#ik that wont actually happen

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[wisteria-whump]

whumper lying about whumpee to their friends to isolate them 🫶 whumper says they're manipulative and talking about their friends behind their backs and stuff like that and maybe whumper has gone so far as to make fake (but convincing) proof. in the end it all stacks up too much and whumpee ends up completely alone, and since none of their friends are talking to them or seeing them anymore, nobody notices when whumpee goes missing

#seeing characters successfully spread lies about other characters actually infuriates me so much but its good for story purposes #i just hate when other characters refuse to hear the other side of the story and wont hear their friend out #ik these tags sound like this happened to me and im just complaining but i swear im not #im really just talking abt characters who fall for lies so easily bc they wont hear anyone out lol #whump #whump prompt #whump prompts #whump writing #whump idea #whump blog #whump scenario #tw whump #whump tw #writing

[janadraws]

oc doodles mwahaha

(she/he/they)

#oc art #oc artwork #art #doodle #digital art #also! if ur reading this uh #im sorry but maybe i wont like do an actual comic #like i probably will in the future anyway lmao but the proper comic yk uh that will not happen #i figured it would be better to just like post smaller mini comics and oc art #instead of a proper comic book #again im sorry ik i said i would do it but rn its just too much 😭 hope u dont mind

[girlwithfish]

the job application process will make u want to die wheeeeee

#like i feel ashamed if i do work at a coffee shop rn cuz im gna b like yeah ill do this for now and also keep applying for jobs in the actu #actual career i want but realistically i prob wont bc working full time will take up all my time n i wont have energy to apply for other #shit thats what happened to me last time w the last job #Anddd idk i jhst dont feel very adult if i work at a coffee shop im not looking down on food service at all but i feel others will look down #on me like i have a degree what am i DOINGGG but also i just need a job. #And id like a low effort front desk job ik i cld do that and itd be chill idk im not very ambitious but i dont have admin experience so idk #Andddd i kinda gave up on trying to work in publishing editing but ill keep trying idk i shld apply for more copyeditjng stuff >_> #its just all sooooo muchhhh #what am i even doinggg idont know what i want i jhst want a job that doesnt make me stressed or sad and decent pay. yipee #and i dont wanna rly work in food service or retail or customer service Lol #like i wanna sit down. and work on the puter. i can do that #IDK #but yeah at least i got an interview ig for this barista job but its not what i rly want but maybe i shld jjst go for it cuz idk if #im gonna hear back from anything else atm.

[hella1975]

assigning a character the highest honour like *adds go home by julien baker to their playlist*

