#im going to miss my train

[inkskinned]

love when men cry about body hair bc "it's hygiene" and yet 15% of cis men leave the bathroom without washing their hands at all and an additional 35% only just wet their hands without using soap. that is nearly half of all men. that means statistically you have probably shaken hands with or been in direct contact with one of these people.

love when men say that women "only want money" when it turns out that even in equal-earning homes, women are actually adding caregiver burdens and housework from previous years, whereas men have been expanding leisure time and hobbies. in equal-earning households, men spend an average of 3.5 hours extra in leisure time per week, which is 182 hours per year - a little over a week of paid vacation time that the other partner does not receive. kinda sounds like he wants her money.

love that men have decided women are frail and weak and annoying when we scream in surprise but it turns out it's actually women who are more reliable in an emergency because men need to be convinced to actually take action and respond to the threat. like, actually, for-real: men experience such a strong sense of pride about their pre-supposed abilities that it gets them and their families killed. they are so used to dismissing women that it literally kills them.

love it. told my father this and he said there's lies, damned lies, and statistics. a year ago i tried to get him to evacuate the house during a flash flood. he ignored me and got injured. he has told me, laughing, that he never washes his hands. he has said in the last week that women are just happier when we're cooking or cleaning.

maybe i'm overly nostalgic. but it didn't used to feel so fucking bleak. it used to feel like at least a little shameful to consider women to be sheep. it just feels like the earth is round and we are still having conversations about it being flat - except these conversations are about the most obvious forms of patriarchy. like, we know about this stuff. we've known since well before the 50's.

recently andrew tate tried to justify cheating on his partner as being the "male prerogative." i don't know what the prerogative for the rest of us would be. just sitting at home, watching the slow erosion of our humanity.

#writeblr #warm up #ps edited so it is more clear where “half” of men is coming from: #15% literally don't even touch water #an ADDITIONAL 35% ''wash'' by just running their hands under water WITHOUT SOAP #15+35 =50% #like that is not washing ur hands. go back and use soap #btw the numbers for women are 4% never washing and 15% ''just water'' #which is still gross but like. sooo much better yikes #ps i know we're all gay on this site but watching ppl ''correct'' my math on this has been wild #i have a learning disability im genuinely bad at math so i check EVERY time someone corrects me #but no they're just confidently wrong..... #182 hours is a week babes. 182/24 (number of hours in a day) is ~7.6 #that's where i got that number from. also from rent we know there's 168 hours in a week. #ALSO btw if u read this and ur response is ''men are also struggling rn tho'' like babe you missed the point of it tho #this doesn't even make fun of men it's legit just pointing out that bigotry against women isn't founded #in anything men actually CARE about . like they don't actually CARE about ''being clean'' when they make fun of armpit hair #or they would be WASHING THEIR HANDS. #men pretend to be rollin' in cash and Apex Predators and instead they are trained to be lazy and unwilling to act in emergencies #i have never and will never make fun of men for asking for more support on important topics like DV and mental health. #this is so clearly not about men; it's about how common just being plainly misogynistic has become. #like they don't try to hide it anymore.

[astragatwo]

This is the delusion I'm going to choose to live in for the foreseeable future, I think. (Bonus doodle under the cut)

#my art #project moon #limbus company #library of ruina #does it even count as limbus??? whatever #lor lesti #lor rose #do they have a ship name?? good ol slash will do ig #rose/lesti #listen i know i said i'd be taking a break but i watched the 4.5 event on youtube (bc i refuse to open the game) #and these 2 literal background characters with a Vague resemblance to rose & lesti put my brain in an active state of rot #fuck kjh i hope he steps down as ceo but also i need this out of my system or else i was gonna die #ANYWAYS. girls going on a beach date away from the WARP trains with new hair styles good for them #i miss my wife (trying to remember name) blue gebura #going back to my hiatus/break cave now. but if ur reading all these tags i do have other doodles & requests backlogged/in progress #im just.... waiting for pm to stop being silent and say something #fanart

[eatmy-customjorts]

theyre the reason i joined the art club

#tbhk #shijima mei #mei shijima #toilet bound hanako kun #the second pic is based off a pic i took with a hanako cosplayer at anime impulse #because they had a kids training toilet #and i was there as shijima #that was so fun #bring me back to impulse i miss it #gonna go to impulse in LA though!! #guys you should all go to anime impulse los angeles 2023 #i mean 2024 #what year even is it #im on my break at work #jshk #art

[mejomonster]

I got potential news (not happy, but I mean not sad). Latest justice in the dark (rumor) updates: was taken down due to legal issues (likely copyright) and they do plan to re air from the beginning at a later date once issue is taken care of and cdrama airing timing is right. Rumor is actors were requested to rake down their farewell letters. Meaning... the show is back in hiatus. Like the past several months. Except now the 8 episodes can only be watched on unofficial sites in the meantime.

