#im SO fucked up about them actually

[theworldbrewery]

the english major in me is still fucked up over deciding that in my campaign, Mystra is a Macbeth figure, Kelemvor is a Hamlet figure, and Cyric is a Brutus (Julius Caesar) figure. Cyric stabbing his dearest friend to death in the last moment ‘because I loved Rome more,’ Mystra seeing the meaninglessness of life and craving immortality and committing unholy murder to achieve glory and godhood, Kelemvor well-meaning and devoted and losing everything through inaction;

#im SO fucked up about them actually #the Apotheoi #actual play

[gothteddies]

I kinda wanna kidnap someone but only actually take over like…the majority of their life I guess? I know that sounds stupid but I’d love to kidnap someone in college and keep them in my house but still let them out to go to class and maintain a steady future. Like I did kidnap them, I stole them walking back from class and I keep them in my house, forcing them to do whatever I want. They wear only what I allow them, they have a collar on 24/7, I treat them like my private fuck toy and force them to worship me. It’s just that one of the things I also want for them is to keep their bright future so I also take over paying their tuition, I make sure they’re studying and doing all their homework, I bring over their old wardrobe and allow them to pick outfits from it to wear to class, I make sure they’re taking care of themselves and their future. All I really did was cut them off from their toxic family, took the stress of a job out of their life by keeping them at home, and wiped out their stress by taking over all of their financial responsibilities. They try to ask me about tuition or a early cancellation fee for breaking their contract on their dorm/apartment since they live here now, but all I tell them is that’s not their job to worry about anymore. Just make sure they suck my cock well and keep learning and studying like my good smart little pet and it’ll all be okay.

#gothteddy posts #genderless post #cnc #kidnapping tw #kidnapping #reallyyyy thinking about this actually #sugar daddy but make it non consenual #kidnapping them and keeping them as my pet #telling them that I only intend to keep then til they graduate; that’ll ill let them go to class and maintain their grades - that theres ab #end to the nightmare. but this includes letting them out to go to class #and threatening them with if they tell ANYONE ehats going or try to get help. #then there will be a different kind of end to it. a more permanent one. #tagging their collar so i can track their location and making sure theyre going to class and no where else #theyre horrified and scared at fiezt but sfter a month or two realize its kind of…the ideal situation #like yeah they get tied up and fucked within an inch of their life and used a lot #but keeping under my desk sucking me off while i pay their rent and tutition and but their textbooks….is 10000% better then working minimum #wage and trying to stufy snd pay rent snd do it all themselves #they can focus more on their studies now and theyre grades are improving. and not having to deal with their family constantly mistreating #them is also nice. they dont even feel guilty about it because IM the one that cut them off; not them #during midterm and finals they get the whole week off from submitting to me #god just my pretty little toy and helping them become them resch their highest potential #and when its over snd they graduate and i let them go…maybe they tell me theyre thinking about doing a few more years of schooling…. #or asking me if id like to keep them still….they know it wouldnt be the same 24/7 availability with a job that it was as a student #but…they dont want to think about rent and money again they juxt want to leave it to me…and they like how i make them feel valued as a toy.. #god what i wouldnt give #id take them out and tattoo my name on their ass that night. my property. #100

[sparring-spirals]

So, uh, Imogen’s playlist, aka, Imogen’s entire life really got fucked by her powers.

tl;dr: purple haired psychic anxiety sorcerers can have a little "let go, be absolutely unhinged", as a treat.

“When the voices started – Imogen didn’t know what was happening.”

"Before she developed the tools to shut out the noise, she was flooded with the thoughts and desires of those around her."

she didn't have the tools to keep everyone out at the start. she was being inundated with thoughts and feelings and desires of everyone around her, no way to stop it, no idea what was happening.

(did she even have a good way to know what thoughts were hers? were there early days where she was awash in a sea of sound and feelings and thoughts and felt like she was dissolving in them, unable to know what was hers, and what was everyone elses?)

Could she even confide in anyone? If their presence alone could still be overwhelming, and that's even if they weren't already driven away, disgusted or horrified or scared or anything else that she would know, whether they wanted to her or not.

