#im an awful person

[charlescherie]

Long time no see (imagine hehehehe Charles emoji here, it's a crime we don't have them on tumblr) 💗 Do you have any fun predictions for Hungary? 🙃

hehehehe charles emoji is always present 🙏

and girl (gn) i dont even know the time of the sessions, what kind of prediction will i have 😭 max winning? i dont even fucking know 😭

#prediction: norris cries #(this is a wish actually) #im an awful person #(NOT THE GOOD CRYING THO THANKS) #.💌

[queeranddepraved]

Don't get close to me because I will get obsessed and I will be too much for you and the second you start pulling away is the second my psychotic ass will turn full toxic no matter the consequences.

#i wish i was exaggerating... #im an awful person #i dont deserve friendship or anything more than that

[rhinozilla]

Aaand another family get-together just came up today. Something I cannot opt out of. I have to go to this. I have to go be a functional human.

And it's out of town family coming in who WILL want to come see my house, and my house is in the middle of a deep declutter project, which I had set today specifically aside to do while I had a scheduled day home alone. It looks like a bomb went off in here. I'm literally IN THE MIDDLE of it and just found out I have to be presentable in two hours.

I just needed ONE GODDAMN DAY to myself. Why is this such an impossible ask? FUCK.

#i was just starting to feel okay and now im crying again #BECAUSE I CANT KEEP THIS UP #nothing i hate more than my free time being hijacked with no say in it #im an awful person #but i havent had an uninterrupted day to myself #with no expectations or deadlines or plans #in two months #IM LOSING MY MIND

[brobiwan-kenobi-412]

I was sayin goodnight to my friend, yknow, as one does, and then these were made.

I might be going to hell for these, but I’m crying with laughter and maybe you will too 🫶

#i think im funny #but im not #these are actually so horrible #im an awful person #but ive been laughing so hard i think i hurt myself #fma #fullmetal alchemist #edward elric #fmab #fma edward #ed elric #fma:b #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fullmetal alchimist brotherhood #fma: brotherhood #i love him so much #i do feel bad #fmab spoilers #??? maybe #fma spoilers #god im going insane #tw blo0d #J text

[deancaskiss]

ending the day with the same anxiety I’ve been massively struggling with almost all day now and it’s so bad I’ve basically starved myself today and not drunk anything either. it’s just another shitty day on top of one of the shittiest weeks I’ve ever had. and now… I’m starting to genuinely think I deserve this…. im obviously such a crappy person that I deserve all of this… and I don’t even care to take care of myself anymore because what’s the point, you know?

#bex talks #and now im not going to be able to sleep because the anxiety is so bad it’s going to make me have a fitful sleep of nightmares #maybe I do deserve this #im an awful person #and all these shitty things happening every day this week has just reached a point I can’t cope anymore #ignore this post #i just needed to get my thoughts out #i just want to find happiness again #i just want to feel like myself and to be my normal happy bubbly positive self #but this week has completely torn me apart #this isn’t looking for pity #and if I get sent hate for this it will be deleted and blocked #im just using my blog as a way to find words for what I’m feeling and to sort through this mess im dealing with #tw anxiety #cw anxiety #tw swearing #cw swearing

[strawberryjamcore]

but he’s so??

#im an awful person #henry creel #stranger things season 4 #im in denial #spoilers? #kinnie #or in love

[childrenoflight-darkness-nothing]

love that he knows im emotionally attached to my 999+ unopened text messages

#im an awful person

[oliviawebsite]

(after misunderstanding what someone said and embarrassing myself) oh great now they hate me and want to kill me with rocks

#realizing im awful at comprehending speech and intention from other people #am i autistic or just a bad person who knows

[cottaegecore]

when you start reading again and it's like oh. oh . the sun actually does still shine.

#i am a worse more awful person when im not actively reading a book #can u explain why #cottagehome #cottagecore #cottage moodboard #reading #books #cottagecharm #countrycottage #tea #love #text

[idk-i-just-really-like-tsc]

dear Jo

#me laughing #im an awful person #but it was funny #greys 16x16 ily

[caspertheconfused]

TIME TO CRY BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO FORM MEANINGFUL RELATIONSHIPS!!