Schrodingers cat isn't probably the right comparison but like. It's the potentially perpetual unknown status show. ToT

Anyway I saw 2 posts on weibo which were rumor only, mentioning airing later, and one post on weibo mentioning the reason for taking the show off was copyright issues.

On mydramalist comments someone mentioned a Twitter thread on why it was taken down, but I can't see shit on Twitter right now so im just going by what the comment said. The Twitter thing they quoted: Cao5903 (@cao5903) Staff Youku said: "Due to some unexpected reasons that could not be controlled in time, we had to take down #JusticeInTheDark to handle it. Wait for it to be okay and then replay it from the beginning."

#rant #justice in the dark #modu #so 1 i am literally going to WILL this show to finish airing or fucking leak full drop like joy of life did #i mean it i will make the universe. im like #im over the WALL my favorite priest novel got ALL this quality only to be unseen. FUCK #2 i maintain (very illogically and based in absolutely nothing) that the shows i want to air #will air when i heal. so by that metric? jitd will air possibly within a few months #since i can eat bread again and am starting to sprint again #assuming i get a solid month of better health the outlook is good (i sound so random lmao) #and hyx will likely air september to january (if ever) if im Optimistic that i can start lowering my medicines this fall #and an aside i Wish someone fucking leaked hyx just dropped the whole thing joy of life style #the script already got leaked for fucks sake #(i have a copy if u want to read it i guess?) #but like the studio made hyx to be the Biggest danmei of all time and then missed the #hype train ans word of honor took the crown #and now who knows if hyx will ever be SEEN

[headless-horsepossum]

you've heard of hot hands/cold hands and gives pickles/takes pickles. well this weekend i discovered a third form of Friendship Symbiosis: wants dog attention/Does Not Want Dog Attention. brought to you by me and my friend couch surfing together and him being grateful to me for keeping the (biggish) dog off of his air mattress and me being grateful to him for Letting Me Have Dog Friend On Couch With Me All Night :D

...it should be noted that this does not work with cats bc given the choice between someone who wants their attention and someone who doesn't cats will pick the one who doesn't want them every time. cats have eight senses and one of them is 'who least wants me on their lap rn'

#about the possum #Friendship Equilibrium #i am not a big dog person but pete the pitbull is. perhaps the perfect dog #very sweet. unusually courteous couch-sharer i would say. softer than other pitties ive petted?? #and also the absolute PRETTIEST coat pattern i have ever seen in my whole life. unreal creature. im obsessed with him #we were in nyc for mocca fest and stayed with one of his friends. it was amazing but also its TRAGIC bc that means pete is SO FAR FROM ME 😭 #chillest prettiest dog. 3 to 4 hours of inconsistently-accessible trains between him and me at all times. im in hell #THAT SAID they have monthly life drawing classes at pete's apartment and i am going to try so hard to go #40% bc i love and miss life drawing and 60% bc Pete

[wanderingwriter87]

having an absolutely horrid time but the good news is i have a job where i can call in sick and it doesn't matter at all. peace and love on planet earth

#im still training so im truly not doing anything #but classroom training is over so i won't have to make up anything #ideal time to have a mental breakdown #i have already gone in several days when i should not have bc i didn't want to miss any of the classroom topics #but i need this #i am ACTUALLY going to lose my mind if i don't start taking time to recover #this is how i can still win* #*avoid going into inpatient

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Phullo it is I again!

I am very glad that you actually responded and given me an actual advice since I was worried about the question I sent you.

Though besides that I have another question for you (hoorayyy)!

So, about the reading books earlier- I’m fortunately a bookworm too! It’s just that I notice I prefer reading the genre science fiction/psychological horror more than… anything else!

