#im going by decades now lmao

[mishapen-dear]

genuine question but is there any fandom where a character is well written by the majority. im thinking about fandom culture and the spread of frustration when people dont write characters well but. honestly in all the fandoms ive been in there's only like, a Select number of authors who i trust to write Well, let alone write Well AND In Character. character analysis and writing and getting inside characters' heads are all separate skills (all of which are trained by roleplaying fyi can CONFIRM playing pretend with your friends is good for you). there's been more than once where I've disagreed with an interpretation that others agreed with, and then I turned out wrong. or i turned out right. like it doesnt matter WHO is right it just matters that differences in character analysis exist, so even if you DO write well AND write in character, your in character is still going to be someone else's out of character

there's this sort of. vibe. that to play in the sandbox you Need to be able to make a castle, and if you can't make a castle then you shouldn't bother, and it completely dismisses the idea that youre in that sandbox to PLAY in the first place. there's this Weight of disappointing someone if you can't build something that they like, but that forgets that you aren't there to build them a castle. like, be KIND. if you disagree with someone then please make an effort to do so kindly. i dont give a shit about fandom discourse but there is a reason kids get removed from sandboxes if they keep throwing sand in people's eyes. but if they don't like your misshapen sand pile, then youre not obligated to change it. even if you yourself end up hating that same sand pile later- youre not building a legacy. youre playing. and sometimes the result of that play is out of character drivel. theres a reason there are so many authors and so few who i like to consistently read and thats because everyone is Fucking Around in their hobby space. hash tag brag or whatever but i can build castles. ive built several that im v proud of. ive also dug holes in the sand for fun and then tripped on them when trying to get up. I often dug a hole and then got up and fucking- whoops, its a castle now, and i didn't realize i'd made something to be proud of until after the fact. the whole time while creating shit i was Convinced it was bullshit that didn't make sense. and then other times i was Convinced it was bullshit and then i was Right and i can look back and go. huh. ew. but it doesn't matter what the end result was, because i had fun playing in the sandbox

this wasn't meant to turn into a ramble but i have Feelings about bad art and art that's badly perceived and how public perception can screw with your head and how making art youre proud of is fucking. it's so difficult!!! it's hard!! it's really fun, which is why i try to make it, but i promise you it is Okay to not tryhard creativity. even if you CAN, it's okay not to do it all the time. or ever, even. fuck around find out have fun etc

#NOT a discourse post i am musing out loud #there's discourse goign around the dash rn or i wouldnt mention it #but the past few weeks ive seen a lot of “DONT fucking mischaracterize my guy my fuckign god” #which is one of the most frustrating pet peeve there is #but i think a lot too about little baby me #fresh on her writing journey #and how discouraged i would be if someone pointed out the mistakes id made #i made a Lot of fuckups #and i also think about this one fic where one of the characters was INCREDIBLY out of character #me today would not be able to stomach reading it #but baby me was so ENCHANTED #and it introduced to me the concept that you dont always know the reason someone does something #and it made me read even more #and because of that i eventually found Expert Skill level fics #which introduced me to MANY little tricks and fidgets ive tried to implement #there were so so many reviews on that fic that called it shit or complained about the bad characterization #but a decade later i still think about it #there were several very corny mine/craft horror fics i read #which back in the day would be called cringe #and those were what inspired me to write my first horror fic and now im Enchanted by the whole genre #theres a lot of stuff i dont like to read but i like that other people are enjoying themselves #i dont know how to be succinct i hope my point is coming across well #this ties into my thing where fiction is for you first others later #here are my credentials: bb/h fan since before the elections (hi i was the guy who noticed his lack of armour post elections) #and a cross-fandom comment trend of people going 'woa i can see this happening in canon' #im not talking out my ass i genuinely think its more important to have fun than to write accurate characterization #which. is a more 'duh' and clarifying thing than everything else ive written #but ah well c'est la vie #also also just realized this could be interpreted like that- NOT an attack on people who complain about mischaracterization either lmao #i do that too w friends. this is to reassure people who put pressure on themselves to create things Well all the time

