#ik she loves me so much im so

[fiendishartist2]

I saw him at a birthday party once. All the older kids were down in the basement playing video games, to hide from everyone. He was down there, too. He was older than the rest of them, though.

#my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #petscop #rainer newmaker #petscop rainer #AUUUUGGGHHHHHHH #up too late thinking about rainer. fuck my lifeeeee #theres smth so ominous about him. his place in the story of petscop is so contradictory #hes the only one who cares but hes ruthless and tackless and vengeful and a 'piece of shit' #hes not doing it because he cares about care. hes angry about mike and the way she twirls makes him sick and he cant get out of this family #hes the one who talks to belle the way marvin talks about care. hes the one who gave the game to family instead of helping care #petscop is not justice. its the final fuck you from a messed up dude in the middle of a messed up situation #rainer. rainer rainer rainer rainer rainer #im going crazyyyyyyyyyyyyy #ik you cant really see much but thats the point. rainer is not the focus bc his impact is the game #petscop 11........... i love you girl....... #genuinely my fav episode in all of petscop its so fucking good it drives me insane #tw eyestrain #eyestrain

[baeshijima]

it is now officially the 25th which means...

merry christmas everyone !!! regardless of whether u celebrate or not, i hope u all have a lovely day with whoever u spend it with or with urself <33

#sophie's idle chatter #this is scheduled so im HOPING it posts at 12 am.... prays.... #i havent been super active in the past month or two bc life is kicking my ass (<- has said this countless times already but its still true) #also !! i see asks and ill try and answer them when i actually have the time and energy 😭 ik i say this a lot but ive been drained good god #(not so) mini life updates : #the new lovebrush chronicles main story update has made me weep so much... ive done both clarence and ayns routes and.... #my god.... this story is darker and honestly im loving it AND i love how they did the chara roles in this world (alkaid... ourgh...) #my tear glands arent tho bc ayn ending 3.... what the fuck was that i couldnt sleep after doing that ending??? ITS WAS SO SAD AND FOR WHATF #currently having to wait until the 27th so i can do lars route 😔 #the recent ep of apothecary diaries.... ourgh my heart.... jinshi and maomao beloveds :(( #oh !! and ive gotten back into my ace of diamonds/daiya no ace phase and have been rewatching the series... #sobbing chris and yuki and miyuki my beloveds.... kissing ur foreheads and holding u gently..... #the way i got back into it bc im catching up on s2 of a clean sweep (a korean baseball variety show that i love with all my heart ;w;) #my mum is a traitor tho bc she watched every new ep that came out on tuesdays while i was in uni 🧍‍♀️ so now im catching up on the 30 eps #on my own 🧍‍♀️ #OMG AND ALSO DR STONE S3??? WHY WAS I NOT NOTIFIED THAT PART 1 CAME OUT MONTHS AGO AND PART 2 WAS MORE RECENT??? #i havent been doing that much writing recently tho bc the fingers wont type but the brain is exploding with ideas i cannot handle this #i do want to get back to the haitham sxf series tho.... and also my oc various x reader series....... #tbh ive been contemplating abt publishing the haitham series on ao3 once i write more chapters before publishing them #idk i feel like the series would be nice to have on ao3 as well as tumblr JHDG #thats abt it i think? #anywho if u read this far then know i am giving u a warm cookie as a condolence prize for getting through this life dump <33 #ill leave it off here but i hope u all have a lovely day !! mwah mwah merry chrysler everyone 🎄🫶 #queue... ueueue

[propertyofkylar]

thinking abt sick kylar + kylar crying her way through cramps. godddd she absolutely turns into a baby every month. whining. bitching. making pc rub her tummy. asking to be held and crying. your honor i love her

#in my first save i had f kylar. #and when she kidnapped me i was in love #dol is a great game where you can be bisexual with everyone. bi ppl stay winning as always #nica's headcanons #dol #whenever i picture f kylar tho i picture sawada from horimiya #they’re the same to me #also. i fucking miss horimiya so much. ik it’s unrelated but now im thinking about it

