: you are "calling me out" for things we have already personally talked about, that we either resolved, or i apologized for/said that i would try to stop doing so i can better myself which i have actually done? so i literally do not understand why youre calling me out for shit as if im some malicious person trying to hurt people that's just completely incapable of getting better or whatever. lets start

“i’ve tried to cut her off several times, both by trying to talk and express my want to stop talking to her first and by just blocking/ignoring her on everything. i made it clear i wanted to stop talking the first couple of times. she will spam and beg me and make new accounts if she has to. once ive added her back however she’s used that against me”

okay youre calling me out for this but you admitted what you did was fucked up too? and i dont know what else to even say to this other than im going to try to stop getting so attached to people like that so i maybe dont have such bad mental breakdowns every time i thnk someone close to me is leaving like sorry i cant. help feeling that way or control this thing specifically unless i just dont get attached like that at all, which is my fault.

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here, you post a completely out of context rant from me, where i got mad at something you did that you literally admitted was fucked up. full context!

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you even told me you had no idea what you were talking about with any of it.

“ one of the times that we weren’t talking she DMd my twitter mutuals asking them to screenshot my recent tweets. “

i told you my reason for it. i was extremely paranoid that you were talking shit about me behind my back and i wanted to know if you were or not, even though i did it in a really shitty way. i instantly felt so beyond terrible that i had done that. i was sobbing the entire time i was trying to apologize for how fucked up and wrong it was of me to do that, and even apologized for it again later after it had happened already. because i wanted to make sure you knew how sorry i was for it. i cant take something like that back.

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“recently, after getting so upset with me for doing the same thing in the past, she randomly blocked me on everything and refused to talk to me. i would understand if she hadn’t previously gotten so mad and upset at me for the exact same thing. “

?? i split really bad just like i already have been, due to , as i've already exlpained, the nonstop bad things we've had between us for months, to the point i havent been able to talk to you like normal anymore, because just seeing you pisses me off and everything you say/do will just piss me off. i cant help that. its not my fault. i cant just not split like that because we've had fucked up problems for months, that, guess what, shouldnt even be public here for all reasons ive already stated! but i also did it just because ive been deciding i need to get away from you for good, that i dont WANT to talk to you at all anymore. sucks to be treated the way you treat others right.

“ i posted on my twitter saying i wanted to drink and she instantly messaged me begging and spamming me not to “

and everything else like stalling, pressuring you etc. this is still. we talked about this. i said sorry. i got better about it. why do i have a callout.

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like this is literally all just trying to make me look bad in ways that i'm not. nice try, though!

“ when i cc’d bakugou and she tried to make me explain my trauma to make it Valid “

you're trying to make me look bad again. i was just asking because i was anxious wanted to know the reasoning for it and im sorry for pressing it at all but that doesnt mean i was trying to make you explain it so it could be "valid" shut the fuck up lol i even explained to you afterwards why it made me so uncomfortable and that it didnt bother me anymore, that i thought you were just blindly cc'ing him for no real reason like i just assumed it wasnt a coping thing or anything and thats my fault but??? youre trying to make me look bad for it so??? i'd even keep sending you fanart of him like.

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“ she was extremely dependent on me and would spam me if i fell asleep before she woke up, she’d got upset and started splitting on me because i didn’t return her feelings of attraction. “

wat...

“ second, she’s blaming everything on her BPD and “not being able to help it,” or “can’t control herself” “

well, as you can clearly see, ive been anything but that??? but if you wanna keep telling yourself that, go ahead. have i said things LIKE that before? yes, when i was freaking out, over certain things i actually can't help, for example: abandonment trauma??? and like i said before: i need to try to not get so attached to people in the first place so that doesnt happen anymore! otherwise, should some sort of situation like that happen again, i can't handle getting that level of upset. so i prevent that by not getting that level of attached at all. like sorry but theres certain things nobody can help, even you. you're just trying to make it sound like this entire thing has been nothing but "i cant help it"

and lastly, we can't forget the fact that, for a long time, you wouldn't tell me anything. literally anything. i would repeatedly ask you. "what do i do that bothers you what am i doing wrong" etc and all you'd ever say was "idk" 95% of the time. i had absolutely no idea that for the longest time, i had been saying a lot of manipulative, shitty things and acting bad and etc, slash i had no idea that some of my episodes were actually affecting you that badly until way too late.

when you first told me that i had been acting so shitty, through a jpeg meme that was making fun of me, did i realize how awful i was being. i honest to god never had any idea and i explained this to you countless times. that i was  oblivious/i can be oblivious to shitl ike that and that i need you to tell me, otherwise I WONT KNOW.

nice meme. :) but yeah clearly this is still an accurate representation of me, right?

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yeah, you got me though. im a toxic, abusive piece of shit that will never get better, all i do is hurt others, i can't change, ive never apologized, ive never gotten better. totally

and since we're playing this game,

and now that i've said all this, i have nothing else to say. i can't make anyone believe me, but if you do, thanks.

[personasintro]

mimi do u think its bad that im still bothered by kikos presence?? not in a way that i want her gone bc i ‘want jk and yn together’, maybe its just the fact that she cheated on jk although unintentional and its one of the things thats unforgivable imo. sometimes i feel like shes too ‘kind’ to be a cheater so the trust issues inside of me keep on thinking that shes putting on an act, but its such a dumb thing to think bc shes literally sweet. and that the cheating was a one time mistake. like i kinda get frustrated bc i wanna be neutral as a reader but i just cannot for some reason🧍🏻‍♀️

ik its such a hard decision to get back together on jk’s part though so i cant imagine how much hes struggling atm. also would u say that jk spent less time with yn, jm and tae when he was dating kiko (before their break up) bc i remember u mentioning it in one of the older chapters? if yes then does it ever make yn feel like jk would pick kiko over their friend group? ik jk loves his besties so im not slandering anyone but im just curious if it ever crosses her mind for a second?

im not criticising ur story or anything, quite the opposite actually i wanna tell u how amazing ur writing is. its so raw and although kiko isnt my favourite, i can tell that she probably does alot of these things to self sabotage?? which makes her character more human bc most cheating exes in stories would be straightup dickheads hahaha

i also relate to yn in alot of ways so that just shows how great u are as a writer. although i must say that i hate how i can literally feel yn’s anger everytime😟 like i just wanna be a neutral reader... i dont wanna be mad at anyone unless they fuck up again yk,,

ps. please dont misunderstand me!! and please try not to mind the people who shit on ur storyline its literally the best bestfriends to lovers trope ive read so far lolol,, im sure alot of us here can agree. im so excited about how the story has been developing and im even more excited to see how yn’s relationship with all the characters esp jk will develop!! ily mimi<3

It's okay not to like a character, sometimes you don't even need a reason for that. I think a lot of people are kinda bitter about her though, simply because she's not a bitch they want her to be... you know. And yes, jk was spending more time with his girlfriend than with his friends group, but it's natural and it happens when you get into a relationship. Suddenly, your free time is not just about your friends but there is another person in your life. y/n understood it, she knew all of that but as every human, she did feel maybe bitter about it... especially when she wasn't used to "sharing" him with someone else. Plus it was a sudden change, not having him there sometimes when they were hanging out.

Thank you so much♡

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