#ill add things as i remember them

[milkweedman]

ah, the ever-more-frequent Urge To Explode My Brain from unending migraines. a migraine that just lasts the day already sucks so bad. whole day is gone in a blur of pain and misery, right ? a migraine that lasts multiple days is sort of like if hell was real and you were in it. time has no meaning, only pain, etc.

months of migraines... with no break or end or effective treatment and also you still have to work and behave like a normal person because you cannot lie in bed for months not paying rent. well id describe it you but ive fucking lost the plot. its gone on so long and its so bad that when the migraine ISN'T at its peaking on the pain scale and making me feel like if i was hit by a truck that would be an improvement, i start to feel like my head is a vestigial organ that has been removed. cant access sensation in my head and it feels literally disconnected from my body. meanwhile the pain is still there (along with the brain fog, vertigo, nausea, etc) but it feels like its happening to somebody else.

#im kind of impressed that i can at this point carry a normal conversation (as good as i ever can. which is bad but irrelevant) #while being in agony and having been in agony for as long as i can remember #usually also with something dislocated just for some extra fun #because what i actually feel like doing 100% of the time is lighting myself on fire and/or screaming forever until i die #however thats the kind of shit that puts you in the psych ward again #so i am. smiling and making small talk while migraine auras wash out my vision and i try not to visibly dry heave #its really really really fucking bad. all the time so fucking bad. #i need to message my neurologist but likelihood of me doing that is low #because 1) the stuff she's put me on has so far done nothing but add intolerable side effects to the hell that i am already existing in #and 2) its fucking hard to do anything. even the bare minimum im not doing. so extra shit is just. not happening #i want to scream. #i am gonna. go for a walk and smoke a cigarette instead and then get really high because at least then i dont really care #the auras are making it really hard to see though. theyre like bleach all over my vision. just this wash of white #hhh. #chronic illness #chronic migraine #and its like. when my knee also gives out and it feels like theres metal in there slicing everything up with each tiny movement #or any of the other one million goddamn things broken in my body #i end up so overwhelmed by pain that i just want to lay on the floor and cry #at which point everyone around me gets mad that im not being productive and im costing them money and im not good enough #like ok kill me then. cheaper for you happier for me. just get a heavy object and go to town i would thank you for it #but i cant even say that because openly expressing suicidality just makes people angrier #im rapidly running out of fucks to give but also i will do anything to avoid returning to the psych ward #literally anything. morals out the window. i dont give a shit. #so its a catch-22. #vent

[nerdie-faerie]

Having a big family is too expensive. Where am I supposed to find the money for my brother's 20th, my cousin's 21st and graduation, my twin cousins turning 23, my other cousin turning 26 and having a baby all this month!! 😭

#Demon Spawn #+Extra #theres too much going on! and my mum doesnt tell me everything at once so i think i only have one purchase to worry about #and then she hits me with another one!! did you remember this? did you remember that? no i was still dealing with the last one #im sorry but siblings are prioritised then i gotta sort out my own sht if i can then afford all these other peoples things #when i dont even speak to them! then sure maybe ill get around to it but theyve all got more extravagant preferences which i cant afford 😅 #most of them still live at home and dont pay rent let alone tuition i cant afford their expectations and having 4 cousin birthdays #in a month is ridiculous have you seen the price of postage? and you wanna add in graduations and a baby into it??? #i probably sound like im btching about nothing to people who have a good relationship with their cousins but i never see them and even #when i do we dont talk its super awkward and we have nothing in common yet i gotta go spend money i dont have all at once on them #and i cant even say sht cus my mum arranged a 21st for me that i didnt want so they did end up getting me stuff #god i sound like such btch i just dont know these people and its stressful trying to get presents as is but so many occasions at once when #i have no clue is stressing me out right now its not that i dont want to celebrate its the sudden expenditure and the fact its not spread #out and that theres so many cus i already got 8 siblings and my mum is one of 5 and my cousins are getting older so theyre going through #milestones that require gifts too at the same time as their birthday

[silbeni]

I brewed...

