#im have legitimate shivers and shudders but that may just be the coffee but its also the fatc that i still have exams

[youaremysunshine-court]

My motto right now: do your best and Cambridge will do the rest

#assessments #blue's blues #cambridge has taken the place of god in my life #im freaking out so hard rn so just gonna rewatch the sab traailer #im have legitimate shivers and shudders but that may just be the coffee but its also the fatc that i still have exams #even though Cambridge cancelled them #and i still have to do exams #except they call them assessments #but like i will fail either way no matter what theyre called #so does it really matter #because i have so much to revise and start next week #and oh god oh gods ive barely finished my maths syllabus because i decided to take more subjects than i had to #amd im studying on my own #and life is hard #and ooh the jitters have moved to my legs and nothing is going well and oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck #i cant remember the formula for 2 4 dnph or tollens and fehlings solutions and my chem teacher just said he needed us to score at least an a #and i dont want to disappoint my teachers theyre all so lovable and i cant bear to let them down and shit im going to arent i #well cant be helped i suppose #ill just fucking pray to cambridge that the grade boundaries will magically lower themselves #and cambridge will ignore me like they did to my gsce rs exam #and then i can cry about it knowing it was my fault for watching anime throughout bio class #and i can also cry about the fact that well shit people are still going around without masks when i have to do my FUCKING BOARDS in a week #because humans are fucking insensitive idiots #well anyway that didnt help #ranting about only makes it worse good to know #maybe ill go write an essay or something