Everything about her previous life, ripped to shreds, drowned out by horrible noise.

And on top of that, constantly, unwillingly being exposed to the worst of people, to the things people think but don't say, to the casual cruelties of humanity and passer-by. Seeing people be kind and hearing them be cruel. Hearing people be awful and knowing they're thinking even worse. Awful words, awful thoughts, like shrapnel into her mind, day in, day out.

“She understands the innate selfishness of humanity and had almost lost hope for everything before running into the beautiful soul that is Laudna. “

(except for Laudna). 

And on top of that, the nightmares. Can't sleep, didn't want to sleep, because every time she gives in its a chance for another nightmare. Exhausted and overstimulated and overwhelmed in the day and exhausted and wracked with nightmares at night.

“Between the fear of sleep and the constant buzz of everyone around her, she’s always a few steps away from losing herself. A thin mask of control is what keeps her together sometimes, and when she can feel the ties of that mask begin to slip, Imogen doesn’t know what to do.”

Sleep deprived, stressed, white-knuckling it to keep her brain in one piece, intimately aware of an awful world that is constantly beating down her defenses and causing her physical pain in the process, filled to the brim with anxiety.

All this, with a crackling storm in her veins, unbelievable power at her fingertips-

“Sometimes Imogen just wants to give in to it all. Let the rain fall, let the mental walls come down – what’s the worst that could happen?”

.....anyway, all I'm saying is, if Imogen wants to go apeshit, if she wants to go absolutely unhinged. I think she's earned it. :)

#the playlist is GOOD and i might write up a proper song by song thing if i can get my braincell to stop vibrating for long enough #critical role #cr spoilers #character song reccs #imogen temult #cr playlist #character meta #imogen meta #my meta #spar speaks #imogen feels. alarmingly tailored to absolutely smack me across the face. character wise. just. oh god. #i dont mean that in a *only my interp is correct* kind of way but in a *oh god the more i think about this character the more i ajfbgkgjbd* #like i THINK im being subjective! but everything about imogen feels... so indulgent and right that i cant tell if im projecting or stg LMAO #my apologies to anyone who disagrees with my imogen interp and is forced to keep seeing it #also there was good bits about laudna in the playlist too im just stuck on like. wow! everything got REALLY fucked for her! SO THOROUGHLY #godddamn! bad impulse control? IMOGEN HAS EXCELLENT IMPULSE CONTROL ACTUALLY BC SHES STILL HERE AND ALSO YOU HAVENT BEEN SMOTE YET #I just realized this doesn't even talk about any of the songs directly #thats because i can't get the words to materialize properly for my feelings about them but its big khlasjdfhlkasjdfhlkas hours u feel me #ill do that later #maybe

[stormyoceans]

the way i just KNOW that the moment vegas is gonna see pete - like really SEE him - he's gonna become obsessed with him

#pete is nice. pete is caring. pete can be the funny little guy who's friendly and not intimidating at all #and he can play into that role so well #'make yourself look dumb and innocuous don't let them notice you' #but pete is also observant and calculating and can read people better than anyone #and violence doesn't phase him #there's something dark lurking under pete's surface #and the moment vegas is going to get a glimpse of it he's never gonna be able to look away #they're both never going to be able to escape from each other and suddenly im so here for that #did not expect to come out of this episode with vegaspete feelings but here fucking are i guess #fucked up pairings are okay when they're about two consensual and equally fucked up people actually #kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #vegaspete #m: txt

[1995lahaine]

it’s just so telling that a show like euphoria can continue to be made in the ‘post me too era’ or whatever like people will just let cheap entertainment rot their critical thinking skills and also don’t actually give a shit about how young womens bodies and lives are sexualised and commodified to the extent that they are, nor about the effect that has on the media environment and on the public watching it/living in a world where it is so dominant. anyways