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

nothing interesting here it's the exact same scene i just like seeing it

#french 13 isnt my favourite but i think she did a good job here. also in the gallery scene i liked that too #french yaz i love as much as english yaz #there IS smth interesting here btw but no one else will find it interesting but 'i know' is one of those #idk #like.........measuring things. for me. when im learning a new language #bc in english it's i know obvs and in french evidently it's 'i know' too - je sais #in dutch if you said 'i know' that'd be wrong #you have to say 'i know it'. or i suppose you could inverse it and do 'weet ik' and then you can leave out the 'it' but thats not the poin #so when im learning a new language im always like is it i know or is it i know it #and thats a stand in for lots of other similar questions of course #it's a never ending list of similar questions #but it's like the thing i remind myself of #so i dont go around saying 'ik weet' #i dont mind making like conjugation or grammar mistakes that much. thats like. it'll happen its whatever #but these kind of 'i can see how you got there but thats not how we say it' errors? hate it. dont want to make them #which is why i take forever to start writing/speaking bc yes i CAN make that sentence #but idk if thats how a french speaker would make that sentence so i'll wait until ive heard someone say 'je sais' #dont want to be speaking english/dutch with french words you know

[spicyicymeloncat]

Yknow something that gets me abt certain fanon depictions of kai is that he’s portrayed with no sense of self preservation, as if he’s self sacrificing and burned out, and I think I dislike it bc it feels like the opposite of his character most of the time.

Yeah some of the actions he takes are harmful to himself in some way, but it’s never intended to, they were ways of coping and making himself feel better.

Like the green ninja plot, he is insecure in his place, so he strives for the highest title to make him feel better.

The red shogun isn’t him beating himself up and not caring about his own well being. He was winning fights, fully engaging in the job, taking his frustration out on others and drinking away his issues, and yeah there’s self loathing in that, but there’s also him trying to make himself feel better, to redirect hurt away from himself.

Him prematurely concluding his parents were the bad guys in s7, is (imo) his way of rationalising his mixed feelings, in order to keep himself okay.

He’s not a reckless war machine who throws himself into battle with no hesitation, he tries to keep himself safe.

Kai is self-prioritised and yknow I think people in general really demonise that kinda of trait both in fiction and irl and that’s actually kind of harmful. The self sacrificial trait is so grossly over romanticised and idk it’s a breathe of fresh air when you see a character who doesn’t start out that way or end that way. Like nothing wrong with that trait being written, it’s just like sometimes it feels like people are only allowed to prioritise themselves if they previously have no sense of self care, bc then it’s seen as a healthy improvement. But in any other case, it means you’re selfish and that’s a bad thing apparently.

Like no. Being selfish and loving yourself and thinking you are hot shit and the smartest person alive and prioritising things that make you happy. None of that makes you evil or morally wrong. If in attempts to meet your needs you try to hurt someone else, or end up hurting yourself, then the action you took was bad but the intent isn’t! Fuck the media that finds people loving themselves as immorally wrong! Fuck it! It is not sexy to hate yourself actually.

I want more fanon Kais indulge in activities that make him happy, Kais that make bad decisions in trying to protect himself and Kais that have good coping mechanisms because he’s still trying to protect himself he’s just found better ways of doing it.

Bc it’s canon and it feels like it gets erased a bit because people somehow don’t find self love appealing unless the character was self hating first.

#tangibly related but the people who think that kai sacrificed everything often forget that Nya #every fucking season she is sacrificing and giving up shit #like she is right there #she’s not AS bad either but like she does so much for the sake of others yknow #can someone #someone write a fic #where kai teaches Nya to have more self preservation and to not get flung about by others needs #pls #anyways half way through this post I realised I have So Many Issues TM #Like oh god #the whole ‘I don’t matter! my only purpose is to be there for my friends’ fucked me up so hard that like to this day #i cannot see when someone crossed multiple boundaries that they probably shouldn’t #because my brain is lazer focused on trying to be convenient to them #like oh man #im traumatised #and Ik there’s definitely so many of you on tumblr who are probably the same #because we live in a capitalist society where the walls subtly remind you that you must be convenient #and so many of you are queer and used to having to repress your identity for other people’s comfort #and so many of you are neurodivergant/disabled and are told every day that meeting your needs are inconvenient for everyone else #BUT THIS IS WHY WE SHOULD BE PROUD OF BEING SELFISH AND LOVING OURSELVES #BECAUSE ITS HARD SOMETIMES AND THE FACT THAT WE CAN FIND LOVE FOR OURSELVES IS SUCH AN AMAZING SKILL #AHHHHH #sorry for cutting so deep into this #i need a therapist maybe #ninjago #Ninjago kai #ninjago analysis

[bangcakes]

.

