#im 2 gd for u

[fadeintoyou1993]

i wanted to do a lil follow forever but then i always feel bad if i forget ppl and then it just becomes an emotional chore thing but if im following u in 2023 u did it buddy!

#txt #unless u were a victim of the lil month tumblr purged my following for no gd reason n i had to run around like a dumbass #tryna rmr who i used 2 follow #then im sorry . we will meet again maybe

[sureameline]

i. “chelsea hotel #2″ - leonard cohen // ii. “a valediction: forbidding mourning” - john donne // iii. “heaven’s light/hellfire” - the hunchback of notre dame ost // iv. “chelsea hotel #2″ - leonard cohen

“and clenching your fists for the ones like us who are oppressed by the figures of beauty, you fixed yourself, you said: ‘well, nevermind. we are ugly, but we have the music.’ and then you got away, didn’t you, babe ? you just turned your back on the crowd.”  @sabbioneta

#musings ! #ft. leonarda ! #i would love to be able to credit the artists and such but i have no gd clue who they are and where they came from. #if this were a wider platform i'd feel so bad about that BUT. the 16 of us just will never know! #if u cant tell.......................... im obsessed with chelsea hotel no 2 for them..................

[piknim]

Hehehehe

#this drawing does not work well on a charm bc the edges are too pixely but i love my lil sample piece #im upset about how long it took for my vograce order to come but gd if i order from them again im getting a charm of eli #i love that u can do samples of charms #for $5 each #i got this for $2 bc of a coupon code #im making my first etsy post of the stickers of this design

[maiteo]

if mikel doesn’t plan on utilizing fábio and all his talents, leaving him to stay on the bench or end up at some bum ass club then….🤐

#they will not be seeing me. that’s all I’m saying<3 #when that transfer happened the excitement lasted 2 secs I knew what could happen & I knew mikel would not play him as much as he should #i have to watch porto get raided every gd year and our most talented players leaving and end up not getting the opportunities they deserve #im not naive ik this is how fb/transfers are but you wouldn’t understand if you’re not used to your club constantly getting players taken #all this transfer talk and mikel has half a mfing bench he barely took advantage of all season. if he did things would’ve ended differently #if big clubs wanna pluck promising players off of ‘smaller’ clubs(🤢) at least give them back to us if u don’t use them #this is all a jumbled mess I’m just so annoyed and have a lot on my mind abt so much!! #I don’t expect anyone to understand or care abt this…maybe real porto fans but that’s a rare occurrence on here #estou farto que isto aconteça…só quero o melhor para o meu clube #lemme go back to making this cute lil dinner im just so very🙁🥴😵‍💫

[the-lost-kids]

#vent #gd been a while since I’ve used that tag LMAO #girls when the downward spiral ig 🤩 #anyway uh. gritting my teeth. less than two weeks left until I’m 2 years sh free. 12 days #I can do that #idk what the fuck I’m gonna do after idk how long I can keep doing this shit it doesn’t fucking get any easier. But I can make it 12 days #idk I just fucken. All my old scars r so faded u can’t even rly see them anymore #Gotta make new ones just so it stops feeling like I made it up #idk. Im gonna go to bed early tonight ig

[n0ct0urn1quet]

my girllfirfendn is sfo cugigfdnkdgjf prebby!!!!!!! prebyty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! waawawwavhhaggakvfdkjbfhbh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am losignng it my face is red FUCK

