#im an hour early but oh well

[hypogryffin]

LET US START THE GAME!

happy tactica day!!! i hope everyone has fun!!

#persona 5 #p5 #persona 5 tactica #p5t #p5 tactica #im a few hours early before the 17th in my timezone but ^-^; oh well lol

[cowboypossume]

i hate my brain i hate my need for things to be Perfect i hate how ive been feeling i hate it i hate

#like i feel so genuiley disrepeected with my friend rn and just gfd4347586yfr6tfcvgyughvb #one specifically #and it ties into the allo/aro experience of the world of 'friendship is lesser than romance' #okay but WHY #and no one EVER gives me a good explanation #and the one person i thought who might be able to basically said 'sorry its just how i feel' #and i have a thing tmrw with him and hard and fast i was like “starts at 10” TWO DAYS AGO #today he was like “i'll show up at some point” / can you ballpark it / “no :3” #vent tw #but he said give him an hour or two #7 hours later 'hey any update on when you'll be there“ / ”oh RIGHT! well sense i dont have to be there early im not going to“ #bark growl grr bark #i just #he keeps doing things like to me all. the time. #and im so tired of it #i know im not her gf and i know we have radically different opinions #but i stil feel so heartbroken and disrespected because if something isnt exactly how he wants it then he freaks out #and i get she has trauma but at what point does that become like a cushion for not great feelings and interactions #thoughts

[bittwitchy]

see the reality is i post on my rps usually when nobodys been there a bit and nobody is probably online, but the mental illness in me keeps saying its bc everyone secretly hates me and i dont deserve love, and when i tell a gov doctor that, they basically just say ‘take your antidepressant’s and shut up’ which is also funny when said gov doctor wont refill my fucking antidepressants in the first place

#what i need is smthn for my anxiety and PROBABLY the obviously worsening ocd #but anxiety meds and antidepressants dont mix well #just like adhd meds and anything else dont mix well #which is why i just have a redbull if i need to focus bx it works for a few hours and then i pass out #which isnt healthy but its better than going through the diagnosis process AGAIN bc they dont have my info anymore #its early sad times rn w brina who hasnt gotten an ounce of treatment at all hi #see the other thing is #if i talk about my mental health at all #people will either hate me for being annoying which is what my brain will pinpoint #or feel sorry for me which i also dont want #all i rly wanna do is vent but thats never really an option at all #like yes i know its not normal to want to have a breakdown and cry bc your fucking pillow isnt the correct fluff and wont dluff #i know its not normal to feel like you should die because something wasnt in fhe spot you put it in and was moved slightly #im aware. and the reality is nobody who can do anything about it cares #i have to get an authorization to see a therapist or get meds at all even tho the card claims i dont have to #and the doc tbey gave me wont give me one #they dont allow email so i cant leave a paper trail when bitching at them and my calls go ignored #im losing my mind steadily #and thats not even onto the physical problems #but also the sheer fucking audacity of the website being all ‘oh just go to ERs and UC snd we’ll cover it’ vs hospitals specifically saying #‘we will refuse you if you have Gov Ins unless you have the money to pay out of pocket #if youre on gov insurance you dont have fucking money thats the entire fucking point. you creedy fucknuts go shove tour nepotism in your #fucking eyes and die if anyone doesnt deserve to fuck its you fuckfaces #sometimes i just want to scream esp when this doesnt seem to be most other ppls issues #but then i talk to other women and it is #it just doesnt make sense and i hate it #but i never rly got help on private insurance either so #tbd #depression cw

[1ovestay]

have had a very disappointing and stressful morning but at least i am sitting by the ocean with the sun shining on my face

#appreciating the ocean while i can before i move to canada in a week #i’m like . very upset and feeling dramatic and i think im within right to cuz it meant a lot to me #was meant to be going to the a15 action in my city and i had it all planned out #but i don’t have a car cuz my friends car broke down so i let them have mine early #and i planned to wake up at 5:30 and drop my mum off at work so i could have her car for the day #but then yesterday at the rally my friend was like oh i’ll come with u! #so after we drove back from melbourne i left my sign in their car (my car…) #and then this morning 5 mins before they were meant to pick me up they were like oh i’ve been called into work #which like understandable that they need the work but telling me 5 mins before u were supposed to pick me up…. 25 mins before the event… #anyway the next bus was so much later but i got on anyway after stressing a bunch #and i was like well even if im an hour late i still wanna show up #but it ended literally right as i got there im so upsetttt #i think the main reasons i’m upset is cuz this would be my last action in australia #cuz i’m moving in a week and i can’t go to this sundays rally in melb #and i was gonna give away my sign cuz i don’t want to throw it out but i can’t take it with me when i move #and i planned to participate in this for weeks n had it all sorted out i should have just gone with my own plans :( #anyway it is what it is i’m disappointed but i’m sitting in the sun by the ocean listening to day6 so it’s all fine really #p

