#im just having a moment okay

[napping-sapphic]

I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #today was….not good #and at one point i had a moment #where i was just unbearably SAD and LONELY because i didn’t have anyone to call or talk to about it #but im still really hopeful it will happen some day #because all i want in this world is to feel secure #and for others to feel secure around me #and for everyone to feel secure around people they love #because it’s so painful and scary when you don’t #but one day im going to be warm and happy in someone’s arms and will barely remember this at all #im manifesting it #im completely okay btw things just got a little rough #and in the incredibly stressful and dramatic times i was experiencing my brain STILL had to be gay #im gay and i like sleeping #also yeah i said i wouldnt post after midnight again like two days ago but whatever #im sad and want to yearn on the internet we can make an exception tonight

[fondesmode]

Okay okay, Owl House officialy ends in like. Today. So heres a checklist of all the things i need to happen in the finale. For my emotionsl sake.

Belos fucking dies

Raine is okay

Collector keeps his powers but is chill

Luz gets to live where she wants n isnt depresso forcing herself into human realm

Its all goooood :)

At least 3 of these and ill be satisfied fbcfbcdg

#okay so like #i love the collector and he clearly isnt evil evil #thats what belos is for #but i want him to keep his powers cause the message it sends if he loses them is... iffy #cause if they end up treating him normal etc because hes forced into having no power #over his own choice? #feels much less of a character moment #if u know what i mean?? #even if the collector CHOOSES to be good without powers its just a weird situation #cause him being good WITH the gid powers show that people can change for the better etc etc #i think im just paranoid GBCFVXSCZ #either way i trust dana #im sure no matter what itll be a great finale :)) #this is just my prefference #owl house #toh #the owl house

[unexpectedbrickattack]

short king and his shorter kings

#pizza tower #pepstavo #peppinoise #i sketched it out WEEKS ago #but w me almost finishing this godawful comm i felt compelled to do something for Me #i cannot wait to finish; i have a couple of forms sitting there collecting dust but im too overwhelmed w this shitty comm- #-to even attempt to tackle those. i need to scrub my brain and start fresh. but after i finish it lmao #anyway hey. hope everyones okay and vibin #dont take this seriously but also. heehee. #in hindsight i feel like i need to bump gustavos head up a lil bit but weh #not too compelled to fix it. #additional context that i think is fun; gus is just a touchy dude and he finds all kinds of reasons to pick peppino up #and every time peppino is like SO flustered and shocked bc itll be in the view of customers #like some sports team wins and its on their tvs and ppl are hootin n hollerin #and like people will notice and keep cheering and its alot hes like oh my GOD u cannot keep doing that im going to explode and then die #noise will do it to prove he can do it and then his back snaps in two bc he weighs like 80 lbs (36kg) #but for like a brief moment of time he is facefirst in tummy and hes ecstatic #theo it is not funny to be rushed to the er bc u broke ur back #also suggestive (but funny i prommy) #but he absolutely would be that like girl who needed a neckbrace from having her gf accidentally sit on her face too hard #hes like ouuuuhhghh....that was worth it. how long will it take to recover doc bc i wanna do it again :) #meanwhile. i think if that happened peppino would literally go into hiding. ur not finding him. #it would literally haunt him that he nearly killed this rat w his fat ass #as if this is not the way both gus and noise would like to go out. it would be peaceful for them i think #anyway #runs away cutely; see u in two weeks maybe

[skitskatdacat63]

2011 Italian Grand Prix - Vettonso

#SORRY. I AM GOING THROUGH IT. #this is why i had to put vettonso merchant in my bio bcs if i dont post them at least 5x a week ill die #their dynamic in this race is like actually indecipherable to me #cause this is the race where fernando 'allegedly' said fuck you my boy #but their dynamic is so odd???? #like they have that happen in the cooldown room #and then generally ignore each other on the podium #and then we randomly get this cute moment and then they INSTANTLY go back to being awkward #but then in the press con they keep talking about each other and looking at each other???? okay :) #sometimes im just like. yeah no i give up on trying to understand them #not rly noticeable in these buts its so funny how seb pats him to get his attention #and then immediately goes to cheer as if to be like 'huh what i didnt touch uou' #to ref that one post about this race said: he didnt wanna embarrass himself again by getting turned on #stealing this from c cough cough but hes like 'oh no!! if he looks at me im gonna embrass myself on broadcast again!!' #anyways i love this moment and the pics from this are like my fav ever 2010s pics of them so yeah <3 #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #we do a little bit of f1 #*its so odd i completely remember finishing this and scheduling it last night #*but when i woke up it was only half done??? im still confused #2011 italian gp

[haunted-xander]

So. Fatebreaker, right? Ryne's biggest fears made manifest, daddy issues personified, yes?

