#im crying yes

[gryphis-eyes]

⊙ Chasing the morning star

Tonight's new moon was supposed to mark a big turning point of my practice as i don't see myself as a beginner anymore so it's a great honor for me to have such a big evolution. This event didn't came alone because Lucifer honoured me with his presence, it's been a week since he was slowly "invading" my mind as i was seeing many things that were associated with him or just his name.

Last time i've worked with him i was still a beginner and let's be honest, pretty immature our relationship faded with time until he "disappeared". I spent years and years working with different entities or alone until some days ago, in a strange but vivid dream i heard "in the end you've always been searching for Lucifer in other entities" and it made me realise so many things, i also understood that sometimes when i thought i was talking to a deity i was actually talking to Lucifer (a very mind blowing week haha).

My relationship with Lucifer always been very intimate in some way, before knowing anything about witchcraft i would just admire his figure and i would even dare say that i identify myself a lot to his character and history, even in my practice i noticed that the thing i was drawn to were often related to him. With or without spirituality and witchcraft he already got a big influence on me and im so soo grateful that he became an even bigger part of my life, i remember being extremly nervous by the idea of approaching him but now i went really far and i'm finaly ready "for real"

Moral of the story sometimes you do find the deity that was "meant to be your patron" but understanding it is an other challenge.

Thank you Lucifer 🌹

#im crying yes #love him sm #luciferian #lucifer devotee #demonolatry

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[eggbertith]

the transgender flag in the background.....slow down satan

#nimona #yes im crying what about it #im going to dissipate into thin air

[stil-lindigo]

your favourite arach-narchists 🕷️

prints

#tried to draw this like how miles would in his sketchbook #god i love this movie to death #i preordered the artbook #you should too #i havent felt this rabid over a piece of media in YEARS #did i cry? yes #after the past couple of years for creatives this movie was like a warm hug and a nudge in the right direction #spiderverse team you are my everything #i think im done with my fanart spree though #at least until i rewatch spiderverse this weekend #spiderman #spiderman across the spiderverse #spiderverse #miles morales #hobie brown #gwen stacy #spidergwen #stillindigo art

[swervesfirstblaster]

DAD WAVE AND DAUGTHER RAVAGE U WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED

#she literally snuggles his face im gonna cry #also yes starscream refers to ravage as she hehe #the way he holds her pls :(( #soundwave #ravage #earthspark #tfes #tf earthspark #transformers earthspark #maccadam #so mad that this was deleted very soon

[shower-phantom-ideas]

Bruh emotional support ghost kid? Well thats what they are calling him

Suicide cases in gothem are about to fucking plummet boiz cause this one weird blue eyes, black haired boy is now heading to your location.

How does he know where to be? Having a bad day and are all alone? No the fuck your not cause don’t turn around now but theres some shiny blue eyes coming at you from that dark ally. Oh shit hes here to drop some information about you and your lost loved ones that he should know. Oh god the closure. How could you have been afraid on this sweet, creepy, boy who just helped you find your way.

Meanwhile Danny is chillin in Gothem cause the GIW hate it there (none of they equipment actually functions in Gothem so it’s either super haunted or actually not haunted at all). Then all of a sudden he gets approached by a random ghost begging for his help because their sweet baby girl is about to do something horrible. Oops now all the ghosts are following their most loved ones around just to make sure they are there to rush to Danny for help when all else fails. Now hes getting to fulfil his protection obsession double time because one hes helping protect people from themselves and two hes protecting everyone in Gothem by stopping people from becoming villains for revenge. Plus he gets to see first hand how hes making a difference because all those people he saved are sending him some good vibes from all across Gothem.

Thank god he followed Jazz around so much to slightly absorb some of her phycology knowledge over the years. Plus it was actually pretty interesting so she gave him her old text books. Shes also helping him deal with the rare events where he can’t save someone. Just a moment too late or he stops them but they later succeeded in the hospital. Neither are his fault. Now only if he could convince his core of that.

Anyway why Gothem you ask? Amity Park would have been just as good tbh but imagine Batmans face when he finally gets to be face to face with the emotional support ghost boy. Why is he here? Bruce is fine. Batman is fine. Hes not gonna do anything crazy. It’s just a hard time of year. Around their death always gives him grief. But hes an adult and can manage it.

