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dulcewrites · 9 months

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Hellooo

One question, you had written a cannibalism fanfic right? I just can't find it anymore. If you did write it, will you do a second part?

I loved the fic, and I have not found another like it <3

(Sorry if it's written in a bad way, I'm using a translator)

Hi, your English is fine. I did delete it off ao3. I also deleted my other Aegon fic off there months ago too. Something about seeing them on there made me sad about how bad I am at keeping up with my Aegon centric stuff ☹️. I was tempted to delete them off every platform. I planned on doing a part two of acquired taste, but I put a lot of my focus on fcc, as well as another fic I started. As previous stated, idk why it is so hard for me to continue by Aegon stuff.

I still hope to pick up acquired taste and osftsb again one day

But both are still here on tumblr. Acquired taste is right here and one step foward, two steps back can be found on here too.

#I’ve been feeling… off in general - I’ve been writing fcc pretty consistently since March #and part 10 has been coming slower (though I hope to have it come out this week)#then something happened and it really upset me and the inch to delete my work got to me #I go through these phases where I hate my writing #it’s extra bad with some of my other work #with Aemond I feel like I have pretty decent handle on his character #sometimes it is hard for me with say Aegon and Helaena #when im in these phases I’m so tempted to delete my whole account lmaooo #but talking to y’all helps 🫶🏽#asks and requests #I have these ideas that never follow through and these very frustrating as a writer #and then I got this…. it’s whatever but I’ve been in a funk for a minute but especially since this weekend #aka when I deleted acquired taste

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megumimania · 7 months

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Hey!! I love ur jjk writing and I was wondering if I could ask for Geto! Some fluff with his s/o and instead of nobody noticing his struggle, his s/o does and helps him though his hard time and then we never get a KFC heartbreak 😀 anyways thanks sm for all ur works they are great!

tysm anon and i love this idea sm!! hope i did it justice!! 🩷

warnings: angst to fluff, geto is my roman empire, geto deserves the world sorry!

there’s something off with your boyfriend and it’s bothering you.

over the past few weeks, your usually loving and caring boyfriend has become more distant and subdued. he’s still affectionate but you can tell it lacks the same loving sentiment that it once had. it’s like hes doing it out of obligation, not love. you’ve asked shoko and gojo but it seems like they haven’t noticed anything either, which makes you feel like you’re overthinking this, but there’s something that keeps telling you that whatever geto is going through is much more worse than being in a bad funk.

he barely talks to you anymore, often replying in grunts or little notes he sticks around the place, he barely eats and the signs of it are evident, his uniform being less flattering and his face becoming more gaunt. when you try to raise your concerns, he dismisses them instantly, often saying something along the lines of ‘im fine’ and ‘I’m not even that hungry anyways’ whilst kissing your cheeks as if that is supposed to calm down your anxieties about him. you’re currently losing the man you love right now, watching him waste away in front of you, while the world looks on.

you currently feel like you live in two separate worlds from each other, despite you both being in each other’s spaces all the time. it’s driving you insane how estranged you’ve become these past weeks, it’s like you’re living with a stranger. until one night you finally decide to bite the bullet.

“suguru, we need to talk.” you pat the space next to you, inviting him to join you on the couch. he does so reluctantly, taking a deep breath as he does so. “yes my love?” he says, playing with a loose string of clothing on your shirt.

“are you okay?” you finally ask. he stills for a moment and you’re hoping that he doesn’t take it the wrong way and shut you out of his life. geto’s shoulders finally relax as a strangled sob escapes his lips, “i watched her die right in front of me, y/n.” he puts his head in his hands as he tries to collect himself. “every time i close my eyes i see that moment—it was my job to protect her and i failed, y/n!”

“it’s never was and it will never be your fault, you’re just a kid.” you pull him into a hug, gently stroking his hair. geto crumbles under your touch and for the first time in weeks, all the dark thoughts racing through his head come to a standstill. it seems that the grief and anguish that came with losing riko renders him speechless, as he cries in your arms for what seems like hours. “you did what you could and that is enough.” you gently reassure him.

eventually he pulls away, eyes puffy and bloodshot from crying. “‘m sorry.” he murmurs, wiping his tears away. “i didn’t mean to mess up your shirt.” you take his hands into yours, looking into his eyes. “thats the least of my worries right now, i worry about you suguru, you don’t sleep or eat and it terrifies me that one day i’ll wake up and you’ll be—” ,you blink rapidly trying to stop your tears from falling, “gone.”

suguru’s heart lurches at the thought of that, of him being gone and you being left to pick up the pieces all on your own. so he wills himself to try—for his sake and your own, and so he does because he stupidly realises that is what love is about, the constant support and love that you’ll always have for one another which never wavers, no matter how many times be tried to keep you at arms length in order to protect you.

so he lets you wash his hair, his hair tangled and matted from weeks of not washing it, he lets you feed him, despite his protests. the intimacy of it all makes him realise how lucky he is to have someone like you in his life, that makes the unbearable days much more bearable.

and for first time in weeks, suguru geto goes to bed as a somewhat happy man.

#anon i hope i did this justice #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #geto suguru x reader #geto x reader #geto x you #geto x yn #geto suguru #geto fluff #all he needed was love yall!#jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk x reader #jjk imagines #vina writes #vina writes: jjk #getou suguru #geto is my roman empire #songs for vi!

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the-s1lly-corner · 6 months

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Jax x reader thats like the mayor from the nightmare before christmas?

What i mean is the reader has a normal face on the front of her head, and a sad clown like face on the back.

Reader is normally happy, but when something bad happens their head does a 180 and they're all worried and paranoid

Jax x two face!reader !

gosh no because that one ena ask gave me a very similar idea for this and now i got an oc idea so uh!!! idk, maybe ill draw something for that idea, maybe not. likely not, ive been in a weird art funk the past few days enjoy!

imma say this right now before i forget but i feel like jax would try to spin your head around to look at both sides. please get this man a fidget toy im literally begging you, anytime i mention a reader that has a part of them/piece of clothing that can be somehow turned into a fidget thing i throw my jax hc at it

got thrown off the first time you switches faces, assuming the face isnt visible from the back; but if it is he has probably talked to the wrong face at least once

but thats just a general hc for everyone, i dont think just jax would slip up like that^^

tries to at least be a little nice to you when your sad face rears its head in, usually though hes bad at comforting so he probably tries to deal with whatever is causing the issue instead. i believe in jax being a not very good comforter; this man does not know what to say and probably very awkwardly pats your shoulder. youre gonna have to let him know what you need from him if either of you expect the relationship to work

sure, your normal face is capable of showing most... neutral and positive expressions, but something about seeing a smile on you hits something in him, especially after a period of you being stuck with the sadder counterpart

he has to fight himself from saying something that could be taken as mean when he expresses that hes glad youre feeling better

#tadc x reader #the amazing digital circus x reader #digital circus x reader #jax x reader #jax x you #jax imagine

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demonsteapot · 3 months

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What type of music do you like / have you been jamming to recently? Any recommendations?