#euphoria has done irreparable damage to young people today im 100% serious and genuine when i say that #and that environment was created by the shows and the world that came before it sure #but euphoria esp s2 came at a time that could have been a turning point towards like. not doing this to teens anymore in media and yet. #all because people in their 20s/30s who cant let go of their teens #or refuse to have any kind of responsibility assigned to their consuming of anything #or both actually #we've ended up in a hellscape of the cultural conversation being dominated by this show about teen sex and drug use that is so completely #detached from any sense of reality but insists on sexualisation and demonisation of children #that is not meant for children and is deeply inappropriate #but is about them. and their lives and interiorities #and is written and watched with absolutely no compassion or understanding. #idk i feel like i talk about this too much but it's so so sickening to me #that so many people are like 'yeah its awfil but im still watching it' #this is not cheap campy crap tv that you watch and make fun of bc the production value sucks or whatever #this is not the arrowverse #this is HUGELY expensive to make and hugely exploitative and has immense selilng power and cultural power #and by watching it you are giving it that power and that legitimacy #idk im not sure where im going with this it just makes me so so fucking angry

[maschotch]

#shit that makes me insane #4x19 #5x21 #penelope garcia #aaron hotchner #derek morgan #cm caps #cm parallels #she really is... the light of their lives kajshdlkjgas #like... i think theres something so special about hotch and derek (and eventually emily) being the ones to say this to her #bc theyve been... engulfed by darkness. steeped in misery. and they had all accepted that as their fate #but there she is.. finding the beauty in each of them... filling them with a warmth a love a joy that they thought they didnt deserve anymor #but when theyre with her.. they dare to hope. dare to dream. and fuck.. its actually working #whether or not she knows what she's doing.. her love is saving them #no matter what fucked up shit they go through they can look at her and be reminded that theres good in the world #'pure' is too.. otherworldly. its not that. its so fucking human and thats what makes it so fucking special #im gonna jump off a cliff askjhdlkajgsf

[art--school--wannabe]

not actually all that fond of the way sp*tify has an official queercore playlist. and to a lesser extent what they consider punk playlists in general but like it really just doesn’t sit right with me how we got a big corporation trying to dictate what makes up a subgenre made by and for a specific group of people when any corporation equivalent to the current one at the time wouldn’t be caught dead actually acknowledging queer people in a serious pseudo-respectful way

#also they literally have no fucking clue what queercore is ok #like. JUST BECAUSE THE SINGER COMES OUT AS BI DOESNT MAKE THEM A QUEERCORE BAND #i think it mightve come up bc ‘-core’ rose to such an explosive popularity all of a sudden.. #so.. i guess in *that* definition if they deem it more like. the AESTHETIC of being queer.. #like. tribe 8? pansy division? le tigre? limp wrist? dog park dissidents? queercore. #and there ARE more queercore musicians in there i won’t deny that #but like. against me! isn’t queercore just because laura’s trans and has written abt that #they’re an INCREDIBLE band!!! but they’re not queercore yk? #and then they put like. trash boat and stand atlantic and im like #ok i cant really say much abt stand atlantic i know like 1 song #but trash boat’s pretty exclusively pop punk #maybe thats evolved as of late but i really dont think it has #theyre great!! they really are! but theyre more state champs/tssf than like . Queercore #like im not even gatekeeping but like. how do i put it #corporations setting the definition of such a subgenre is like. destroying the fence entirely #like definitions exist for a reason because queercore entails a very specific community and very specific politics #or ok not VERY specific but like. its PUNK. its VERY political. typically diy. it’s not polished and it sure as HELL #is not something a corporation like spotify actually gives a shit about #im just rantinv now but like. seriously

[southern--downpour]

Absolute Reciprocity

#technoblade #philza #dream smp #dsmp #c!techno #c!philza #emerald duo #i had Ideas about emerald duo today so i forced the rest of u to suffer w/ me #simple explanation: techno's absolute reciprocity ideals + phil's fucking wall of death flags #+ them being compared to a platonic achilles and patroclus #gets u this angsty mess that i would really want to happen #also the last page is based on my headcanon that phil and techno are reincarnations of their smp earth selves #(VERY VERY loosely based on the actual smp earth stuff btw lmao) #and during the AE in dsmp techno ended up dying for phil #so phil who remembers that act finally gets to repay it? #yeah im not good at explaining my headcanons/ideas lmao #virgil arts #oh yeah this was supposed to be full color but i got SO fucking tired of coloring i decided to just do grayscale #and fuck around w/ adjustment layers for an hour or so lmao