#personal #ladies... its lovesickness on the menu again tn NDNNDNDNDMDMDNDMDMDMDM #god help me #i made it like 29 years without this. why now NFNDNDNNDNDNDNDMD #like ok im happy to be experiencing this in the sense that like... now ik what it feels like to really like someone #but man oh man is it... A Lot #and like maybe its this intense at any age. but idk..... it feels like So Much..... #and im freaking out bc i talk to my mom about it ok. and shes like oh ya that reminds me of how i felt with ur dad in the beginning n im #just... like ... o #bc my parents were like friends first and are like in Love love and have a v happy marriage so im just #the... Potential of having that n like oh god idk. i just dont know its all too much...... #and im also like what if its all in my head. but then again like why is he waiting around for me n messaging me out of the blue. #i also caught him staring at me n looking away after i caught him. i just..... idk like i wanna Believe so bad but im so scared too........ #im all over the place JDJDDMDMDMDMDMDMDNJDND #but i also am just..... i'll be patient .... bc rushing is no good #like idk. i feel like things have been Moving. and its not super fast but its a pace i can handle #bc ok say i Do ask him out or he asks me.... then oh fuck. then all the Scary things happen. like ok not scary #i dint think itd be scary with him #but idk.... physical... things. would start happening n like. id l9ve to hold his hand n like k___ him ok OK. but at the same time i just.. #idk !!!!!!! im v shy !!!!!@@@@@ and ya. ....... idk 😭😭😭 #like i like him so much that i think id want him to .... i just .. ya idk. #getting kind of ahead of myself here but what else is new

[munamania]

ok im a really chill and normal person and i get over things and am well adjusted but take a walk with me here. just give me my time to complain when im not in the absolute fucking trenches. and yes i believe i suffered more than those in trench warfare. it was literally a lesbian situationship with a bistraight girl come on. just. magenta choppy shag with the roots coming in. camo cargo pants black t shirt with red lettering and striped long sleeve (sign someone likes music. confirmed). lip ring big black stud earrings and nails. red docs. i think lesbians should be allowed to kill one dyke baiter in their lifetime idc

#and now we're gonna get into some quiet parts and youre just gonna let me have this #i. am so sick. first of all it was kinda funny how people ik ended up sorta surrounding her. felt good. but like we've shared a space #together since everything. i can like be in her presence it's seriously fine. that said. i do sometimes miss her #i say this after going through the really hating her guts period bc of her evil evil evil ways. and feeling like she's lame as hell bc she #s. but i mean it's me talking i have my problems too. i Hate the way we always so naturally act in sync. and i hate that we've both picked #each others' brains for hours so it's like. i knew you once and now we can't even look each other in the eye and that just really sucks #and i feel like. not that i strictly believe in these things. but we were sort of twin flames. i largely suffered for like. basically #falling in love w her. and i know i didn't leave as much of a mark. but i still hope it sucked a little for her #and i'll admit i think it'd be some sort of miracle if we could ever talk civilly. unfortunately we work in two ways #literally behaving in Ways and borderline fucking or not speaking. so. here we are #and i already humiliatingly tried to extend an olive branch this summer so im not gonna be fucking stupid. yk #but GOD how annoying. i did talk to situationship today and we were relatively normal so at least that's not deathly awkward #it's still. definitely um. stiff. but not terrible #i need to get to the club. pretend theres a cig emoji im on desktop rn #sorry for this. #film girl saga