[skunkes]

hi im gonna sadpost for a bit

#talkys #down here hee hee #anyway #i keep getting really sad about like. I'm Only Getting Older. When Will I Find My Person. #but its not even in a ''older = no one will want me'' way #its more like. i want them Now. we only have so much time on this earnth i want as much time with this person as possible and im missing #out on so much of it #literally that ''i wish id met you sooner'' post. with the carly rae jepsen lyrics and everything. #i dont even Have em yet and i already wish id met em sooner #i dont even have em yet and im already wondering how i ever lived life without em. bc im living out the answer right now #and it is‚ well. very miserably. im doing very miserably without em. #im optimistically jealous of future me #while also hoping this future me is very very very soon into future me #i want to be there Now. time is being wasted right now without you‚ wherever you are #(saying this as if its ever gonna happen again + as if i wont have to go thru heartbreak 50 more times before ever MAYBE finding a good fit #but whatever. im really trying to stay in the deluded ''im excited for it to happen'' boat instead of the Get Real Lmao. If It Had Never #Happened Once It Still Wouldn't've Happened/No One Is Around or In Line to #Date You Soooooo Get Used to Another Few Decades of Nothing and No One boat. wah #anyway. sad !

[todayisafridaynight]

THEY TURNED OUT AMAZING I'M JUST SAD TO HAVE MISSED OUT </3 I knew I'd miss a stream sooner or later but still... owwie... However, that meant I got to be pleasantly surprised (<- understatement) by the pose you chose for Jo CHRIST ☠️ Unbuttoning his shirt does pass for a Slut Moment when it comes to him though I can't lie...

And OBVIOUSLY. AS YOU CAN SEE. I love the Arakawa <33 the red background fucks soooo hard with the blood... definitely my new favorite screenshot as well... SO EXCITED to see Mellow Sawashiro and Sicko Arakawa... they saw us saying he was too wholesome to be menacing and this was their answer... hope you don't mind me using it as my icon btw I know you used to say in your about it was fine to do whatever with credit... but you don't anymore... so I'll get rid of it if you want, sorry for not asking in advance!

Anyway crying at this recreation of The Last Supper I can't claim to know the significance of any of it but Jo and Kiryu (Joryu... if you will...) look so fucking GOOFY not to mention ANY OF THE REST

fomo is real and it's out there.. can't attend EVERY stream- truly is funny that tihis instance i actually got stuff done LMAO oops. BUT there's always next time :) where hopefully ill finish something again <:) OH BUT YEAH LMAO i was going to be boring at first and just do a headshot but i wanted to try and explore the like. .2% more Not Clinically Depressed energy he was givin so... skank behavior 😔

IM GLAD YOU LIKED THE ARAKAWA THO i actually ended up redoing the lineart after stream... i was so particular bout how i wanted it to look and even now im still scratchin my chin on how i coulda done some things BUT IT'S COOL I'MA LEAVE IT. rgg found me talkin shit and wanted to retaliate with murderous arakawa but little did they know thats all i wanted !!!!!!! FOOLS. im so excited... finally got the chance to draw arakawa murderous after a year of wanting to do so..

OH AND OFC id be more than honored to let you use it as a pfp ♪(´▽｀) !! i coulda sworn i DID have that in my bio but i guess i deleted it by accident: time to add it again lol

the last supper recreation's SUUCH a cute pic, and even if kiryu's Presumably tellin sawashiro to cool it, it's nice seein jo in a Vaguely Casual setting for once (❁´◡`❁) he's not healing i think he's getting worse but for now i'll believe he's healing (❁´◡`❁)

#snap chats #i guess it HAS been five years. i cant call this game sawashiro's widow arc since It's Been Five Years #could never say he's over it but he's Probably managing it better. i think. maybe not better but the depressed prison cut's gone anyway.. #i mean the fuckass behavior daigo had was barely a year after y3 alright how bad can sawashiro be after five years #watch lad8 prove me a dumbass LMAO THERE'S. THERE'S DIFFRENCES #~4 years versus ~4 decades.. reactions miiight be a bit different.. but my joke's gone on too long and has become too serious #im gonna go fix my bio now

[daeluin]

😕

#sorry for argentina posting but uhmmmm #and just like that i now make less than 500usd monthly. literally less than 2 dollars an hour. uhmmmmmm #i guess i should be thankful that they haven't cut our job yet?????? #insane that i was alive and conscious to see the dollar-pesos conversion go from 1-1 to fucking 800 in less than two decades. lol. lmao even #and that just yesterday it was 1-360 hahahahahaha gun to head emoji #now excuse im gonna go to peterick land for a while. it's way more fun there #direct all the cute rpf to me before i lose my fucking mind and start bashing heads i swear i dont wanna deal with work tomorrow