[ledzepepelin]

pete townshend in the 1980s: gay

pete townshend in the 1990s-2000s: NOT GAY NEVER WAS GAY NEVER EVEN CONSIDERED IT

pete townshend in 2012: gay again

#pete townshend #the who #queer #memes #post #mod twink #(note: i'm using gay as the umbrella term since i know he's also said he's bi) #ITS SO FUNNY BECAUSE LIKE #I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND WHY YKNOW AND A LOT OF OTHER QUEER PEOPLE RECLOSETED THEMSELVES IN THE 90S TOO #BUT MOST OF THEM EITHER WERENT OUT THAT PUBLICALLY TO BEGIN WITH #OR SAID LIKE 'oh yeah i THOUGHT i was queer but im actually not' or 'i WAS queer but i'm not anymore' #BUT PETE LITERALLY WROTE A SONG ABOUT HAVING GAY SEX AND JOKED IN INTERVIEWS ABOUT 'PURSUING HIS HOMOSEXUAL ACTIVITIES' #AND THEN TRIED TO GO 'I NEVER SAID I WAS GAY YOURE CRAZY' TO INTERVIEWERS #JUST STRAIGHT UP GASLIGHTING THEM LIKE SIR WE'VE ALL HEARD ROUGH BOYS #AGAIN I COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND WHY HE FELT THE NEED TO DO SO AND I WOULDNT HAVE WANTED HIM TO GET OUTED BUT GOD ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY #ALSO FUNNY THAT THE SECOND HE APPARENTLY FELT SAFE BEING OUT AGAIN HE IMMEDIATELY WENT #'HEY EVERYONE I WANNA FUCK MICK JAGGER SO BAD IT MAKES ME LOOK STUPID'

[ifnotformariano]

diluc: existing, minding his own business, literally kaeya: little orphan boy? dead dad boy? remember how ur fatherless?

#diluc this close to reconciling not out of brotherly love or anything but just to get kaeya to shut the fuck up #platonic #familial #diluc ragnvindr #kaeya alberich #genshin impact #anti kaeluc #kaeya baby you've lost more parents than diluc has... #sorry everyone its just a coping strat where he pretends everything is normal while simultaneously provoking diluc #(im)patiently waiting for diluc to finally snap and tell him exactly who they are #which is strangers now right #except diluc is literally not going to do that because he does love his brother he's just too stupid to do anything about that #so they're just in a cycle where neither of them is actually going to do anything abt the state of their relationship #they're just gonna vibe but aggressively

[fl0ating-tree]

i know this might come as a shocker to some but maybe....just maybe..you don’t have to be critical of every single thing you enjoy

and another shocker. mcyt = minecraft youtube = people who make content/youtube videos about minecraft. just cause one white guy did bad shit doesn’t mean i have to stop liking every single youtuber whos made minecraft videos ever because you want to find a reason to shit on things you find ‘cringey’ 

#discourse #literally makes me want to scream like #'be critical of what you watch those CCs are bad people' #im sorry do i look like i give a shit #1 the 'terrible things' theyve done are things they were simply ignorant about and educated on #2 the ones that are actually terrible like pwdipie and schltt thatve been jsut straight up racist time and time again? #i dont fucking watch them #once again learn that the 'dream smp' isnt even played on by dream #and that mcyt literally just means someone who makes content about minecraft #mf mumbo jumbo is a mcyter and hes so sweet #stop using actual problems like ableism and racism to #get pissed off at people harmlessly watching content

[mushroom-winners-proof]

every time i think about kairi “““““““needing”““““““ to train i always think its such bullshit but then i ESPECIALLY think about how bullshit it is when this girl was already flinging herself off of high floors On Her Own With No Weapon just cause she saw sora a level below and literally two seconds after being given a keyblade she doesnt hesitate to start slicing shit and the utter clickbait we were all subjected to with that post-ending scene with all three of them together looking like theyre going on an adventure next time is something i will NEVER get over