#so i was thinking about things to draw #but then i started brewing lore... #Ryoma turns trash into film and eats it as a snack #kinda tastes like a communion cracker #anyway the gang sees her do this one day #and she tries to defend it by saying that #“its free and its good for environment!” #“if i dont eat it- who will?” #anyway so. obviously theyre like 😦 dude what #methinks Josuke tells his mom and tomoko starts inviting Ryoma over for dinner #essentially Ryoma becomes her second kid sksbsn #also Koichi's mom #obv they get asked why they cant use the money they get from their two jobs for food #ryoma explains that most of their money goes to their uncle bc hes disabled (basically Gadzooks chopped off his arm) and unemployed #But the moms know that Ryoma's uncle gambles.. so theres an inkling of Ryuncles shittyness #gonna call him Ryuncle now its shorter lol #initially the moms thought Ryoma was weird but then they gave them the time of day and now they adore her #gahaha Tomoko chastising Josuke asking him why he cant be like Ryoma #ryoma brings the moms candy from the shop #wah it breaks Ryoma's heart when tomoko and Koichis mom treat her so well because she wished her mom loved her like that #i was thinking of something else but i forgor #ill rb this and add more if i remember

[moonsidesong]

i think its kinda funny that ibis paint is regarded as the Broke Artist App or whatever (as opposed to more mainstream programs like csp or procreate) because its free and because of how popular it is with phone + finger artists while im jusg sitting here having used ibis for a cool eight years on purpose.

like i have an ipad and an apple pencil and all theyre very nice and i absolutely could move to a more powerful program i have the resources to do so but my change averse brain has decided they like it here a lot and im not leaving

#not talking smack on phone and finger artists btw. some of my mutuals use their fingers and their art goes crazy i respect that so much #even when i did use my phone (most of 14 crush was done on a phone!) i still had to use a cheap rubber stylus hahaha #anyway maybe ill try procreate someday but also i hate learning new programs and i like ibis's brushes too much #fingers crossed that they add fully custom brushes someday though #like id love to be one of those artists that makes really cool art with ridiculous shapes and nobody even knows until they tell you #younger artists might not know this but modern ibis is STACKED compared to how it was in 2015 #like i remember when clipping layers were first implemented. and they sucked. like they didnt fully go over the lower layer #so it just left a gross tiny outline around the shape #and there wasnt any border or text tools either #and there was a hard cap on layer count depending on your device's storage and the canvas size #modifying brushes wasnt even a thing HAHAHAHAH you just used what you had #anyway okiku reference window unrelated shes just there for something else im working on<3 #bri talks #for the record all this is to say i think the smack talk towards ibis is pretty unwarranted #like yeah maybe its not as powerful as a lot of these fancy paid apps but i honestly think its insanely good for being a free program #i think getting rid of the ads costs more now than it did when i paid to get rid of them but i mean #free with ads is still a lot more than csp's ever gonna give you!!!! #(psst. secret from me to you! you wont get any ads if you disable the app's data usage and turn off wifi when you use it) #(alternatively just use airplane mode but you can still get texts and stuff the first way)

[fallingbuns]

give me characters to draw NEOWW‼️‼️ /

My day has been really slow _(」∠ ､ﾝ､)_

#sk8 the infinity #bee and puppycat #homestuck #ace attorney #if i remember other things im into ill add them on me thinks #request

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

sorry i have way too many good things to talk about with this little gremlin brother of mine sjdjdhhsjejkekjdkss

ok you see this volume cover yeah? (aside from me punching a wall over how everyone's in here together) it gives a good taste of how every dexholder uses fly on their 'mon - i won't go into detail about how each kid got their 'mon but the way they were picked up on is really unique from the others.

red has an aerodactyl (mf carries red like a baby)

blue has a charizard (the most practical way to fly a pokemon ig),

green has a jigglypuff (which! actually is just a balloon with helium iirc, and she doesn't like flying types - again, won't explain why but each kid has a good reason for their preference),

yellow (pokespe-exclusive dexholder! very sweet kid) has a butterfree (makes yellow look like a cute fairy which is so adorable),

silver has a murkrow (probably the most badass one, look at how silver poses)

crystal has a natu (looks a little funny how this round ass bird can carry her but I respect that)

and here's gold....

