#im genuinely so proud and emotional wow

[akkivee]

watched the bat vs mtr stage!!!!! here’s the tentative script if you wanna read it full too!!!!!

anyway here’s the stuff that had me screaming!!!!!

i still hate the way kuukou’s written, but what the stage did do was take a majority of kuukou’s development, which primarily happened before he formed bat, and fit it into a linear, easy to follow, format for the stage. not something i particularly agree with but i understand why they did!!!!!

i still don’t understand why they removed his compassion tho lol

they started to set up parallels between kuukou’s arrogance and jakurai’s arrogance back in track 3 and i’m happy to see it come together here in bat vs mtr

on that note, wow!!!!! sensei was kind of an asshole lmao!!!!!

nah like you look at these lyrics and man!!!! sensei really had just written off his and hitoya’s friendship in this play!!!! damn dude!!!!

hitoya displayed a degree of levelheadedness his canon counterpart didn’t; here in the play, hitoya is willing to admit he’s changed as well and maybe jakurai’s change wasn’t the only reason they fell apart. interesting stuff

sensei’s dancing in mtr’s new group song is 🥵🥵🥵🥵

kuukou was not in the wrong for this btw lmao

*cries* bat haiyuu chemistry is too good genuinely

i personally think it’s always a little weird when doppo’s the one to not notice how sensei’s feeling. like both hifumi and doppo are sensitive to jakurai’s emotions, doppo just stays quiet about it because he doesn’t think it’s his place to say anything. but i digress lol

i love!!!!!! how hifumi’s actor changes his voice!!!! when he puts on the jacket mid sentence!!!!! it’s having both the audio AND visual that’s setting me off lol!!!!!

kuukou: *beating up an entire host club* stop crying jyushi we’re not doing anything illegal!!!! 😈

the way jyushi dramatically introduced himself due to his nerves and the proud way kuukou smiled at him!!!!!!!!!! 💜💜💜

kuukou @ dohifu: oh i’ll give you a reason to fight us 😈😈😈

me:

between kuukou fighting everything that breathes in this play and hitoya yelling at jakurai that their fight wouldn’t be meaningless, there’s like a reason to fight thing going on that’s making me curious about fp vs mtc lol

LOL WHEN THE COPS SHOWED UP AT THE HOST CLUB JYUSHI ACTUALLY PICKED KUUKOU UP LONG CAT STYLE AND WADDLED HIM OFF THE STAGE HELP

AND JYUSHI DRAMATICALLY CRYING HES GOING TO DIE ALONE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET AFTER HE AND KUUKOU GOT SEPARATED UNTIL HITOYA HAPPENED TO FIND HIM IS TOO FUNNY IM DYING

kuukou: *stumbles across jakurai after his battle with hitoya* hell yeah!!!! fight me and if i win, you have to buy me food!!!!!

jakurai: *passes out*

kuukou: bro what i didn’t even do anything🧍‍♂️

hitoya actually had work in shinjuku and didn’t just come to beef jakurai lol so we’re treated to courthouse rock where jyushi cheers hitoya on his case lol

DOHIFU HAVE A REALLY GAY NUMBER ABOUT HOW THEIR HOME IS THEIR SANCTUARY AND KUUKOU TIED UP IN SAID HOME TELLS THEM TO SHUT UP AND TO STOP SINGING IN FRONT OF HIM LMAOOOOOOOO

the way they characterised jakurai’s war trauma as a storm and hitoya’s revenge as a flame!!!!! bright and dark!!!!!! bright!!!!! dark!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA—

jyushi pulled out hitoya’s backstory from hitoya and we get a really sweet number about jyushi’s hero worship towards hitoya 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and how jyushi wants to be the one to save hitoya this time 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

what had me yelling was how they took hifumi’s feelings about honobono and applied it towards getting jakurai to open up towards reconciliation!!!!!!!!!!! some relationships you have to fight for hifumi said!!!!!!! goddamn they really made sensei face hitoya!!!!!!! i love it!!!!!!!!

and the fact we still get to hear hifumi’s feelings about honobono!!!!!!! they had to keep mtr drama light because bat’s drama wasn’t as devastating as mtr’s in the battle album and the more equal stakes are a great call!!!! but yay!!!!!! hifumi’s complex feelings about honobono!!!!!!!!!

kuukou ‘playing’ the bad guy to get jakurai to fight hitoya 😫😫😫😩😩😩😩🙏🙏🙏👌👌🙏👌👌👌🙏

LOL at the end of it all during the redux stuff we were treated to jyushi sexy dancing in front of the crowd and kuukou bodying his teammates they’re so funny 💜💜💜💜💜💜

overall a fantastic play!!!!!! very clean storytelling with a few choices i prefer over canon!!!!! godspeed hypstage thanks for the banger!!!!

