that feeling when you're so unwanted and dismissed and disliked by everyone around you...when you offer help and suggestions or try to join conversation or anything and the response you get is always "no/go away/I didn't ask you/etc" it feels horrible and when i ask what the problem is and why they hate me they just say "I never said I hate you/there's no problem" but the way they talk and act SHOWS ME THEY HAVE A PROBLEM OR HATE ME. you can't insult me every time I walk into a room or dismiss every single thing I say without even hearing it all and then say you don't hate me or have a problem with me! it doesn't work that way! either prove me wrong by showing not telling, or just be honest.
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I've set myself 10 alarms so there's a tiny chance I might wake up early enough to somehow get this shit done today. I would bet that I still won't hear any of them, sleep for at least 12 hours, and then feel so fucking awful that I don't get anything done, though :)
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i’m trying so hard not to hate myself but it’s really hard when i’m failing at life so spectacularly why can’t my brain just do what it’s supposed to. it’s like determined to ruin my life, and i just have to watch it happen from the sidelines and explain to others that no, i actually don’t want to be a useless person incapable of functioning normally, but i have Stupid idiot disease and so i’m a stupid idiot and that’s just reality for me and i get it. it’s annoying to have to witness and accommodate my failures but guess who has to deal with them 24/7
it’s like. why would anyone want this.. why would anyone want to be seen as pathetic and immature and irresponsible well into adulthood.fucking no one. im really fukcing trying but i get that it looks like me being whiny and pathetic and lazy but i litearlly am bashing my skull into a wall rn bc i hate the useless piece of garbage inside it so much
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sad. bitter realization that i am still haunted by people of the past, got recc'd a show a guy i knew really liked and would recommend to me. and i figured i would at some point, but now even the thought makes me irrationally. something. unsure. uncomfortable? bitter? upset? overwhelmed maybe. i want to watch it, but i can't really tear two and two apart. just feels like a punch to the face
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the daemon who murdered his wife, why would he try to choke another one?
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It's so weird to me when I sleep in class and a teacher tells me to go wash my face.
Like, yeah, buddy, sure I'll go wash my face. And when I come back I'll be wide awake. You're right, surely now that my face is wet, I don't want to go to sleep anymore. How could anyone still be sleepy with a wet face?
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This stupid ass website "oops try again?" maybe let me download images you piece of shit . Shut up.
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