okay. okay

"jil isn't mantine a part flying type there's nothing wrong"

YEAH BUT LIKE THIS IS THE MOST UNNATURAL WAY TO FLY - GOLD LITERALLY MADE A MAKESHIFT GLIDER WITH A DAMN MANTINE WITH REMORAIDS TO HOLD DOWN HIS CUE STICK AND HE FLIES THEM LIKE SO ARGAHRIAA THIS GOOFYASS I LITERALLY CANT WITH HIM I LOVE HIM SO MUCH YOU DONT UNDERSTAND /P 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

EVEN BETTER THAT THESE REMORAIDS ARE LIKE THE GUNS OF THE OCEAN SO THEY JUST. SPIT WATER. gold has a fucking shooting glider isn't that the most terrifying thing this kid could come up with - isn't he like ELEVEN YEARS OLD OR SOMETHING. he really said work smarter not harder though he definitely pulled this one out of his ass and by sheer luck was able to decide on this

the thing that really cements this is the actual dynamic between mantines and remoraids, it's like how certain species of fish has a beneficial relationship with larger animals like sharks (scrapping for leftovers on the bigger animal) and it's most definitely applicable with the mantine and remoraid, they have a commensalism relationship. thank you science for teaching me that gotdamn.....

#pokespe really knows how to put the Pokedex data into actual good use and that's how the battles become even more fascinating #the very thought of gold coming home to jaide with his entire team that formed a glider.... “hey sis can you make a big bowl of juice” #“these guys are hella thirsty btw can we keep them 🥺🥺🥺” #she would be. um. wow gold thats gonna add a lot more to our pokemon house huh haha #she still lets them in anyways #nice to see gold having fun so #one day ill tackle a lot of fun things about ruby and steven i just need to reread rs again to remember #gold.fam #pokespe hours #gosh im having so much fun just talking about this media and anyone who has been interested enough to keep up with it- #thank you for even just hearting it it just makes me happy heheh #~ rambling

[chaoticrokiroki]

todojirou domestic fluff supremacy

they don't move in together right after graduation. it changes things, disrupts their routine, and its an adjustment. so they take it slow, work it out and process the beginning of a new life by themselves first

shouto's not. eager. to live full time in the new todoroki house with his mother, if only because he fears how stressful it could be for her. but he does love his family and it's not bad, not really. he gets to have a little bit of his childhood back, a small part of the time he should've had with his family.

a part of kyouka's still looking for the kind of peace she had before UA, back when her parents were the Adults and made the decisions and kept her safe. its been the other way around for several years, logically she knows its not coming back.

they still meet every day, if their plans dont end up derailed by some villain attack or family emergency. everything's changing but, in this, finding new footing isn't weird or bad or nostalgic at all. it's just exciting, to know theyre both preparing for the same thing. for a place that'll be theirs and theirs alone.

they do move in together after almost two years - into a tiny one bedroom apartment that's barely big enough for the both of them. but there's golden light streaming through the kitchen windows, shining on a small living space that's filled with cardboard boxes and kyouka's tripped twice over the past five minutes and shouto's has no idea on where to place their new dishware and. its warm, here. in this pocket of time they've made for themselves. its warm and its home and its theirs.

it feels like it cant possibly get any better than it is. and yet, with time, it does. with time, they learn how to make themselves into a safe place for one another. a shield, between the other and the grim reality they face everyday at work.

there's always music playing in the background, kyouka cant help but come home exhausted and not want to hear the neighbours' fights or the dogs barking down the street. it drowns it out, makes it a little easier to breathe - coming home to shouto trying not to burn their dinner, wearing a sky blue apron with a pink, sparkly "babygirl" on the front (mina's particular brand of humour is Priceless) and a random rock album playing in the background loudly is. certainly something that brightens her days. something that makes it worth it, to wash grime and filth from her skin and stumble home tired to the bone and sink into his embrace.