[duvgaleni]

bitches will really willingly subject themselves to undergoing another puberty with all the emotional turmoil that entails and then run into a high school ex with whom they have mountains of horrifying unresolved bullshit. what a treat for me what perfect timing what a rush it is to send my idiot hormones into time traveling overdrive

#shes a server in my favorite restaurant and now i can never go back #been a decade since the last time i saw her and i think ill get at least another 2 year's worth of chewing on tonights encounter #i went numb and turned on social autopilot which im pretty sure served me extremely well but oh god am i ever home now lmao #hell world!!!!! hell world!!!!!! you would think shed at least do me the courtesy of her voice not sounding exactly the same #god i feel awful #personal

[lokh]

unfortunately i still write the exact same way i did at approximately age 13

#also holy SHIT TIGER AND BUNNY IS OVER A DECADE OLD... #anyways just reread one and its indistinguishable from stuff id have written now. truly terrible #ok removed the post becos i dont wanna like. fearmonger lmao its fine the site is up #prevailing suggestion is that someone has spoofed ff.net #the site is still up. which means my old stuff is still up unfortunately. #ok wait im exaggerating going back a bit further and going well im glad i dont write like that anymore #what im MOST glad for is that i am not into a//ph anymore lmao. #horrified still that the longest thing ive written was a//ph and its over 40k. i want that back but for a better fandom #my god its run on sentences galore. you can tell this kid read philosophy

[unsettlingcreature]

Slowly reconfiguring my altar space but I'm gently adding Halloween decorations as September passes and October approaches, I'm personally obsessed with the little ghost lights. Anyway I don't have a dedicated sideblog for this stuff anymore so I'm just slapping it on main :)

#witchblr #taking a break was so good for me because now im getting back into the flow of it? im realising how my beliefs and shit have shifted #still going to gently worm my back into witchcraft like. im not gonna do any blots or anything for a good while #and figure out ONCE MORE what actually works with my practice #like do i WANT divination to be part of my craft? or do i just feel like i have to #like when was the last time i touched my tarot or my runes or my oracle deck or my pendulum? even before my break? #and when it comes to deitywork. is that something i can commit to? has my time with Loki come to a close? lots of questions to ask. #and also do i really want to keep a grimoire/bos? because im too much of a perfectionist for it #and the stuff i do regularly are in my head. if I'm doing something different then I'm going to use other books as research points #idk theres a lot to think about. maybe I'll just ponder the wizard and stop sweating the details lmao #you'd think i had this shit figured out after over a decade but fuckin nooooppppeeeee #anyway witchcraft is always a journey and there's always more to learn and experience #its easy to say that shit but harder to accept it #ALSO LOKI LIVES IN MY BEDROOM I AINT EVER GONNA HIDE HIM AWAY #i cherish all the time spent with a deity and appreciate them for being there during that part of my life #just like with hecate before its ok if my time with loki is over. it is what it is. its not sad its something to look fondly on

[zeawesomebirdie]

Oh no oh no oh no, I'm supposed to be fixating on sewing right now, why am I fixating on ballet-

#fun fact about me: i did ballet as a kid #from like 7yo to 13yo #i was pretty good actually #i wanted to be a professional ballerina #um #i stopped because i quote on quote didnt want to go anymore #and i just realised #(as in. an hour or two ago) #that the reason i stopped wanting to go #is that i went through puberty and couldn't stand the way my body looked in a leotard #i #ive been trying to formulate the words for why i gave up ballet for over a decade #and now im disabled and probably will never have the opportunity to dance ever again but like #fucking hell #all this is to say: im glad i have therapy in 20 minutes lmao

