#illness illuminated

[fickes]

bringing back Illness Illuminated to commemorate the three monthiversary of withdrawal from my stupid antidepressants that didn't even work

#art #artists on tumblr #illustration #comic #depression #antidepressants #drawing #illness illuminated #pain peasant #artist #digital art #clip studio paint #mental illness #medieval #illuminated manuscript

[heartorbit]

i'm sending this endless melody to a nameless you

#SKELETON ORCHESTRA AND LILIA I NEED YOU #project sekai #emunene #emu otori #nene kusanagi #pjsk #prsk #proseka #wxs cover wishlist copium.. 2!! #i have lots more of them i wanna draw but ill do st least one duet for each pair i think. maybe nnks next ive had one for them forever #Gyaaaa #Crying i have szks lunar new years art that idk how to render im missing the holiday. lord in heaven #Ik every leaker or whatever says this is going to mmj snd it probably will and i'll love the cover but still. emunene save me #wxs gets songs with nonsense lyrics its possible right Right right #i also wanted setsuna trip to go to emu in any duet but i looove the mnai cover so i won anways #Kind of too sleepy to do my usual. Sorry viewers who like reading theough my insane tags. Dont get covid it makes you sleep 13 hours a day #For the next month. #my friends saw me going nuts over this drawing actually and i gave up hard on nenes dress i just wanted to be done.. love how emus looks.. #wait i actually can be insane in the tags THE WXS WORLDLINK SONG SJHDDYDJKYMY TGYAYDHUA!!! HAGSGYAAH!!!!! GY6;$;$;$;$;$ WHEHEHEHEHEH #WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH. Its so good please help. Wxs tetrad that illuminates the world save me. #why does the 2dmv have all of them under a WEDDING AROOOR WHY IS THERE A WEDDING BELL. CONGRATS ON POLYSHO MARRIAGE. HWATEVVRR!!!!! #wonderlands x showtime killing me taking damage augh Auughg akk akcghj

[lunarharp]

when an obsessed orufrey person plays ace attorney for the first time in a while

#witch hat tag #orufrey #you know those times when the defendant is still in shambles at the end of a case because it was not a clear-cut thing #but you get to present one Special Sentimental piece of evidence that proves not all is lost #qifrey's breakdown would be like... he turns up calm and pleasant like dahlia kristoph gant etc but very quickly: #well first he's hiding his scar so you have to use the bracelet and also you find out about the seal on his hat using that. #eventually he is throwing water that comes out of nowhere like that coffee prosecutor guy. and his cape starts billowing #the more he breaks down his neck thingies start coming undone btw. To represent his descent into guilt and his LIES becoming undone. #course as the player i have already used my magatama and seen his 35894 psychelocks. but theyre those BLACK psychelocks #representing his repressed memories taken by the brimhats. also his glasses shatter out of nowhere when you keep presenting evidence #and tartah's testimony etc. and the player is like UHH this guy is A PUPPET MASTER but coco's heartfelt testimony commands the tone #and of course he's someone who has been twisted and damaged by trauma like adrian andrews. the mastermind is of course the brimhats #only me with my magatama knows that... only i can do it. It has to be me..... #just like how as the reader i can see everything about qifrey and i can hold him dear as much as i judge him #whereas if i were oru things would not be ok unless memories can be restored and mentally ill decisions can be illuminated #WELL ANYWAY !!!!! what i appreciate about ace attorney is its ability to mix silliness with seriousness #i cant usually make jokes about serious heavy heartbreaking stuff in witch hat because it is all very intense emotions for me #but i appreciate ace attorney's mix of sincerity and psychological pain and the inherent silliness to being a character in a situation #so.....Get Iguin on the stand. Now. BAILIFF.. TAKE OFF THE MASK #i would most love to be able to prove qifrey's eyesight is failing. hed be like I have no reason to pursue the brimhats (smiles pleasantly) #and it would be like You're lowering your gaze.. proof that the court lighting is too harsh for you..! #his glasses would crack at that moment btw. I used apollo's bracelet and saw the glyphs on the glass. #I know all about u. and i will save u

[hella1975]

we may have lost another one to the bisexual hotgirl and straight loserboy agenda but trust i am fighting it comrades 🫡