there's a stash of soba noodles that makes up probably half of their food - its not really used for dinner or lunch, rather it's treated as a midnight snack. shouto will wake up from a nightmare, tossing and turning and outright screaming for the worst ones (kyouka can never wake him, during those. can never snap him out of his own personal hell like she wants to), and they'll stumble under sudden, too bright lights and share a bowl while sitting at the kitchen counter. touching every possible way, knees and elbows bumping together and making a mess, too sleepy to care about cleaning up.

the mornings are their favourites - they're both lazy, after waking up. kyouka will get up first, sit at the edge of the bed yawning and pushing at shouto's legs in an effort to wake him. he will, eventually. coming to stand beside her at the sink, fighting to get more space and brushing their teeth together. grabbing a slice of toast in a hurry because they both took too long getting ready (it takes a while before kyouka is comfortable singing/humming in the shower but after shouto always finds some excuse to listen in, getting ready in the bathroom longer than strictly necessary) and rushing out the door in two separate directions only to run back and share a hasty goodbye kiss.

there's not a precise way to describe it, not really. its just home, the kind that you know you want as a child and that you dont think you'll ever get as a moody teenager. the kind of home you spend a lifetime searching for, unconsciously.

a final puzzle piece, clicking into place.

#bnha #mha #todojirou #shouto todoroki #jirou kyouka #todojirou hc #i have So Many feelings for them #their house is Eclectic and its beautiful #an explosion of blues and reds and purple accents #if you remember kyouka's room youll know the reds are for her tbh #ive got so many thoughts about their house i love it #shouto's the one sneaking in purple accents i needed to add this #ill probably write a whole other thing about it soon hold on

[tyrianlynch]

I started watching Suits today and have been playing the sims nonstop and have been reading nothing but fanfiction about gay firefighters and articles about how the CIA started a domino effect that created al qaeda and the taliban so yes I’m doing super well mentally

#I’m honestly like doing okay in a lot of aspects like I feel like I’m taking steps towards having a life I enjoy #but taking small steps over a long period of time gets so exhausting #and I keep saying ‘I just need to keep going and keep trying to add things into my life that bring me joy and then life will be better’ #but it’s taking so fucking long and I’m tired of the ‘just keep going’ part and wanna get to the ‘every waking moment isnt a nightmare’ part #like can that happen now please #and I keep getting too cocky and thinking I’m there and universe does its best to push me down and put me in my place #I have a great day with a new friend at a beautiful location? cool but ur gonna be in such bad pain u can’t stand for at least 3 days after #i go out to eat with my family? sick but ur gonna get nauseous no matter what u eat and ur gonna be so exhausted ur gonna sleep for 2 days #and it’s just never gonna end is it? bc that’s the chronic part of chronic illness #this is the life I’ll be subjected to until the day I die #anyways not even my deep mental anguish can stop me from obsessively reading about the Soviet-Afghan war #and the main guy of suits is such a pathetic babygirl and I’m obsessed with him #and my sims are about to graduate college #and I’ve been writing and I made new friends and was invited to an event with them and am going to a dance party in a week #and I’m trying really hard to remember that things aren’t always awful

[zvaigzdelasas]

Finally got a thermal labelprinter working that i wrote some software for at my last job....updated the software now i can automatically print whole lists of labels w whatever i want :^)

#took a bit to figure out why i couldnt write a raw bitmap bytestream to it #its been on my project list for a couple years - & the big piece in organizing #(i wanna make a map of drawers n shit to remember where things r & a label system plugs into that well) #can also add barcodes n stuff....maybe can find a use for that #thinking could b helpful to have a booklet w barcodes for things ill forget where i put them? that could b cool #dont ask where it came from

[catboyfurina]

the math people say to build ningguang and i dont really like her but i do like noelle number big so ive chosen to Suck it Up as they say BUT there is an Obstacle a Problem if you will. i am so fucken tired of fighting the geo cube i have done it So many Times its not hard (unless i forget to bring a claymore) its just annoying

#beeep #i want to like her cus i like beidou but shes an entrepreneur and thats yucky :P #i think maybe the thing worse than fighting the geo cube actually #is having to run there #OH I JUST REMEMBERED portable waypoints exist... #i should do that and collect all the geo things ill ever need and then never return #it will only be uhmmmm #49 more of them AURGH #thats lik.e thats like so many times #at least 17..... #do it (fight geo cube Infinity Times) for her(Noelle) #they should add a 4 star support that boosts geo damage specifically and isnt gorou or ningguang and uses Different Materials #and they should do it fast so i dont have to fight the geo cube infinity times