#this is vee speaking #i love the way hirono-san acts kuukou it’s why i can never quit stage kuukou lol #but you know NOW he’s a base kuukou so maybe going forward i can actually have food for thought #like what i get with literally every other character in the stage plays lol #if i could pick up daigo-san’s jyushi and fold him into my pocket to carry and to hold— #like what a precious beanpole lmao #*clenches fist* the way jyushi’s happiness towards hitoya and his accomplishments healed and cheered him up a little it’s—!!!!!!!! #*taps mic* they’re family your honour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #JAKURAIS AND HITOYAS RELATIONSHIP HAS BEGAN ONCE AGAIN THIS IS HOW THEY MADE UP UNTIL CANON WANTS TO ACTUALLY SHOW IT TO US #c: sensei #c: hifumi #c: dop #c: kuukou👑 #c: jyushi #c: hitoya

[syaosakureal]

Clear card pros and cons (that i can remember i need to reread it again)

Pros:

SYAOSAKU DATING ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

idk more content around our fave characters (though not as much but take it as you will)

The wierd ass technology update all of a sudden everyone has iphones (minus syaoran)

It picked up from the og ending where syaoran comes back from hong kong

SYAOSAKU DATING 🥹🥹🥹

SYAOSAKU WENT ON A DATE ‼️‼️

Unlocked sakura new swag (at the cost of ending her cardcaptor retirement…)

(Anime only) english dub actors of trc syaosaku voice ccscc syaosaku i thought that was pretty cool (syaoran sounds like maybe he went through puberty a little too early but thats okay)

(Anime only) SYAORAN SPEAKS FRENCH IN THE ENGLISH DUB

cute art style

Maybe just me but sometimes i get a little emotional seeing sakura in her daily life in middle school because its like !! Wow i remember when you were in 4th grade and now you’re in 7th grade im so proud of you sakura 🥹

Momo (new mascot to make marketable plushie off of)

(Anime only) MEILING COMEBACK ‼️

THE SYAOSAKU SONG HOSHI NO TEGAMI 😭😭😭😭😭 BEST SONG EVERRRR WTF SYAORANS SINGING VOICE IS SO!:?:)/$/? THEYRE SUCH A GOOD DUET

SYAOSAKU DATING. Btw. Theyre a couple. Theyre dating and theyre in love.

Cons:

KAITO.

New characters who happen to be mediocre

Akiho is literally just a carbon copy of sakura who is just sad (they refused to touch on the different aspects of her like reading books, singing and from kong kong only very rarely)

Kaito fucking sucks literally worst ccs of all time and THATS A LOT saying theres literal PEDOS in the fucking show but theyre all background characters but they can also piss off

Tbf i got confused along the way

Too many plot holes

Syaosaku angst

Syaosaku couldnt touch for a while 😔

Anyway why did yelan do that (referring to point above)

Some shit does not make sense

Tsubasa/xxxholic references (this is for you oomf)

Syaoran???? Is part of the “im keeping things from sakura” gang???? And it sucks so bad (yes it got resolved in the later half BUT IT STILL SUCKED)

TOO MANY THINGS KEPT FROM SAKURA JUST TELL HER DAMN

pushes most characters from the og manga aside to focus on akiho and that man 🙄🙄🙄

Clamp forces us to care about them but in reality we really do not gaf

(In reference to point above) Clamp sees that and pushes the nostalgia tactics/references sometimes and its lowkey tiring

The part where the syao/saku/tomo were reminiscing that fuck ass teacher made me ill i genuinely wanted to kms

Still hasnt gotten rid of their p*do ass shit thanks clamp very cool (sarcasm)

Did i mention that the og characters were pushed back? Because they really were

Akiho felt more of the main character of this story instead of sakura

Tbh not much happened in the entirety of this manga ESPECIALLY considering time shenanigans

Im still mad that syaoran hid stuff from sakura tbh

HOW CAN I FORGET THE UGLY ASS “YUNAAKI IS SIMILAR TO SYAOSAKU” PARALLELS AND HOW BADLY IT PISSES ME OFF

syaosaku dont look but theres an ugly bitch trying to be like you (yunaaki)

Yunaaki becoming borderline canon despite it being a toxic and p*dophilic ship

Kaito still exists in this fucking story and got a somewhat happy ending (befriending syaoran dont piss me the fuck off)

COMPARING KAITO TO SYAORAN KYS @ CLAMP

Kero/tomoyo/yue/nakuru/spinnel basically everyone magically involved is pushed back basically useless until the final act (i think i mentioned the character pushback before)

Still major plotholes

Yamazaki tells the truth now

Touya got whitewashed

Akiho still has too many similarities to sakura it still pisses me off. Why cant they make her her own character

My girl sakura developed anxiety

MY BOY SYAORAN DEVELOPED DEPRESSION

angsty ass middle schoolers

Didnt like the scene where sakuras grandad was basically throwing shade at syaoran comparing his romance with sakura to … sakura’s fuckass dad grooming her mom. What

Syaoran calmed down a bit i miss when he was chaotic af but whatever #middleschoolerthings

Season 2 is taking forever to release good lord

#thats about it i can think for now #if i remember i’ll probably add more idk #clear card spoilers #thoughts

[hyunjinspark]

Here to spread some love to the blogs I appreciate~~ The way you write leaves me floored. You know the other day I was reading SLWY and it left me so anxious and sad (this is not bad I PROMISE) that I straight up texted my friend "Tell me how this fic left me more anxious than the Horror Fic I read. I am more devastated over this then when *pairing* died"

I consider that to be one of the best compliments I can possibly give because I tend to separate Y/N from myself- she or he is just another character to me, so if someones writing can make me FEEL like I'm actually living a story, to feel those emotions within myself. I don't know how to explain it-- it's truly just-- wow you know?

