#im a loyal man. i have only one love and their name is Jace. I politely tell school boy to leave me alone bc im not interested

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I made someone cry today /srs

#davey rambles #lemme give context i promise im not a terrible person #so ive been in school since august and this guy in my study hall got the guts to try flirting with me #im a loyal man. i have only one love and their name is Jace. I politely tell school boy to leave me alone bc im not interested #he keeps pushin it. he goes on for months and i just ignore him. #i laid in the classroom floor to watch youtube and this guy laid next to me [back in oct] and asked me if i was a big spoon or lil spoon #kinda lame but ok whatever. i continue ignoring him. #today he walks up to me and he like. wraps one arm around me n goes 'hey babe i missed you' #when i tell you id had enough i mean it. i kinda shook him off and stood in front of him #and were in front of the teacher mind you. she has been trying to get him to leave me be #anyways so i stand in front of him and tell him 'look. i am a wholeass GUY. and i already have a partner. leave me alone' #this tall boy whos like. two years older than me? a year older than me? idk. but this tall boy starts fucking sobbing. #he fell into the floor and weeped. he then picked himself back up and left the fucking classroom #now dont get me wrong any other time id have made someone cry i wouldve said sorry #but i was tired of this guy constantly flirting with me even after i went 'im not interested' #he had it comin tbh i wont lie. im in a loving committed relationship with the only person ive ever fallen in love with truly #and theyre really all i need in terms of a romantic relationship

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thank you to @lvdiamartins​ for tagging me!!

rules: answer the questions then tag 20 (ish) people you’d like to get to know better!

name: hannah nickname: don’t have one zodiac sign: gemini height: 5′7 orientation: straight ethnicity: hispanic favorite fruit: apples favorite season: winter favorite book: omg if we’re talking classics then frankenstein, but if we’re talking ya literature then oh god we’d be here a while. (probably six of crows, tho.) favorite flower: hibiscus favorite scent: i love strawberry-scented things favorite animal: dogs (so loyal, truly man’s best friend) coffee, tea, or hot cocoa? coffee... but also all of them average hours of sleep: like 6-7 cats or dogs? dogs (see above) favorite fictional character: don’t do this... (it’s bellamy blake but that makes me feel like i’m abandoning my other faves) dream trip: iceland when was your blog created? october 2016 what do you post about? the 100, ouat, tw, shadowhunters, tvd, reign, skam, riverdale, thirteen reasons why, pll, the originals, random books and films do you get asks on a regular basis? nah lol aesthetic: haha imagine thinking im put-together enough to have an aesthetic! ha! favorite band/artist: ed sheeran fictional characters I’d date: so many omg. but mainly bellamy blake, killian jones, isaac lahey, stiles stilinski, scott mccall, jace wayland, or sebastian de poiters. hogwarts house: i’m evenly split between ravenclaw and slytherin, but officially i’m a ravenclaw.

i’m tagging @killiansbellamy​ @queens-clarke​ @lydiamartinn​ @clrkesbellamy​ @stefensalvatore​ @alisha-boe​ @the-ships-to-rule-them-all​ @stefansalvctore​ @danytargaryens​ @bellameblake​ @loganlermans​ @ronweasleyi​ @cupcakeblake​ @theelizataylor​ @nooraswill​ @bellslarkes​ and anyone else who wants to do this!! only if you want to, of course!!

#about me #i was tagged

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Meta: Jace/Seb

SEND ME A TOPIC TO WRITE A META ABOUT MY MUSE ON. // ALWAYS ACCEPTING cause im trash.

TIME TO TALK ABOUT MY FAVORITEASSHOLES. No, for real, I will always adore the deep parallels into these boysexistence and the fact that it is canon that for a point in time, they couldn’’tlive without each other. LITERALLY. And it keeps me up at night that they wereforced by circumstances *cough cough* valentine *cough cough* to hate eachother instead of being friends, alies, brothers. Because that’s what Jonathanthinks of Jace.

Despite all his hatred, Jace ishis brother. They were raised by the same father, under the same heavy hand andunder the exact same teachings. But, man, can you imagine the stark contrastsstill in how exactly they were raised? Can you imagine being the boy inJonathan’s position? Made aware of this other boy who held divinity in hisveins while he burnt from the HELL FIRE in his and told time and time again,that he would never be enough? Raised to believe that this boy, not even yourbrother by blood, is the son most favored? The one always loved? The boy whocould have stolen everything you held dear if he hadn’t been so weak? And Jace was so close, so close towearing the crown his father had promised. But he was soft where Jonathan wastoo harsh. Too bitter and too ruthless. Then Jace was sent away for hisweakness while he suffered through chains and whips for his.