#snap chats #like im not even a big kairi person but its cause the series keeps making me not one #its stuff actually being set up for her- like very obvious opportunities to include her in stuff and have her be cool #but then she just gets shoved out of the picture and its so exhausting #LIKE SHE'S SO READY TO KILL A MFER FOR HER FRIENDS ITS SO AWESOME #I WANT THAT I WANT TO SEE THAT I WANT TO PLAY THAT #i will literally never get over that scene in kh2 tho esp since its right before The Famous Riku Its Riku scene #also her design peaked in KH2- everyones designs peaked in KH2 its downhill from here im gonna say it and im gonna say it proud #i AM a KH2 shill i cannot change this and i do not want to #kairi peaked in KH2 and then they just stopped im so peeved about that #THEY REALLY SET THEM ALL UP TO LOOK LIKE THEY WERE GOING ON AN ADVENTURE TOGETHER fuck off #IM REALLY REALIZING HOW MAD I GET ABOUT KAIRI NOW LIKE SHE REALLY WAS SO ROBBED #I KNEW ON THE LOWKEY THE WHOLE TIME BUT REALLY THINKING ABOUT IT HOLY SHIT #character that got The Shortest End of the stick is her hands down everyone else go home yall at least get something

[bogkeep]

i know i know, i keep writing posts about Stories and Diversity of Narratives, i know it's all very abstract, i know most of my posts boil down to the same kernel of thought. but the community of this site was built on love for stories and flinging thoughts into the void and that's a tradition i'm willing to honor any hour of the day. only i can stop me. i've been bringing up my own story preferences and habits a lot recently, such as what videogames i won't play, or how i don't want to be stuck only reading books from the same single author for too long at a time. anyway i think there's a lot of overlap between story habits and food habits. i am aware food as an analogy have been done so many times, but we all have a relationship to food in some way or other, so it keeps being a useful one. i think stories, in whatever form they may come, are a presence in everyone's lives as well. maybe your physical vessel won't die of story starvation, but it's important to feed your soul too, you know? here's what i believe about food: nobody has a right to dictate what you eat. (yes, yes, if you want to be contrarian about that statement you could make an argument for doctors only letting you eat jello and soup after a surgery or something. exceptions are a rule of the world. i'll let that one pass.) there's many factors that contribute to our eating habits. what we like and don't like, allergies and other dietary restrictions, textures, time to cook, time to consume, resources, availability, ability, knowledge, culture, disorders, personal ethics. the list goes ON. other people looove to tell you what you 'should' or 'shouldn't' eat, looove to tell you about what you should do with your body and your time. but they have no right to. they don't know your own body better than yourself. they don't know your history. they might not know what eating disorders you have struggled with, what textures make you gag, where you can afford to shop, if you were never taught how to cook, if you work long hours with almost no left over time and energy to meal prep, or if you're confined to a space where all the tools at your disposal is a microwave and an electric kettle. we live in a society, huh. what works for one human being among seven billion will not work the same for everyone else. i'm not saying you should never change your habits, or that a licensed dietician can't give you good tools and advice, or that you can't learn cooking skills from youtube! what i'm saying is that it's a very individual journey. even at larger events where the dinner is communal - it may open up with "so here's the regular food. here is the vegetarian alternative. here is the vegetarian alternative to the vegetarian who is allergic to soy AND ONLY THAT ONE PERSON IS ALLOWED TO TAKE ANY OF THAT, MIND THE LABELS. here are the gluten free burger buns. please enjoy the meal" and even then i help someone next to me in the queue with scooping salad onto their plate because their sensory issues make it hard for them to touch metal cutlery. you don't actually owe anyone the performance of "health". eating something is always, always ALWAYS going to be better than eathing nothing. it's infinitely more important to eat what you are able to eat than whatever reasons someone (even you) might have for denying your body the sustenance and resources it needs. and if eating what you Can is step one, eating what you Enjoy is step two. you're allowed to eat things you like actually. you are allowed to take joy in meals. you're alive and you are keeping yourself alive and you are alive right now. you don't deserve to punish yourself over it. ... i was talking about stories, right? when it comes to food, it IS generally agreed upon that the most advantageous thing to do is to eat a variety of foods. your body needs many different nutrients, after all, and you will most often obtain these just by Eating Stuff. i think the same goes for Stories. stories come in so many different forms and do so many different things for us. they entertain, make us laugh, make us cry,