Your writing makes me incredibly happy, and sad sometimes (for all the right reasons) and you're a writer I genuinely look up to and respect. also, one My friends are kind of annoyed (with me) about because I refuse to shut the hell up about you :))) (also not bad they love your writing as well)

Your writing is amazing. Remember that always <3

~ @hyunnieshannie

oh my gosh, thank you !! this was unexpected and this is so sweet. im very happy to know that you can find a way to relate to yn, and that you can feel her emotions. :(

im also very proud that your friend is annoyed hearing about me 😅 thank you for taking the time to write this! it made my day !!

#star lost with you

[faorism]

3, 16, 20 for the fic writer ask!

03. what work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)? a the first answer to this will be what i'll talk about in the answer to 20, so the next up is new world to be won [leverage ot3, rated e]. it features small dick short king eliot. i feel like when people say size kink they are thinking about huge schlongs, and this fic was my way to be like yall get on my level and appreciate. well, that was the intention. while that certainly happened, what im most proud of is how funny the fic is? the summary says a lot about the fic: "Parker and Hardison love a short king… right until, along with Eliot, they have to establish an alternative reality post-French Revolution socialist state in their bed."

16. what’s your most common “additional tags” tag? fanart, submissive eliot spencer (wow i... have published less fic than i thought?? i really have been just drawing drawing drawing huh)

20. which work of yours have you reread the most? absolutely with a love so deep and warm and true [leverage ot3, rated e]. this 55k beast consumed me for months. it began as a short bulletpoint list of, oh what if i wrote about parker sharing beds, won't that be neat. and it just grew and grew and grew. i think the length in and of itself is enough to be proud of. but more than that, i think i really got into parker's head. i really thought about parker's life and presented forty years of characterization and history, that also ties into the expansive world in my head for my of hearth and home series. and i did so while handling some really heavy concepts, most of which i can completely understand why i think most people are hesitant to read it or engage.

while i think i did not come up with wildly original backstory points for parker (meaning, the violence she faced growing up, and her being autistic), i am so proud of how intricately, seriously, and attentively i wove the story. i had so many motifs going, so many emotional tie-ins, that i genuinely think its (to kinda toot my own horn) a smart piece of writing? like, if you look at bre's section, you can tell how much i was thinking about the sections with parker's foster siblings. if you look at how i discuss archie, nate, and parkers foster father, you can see how i always held the three together in dialogue. and tbh the thing im most proud of is that i believe i presented a fully realized, paced story of a survivor of violence reckoning with her trauma. it manifests in different ways, many of which i dont explicitly say besides that they are all written within a single fic. but, idk, i do a lot of work around recovery, healing, and trauma so this really did right by my nonfandom research and writing.

BASICALLY i love this fic and it was so much fucking work and i wrote it for me and it includes all of my most precious headcanons, and there's this one line that eliot whispers to parker to tease her that literally fucking gives me goosebumps with how scandalous it is. i think its sexy and funny and sweet and thoughtful and yEAH IM BRAGGING, LEAVE ME ALONE, i wrote a 55k oneshot omg.

#faorism answers #faorism writes fic #of hearth and home and other promises

[mokkemusic]

I am just gonna express here complete gibberish but you don’t understand how much I love Chihayafuru I have so many scenes running through my mind after the spin off chapter. It’s not just progression in goals ! It’s progressions In how characters view things and THAT THAT TO ME IS THE MOST IMPORTANT. Everybody has said this and I agree with them you can’t describe this series to anyone you just can’t, you won’t do it any justice no matter how skilled you are. Cause it’s genius that can only be told through experience DEAR GOD GIVE ME A SEASON 4 !!!!!

Let me be clear I am not preaching to any of you this post is just for me

Hell I saw such character growth in Arata today ARATA ! Im not gonna take 5 mins to say THAT WAS A JOKE IM NOT PUTTING DOWN ARATA I’m just not. But goddammit I was so proud of him and his connections with people and the POEMS! The God of the Karuta world everyone said up on a frekin pedestal yea?! Well where’s his connection with the poems huh? You might have had everyone convinced but not me! But today I saw the translation I read about Arata talking to Sumire about the poems and how he finally felt connected to them and I FULL ON SOBBED! - no one has any idea what I’m talking about Idc this is for me 😂

I saw this family come to together again Hiro was a bright and eccentric as ever. My precious boy! Chihaya was the sun that came down working so hard behind the scenes this whole time even though Sumire though she just dumped all this on her and she had no one to turn to

I SAW TAICHI HAPPY DAMMIT! HE WAS HAPPY with this little daddy bear phone pop socket and every little sentimental thing that is second nature to his relationship with Chihaya IF I HAVENT MENTIONED IT THERE DATING YOU KNOW IN CASE I DIDNT MENTION IT!

I saw lonely people connect and support each other, I saw old friends. I saw how much this story has impacted characters you wouldn’t think to give this kinda thought too!

I saw genuine emotions from Arata when Mizuzawa won (yea yea I know I know) but like you could see it on his face!