#and by honour i mean pointing at them like TRAUMATISED! TRAUMATISED! TRAUMATISED! #like yeah relating to this song is a red flag actually. yeah it's one of the most personal songs in the world to me #and i actively am not allowed to listen to it some days bc it makes me significantly worse #even if im in a GOOD mood because of the layers upon layers of emotions ive associated with it #yeah i literally wont even blorbo post to this song even if it's accurate to a character because it's so personal #so they have to be REALLY FUCKING SPECIAL AND FUCKED IN THE HEAD to get this honour. enter touya #i made him a playlist im going crazy like yeah actually of course i was always gonna be weird about him #like he's got fire themes. he's got body horror. he just wanted to be good. he's ethel cain coded. he's georgia coded #he's got mommy AND daddy AND sibling issues. he's the only other character ive let even come close to mary on a cross #he's a waiting room girlie. he's an archer girlie. im tearing my hair the fuck out of my scalp #why does the first character ive latched onto this hard since CHUUYA have to be from mha of all things #like that's embarassing for me im embarassed to be here. and yet #touya todoroki #the thing that makes me sick about touya is yes the abuse he went through via his quirk and his dad etc etc #but also bc sekota peak happened when he was 13 right? and he's 24 now? that's 11 years unaccounted for #like ik it's confirmed his burns put him in a coma for 3 years and all for one and the dr guy just stapled his stubborn self together #which is something else i will YELL MY HEAD OFF ABOUT WHAT THE FUCKKKKK HE WAS A CHILD STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT #but im pretty sure it's confirmed that after 3 years he goes off again on his own? which still leaves him as a teenager? #like he straight up burns himself alive at 13 wakes up at 16 and reappears at 24 with dyed hair and piercings and a bad attitude #and im not supposed to wonder? or get upset? like i absolutely am leaning into the 'he was on the streets' angle bc i hate myself #and that's devastating and also what alternative is there logically like he has NOTHING #no home no money no name that he can feasibly use not even an appearance that will warrant anything but more cruelty #so youve got this child on the streets with injuries that absolutely cause insane amounts of pain daily he's literally STAPLED together #and he's completely alone and the only thing getting him through is this growing hatred and rage #like id set all my plans around killing the guy that put me there too actually just to fucking get me out of bed in the morning #I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM. WHERE WAS HE FOR THE PAST DECADE. HORIKOSHI PLEASE #I WANNA GO HOME IM SICK THERES MORE WHISKEY THAN BLOOD IN MY VEINS MORE TAR THAN AIR IN MY LUNGS #PIERCE MY SKIN NEEDLES TO WORN OUT RAGS THE FOLDS IN MY ARMS THE SICKENING BLACK AND I HAVENT BEEN TAKING MY MEDS #I KNOW MY BODY IS JUST DIRTY CLOTHES IM TIRED OF WASHING MY HANDS GOD I WANT TO GO HOME

[asummersday]

i need everyone to remember this conversation between leo and raph takes place AFTER leo gets cursed btw

#dont even worry about it :)) #it definitely wont be coming up later :))) #ik i already put in an offscreen patrol scene in ashes #but in chapter 6 we get to actually see it happen!! :3 #this is from chapter 1 literally right after leos cursed #whoops #summer post #ataimw

[neonsbian]

the way no one in the tag likes that pimfah likes sailom 😭

#please...open ur heart for a polycule that wont happen #like ik its probably gonna be comphet but im hoping she actually does like him #hashtag bisexuality and all that #dangerous romance #vinnie talks

[potatobugz]

well, that's enough internet for today! *set's computer on fire*

#rambles #ok so first i was reading stuff abt cronus and actively felt sick help. ik hes a fictional character but i guess it was more #his actions being described rather than the actual character himself i think.? #im alright it really was more funny than anything that has never happened before #and then transmed followed me and i forgot to block them and lost the url so now im so scareds #also i saw something not good. that i wont say. but it was upsetting to say the least #jeez thats alot to just put down here . i promise i promise i am okay i just need to go to sleep lol #and get off. the internet #looks like someones a little *too* mentally ill... goodbye!/ref #why are.peple #thats it thats the question. why are they

[gibbearish]

> be me

> never send asks bc im scared ill mess something up

> type up lots of asks but never end up sending them

> finally type up an ask i feel like i can send

> check over it a dozen times to make sure im not missing anything

> send

> didn't actually read urls right

> sent ask to wrong person entirely

> mfw

#ik theres supposed to be a picture if they put mfw just use ur imagination #maybe that one meme of the guy in the blue shirt smoking looking super resigned #its good its fun like its a small thing so im not upset upset but it is def frustrating that this kinda thing always happens to me #i already know i check and recheck things excessively its one of the reasons im like 99% sure i have ocd #but i still. always miss something big and obvious #not specifically with asks just in general things i spend forever going over to make sure theyre perfect always end #up having something glaringly wrong with it that i just somehow didn't process at all #it gets frustrating cause it starts to feel like no matter how hard i check itll never be enough but also that can't be true #because i almost never see this kinda thing happening to everyone else‚ people just Send Asks without having to spend an hour agonizing #over it and nothing ends up being wrong with it. so clearly they're doing /something/ to be able to notice that stuff and im just. #not doing that thing. but i dont know what else i could do it's always something i never even thought to consider #it's like the whole 'expect the unexpected' thing‚ something truly unexpected will be something i. cant think of #so how am is supposed to think it ahead of time #so yeah its. hard #im tryin to stay positive esp bc i know this really was a minor funny one not an actual Problem i caused but #s just a little hard sometimes when it feels like my brain wont cooperate with my no matter how hard i try to think

