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its-simply-just-krys · 1 year

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mom come pick me up im scared, im seeing the shadow people again

#borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #bpd meme #derealization #psychosis #dark humor #im hallucinating again #hallucinations #shadow people #mom come pick me up i'm scared #bpd humour

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thatoneweirdo14 · 7 months

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EHEHEM *backflips* is that a slight hint of a smile i see there, sir?

WWOAHAAOHAOWOJWOJW

#im hallucinating again #just let me believe #i love his smile too much jhshjsjh #link click #link click manhua #lu guang

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marshmallow-fruitpulp · 1 year

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braindamaged007 · 1 year

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I'm losing control, but still, it's all so beautiful.

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just-another-dionysus-devotee · 1 year

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Once again this is sorta unimportant I guess but I have no where else to go for help so

TW - BUGS , HALLUCINATIONS MENTAL ILLNESS ETC

I suffer from quite a few every vivid hallucinations, due to one of my most common ones Being bugs crawling on/under my skin and having sensory issues , Ive developed a sever phobia of bugs. Specifically spiders . Tonight I had a real spider crawl all over my arm and gave me a terrible panic attack (my partner confirmed it was real ) and I'm just very unsettled at the moment . If anyone has any advice to help or a deity who works with or is associated with spiders to pray to to ask them to please leave me alone I'd really appreciate it.

#hellenic devotion #hellenic pagan #apollo worship #dionysus #apollo #aphrodite #helios #ares #dionysus devotee #mentally ill #mental health #im hallucinating again #spider deity #help plz #deity worship #pagan #witchcraft

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taralundrigan · 1 year

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Midsommar Art Poster

#midsommar #movie poster #graphic design #art poster #a24 #a24 horror #ari aster #trippy #hallucinations #im hallucinating again

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dustdrawss · 6 months

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These are older but like... gay people

I had to show off the couples kissing. Cause happiness don't last round here

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mattsmemes · 1 year

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#meme #mattsmemes #memes that make you go hmmm #accurate #personally attacked #well excuse me #mental health #im hallucinating again #therapy

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scarecrowspawn · 1 year

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I see death.

The dead do walk

There are things that my eyes see that are not there.

Among them today are the walking dead but these days who can be sure if those are real or not

I’ve also seen a Squirrel on Fire and a Rabbit in a hat bounding down the street. If I believed in such things I’d say that these are all ill portents. But fortunately I do not believe in such things

#only in gotham #only in gotham rp #my oc character #gotham #gothamite #unreality #im hallucinating again

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idek-anymorezsz · 1 year

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I cant keep doing this. The mood swings. The hallucinations. The insomnia. Life is just too much. The pain just keeps getting worse

#sh #ed but not sheeran #bpd #trauma vent #phsycosis #tw mania #im hallucinating again

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mynameis-a · 11 months

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can i please stop seeing spiders

please

its getting on my nerves

stop this

#for context #i keep seeing very thin/light yet large daddy-longleg-esk spiders crawling quickly on the wall to the right of me #its like a shadow moving out of the corner of your eye #but with spiders #why am i seeing spiders #there are no spiders #update #the minute i saved this to drafts i saw a small one on my thigh #aaaaaaaa #♡⊱a talks #hate this #hallucinations #im hallucinating again #visual hallucinations

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panrayofsarcasm · 1 year

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So I was aiming to sleep normally tonight (It's almost one. I'm lying to myself) and out of nowhere this recorder music starts playing and when I go to my mother's room there is literally nowhere to hide one.

So I'm pretty sure I hallucinated some random music lmao

#hallucinations #im hallucinating again #music #sleep is for the weak #I just spelt weak wrong someone tranq me pls

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my-past-disgusts-me · 1 year

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I have once again been blessed with the secret flavors! Huzzah!

#all I know #is that I do not have a brain tumor #👍#i like this flavor it is yummy #and devoid of previous context :)#in other words #im hallucinating again

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p4ncaikz · 1 year

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funky visions

the hallucinations i used to get as a child came back to haunt me but this time they had some fun while i was silently half panicking half amused frantically texting the group chat im apart of what shit they were up to and it was magical

#dreams #im hallucinating again #what kind of tags are these i still dont understand tumblr yet

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horus-solis · 1 year

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Hallucinogen

CW SELF HARM SUICIDE HALLUCINATIONS AND DELUSION

All in first person because it's just easier for me to write

But this is luca's backstory

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I grew up with my father who also had schizophrenia.

He wasn't a bad father per say but he wasn't always there.

He refused to take his meds and he was always on edge about something. But he did love me.

He actually named me after him so he would call me hombruna growing up.

He was my only parent too. My mother wanted nothing to do with either of us... which... I get. He wasn't exactly a stable person even when he was okay so I understand being afraid of me being like that too...

I grew up in several places.

Mostly new Mexico, Texas, and Oklahoma. I was always in and out of school because he would get so Paranoid about cps and the government that he'd move us to a new city or state at least once a year.

So I never was too social. I sucked at making friends and to be honest the only person I trusted was my dad.

He may have be Paranoid and drunk but I could rely on him to listen when I needed something.

I learned quick he wouldn't help me unless I asked for it, but I also was a pretty timid kid. I knew from the start he wasn't always able to help me. So learned how to fend for myself pretty quick.

But.

If I did approach him and ask for help, which I rarely did. He would be right there and do what he knew how.

Which often was either fight shit head on or... run.

Around 17 I started hallucinating too...

At first I could hide it but eventually I couldn't handle it

I tried to keep as much off his plate but... I broke one night I was so bad I'd cut myself pretty deep and I was scared. I'd never done anything this bad and so I showed my dad.

He was definitely freaked out to say the least. I finally broke it to him I was seeing and hearing things and that's when it hit him the worst

He had a pretty bad delusion that the government was out to get us.

And that they were putting things in his brain.

So when I started showing signs he thought they were doing the same to me...

He packed our bags pulled me out of school and we fled to Canada. Or at least we tried.

We drove and made it to Washington. We were so close but he'd just gotten worse.

I was just 18 at this point so I had no idea what to do. And with my own psychosis kicking off we just fed off eachother...

I had enough one night and I ran away. I would always go on longer walks while I was growing up so he didn't worry until about two days in... that's when he called me over and over.

My head was just so heavy I couldn't answer.

I got voicemail after voicemail

A few asking me to come home and that he was living for me....

I still haven't listened to them all.

Especially the last one he sent...

I just shut down.

He died that night and I blame myself for it.

After that I finally got help.

His funeral was covered by the homeless community I stayed with for a while.

As long as I stayed on my meds and got my ged they'd help.

And I did it. But I didn't stay that way.

I wasn't perfect.

I was so numb for most of it.

At first I thought it was because of his death but it just got worse.

My mind wouldn't work. So I finally figured it was my meds.

I stopped taking them. Stopped getting help from the homeless community. Started living on the streets

My hallucinations started again. And I lived like that around Washington for two years.

In and out of episodes, in and of jail for starting fights.

And almost went back when I had an episode in a park.

Thought the cops were gonna take me again.

And that's when I met gonda and taiyoshi.

They saved my ass... and that's where you meet me in the comic

#artists on tumblr #art #digital art #krita #dark art #personal art #oc art #devilmaycare #luca #schizophrenia #schizoaffective #im hallucinating again #short story

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soggynoodlebrownies · 5 months

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digital footprint?

helliur world :3 welcome to snb

#actually hallucinating #am i hallucinating #i thought i was hallucinating #im hallucinating again

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