[solasan]

hey guys wouldnt it be SO funny if it turned out i had EDS this whole time 🤔

#idk just been Thinking. i dislocate my left hip on a fortnightly basis. dislocated my jaw a few months ago #and i dislocated my shoulder a few years ago just by Putting On A Hoodie Weirdly so like. i wouldnt be surprised? #it took almost a decade for my scoliosis to be diagnosed bc everyone thought i was being dramatic so like...... it isnt like there's no #history of me being ignored by my doctors lmao #it would be funny for that reason 2 be clear. if im diagnosed w it im going to turn up at the house of every gp ive ever had #with a screenshot of my diagnosis and a flaming bag of shit to leave on their doorstep #anyway........ im going 2 delete this probs ive just been trying to work out Whats Wrong With Me and a few people have brought up eds now #mollie shut up

[reikunrei]

half asleep wondering how many mutuals i have..... who are still active... when did u start following me... why are you following me....... are you still following me even if our interests have diverted.... i am Curiouse

#like actually i'd love to hear when and why #i sometimes still see ppl who ive been following for the decade ive had this account #but i can no longer remember when or why we followed each other #it's always the kind of thing where im like. i follow someone #and then they follow me back and i go wh. why did u do that #like what about me made me an enticing follow LMAO this blog is a mess #for realisies tho i wanna know... if we're mutuals.... reply to this or send me an ask... #u can even send it on anon if you want and i can just be Mysteriously Curious about who u are #id even be curious if wwe're not mutuals #i say things #now i go sleepies zzznnnnnnnss

[famewolf]

last day working full time for the foreseeable future, here we come!

#[static] #there may be weeks where I pick up a shift and there's a big chance i will have to go back to working full time #but ive damaged my body so bad forcing myself to push past my chronic pain condition just to make ends meet #but for now im looking forward to splitting up the work week and not just running my bones into the ground #and it'll give me a chance to look for different work instead of just crashing and sleeping and not being able to walk or function- #-on the days off I do get #plus now that i wont be covered by insurance at this company there's no way in hell i can work full time and not have health insurance ?? #ive worked full time for over a decade and it has Literally destroyed my body and created bigger problems for my health #meanwhile i barely make over 30k LMAO so what's the fucking point you know? that's chump change where i live #most ppl make 80k where i live since it's tech #but because i work retail im deemed to not make enough to live despite working 45 hours a week lmao

[ikyw-t]

hm realizing that this year marks a decade of me writing my own songs and how im actually for real for real going to finally post some music online this year... which is mostly very exciting bc i have nothing to lose.

but then also i can't help but think of two separate occasions when i was 14 or 15 and went to an open mic night with my twin sister and one of her friends and when she found out i had signed up to sing + play a couple of songs she literally left the coffee shop and walked all the way down the block rather than have to endure 10 minutes of my singing which.... feels almost comically overdramatic and atrocious but mostly just still makes me feel pretty shite lmao .... esp when i remember how when i had first started writing i would try to show her all of my writing which believe it or not she was also never once supportive about... lol anyway. just twin things ig!

#lol the real point of this post is that it's only taken me a decade to finally post some acoustic songs on the internet! #and she's probably why #she hasnt lived here since march and honestly it's much better this way #2022 was my villan era apparently bc i realized that she's actually always been just as mean and unsupportive of me all our lives #and starting in high school would tell me for like 8 years straight that she doesnt respect me at all and yet #would still constantly ask me for favors. which i did. bc im a kindhearted person and i have a small family #and i genuinely thought she would come around if i just kept being nice.. but she just never has lol #but anywayyyyyyyyy #sorry i dont think about her much nowadays and when i do it just makes me very upset #lol... probably cause it took me like 8 years to realize that shes just always gonna be like this #no matter how many favors i do her or how nice i am or how often i show interest in any of her hobbies when she has never done the same #lol ok ok rant over lol #i grilled salmon burgers so im gonna go have dinner now 😌 love and peace lmao

[albatris]

oough.... metaphors.....