#SHEHES FUCKEN RPEBY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #AAA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #shes so shaped an round and tal an cute an preby an hjbdfjdgllkj snugy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shes me wife!!!!!!!!! aysvggjjhk!!!!!!! #i lov she!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #peppr my belovd if ur readingng this i am hkljhgbs gd h dfg gdjbdgfbdgf ur so fuckginmg preby i love u :] :] :] !!!!!!!! #ALSLO I DIDN GET A CHANC 2 SAY THIS BUT........ the shirt u were wearimg is verey very cute it makes u look very shabped <:] #n ur shorts!!!!!! r cute too!!!!!!!!!!! ur thighs ar cute!!!!!!!!!!!!! #litrally everytrhing about u is cute my face is very very red rn if only u could see me (i am very pale so when my face gets red it gets #bright fucken red KLJALKSHJKVBJKG) #but abkjgdfblkj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im very in lov with u <:] #if u wana bro ik u said u gota get up early at like 10am but whenever ur like finished doin whatever it is ur doin then uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #maybeeeeeeee we could vc......... mayb perhaps video chat.......................... idk i just bhdfjkbnkjn!!!!!! #i kno i dont make tha sily faces like u do an i just kinda sit there looking awkward but hrgh i like seeimg ur face honey!!!!!! #ur very very prety ................. like bro i just !!!!!!! kbgkbkljdgf i love u lots i lov u <<:] #u shoul !!!!!!!! send me selfies mor often!!!!!!!!! i like seeing u!!!!!!!!!! ur very preyty awawaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! #or even jus we should video chat mor often!!!!!!!!! i kno im not rly much more interesting on camera but i like seeinmg u <:] #ur prety!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur my belobd!!!!!!!!!!! and i wana jus jkgbhjrbjhnjk hold ur face an kissy u all over!!!!! bhjsdfbgkjlbklj!!!!!!!!!!! #IM SO SAD my mic was barely picking up my kisie noieses <:( i tried 2 giv u kises when u were kising me but it wouldnt pic up thte nois!!!! #so insead i wil giv u kises here!!!!!!!!!! *mwa mwa maw maw maw mwa mmwa mwe mweeh mmwaah mwa mwa ma mweeh*!!!!!! #oke das al!!!!! im go sleby now an hab dreambs abt we!!!!! us!!!!!!!! caus!!!!!!!! i love we!!!!!!!! an i love u!!!!!!!!!!!!! so very much! #pepr i luv u <:] get good sep!!!! seep tite!!!! snugy wif da me pillow an i wil snugy wif da u pillow #we wil be cosy <:] <3333

[dromaeo-sauridae]

rrgghhhtfhehggghgh i hate my hands i hate my reaction time i hate it so bad i cant fucking play songs over 150 bpm cuz my brain cant fucking register it im gonna rip the strings off my guitar with my teeth

#its so hard to hold back from breaking these strings cuz thats a really embarrassing text message to send to my guitar teacher #whos been so gd patient with my angry ass for this past month while i struggle to play a singular song with two whole parts #salt creek? you cant play salt creek? fucking salt creek?? salt cr #its the strings being played over and over again. i cant move fast enough. i just cant no matter how many times i play it i always fuck it u #at least im better than i was. 2 weeks ago i couldnt get to fucking 120 bpm #like i get playing half time is hard but still. i think im just a fucking dumbass #personal i guess

[penisliker-moved]

wellk anyways.. my bddedtime. gn everyone . we r alll praying together that tgere arent a lot f rooms tmrw

#did i tell u guys. we were supposedto grt 2 new ppl but ig we only got 1 Nm #which yk fair. th last 2 ppl she hired both hit either before or immediately following theirnfirst day Lmao #sorttt of funny. but th nee guy is staying he seems chill #hes sitll training rn but once hes in his own thatll be a hyge weight ykyk. #n then Hopefully we get more.. bc uhmm she said once were fulstaffed (which is 6 in th fof season (?) and 12 in the on season (?) #which is confusin 2 me bc uhmm w eonly have 5 carts #but ig like not everybody would work everyday.. idk #im gonna go in tmrw and therell be like 17. i know iy. just bc i made this post #dear gd plzzznchrist give me like .. 7 rooms tmrw. at most. maybe 8. but oreferbaly like 4

[mechawolfie]

does disco elysium have multiple endings?

#from seeing ppl talk abt it i assume theres at least 2? a good and bad one? #is the bad one disappointing kim #literally if i ever disappoint kim ever make him lose his trust in me id just stop playing the game then and there id #id just throw my whole gd computer away id walk into the woods and just find a nice hole to lay down & die in #literally my life hinges on this mans opinion #anyway so how many endings are there? 😊 #n if theres multiple. how easy is it to fuck up. bc im p good at fucking up!! #& as i understand it this games wants u to fuck up at least a bit #but id like to not Royally Fuck Up #especially since my brain usually doesnt let me come back to things once im finished so idk if ill b able to replay #but god would i like to. i wish i could play this game a million times #i have the art booklet too i cant wait to look at it once im done #disco elysium #smudgy.txt

[faust1926]

saw someone the other day say they wish they had a god complex cause it'd be a "good" delusion to have or something, and it's had me thinking bout how misunderstood a lot of experiences are re: delusions of grandeur, narcissism, and the like.