And then there’s the after math, what’s left of Jace in his departure, and how it still affects Jonathan. Because here’s the thing: so much of who he is or who he became is because of these two boys. VALENTINE AND JACE. Jocelyn and Clary were just ideas to him ; they weren’t fixtures until he twisted them into the delusions he had of them until his death. But Jace and Valentine were concrete, they were real people to him. And everything he has ever done before his death, sans Clary, was to make his father proud and to prove himself better than Jace. ( Because he had to be, he was the Morgenstern, he was Valentine’s son, it was his blood in his veins and not in Jace’s. ) But, of course, he would never be enough. 

He was CAIN and Jace was ABEL.

No matter how loyal a son he was Jace would always be the son Valentine wanted. 

And then he dies, abandoned, forgotten in the gutter of a river bank only to come back more DEMON than HUMAN. More Lilith than Valentine’s son. And who does he come back to? FUCKING JACE HERONDALE. This boy whose taken everything from him––– his father, his name, his life ( albeit thru Izzy because yo give credit where credit is due man. )  This boy that was time and time again was offered the castle but threw it all away. And yet he’s the one granted a second coming while he had to grovel for his? His LIFE tied to the very focus of all his hatred for so many years. 

But there’s the shift. The change. The tremor of possibility that Valentine never considered cultivating. These two wild boys untamed and thrown into the wild together ; this boy made of fire who wreaks havoc yielding to a boy made of tender gold. His tie to his humanity gone and in its stead he finds this boy who yields under his command and want, whose very face and name still fills him with rage and envy, but soft as soft comes. A willing prey and victim. HIS ONLY ALLY in a world where he’s untethered. A version of Jace who no longer takes and takes without permission but would do anything FOR HIM. Jonathan, a boy always in want, always in need, always hungry for everything and anything, finally managing to haul in a boy who can do all. BECAUSE WHILE JONATHAN THINKS CLARY IS HIS EQUAL, JACE IS TOO.

( AND ITS A THOUGHT THAT MERELY LINGERS IN THE BACK OF HIS MIND AND NEVER QUITE FINDS IT FOOTING BECAUSE THAT WOULD MEAN FORGIVING THIS BOY HE HAS HATED HIS WHOLE LIFE. THAT WOULD REQUIRE SEEING JACE AS LESS OF AN ENEMY AND MORE LIKE HIM. WHEN NO ONE ELSE HAS GIVEN HIM THE SAME COURTESY. )

Jace, actually, the only person in the world that could ever come close to understanding him cause while Jonathan makes him see the darkness in him, pushing and shoving him into every decrepit corner of the world ; sucking him into the mad mad world of the ruthless and the cavalier  –––  Jace was the contrast. He was always the light. And can you imagine what that’s like for a boy whose only known darkness? to be opened up to the light like that only to have it ripped away again? And be forced to meet the same brother on the battlefield where the lines are blurred and it’s no longer him dirtying his white and jace desperately cleansing his black? It’s equal ground again BUT STILL Jace stands on the side of the angel. Always high on their pedestal and once again robbed of the darkness he revels in exquisitely. 

BUT SHIT, EVEN WITH HIS HATRED BACK. HE KEEPS HIM. He keeps this boy that could ruin him ALIVE. And he reasons its for Clary, he reasons its the only way to make Clary say yes, another leverage for her to choose him, stay with him ––– for them. But this is Jace, the boy that would always be competition for his loved ones affections, this boy that is nothing but good intent and the blood of the martyr ––– he should kill him. End his pull before it spreads and he topples him over again and WINS like he always does. But he doesn’t.  ( CAUSE HE COULD HAVE KILLED HIM IN IDRIS TOO, CUT HIS HEART OUT WHEN HE WAS BURNING FROM HEAVENLY FIRE OR MADE HIS ENDARKENED DO IT FOR HIM, BUT HE DIDN’T. YOU CAN FITE ME ON THIS. ) HE EXTENDS HIM THE SAME GIFT HE GAVE CLARY;THE ONLY THING HE HAS EVER GIVEN FREELY:  MERCY. 

#loyaltysworn #ofgoldenblood #ᴡʜɪsᴘᴇʀs. // ANSWERS. #me @ me: y so many caps #also tags my jace babes #also me: pls dont think mercy is a metaphor for dick #i have a lot of jace and seb feeeeeeels okay