#im failing everything

[infrxred]

rryone shut uo dni bcus i put down one of my goalws on a project

"turn in work on time"

me fuckinf turning in this assign,ent 4 days late lmaoooo

#i used to get straight a's what happened to me #im failing everything #how am i doing so bad already i literallt have no future #shut up stop whining !! #:3333333 #sillyness

[appleleef]

polaris

#ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #izzy hands #ofmd s2 spoilers #felt a little odd finishing this angsty piece while izzy in the new episodes is actually coping now. badly. very badly. but he is coping. #but i literally spent the entire second episode gaping at my roommate it's literally everything i ever wanted #put that man in the fucking centrifuge #he's missing three toes he's crying in front of the crew he's in a toxic relationship with a man he “has love” for he's missing a leg- #he tried to kill himself he FAILED to kill himself he's a wet cat in a cardboard fucking box im literally obsessed with him

[brother-emperors]

 Then, on his arrival in Constantinople, after much counsel with himself, considering that he was already unequal to the amount of pressing business and believing that there was no room for delay, on the twenty-eighth of March he brought the aforesaid Valens into one of the suburbs​ and with the consent of all (for no one ventured to oppose) proclaimed him Augustus. Then he adorned him with the imperial insignia and put a diadem on his head, and brought him back in his own carriage, thus having indeed a lawful partner in his power, but, as the further course of our narrative will show, one who was as compliant as a subordinate. No sooner were these arrangements perfected without disturbance than both emperors were seized with violent and lingering fevers--

AM 26.4.3-4

this was one of those illustrations that was originally supposed to be a 5 page comic until I realized I don't know anything about later roman empire architecture or visuals or art or anything, so we'll revisit that later. maybe

for right now though, these two are fascinating. we have two brothers acting as one body, even becoming ill in tandem with each other, it's giving This Throne Is Cursed. like, the last time I read about emperors coming down with life threatening illnesses, it was Caligula, and that moment in his biography marked a very specific tone shift. I spent the rest of the (first) time reading about Valens and Valentinian waiting for something comparable to Caligula's reign to happen lmao (Dio 59. 8. 1-2)

and since Caligula was already on the mind, I started thinking about Tiberius: I think he would've loved these two since he had a whole thing about twin-ification and brothers and etc etc etc. ofc, Rome is both a Mouth and a Tomb, so it's going to go badly for someone/everyone eventually, but honestly I think that Valentinian and Valens were the best we could've hoped for. like it could've been so much worse

Tiberius and the Heavenly Twins, Edward Champlin

Failure of Empire: Valens and the Roman State in the Fourth Century A.D, Noel Lenski

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#(drawing hearts around valens) hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii #roman empire tag #drawing tag #every day i think about valentinian bringing his brother into this and wondering how valens felt about it #especially since the over all arc is that he's constantly just trying to tread water managing everything from six different fronts #did you ever want things to go back to how they were!!!! did you dream of simpler times!!!!!! when it was just hard work and dirt #under your nails instead of the horrible scale of empire choking you out to the very end!!!!!!!!! did you hate your brother for it #im normal about valens. btw. (<<<said by a guy who made valens his icon on his main art blog) #anyway. (claps hands together) im going to go and write about bonifacio and mabini and lucan and crassus and the pharsalia #and mabini's writings on a failed revolution and bonifacio haunting the collective memory #i gotta condense it down to a thousand words. ideally. we are rambling around at around 2k and its unwieldy #valens #valentinian I #later Roman Empire tag

[sadisthetic]

jaya....? (sike. its skybound bad end au. in which jay fails miserably but “nya” never dies. can you imagine?)

#jay walker #ninjago jay #ninjago nya #technically delara. #ninjago #jaya #lol.................. #skybound #my art #im not that satisfied with this piece but man. the concept tho #CAN YOU IMAGINE? IT REALLY SAD. IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY. #imagine being the guy who fucked up so bad. everything was your fault. youre the cause of everything that went wrong #all your friends are dead. youre still trapped in a prison of your own making #and you cant fix anything anymore. its too late and you dug too deep into your own grave #but worst of all shes still in front of you #the reason why you made a whole mess of things #the girl you still havent gotten over #but shes also gone. shes right in front of you but thats not her. YOU did this to her #she stands before you as a symbol of mockery of all your failings and mistakes #like its really funny to her #like you couldnt be any more pathetic #:)!!!!!!!!!!!!! #normal about skybound??? nope!!!!!!!! im not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[h20milk]

an uncontrollable urge, i want you only to myself. you, my love, you belong to me.