[sodrippy]

having bad anxiety but by nature being a chill person is so funny im like two oddball roommates from a 90s sitcom in one guy. freaking out so bad about what if i forgot something!! and simultaneously knowing it doesnt really matter and we'll deal with it if we need to later, and not triple checking my bag

#not to mention four hours ago when i couldnt find my fucking passport. or visa. #like ok this is defcon one but also if i dont find it i dont find it trip cancelled oh well #im so exciteddddddd #but also kill me now i have to be at the airport so fucking early #and obviously i wont get any sleep tonight bc. anxiety. oh well!!

[atissi]

. don't stay up late finishing a picture on a school night because when it turns out bad you'll want to blow up everything on earth

#why do i never learn. im like wow this pic is going really well let me just keep working on it for the next four hours #surely my skill or attention span will not decrease within those four hours due to fatigue. #surely art works like a combo streak and if i drop it i will lose all of my progress so far. i had better just work on this nonstop #oh no! who could've predicted that all of this effort was not worth it! #now i have to wake up early tomorrow for class with the constant weight of my sins on my shoulders!!! #beepbeep.txt #fuck reynauld fuck his stupid ass helmet fuck shading metal fuck my life

[post3l]

hehee i ended up asking the plush maker to make a p2 dude plushie

next month when i get more money ill get a p4 one

#kinda regret not making the p4 one immediately but. she opened coms one hour early and that was the only design i had #OH WELL still EXTREMELY EXCITED #cant wait to get wip pics im 5th in line #wordswordswords

[youjustwaitsunshine]

just had an unreasonably bitchy reaction, see yall in 20 minutes when im crying because i was unreasonably bitchy

#i really really need to get that adhd diagnosis 🫠 #bc my bitchy reaction was because i didn't communicate early enough that i wouldn't be coming to a family thing today #in my defence i was never told any start time or anything else; just a 'will you be there' a week ago. #wasn't told who would be there or how long or what exactly #and tbh since i was only told like over dinner without anything written to remind me it didn't feel like a thing so important #that id have to give a few days notice #like im not the only one at fault here #sure i could have said that i have no energy to come earlier #ugh this feels like being a teenager all over again #every single fucking christmas my parents play tug of war for who of them im gonna visit on christmas #'but we don't want to guilt trip you' well cool i still feel guilt tripped i haven't stopped feeling guilt tripped since i was fucking 14 #it's fucking always spend time with us this spend time with us that as if i want to split up my fucking weekend #every fucking time i ride the train to my hometown for 4 hours with oh yes even more traveling #it's always the 'no pressure but we want to see you again' like saying no pressure somehow takes off all pressure #at least my mom openly guilt trips me while my dad and stepmom somehow believe that they're not stressing me tf out #i swear next year im going to neither on christmas. maybe going to my boyfriend.

[iicraft505]

someone kill me, just straight up put me down. my annoying former coworker returned as a volunteer and he annoys me under the best of circumstances but. literally I just said that I don't do dishes that often (meaning not often enough for it to have fucked up my name tag), and he was like "I think it's weird that you would admit to not doing your job" like bitch that's not what I fucking said but okay. And then I was like well I do them sometimes when it's needed and he was like "um..." in that "no you don't way" and said "there were a ton of dishes in the sink when I got here" yeah because I was fucking taking care of birds all day, dipshit! I was feeding our incubator birds every 30 minutes, I did literally all of our outdoor dishes (there was a mountain when I got in today!), I helped catch two very full adult bird outdoor flight cages for weighing and release, I went to release some hatchling turtles, and did all the other miscellaneous cleaning tasks that pile up when feeding hummingbirds. Sorry I didn't have a spare second to do the fucking inside dishes!