[crimsongrimoire]

personally love the thought of like. especially in modern au stuff. something happening between them, perhaps not in a fully lucid state of mind or not-not-emotionally-fraught circumstances or a fwb situation, and kaeya takes it upon himself to go "well if he doesn't make a Thing out of it i won't either"

#crow.txt #not writing #it just seems like a very him move #just the. they hook up and then act so normal about it cause who the fuck is breaking THAT ice huh #the answer is neither of them until it becomes entirely too daunting a task compared to where it started but also Not doing it is harder #they just see each other acting normal outside The Circumstance so its like okay well HE doesnt care like i do its fine #newsflash he absolutely does and thinks the same of you because you two are playing 27d chess against yourselves #literally just a casual competition of who can overthink it the worst and assume the other will reject them fastest. its probably kaeya #when they have slept together at least once and are both still thinking about it and pretending to be unaffected when they are ILL over it #cant remember if i had anything else to add ive been writing this in bits between work #I WANNA WRITE RN SO BAD. soon. its always like this. kicking my ass to write after im off. i try to every day but yknow #ive been sucked back into actually playing genshin somewhat rip. esp since i just got kokomi AND albedo rerun coming up. pleeeeaase c3.... #as i kept talking this is also a very canon him thing too. moreso him. i was just thinking of a specific wip as i was rambling. #(it was the body shots one)

[octochick]

for some time ive been developing a fantasy world, and i want to share my original species!

it is based around marsupials, kangaroos more specifically!

so first, they have two sexes, male and female. there is not a lot of dimorphism between sexes, both are quite flat and square-ish. the biggest difference is the marsupial pouch of the females. males have internal testi.

pregnancy is pretty normal up to the point were the baby migrates from the uterus to the pouch, using retractable claws and stretches marks from their moms to climb to one of the two openings of the pouch (think a little about hoodie pockets)

they are both digitigrade (think cats) and plantigrade (humans). this means they can comfortably walk on both instances and freely switch depending on the situation! they also have paw pads on both the balls of the feet and the heel. they can look taller for intimidation, run faster and spend less energy when on their toe tips, and have the stability and weight bearing of the whole foot, important for a species that migrated and spread over the whole world

they have mostly human hands, except the retractable claws, but no paw pads because they never were quadrupedal so they never needed it.

their skin color is very diverse, in the incredible! the most common skin colors are brown, blue, red and yellow but there is a whole spectrum of skin colors that they can have, however, the biggest part of the colors fall on the darker skin tone.

hair color, meanwhile, is not as diverse. it is mostly black or white. there are no real midtones, or blond or redhead, at most gray.

hair texture has the whole human range and some that are like animal coats, both single and double coat

their ears are quite large and mobile, kinda like elf ears, that can vary a lot on stance, the ears can be lower, as they point downwards, they can be in the middle, horizontally or high, where they are very close to the head. the ears are mostly pointed but they can also be more rounded. their consistency is that of bunny ears. the species that lives in colder climates tend to have ears that are higher and/or smaller. the ears can move backwards to almost disappear from a front view as to give them less wind resistance, but they cant really turn their ears to the front. their vertical movement is limited to only around 15 degrees both up and down

so, they live in a world with magic! elemental magic! and their bodies adapted to it. some individuals can use elemental magic, but not all, even if all have the capacity to do it.

for them to be able to use the elements, there has to be trigger, that usually is a traumatic event in their lives.

#tales of urursepunel #long post #worldbuilding #ill prolly add as i remember things about them! #this is my passion project

[be-good-to-bugs]

i love firealpaca but the color picker is SUCH a pain. how hard is it to have value adjuster things??