He's an amalgamation of Thancred and Ran'jit, his face, his voice and his weapon is Thancred's, but his body, his fighting style and his words are Ran'jit's.

Throughout the fight Fatebreaker constantly makes comments about how only he can protect Ryne, only he can provide for her, only he has even the right to so much as stand beside her, to be in her general presence. He's possessive and obsessive, repeatedly asserting that she is HIS and his only. Which is exactly what Ran'jit says basically every time we encounter him.

But this time it's in Thancred's voice. This time it's with the voice and face of a man she actually cares about.

Ryne isn't scared of Thancred, she never has been. Even when she first met him she was barely even nervous (as clearly shown in Thancred's short story). There's a lot of different feelings happening between those two, but fear has never been one of them.

But now, after things have gotten so much better, she is scared of Thancred becoming like Ran'jit. Because if Thancred was just a little further gone, if he was just a little less compassionate, he would've. It wouldn't be hard for him to go down the same path as Ran'jit did, to be incapable of letting go of the ghost of that girl he loved so so much to the point he'd stubbornly grip anything close to her he could. He didn't, but the fact he could've is terrifying.

It makes his final words, words that are Thancred's, so very important. This is her deepest fears made manifest, but he still says he wants her to be happy. Her happiness not only matters, but is important to him.

#Now we -the audience- ofc knew Thancred was unlikely to go down that path #bc if theres one thing hes been consistent in even in his darkest moments its living up to his loved ones' wishes and legacies #the only time he even speaks against it is his conversation w minfilia in amh araeng #and thats more a case of all his (poorly) repressed grief and stress exploding than him actually meaning what he says #and trying to control rynes life after minfilia literally told him to just let her live her life goes directly against that #i think about fatebreaker a lot. as i do all things related to ryne & thancred #and to me its so important to note that hes more or less ran'jit with just enough thancred in him to be *too* thancred for comfort #its so. her greatest fear isnt even the thing thats been haunting her her whole life (being forced to fill in for minfilia) #its having her free will taken from her by the person she cares about the most (thancred) #and for him to be trapped in endless suffering because he cant move on #just like ran'jit did and was #its not even necessarily that shes all that scared of ran'jit himself #what shes scared about is caring about someone like that #because then she wont say no or try to be anyone but minfilia #(thats also why this fear appears specifically after things get better) #(because she was already ready to forsake herself if it eased thancred suffering) #okay im gonna stop now i need to sleep gnight everyone #ryne waters #thancred waters #ran'jit #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #at this point i should make a tag for ryne ramble posts i make so many of them #tomorrow. maybe. if i remember #edit: i made it #xander being insane about ryne

[queenerdloser]

i just finished dark heir

#me foaming at the mouth during the last chapters: HE IS! FUCKING! SAVING YOU! #i am huddled around will kempen hissing like a mama cat none of these fuckers are allowed to look at him #dark rise #okay but like. cyrian at literally every moment in the book you see will anticipating things and making connections #that you never make. doing things like a leader & being fucking smart and strategic. and your dumb ass really thought. #hm. must mean i shouldnt listen to him about the magic staff that can literally stop the end of the world. must be evil. #me: [screams into the abyss] #i know i cant expect characters to react like readers and they DID all react like i knew they would but god it was so infuriating!!!!! #and heart breaking! god!!!! god!!!!! will reliving his mother's initial betrayal over and over and OVER again #and thinking about all the little moments we get where the novel tells us: if these 'evil' characters had just been accepted #instead of tossed aside maybe they wouldnt have fallen. if they had been protected instead of killed maybe they would have #become protectors instead of killers. maybe if will's mom hadn't tried to butcher him for the sin of his own birth #he wouldn't have been so scared to tell people he lied to them. #anyway im not normal about will kempen and if book 3 doesnt give me his friends fucking accepting him i'll kill someone #me looking directly at visander: i dont care how charming you are i'll murder your ass about it #i read this book in like 5 hrs im being very normal about it

[mortysmith]

In theory i like the idea that rick is growing and developing as a person. In practice it ends up falling short though, because no one balances him out. rick is getting better while no one else is getting worse, and it causes the whole thing to end up feeling a bit stale. The biggest draw, at least for me, has always been rick and morty's shitty dynamic, but it barely exists anymore because rick has been so watered down.