I don't have the exact words I want rn, but the reason these kinds of clinical traits are labelled as (symptoms of) disorders, is because they're, u know, disorders. they're not healthy for the person experiencing them. if these were healthy levels of good self-esteem, it would just be called "good self-esteem"..... so why then, do so many people assume that alone is exactly what these psych terms are describing???? if I had to guess, I'd say it goes hand-in-hand with the ableist stereotypes against these kinds of experiences. the "narcissists are inherently abusive monsters who hurt everyone else and never experience a single emotion ever" belief you see spread all across society, including and especially within "mental health community spaces"....

when someone experiences symptoms that, within their internal world, place themselves higher than others in one way or another, it's assumed by outsiders to be inhumanely malicious -- to an exaggerated degree. harmful to anyone but the person who's actually feeling those emotions firsthand. but these are disordering symptoms. not character flaws. first and foremost these symptoms negatively affect the person EXPERIENCING them. there's no plainer way to put it. ofc others can be affected too, but imo this is a second-hand problem. focus on supporting the person themself, and any issues their symptoms are causing others will naturally follow (within reason & assuming good faith).

but in the end where this puts me is just: no, you do not wish you had a god complex. it would not fix your low self-esteem, in all likelihood it would make it much worse.

#uhmmmhmhmhummhmhuuumm whatever just my opinion and 2 cents #brought to u by. my misanthropy has been coming back :-( not only is it one of the worst things to experience but it also SOUNDS so bad #and idk any more-clinical terms for it which doesn't help either lol #but it's been fucking me up. makes social interactions way harder and hasn't been helping my irritability at all. #between this and my narcissism (which I'm less ashamed of at least lol) I will just get SO gd upset when I'm not getting - #- enough attention or help from others or whatever. and in addition to needing to cope with my emotions I've also gotta hold myself back - #- from getting (genuinely) mean or (like what ended up happening today:) just straight up bursting into tears cause I'm so frustrated #.so these kinds of things aren't like.... ''extremely good self esteem ^_^'' ime. it's more like the constant feeling of an unmet need #combined with the constant feeling that everyone around you is an awful person who hates you #OR IDK! maybe I'm experiencing something else entirely. like I said ik misanthropy at least isn't even like... a real label here #but these kinds of diagnostic circles are the closest I've gotten to seeing the experiences defined #....it's just hard sometimes to tell the difference between what's real and truthful vs what's a bias stereotype. so idk for sure #does that make sense? I'm tired and today was hard.

[wabblebees]

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#rant incoming! tldr: im just complainin' bc im a dumbass playing with the new blorbos from my head but i SHOULD be asleep. oops #had brain fog + migraine + joint pain BAD all mcfucken day #to the point where i spent the last 11 hours just laying in bed being adhd miserable bc it Hurt to be awake but the understimulation had me #fuckt UP. i couldnt sleep to escape it bc i couldnt fucken relax my FACE enough to make my head stop hurting but i felt like i was going #full yellow-wallpaper lady in my own head bc through the brain fog + the headache i couldnt focus on anything stimulating or fun enough #and now. NOW. now that its 2am and the ibuprofen is FINALLY working. i cant sleep bc i have dnd brainrot #ive got all these fun ideas that i dont wanna forget so ive been scrambling to get them all down before i can #but also i SHOULD be SLEEPING. yet every time i lay down my brain's silly little lightbulb ''bing!''s Back On and im!! hoough!! #sooo fun thinkin abt it all but also... dude. u dont have a campaign or table or a party or ANYTHING. so W H Y do u gotta do this rn #whyyyy rn. all day i wanted this or sleep and got NEITHER. but!! oh sure nOw the brain worms are active. #i have WORK in the morning little brainworms. its 2am!! where were u at 6o'clock!! we coulda done all this t h e n #But Also. i am rotating these new lil fuckers in my head at mach speeds #im so fucken psyched for smth to happen with these ideas even though ik theres like. literally no way in hell for them to go anywhere lmao. #ive never dm'ed in my gd life hgkfshfkgk idk wtf im doing here. ive played in like. 2 canpaigns total. wtf is going ON lmao #goddamn. adhd my beloathed. ah well #also just realised the phrase 'blorbos from my head' probably sounds.... very very silly lmao #im typing this out bc im hoping doing smth slightly Different will break the brain cycle enough to let me Go Tf To Bed lmao #wish me luck lmaooo #bee speaks

[agayconcept]