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[elegyofthemoon]

ok but i'm just thinking about one of the memory logs for sakura and how mobius tells sakura that what happened to her after her mantis surgery is at least better than what happened to both mobius and kevin after theirs, but from then on, sakura is no longer human and no one else will look at her like a human like before

then you timeskip over to when sakura is trying to save rin from MOTH, and she's arguing with kevin about how the MANTIS soldiers will always be outsiders and a threat to MOTHs because of the surgery. and how this treatment is what makes sakura afraid for rin and inevitably leads to her doom i :(

#yes i was replaying ch 12 again (WELL IT WAS BC I WAS STREAMING FOR A FRIEND) #i think i replay ch 12 way too often somethings wrong with me lmao #idk how to describe the feeling #a drop of water that ripples out over time basically #that instilling of a fear that blows up later #sakura may not care how people think of her BUT FOR HER SISTER YEAH OF COURSE SHE WILL CARE SO MUCH ON RINS TREATMENT #and my god. poor rin. #listen i just really love sakura T _ T #like every rendition of sakura i adore lmao #ik yae sakura is different from sakura but narratively speaking its kinda juicy the repetition of an older sister who loves her younger #sister so deeply that it inevitably kills her #well not kill. she gets trapped in a box in the village arc but still asdfajdlkh #avil plays hi3 #IM REALLY THINKING ABOUT IT I WONDER IF SAKURA RANKS OVER FU HUA NOW FOR FAVE CHARACTER BC I THINK OF SAKURA SM LMAO #she actually might be aldkfalasjfh #anyways someday ! i wanna commission someone to draw sakura and lightning switch clothes #i start my job today so i will now be getting money :D #but i have to be very mindful on expenses alsdkjafh

[toastsnaffler]

everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏

#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too #things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄 #jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that #having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically #and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me #despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence #and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik- #she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh #and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space #and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she- #likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man #i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them #theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road #theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill- #finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me #old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc #anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included- #bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately #also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that #im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it.. #ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too #its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes #regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a #fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling #and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........ #sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!! #.diaries

[stinkrascal]

in my head all my tavs are canon characters who exist within the same universe, and whenever im playing someones save then the rest of my tavs are just at camp chillin

#but daveth is my most canon tav bc hes my only durge so far and durge feels like its the canon run lol #like ik the whole point of this game is there is no true canon run but if you asked me i would say resistant durge is the canon story #that or shadowheart origin. thats why i wanted to play her origin first bc she feels like such a main character to me! #i just like 2 imagine my tavs being friends w each other it makes me happy idk!! or the drama thats fun too #the drama would be too much you guys im living for it. love to imagine my ocs doing silly things #yeah saving the world from mind flayers is cool and interesting and all but have you ever considered interpersonal relationship drama. yea

[randomminty]

I think Mai would be banned from cutting any of the Diamond Clan’s hair

#i havent posted here in so long ive missed tags so much hi #ik the layout for this looks weird i just didnt wanna do one image at a time because that takes up so much space #ah well. anyway i havent properly coloured in a comic in so long. colour palettes are hard so i just took a screenshot in game to use #warden mai #warden arezu #pokemon legends arceus #pla #pokemon #art tag #why did i never think of a cool and creative art tag #dont know why i thought mai is bad at cutting hair i just feel it in my bones #arezu became a hairdresser because she loved it but also because mai was ruining the entire diamond clans hair and had to fix it #unrelated but tags are so great i can just ramble and not feel really shy about it #posting and even reblogging is so tricky for me so having a lil place i can scream and not worry about being judged or something. its great #anyway sorry if you clicked on more tags and saw an entire paragraph open im just very happy #side note. i love scheduling posts because just posting straight away feels so intimidating #love just letting my art post at some random time and forgetting about it

[fourteenthz]

Here's him for reference !! If u have seen critical role campaign two NO YOU HAVENT (might change to wild magic btw not sure)