There’s so much that these characters had to go through to get to all this! And even do nothing is “amazing” it’s just trying. If there’s anything Chihayafuru doesn’t do it’s plateau success. The characters could be on cloud nine one day then rock bottom the next SUCH AS LIFE ! but it’s their ways of thinking that change and progress which is wow … that is also growth right? Seems like such a simple concept but it makes me so emotional! As do all the call backs and memories that are PACKED into this ch! I will be making an edit when I’ve rested my thumbs cause I haven’t stopped typing all damn day! (Dana then why are you typing now?) CAUSE I AM FILLED WITH TOO MUCH EMOTION IM GONNA EXPLODE THATS WHY

Anyway I didn’t have a point to any of this and if I did I lost it except the ones that I already said I JUST LOVE EVERYONE IN THIS DAMN SERIES I JUST LOVE EVERYONE! THEY ARE SO BURNED INTO MY HEART!

Hell I made a 17 sec reaction of me screaming cause I saw Hiroshi HIROSHI like. I love you Hiroshi I love you everyone

Ok thank you for coming to my ramble

#Dana rambles about Chihayafuru #i am not ok I am THE EMOTIONS #I #DAMMIT

[euphor1a]

hello. just wanted to say that I love all your works.

funny story, your fic was actually the first ever fanfic that I read. it was a little over a year back, I was in a not-so-good headspace. and just searched up 'yeonjun fanfic' on google lmao just for the heck of it. tried wattpad, was scarred💀 twt was just not for me. and then tried tmblr and was greeted by one of your yeonjun drabbles. ngl, I was a little taken aback at the liberal use of the obscene words lmao. and then since I didn't know how to actually use tmblr, I just read all of your works. and I mean all. so the works that literally don't even exist anymore, I've read them too!

so I've been with your works way back when you were cupidchois. and my tmblr journey began with you so you're like the OG for me lol.

also, the not-so-good-headspace was due to this huge huge life changing entrance exam I had and your fics provided comfort. but when the exam date was too near, I stopped using tmblr for like 3 months.

but before going, I read whatever little part of bewitched you had written and remember thinking that okay when I come back after all this time, it might be a completed series. also, the release date for the yj sugarpapi fic was 14 feb but you said you needed more time. and I thought yeah I'm gonna be gone a long long time. it'll be there when I come back.

if only I knew lol. when I came back you had a brand new blog, half of your fics were missing, sugarpapi never came out, and get this, bewitched had actually gone BACKWARDS because you decided to rewrite it! lmfao, I'm not tryna sound rude or pushy at all. please dont take it the wrong way. the situation was just sooo funny.

so yeah, that's my history with your blog lol.

anywhoo, love your works a whole lot and thank you for introducing me to this hellsite without even knowing it<3

much love<3

... wow 😭😭😭, i’m genuinely struggling to find words to type here. Goodness. This is making me feel so many emotions like kdghfghfgh HOLD AWN 😭

!!! Thank you so much for sending this in, first of all?? This is like a peak moment™ of my tumblr life i’m not even kidding 😭!!! Especially because I kinda ended up joining tumblr in a very similar way, except that my OG was far more consistent than me with their blog and works 😅! Take me back to 2017 pls—

I’m pretty sure a lot of us here actually started out with just searching up fanfics on google and then finding tumblr in the search results. Because same! I did not know something like tumblr existed and my experience with wattpad was equally traumatising 😵; thank god for the hellsite. It sure is very annoying at times but it’s also nice that we can have our own little bubble here!

Lsjskdjkfj “liberal use of the obscene words” IM DYING 😭! Thank you for still reading them though 😭! A part of me is very embarrassed because I’ve... well, grown to find my old stuff very poorly written (hence all the rewriting) but a part of me is? Super fucking flattered? And proud? THANK YOU 🙈🙈

The fact that whatever the fuck I wrote actually provided comfort to a human being is enough for me to just go on and quit everything and live a life of a saint. It’s crazy... I never dared to imagine that my writing could actually do that? Because I always think that whatever I write is pretty forgettable tbh. Like you read it and move on and never think back. Anyway, I hope you are feeling better now, lovely 🥺! I’ve been in similar places throughout my life and damn I know how badly education related pressure fucks you up :(

Ah yes... Bewitched. Sigh. I have a love-hate relationship with that kid. I think I have mentioned this before in some random rant post, but god, rewriting is so hard. Because I spend most of the time regretting how I wrote it instead of the actual fixing and editing and rewriting. I won’t abandon it, but at this rate I’m not sure when I’ll be able to invest myself completely in rewriting either. It’s only harder because my daydreams have no ends and the amount of newer wips that I want to finish and post keeps increasing. And to top it off, there’s ✨real life✨, being an absolute pain in the ass constantly.

Also Sugarpapi 😭! It’s honestly me vs. the unrealistic high standards I’ve set for myself at this point. But you know what? I’ll take my time with it. Because I think taking it slow is better in all aspects. Like yeah, I could just half-ass it and put all the pressure in the world on myself to finish it sometime soon, but we all know that’ll be a mess itself, and will make me one too. It’s coming. I promise. Maybe in another year 💀

“If only I knew” — me at least twice a day skshksjk 😭;; it be like that 🙁! Apologies for the unexpected jump-scares you got from my whole new blog and all :'))

I will eventually repost the works people wanted to be reposted — surprise, almost all of my cupidchois’ masterlist actually ended up there after I rounded everything up (and almost nothing from my bts blog minus the reactions), so there’s that. And, I can’t even explain how much this ask actually means to me. Crazy stuff. Life changing.