[beachdog211]

i’m sleepy, i can’t sleep. i took a 5 hour nap today and slept a good amount last nightq

i hate this i hate feeling so wrong and dirty and useless

#vent post #idk #whats wrong with me actually #i wanna be better #i’ve been having bad thoughts too abt things that happened #i wanna kms rn but ik i wont

[nomaishuttle]

love this podcast but sometimes they do a segment and i disagree so heavily that i need to take a breather

#sry sad boyz . but i dont think theres any game literally On this eaeth that is worth 60 dollars to me #not even kirbys epic yarn and that game is literally the modt important thing thats ever happened 2 me that game made me who i am so many #of my cherished memories are of that game if we didnt have that game me and my sibling wouldnt be this close. i would not on earth pay 60 #dollars for a VIDEOGAME. THATS GROCERIES THATS LITERALLY GROCERIES. #like if yr a girlie who can afford it and you cant/dont want to pirate (why. get over yrself) like. whatever i wont tell you what t do with #yr money. but they were like there r some games id pay 200 dollars for and its like. i could get 2 tvs for that money. on facebook #marketplace. theyd be kinda sketchy but 2 whole tvs. #idk #and i do think gamedevs should have better conditions And be paid more. i contain multitudes #i think its possible to pay devs fairly without charging 70 goddamn dollars for pixels. yk.. #IK IK IK GAMES R IMPACTFUL BEYOND JUDT LIKE. YK TRUST ME ME OF ALL PPL IK THIS. but 60 dollars too mucg. anything above 20 is actually #insane. if they had demos i could MABE justify like 40. #but paying 60 dollars before even knowing if you Like the game. we genuinely have gott 2 bring back demodiscs im deathly desthly srs

[perenlop]

also the entire point of warrior cats like the rule that drives them is that the clans believe theyre superior bc they have religion. they diss rogues and loners and pets bc they do not have an afterlife to them so they live life without order and meaning. the other religions the cats interact with are intentionally supposed to be weird and silly at best or evil and corrupt and scary at worst. any clan cat who doesnt believe in starclan is either mocked relentlessly, literally treated like shit in mothwings case, or just treated as “theyll come back to the light soon enough once they die and see we ARE a true religion”. hm i wonder how these christian authors were influenced here i cant figure out how

#literally what happened while i went inactive in the fanbase i thought this was common sense #they LITERALLY said ''no we are good christian people we dont put drugs or gays in our books'' in an interview!! what are you talking about! #then again. the fanbase bought into most of this shit so. #WAIT ALSO THEY PRAY BEFORE EVERY MEAL THE CATS SAY GRACE #i mean ik thats probably not limited to christianity but STILL #echoed voice #no tho no really tho you cannot actually tell me the fandom thinks the writers are trying their hardest for gay rep #its just that mean foreign countries wont let them. please. please tell me yall dont believe that. PLEASE. #anyways my hot take is that sol was right

[v-iv-rusty]

wildly oscillating between 'I think I'm actually doing pretty ok currently' and 'if all of my problems aren't solved immediately I'm going to blow up into a million little pieces'

#misc.txt #ventish #not rly but. #w/out going into too much detail idk how to move out without um. Bad Things happening and I am deeply afraid rn (: #but Im also at the point where like. itll either be ok or it wont. *hands clamped on sink staring myself down in mirror* it is what it is #the thing is it might actually BE fine which I think would fuck with me worse. but who knows. so I'll just sit here quietly going insane ig #I just have this hovering feeling that something horrible is going to happen bc things couldn't actually get that much better right. #even though ik thats not how this works #sigh.

