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sunsoakingcat · 6 months

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despair

happy nov 5th!!

i thought it was only right to launch my art account with one of the most painful drawings ive ever made! :D

cas and dean complete set version // cas only version

tag list of my moots (from @so-long-and-goodnight-killjoys) (is this how you do this)

@electric-loser

@destielsangel

@trannydean

@sunflowerofchaos

@meldy-arts

@e-ndy

@eternalplutoniangoddess

@thepondstogether

@lamiasage

@littleorangemushrooms

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heyimdove · 9 months

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More on why Persuasion is the real Jane Austen parallel to Aziracrow, and why Pride and Prejudice is not, because I can’t stop dwelling.

There’s a lot here so I’ll try to structure this in a way that makes sense. Wish me luck.

I’ve seen so many people equate Aziraphale to Lizzie and Crowley to Darcy, but these comparisons don’t make sense. Character-wise, they are far more like Anne Elliot and Frederick Wentworth, respectively.

We’ll start with Elizabeth Bennet, who I love with all my heart and is one of those characters I feel like I know (I’m delusional, it’s fine). Elizabeth is wonderfully intelligent, but she isn’t “accomplished” and isn’t a perfect specimen of Regency womanhood. Instead she’s sharp and headstrong. She wants to live how she wants and with someone she loves for a partner. She rejects a match that is, on paper, perfect and would solve all her family’s problems, because she won’t settle for unhappiness. You know who that doesn’t sound like?

Aziraphale, were he a Regency Era woman, would be considered very accomplished for the time; well-read, polite, even a music tutor. But he’s more unlike Elizabeth because he desires to “do what’s best for the family”. In other words, if Elizabeth Bennet was more like Aziraphale, she’d be married to Mr. Collins. She would’ve considered it her duty to marry him because it would protect her loved ones (see Aziraphale accepting the Metatron). For Aziraphale, his duty to protect trumps his personal desire.

So does that make Crowley our Lizzie? No, that doesn’t fit either, and not only because Aziraphale makes a terrible Darcy. Sure, Aziraphale’s status as an angel might be considered comparable to Darcy’s elevated status as a rich person, but Crowley has never hated Aziraphale, never even considered it, and wouldn’t hate him even after the rejection. Lizzie’s hatred is what spurs Darcy to grow. Darcy needed to be completely despised by her to decide to put in the work to be worthy of her.

Okay, so then is Crowley Darcy? Perhaps we could shoehorn that in somewhere because Darcy doesn’t seem good but actually is, or is considered grouchy, but it’s such a loose connection, it barely works-

-Especially when you consider how much better the two fit as the protagonists of Persuasion.

(And yes, shut up, I liked the Dakota Johnson one and I will be using the gifs.)

Where Pride and Prejudice is about two different people gradually seeing the value in the other, Persuasion is the story of two different people seeing the value in the other right from the start, but who then repeatedly make mistakes that keep them separate and in agony.

Aziraphale is *so* much like Anne. First, Anne is the only reasonable (read: likable) member of her high-born family, who believe people in other societal castes to not only be inferior, but disgusting.

Anne sees this is not true, and falls madly in love with the low-born Wentworth- only to be persuaded by outside input not to marry him. Station and familial duty play a part in this decision, and she regrets it for years. She is completely unable to move on.

Like Aziraphale, Anne is certainly more accomplished, for one thing, and she plays by the rules of women of her time and status. BUT her sense of mortality breaks often from that of her family. When she tries to impart her good morals upon them, they are dismissive and insulting, reacting as if Anne is the one who “doesn’t get it”.

She spends eight years with a family she barely belongs to, wondering why she ever thought the company of people like this was worth the loss of Wentworth.

For all of Anne’s kindness, she is a pushover. She’s rarely confident in herself. When she needs to speak up, or just have a direct conversation with Wentworth, she doesn’t. She can’t. She repeatedly makes Wentworth come to her.

Wentworth, meanwhile, is a far better match for Crowley than Darcy is. Wentworth will never be an aristocrat like the Elliots, but he carves out a life he considers valuable using new rules. Sound familiar?

Are Wentworth’s and Crowley’s morals obviously a bit different? Yes, of course. Crowley is a DEMON, after all. But Crowley conducts himself in such a way that he’s literally cast out of Heaven and removed from Hell- in other words, he’s twice been given “the rules” for how to act and has twice decided, nah, that’s not for me. Wentworth was given the rules for what he could have as a low-born man and became a wealthy, high-ranking naval officer. And Wentworth didn’t do that for love, either. He found the consideration of one’s wealth in determining whether they should be loved abhorrent. Wentworth did it for himself initially (bitterly too, maybe), just like Crowley saves the goats and the kids for himself.

And, of course, Crowley’s confession parallels Wentworth’s position in relation to Anne far more than Darcy’s position to Lizzie. Crowley says “if they (two apparent opposites) can do it, so can we,” because he knows he and Aziraphale love each other. At the start of Persuasion, Wentworth asks Anne to be his wife despite their differing societal rank because he knows they love each other. At the end of Persuasion, he asks again because he knows they have both been in agony, that they both love each other as much as they ever did.