Thank you so much!!! I’m sending you a parcel full of positive energy and my love, which is not enough but it’s the best I can do atm </3

#📬; aleyna’s mailbox #jealusty #🌸; my petals! #your username is 🤲🏼 #god i actually took more than 30 minutes to write this what #i was just causally checking my notifications before bed and saw your ask #and it made me feel so elite like i felt so important 😆 #wow.... thanks again! #i should probably go to sleep now tho kdhkdhk it’s 4:30 am yikes 😳 #for safekeeping 💌

[zushimart]

hi idk if this is a weird ask or not bc im half asleep but i just wanted to say that i started following u on my old blog in late 2022 like maybe december and your posts about bpd scara made me feel so seen. i wasn't diagnosed then but it was recently on the table as a diagnosis for me all of a sudden and it was terrifying because i feel like pwbpd are demonized and hated everywhere i look. and just like scrolling thru ur bpd scara tag was like looking at a diary of my own mind or smth. so it was really new to me to see someone talk about borderline as something that brings love and pain into our lives and not just as some scary evil-people diagnosis. like ur definitely my fav writer on this app by far but also u make me feel really validated in my emotions i guess? wow idk sorry like i actually have no idea how to describe it but hopefully u can read minds ‼️ 🤞 i have since been diagnosed with bpd with a criteria score of 9/9 so 😳 idk where id be rn in september 2023 if i hadn't sort of started to learn to love myself from your writings exploring a character. so yea this is probably a strange ask so feel free to ignore it. also im going on anon bc im scared of interacting w ppl. ALSO U R SO FUNNY ND YOUR HUMOR/RANDOM FUNNY TAGS FEEL SO SIMILAR TO MY INTERNAL MONOLOGUE

this is such an open & genuine thing to say to me . i like had to sit with it for a second because it was so .. idk like how to communicate it . my devaluation of ths blog is pretty frequent, treating it sort of like a big boy version of the 2000s children’s diaries with locks.. my thoughts tossed in here nd piled nd piled nd piled, endlessly messy. nd it objectively is a writing blog , like yeah, on a surface level, i own& maintain a writing blog, but i would never tell people that. when people ask my hobbies i always say writing & ill show them my poetry pieces but i never tell them i have a blog because im kind of embarrassed by the very seriously delusional self indulgence i pour into this thing . but then i hear about.. like, for ex. we learned ab and have to maintain our own commonplace book in class, which is essentially where people collected anything and everything they felt needed to be archived from their day and tucked it into the pages of a journal . like how thomas jefferson’s commonplace book will have his serious philosophical & political ramblings side by side a recipe for cornbread because it was just a place to put everything big & small . the practical & the theoretical. just, whatever Means something to u. and leisure, indulgence, pleasure r concepts just as important as virtues imo. anyway i say all this to say that what u said to me makes me want to treat everything better, even this place. it like, makes me feel really proud of my writing& analyses that i might normally b quick to label as inconsequential or childlike because im scared people will think i care too much about something so culturally insignificant. but i do care!! obviously!! a lot. i was like kind of bummed today for a number of reasons frm feeling a bit isolated to feeling like living out my principles& ideals (connecting w community, peer centered thinking etc etc) is almost impossible because im sooo freaking shitty at social convention. so when u sent this in & i read it, it was almost like when ur spacing out nd someone snaps 🫰🫰 in front of ur face to get ur attn. so busy trying 2 b significant to someone to realize that u Already are significant in a myriad of little ways. that it’s not something u search for or insert urself into but rather an inevitable outcome of existing. Anyway . not to b sentimental but i wanted 2 b as candid with u because i really did think it was sweet of u to share & im really happy that i was able 2 positively shape & support a little space of ur life because really thats all i ever want to do. Soooooooooo if ur ask was weird then my response is even weirder. Handwritten thank u:

#And what kind of boyfriend would i be if i didnt support my girlfriend with beautiful princess disorder #i think its just a fact of loving someone that even the most frustrating things ab them can b beautiful #or that for every weakness there’s an equally intense strength like sides of a coin #My response to this ask would b so much more impactful if i didnt constantly make dick and ball and sex jokes on this damn blawwg #happy tag

[ihateeverything101]

im like wow why don't i spend time with him? i miss that so much! and then i spend time with him and he is rude to me and hurts me mentally and physically (in ok ways but not really) then he gets mad at me because my attitude and energy aren't correct and i have to spend at least x2 the energy to talk it through with him and apologize for my feelings. i frequently do not come out feeling heard, i feel smaller and more aggravated than when the conversation started. wow ok i remember why i dont hangout with him now.

he doesn't care about me. i say that so much and he would probably argue against that if he ever heard but not really, when i being up it doesn't feel like he cares about me he gets upset with me about how my perception is warped. i do agree with that. i get emotional and feel things that aren't completely objective or true but a lot of people could say that, we are humans and emotions are ranged.

he started telling a story and i got emotional and i told him why and then he started saying about how i'm using my energy to be upset with him instead of productive things and i'm not seeing the whole picture. yeah i don't think you're aggravting me or hurting me on purpose but he is. he doesn't give me space to be my own person and it seems like he doesn't try to understand me. he will shower me with compliments but that's not what i want, i want a genuine connection where i look into their eyes and know them completely and feel safe that they know me completely. when i look at him i don't feel that i feel resentful frustration or scared. i don't think he understands me, i think he wants to control me.