The ideal solution is literally just to make morty into a bigger asshole. Essentially flipping the main characters' personalities would offer a wide variety of conflict into the show, and would also help keep it "fresh".

Instead it feels the writers are pretending that they can't possibly do anything with morty's character, that they have to keep him the same anxious idiot he was in season one. I've said this before, but it's incredibly frustrating to watch the show have no problem with expanding rick's character while struggling with keeping morty's heavily stagnated characterization consistent. Where rick has space to develop between multiple seasons, morty is constantly forced into one of two boxes (smart/stupid) depending on the episode.

#rick and morty #again i dont hate ricks therapy arc i just hate that morty doesnt have a parallel AntiTherapy arc #not to mention how. even if morty IS more bitter it usually only lasts for like an episode #there is no smooth progression or development. the show is just ping ponging between him being an idiot vs him being capable #this is why im sooooooososososo badly hoping the roy machine comes into play again. #otherwise this is genuinely offensive treatment of a main character #genuinely at the moment i feel like fandom understands morty better than the writers. #this is a half vent post to be honest im just so tired of the rick bias within the staff. Like make. a new show at this point #i also have thoughts on the way rick has been written these past few seasons and um . #well it feels lile fans are in the writers room and im afraid this is a negative. it sort of seems like the show is trying to- #sweep ricks past actions and behaviors under the rug #as if he isnt literally the worst person ever. up until recently i guess. #like its just frustrating seeing mortys abuse being handled so haphazardly? like the s5 2 crows episode #it just feels like the writers are trying to fill out a checklist instead of writing them as people. #“what we had was abusive dont you see?” who talks like this #okay im over it(lying) #rick sanchez #morty smith

[sapphosboy]

Rose Tyler enjoyer (me) grieves the physical lack of Rose Tyler in the doctor who specials (she’s in a parallel universe and it’s literally impossible for her to ever come back)

#JUST LET ME HAVE MY MOMENT OKAY SHE WAS THE ICON OF MY CHILDHOOD #IM ALLOWED TO BE BUMMED EVEN THOUGH IT WOULDVE NEVER HAPPENED #rose tyler #I just- I’ll never get to hear ten say the words “I love rose’’ even though he CANONICALLY is in love with her #its gonna haunt me till my dying days #like yes yes they get canonically got married and had a family and fly around in their own tardis #but I didn’t get to SEE that #so I have a little bit of a lack of closure #I need visuals #doctor who #doctor who spoilers #ig

[gunsatthaphan]

[I thought ray was my 25th hour. but the truth everyone only has 24 hours. and I'm not a part of ray's.]

#only friends #only friends series #only friends the series #only friends ep5 #ofts #firstkhao #sanray #sand x ray #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #gmmtv #thai bl #bl drama #IM OKAY IM NOT CRYING #(not affectionate) #shits about to hit the fan and i am NOT okay with it #i just want them to have soft record store moments #and cozy motorbike rides #and cute concert singalongs #and domesticated breakfast moments #and cuddly clingy moments when high djgkh #for the rest of the season #please :(

[sweatermuppet]

asking on those who have been on T/E/HRT for over a year & experienced moodswings during that time (especially while adjusting doses)... how did you cope with them? any tips or methods or practices to help regulate? been feeling anxious, paranoid, & angry

#also have fantastic moments of joy & euphoria & overall im the happiest ive been! but the moodswings hit me out of no where #they're pretty fast too. ill get in a funk for like a half hour & then i feel okay again #but that okay gives into other feelings & then it's another half hour funk #it just makes me feel so irrational!! i don't want to be moping or short with friends

[coolnonsenseworld]

I mentioned publishing a piece per one sold KICK Friday PDF, so here is one!

This is not available in either PDFs (nor was it a part of things posted in 2023, though I think I shared it on Lens at least). I will try to keep posting sketches that aren't part of PDFs for some time, but if you've read it or remember any private Patreon posts - if I were to pick a piece from the inside, which one would you like to see published?

Sidenote: If you want to know more about KICK Friday PDFs check out 52 weeks of KICK digital products on PayHip - the PDFs description have a full introduction to them as well as AU blurbs. I will publish them on socials in a month or so, after I am done with publishing each Calendar piece!