#blush blush #blush blush game #cole #blush blush cole #sad panda studios #my art #have i played this game? no. do i like any of the characters? yea..... #IN MY DEFENSE i just don't want to grind im sorry. but i have read quite literally everything and have seen playthrus! <3 #cole is... really great. love him actually #he is so comically evil #my fail guy <3 #2023

[whaliiwatching]

hm. them. also ding ding

#spider man: across the spider verse #spider punk #spider noir #hobie brown #noirpunk #spiderdykes #new tag for the lesbians!!! #ough writing is so hard. but it is happening kind of #drawing kisses are so hard but i am going to get better FoR THEM #in this house we love and appreciate fat bodies and soft parts!!!!!!! #theyre ace4ace and t4t in every timeline of mine. by the way. if you didnt know #yes including the PURPLE drawing #im lowkey addicted to drawing butch peter but i also have almost no drawings /of/ her bc they have to be pERFECT #trying to get out more sketches than failing to complete less larger ones #like the olden days… #ding ding is an INSANE cat. meows like a chainsmoker in heat. tries to eat everything. does not know her left from right #ugh im just so love them much. ughgghhh

[rapidhighway]

sleepy sooo sleepy

#what if i drew sonic and tails on a wednesday what then #i always wanna but im so tired on wednesdays xd #ive been just sleeping sooo much i wanna go back to sleep pls pls pls #i need sleep im a growing girle <--- 21 #is it too much to ask for cozy #i wanna be cozy #i have so many things to do im failing everything bc i sleep all the timeee pls ;/ #at least my roommate is pressing me to do this one thing i need to have done for tomorrow #pls? sleeb????

[caladbolg]

lament

#my art #i have to stop drawing things in red everything just looks like keibo now. this isnt keibo but it looks like him idk i guess im a fail artis #t #dammit #vergilius #limbus company #project moon #projmoon #proj moon #leviathan #vergilius lcb #lcb #vergilius limbus company #limbus oc #fanart

[sharmoota-job]

michael de santa is the most attractive fictional character ive ever seen in my whole life. hes so handsome. i would DIE for him

#im not joking hes. so. hhhhh4tfreghurghueghrvuirhiu #hes so pretty #i love him sm #i just had to talk about him im sorry #when im sad i look at him and i smile every timw without fail hes so perfect........ #everything abt him is perfect. his hair his looks his voice. his EVERYTHING. i keep replaying gta v just to see Him. i love him #michael de santa #michael townley #gta v #grand theft auto #grand theft auto v #grand theft auto 5 #gta #gta 5

[dramagenes]

started watching bloodhounds and why is the only thing i can think of is that woojin & gunwoo are what suho & sieun could’ve been in another life

#im only on episode one fyi!!! #but the parallels are paralleling!!! #when woojin fed gunwoo the lettuce wrap *instant flashbacks* #me trying not to make everything about weak hero: challenge failed yet again #if everything goes wrong after this forget I ever said anything #bloodhounds #weak hero class 1 #show commentary

[samarecharm]

Ryuji is so anxious in the beginning of the game :( hes so caught up in his head during the kamoshida arc; makes me think hes been like that for awhile, at least until u get a bit further in the game. The rumors, the self loathing, the whole stint w kamoshida; hes got too much on his brain and its kinda nice (and a little sad) that he starts sharing those anxieties and doubts the second hes in a safe space to do so.

#chattin #ryuji #hes definitely more relaxed by the madarame arc #like he got friends and a purpose and he just bounced back immediately #but i am thinking of like. the year everything went to shit for him #like it wasnt his fault but also hes the center of all the controversy #and he went from being very popular (im SURE he was; hes called a track STAR) #to being completely alone w failing grades and a broken leg. like he had alot of time to sit and think #and all the stuff w his home life being so disruptive #like despite what the school body will say he does think before he acts #he had a grown man rile him up to make him act; he didnt just go in guns blazin #i dunno where im going w this lol. i just think he gets alot of flak for being loud and annoying #but just like w everyone else; u get to see their real personality when theyre supported and loved #and ryuji is just loud and brash and he loves w his whole heart #just like ann became super vocal and silly about so many things after u help her w shiho #All the thieves are like this. ryuji is a ball of anxiety #but its quieted down when he has real support and purpose in his life again #and its less that hes ‘quiet’ about his worries; if anything hes more vocal about it #but bc hes so vocal about it; u can see the difference between him messaging u every day worrying about kamoshida #to him going w the flow and putting more trust in u and the team #he loves them sm !!!!

[sleeplesssmoll]

Vertin has an easier time of letting go and moving forward now after getting so used to it, but the past is eventually gonna catch up to her and that weight becomes unbearable. How long until she's forced to face that unprocessed grief? Until she learns how to help others without it being at her own expense?

How long would it take for her to re-learn how to enjoy the present/her life without feeling immesnely guilty for what would never be and might've been, and indulge in her interests again without feeling that its selfish?

The survivor guilt and savior complex are real. Now that she isn't alone anymore, I hope she is able to see the value in her own life as much as she sees it in others.

PREPARE FOR MORE ANALYSIS AND LORE!

Sometimes I wonder if Vertin feels like she needs to live for the sake of other people. She has to remember them because the world won't once its Reversed. She has to find the truth and stop the Storm for all the people she's lost to it. Now that she has people under her personal protection, she pushes herself even more to be everything they need her to be.