And while the books I am currently reading, ‘Flowers For Algernon’ and ‘I’m Thinking Of Ending Things’ (these books are seriously so wonderfully made they make want to tear my walls), DO have romantic aspects of it- it’s not really the main plot of the story..

‘Flowers For Algernon’ has amazing storytelling and is very unique- though I’m not sure if you’ve read it before but, it’s actually just the main character taking notes. Hence why there was a lot misspellings which honestly makes it a great touch if you know the context behind it.

On the other hand, ‘I’m Thinking Of Ending Things’ too shares the same uniqueness as the other, possibly even more unique if I must say so myself. Though I REALLY don’t want to make my story similar to them since I want to make it more heart warming than fucked up..

Which is why I feel like I have the need to borrow or buy at least one romantic book because, I lack of it. I mean I accidentally borrowed it one time but it was kind of disappointing.

I don’t know if its a good idea and if I should do it or not since does it really matter of the genre, or just the writing?

Still, if you have any good books that are in the romance genre. Feel free to recommend some to me!

-lots of love, from another bookworm

welcome back! happy to hear you're a bookworm as well <3 im writing those titles down since i read a criminal lack of sci-fi despite loving it

i actually don't have any straight up romance recs - i don't actively search it out (outside of fanfic), so any romance i read just comes with whatever book i've picked up. just straight up romance bores me, unless its a fic with a pairing i actively like. and even then, i need to take breaks from it unless the romance is interspersed with an actual plot. im not a romantically-geared person! i dont have single Main Plot Is Romance book on my shelves!

but imo its really just the quality of writing that helps. ive never been in a romance, im the child of two different divorces, and yet ive been told that i write romance fairly well. go fuckin figure lmao.

so actually my advice on romance is to just like. wow idk what i do is pick apart the romances i see on tv / in writing. what makes them good together, how do they act around each other, what are their love languages, what's their dynamic, what traditional romance things do they partake in, what dont they partake in, do they have anything nontraditional, do they work and why do / they dont they - does that make their relationship more interesting or is it flat. are they a good match.

you don't have to have every answer, but ive found that at least understanding their characters / dynamics, and having them interact in a way that suits them will help your romance feel natural. dont conform to tropes or tradition, that will just make the relationship flat and unrealistic. and you can always sprinkle in little things that you like / would like, which will help ground the romance and get you into the groove

tldr with romance, i think it's better to observe real life (whether that's paying attention to couples or reading reddit threads) & analyze in-love or in-a-relationship characters instead of just reading romance novels. bc honestly, and from what i can tell, they can tend to be over the top or cookie cutter

just realized you did not explicitly ask for romance advice! Oopsie! i got a little carried away here....

#another thing i like to do is analyze bad fictional relationships / ones i dont like #both bc it gives me a concise argument / explanation if someone gets on me about it #and bc it helps me understand what makes good romances Good #bc bad relationships make me sit there and ask 'well. what went wrong here? why dont they work? why do i hate this? whats Missing?' #and filling in those gaps teaches me what Does work. what will go Right. why i Love it. what Is there. #sometimes the answer is simply bad writing & after taking a deeper look #i can conclude they they Are good for each other - the show/book just shoved them together with no reason other than #'need romance' or 'boy meet girl' or 'love at first sight' #i mean there are some romances that i look at it and im like 'wow! this should not be happening!' #but i Like it because its interesting enough! a good example is aline & the darkling from the grishaverse #such a fucking unhealthy relationship. really well written. fascinating. hot as hell. important for the story/characters. #i wanted to rip them apart but also glue them together to see how horrible the train crash would be!!!! #absolutely unprompted #so i mean... i think i can rec books that Have good romances in them? but thats not the focus by any means #lemme know... i know im less helpful this time around but i hope im helping a little! #feel free to ask as many questions as you like - ill do my best with all of them

[soulmvtes]

the local train stations are undergoing engineering work this week so there are no trains n i'm going to have to get unreliable rail replacement buses ://////

#this is acc so annoying bc it means i have to wake up even earlier n get home even later #the last time this happened it took me two hours to get home bc i ended up getting on a slower bus that made lots of stops rather than a dir #ect one home n they were so disorganised n #like usually idc too much abt train disruption like strike away / do what u need to but this for the whole week makes me wanna kms #im probably going to have to miss my 9ams bc i doubt i'd be able to make them n i'd have to wake up much earlier #diary #tiyas thoughts