(my internet died halfway through this so i nearly had to rewrite it)

you caught me at a bad time i was schmooving to a sewerslvt playlist yesterday ;-;

okay to be serious for a moment. uh. i don't think i have super good or interesting (or normal) tastes in music? i can point you to some of the things i think are cool and good, and i can also point you to things that i listen to for mood.

ive also probably mentioned some of these before (probably all of them?) so sorry if there's repeats

(okay this ended up being longer than expected so cut vv)

good (mostly not depressing stuff?):

Bill Wurtz – weirdly dreamlike jazzy stuff (?) i recommend 'At the Corner Store' and then i recommend you listen to all his other stuff

Ujico*/Snail's House: ive probably ranted about this guy before; 'Cosmo Funk' is probably your entry level snails house song. sweet adorable future bass, my go to for free serotonin

Heaven Pierce Her – Ultrakill: Violence, the game's newest EP. generally melancholic but really sick especially in context. 'War Without Reason' is probably my new favourite track in the whole game? (you can tell i like amen breaks lol)

also ofc i have to mention john / TOOBOE!! shout out to @donutinsideofashark for introducing me to this guy. some recs: 'Tablet', 'Roman', and 'Appare kanpai' – stuff goes hard and makes me wish i knew jp so i could actually remember lyrics

mood (depressing and/or weirder stuff):

vivivivivi's Dead but Dreaming: concept album about a dead god, mostly chiptune instrumental stuff until the second-last track – personally I LOVE this album, but as someone said, it probably sucks unless you have autism (disclaimer: i'm not diagnosed autistic, this is a reference to the pinned comment). this particular album influences a lot of my works to be honest

two more vivivivivi beepbox albums, ones that are a little more lively: Sisyphus and Silly Little Songs from my Silly Little Head. probably not to the tastes of sane and normal people but i like the beeps and boops :)

sewerslvt: breakbeat stuff from a dark place. people seem to not like sewerslvt fans which is why i'm reluctant to talk about this one but whatever. idk what you'd call their genre (i've heard it described as ambient jungle, trance, something or other dnb, but most importantly NOT breakcore. call sewerslvt breakcore and you are signing up for a hell of a flamewar) listen if you like amen breaks and hate yourself (i hope not…) idk what to even recommend here… i stumbled across her first with Drowning In The Sewer years ago. i've been getting back into their stuff recently, which is probably not a good sign for my mental health… currently listening to 'was it weird that i listened to im god by clams casino's when i lost my virginity' which is a hell of a title

Heaven Pierce Her again – The Enigma of Heaven and Other Daily Delusions: weird album about religion and the internet. since this is hakita again there are amen breaks. good if ur fuckin WEIRD. i recommend most of HPH's work

i've also been listening to an ultrakill fan artist called Marzuku, who does – guess what – more amen break stuff. i don't know man, but 'At Ends' is pretty good

shit fuck of course the jvne section ends up being a whole paragraph just to say don't listen to their stuff.

THAT'S IT IT'S TIME TO WRAP THIS UP THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK. damn this got long. this is what happens when you ask me about my interests LMFAO

#not art #bernadette rambles #ask #:333 #also sorry for the ping donut

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creatively-cosmic · 29 days

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Hi Starry, I’m back! :D

I’m glad you like the questions and that they aren’t annoying, because every bit of lore I read is like a taking a shot of dopamine lmao. And that picture of Fire getting a hug 🥹 brightened up my whole day. Trust me when I say that you guys reposting pictures and adding content to older ones isn’t obnoxious in the slightest. The art (at least for me) makes it easier to digest and form connections about the story in my head, plus y’alls art is great—who wouldn’t want to look at it? The lore/art in the last one was particularly interesting. (Like, young Red looks like such an polite, upstanding citizen and then you scroll down two pages and now it’s like “Tf you lookin crazy for”? Was that an implication that Steven had something to do with Red going missing/becoming Glitchy? And Leaf is funking DEAD?-)

Anyways, you know what that means! Question time: Leaf Edition!

The First (and most obvious) question: What happened to Leaf? Why is the homegirl dead? (Why was Leaf being dead, out of all the things I’ve seen so far, the one thing I wasn’t expecting?)

Second: What’s the relationship between Leaf, Fire and Blue? You said that Blue and Fire’s murder-suicide loop was spurred on by her death, so were they friends before she died? Did they see it?

And two smaller questions: How tall are the main four (Red, Blue, Fire, Leaf)? And do they have Pokémon Teams? If so, what are their teams looking like?

That’s all till next time! Have a good day/afternoon/night wherever you are!

TUMBLR FUCKING CRASHED HALFWAY THROUGH ANSWERING THIS ASK IM SO MAD FUCK. FUCKKK

We honestly can't thank you enough for all your questions, compliments, and just overall being a huge sweetheart. We're really happy you've been enjoying these, and whatever dopamine you get from seeing these, we probably get like. TENFOLD, just for seeing someone so interested, and giving us a chance to talk about this wild ride of a story. So really- thank you. This has been a delight!

This one is gonna be REALLY long (I have to rewrite fucking HALF OF IT now DAMMIT), as we want to talk on the stuff you crossed out, too.

(I'll put their heights and teams in a follow-up post btw, so watch for that.)

1. Red.

Young Red is an interesting point in time. See, he and Blue had a LOT in common- a lot more than you might think. Of course, Red was a good kid, genuinely- always so caring for his Pokemon, kind and passionate about them. He was polite to the people around him, and always soft spoken, when or if he spoke at all. The adults around Kanto and his hometown always adored him for how well mannered he seemed- a real role model, and stand up child. Just a bit shy.

In all truth though, Red moreso had a very strong mask. One that he only dropped, allowing himself to relax and act like himself around one person: his best friend, Blue.

Both of those boys were a lot more immature and competitive with each other- the main difference being Blue didn't hide it like Red did. They LOVED competing, always trying to one up each other in everything they did. When they were together, Red wasn't afraid to speak his mind, signing or whispering to his friend with a smug grin on his face. Around his friend, Red could really be himself, and they both loved it. Having so much fun, roughhousing and taking jabs and just being children around each other. A lot of people, when seeing this, would assume Blue- who was always rude and a bit more standoffish- was a bad influence, but really, the two couldn't be happier than they were with each other.

... When you spend God knows how long, trapped in a dimension with no human life, desperate and angry with unholy forces eating away at your mind, will, and sanity. Let's just say masking doesn't end up staying a necessary skill. A good portion of why Red being Like That now is honestly? Just because he just gave up on trying to make himself presentable.

He has bigger problems now than worrying about how people see him, anyways.

2. Steven.

I'll try to keep this short, as the Strangled Red elements of this story could warrant it's own post entirely.

To put it simply: Steven is, in part, directly responsible for Red's fate.

It wasn't HIS decision, mind you. He barely even thinks for himself anymore. But there were things that wanted Red, and Steven is very suggestible when it takes the right approach. So it lays itself out so simply.

Red trusted Steven, after all. Idolized him. Missed him. Would follow him anywhere. What better possible option could there be?

Of course Steven is the one to drown that boy on the coast of Cinnabar.

3. Leaf. (cw for animal death.)

Finally, the star of the show for this ask (as if this isn't long enough already). I can see why the information for her is more supriding as we haven't posted as much for her, which. We do feel bad about- our ability and motivation to make art for her was severely hindered by our struggle (I'm talking MONTHS) to make a design for her that we were happy with. Her story is WELL figured out, though, so we're glos we get to discuss! And now that her design is actually finalized, there should be more visual stuff for her coming.