I think the one thing she wants for herself and not for the sake of others, is the truth about her mother. Mr. Man mentions Vertin's rationale a lot, but he also prods at the trauma she holds in many of their interactions. He's pretty abrasive about it too. Here is one of my favorites for character analysis reasons. Chapter 4-20 Outside the Spotlight:

Here is just one example (there is more to this and some was cut out for readability). This is kinda what inspired me to write the fic tbh because it shows how helpless Vertin really is in the face of the Storm. The idea of Vertin wanting to create a perfect shelter for those close to her might be from the trauma of loss and is a way she copes. From the context clues this is when Vertin was at a ceremony for the new St. Pavlov Foundation Squad Leaders. Vertin is shocked to see Sonetto amongst them the others on stage.

Not only that, but the same people who allowed her friends to get Reversed are saving Sonetto for her. It's like Vertin sees Sonetto as someone she is supposed to be protecting and yet, there she is. Sonetto is standing on stage with other arcanists destined to be martyrs. It's symbolic of Vertin's own failure.

Sonetto isn't safe. No arcanist is safe under the Foundation. Look at what happened to poor Ken! She is worried about her other friends, but she is made painfully aware of how little she can do.

But she tries. And she keeps trying no matter how pointless her efforts are in the grand scheme.

#reverse 1999 #vertin #anon ask #sonetto #character analysis #im sorry i got carried away #im just looking for opportunities to scream how much i love Vertin #more trauma related psychubes #fun fact #sonetto shows up in a lot of things related to vertin's trauma #im not trying to squeeze her in but she keeps popping up #its like she represents everything vertin failed at #better arcanum #better grades #nearly got reversed because of vertin #vertin got their friends erased #she forgave vertin when vertin still struggles to forgive herself #needs its own post

[autismmydearwatson]

Reading Thrawn Ascendancy: what a nice young man :) surely he isn't still marked by a giant hole in his soul that affects his ability to process or even acknowledge his own inherent loneliness. World's funniest delivery of war crimes.

Watching Rebels: BEAT HIS ASS EZRA

#dont get me wrong thrawn is still an endlessly funny and cool character but part of the charm in a doomed-to-fail character #is watching exactly what thwarts them #im glad it was the space scooby gang #lmao you sacrificed everything for an empire you dont even give a damn about to save your homeland? #uh oh it looks like your pursuit has caused you to target someone elses homeland. you know what that means 🐋🐋🐋🐋🐋 #star wars #thrawn ascendancy #star wars rebels #sw rebels #thrawn #ezra my beloved creepy ass blue eyes son im so glad it was you 💙 #ezra bridger

[riverashes]

I'd have read the Noniad just to passionately argue with Ortus about every page, tbh. What the hell else is there to do in that House. Be religious??? Absolutely not.

#the locked tomb #tlt #ortus nigenad #the noniad #ive got a double english degree #that doesnt count for shit in tlt #it just means im good at overanalyzing everything all the time #when all else fails i can just say 'nuh uh'

[yuhenglesbian]

Thinking once again somehow of how important it is to me that when Wei Wuxian came back to life in Mo Xuanyu's body, the only two people who recognised him were Lan Wangji and Jiang Cheng.

Nothing is more proof of the fact that Jiang Cheng cared deeply for Wei Wuxian. Yes, he was hurt and there was anger but the fact that he held onto his rage and grief for years doesn't read to me as, "he hated Wei Wuxian so much he never forgave him for anything." Rather it reads as anger being the manifestation of Jiang Cheng's grief around losing his brother and closest confidant.

#i think about it a lot actually #but my lord #jiang cheng's hate and anger are all so closely tied to his love for people and his feelings of failing them #rather than “jc hates wwx” its “jc hates (the fact that he couldnt be there for) wwx (when wwx needed him)” #and like that's ok!! he was dealing with losing everything he knew and grew up with #and the circumstances made nothing easier #its actually been years so i cant go into a full analysis bc i dont rmbr a lot #but understanding grief and anger and how close they are are so central to understanding jc #mdzs #cql #fari's all-time faves #i think that's a better way to tag stuff like this #but god urgh. i love them all so much #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #not chengxian let me make this clear #this feels so incomplete but i dont want to go indepth bc if im wrong about details that'll be very embarrassing for me and i'll have to die

[arkiwii]

GRANI OPEREC IS HURTING ME

#she tried SO MUCH #she tried EVERYTHING SHE COULD #SHE FAILED #SHE LOST EVERYTHING #SHE LOST EVERYONE #IM IN SO MUCH PAIN. IM SO SORRY FOR HER. #for those who are curious tl;dr #an incident at a chemical factory hurt their captain and infected him gravely #the mountain police has tried to search evidences but they couldnt find any #Grani decided to look into it herself because she wanted to bring justice and save the captain's life #everyone was against it for her. everyone told her to not. she tried everything anyway #and she failed. the captain died anyway. his dad signed an accord of understanding with the company. #the mountain police also got dismentled #Grani lost everything. #and she still refuses to give up. #Grani alter save me. save me Grani alter. #arknights