[trainingdummyrabbit]

task of Draw failed, i want to play pmd again

#i miss them i miss my Friends my FRIENDS i miss them my friends My friends who i miss i miss them. myfriends. #piktalk #im playing like. a revisited hack of it but also its one of those that makes th game harder #which yeah i can appreciate but also :((( im baby #like i know this game like th back of my hand and can play it like its nothing but . honestly maybe thats just what i want!!!!! #sometimes i like playing hacks for new stuff and edits and such but they always have to go and make it Harder. like... :( why #'all trainers are ev+iv trained plus items' 'ai is smarter and theres a level cap' 'weather changes every floor and the levels are higher' #STOP !!! STOP IT !!!!! im just a little guy :(((((( #atleast dont make it Mandatory; iwanna see new stuff and things without struggling to death along the way. wahh.

[oveliagirlhaditright]

#kh #sora #kairi #sora and kairi #sokai #parallels #kind of #i was thinking of making a post of 'times the kingdom hearts characters don't understand the plot' #like with kairi's 'what does that mean?' here terra's 'im not even sure i understand the problem?' sora's 'what's going on?' in ddd (heck #. roxas' too). and whatever else. and then instead i thought of this #i might still do the other but i'm not complaining about doing this right now since i'm tired. lol #sora sure said something like that line a lot in kh1. lol #but i just wanted to make some kh thing (preferably with my girl) because i miss both #and also because a video i watched yesterday got me on the 'must defend kairi' train again somewhat #kaiora #kingdom hearts

[nukkibunni]

yes hello lord forgive the audio but i love the sketchbook app v much :-Dc also put the not-fucked-up version of this gorgeous song bc my screen recorder ate that shit harder than opps on pavement. if u see this itd be sweet if u pls eat something yummy btw (//・∀・)♪

#nukki.txt #nukki.jpg #art wip #time lapse sort of #id make it a time lapse but its literally only a minute long #sidenote i miss him #anyhoo posting the finished piece to the AR #and this took sO LONGGGG im still not even done w details either bro #a tad bored/anxious but this helps #also this song has me in some weird vice grip. i can go hours or days w/o it but when i do listen #like a fuckin freight train #also tmi maybe but getting premenstrual cramps while mood swings? #not recommended besties #hugz yall! and an apologetic bear hug to my art requests waiting since november..... #theyre still wips but ur grrl is just goin thru it in both a very good way and a lil topsyturvy way #plus my bday is literally. #twelve days. #sobs and dies a lil #anyhooooo~ til next art post HEHAHAh #also i say eat something yummy for my sake bc the store is closed #and i cant get coconut cake #idek if they restocked that beautiful layer sponge #but when they do. nawm #*heavy eating sandvich noises* #Spotify

[glittercleric]

One of the first year apprentices has been trying to get me to play dnd with them for ages now. Mostly we didn't get to make more concrete plans bc one of us was always at front desk or away at school. And now that we've finally managed to exchange Discord info, I'm just sitting here staring at the invite, too shy to join... 🙄 I just really want his partner and friends to like me I guess? And am afraid they might not? Even though you know. He told them about me and it sounds like they'd really like me there. Which is just wild to me. I don't feel like I have much appeal to befriend... but that's just the anxiety I suppose.

I will join the server eventually. After more poking from him, most likely. You always gotta basically force me to have fun.

#layne.txt #this is rambly im just. having a lot of complicated thoughts here #it's like when I missed a chance to connect with a girl from my parallel class I met at a workshop at her uni #who asked me what train I'm taking home bc she lives one town over. and I told her and just. went home alone #and only much later realized that she was probably asking bc she wanted to go together #or when a classmate I admire said her town is quite lovely and I should visit sometime and I didn't get that she wanted to hang out #I'm too traumatized and autistic for this 😭

[pepprs]

i will shut up abt this i promise but like. the concept of being in a stable safe mutually loving whatever relationship is INSANE . like how can you ever feel bad about yourself or wounded or whatever again. it’s like a superpower or somethi ng. <- doesn’t know what she’s taking abt bc she’s never experienced it or the absence of it after having it merely the negative space of it and is filling in the gaps w logic or something. but it’s INSANE to me. like of course i feel like shit about myself i am catcrumb unloved.jpg!