So what happened?

Well! As is the entire premise of Missing Numbers, each major individual is based off of various Pokepastas. The easiest way to answer that is one of two of Leaf's sources:

Abandoned Loneliness.

But first, we have to go further back.

Fire was not the only Vessel made by the Almighty.

... He was the first, and the favorite. But he wasn't the only one. Leaf was the other.

Once Fire had come to Palette town, the next Game was set to begin any time now. But as the Almighty looked down on the world, He looked back at the others that had been built, and realized that the new Kanto was missing something. An alternative option. Though He was reluctant to change the structure of the world, it was, by all means, an improvement, and something the Players would expect after the past Generations.

She was less meticulously made than her brother. She kept her Heart and Mind about her, as there wasn't time, nor was it safe, to rid her of them like Fire. She would serve well enough as a Vessel regardless- and she did, as when the Game began, Leaf was chosen as the player's Avatar. (Not quite what the Almighty had expected, but the choice had been given for a reason, so it would be foolish to change anything now...)

Blissfully unaware of the nature of her existence, Leaf proceeded to go on a triumphant adventure through Kanto.

This is a good time, before we get back to the tragedy, to answer your second question!

Leaf, Blue, and Fire's dynamic changed throughout their journey through Kanto. At the beginning, let's just say things were... Tense.

Fire acted hollow, in the beginning, as he was meant to. Genuinely, it was fully expected that he'd be chosen as the players Avatar. So without it, he was left... Quiet and cold. It seemed he didn't care for anyone- not Blue, nor his sister.

Blue, meanwhile, was NOT in a good headspace. But at this point, after about two years passed since Red's dissapearance, he'd learned to hide those feelings. The people of Palette town, including his Rivals, knew him as this bitter, irritable person, resentful towards the world for incomprehensible reasons.

Leaf was the only "normal" one, basically. A cheerful, excited girl, whose heart bled for everyone she cared about and always tried to stand for the right thing. She didn't know where she came from... She had no memories of her life before "Red" and Hazel (Fire's mother) Yuuji found her, seemingly abandoned in the tall grass just outside of Palette Town, under the falling autumn leaves. Taken in as a part of their family, she grew attracted quickly, her loyalty and love and impulsive need to protect coming to be what she was known for.

With all this given, when the journey started. Leaf HATED Blue- he seemed to despise and bully her brother more than anyone. Blue didn't like Leaf much either, but wasn't as harsh towards her as he was Fire. Fire was as... Neutral as ever. But he silently followed the two once they went out, almost as if he wanted to watch over them. Ensure their safety.

As the journey continued, over time, away from the stuffiness of their hometown, the three started to grow closer. Maybe the fresh air was doing Blue good. Maybe Leaf was learning more about the world. Maybe Fire's deep brown eyes were growing warmer.

Somehow, a death was the tipping point for all of them to finally become friends. It's absurd, how grief was the thing driving them apart, but ultimately went to bring them together.

When Blue's Raticate died, he quickly fell back to his lowest point. Angry and hateful and heartbroken, lashing out, and ultimately running away. ... But it put everything in perspective. Through all her guilt (it was in a fight against her, after all, that the Raticate had been so severely injured), Leaf suddenly understood why Blue had been so horrible before: he was mourning. And he needed someone. It didn't make her forgive him, but it made her extend a hand.

And for once, knelt over the grave of a lost Pokemon, Blue accepted it. From that act of kindness, Blue genuinely began to get along with the others, and slowly, the trio came to be friends- all the way up to and after the Championship, where despite losing again, Blue felt closer to the others than ever.

... It seems in this world, good things don't last.

The events of Abandoned Loneliness happened several months after Leaf became champion. When revisiting Raticate's grave with Blue, Leaf came across a peculiar Pokemon- a horribly sickly little Eevee, too weak to even cry. Leaf had never been the kind to leave a Pokemon in need to fend for itself- kindly, she took the little stray into her care, determined to nurse it back to health.

The properties of Glitched or Corrupted Pokemon aren't something I need to dive into right now this is already ungodly long. What's important is that the Eevee was not a natural Pokemon. It should've been dead.

It always starts with a Pokemon that should've been dead.

Let's just say... Everything unraveled from there. Fully explaining what the events of Abandoned Loneliness translates to in Missing Numbers isn't something I have the energy to write at the moment (this is so long and I've been putting off finishing it cause I'm still mad all my initial writing got deleted >_<).

The important part comes down to Leaf's demise at the hands of this "curse." Bonded to that sickly little Eevee, when the world pushed her to put it out of its misery- voices of the damned screaming, unbearable, suffocating, demanding she DO IT DO IT DO IT, you can't bear to watch it suffer anymore, after all... The destiny bond it held her in dragged her down with it.

Nobody witnessed her death. She was alone and isolated at the foot of a mountain. She thought she could solve everything herself. Thought she could handle it all.

Her body was only found days later, curled up on the ground, rotting blood seeping from her eyes, with the body of the poor little Eevee in her arms. Trapped and suffocated by the hands that killed it. It was far too late. To maje it worse, her friends were the first to know of her death.

Fire was the one who found her body, after all.

Leaf's demise was a SEVERE breaking point, and unlike Fire, she didn't get a chance to be revived by God. Her modern presence in the world was not... Authorized, let's just say. Leaf had to claw and fight to keep hold of herself and climb back to existence in ways unprecedented, and believed to be impossible. But despite being a corrupted entity, her body was stable. And so, rather than Smite her as he would other Glitches, the Almighty decided to make good of an unintended situation: He could make use of her. A man on the inside is a powerful tool, after all.

So long as He kept her anger for her fate targeted towards the "true" threats.

I could keep going but I've babbled on way too much already for this post lol. I'm so sorry about the delay on this one- life REALLY got in the way. And Tumblr's buggy ass mobile app 💀

hopefully i can elaborate more without any crashing in the next round if there is one ashfshf

#i plan to keep doing this according to questions we get so we keep posting like. Jusst based on interest #that being said i would LOVEEE to talk about the biology mechanics and nature of Glitches (bats my eyes)#it'd help put a lot more in context probably #anyways. leaf has issues #genuinely i was planning to recount the full story of how she ended up. like that but #im so tired dude tumblr fucking up really took the energy out of this response after a point #anything else you want me to explain or elaborate on u know you just gotta shoot an ask though okayyyyyy #missing numbers

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blueparadis · 4 months

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hii bby blue howre youuu i saw you watched gyeongseong creature omg what did you think !! of it !! (also a very belated happy new year was in a bad funk but im back and ready to sit in your inbox <33)

hi hi dawnie. omg u have watched it toooo. i really enjoyed it, too much to point so many flaws and enjoying them lawl.

lets start with glorification of the main character(s)

all most the medias suffer from this and they are somehow bearable but here it was as plain as a day that the plot saved Jang Tae Sang multiple times. not only that i disliked the fact how he looked down up his patriotic friend Kwun Jun-taek from the very beginning and whatever he did in the name of patriotism yet at the end we see Kwun Jun Taek acknowledge Jang Tae-sang as a true patriot who actually betrayed his comrades and Jang Tae-sang when subjected to torture ( and he wasn't even tortured that much ) compared to Gap-pyeong and the other torture methods that are shown.