#also no shot it was that full because tons of dishes are really only generated in the morning #and one of the other interns was literally doing those dishes when he walked in #because she had the free time to do that #also i literally did some indoor dishes today but okay i guess #oh i forgot to mention I also dealt with our feeder mealworms and crickets #and yeah maybe i dicked around a little bit when I had spare time but it's a 10 hour shift even when im running #non stop between tasks there's still occasionally a moment to sit and relax #also go off mister fucking stood around and talked for a long time with one of the other volunteers #slowing said other volunteer down which is saying something given she's already slow at doing things (meticulous) #and you know what that's the way it has to be sometimes! people aren't machines! #please god if youre real and love me let him have to work every single saturday for the rest of time or at least until january god bless #or do the early morning shift so i only have to deal with him for an hour #i swear i saw him walk in and i was like 'fuck' #iicraft505 #also him being there made me irritated so i was slightly rude to my grandma #when she first picked me up #but then i explained myself and was normal #but i mean holy fuck i feel on guard all the time when he's there #not in a 'harm to my person' way in a 'are you gonna say some shit about the way im doing this task and micromanage me' way #like i know i have micromanage-itis but at least im aware and try to leave well enough alone whenever possible #he's aware but doesn't seem to see it as the annoying as character trait that it is #also not that there's a non-condescending way to micromanage but he seems extra condescending #like also have some trust that other people can do things #for christ's sake bro like get normal

[refractedglade]

i think it can digging in the mp3s for relaxing formatting....

#still very early but im having a nice time getting everything Organized #all WBG seasons have a track 0 for the sake of setting album art while letting the episodes have the track art #we're formatting the commen.tary seasons as we get to them. the finished ones have the cover applied #the instrumentals i think are gonna end up as one album with like so many hours of music? #also we need to move over all the bandcamp folders onto this pc as well so those are currently missing #the worst part of all this is manually downloading each mp3 from the patreon but oh well what can ya do lol #the woe.begone folder is getting Large

[orcelito]

checked in for my flight tomorrow and i am hissing biting tearing @ the fact that they dont have a gate assigned for my flight yet

i know the general area since i know the airline im flying with but i DONT. LIKE. not being able to plan ahead.

#speculation nation #if they dont send me an email announcement i guess im gonna have to just look at the fancy tvs when i get there #i'll get back home someway or another. even if im grumpy about it #OH THO since i got so seriously anxious being in the isle seat for my flight here (bc being surrounded by that many people set off my #anxiety about being in crowds SO fucking badly) #i was legit considering forking over $31 just so i wouldnt have to experience that again (also bc i wanted to have a window seat to see #outside with better. bc i wanna take pics in the air this time) #BUT! it automatically assigned me a window seat. in the waaaay back unfortunately. but still a window seat #so i will hopefully not nearly have an anxious breakdown bc of being surrounded on all sides by people #no promises about my anxiety relative to general airport things! but at least i wont have to deal with the being surrounded. #plus! window seat! that'll be nice #i dont get claustrophobic in the sense of small spaces scaring me. i rather like hunkering down in a little corner. #i just dont wanna be absolutely surrounded by people like that again haha. ha.. #gonna have to wake up way too early tomorrow to get to my flight in time. and then im gonna lose two hours :/ #on top of the time on the plane. but it's ok fire emblem worked very well for making the plane ride pass quickly #so i imagine it'll be the same for this one. MAN plane ride is so much nicer on my nausea than car rides. love that for me

[ajdrawshq]

IM FREE

#presentation went well i think. also some of the others had rly good topics god bless 👍 #im glad mine was early today bc i was almost fallin asleep later on .. whatever amount of sleep i got was not enough for an hour + of that #my favorite part was when i went to one of my slides w a screenshot from toh and my friend was like 'oh i love that show!!' like :D

[idiaa-shroxd]

Unfortunately I don't play Genshin anymore due to storage problems BUT IM ALSO A WANDERER MAIN LMAO AND OMFG THANK YOY VERY MUCH FOR THE COMPLIMENT COMING FROM SOMEONE WHO'S ONE OF MY FAV AUTHORS AND YES FARUZAN SUPREMACY AAAAAAAAAAA ILY SM<333

I'm literally going crazy bc you replied to my crazed fan ask HAHAHAHAHA

\(//∇//)\ i am definitely not responding late!! i perceive time like a normal human would.. and that’s so crazy!! ♡

i have loved wanderer since maybe my first time hearing his existence?? i’m not a day-one-er but quite close! so glad he did not get signora’d. if you play on mobile you can try deleting the app and redownloading because the clear old files option doesn’t actually clear everything, and sometimes a redownload may be able to fit within your storage! i absolutely adore faruzan though!! peak character design even if she is genshin’s hatsune miku, not complaining though i think her glass looking dress-skirt is amazing. (*´∀`)♪

i’m happy to be able to talk and respond to people!! getting asks just talking to me or people sending things like how they think my writing style is pretty makes me super happy!! so i’m equally as fanboy-ing when you and others talk to me!! ╰(*´︶`*)╯