“You know they are so proud of you.” The boy states. As if it’s clear as day, even though it’s Gothem and never a clear day. Batman blinks at him, stunned for a moment. “What?” This boy can’t possibly know that. No one will ever know that, Bruce can only hope. “They see their home, full of such life. That big house that felt so empty, so cold, to them as well for years. Then you filled it with Family and Love like they had always wanted for you. They are so proud of what you have turned it into. Somewhere full of life and warmth.” A small smile graces his face as finally “you have made your parents so proud” and its all he can do to contain himself. Emotions are running high and sue him because he really did need to hear that ok. The boy suddenly looks to Bruces right with a confused face “aren’t all basements like that though?” Before Bruce can even get a word in hes gone. Just vanished before his eyes.

#danny phantom #danny fenton #dpxdc #dp x dc #batman #I just wanted to write danny walking up to the buggest toughest batman and make him cry tears of relief #danny is helping his subjects find closure while always feeding his protection obsession #let him be interested in his sisters word #also god imagine bruce just having a bad time of it cause is the anniversary of his parents death #than the ghost kid just walks up and tells him exactly what he needed to heat #yes they are proud of the word batman does #he knows he has saved lives #but what about him as a father #would his father be ashamed of his parenting skills #would his mother be discusted at how he treats his children #he always remembers his parents as good parents so he wants to do right by them by also being a good parent #anyone can risk their life for another but few can be a good father #actually it’s easy just love your kids and sont walk out and leave them with an insane bitch of a mother #dad im lookin at you #and dknt marry your fucking step sister dad #isnt our family tree circle enough. why must u follow in grandmothers footsteps #at least with him is marrage related aye? #oops im rabling about my daddy issues teehee

[modmad]

LADS IM FREAKING OUT my dear friend @cartoon-kitsune sent me a present and I was literally wearing this outfit when BAM. POPPY.

WE MATCH??? THE HAIR AS WELL this was not planned I can't. I can't believe how gorgeous she is or how funny it is that I'm literally the same colours rn THANK YOU SO MUCH KIT ;A;

also...

SHE BIG

#i LOVE HER AAAAAAA #also it's a one off commission dw lads we don't bootleg WH #BUT OH MY GOD AMAZING #Welcome Home #Poppy Partridge #I'm weeping crying sobbing my crops are flourishing #I am gonna hug her all day no more work just Poppy #(the jumper says Yule Got This bc im. cringe ok) #(I dress like a kid's TV presenter yes yes I've been told)

[moominvalley-state-of-mind]

'let them say fuck' this 'let them swear' that

let them cry

let them sob in the shower

let them soak their friend's sleeve with tears

let them wake up with red eyes

let them laugh cry with their friends over a forgotten inside joke

let them cry while kissing their partner, finally finished with whatever hell they were going through

#let them kick their godly parent in the shins #yes im talking about percy jackson #also kinda everyone in the rrverse #props to apollo/lester actually crying multiple times in his books #magnus chase #magnus chase and the gods of asgard #rick riordan #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #the trails of apollo #heroes of olympus #kane chronicles #alex fierro #blitzen #hearthstone #annabeth chase #hazel levesque #frank zhang #leo valdez #jason grace #piper mclean #will solace #nico di angelo #all of them

[nyxofdemons]

THE WAY THAT THEY INVENTED ROMANCE WITH THIS SONG???? HELLO?????

#'i don't know why you waste your time on me' 'baby; all i got is time!' OH MY *GOD* #WHY IS THAT THE MOST ROMANTIC THING THATS EVER HAPPENED #im screaming and crying knowing no one else will ever have what they do #like i am so serious ive never REALLY cried at this show before but this song got me so bad #theyre so fucking cute. im going to lay on the floor and be overwhelmed by yearning #mine #fave #<- yes im tagging my own posts w this #helluva boss #helluva boss spoilers #fizzarolli #asmodeus #fizzmodeus #helluva boss fizzarolli #fizzarolli helluva boss #asmodeus helluva boss #helluva boss asmodeus #e: mammon's magnificent musical mid-season special

[magpie-trinkets]

continuing that "maya tries to contact claire" post, i present you the post-Spirit of Justice follow-up

#post that caters to ME specifically #let me first tag #ghost trick spoilers #lost future spoilers #now that that's out of the way. you know who's on that suitcase ;) #also claire is fucked up by time travel shenanigans so it's possible let's just say #also ghost powers grow and change with time sooooo. let's play with canon #layton “i have a dead girlfriend” and yomiel “i had a dead girlfriend” bisexuals #also yes the whole gang traveled to london they're just strolling around #maya had unfinished business and now that she's more powerful she's BACK #this would take place 7-or-so years after lost future/plvspw so layton is in his mid-forties here. i had to look it so correct me if im not #also yes this is a crossover AU i have rotating in my mind i love the source material and layton's and claire whole thing no shade to that #powerful narrative that made me cry #but with aa and gt magic fuckery we have the technology #also about the jail bit. that's a fic i am writing (one sentence every month) #ghost trick #professor layton #ace attorney #my art #ms paint #GOD. that wall of text is surely something