Jang Tae Sang as a true patriot did all those things that Kwun Jun Taek should have done. It was disappointing to see him ask about the dynamite after going through so much just to enter the premises of the hospital.

All though it was very refreshing to see my favorite kind of love ( aka love in the times of war ) blossom but it was rushed. Jang Tae Sang lost his parents and built a found family but when he met Yoon Chae-ok he followed her like a puppy because of her beautiful eyes and the death toll on his head. It was compelling but it would have been astounding to see him go on guilt-trip upon the fact how this girl has been looking for her mother for 10 long years and he gave up way to easily and thus falling for her while exploring his emotions alongside but they were still very cute and soothing to watch compared to some cringe shows.

the start of certain things and then negligence ( aka the use of popular booktok/bookstagram tropes )

I watched the seven episodes with so much curiosity and hoped to see the focus shift from Yoon Chae-ok to her father. after turning into a deadly creature she had only memories of her child which seemed a little off putting given how the father and the child has been looking for her for almost ten years. and in the end, his sacrifice was just for the character development of yoon chae-ok or whatever.

the presence of myeong-ja was just to bring the main characters together and create a cliffhanger. The way that commissioner reacted to the baby news almost made me think he was behind her disappearance and just to get even with Jang Tae-sang he himself hired him for this case but it was the bored, neglected, rich bratty delutional wife.

Let's admit that Lady Maeda was just bored. all ten episodes and for her motive we get, "people betray because they're weak." and she liked the spark Jang Tae-sang had and now she wants to fix him, sounds as mad as creating a creature like that.

Mad scientist was really an interesting character to see and just when he was blooming they cut off the growth from the stem. i wanted to see some more of him.

i loved how this all started with women and ended with them which brings me to my point how they explored and showed all the possibilities of cliffhanger ending. its not the cliffhanger part that bothers me, its the number of cliffs that does.

#i rest my case #love letter 💌#dawnie im running towards your inboxxxx #gyeongseong creature #gyeongseong creature spoilers #i was in a bad place too but I'm doing better !!!

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aritamargarita · 1 year

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GOLDEN || 004

im like way behind on golden…my bad y’all don’t worry im still working on it! attitude was just getting a little TOO spicy—

i find this chapter pretty fun so i hope u guys find it fun too. i may have wrote a lot sorry lol MY BRAIN JUST KEPT GOING ,, ecw brainrot.

i feel like i should make a gif set or something of all the moves used in the future just for reference. deadass be writing them down from 2k22 then looking them up to see it for real lmao

YOU ALWAYS LIKED ECW. It’s your home away from home. A lot of the things you did were pretty unorthodox, but you found it easy to make things fun around the place.

Terry Funk, your mentor, always told you to bring whatever you had to the ring. To do your best and leave with nothing less.

Because you brought your best, the crowds of ECW had thought that you indeed, were the best. Every day you’d come into work, Terry would tell you how you’re always “a rising star”. He gave you more credit than any one else did in your wrestling journey, and you couldn’t help but to thank him enough.

After every practice, he’d harshly pat you on the back. He’d tell you there’s things to be worked on, that there’s always things you needed to be working on.

Despite this, you started thinking you truly were a star, a star in a beautiful galaxy millions of miles away from Earth.

Then, there’s that speck of dust, that insignificant, nearly burnt out star. The one that you’d never know if it was a plane or an actual star…

…..it’s just Tommy Dreamer. You didn’t like Tommy as much. You always thought he was trying to steal your spotlight and gain favor with Terry. He was mentoring him too, which meant the both of you were around each other a lot more. In a way, you two were like brother and sister. Even if you hated being referred to as such.

You absolutely hated how he came in like it was nothing. You came first. You’ve always been first. All of a sudden, he just comes in and tries to take your spot?? Absolutely not.

You knew that Tommy basically had no gimmick, which probably was the gimmick, but you didn’t really care. You found it funny he’s just trying to survive in the cesspool of extreme. He literally only wears a ECW t-shirt and pants. No type of gear, no type of drip!

They called him ‘The Innovator of Violence’. You don’t really see it, but you’ve seen his matches. He’s not terrible, but he couldn’t have been better than you. Sure, he can bleed. So can you!

You’ve bled before! The very first match you’ve had, you emerged victorious with half of your face covered in blood.

Luna Vachon was a rough opponent. She didn’t go easy on you and you were happy she didn’t take the easy route.

She’d toss you around the ring, hit you with kendo sticks and cookie trays, and even try to get you involved with the crowd. You both didn’t really like the crowd sometimes though. ECW fans could easily touch you, so the both of you would retreat right back into the ring.

The crowd immediately shifted gears when you brought out thumbtacks and scattered them across the ring. No one’s ever really seen it before. In fact, you’re the first to do it.

To make things fair, you agreed to land on the thumbtacks. You didn’t really mind, but neither did Luna. She decided to take a bump on them too.

That night, the both of you put on a show that no one would ever forget. The next show that you came out to, standing in the ring to give your final thoughts, you received a standing ovation from the audience, much to your surprise.

Paul Heyman had even shook your hand afterwards, telling you that he was impressed.

You were hopeful to give women’s wrestling a bigger name. Anything they could do, you could do better.

Most of your coworkers praised you after that. They told you how great you looked in the ring and the blood on your face was the cherry on top.

Though your coworkers regarded to you as “shy” and “quiet”, and maybe “too good for hanging out”, you figured they only were saying that because you always declined any after party invites. You’re just not interested.

It’s not that you were too good for it, you’re tired. Just like any other person would be. You’re fine with making friends and maybe going out places with them any other time, but you’re fine with staying in your hotel room for the remainder of the night.

Francine would often tell you what happened after, which makes you either feel left out or glad you didn’t even go.

Well, that’s not very important…

It’s a home show this time and incredibly exciting for you because Terry and Tommy had a match tonight, one that you were involved with. It’s a three-on-two match and if you can recall correctly, it’s against Raven and Cactus Jack..…

You knew of Terry’s issues with Raven, but you also knew of Tommy’s issues with him. The both of them have a lot going on. You’re the only one who doesn’t have any problem with him.

Raven’s strange. He would always stare at you whenever you’re nearby. It kinda made you nervous. The one time you caught him staring, he just smirked and exited out of the ring.

You feel like shit for wanting to know more and you still feel like shit for even engaging with him. It’s just wrong on so many levels. The fact you’re even interested in the enemy makes you want to scream.

You just couldn’t help it! Raven is mysterious.

“Hey. [Name]….”

You’re surprised to hear your name, too busy in your thoughts and adjusting your ring gear. You turn around to see Brian Pillman, holding something in a closed fist.

You should’ve known by his slightly raspy voice that it was him. What’d he want with you this time?

The crazed look in his eyes told you that this was about to be anything but normal. “I just won a fight against a giant pencil. The bookerman told me I did good. Then, I went outside to find this.”

He opens his hand to show you a dead grasshopper. That shit was HUGE.

You’re not entirely sure what to say at first, completely scared shitless at the bug. At this point, you should be used to it. He’s given you many bugs, some alive and some dead.

You’re not exactly ready to question the pencil part. “Thank you.” Even though it’s a strange gesture, you appreciate the thought. “…You sure this isn’t a locust??”

“Nah. Doesn’t taste like a locust.”