#IM TRYINGGGGG. the fuck of it all is that we've been going on dates on and off for WEEKS now #and i said to him at the start im not looking for anything serious and there's a chance he might be mugging himself off #bc i am just NOT emotionally available and low and behold we were at the pub the other night and wound up having a pretty #serious talk about how ive really liked getting closer to him and i genuinely enjoy our time together but i just cant see anything #serious coming of it NOT BC OF HIM BC GENUINELY I FEEL LIKE IVE MET MY MATCH WITH THIS BOY #NO ONE IRL CAN BANTER WITH ME LIKE HE CAN AND THAT IS SUCHHH A CRUCIAL BOX TO TICK WITH ME #but i just dont think im mentally or emotionally in the place for a relationship and i dont like him ENOUGH to fight for it #like it's been v illuminating v much that 'you never realise just how mentally ill you are until you try persuing a romantic relationship' #bc DAMN. i feel insane like why cant i just be normal about things and enjoy nice things and people in my life #BUT despite me saying all this to him and TRYING NOT TO BE THE ASSHOLE he has fully admitted that he likes me SO MUCH #that he'd like to keep going on dates and stuff regardless of the end result. like he genuinely just likes my company #and will take it in any capacity he can get he literally SAID that he's whipped for me 😭 #and im like HOW DO I WIN HERE. IF I TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THAT IM AN ASSHOLE BUT CUTTING HIM OFF ISNT FAIR EITHER #AND I LIKE OUR LITTLE DATES AND BEING SPOILED AND HAVING SOMEONE BE A LITTLE OBSESSED WITH ME #SORRY IF THAT MAKES ME A BAD GUY. GOD FORBID WOMEN DO ANYTHING #ughhhhhhh. so yeah we're going on another date tonight. shoot me i dont care!!!! #hella goes to uni

[randomreasonstolive]

Reason to Live #9097

  Illuminating your garden with cute lighting. – Guest Submission

(Please don't add negative comments to these posts.)

#sad #help #hope #reason to live #depressed #depression #empty #alone #mental illness #anxiety #trauma #guest submission #mental health #illuminating #illumination #lighting #garden #decor

[plasma-tree]

anyways im gonna play skyrim and fuck the living tits off of some orc blacksmith or whatever

#skyrim #orcs #god love 'em #whoever thought “yeah ill make green muscly guys with fangs and tusks” should be worshipped like a god #you handed generation after generation of Monsterfucker Lite a torch to illuminate our need to get railed by a humanoid but not human monst #monsterfucker #bless you #orc

[ilonacho]

some donkey doodles

#sing #sing movie #sing 2016 #sing 2021 #sing 2 #illumination entertainment sing #sing oc #sing sona #sing self insert #fursona #furry #donkey #iloart #sorta warmups from a while ago #im living my dream i think ill have her work at some horror retail store bc thats the dream rn

[eddieshellscape]

This scene better fuckin happen in the new Mario movie:

*the scene sets, probably after an action scene from the main characters, it is contrasted with a chill vibe. Luigi is just with Bowser because he kidnap.*

Luigi: ... So, uh, what do you usually do around here.

Bowser: Well we just have to wait for Mario to arrive so I can (insert evil thing he wants to do here)

Luigi: So we just sit here?

Bowser: Well usually I kidnap peach so i can make her my bride...

*Luigi and Bowser stare at each other.*

End Scene

#bowuigi #writing #i'm mentally ill #i cant write dialog for the life of me #I cant WRITE for thé life of me #help me #anyways they're gay #let them be gay #don't be scared nintendo #don't be scared illumination #LET THE QUEERS BE FUCKIGB QUEEEEEEEER #thank you for coming to my ted talk

[judasisgayriot]

(Nathan making his self-loathing EVERYONE else’s problem in the worst way possible.)

#heroesedit #primatech #heroes nbc #heroes #nbc heroes #noah bennet #nathan petrelli #anni edits #am i an angel or a monster #many thoughts about this scene. i broadly think villain!nathan arc is stupid and a mess anyway lol #but this is kind of illuminating. 'ill play whatever role i need to' could describe nathan's entire life #but this time it's self imposed rather than forced on him. like. #adding to the fact there's no way he doesn't know he could be v easily found out #this seems like such self destructive behaviour lol?? #anyway he's such a fkn idiot #and he's WILDLY projecting all his issues with his own power #and how it makes him some kind of Not-Normal Freak(tm) #that he's dragging EVERYONE else into it like 'we'll just get rid of ALL the powers!! problem solved!!' #HOW DID YOU NOT REALISE THIS WOULD BLOW UP IN YOUR FACE #thanks noah for trying to explain to him why this is a Bad Idea like he's five. he aint listening tho lol #the last bit is also like... ok. thanks for acknowledging the multiple mental breakdowns you've been having recently nathan. #still does not make this remotely a way to 'make things right' or like. a way to what #win peter back over?? #'i nearly killed my brother' is an interesting read too #like he hit him a couple of times but he was fine lol. he's not the one who set the place on fire. #does he mean he was willing to just burn to death in there and almost let peter die too?? #i've always interpreted 'it's not what i would've done' as meaning 'i wouldn't have saved ME' yanno #the man is such a complex mess of utter self loathing idk what his thought process even is at this point lol. #anyway stop dragging everyone else into your issues!! get some therapy!! #(also the writing is a whole mess but. anyway sorry for the tag essay as per)

[lesbiangiratina]

Ky please keep changing your occupation so testament can be a little hater about it no matter what it is. Knight cop king keep going youll never win. Thank you