Darcy, meanwhile, does not know if Lizzie loves him, but arrogantly believes she will accept on the basis that what he can offer her monetarily is better than what anyone else can, not knowing what she actually values. She demolishes him.

On that note, that’s really the only parallel between Aziracrow and Darcy/Lizzie, only Aziraphale is Darcy. Aziraphale believed Crowley would accept his offer because he believed Crowley would want to be an angel again. Crowley believed Aziraphale would accept his offer because he knew they loved each other.

These are all very different characters, but ultimately, I think we were gunning for Pride and Prejudice and wound up with Persuasion; the slowest, most agonizing burn with the most beautiful reunion. So we didn’t get “you have bewitched me, body and soul,” in S2. We got the events leading up to Persuasion, and will have S3 to watch them play out. Neil knows that Aziraphale and Crowley’s relationship is the most compelling part of the story, so I doubt they’ll be separated for long. But everything is so messy, isn’t it? So it makes sense to keep them, like Anne and Wentworth, in close proximity, in mutual, bitter, unspoken pining, but still not together. It will be absolutely delicious to watch. Isn’t that what we loved the most from S1?

Because we know they love each other. And whatever catalyzing event forces them to say it out loud will be all the better if every moment they don’t say it hurts. I don’t want a “you have bewitched me” moment, I want “I’m half agony, half hope.”

#good omens #jane austen #meta #ineffable divorce #crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #pride and prejudice #persuasion #im in pain #im in so much pain

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natsmagi · 11 months

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my hot evil goth wife who keeps trying to poison my food

#im in so much pain #femstars #genderbend #natsume sakasaki #enstars #ensemble stars #my art

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lanaevyssmoved · 5 months

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gales letter to you if he sacrificed himself at the end

#fray.txt #bg3 epilogue spoilers #im in so much pain

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potatofu-art · 1 year

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Oh the pain, oh the suffering I am going through

#jjk spoilers #itafushi #my art #fanart #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen spoilers #jjk #fushiguro megumi #itadori yuuji #sukuna #IM IN SO MUCH PAIN #new chapter WHEN I NEED MEGUMI TO COME BACK #no but how much do you think this line will haunt yuuji like #Yuuji baby i believe in you you can rescue your bf #im rambling in the tags

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staruzi002 · 25 days

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after im done with this self assigned challenge thing im never touching a computer mouse again stg

#murder drones #glitch productions #uzi doorman #md uzi doorman #uzi md #rudolphs gifts #murder drones fanart #uzi doorman murder drones #digital art #art #glitch productions fanart #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #im in so much pain #my fingers. MY HAND.#anyways happy 4 days guys

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suledins · 2 years

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the first and last time we see billy get out of his car.

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sad-trash-hobo · 2 years

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This wasn't just Anakin and Obi Wan pre Revenge of the Sith, this was Anakin and Obi Wan pre Attack of the Clones. This was Anakin before his mother died. Before he married Padme. Before Anakin or Obi Wan had ever seen war. Anakin still had his arm and everything. This is a flashback of 18-19 year old Anakin and his still young Master, before everything went wrong

#im in so much pain #obi wan kenobi #kenobi #anakin skywalker #darth vador #star wars #ewan mcgregor #hayden christensen #revenge of the Sith #attack of the Clones

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multifariousmayhem · 14 days

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i had forgotten how bad a regular cold is when you have cfs and chronic pain

the doctor being like "is just a cold!" and i cant even move over here

#chronic illness #chronic fatigue syndrome #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #this cold is terrible #im in so much pain #the brain fog is even worse rn

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realsafari · 22 days

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GUYS I BROKE MY ANKLE HRLP ME

#safari is the best browser #safari posts #I GENUINELY DID #I HAVE NEVER BROKEN A BONE BEFORE #WTF DO I DO #THE DOCTORS R JUST STARING AT THE XRAY #LIKE #IN AWE #APPARENTLY IM LUCKY MY BONE DIDNT SNAP???#IM IN SO MUCH PAIN

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mcisdead · 7 days

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SO IVAN THINKS THAT HES BETTER THAN SUA (in some ways) BECAUSE HIS DEATH WOULDNT TRAUMATIZE SOMEONE HE LOVES CUZ HE THINKS TILL DOESNT CARE ABT HIM???? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 IVAN MY GUY😭😭😭😭😭

#why don’t we all just die #why don’t I just die #IM IN SO MUCH PAIN #IVAN U DESERVE EVERYTHING #sobbing crying throwing up #new official art is the end of me #guys #AAAAAAA #AAAAAKKAMAJAJHAH #NOOOOO #alien stage round 6 #alien stage #round 6 #ivan come back #ivan alien stage #ivan #ivantill #it’s ivantillover

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remusmoonshinezine · 9 months

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do you ever read a long fic and suddenly start to feel like your entire mental stability is riding in this fic and suddenly you can only be happy when the characters are happy and you cry when the characters cry and you want to punch things when things in the fic don't work out or am I just going slightly insane here