How does he know what a locust tastes like….? You don’t really want to question it. Actually, you’re curious to know if he tasted it before he killed it or after he killed it.

He grabs your wrist and you open your hand, letting him press the dead grasshopper into it. You’re not as scared as you thought you’d be, but damn it felt weird in your hand.

“Wow. It’s definitely…..a bug. What’s this about you and a giant pencil, by the way?”

Brian gives you a raspy chuckle. “I’m glad you asked…….”

You almost wish you didn’t ask.

For a moment, he’s serious. He doesn’t have that crazy look in his eye. Brian Pillman actually looks normal. “There’s a meaning behind that. It’s just how booking is these days.”

It’s safe to say you’re shocked he flipped the switch that quickly. It’s impressive. However, as soon as you started thinking that….

He starts to wickedly smile. “And I kicked that pencils ass! It choked me, stabbed me, but I pinned it, for the 1, 2, 3. [Name], I need your help next time. The pencil says it’s got friends. A smoking pink Dixon Ticonderoga. If I get my smoking hot co-worker to help me, we can beat the evil pencils.”

You’re not sure what to dissect first. The fact he called the pencil smoking or the fact he called you smoking. “…Okay.” You willingly agree though. You’ll help Brian fight a pencil. It’s not exactly the craziest thing you’ve ever done, but if he says it has a meaning behind it, then fine.

You don’t have a lot of time though, your match is next and you wanted to be early to ensure Terry wouldn’t get mad at you. “Listen, I’ll talk to you later. Tonight’s really important and I’ve got a match.”

“Can’t wait.” He reaches over and pats your head.“We’re gonna take their graphite.”

Woohoo, taking the pencils graphite! Whatever that means…

It’s the last match of the night. You walk in front of Terry and Tommy as you three walk towards the ring. Neither of them hold their hands out for any high fives, but you were nice enough to give them some.

One by one you enter the ring. You allow the other two to get in first, so you can wipe your shoes against the apron. Terry proudly nods at your sign of respect and you bend down to enter through the ropes.

The crowd chants your name. Once you get to the center of the ring, you throw your arms out in response. Tommy comes over and stands in front of you on purpose.

“Dude—move!” You complain. “Get your own spotlight!”

“I’ve got one right here!” He shoots back.

“Hey! You two, separate now.” Terry ordered. He doesn’t feel like hearing you two arguing, especially when he’s about to cut a promo.

You two listen, with you leaning on the turnbuckles in the corner and Tommy idly walking around the ring.

Terry takes the microphone from the announcer. “I’ve got just one thing to say. Forever, forever, forever and ever, Cactus Jack, I will remember what happened last time forever, you asshole! Bring it on!”

For whatever reason, they never really let you interfere in the matches until tonight. Everything was about Tommy and Terry. It made you mad and most importantly it made the crowd mad.

Luckily, you’re finally able to do what you do best.

Before he can give the mic away, you motion for him to hand it over. You’ve got some words too. Terry gives it to you. All eyes were on you and you’d hope you don’t fumble. You never do, but sometimes the nerves sneaks up on you.

“How low can you get to try and ruin a legends career? This is Terry Funk! He’s someone to look up to. Someone that everyone in the back should be looking up to. Most importantly, he’s our mentor. It’s right for us to feel angry. We’re pissed. How dare a couple of low lives try and torment him?!”

You take a moment to dramatically catch your breath.

“Tonight, Cactus Jack and Raven, you two are going to pay dearly for what you’ve done. We all know he’s planning on retiring. If this is one of his final matches…then he’ll go out with a bang.”

You kindly hand the mic to the referee. Truth be told, you just wanted to add your two cents in tonight. You retreat to stand in one of the ring corners.

Cactus Jack’s music hits and he comes out alongside Raven. Once they get ringside, they don’t come in of course, instead circling it like sharks.

You can feel a hand brush up against your ankle, trying to go up towards your calf. You jolt, moving away to turn around and see what the hell it was.

Lo-and-behold, it was Raven. He looks up at you, then circles back around as if he hadn’t touched you. Weirdo.

No one was making any sudden moves, which causes Cactus to grab a mic. “Why don’t you stop wasting my fucking time and bring your ass out here?! Come on, Terry!” Cactus & Raven slide into the ring, but Tommy and Terry slide back out.

You don’t entirely leave the ring, instead deciding to stay on the ring apron until one of them had their back turned. You’re gonna get one of them, that’s for sure. Whether it’s Cactus Jack or Raven, someone’s about to get a hurricanrana.

Raven comes over to you. He doesn’t smile, he doesn’t smirk. There’s a neutral look on his face and it makes you smile. He expected you to do something, maybe even slap him, but you’re wise enough to leave it until they’re caught off guard.

Once he turns away from you, you quickly scramble out and climb onto the top turn buckle.

The crowd cheers at you, ready to see what you’ll do. In order for this to work, he needed to turn around again. You whistle to catch his attention.

He turns and you immediately jump off, giving him a hurricanrana and flinging him across the ring. You’re the first to make a move, which causes Tommy to spring into action.

While Cactus is busy looking in awe, Tommy strikes him from behind, knocking him down. The bell rings, signifying the beginning of the match.

Raven’s stunned, crawling over to get up on the ropes for leverage. For some reason, he’s holding his hand out, asking for a mic. There’s no way he’s got something to say after you hit a move on him like that!

“That was….” He falters, still holding onto a rope. “That was nothing. I’m used to having my head in between your legs, so try…again, [Name]!”

The crowd gasps and so do you. Tommy looks at you in confusion and you’re genuinely not sure what to do.

“I-I…” You stutter. You don’t have a mic, but it’s very easy to tell what you’re saying. “No—I don’t even know why he would say that!”

“Terry Funk, you think that protege of yours, you……you think she’s such an angel huh?!”

Raven’s talking too much, a little too much for your own good. He’s so used to having his face in between your legs, right? Well right now, you’re about to shut up him for good.

Because he’s already kneeling, it’s pretty easy for you to come over and kick him down. The mic makes a static noise after he drops it, and you roll him over onto his stomach quickly.

He groans in pain and you roll over on top of him, using your legs to capture him in the Code of Silence. You use one hand to hold your foot in place, doing your best to make the hold tighter.

“You know so much, huh?! HUH?!” You scream. He puts his hand on your leg, trying his best to pry you off. “Tell us what else, Raven! What do you have to say?!” The crowd is still bewildered from what Raven said, but were still cheering you nonetheless.

Raven didn’t make the attempt to tap, but he was doing his hardest to try and get you to release him. He’s already tried prying you off, he squeezed your thigh, tried smacking it, did just about everything in the book. Why did it feel like he was groping you??

You just wouldn’t let him go. Terry finally comes into the ring to try and coax you to get off of Raven. He just wasn’t worth it. The guy needed some fighting chance. “[Name], get off that boy!” He yells, coming over to you two. “He’s done! Let him go!”

He really was. He was on the verge of passing out, his grip on you becoming weaker. He was digging his nails into your skin, leaving indents as he pushed. You were so angry you hadn’t even noticed, and you didn’t even feel it until you came back to Earth.

Terry’s got to pull you off of him. Raven’s hacking and sputtering on the ground and you stretch your legs out a bit. It felt like forever you were holding him like that, but you felt pretty satisfied. Maybe he’ll shut up for the rest of the night.