for katie he asks about everything. and it's confusing to tell the story. when me and him were video chatting he treated me like katie, being sweet snd staying on top of me to get things done but also enjoy myself. it was always one of his priorities for me to enjoy myself, get enough sleep and food. he asks her about those things but not me. i don't tell him i have troubles with those things, and i really don't but he doesn't have curiosity for me anymore. he couldn't care what i am doing. he asks me questions but only if it affects him, did i eat my protein shake? he asks me that everyday because he likes me gaining weight, that is good but he doesn't ask me about my lunch or how i take my breakfast on the go every morning. he assumes im fine. which isn't entirely his fault, i should speak up. but so many times i've spoken up and it gets turned around or point blank it doesn't feel worth the energy. saying that is saying to give up on the relationship then. sigh. i'm rambling.

the other day i saw their chats and she was like oh relaxing and playing the switch and he responded happily and was proud she was relaxing. i'm happy she was too but again, when was the last time i played a game? when i took a nap or slept a little longer? he doesn't ask me or care. if i bring things up he barely listens while he is on his phone or thinking about other things. ugh. anyways.

goodnight and goodmorning. i'm excited to talk to you tomorrow!! :0) mwah mwah mwah!!

[keepthechangeplease]

Whispers of Remembrance

truth is I still think about you.

truth is I still looked at our old photos remembering the good.

truth is I never thought of you as a monster even after it all.

truth is you made me feel like I could be me , when everywhere else I had to act different

truth is no matter how much you pushed me away the only thing in my sight was resolution.

truth is the reason for my addiction was cause of how hurt I was as a kid.

truth is I was weak.

Jumping from partner to partner isnt doing you any good but just running away from yourself.

I hope you fill that void through you n not someone else.

it hurts but you’ll look back and be proud, you were able to be strong without the support of another guy.

It was you telling me you had found someone else that made me realize... perhaps it was real for me but not for you and thats okay. Knowing your story. I was only a dude to satisfy your needs at the time( reflecting idk why I thought a girl who just got cheated on was a good candidate to date). As much as I try to make the best of the situation in hindsight I was really just a rebound. I was only a means to fill that emptiness … when only you could’ve done that. The loyalty I had for you was real but at certain times I felt as if you didn't care what I said. I think what I did was childish and ofc you're gonna leave me, but I wish you stayed to see how much I grew and how distant I became from my old habits. I hope mentally you’re doing better and I mean that with love. You been through so many battles and you're so strong to have made it this far. As I am and your family everyone is extremely proud of you. I hope you're not dissociating that much anymore 💔 ( ik in your head you're like 🙄 tf does this dude know). “ wow you got a new hair cut ? I never seen it before” ( last time we hung out) when I have pictures of us together with my new hair style.

You can only run away from what's hurting for so long till it catches up to you . Not trying to put myself up on a high horse but I just don't think you ever had a person besides your family thats loved you as hard as I did. I hate saying this over n over but I just have to preface it . Im at a point in my life where I got people telling me to go out and try to find new girls but that idea sounds so far stretched because, A) its only been like 5 months, B) How could someone get over their ex in 5 months. Don't get me wrong live your life to the fullest but how can you say you were in "love" when it only took 5 months to get over them. Like help every day of your went to that person that doesn't sound like it was very genuine. I guess what I'm trying to say is love is not just emotional but it's spiritual. To give your all for someone unconditionally. To take that person away feels like a death in your life. My greatest fear is loving again. I dont wish this upon anybody. The feeling of mourning a relationship hurts beyond the English language. But it's time now, time to just keep going n not looking back. Im a good man that faced many trials and tribulations. I messed up some things yes. But is that what defines me forever? No, I made mistakes that cost me my best friend and my girlfriend . I pray for healing and I pray for wholeness in your life kass but also in mine. God knows your heart.

with much love.

- nic

#kpm #km #Spotify

[si-ninya-lang-to]

Dearest Yuls,

Wow ang kapal. Chariz! Wow, you’re finally home, after a long time. Im staring at your photos and I can say that it’s a good thing you already somehow figure out how to smile genuinely again. You’ve finally witnessed greens contrasting with blue hues, analogous colors in gradients like watercolor painting, the waves finally touched your toes, and I hope that when you breathed in the breezy and salty air, you feel your chest and somehow, somehow the wounds in your heart are finally mending; and it will start beating again, for your own self, this time.

Idol, I hope you find some pieces of yourself in Siquijor. I hope you’re finally healing, with every sip of coffee, and between laughters with family and friends. I hope that every time you see yourself in the mirror, you smile and think how amazing you are as a person and how much everyone loves you.

I hope we can get back to that time when we get drunk on weekends via videocall. We’d laugh or cry so hard and no in betweens. I guess adulting finally hits. Busy weekends and own lives. But I hope we never grow apart.

I know I always tell you na mahal kita then I’d always scold you harsher than Rana and Shai. I always say I’m proud of your choices yet disagree with your decisions sometimes. I do love you and I AM proud of your choices, but sometimes when you’re hurt, I get hurt too. I just hope you see yourself just as I see you. And finally comprehend the love that I know you deserve.