#you can ignore the tags they are just random thoughts but there’s also like a responsible crewel brainrot at the bottom!! #i seriously cannot respond in a mandated time because my concept of time is warped?? what do you mean 2015 was 8 years ago what do you mean #also does not help i get so distracted with my own fic like legs twiddling thinking of my yuu that no one will see with his dorm and their #lore that i need to write down but then i get distracted trying to draw my characters and oh dear where did time go #im normal about my characters (fake) but everyone probably has that one oc they have like a story kit on the ready to drop on friends #another genshin rant but i got thundering pulse!! so far no weapon banner loss- 1 lost 50/50 but to tighnari so no loss #considering he would be hardest to get on a bows only acc with no guarantee on ever having the boy #i actually barely started the event because i did not feel like getting to inazuma legit. would rather speed run or glitch to inazuma #but now my yoimiya banner is like 20 pity at least but now that’s also a problem because?? i want her c1 actually but need to save stop bad #i also get distracted by fun ideas!! like father figure crewel or a reader that is like his unofficial assistant please let me brainrot for #the class. so reader is not in a club unlike grim who canonically is one but in this fic reader is crewels unofficial student assistant and #helps him at his club bc iirc he’s the science club advisor and they spend time after school grading exam papers with #him and he has cookies and talks to you for hours and you can come early to clean the classroom and can just rant about the boys or rmshckle #he basically is the one you go to because crowley will not do anything!! #in my universe (ehe) my yuu and his dormmate crewels nephew have a uniform designed by nephew+crewel so id like to think in this brainrot #that crewel gifted you a uniform he designed. also ALSO!! he makes sure you eat #and that you are not bullied. he also took it upon himself to give you challenging material so he can prepare you to live within a foreign #environment. considering how you are almost not guaranteed to do so well on your own so he teaches you things not school related like basic #sew life skills or tidbits he knows from being an adult that’s all #questions of styx.

[devondespresso]

shoutout to everyone in school waking up at like 6 am every day i literally graduated a year ago and i look at you guys like "damn thats crazy i could never do that"

#im woke up at 5:45 am to open our cafe today and this shits wild #like i wake up this early decently often because i open a lot but like you fucks do this every day thats crazy #for reference on my days off i wake up at like #10-12 #and get up a few hours after because bed warm cozy #personal #not stranger things #i wonder how many followers I've lost making personal stupid thought posts #oh well if you can't handle me at my stupid thought post you don't deserve me at my stranger things reblogs and good thought posts

[nomaishuttle]

aughhhhh i wish i had books 2 read i wanna read books so bad rn 🤓 <- i look like this. 2 pictures of me 👇

#IM SO CRAZYYYY its whatever. im half done with listening 2 ersatz elevator .. 7 more left.. ill prolly finish ersatz elevator tmrw innit. n #Probably i will finish vile village as well and potentially get started on . its hostile hospital after vile village roght.... i feel so #fakee im sry 9 year old me #bc let me think with my head im almost positive carnivorous carnival is the 10th. YES IT IS bc theyre on the mountain from. oh lord no wait #its all so evil let me check. bc theres 7 left #ok my prediction is. 7. vile village 8. hostile hospital 9. carnivorous carnival? might be switched with prev 10. slippery slope #11 grim grotto 12 penultimate peril 13 the end. #im pretty much positive on the last 3. now i check and kamille screams at me in my head Sorry girl. #> me being entirely fucking right im literally like god if he was autistic and haunted #sooo let me do some math rqq... the last few books r likee 4 hours each i think. and i work 8 hours a day 5 days a week... #ive done the math and its sort of dire it appears ill probably finish either thursday or early friday. what on earth will i listen to after #that.... sigh. oh well... + tbh i dont just wanna do audiobooks even tho im excited for the last half of asoue bc i dont rememberit as much #well. clearly i do idk if you recall but i just named the last 7 books in perfect order. but anyways. im excited but also Lorddd i forgot #that i love irl real life readingg 😭😭 #i might say fuck it and read the 3rd miss peregrines on internet archive. miserable .. i want to have it irl but you know. #n then i can go ahead n put the last 3 books on hold Rn so i can read those next week #AND ill put 2001 on hold too bc im sososososo excited abt it :]]]]