#thinkin bout The Garble #thinkin bout vampirism #thinkin bout the things i wrote into rental car without intentionally writing them #ooooo. themes and symbolisms and such #anyone want a funky ramble soon maybe......? #specifically what sent me down this train of thought tonight was like #''rental car vamps aren't immortal'' as a concept #as compared to the ethels and the garble who..... more or less are #cuz i never put much thought initially into that decision then later was like #wait is it stupid to have vampires without immortality being a core part of their worldbuilding or whatever #n whatever i can do what i want #BUT it does actually work out well for me in terms of symbolsmsm #and the metaphors and such i guess #like it fits with the themes is what im saying #especially when u consider the Other prominent types of vampire in this story like the ethels #but anyway. bleah. going to sleebp now #rental car vamps live a little longer than regular humans if they get a good grade in vampirism. something that is both #normal to want and possible to achieve #but. eh. when i say a little longer i mean like. a couple decades longer tops #not like. centuries lmao #but also getting a good grade in vampirism is #not particularly a thing a lot of people are all that jazzed about tbh #n the garble does play favourites when it comes to handing out life force #the garble: ''i love all my children equally'' #(earlier) ''i dont care for alexis'' #its fine alex doesnt care much for you either #AND alex is gonna outlive you. bitch #anyway this tag rant made no sense I'm half asleep lol #point was #oough metaphors. anyone in the mood for a ramble post soon lol

[toastsnaffler]

new boots get delivered today :-)

#albeit not to my actual address bc im at work so I'll have to go pick them up from the drop-off point on saturday. but still :-) #i love my docs but ive had them like. almost an entire decade and theyre literally falling apart the cracks in the leather are so far #beyond saving 💀 even tho i did take good care of them.. dms just dont make them the same anymore #i shouldnt even rly be wearing them at work bc im a lab tech so no open toed shoes allowed and one of the holes is big enough to- #count as open toed lmao. but i dont own any other shoes beyond my running trainers so ive been wearing them anyway #BUT i got paid last week so this is my big purchase for the month hehe.. trying solovairs instead this time 👀 #i rly want a pair of steel toe ones but im just getting one of their regular models for now... if they work for me in 6 months tho #ill get a 2nd pair and theyll be steel toed. just so i can rest the leather by alternating so theyll last way longer #bc ik u shouldnt rly wear the same pair of leather shoes on so many consecutive days but theyre all i haaave.. #god i fucking love a good Boot. ALSO crazy but theyll actually fit me this time bc my docs have always been a size too big #bc i got them discounted. which is FINE bc theyre so worn in i barely notice but its probably partly why theyre falling apart #bc the extra space in the toe box makes them crease heavier. #anyway i forgot i was typing this post bc i realised someone stole the food lab balance and had to get it back. assholes #alright i gotta get back to work.... see yall #.diaries

[cinnabeat]

anyways the other day when i went out with my friend and stayed out far later than i usually do i came to the realization that i dont actually have a curfew anymore and its mind boggling

#i technically didnt have a curfew before either but my parents always said to be home by 1 am or dont come home at all #not in a 'we're locking you out' kind of way but in a 'if you come home and make boise while everyone is asleep there WILL be consequences #and like i can respect that since my prents room is right next to the front door #and in the end i would always be home around 10 bc MY friends had curfews #and like man i came home the other day and it was almost 12 #ive never done that before #i was like taking out my keys to go in and it hit me that like i just? sont have a curfew? #i can go home whenever?? #either my brothers awake gaming or hes at work so it litwrally doesnt matter??? #it was bizzare like im just allowed to do that now? and no one can stop me??? #like idk lately i havent really been feeling my age #i kind of still feel nineteen you know? #not even 18 bc 2020 was not a real year lmao i think my brain skipped that year entirely #like man in almost 22 #thata wild #i never imagined mysef getting to this age not in a bad way but like #idk ive never known anybody in their 20s you know????? #people were either my age or still in school like k-12 or they were 30 and above #like i dont know what to expect for this decade of my life? which no one knows what to wxpect and we're all at different paces but like? #its like my whole life has been step1. be a child step 2. be a child in school step3. Prepare For College #step4. college :D you have made your parents proud step5.????????????? #step 6. congratulations you are now an adult 🥳🥳 #like does this make sense #ive never really considered my life beyond school bc my entire life HAS BEEN school so jn this nebulous area of my life where im in school b #but also like 80% of the way to independence and im about to graduate and no longer be in school #and get a career and make money and get groceries and pay bills and like idk exist as an independent member of society #idk man its a lot! it is 9 pm i should stop thinking so much actually #michi tag

[jettaiah]

i choose to not believe you about the hamsters because you're homophobic so you're probably stupid about everything else too

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#what!! #oh is it because im normal and think bi and pan lesbians arent real? go outside. #also i. have owned hamsters for half a decade now. lmao?