[fruitface]

the lesbiversal experience of gay panic when the girl you like makes eye contact with you

#bottoms spoiler #bottoms 2023 #bottoms movie #josie x isabel #ayo edebiri #havana rose liu #wlwgif #wlwedit #filmedit #filmgifs #movieedit #moviegifs #lgbtqedit #lgbtq #* #havent seen this movie yet but im already obsessed w them #yes movies that define the gay experience #crying laughing bc this is me #cant believe i have to wait in line for this to be released in prime

[sentientsky]

The Quite Nice and Fairly Accurate Good Omens Script Book Depiction of Gay Yearning by Neil Gaiman

#he's just like me fr #like if my ex-bsf had turned to 19 year old me like “go fight satan or i'm never speaking to u again” #u can bet your ass i would've gone “yes ma'am” and hauled myself up off the ground and towards certain death #eugh 19 year old me was a mess #like the physical embodiment of phoebe's bridge in moon song (you know the one. the dog one. the “oh and now im crying” lyric. yeah.) #crowley #aziraphale #david tennant #gomens 2 #michael sheen #aziracrow #go2 #good omens 2 #gomens #good omens script book #good omens #queer #gay yearning #gay longing #good omens shitpost #shitpost

[irafuwas]

sorry i'm not done but how can you just drop this bombshell that malleus literally used to hate humans, that he'd refer to silver as "that thing" , that he thought lilia should've just dropped off the baby with some humans and move on with his life!!

and yet!! it was malleus who ordered the castle to have baby food delieverd to lilia's place for him, and it was malleus who'd sneak out whenever he could to come see silver and make sure lilia was taking care of him okay. and it was malleus who was so, so gentle teaching silver and sebek magic where lilia was so very crude

and after 17 years of malleus quietly loving him in his own modest way, it was ultimately the boy's tears - that thing's tears - that drove him to stop time and freeze the world over

#malleus draconia #twst silver #twst spoilers #twst jp #twst book 7 #im a mess dont look at me #silver's love transforming not just lilia but malleus as well #yes mal doesn't want to lose lilia for his own reasons but the final nail in the coffin for his ob was silver crying #and mal not being able to find a better way to make all their pain stop

[jayspilledink]

this guy gets it

#i swear to god im gonna post this and then ill wake up and my phone will have exploded #also yes rodimus gets more tags than everyone else my bbgrl comes first yall can cry about it #transformers #mtmte #rodimus #maccadam #rodimus prime #mtmte rodimus #hot rod #drift #ratchet

[caelanglang]

chuuya will go insane seeing dazai cry? zamn would pay to see that lmaoo

hi, i kinda went insane thinking and drawing about this one.

a continuation of the drunk fem!dazai post !

mini bonus:

update: now with extra here ~

#girls kissing girls kissing girl being gay aaaaaa #i wanted to draw ugly crying bc tbh crying feels ugly esp when you cant control the tears #yes i went a wee bit insane to finish this I'm sorry it took a while to reply this inbox #this was a very sever brainrot thats for the encouragement anon #severe* #chuuya is weak af when dazai actualy cries and does anything to stop it #dw she did not go insane #she merely flooded the living room but hey it made dazai stop crying so its a w #im the one who went insane finishing this comic i think... #hope you like it! thak you for reading this super self indulget comic #can u tell im so so torn with what hair to give fem chuu? yes. #bsd #skk #inbox #inbox sketch #sketch #my art #my comic #soukoku #fem skk

[starfruitsomething]

🥲

#I refuse to suffer alone #Thank goodness for all of you- #yes im a lier #I need people to join our cult!! #neil gaiman needs to pay for my therapy #neil gaiman #good omens #starfruitsomething #my art #digital art #good omens fanart #ineffable husbands #ineffable idiots #crowley #azirowley #aziraphale #ineffable divorce #good omens fandom #lies #this is kinda a prologue to an earlier sketch similar to this #im not actually this cruel I do warn people that they will be crying #michael sheen #david tennant #crowley fanart #good omens crowley #good omens aziraphale #aziracrow #crowly x aziraphale #azicrow #aziraphel