#purrs #imbeing insane about it i know it’s not that simple / reductive and i will still feel like shit abt myself once im in a relationshp (if i #get to be ♥️) and there are lots of other legitimate reasons to feel shit agtbyiurself. but it’s like no ficking wonder i feel inadequate i #am a 24 year old who lives at home and has never held a hand or whatever next to two 50sometjinf year old married men with pets and phds. of #course i am going to feel inadequate and stupid and lonely. like i canttttt 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 and th w worst part is you can’t just go out into #the world saying that and looking for that it has to find you so i will not join any dating apps or whatever but i don’t fucking go anywhere #so im not going to meet anyone and i knowi am so young and stupid and just having a horrible day that is reminding me of horrors. but the #way i am mentally shoving my whole fist in my mouth. OF COURSE I FEEL LIKE SHIT I DONT HAVE A LIFE PARTNER!!!!!!!!!!!! I DONT HAVE THAT #SAFETY AND STABILITY AND TRUST AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!!!!!!! AND I NEVER HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #delete later #like this is what makes me crazy abt parents and kids too and whyi don’t think ihave kids. bc i think (and i know this is wrong / unhealthy) #it is a primal human need to be mutually someone else’s number 1 person and when you have kids it’s like you’re gonna love your partner more #than the kids and then the kids (read: me) watch that and get fucked up over it. but also that could just be me reacting to the UNSPEAKABLE #psychological damage of being a twin. which again is ridiculous bc it’s n out like abuse i just had to share something with someone else si #since before i was born and ofc there was more like actually kind of abusive stuff on top of it LOL but that aside. idk what im saying i #just feel so crazy. the amount of composure it takes me every day to not start SCREAMING with frustration and envy when i see ppl being #RIGHTFULLY DESERVEDLY visibly confident and loved. like ok valentines grinch go sit in the drainage pond forever please. but it’s so crazy #like how are you supposed to go through the world unaware of how much love you’re missing out on because you’re young and then you realize I #it and then somehow you miss the train and you are scared you are going to d*e alone ♥️ im normal

[disengaged]

alright anorexia is boring, let’s get yolked

#yeah so i gained 20lbs and started hitting the gym pretty hard two months ago #struggling with weight restoration/relapse urges worse than ever BUT i’m also feeling good about my progress and enjoying myself immensely #honestly didn’t realize how bad i missed lifting #and now that i have time off work i can actually focus on getting my nutrition right (i.e. actually consuming enough protein for once) #pegasus speaks #my face #my ancient ipod camera is shit quality but my abs are starting to show for the first time in like … 1.5 years lol #and im pleased with my anterior/lateral delts! although my pecs need some serious work. wtf #i train chest 2-3x/week and i can still see bones fml #ed ment tw #weight tw #ask to tag #i feel like i’m kind of relearning all my limits. like in terms of physical/mental energy and stuff. idk #doing a lot of research and figuring it out as i go. trying to avoid falling into systemic fatigue etc #as much as i love the gym i do have to compensate in other areas of my life #if i want to push myself this hard then that’s my choice. but like. i need to give up on doing other things. give and take. spoon theory #etc etc etc

[bonesrbleaching]

guys i have the most insane difficult evil decision to make ever. while gay

#lolaa.txt #i either get to go to europe for a few weeks (AMAZING but its with people i dont particularly like all that much) #(and i wont have the time to be a tourist bc im training) #or i get to go to a concert i have tickets for thats one of my dream concerts (but also like. not europe.) #(i miss the chance to leave the country without my parents for nearly a month) #HORRIBLE HOBRRBLE HORRIBLE #THE CONCERT IS SMACK IN THE MIDDLE OF WHEN ID BE IN EUROPE.

[strawberri-syrup]

telling my shift lead i wont be at (optional) training tomorrow and putting my phone on dnd like i sent a risky text

#i have a meeting for a volanteer thing #if i still had work i would have had to get the info through an email instead of going to the meeting #and its my first time working this event so i should go #a very reasonable to miss optional training #thats really only there to get people hours #and im scheduled for sunday #so im still working #yea