I’m sorry if lagi akong nagtatampo, sign of aging kasi yun. Lam mo na pag tumatanda, emotional! pero icheck out mo na yung threads or magkita tayo pag uwi mo, samgyup beke nemen kahit wala akong pera papatol ako basta punta ka southmall.

Mahal kita Yula, at proud ako sayo panget mo bawal to screenshot, magtatae pag mag screenshot hayup ka

[thetypingpup]

what r ur writing insecurities? how do u cope/manage thru?

things ur proud abt ur writing?

<3

Oh wow that's a heavy question, bc truly there's quite a few. I mainly fret over the fact that I feel like I'm writing the same thing over and over again. After a while it's like "yes we get it this is what you like you won't shut tf up about it 🙄" so I do worry I'm lowkey flandarizing myself. There's also the fact that I don't get nearly as many notes or engagement as other writers that creeps in from time to time. There's so much I just will not write about and while I'd never write what makes me uncomfortable, sometimes I look at like my rules list or think about what I really don't like to write or read that gets really popular and I'm like "see now if I did that maybe I'd have more engagement 🥲". This one doesn't happen often but it does come up from time to time. Like im scrolling through the fyp on here and for some reason I keep seeing stuff I either don't like, doesn't interest me at all, or outright triggers me, and that’s the popular shit. Meanwhile I'm over here like "anyone wanna read heartfelt confessions and feral love making? Fantastical ass aus? Some sub!idol thrown in every now and then? 👉🏾👈🏾 No? Ok...🚶🏾‍♀️"

Honestly in terms of coping, I just take on a idgaf attitude and just write what I like and post what I'm proud of. As long as I like what I did, and I had fun writing it, that’s all that really matters. That's why the non smut sea god!yuta piece is so important to me. That was the first time in a long time I wrote something that I was genuinely really proud of, and didn't feel the need to edit it beyond recognition bc I kept nitpicking it. It didn't matter if it got a lot of notes or if it flopped (frankly I knew it would flop bc there wasn't any smut) bc I was really proud of it. I was stuck on it for a while, so by the time I was done I had cried multiple times bc I couldn't believe that I managed to take this image in my head that was so complicated and specific and actually put it into poetic prose. I'm still genuinely so proud of it and it's making me emotional thinking about the mindstate I was in when I finally got through the block and was able to just paint with words like I used to. And when I was done I was genuinely proud to post it and I hadn't felt that way in quite some time. Brb crying again 😢

Things I'm proud of: How poetic my prose is and how it reads I do live for that. I pay attention to not only the word choice but how the words read when put together, and that really comes through. My imagery and descriptions are unmatched and I'm not even sorry it's just the truth. Like I really just construct and paint the most vivid imagery with my words like wow I'm so powerful. My worldbuilding goes crazy like the way I can make whole entire aus in a day is really crazy like my power honestly. I've gotten really good at writing heartfelt emotion and sentiment of different kinds. As much as people don't pay attention to it, fuck it EYE for one really like it and think I'm good at it. This is something of a given, but I'm also really good at writing smut if I do say so myself. Like the descriptions of the sensations, the pacing, the dynamics and fleshing that out, coming up with interesting scenarios, all of it I've gotten really good at writing 😁

[icarusgf]

<3 🥺🥺🥺🥺

#i say it so so much but i’m really just so proud of zayn like so so proud 😭😭😭😭 #reading that last post i reblogged i’m just..... 🥺🥺🥺 he rly has been thru so much SO much and he wld have every reason to be bitter n angry #and yet he is still so consistently loving and genuine and it’s just... i could never be that good of a person wow #and he’s SO good at what he does like i think he’s just. genuinely an artist in all senses of the word #like his art? his poetry? songwriting? production? it all is so cohesive and everything he does is just so... him #like he is so dedicated 2 truth and u can see it in any art he creates - music or traditional art #it’s just all. him. and it’s so good and i’m so proud and happy 4 him 😭😭😭😭😭 #anyway gn im emotional now 🥺🥺 #jia.txt

[iphisesque]

I don't get internalized homophobia anymore and I'm so proud of myself!!!

#yesterday this girl was like oh so you're gay and i was like yeah and then she was like oh but why do you have a cross #and i was like well im a catholic and she was like but isn't that conflicting? #and like three or so years ago i used to think i was going to burn in hell because i was gay but yesterday i told her #not necessarily! #and genuinely believed it #I'm so proud of myself for not killing myself at age 12 #it really does get better and i wish i could tell past me that #oh wow im going to cry sorry guys im really emotional

[heartachi]

me seeing my friends practice self love, growing and become a healthier version of themselves:

#@ jayce scout deidra and gigi #like wow yall are really out there living yalls best lives #im so proud and hapoy to be a part of this 🤧🤧💗❤️ #happy* #like i feel genuine warmth and love for your growth #anyways im too deep in my emotions so gn #dayla speaks

[01tulips]

P1harmony as your bestfriend (0t6)

Keeho

● your shopping buddy

● i feel like he's interested in fashion bcos of his cool fits

● he's the one you would always ask for fashion advice

● will most likely style you

● you guys would probably be also concert buddies

● go at raves and stuff

● doing diy photoshoots would be one of your fave activities together

● if you're camera shy, he'll try to help you be confident about urself

● hypes you up a lot

● literally your number 1 fan and biggest hypeman

● he's someone who's great to depend on

● especially when youre introverted

● he'll most likely do the talking for you

● but like i said he'll help you how to be confident about yourself

● overall, he's the type to always have your back <3

Theo

● sports bud

● i feel like he's a sporty guy so 🤷‍♀️

● would play with you a lot

● but its physical games like sports and stuff(?)