#alright alright ill admit (i say as if that wasnt the goals): #he has like STRONG caleb vibes. so fire coded but I do think his alignment is just a mesh of caleb and essek tbh ??? #HAVE NOT watched the 2 campaign btw so I might be saying stuff wrong... but I just am obsessed with the idea of caleb I have in my tiny min #so there's that. his gardian is between purple tiefling and a drown.... dont look at me. my bg3 durge my rules. #but right lets go to the romance like I narrowed down btw i pretty much have an idea of character for the other ones #and I also want these the most. MOSTLY gale tho and this SUCKS bc I'm pretty sure durge and gale don't match AT ALL #i could make him worse vs i don't think the game allows me to make him THAT MUCH WORSE and for the playthrough I'm planning #im just scared he will break up with me at some point LOL on the other side I think Shadowheart SPEC justiciar!shd is a good choice #i want to take her parents home this playthrough as well so like... it might be nice to see them... yeah. #minthara is just there bc I will have her in my party this time !! idk shit abt her so who knows i might fall in love #karlach is there for the same reason as gale. I'm fixated on her platonic love and how absolutely well written it is. i want to see how #it goes with the romance. but also I'm scared she will just break up with me at some point for manipulating ppl and all that... #i kinda want a durge that's not EVIL but he's like going from “i want the best for me” to “i want the best for us” #nd this involves them being their “best” version aka the fucked up versions :) ascended astarion/justiciar Shadowheart/god of the weave gal #etc etc. so yeah that. if anyone that knows how the romances really go and want to give me some tips I'm open for them 👉👈 #on the other hand... i have a backup character for gale already... she's competing with halsin on big half elfs in the camp :D so yeah #like ik I prefer the idea of “huge elf girl monk” x gale more than durge x gale... but also i get giggly thinking abt wizard x sorcerer SO #YOU KNOW... THERE'S THAT. my monk girl IS stunning tho I'll show yall her someday !! I'm still unsure abt alignment and personality tho #which isn't the case for my durg NOR the one I started playing already... she's a chaotic good halfling and I adore her. #she's kinda of the mom of the group but also not ?? fun aunt maybe !! bc she flirts with everybody that isn't her tadpole gang and is jusf #so fun... sorry if all my references ate critical role related but think vax before raven queen happened. that's her. #she's a ranger btw and i genuinely CANOT wait to start romancing halsin with her. NO ONE TALK ABT SIZE DIFFERENCE I'll not hear #I already care them so much. haven't even met the big guy in this playthrough and yet i can see the hcs so lively. #halsin didn't go back to the forest in my first playthrough like I heard that could happen ??? so I'm excited to see WHAT'S GOING ON THERE #until then... I'll let yall know how the romance will go.... get ready for screenshots tyty #but this was DEFINITELY NOT ABT HER OH GOD I'm just procrastinating the bad endings ill get with my durge... help... anyway. #let it be known that if gotarsh was a romance option that wouldn't be a question. alas HE ISN'T so pls help me pick pls ty #knowing how the companions end I THINK I have preference for minthara (not sure ill ever play with her again) and shadowheart #(same for her and justiciar) theres that. I CAN be convinced to play god!gale more but i also can be convinced of anything with him SOO #kelly plays bg3

[oatbugs]

i don't understanddddd

#i feel so unloved unwanted etc etc etc but it makes no sense #my gf is lovely to me et cetera so i dont get it #maybe its bc im on my period but idk lol. feels like . rly lonely somehow #like she doesnt like me as much as she did before but thats so dumb bc i think that i may feel that way #bc shes not acting the way she used to before we were dating officially. like when we were friends but also kind of not etc and she was #trying to get me to change my mind or whatever. #but its like. yh shes not gonna act that way bc shes secure in the relationship and also were like. girlfriends now. so its GOOD. #but at the same time i feel unwanted. idkkkk #i think im a lot more expressive too . esp recently #w like. compliments and stuff etc etc like ik im above average expressive so i cant expect the same level in return but she shows it in #other ways but i just feel like she doesnt like me as much but its ILLOGICAL UGHHHHHHHHHHHH

[qualityrain]

fknished lynsys sidequest and hes so (biting him like a chewtoy) i think his insane rizz everybody talks abt his fake but i think calling mc a “gentle soul” and indulging paimon w a private show and thinking of us as his friends is genuine and i think thats cuter