#the bin #idk 9fnim just not finding the option to show the value editors but i think it just doenst have them #its so much easier to make colors that look good together with those #all the fuckin tutorials u see ppl make abt how to puck colorsnthat look good together talk abt looking at the numbers or where they are on #the 2 bars and stuff. but firealoaca doesnt have those so its a huge pain. i really like the program but its SO fucking annoying #color is something i desperately wanna be batter with and firealpaca just sucks for it. it has the square and the wheel or bar but none of #the sliders to adjust only the hue or the saturation or anything. i NEED those. even fuckin ibis has those #its still a good program. it runs so smoothly and its most features id need and good brushes and the autosave works like. unbelievably well #ive never lost an image. even on my 2 prev laptops which were super bad. but man. why does the color thing gotta lack such important #basic things as that. there is a filter thing you can use to do it kinda but its super annoying. #i dont wanna have to open a separate program just to pick colors. esp cause i javent been able to find anything exclusively for that #theres apps but my ohone screen ofc look different to my laptop so it doesnt help. #i tried switching to krita bc of this but i didnt like it. ill have to try some other ones out. i hope that maybe one day theyll update it #and add it cause i dont wanna switch. #my sister uses csp and she says its nice. tahts like a one time purcase i think so i could maybe try it out. its got a demo i think #i also need to find a good 2d animation program. ive only found 1 for free that let you put audio in and i didnt like it so ill need to keep #looking. i pirated a mn old version of adobe animate like 5 years ago and i remember really liking how it worked so maybe ill try that #i like firealpacas animation feature. ut works pretty well for a program that isnt really made for animation and i already know the program #so its worth the kinda annoying bits. but i need something i can put audio into #i miss making art more. i feel sad that i dont much anymore. i get bored really quick or my body starts to hurt and i have to stop now

[foone]

I see a lot of people joking about the adhd thing of "I have a appointment/phone call at 3pm, guess I won't do anything all day!"

But no one seems to make the connection that it's a time blindness thing. One of the symptoms of ADHD is not having a good and accurate sense of time. And not doing stuff prior to an event with a hard deadline is an obvious coping mechanism for that.

Can I go to the store? It's 10am and the appointment is at 3pm. How long does going to the store take? An hour? Three hours? Five hours? I DON'T KNOW!

I get anxious trying to do things before appointments because I'm aware that I don't know how long those things take, and that if I think I do, I may be very wrong. Too often I've been like "hey I can walk to the corner store and grab a drink, that'll take like 15 minutes!" and then an hour later I get back and whoops my rice has burnt.

Plus there's also the fact that ADHD people know that motivation and focus is a two-edged sword.

Like, let's say you decide to play a video game. You've got time, you can pause/save whenever, so this should be a perfect fit to make good use of your waiting-time. So you start playing and WHOOPS you get really focused for some reason today (because people with ADHD do not get to pick when their brain decides to focus) and the next time you look at the clock it's 2:49 and you haven't showered or dressed and the appointment is 30 minutes away. Fuck. (you could have set an alarm, but now you're asking people with the forgetting-things-and-time-ignoring condition to remember it set alarms)

And with motivation, it can be almost worse. Instead of playing a game, you so something useful or creative. You clean your room or fix your plumbing or write a story or draw a picture. And suddenly it's great. Your brain is firing on all cylinders. You've got all the motivation you can ask for, and you are FLYING. the ideas are brilliant, your hands are nimble, you're getting stuff done you've been putting off for weeks or months. And then the alarm goes off. Time to go to your appointment. Fuck.

You drive there, your brain still full of ideas and plans. But by the time you get back, the motivation is gone. You may still have the ideas but you don't have the drive to write them down. You can't force yourself to do it. Your sink is still in pieces. Your room is half-cleaned, and you have to shove all the sorted clothes into one big bin just so you have somewhere to sleep. You've left things half finished again, in a cycle that has been repeating your whole fucking life. It seems sometimes that nothing ever gets finished.

So next time you don't even start. There's not time. You've been burnt too many times. Why add another half-completed project to your pile of shame?

My point is that people seem to be going "lol I can't do anything all day if I have an appointment at 3pm" like this is a quirky "oh I'm so scatterbrained!" weirdness they alone have, and not a major complication of a disabling mental illness.