*"YYAAAAAYYYY" sound from fnaf*

#weewoo #im an awful person

[collieii]

someone probably said this already but in spiderverse i think it's interesting how when pavitr was first introduced everyone thought something bad was gonna happen to him bc of how confident and optimistic he was. and then in the actual movie we see that something bad was supposed to happen to him (police chief dying!) but it doesn't! miles stops it! and miguel berates miles for this, says it's going to cause the universe to collapse or whatever.

there's this idea that tragedy is inherent to spidermans growth, and while it's true that some spiderpeople learn important lessons through loss, no one stops to ask, is it really necessary? yeah, maybe the chief was supposed to die. but why does spiderman have to be formed through tragedy? why do we (as heroes) have to let people die? pavitr didn't lose anyone, and he's still a good spiderman! maybe, if he doesn't suffer, he'll end up better off for it!

so while miguel is arguing for all this big picture stuff about saving the multiverse he's lost sight of what it really means to be a spiderman, he's not looking out for the real individual people. yeah it's just one person who would die, but that one person means something to someone. shrugging and saying "stuff just sucks sometimes, we can't do anything about it" is the opposite of what superheroes do. pretty obviously, miles arc is also a reflection of the struggles people face in real life, working within unequal systems, where it's easy to shrug and say "that's just the way it is" and not ask "but why does it need be this way? can't we do something about it?"

miguel is arguing that you can't have your cake and eat it too. presumably, miles and co. are going to find a way to get around that and change things for the better (and maybe that's why miles has that line about two cakes in the advisors office!)

#across the spiderverse #across the spider verse spoilers #break from my regularly scheduled trigun posting for spider posting #i'm actually kinda eh on the idea of the canon and police chiefs dying it is not my favorite plot point #but like any sane person i love spiderverse so #actually still think i like the first one more but wroaw much to think about #spiderverse #atsv #.lieii #i only watched the movie once so hopefully this is all accurate #i feel like this is all really obvious my point was like #pavitr being an example of a spiderperson who is still successful without going through all these awful things #and you think despite all this stuff about the multiverse how does he feel about the chief being saved? hes probably rly grateful right? #i mean maybe something terrible will happen to him in the next movie but. yk what im saying #.lieii txt

[lost-dreams-depot]

please dont ask me to change my plans please dont spring something on me i will want to plunge a lit lighter into my thigh

#vee's diary #im an awful person #theres a reason those people who known me the most intimately the longest dont talk to me eh

[robotpussy]

#polls #personally i dont like it but thats only because i dont like fandom. the type of stuff that gets the most attention #in fandom usually just annoys me idk. how to explain it in a way that wont come off as me saying #fanfic or whatever is evil its just the fact that it just bombards alot of the conversations? #i prefer it when the thing i like has 10 fans and theyre all on one message board or forum #like for example mtvs downtown is getting popular but apart from annoying #'me and the mid nerd guy i copped by being weird and sexy' posts its not awful.... #but then smth like... clone high or smth i suddenly cant remember ppl just got so annoying abt that show?? #like i cant stand it i dont even bother watching it anymore plus its just weird to me now like i can't watch it regardless #im just rambling but personally i do not like it. like i dont want what i like to get a revival #i dont want anything new! i just want to enjoy the thing and move on 😭 #fandom seems to prioritize shipping and memes over evaluating or simply just enjoying something! #this goes for anything. music film tv books....

[bamsara]

was anyone going to tell me there are fanlore pages about me and my works or did i have to find that out by myself when i tried searching for one of my tumblr posts in a google search bar

edit: i just read through the solar lunacy one and some of the details on there are just kind of....wrong. lmao

edit: there's one for my iz fics??

#im not really sure how to feel about that! #sara shush #for context i was looking for an old solar lunacy art post i made but tumblr search function is god awful #edit: the fanlore page states that sl dca are considered one person when ive stated thats up to interpretation to the readers #and also that moon doesnt regret his killing?? im-sdghklskdhg #i gen miss solar lunacy but man the pressure feels like weights #edit2: fellas i dont really think im comfortable with this sort of perception lmao #IT SAYS IM A MHA ARTIST? #HUH? #you mean the fandom i was in for like. 2 months i think #apologies but i dont care about mha that much huh #edit3: why does the iz page say stitch is my self insert

[authenticyuri]

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #ryoko kui #daydream hour #dunmeshi #farcille #marcille donato #falin touden #they are quite literally so girlfriends #im stealing this post from svaral*n2 given theyre an awful person so~