bring us catharsis, bring us understanding, bring us perspective, bring us joy. not every story can do all of this for every person, nor should it. some forms of stories are like popcorn for the brain, tasty and easy to consume. some are like a comforting burger, it's not haute cousine, but it's good and uncomplicated and fills you up just right. some stories are a full three course meal and you will remember the experience for a long time afterwards. some meals are best enjoyed with company. i'm sure we've all seen the phrase "read another book"/"watch another show" by now. i guess i'm of two minds on it - because variety in soul food is a good thing, but also, as i've spent like five paragraphs establishing - i don't know your dietary restrictions. i can't know what sustains you better than you do. but also, i DO think a lot of people are trying to draw specific nutrients out of a meal that does not have them. because it can't have all of them. it's not reasonable to expect one story to contain every trope and respectful representation in the world. you can cook the same ingredient a thousand ways, i'm sure, and if that's what you want - go for it! your homecooking sounds delicious. but if you find that the steakhouse you frequent has a lousy vegetarian menu, maybe it's time to try a new place. god i know going to a new place is so intimidating sometimes, and it's always so hard to know what you'll like before you try - i don't want to disclose how many times i've spent leafing through a menu for thirty minutes before ordering something that turns out to be too spicy for me. it's a curse, i think. i love my mother's cooking and she's always been surprisingly accomodating of my food preferences. ever since i've moved out, i love to come over for dinner - it's always a good meal by someone who has honed that skill for years and has access to a fully stocked kitchen. being responsible for my own meals can be sucky sometimes, food costs so much money and i have to do so much planning, but it's also been incredibly empowering. i can eat what i want! i don't HAVE to eat foods i don't like! i can try foods i've always been interested in but never gotten to try before! i can spend a little extra on the fancy bread from the bougie store because life is too short to eat shitty bread that i never look forward to eating!! THE INDEPENDENCE IS GOING TO MY HEAD. i haven't felt such a rush of power since i realized i don't have to finish books or shows that aren't enjoyable for me anymore. i don't want to namedrop any specific franchises but just as life is too short to eat bland bread, i don't HAVE to go watch the big blockbusters if i'm not axctually interested. maybe i'm sick of toast actually. i crave some rye. i can get some rye instead. maybe the analogy isn't perfect. maybe stories aren't food. but i fully believe nobody but you gets to dictate what stories sustain the skeleton of your souls.

#too long for twitter #food mention / #maybe i actually just wanted to talk about food #i genuinely think if we had more acceptance and understanding for other people's dietary needs and habits things would be... better?? #is that the word im looking for????? #stop judging other peoples music taste stop judging other peoples bodies stop judging what other people do with their bodies #im not saying i would have died without webcomics but i also think that if i hadnt had anything to entertain myself with for these past two #years at work i wouldve fully lost my marbles. my brain wouldve been grinded to absolute dust. #webcomics have kept my soul alive during times where ive been confined to a reception desk for eight hours with little else to do but #browse the internet. I HAVE READ SO MANY COMICS #also i have a whole another repertoire of thoughts abt how a lot of the books ive read adress a lot of complex and nuanced topics #that i dont see a lot in more visual mediums; or at least not the ones i watch #and most of them just fly right under everyones radar of perception. theres no discourses or fights about these books fucked up they may be #i just think thats interesting. that whether or not a Story gets put on the discourse pedestal has more to do with how Known it is

[hella1975]

(ch40 snippet bc im lovely and also procrastinating again <3 this scene is set in the past when they're teens in the south pole btw)