Terry pats your shoulder, then raises his voice loud enough so you can hear him. “He ain’t worth it. Just relax. If you know he’s lying, let ‘em lie. He’ll get what’s coming to him.”

You nod, backing off and stepping away.

Tommy picks up a nearly unconscious Raven, and the two begin to laying into one another with strikes. Terry goes over to Cactus Jack, dealing with him as well.

It’s obvious they didn’t want you to do the dirty work. All of the men got out of the ring and you look bored as hell. They’re more than likely grabbing chairs, but it doesn’t make it any more fun than it is.

As soon as you see Stevie coming out with a shit ton of other weapons in a shopping cart (more than likely for Raven’s usage only), you take this opportunity to get onto the outer ropes.

Stevie’s cool! You like Stevie. He likes you too. He thought you were one of the nicer ones in the promotion. Unfortunately, when you’re in the ring, you tend to bully him a little bit.

A shame you’d have to do this to him. You wait for a second for him to move away from the shopping cart.

He looks up at you with a smile. Damn. He doesn’t have a clue in the fucking world. You run across the apron and jump off towards him for a Diving Meteora. You two land scarily close to the guardrail. The area surrounding the ring was pretty small, so as soon as you land, you scramble off of him.

“You okay?!” You whisper. You really hope he didn’t hit his head on that metal.

“Fine!” He responds. Good, now you can boast all you please. You grab Stevie by the hair and you turn to look over at the ring. There are a shit ton of weapons sprawled around the mat.

You really can’t even look away for a split second! Raven’s already bleeding, you’ve got Terry who’s definitely about to blade at any second, and then there’s Tommy who’s sliding out the ring to come towards you.

“Put him in the shopping cart!” Tommy yells, dumping out what was in the cart.

“GET IN THE FUCKING CART STEVIE!” You scream. It’s not like he could say no either. You and Tommy were already manhandling him into the shopping cart.

“Sorry!” You whisper, but then get behind the handle and push it down the aisle. You send the cart right into the ring post. After he collided with it, Tommy ends up flipping the cart onto its side, just to add salt in the wound.

It suddenly comes to you that Terry is on his own in the ring. You’re concerned, but notice he’s handling himself pretty well. He used a caution sign to whack Cactus over the head.

You’re not even sure if you want to try and get back in the ring. You don’t want to trip on anything. Then again, maybe there’s something you can grab on the side and whack Stevie with it.

Yes indeed. An ode from the Sandman, there’s a kendo stick lying nearby. With one quick glance to Stevie, you grab the stick, then whack him with it.

That ‘crack!’ sound was so loud, it stunned you and the people sitting nearby for a minute. He’ll be down for a while. Fuck it, you’re getting back into the ring.

There’s no referee. None whatsoever. Raven goes over to pin Terry, but you grab his ankle and pull him off to the best of your ability.

He sluggishly stands up to look at you. You’re quick to the punch, rearing your hand back and slapping him across the face. Raven stumbles, nearly losing his footing.

With the new smear of blood on your hand, you turn it around and lick it off.

As of now, it’s just you and Raven in the ring. You’ve got half a mind to pull him back into the Code of Silence….

Nah. You probably shouldn’t do that. Instead, you’ll target that pretty little head of his. You reach over and pull his hair, then slam him down to the mat.

Raven holds the back of his head, but you don’t give him any time to breathe. You come over and put your foot on each side of his head, then grab his arms and lift him up.

You let him go after a few minutes and he brings his hands back up into his hair, the stinging feeling making him roll around. You lean down, picking up a small tuft of hair that was left behind.

Oops…..you kinda snatched him bald. You hold it up to the crowd, who cheer in response. What a souvenir!

That’s what he gets for talking. You don’t feel bad. You get down and try to pin him….

AND THERE’S STILL NO REFEREE! What the fuck! You get off of him, resting on your knees. You’re not exactly tired, just exasperated.

Suddenly, something whacks you in the back of the head. You fall face first to the mat, a shot of pain flaring through your head. Cactus somehow had gotten the best of Terry and attempted to save Raven.

He tosses the speed limit sign to the side, then brings you up. Lifting you up fully, he turns you upside down for a hard Scoop Slam.

Once you hit the mat, you roll over in pain. That shit HURT!! Truth be told, you should be used to it at this point but man….

It made it even worse you landed on a stray VCR. You’re definitely going to need a massage after this.

Before either men could try and come for you again, you slide out of the ring. “Tommy! What the fuck are you doing?!” You yell, pointing up towards the ring.

Tommy was too busy going through the weapons on the floor. He wanted to see which was the best one…he’s literally wasting time.

“WHERE’S FUNK?!?!” You scream next, waiting for him to respond.

At first, Tommy’s paying you no mind. Sorting through his options and pulling out a cheese grater. Then he turns to you with a shrug.

Terry was nowhere to be found. More than likely he’s probably on the floor somewhere, but you’re still pretty pissed.

Tommy gets into the ring, taking down Cactus and using the grater on his forehead. Finally, he does something useful. There’s more blood.

You’re used to all of it. Even though it was pretty annoying to get out of clothes, there’s nothing peroxide couldn’t do. Unless someone uses a weapon on you or you blade, you’re not really going to bleed tonight.

Terry gets rolled back into the ring, completely knocked out. There he is! And there’s still no referee, so there’s no way they could get a proper pin fall.

Until Bill Alfonso and Taz just walked out, the both of them in referee gear. No fucking way.

You sigh, resting your head onto the ring apron. It is so hard to keep up sometimes. Cactus goes in for the pin, but Terry kicks out at 2.

You were just about to come and pull him off. Thank goodness he kicked out.

Bill starts to stomp Terry out, then Taz starts pummeling him with punches. Tommy’s in the ring to stop both of them, but Raven gets the jump on him.

…After a few more minutes of that, they just leave. Like, what? Sometimes you don’t understand this show. You wonder if Heyman told them to come out.

The actual referee for this match finally shows up, signifying that this match is coming to a close. Tommy grabs Raven, giving him a DDT onto the chair. Then gets him back up for a Piledriver.

Though you’re finally starting to feel tired, you run and bounce off the ropes to Basement Dropkick Raven onto flat the mat.

Terry crawls in very slowly, battered and bruised. He’ll get the final pin. It’s a slow count, but before you know it, the match is over.