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#booooo i have an early morning orthodontist appt and i h8 everything #its 2 cities over #Ugh #and ofc its in an area w atrociously bad public transit #the joys #i've already moved money in my bank acct for an emergency uber / taxi if it takes too long #h8 everything #h8 that i even have to go bc #a) this orthodontist is a POS and treats me (and most ppl) terribly #b) i shouldnt even have to go bc its HIS fault my teeth moved #(took off my permanent retainer when it broke and wouldnt replace it. told me the teeth wouldnt move. they did. when i called to say so #he told me i was imagining it and making things up out of anxiety. told him no but he wouldnt listen. cut to 3 months later #and i have gaps where i shouldnt and my dentist did xrays and was like Damn Dude. they've moved a lot. go back and demand he fix it. #so now i have to do fuckin invisalign to fix the gaps before getring another wire on & its gonna cost a LOT of money that i dont have. cool #and also c) they want me to make a decision Today but i told them i need a quote to then ask insurance / disability. they threw a fit #and r def gonna do so again when i show up #ughhsgshshhs #they're also gonna blame it on my vitamin deficiencies. which ya can contribute but does Not exolain the rapid shifting my guy #that was u screwing up and now u dont wanna own up to it #he legit refused an appt w me so im seeing his colleague. real mature bro. real fuckin mature #but there's no other ortho for me to go to around where i live plus there's the whole legal thing of like. #he screwed it up so i can fight for it to be his responsibility to fix if necessary #anyway #i am anxious rambling bc i DONT WANNA GO DO THIS #i h8 dentist shit enough as it is bc of autism / anxiety / ptsd #and this office is the same one that verbally abused me as a teenager for having anxiety and as an adult for being disabled #fml #wish me fuckin luck im gonna gd need it #into the trenches we go

[neobisexual]

bbbbbb might meet up with somebody n make gross videos together soon i am debating it

#gotta run it by my boy first ofc #itd be like. at least a week n a half away. idkidkidk. im debating #havent actually had sex in a week as of today which is a weird place for me cuz i usually do like 2-4 times a week 😭 just been so gd busy #anyway in the future. if this happens. u may dm to get said gross videos 👍

[pxnkbabyx]

i knew i was done for when i walked into costco and let myself lose all sense of self & rationale over portion size and price

#why do i need 4 boxes of capri sun? because my parents wouldn’t buy it for me as a kid #yes im buying gogurt and yakult too #i absolutely need 2 packs of cake sized muffins for myself #i will body these go go squeeze applesauces at my sad corporate job #leggings for $12? …..fuckin throw that into the cart too #and u bet i’m stopping at the gd food court after

[wistfulclown]

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#i love u bitches so muc #i just randomly got the inspo to write just so many gd words at once #ill post ch 1 as a little treat and give the rest out once the work is closer to being done #but oh my god the outlines i have done are almost the entire story #we almost finished the zombie au #edit: my computer keeps crashing and literally will not open ao3 im sobbing openly send help #edit 2: my roommate is a saint and we should all be sucking her dick she unfucked my shit and helped me save all my files before factory l #resetting my pc #bless her

[your-local-granny]

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#there is simply so much to do its 12.30 theres so much to do im going to go catatonic my guys #do the readings watch the lectures post two discussion questions on each finish the midterm prep (that you havent started) #also we need 2 trays of brownies for the bakesale cause u promissed youd help and its too late to bakc out and only like 2 other ppl r help #and also you have only 2 hrs tomorrow to learn 2 pieces on piano and also go over staging for the entire opera and also record 2 16m. cuts #ALSO!!! thats not even counting friday!!! which consits of a choir performance and opera showcase followed by 3 and a half hrs of staging #AND EVERYONE KEEPS GETTING SICK. #and ppl r like omg nooo hoow thats so sad!!!! ITS BEACUSE WE R BEING OVERWORKED TO THE POINT OF COLAPSE!!!! #and if we complain we wont get any more roles HELLOOOOOOOO #this is the department you have cultivated!!!!! #no i havent studdied for the listening exam!!! i literally DONT HAVE TIME to know A HUNDRED HOUR S OF MUSIC IM SORR Y #its a constant war of trying not to overextend myself and then being fucked over a week later bc the only way to stay on top of it all #is to work overtime!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #god forbid i had a JOB or something christ!!!! #i swear to christ the reason im fucking broke is because this gd school doesnt give me time to get a paycheck!!!! #thank god for commissions!!!!!. #okay i need to preheat the oven now or do Something productive my Word. #portal of rambling