It was that patience that led to Kanut’s misstep. He relaxed, he grew sloppy, and Bato didn’t miss anything, didn’t miss the day they were messing around in the snowbanks, drawing increasingly crude things in the soft snow and saying they resembled one another. They were laughing, and then they were called back for food. It was an old argument by now, one they had daily and would continue to have well into adulthood.  “I got it last time.” Bato said immediately upon hearing Kanna’s call.  “My mom doesn’t like us eating outside of the village anyway.” Hakoda scowled, shoving Bato into the snow. “Why can’t we just go eat with the others instead of bringing it out here? I'm always the one who gets chewed out for it at the end of the day.”  “And we all note your worthy sacrifice.” Kanut said with a sharp grin. Surprisingly, despite his usually sensible nature, this was something he agreed with Bato on. He liked eating out on the snowbanks, not out of sight of the village lest Kanna come chasing after them, but still in their own little corner of the world. Kanut often did anything he could to stay as far from home for as long as possible.  “Why are you siding with him?” Hakoda cried in dismay, proceeding to try and push Kanut into the snow right next to Bato, earning a barked laugh and a thump to the side from the other boy, who had taken to using his smaller size to his advantage. “It’s your turn to go get it if you’re going to insist we eat here.”  While they scuffled, a now familiar green book fell out of Kanut’s pocket. He didn’t notice. Bato didn’t say anything.  “He’s right, Kanut. Run along now.” Bato shooed him away. “I want sea prunes.”  Hakoda perked up. “Oh! Get me some arctic hen! But don’t touch the five flavour soup; I heard Aput’s learning to make it and I don’t trust him.”  “Don’t trust him, or don’t trust the way Kya swoons around him?” Bato asked innocently, and this time, Hakoda shoved him so hard that he knocked his head.  “Yeah, yeah, whatever.” Kanut huffed, stomping away. “Don’t kill each other while I'm gone.” 

hi i'd die for them

#hi taob nation can i interest you in a ch40 snippet to make up for the long breaks between updates #and also the whole amnesia zuko shenanigans? #im sorry do u still think im hot- #anyway teenage troublesome trio can and should be therapy <3 #pov you just found ur friend's book about gay people and ur about to make some discoveries about yourself #also writing the swt crew back in their youth is so fucking funny bc you have to remember #yes they all knew each other and were very familiar with each other bc hello they live in a VILLAGE it's impossible not to #but it was only when they all went sailing on the ullaakut that they actually became FRIENDS #kanut in particular has never made an effort with ANYONE but hakoda and bato like the other lads think he's either weird or rude #and hakoda used to HATE aput bc kya and him had a thing #it's my hc that kya did not look twice at hakoda for years. i need this man to pine #so writing them all as teenagers is so funny bc they're all just so bitchy and immature #taob updates

[jemmo]

woke up at 9am for the live and ohmnanon are back on their soulmates shit again i can’t…

#that live was too much #it was so good to just hear them talking about them and their relationship #about the struggles and how they got through with communication and acceptance #like I can’t actually believe how good they are to each other how healthy their bond is it’s so admirable #my heart is so fucking full im getting emotional #and omg you best believe I broke down when ohm started crying at his dads message #that man is just so pure of heart like im just so glad and happy someone like him exists #he just radiates life I can’t even #and the amount of care and love he has for nanon like Jesus I don’t know how nanon copes #knowing how much ohm fully commits and devotes himself to him #and im so glad nanon has that presence in his life to inspire him and fulfill his world #like their energy just matches so well they bounce off each other in every way #it’s so natural to watch #and there’s something so so good and important about nanon giving ohm space #not letting him act in a way that’s not himself just so that ohm can match to him #it’s not one sided nanon wants ohm to be himself and he’ll call him out when he’s not that’s amazing!!!!! #like they really went through growth and a journey in order to accept and love each other for who they truly are and that’s just so amazing #i admire and look up to them as people so much in that way #just working through things that are hard bc you want it work with that person #they mean more than the difficulties they cause #and the resulting bond is so fucking strong it’s foundational #god I just fucking love them #they’re life partners #I’m so emo #ohmnanon #ohm pawat #nanon korapat

[orchardknit]

ive recently been wearing sunglasses and a very deep hooded sweatshirt to try and stop as much light from getting into my eyes as possible (bc chronic intractable migraines all day every day baybee) and at this point i think i should just accept the aesthetic and do full plague doctor get-up. full face mask so light can’t sneak in around my temples and cheekbones. deep hood so there’s less environmental light overall. big pokey stick for obvious reasons, also potentially modified to be used as a cane. thick robes bc cold. long beak full of like cotton or something to filter out strong smells bc that’s a migraine trigger for me

only historically anachronistic addition i can think of is a pair of very big thick headphones to block out sounds. which actually i think would look cool as hell on a plague doctor. so.