Time of pinfall was 14 minutes. It felt much longer than that. You need a second to catch your breath. Despite it there being a lot happening in just one match…

…you’re more than happy to do it again tomorrow.

i had to simplify most of the match jesus it was a whole bunch of nothing WHERE ARE DA MOVES AT?! like everyone’s hitting each other with stuff okay cool. now why is bill alfonso & taz showing up LMAO???? im telling you guys ecw is insane. november to remember 1995 was referenced by the by

i was watching this interview and stevie said something like “the promotion is an angle in itself because everyone has something to do with each other”… that was so real. reader only apologizing to him and no one else >>

pillman and reader vs the evil pencils coming soon. they’ll bond a little better i fear

#wwe golden series #wwe imagine #wwe various x reader #wwe imagines #wwe x reader #ecw x reader #listen i was confused as hell watching the match #i don’t even have any tags. It’s just here.#IF Y’ALL WATCHED EUPHORIA #READER DID A CASSIE LINE LMAO

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gender-trash · 7 months

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what is a popular thing u dislike

dude i am so fucking bad at liking popular things. all throughout my childhood there was not a single popular trend i did not either miss entirely or vaguely attempt to glom onto 2-3 years late after everyone else had lost interest. i literally had to give myself a crash course in disney princess movies in college because i kept going to karaoke nights that devolved into disney sing-alongs because "everyone knows them" except i DIDN'T. my taste in everything hews very obscure not because i'm trying to be a hipster but because if i'm given a choice between several options i will inevitably get extremely attached to the unpopular thing nobody likes, Every Single Time.

simultaneously this is a hard question to answer because i usually don't actively DISLIKE popular stuff? like, im not going to watch any more marvel movies, but im still chewing on a half dozen stucky fics from 2014 like theyre my comfort stuffed animals.

the main exception is popular music. sometimes pop songs have a good, catchy hook, but it gets brought back so many times like cud from a ruminant's stomach that i start hating it; sometimes they don't even have THAT going for them. sometimes they're insufferably heterosexual. sometimes they're autotuned to shit. sometimes they're just the most absolutely bland and generic Extruded Song Product i have ever fucking heard? many of them have several of these egregious flaws simultaneously. i think part of my problem is that i am a Hater and part of my problem is that my auditory processing renders me more or less unable to understand song lyrics, but i have studied too much music and have a very well-developed Melody Predictor brain lobe, and so if the song has a really basic melody and makes it up with interesting lyrics, well. that doesn't damn well work on me, does it.

and it's fucking inescapable! you can't go to Any Location, except, like, the public library (hallowed be its name), without being subjected to whatever anodyne top 40 hits the grocery store manager or whomstever thought would be the least offensive possible background music to encourage bourgeois white Californians with mildly hippie sensibilities to purchase goat cheese and mini sourdough toasts. often it's not even recent hits it's, like, hits from 2009 that i was already tired of in 2009. and grocery stores already give me enough Processing Overload because i have to make sure i'm Not In The Way and the lights are very bright and there is a lot of brightly colored packaging and often BEEPING. WHY IS THERE BEEPING. (it's possible this colors my perception of Songs You Might Hear In The Grocery Store, tbh.)

anyway i've been known to like some popular music, sometimes (i listen to a lot of music and i try not to write off any genre out-of-hand), but here is a selection of songs that are like sleeper agent triggers for me to hulk out in the middle of whole foods:

and, in the interests of balance, here are some recentish pop songs i do like:

(specifying "recentish" because otherwise i will just fill the list with Queen but we already know Queen kicks ass)

#SORRY COMBAT-EPISTEMOLOGIST #sorry also what is the song that starts with offkey whistling i hate that one SO MUCH #AT LEAST WHISTLE IN TUNE. PLEASE. FOR ME.#my brain putting all of its auditory processing stat points into perfect pitch and ability to identify harmonies/chords: :)#the trashcan speaks #music tag

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mecha-omega · 1 year

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Hi Fi Rush…

HOLYYYY SHITTTTTTT ACTUAL PEAK FICTION!!!!

Idk where to begin ima be real.

But to start I do not like rhythm games, especially ones where you just have to touch in a rhythmic order. It not that they are bad it’s just that it’s the same thing but with different songs and a pallet. Osu! & Voze are Prime examples of this and they are really boring to me, hit the timing in the exact order. Other rhythm games like P4D, Love Live, & Enstars have 3D models to fall back on for visuals which are cool but they don’t give enough gameplay wise where I could place them above others. Thankfully there are games that take the rhythm aspect and put it towards other genres which is cool, but personally they don’t attract me 100% to be put on my radar since I have other games to finish/play… wait Xbox has game!? *Also on Steam* GOD DAMN IT!!

Hi Fi Rush was that game, that HOOK, that feel! I don’t have to play whatever anime op is on another anime rhythm game, I can bop to the beat of “The Prodigy: Invaders Must Die”! I love how EVERYTHING goes to the beat, like EVERYTHING EVERYTHING! The combos can technically be off the beat but you really wanna be on that funk since each enemy area will score you on how much you were on that beat. It’s highly encouraged & mandatory to learn how to tap to the beat. Thankfully there are very helpful tools in-game so the gameplay experience isn’t to hard for beginners.

Story is very simple (and there are no god awful twists thank GOD) with VERY lovable characters. Being only 10 hours long I was expecting not to much will happen with the characters but even with how short the game is, the character development is pretty cute mainly with Chai and Peppermint. This game does not take itself to seriously and I’m all for that, getting real tired of recent games taking itself wayyy to seriously. A very nice refresher for the start of 2023.

The original sound track isn’t bad either, its really good especially the boss themes. The choices for license music tho wasn’t to bad either, and if you are a steamer no worries there is a “Streamer Mode” in the game which replaces licensed tracks with original music.

Overall, AMAZING GAME!!! I would be giving it a 11/10 but “Creep” by Radio Head wasn’t in the game so I have to dock a point so 10/10! I LOVE YOU KORSICA MY BELOVED!!! “BUT IM A CREEP!!!! IM A WIERDOOOOOOOOOOO!!!”

#hi fi rush #xbox #xbox game pass #gaming pc

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the-sappho-of-lesbos · 9 months

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im a lesbian with an insanely low sex drive (combo of mental illness/side effects from psych medications) and idk i feel like I see a lot of ultra horny stuff on here to the point where i get anxious about not being able to live up to a future gf’s expectations…idk i know im in the minority though and being horny is normal

Hello ♥️

I’m sorry you are struggling with this at the moment , and I’m sorry if anything I posted made you feel anxious it alienated.

I know how scary the prospect of future relationships can be and how hard it can be to try and live up to these ideals in your head and what you think people will be like. But I do know what people post online isn’t always fully indicative of who they are fully. With myself for example , I really don’t think I have all that high a sex drive IRL, but I enjoy consuming lesbian media in all its capacity and I like talking about lesbian sex and sexuality because it’s something that’s taken me a while to get to. I’m the type of person where if I feel uncomfortable or sad about a part of my lesbianism I like to start really shouting about the things I enjoy to get out of that funk. So I probably, especially lately , talk wayyyy more about sex then what is actually an accurate reflection of my drive lol.

But also in saying that being horny is normal! And it’s beautiful and wonderful that so many lesbians can and do talk about that stuff. But there can also be more then one truth. Just because feeling that way is normal, doesn’t mean you aren’t normal. Having a lower sex drive , for whatever reason , is completely normal too. There isn’t anything wrong with them just as much as there isn’t anything wrong with you ♥️

I know me saying all this probably won’t take about the anxieties around expectations. But that’s okay. Those anxieties are also normal. And any good relationship worth it’s time will allow space for these discussions and come to a place where you both feel comfortable. And if that’s not possible then it’s okay to let it go and try and find a new one. You deserve your space and you deserve someone to go at your pace. And she’s out there. Even if you just find her as a friend, I can promise there are lots of other lesbians with the same drive.

But again I know me saying that won’t fix everything. And it’s okay to allow yourself the space to feel anxious or sad or frustrated. You aren’t a bad person for feeling this way.