#klance #laith #mckogane #koclain #i had this word that pops up in my head #u know? just randomly like one of these words you almost forget they exist and then brain offers it to you for 2 days straig in rand moment #and you just have to #żupan #okay #ŻU-P AN AIGHT #please go the fuck away now word #HOPE YALL LIKE THIS DOSE OF KLANCE #please tell me which year im posting this my klance calendar is in another room #Have a cutie day ♡ ♥💕❤

[sourcetwo]

hey, don't cry. soldier's big beautiful smile, okay? <3

#tf2 #this has been on my mind for the last three days. look at his big beautiful smile okay??? #do you see it. do you see his smile #peace and love on planet earth is real #ive been in a rough state of mind lately. ive seen this sfm plenty of times but it just hit different for me this time #like yknow maybe its not all bad! i need to find joy in the little things just like soldier getting excited about bread #like right now! im just getting excited about silly sfms i like. man.... #sorry. i had a moment in the tags #if you've read this far. have a wonderful day smile and take care of yourself please #brighton.txt #tf2 soldier

[courtney-deserved-better]

telling myself i can't start another tdwt rewrite but dear god do i want to write one focusing on alejandro and courtney in this weird situationship thats a lot more nuanced than just alejandro manipulating courtney and her falling for it. like theyre best friends they dont trust each other theyre the same person they dont know anything about the other one theres a mutual attraction theyre pining for other people theyre codependent they dont care about each other theyre platonic soulmates like i just want to do a deep dive into how messy that relationship couldve been building off of their friendship that exists in my head except the line between romantic and platonic is so fucking blurred they have no idea what they are to the other person

#they live rent free in my head as you can tell #ive been writing some intense moments for them in amicus curiae and im having a lot of Feelings about platonic alecourtney #tbh the whole concept of them replacing the best friends has been a great avenue for me to do a deep dive into their friendship #aughhhh i just. love them so much #and i do want to explore them in a situation where there is relationship potential even if that relationship never actually happens #because everything between them during tdwt could be so MESSY!! #like alejandro says he's just manipulating courtney but he's also doing it to make heather jealous but he's also genuinely worried about he #after the duncan thing but this is the only way he knows how to express that concern without making himself look weak #meanwhile courtney is falling for the act but she also knows its an act and is going with it for the emotional support it provides and shes #just doing it to make duncan/gwen jealous but she also is starting to see the real alejandro underneath it all because he does care even #though he doesn't want to and they do feel a strong connection that they dont know whether its platonic or romantic because romance is bein #shoved down their throats on this show and theyre both in complicated romantic dynamics with other people that theyre the easier option for #one another but they dont really want to be with one another like it just doesnt feel right #okay okay i legit have to stop and go to bed but just. them. im thinking so hard about them #platonic alecourtney

[ace-apple]

something about qcellbit becoming the worst version of himself specifically to tell the people who've cared for him that he doesn't deserve it, all he does is kill and hurt and reopen old wounds and make new ones. "look at what youve been "loving" this whole time," he says.

and they love him anyways.

#mcyt #qsmp #q!cellbit #thinking about qcellbit embracing old wounds from prison and stuff specifically to further his self-sacrifice and pushing others away #saying “look at me why would you want to be near me when im no different than i was then?” #but they all know he is different than he was then. he just refuses to believe it. #the unconditional love these characters have for each other at their worst moments makes me insane /pos #it makes me believe that they will figure it out in the end and it will be okay

[skitskatdacat63]

I feel unwell

#thank you to suzuki-ecstar for mentioning this to me!!!!!! 🥺 #AGHHHHHHH im just dying over all the cute moments this event has caused #seb shows up on the grid and there is suddenly peace and love in the world #nando showing off the insect house is so 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #and then seb coming over and complimenting it STOP IT #'new home' ah yes for bee fernando and bee seb to live in <3 🤭 #okay but god damn it the bee movie has tarnished this for me #i cant even joke like 'au where they're both bees!' CAUSE THEN ITS LITERALLY JUST THE BEE MOVIE SO THANKS FOR THAT #anyways old man romance is alive and well and i am so pleased #also we got fed strollonso today but i have zero mental capacity for it! apologies!!! #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #vettonso #2023 japanese gp

[corpsoir]

drip drop

#scolippi vibes or whatever you know. make them stone #hi im having a moment with this colour palette currently just. let me okay #MORE BRUABBA BAYBEEEEE #jojo's bizarre adventure #jjba #vento aureo #golden wind #bruabba #bruno buccellati #bruno bucciarati #leone abbacchio #vento aureo spoilers #<- i guess. sort of #cw blood #<- barely but like. just in case lol #corps.art