#i would never do this in real life because im incapable of dressing in a way that makes me stand out #BUT. the thought is very funny to me #i actually really need different sunglasses bc my face is so white that my cheekbones reflect light up into my eyes #which is so fucking annoying btw. so i need ones that are even bigger #also i gotta say. having both an intense light sensitivity and extremely bad night vision is such a bad combo #i also need glasses in general and don't have transitional lenses or flip ups or anything on them #so i basically just can't see and when i CAN see it means im about to get a migraine #i should actually just blindfold myself that would solve all of these problems lmfao #chronic illness

[bibridlizzie]

Lizzie Saltzman

#i love you <333 (but god am i annoyed with the sire bond sl. will rant about that below the necessary tags lmao) #lizziesaltzmanedit #legaciesedit #legacies #lizzie saltzman #nbvethbrenatto #my moodboards #luca's stuff #ok so. gonna start by once again saying if your enjoying the sirebond sl great! im happy for you #but god am i upset about it #like i just. lizzie says it herself in the episode. its a violation of her agency! #and like if its like the DE sirebond then its feeling based and they dont actually have to be told to do something which blurs the lines #between what decisions lizzie makes bc of that influence and the ones she actually makes for herself without it #and like i am not bipolar but as a mentally ill person itd fuck me up! and i def think the same for lizzie #like itd fuck anyone up but more so yknow #and its like. this is lowkey retroactively ruining hizzie for me even in the past! #like not fully i still ship them in the past and still probably will again when the sirebond is gone but like. not now rhats for sure #and it just like. its ruining them for me bc thats so fucked. and hope hasnt made her do anyrhint crazy and might not but just using it at #all. also even if she doesnt purposefully use it damon didnt have to outright tell elena to do thints which means irs always blurry! #and i cant ship them under those circumstances! i cant! it's so uncomfortable for me #like even if hope doesnt make her do anything too bad using it at all is bad! #and im not mad at hope. she has her humanity off. im just saying its super fucked #like lizzies being controlled by someone who was and presumably will be again her friend! fucked! #like i know im making it deeper than the show is or even lizzie is so far but like! it's deep! it is! because its so deeply fucked up! #i donr know what to tag lmao bc i dont want to upset anyone with the tags but its not like theyre anti anyone/any ship #and i mean i gave a warning at the top so 🤷‍♂️ #but yeah i dont mean to imply at all that people shouldnt enjoy it or its a bad thing to enjoy it. I just find it deeply uncomfortable and #not good yknow. and like im not even saying a sirebond sl has to be a bad thing but since Hope's using it intentionally #against lizzies will and they will presumably end up as friends again or if they did date which i have no hope for. its just fucked. #like im sure theyll fix it and ill ship hizzie again after hopes humanity is back on and if they break it but atm its just ruined for me so

[haruchio]

tenjiku sanzu is so funny to me like i just know he was holding back tears putting on that uniform every day.

#in his room crying #'i fucking hate this shit im going to kill myself' #dfbgfrdjjshgig #and he had virtually no status in tenjiku compared the 'heavenly kings' or toman #girl he was getting bullied by the haitanis like there's no way LMAO #i NEEEEED to know why he went straight for kakucho this arc though like its not funny because he couldve killed him #and i know that he was his intention because he literally yelled 'DIE KAKUCHO' but like WHY KAKUCHO LMFAOO #he wouldve gone for izana so he went for the 2nd best thing #thats my man and im gonna stick beside him #the tenjiku dynamics are actually so funny idk why no one ever talks about them #i love bonten just as much as everyone else but tenjiku were soooooooo fucked up 😭 #sanzu haruchiyo