I’m sorry if this wasn’t very helpful. But please be kind to yourself today and try to do something nice for yourself ♥️ just know you are wonderful and beautiful just as you are , and I believe in you!! You’ve got this and I’m really proud of you 💕

Thank you so much for popping in and I hope you have a wonderful day ❤️❤️

#asks #anon #answered

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thisdreamplace · 1 year

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any tips on how to focus on the 4d and all that you’re manifesting while also not getting distracted by what OTHER people are saying or asking? For example, ppl keep asking me what I want to do in life, what I’m planning in life, or that it seems like I’m goalless with no direction. Those questions for some reason bother me and put me in a funk, because it feels like I have my dream career in the 4d, but then ppl in the 3d come in saying stuff like this and then it just reminds me that THEY don’t see it.

my biggest tip is focus on the 4d and stop being so hyperfocused in what you're manifesting. tbh.

i so resonate with this bc omg. i used to (internally) FALL APART when people asked me anything in the same category as what i was manifesting. and i knew all the great teachers said "it doesnt matter what you say, its already done" but for the life of me i couldnt fully feel that, i couldnt grasp it or accept that at all. i always felt so bad and full of anxiety even after giving my answer, wondering if i've fucked everything up. def not fun.

for me, i stopped caring about it when i realized i dont have a reason to fight against my current reality or pretend things arent as they are. whatever everyone else sees, is whats true, sure. on the outside. so i don't need to walk around like it's not what it appears to be. but i go within myself and i know how i feel and i know whats true for me. its that feeling of i don't actually need validation. its just, i go within myself and i become one with god and i keep that close to my heart. and i think thats why you kinda have to let the whole hyperfixation on your desires go, on the level that it feels more like ur still trying to prove to urself ur truth. bc really. when u know in ur heart something is true, when you have accepted it within, you're not as easy to shake. sure you may have moments where you're thrown off or maybe even feel some type of way, as is normal for this human experience. but you really won't be that bothered by it so often and so easily.

yall its honestly so okay (and often SO HELPFUL) to be able to say, "yeah with the way things look rn im not where i wanna be" AND accept that. rather than being like "no no the 3d is wrong my 4d is right" its okay to let the 3d flow, to be what it is, and hug your inner world tight. bc really thats all u need to do. hold on close to your inner world and let yourself live in the 3d as it is, enjoying every moment, knowing each experience is just part of the unfolding of the beautiful things to come. thats really how you go about living within yourself, and the outer world simultaneously.

#not me with the throwback LMFAO #ive been thinking of that reddit post sm lately bc it was pivotal in my journey haha

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what is your opinion on the aesthetic links between new wave and german expressionism

i have never been an art student of any kind, i've always been a STEM kid, and am not super familiar with german expressionism or even the real intricacies of new wave HOWEVER i am generally familiar with the premise and execution of both so i'll talk out of my ass anyway! the internet is for people saying whatever about things they don't understand, right?

first to be clear german expressionism is an art movement about a concept first (expression of true, possibly incomprehensible inner emotion and thought) with a recognizable visual aesthetic (surreal, unrealistic, and dramatic) second, while new wave is about a recognizable audio aesthetic (a less aggressive deviation from punk and ska with tie to funk/jazz and occasional highlights on almost discordiant sounds- tends to cultivate a nervous, frantic, or awkward energy on purpose) first and some identifiable trends of concept second, so their priorities are not totally in line

than being said expression of surreal, sometimes borderline incomprehensible internal concepts are absolutely popular topics in new wave music (common thematically in Talking Heads, Oingo Boingo, DEVO, and even the b-52's though theyve always been sillier about it, etc.). pulling from the obvious, i think this is pretty easily understood by just listening to Once in a Lifetime, though for an even more lighthearted but direct example Detour Thru Your Mind by b-52s also works

tabling the set and costuming of videos (which this question is almost certainly about) for a moment you could argue the audio aesthetics of discord themselves are analogous to factors of german expressionism as well but i am hesitant to draw direct parallels to audio and visual arts since they are ultimately digested separately- though you can't ignore how the deliberate chaos and creation of these Anxiety Sounds is thematically close to the "visualizing the internal" of german expressionism; same with the rejection of realism and focus on surrealism

in terms of new wave video design the influence is very obvious by just... comparing images of the two- and i assume done to communicate all the ideas i described above. sets are often in large, strange shapes and in unrealistic proportions, decorated in bold colors or dramatic monochromatic schemes, and the cinematography will be, as is predictable, deliberately surreal, with emphasis on symbolism rather than linear story telling; all characteristics of german expressionism. again Once in a Lifetime does a good job of communicating all this, but i think an even more obvious visual parallel can be found in a lot of the oldest Oingo Boingo videos- im particularly picturing Nothing Bad Ever Happens to Me here but other videos apply as well

and that's my laymen's take 👍

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SO MY CONCEPTS ARE LONG, ASK SID🫣😂

Here you go

Imagine being a uni student, that lives in Manchester but is from another country.

You live with another girl that happens to be masons cousin.

So obviously Mason is usually around cause he is in a new city alone and his cousin is the only person that feels like home.

You and him become good friends and always stay together when he and other friends are around so everyone notices that the relationship between you two is more that a friendship cause you're always soo lovingly and touchy and everything.

Let's say he had a game and tou were supposed to go, but you got your period and super bad cramps and your only desire was to stay in bed and sleep all day. So you turn off your phone, warm your hot bottle water and go to bed.

Mason gets worried cause you're not answering him and when he doesn't see you near his cousin in the stands he panics and plays like shit cause he thinks you're mad at him or you doing want to have nothing to do with him anymore and he obviously is in love with you so he can't stand loosing you.

Once the game is over he literally runs at home without talking to anyone.

In the meantime you wake up and turn in your phone and see all the mixed calls from Mason so you remember of the game and start feeling like shit cause you didn't advise him you were not going.

So you call him back a few times but he doesn't answer, you call your roommate and she Explains you that he played so bad and run away as soon as the game ended.

You're still feeling bad cause of your cramps but decide to drive to his house.

When you arrive, you ring his doorbell, and when he opens, he asks you sternly. "What are you doing here?" And you are like,"I just came to apologise, but it seems like you're not in the mood, so I'll just go back home. " You actually go back and don't hear from him for the rest of the evening. In the meantime you explained what happened to your roommate and she decides to call her cousin and tell him to grow up and apologise for his behaviour to you, and he is like " I don't think im the one who nède to apologise, she didn't come at the game and was nor answering my calls or texts so why are you screaming at me and not at her?" And she is like," Are you really this stupid? She came yo apologise. She was in bed all day cause her period cramps were killing her today, and even if she was not feeling good, she came at yours to apologise as soon as I told her how the game went! So now find a way to make it up to her, and to me, bye mount. " And he immediately feels soooo bad, so he texts his cousin telling her that he is going to give her a present if she leaves you home alone, and she accepts. So manos comes at yours with your favorite food and once you open he starts apologising telling you that he thought you wanted to end your friendship and that he loves you and can't live without you on his life. You're shocked, but tell him that you love home too and that you would never end things with him cause that would kill you😌🥺

Omg it’s like a whole fic 😭

I can see him being quite stubborn sometimes like when he’s not sure what’s going on and he’s sad like he doesn’t wanna talk too much and just be sad for a little bit 🥺

But as soon as he’s out of his funk he’s be so apologetic and doing whatever he can to make it up to the people he loves I’m so soft 😌

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