[onepiexe]

lol b just texted and asked if i was coming in

#logbook #its 9:30a dont you think i wouldve come in already?? #you didnt tell me you were planning to work so no. i have shit to do. #i sound harsh ik esp since shes been sick but i actually am not upset im just. ?? no im not coming in. #i dont get communicated with i make my own decisions lol. this isnt news to anybody. #i didnt go in yesterday but nobody texted me so i figured nothing happened. #im cleaning from my chair while i watch archon quest vod. since i wont play it bc im so behind on quests lol.

[snekdood]

oh and just so yall know, before i forget this; my ex is the one who started the whole “you’re gonna get beat up” shit by telling me their military cis guy friend who still lives in my state wants to fight me. so if yall have an issue with me wanting to fight my ex then get off my ass about it and go confront them 

#vent #they're weak ass is gonna send him after me but not confront me at all lmao #like okay #lmk when you get on t bitch and let me know if you're still a bitch by then #keep pretending you're a weak lil baby who needs to be protected. keep pretending. #you're a grown ass adult spreading bs about me online. yeah. im gonna want to fight you. you dont just get to do that and #not face the consequences of your actions. #oh uh also. if something happens to me and its at yal''s hands? you wont like it. lmao #so yeah how about we get off snakes ass for wanting to defend himself. given that after they said that i felt like i had to worry about #randomly running into them and that friend of theirs and them starting shit #amazing how pussy wipped that man is and you havent even fucked him. simply amazing. #he basically thinks you crafted who he is and his identity for him. thats wild. and you dont think you're kinda culty? okaaaaaaay.. #(well. i know you do actually because you admitted it to me. but ik you pretend you dont think taht around your friends.- #given they're the cult you're trying to preserve #anyways yeah its real cringe to see someone who's masc pretending to be a weak frail whiney bitch #like pick one lol #you cant be a masc tough guy who sets shit on fire and then when someone confronts you abt the bs you say you turn into a small #child whos never done anything wrong and doesnt know whats happening apparently. like you're not innocent. you're not a small child #who cant be held accountable for your actions. you genuinely dont need to be protected from me confronting your ass. #you're not a small child you're not a little weak child ik for damn sure you're not ignorant to your actions so stop fucking pretending to b #i understand that when you face conflicts you revert into a child bc blah blah blah childhood trauma but that doesnt change the fact #of what you did nor the responsibility you need to take nor does it change the fact that im entirely justified for wanting to call you out #and wanting to enact self defense bc of the bs YOU started.

[neofelis----nebulosa]

watched the second full scene released from kfp 4 and it is significantly lowering my expectations

#like ok another fart joke #one thing i liked about the first 3 is they mostly stray away from low brow humor like that #but then theres one in most of the trailers theyve been putting out #but with that while i dont love it ik that theyve kinda made trailers that make the movie look much more immature than it actually is for.. #...all the previous ones #theyre great movies but you wouldnt know from the trailers #theyre marketing the movies to elementary schoolers #which granted is the target audience so its smart from a business perspective but the movies have a lot more to them #and also from the clips we see even tho i dont love the joke theres more to it than haha fart funny #unlike the one from this scene #but yeah all that aside the scene just goes on too long #like the concept of po meditating but it not working could have been funny but its so dragged out #and idk not a fan of how they depicted his inner voices #its just kinda uncreative i feel like they could have gone in a more interesting visual direction with it #i feel like the previous 3 movies were really good at that sort of thing #and im kinda worried that the visual creativity that i love so much about the series wont really be here #like they always seem to come up with interesting visual styles to show things happening within characters imaginations to differentiate... #...it from reality #but here its in the same textured 3d animation style that the rest of the movie is in #but yeah i actually really liked the first scene they released of po meeting zhen #so yeah overall i have super mixed feelings about this movie given what dreamworks has been showing us #i really want it to be good #i havent completely given up on it but theres just a lot of questionable choices being made