#ik ppl want a guy that flirrs w mc regardles of gender but i do think his rizz is just him in the magician persona #i like his more subdued sweet side #i like him being genuine more….silly guy #🤏🤏🤏 also did not expecr to like lynette this much from his sidequest #but shes so reliable and cute and 🤏🤏🤏🤏🤏 #i love their relationship so much #claude txt #i do think theres smth up w rhe flowers lyney gives us tho. one parting one passion two separate perspectives of the same nature #but im too stupid to figure it out #to me mc could potentially also be lyneys “truth” #romantically or platonically idk #personally. qpr. qpr is always the solution. #ok heres my isnane take. i dont think lyney would cause harm to us #betrayal comes in many forms and i think for lyney it would jsut be omission and lies #i think hes too loyal. Imo. i rhink hes in debt to us. #the same way he was in debt w his teacher #i think his teacger and mc r both “gentle souls” #and i rhink l&l wouldnt go against us as strongly because theyre in debt to us #we became lyneys attorney and protected him and now they owe us yk. #yk what fuck it i dont think l&l would betray us anymore #yeah it sucks but i cant see it anymore #unless they were threatened or smth #potential parallels w rh npc stoey forbfuture archon quests frfr

[perenlop]

pokeani moments that exist purely to make Me miserable:

the line where they call ash's oshawott a throwaway pokemon in the unova league so they're just flat out saying they think it's a worthless pokemon

to thine own pokemon be true (extra angst points for me bc ambipom was my second favorite on the team at the time)

the granddaughter of the guy who trains gliscor calling gliscor pathetic and weak to her face despite gliscor being an extremely sensitive pokemon

pretty much everything about that gible

blue episode (favorite color but they made it a fetish somehow and also dewott and brionne and meowstic are all there and its so bad)

boxing heracross immediately. also that battle frontier episode where it's literally the only returning ash mon (barring torkoal i think but i dont count it bc its native to AG) to get humiliated onscreen

pidgeot returning but gliscor didn't even show up in the miniseries despite being an Actual Character

#sorry ik i keep bringing up the throwaway line but like. its SOOOOOOOOOO bad holy shit #the heracross one isnt aaaaaas bad tbf bc they really make up for it in the sinnoh league #but aside from one ep in the miniseries we never quite get an episode where oshawott proves itself in a battle #i still love that episode bc it still kinda feels like an apology for all the oshawott bashing in bw but i am a little :/ #that battling didnt even come up once #ive kiiinda eased up on gliscors benching episode bc at the end of the day it isssss pretty good to her. also its the best animated one #but its treatment like what i mentioned that still really drags it down to me #and also like. i know ppl praise gliscor being so powerful after the episode but i really dont get why we couldnt have just #had a gliscor training arc onscreen. but ig we wouldnt have that stupid ass gible plot that went nowhere now would we #but like.... we had such a huge stretch between that episode and the league. i really dont get why we couldnt have had a mini arc #where gliscor realizes shes not pulling her weight that well and really starts hauling ass #she doesnt really even sweep in the paul fight. she gets beaten immediately by ninjask #the drapion part was awesome tho yayyyy #but my point is that it wouldnt really change much if gliscor just stayed and got stronger on its own #have the bench episode be a wake up call for gliscor rather than a goodbye one and she becomes super competent #like im not just saying this bc gliscor is my favorite character in the entire show. i feel like its straight up kinda lazy and less reward #rewarding #imagine how the drapion fight could be EVEN MORE cathartic if we saw gliscor struggle and fight to get better throughout the show #as much as i like that specific battle and ash vs paul as a whole... it just kinda proves my point that sending gliscor away at all #was kind of a shitty move #like ohhhhh ash's team is all getting revenge for lake acuity yay!!!!! oh one of them was kicked off for the sake of a shitty gible plot th #which really only served to make shitty piplup bashing jokes and only actually had a conclusion in the league itself #by which time it was too late to actually do anything else with it. yeah we kicked someone off for that. but shes back now!!! #like it doesnt weaken the battle THAT much. in fact theres some value in how ash went out of his way to make sure gliscor could be there #so her defeat could also be avenged. and its still my fave battle in the whole anime. but it just proves to me how pointless that was reall #echoed voice