(and that's not even getting into the secondary effects. If you know that having an appointment ruins your whole damn day, you're going to avoid them. Even when it's things like "going to that party" or "meeting your friends for a drink/game" or "going to a movie with that cute girl from your math class". Things you should enjoy. Things that'd help you be social. Things that make you feel human.)

#ADHD

[shwarmii]

i never realized Viktor was missing from Disenchanted Fashions before (or at least tumblr isnt showing him) and i am having so much fun with that bit of freedom towards his wardrobe jfc

#idk what style im drawing him in is technically called #mall goth?? cyber goth??? techwear goth????? it is a lot of belts plus a harness. bro loved Kingdom Hearts #i had several irl friends who were Alternative Gays before they realized they were eggs. something about the gender nonconformity #my favorite part of these aesthetics is the reuse and mending and so i am having fun giving Vik and Amri #patches and having them repurpose certain parts of their wardrobe again and again like Viktor As A Teen has #a belt chain with a star that later becomes a piece of horn jewlery. the pins on his beanie move to his backpack etc #bro always wears the same earrings #its my hc his parents didnt like the aesthetic (hence why his teen picture is so limited in its goth aspects) UNTIL they found #out about the anti-trend aspects and the mending and whatnot like. guarantee he will wear these jeans for 10 yrs and then when they #finally tear-- he's going to use them to help repair another pair of jeans from 10 yrs ago. parents (esp of four kids) LOVE that part #very likely none of this is canon buT FUCK IF IM NOT HAVING FUN #the only thing i know about Vik's canon wardrobe is that leaf shirt so ill add that in for his 30+ yr old picture #i just love the idea of Vik The Goth so much let him be OBNOXIOISLY alternative cmon look at the company he keeps #someone feel free to send me ideas for Luci too bc i have a hc that their wardrobe is based almost entirely off of how their mom would #dress then as part of their parents exercising control over Luci and ''protecting the family name'' so like #i think since Luci is so new to having more freedom from their parents rn that Luci hasnt changed styles and the idea is probably #anxiety-inducing even bc of habitual fear of parental backlash. but like. also i want 30s!Luci to be living their best life #(EDIT: OMG I FORGOT I MADE GIGI'S BIO-MOM A MORTICIA ADAMS STYLE GOTH. OMG THAT MAKES HER BFF BEING #GOTH SO MUCH SWEETER WTF??? AND HER MOM WAS 1/3 DRACA TOO. GIGI DOESNT EVEN REMEMBER HER MOM. OMGGG I DIDNT REALIZE #I DID THAT... THEIR TWO GOTH STYLES ARE SO FUCKING DIFFERENT BUT AHH GISELLE'S MOM WAS A GOTH 1/3 DRACA AND HER BFF/MAYBE BF IS A GOTH 1/2 #DRACA WTFFFFF MY BRAIN YALL MY FUCKING BRAIN AND THESE CONNECTIONS AHHH)

[komcrebi-moved]

character ai making me discover that Imai Kazane over here has a quirk that can be comparable to shigaraki's with its sheer destructive force, jesus christ ytghufjdgj

#( ooc ) #( tbd ) #FR THOUGH this is so much fun uhdyghujidg its so light and easy and zero stress yknow #I dont think ive played w these characters so much since i even made them orz'' #BUT YEAH HER CONDUIT // LIFE ENERGY QUIRK IS INTENSE CHRIST ALMIGHTY she can literally kill people by ACCIDENT if she gets too overwhelmed #and people wonder why shes such an ice queen yhudfg its not just that shes stoic and unemotional. shes very emotional. she just... has to.. #NOT be. shes very in control - or she thinks so - of her emotions.. or rather she suppresses them so much that when she does freak out it #ends up actually being worse than it would be otherwise <:' ) #the ability to suck the life energy from living things and add it to your own is horrifying and shes lucky she has any control over it at #all tbf JUHYGHUFJDJDG #ANYWAY enough of myrambling in the tags i!!! need to go make another coffee go peepiss and then ill try to sit down and write nodnod #feel free to hmu about plotting or send me memes!! i fuckin love memes >:]c or answer opens?? or shove your opens tag at me and ill sift #thru em !!! but pls remember that if u have a muse preference - to specify! or even age range for muses nodnod