● the friend who's good at singing

● he'll always showcase his warm and sunny vocals to you

● would really like it if you sing with him too

● if ever, the two of you would become a singing duo

● i feel like theo is pretty popular so you guys as a duo would be really popular

● kind hearted bff

● would always give you support

● he's always here for you :')

Jiung

● adventurous friend

● he's a bike guy

● your fave hangout place would probs be a park

● he'll teach you how to ride a bike if ypu don't know how

● very patient with you 🥺

● would go to any destination with you if u asked

● of course you guys would use his bike

● imagine him sitting on the bike in front while you're at the back

● a light breeze come to you guys

● would bicker with you(?)

● "y/n your hair is too long, its going to my mouth! i almost can taste it"

● very wholesome bestfriend

● would always uplift you

● gives advices

● he'll always make sure that you feel loved <3

Intak

● soft boy bestfriend

● would play with you as well

● also kinda typical boy bff

● likes to game and such

● likes to tease you

● probably annoys you by complimenting his self so much

● "wow im so handsome"

● "you've said that a lot of times already"

● "ik i just want to say it again" 😭

● kinda loud too

● but again, he pretty soft with you

● if you cry, he cries

● when you have an achievement, he'll act like a proud mom lol

● "im so so proud at how you've become y/n"

● he's your greatest companion in life :>

Soul

● he's the guy in class that everyone finds weird but you're nice to him so eventually the two of you became bffs

● very fun to be with

● has these random antics that surely make you laugh

● will always cheer you up

● would probably be like your son lmao

● clingy bff 🥺

● you're his first choice

● would always pick you as his partner in activities

● plays games with you

● when you're sad, he'll always offer a hug :')

● he's the bestfriend who would do anything to make you happy ^^

Jongseob

● omg babie 🥺

● pls don't break his heart

● absolutely the kindest

● would give twice the love he receives back to everyone bcos he's really kind

● would be a soundcloud rapper

● lmao the transition in that

● but he's not like those soundcloud rappers

● he's the genuinely good soundcloud rapper

● bcos he has genuine interest in music

● tho he is a rapper, his songs are heartfelt as if it was an emotional ballad song

● would probably randomly go "hey y/n i have a new project"

● "really? what subject?" y/n i-

● "no its a song"

● "omg really?"

● "yes, can you please listen to it?"

● "ofc bestie!"

● he's a determined person

● always encourages you

● especially when you feel like giving up

● "you can do this y/n! i believe in you :D"

● he's your rock :)

#p1harmony #p1harmony imagines #p1harmony headcanons #keeho imagines #keeho scenarios #p1harmony scenarios #keeho #theo imagines #theo scenarios #jiung #jiung imagines #jiung scenarios #intak #intak imagines #p1h intak #intak scenarios #intak fluff #p1h keeho #p1h jiung #p1h theo #p1h soul #p1h jongseob #p1h soul imagines #p1h soul scenarios #jongseob imagines #jongseob scenarios

[bastardbvby]

George and Sapnap reacting to the animation for Mask will always make me feel a little emotional.

I wonder how much Sapnap reminisced during the music video for Mask? He was pretty much there for the majority of Dream’s life and he knew about his struggles growing up. I wonder how George felt when even though he wasn’t there is now seeing it being retold? He only knows through Dream sharing his memories.

Sapnap and George were silent during the emotional scenes, laughed with glee when they saw they were there, and then afterwards they messed around while making lighthearted jokes. Then Dream joins the call after watching their reaction and just has a fun time with his long time friends where one has been there and the other was told through trust.

The Dream team being long time friends will always have this dynamic unlike any other where they love/understand each other and shared so many memories together. Them working together and supporting each other will never fail to make me happy witnessing a beautiful friendship :)

- Celestial anon

i always think about sapnap and dream literally growing up together despite being a few states apart like they were there for each other through so many major milestones and i can't even imagine how proud sapnap felt to see dream release mask because he was finally able to be open about the struggles he faced/continues to face

one part of that stream that was really poignant was when george went silent and was just like 'wow that ... was sad' and im sure him and dream have discussed their problems with each other before but to see it depicted so clearly in the music video seemed to really strike a chord with george. the reason i love mask so much is because it's so brutally honest and i think sapnap and george were able to see a part of dream that they hadn't seen to before because the music expressed so much more than average words could.

the dream team is a family. they've been a family since sapnap told dream that he'd follow and support him no matter what he did with his career. since dream convinced george to start up his youtube channel again and told him they were going to blow up together. since they all decided to move into a house together. they're such a genuinely wonderful group of friends and i cannot wait to see what they do in the future :]

#you got me all sappy with this one :') #asks #celestial anon my beloved #dream team #sapnap #dreamwastaken #georgenotfound #mcyt