#that intro is real to me idc. ill get it 1 day. probably #i just want to know what their relationship is like now. man. #like. on 1 hand this line is a bit illuminating. but on the other hand. idk what if its unused cuz they decided its out of character #how am i supposed to know!! #family is important to testament. and their family is the kiskes. presumably. unless they were really busy in their xrd off screen time. #(​insert kiske family image from the credits with testament brooding in the background) #so they. they presumably do not Dislike ky. #the kat goes meow #gg

[tinta--branca--art]

Pentiment made me so unwell smh it’s ALL i’ve been thinking about for days

Joined on to the self-insert trend bc i find it really sweet ;u;; didn’t do a full body because 16th century portuguese peasant clothing resources online ?? nonexistent 😔

#pentiment #pentiment self insert #digital #art #this is a very real call for help hmu if you have any pt historical clothing references because it's barren here #i have a very flimsy design in mind but it isnt particularly historically accurate #also !! slight u-turn but aaaaaaaaaa this game !!!!! #i love murder mysteries and medieval history and medieval abbeys #i know it's technically renaissance but shhh close enough #i also studied illumination for a year a while back and really liked it so this was #such an experience !! #never mind that the writing is stellar #this was a really fun way to dip back into that interes ;u;; i think ill whip my inks out at some point too #but for now i leave u w this u3u #tintabrancaart

[night-dark-woods]

the one problem with someone writing THE perfect fic for a certain pairing (Especially rarepairs) is that then youre forever left chasing more like that one perfect fic :(

obviously theres LOTS of good fics out there and i also have a lot of faves that are more ooc (as a completely neutral descriptor!) and very fun. but theres always those one or two fics for a pairing that drive me fucking insane and i have to space out my rereads.

#this is because i reread the stone butch geralt fic again. which lives at all times in my head rent free #and is why i started my most recent wild hunt playthru. #one line especially i truly think about on a WEEKLY basis. #this is also though about that ofos butch/femme moicy fic. #and the shaw/root/the machine series. #and. the one active kigo fic im subscribed to. which im rereading from the beginning rn bc it just updated. #and bc something about kigo makes me insane like no other ship ever has since. #OH AND OF COURSE. KNIGHT AU. though that may as well be original chars but it belongs in the same category. #my posts #feel free to ask for the names of any of these lol. at some point ill do a fave fics list maybe. though that may be too illuminating lol.

[korrinhorizon]

Update about my fanfic!

Ok I know it’s been. . . A while, but once I’m done with all my projects, work, and hobbies I need to do, I’ll go and work on my fanfic again! So sorry! It might take a few weeks til then due to the work load but we’ll see if I can update soon!

#sing 2 #sing 2 movie #sing movie #sing 2 illumination #gay #demiboy #my ocs #sing oc #fanfic #headcanon #Sing2 #sing rynny #rynny #Ryan x Johnny x Oc #the work load is honestly very overwhelming T-T #wattpad #ill try to update soon!

[citrusitonit]

ive decided to become a diehard fan of something. wish me luck

#ominously tapping away at my laptop with an illuminating screen and a dark room #im going to read every single character sheet #im going to read through the manga #im going to watch every single episode #yes i will maybe even scour for the spin offs but its optional #whats important is the canon #ill memorize every chaarcters brithday #im going insane

[perenlop]

"obsessed with sun and moon themes being used in negative and positive ways" i can see why you enjoy hxh then (well. moreso light and darkness but same thing really)

JSJDJDJDJDUDUDJEJDJFJD HUSHHHH

#gon’s light illuminating killuas life but also being overwhelming and destructive for himself #making me ill #mail #levincias

[septembersghost]

the grief of bigger than the whole sky speaking more directly to how i feel about myself and the dead girl whose existence illness stole and whose breath i walk around invisibly in, and the ghost i feel like i am, and the way i constantly mourn her because she never got to live, she never got to accomplish her goals, she never got to follow her dreams, she never got to fall in love...all those experiences i once thought i would have and know, have known for basically half my life now, will never be, because illness and pain consumed everything i was and all the potential i once had...nothing has ever spoken to that so directly, and it's the one song where i feel like...it becomes so personal depending on what individual trauma and grief we live with and that haunts our minds at night...that girl i was ultimately existed for such a brief moment, she started to die as a teenager, i was still in many ways a child when my future began to crumble, but she was more than just a short time...i have a lot to pine about, i have a lot to live without...every single thing i've touched for my entire adulthood has become sick with sadness...i'm never going to meet what could've been, would've been, should've been...it resonates so painfully close and nothing else has ever quite expressed that before and it makes me cry, but i'm also thankful for it because it gives me a frame for the way that grief affects me. for that she herself is a haunted house feeling. there so often haven't been words, and she gave me words.

#this doesn't detract from any other interpretation or its original intent #or how anyone else feels about it and the way it illuminates any grief #like it also makes me think very specifically of angel and how i ache with missing her #but it so poignantly echoes for me #bubble wrap around my heart #i've never been a natural; all i do is try try try #bigger than the whole sky #midnights #taylor swift #the little girl who was always tired #she herself is a haunted house #chronic illness