#im just reallt fucking upset

[weebsinstash]

Hi :3 I was wondering if you had watch the new episode of helluva boss any thoughts or at least any thoughts/thots for Chaz or Crimson.

My procrastination is so bad I literally waited until like today to actually watch the new episode

I keep mentally tossing around what kind of special powers Reader could have that would make them like idk more interesting since all sinners are unkillable and I kind of keep circling back to "well if they're in limbo maybe they're not beholden to 'the rules' and can travel the rings' besides whatever other special powers they may have". Maybe Reader can be helpful in killing Hellborns since they have respawn mechanics and the other IMP members dont?

In terms of Crimson I actually think his behavior is going to be a lot like Val is going to be tbh, except with Val I think, unless you're a business associate or rival/enemy, that he wins you over emotionally or waits until he has something on you before he shows his darker side, since the Overlord is also a drug dealing mafioso of the Pride ring (also what's the deal with like shark people being criminals? Is Mammon a shark or something aquatic too? And when's gender daddy Asmodeus coming back, him n Val can pass me like a blunt 😩❤️). It's kind of stereotypical Mafia shit, everyone has ranking, loyalty is everything, obey orders unflinchingly, don't you dare talk back. Like I'm literally watching Crimson grab Moxxie's face and my stoned ass is sitting here like "sigh but Val grabbing Reader like that as he threatens them to 'fix their face before he fixes it for them' because theyre scowling and glaring at him while they serve him drinks and he forces them to smile 🥰" like big scary men got me acting unwise

I for one think it would be very funny if the Chaz introduction happened and in some alternate universe he's winking to Moxxie and Millie and just *finger guns at Reader* "and don't think I'm gonna forget about YOU either ;)" as Reader just visibly changes colors with embarrassment while IMP all turns to look at them, Reader flustered all "It was ONE TIME, I was really drunk, and--"

Like his stupid ass "sexually charged musical ballad" actually made me laugh like he could've maybe actually got me with that shit 💀like did you listen to the credits where they play the rest of the song. Laughing my ass off in my bedroom at 5am because the song suddenly ends with him saying all sing song "im finished" (cumming). and then Blitz says later in the episode that he's absolutely horrible in bed... lmao... can you imagine getting drunk and putting out for this man and then he wakes up and you're gone, note behind all "thanks for the fun time kthanksbye" meanwhile he's blowing up your phone, basically crushing on you, wanting something much more than just a really awkward one-off bang. I can only imagine what would happen to Reader if they were working for Val and someone very forward like Chaz or another ex shows up and the Overlord is getting jealous af because they're just being very openly flirtatious with you, maybe even brazenly mentioning some of the things you guys did together/in bed (also jesus the apples and oranges NIGHTMARE of having either Val OR Blitz know what you like in bed 💀 the teasing. The merciless fucking teasing. They would both clown on your ass so hard. You're just trying to have a glass of water in the IMP break room and in comes Blitz "wow you're really guzzling that, just like Chaz said you really liked giving h-" *insert not so playful strangling of your employer*)

Poor Reader constantly surrounded by demons hellbent (lol) on humiliating you and watching you get embarrassed because it's just so fun to watch you squirm until you're practically ready to cry 😩👌

#man i could actually see like. not that i talk about him a lot but i could see blitz accidentally going too far #and then having to grovel because he reallt fucked up and did something that upset you and youre basically ready to quit imp bc of a prank #sinprompts #yandere stuff #im just a simple woman running arouns thirsting after inhuman pieces of shit and my funny lil guys

[movingmyselfon]

26/02/2024, 22:19pm

It's a shame how people turn out when you never expected it from them

#nessa really disappointed me. #so much in a wah i never ever thoigjt she ever would #likd just completely flipped the wah she was #snd whag she thoight and stoof for #and completely blinded me with ber support of that fucking depp motherfuckiny bitch #im acruqltl reallt upset about it all #i desperately crave a new better job ameen f #coz i want to sah all this to her #i wang her to be aware of her hypocrisy and two faced #and forgetting her morqls.r #all for a 2 faved bitch who wnatef nothing of her betore she got power #literallt tbags its nothing more #i wish nothing for them botb noe #so sad so upsetting f #i evem helped her vet the 7 role in the first place #lol spat in my face didnt she. #stupid me alwags on the shite reciebing end #mytalks #work2.0

[s0urte3th]

huffy bitch

#at myself #imagine being so upse youre about to cry because #you didnt get the window seat in the airplane #you didnt get the spot closest to the night table so you cant charge your phone #because you had yohr feelings assumed #because they BOTH GET TO EXIST EASY WHILE IM PUSHED TO THE SIDE #I HAVE MY CHARGER IN THE FUCKING BATHROOM RN IM PISSED IM UPSET #I HAD TO FLY TODSH I HAVE TO BE NEAR MY DAMN PARENTS #dear GOD just let me fuvking rot away in my room #i want to speak with none of you #none of this shit matters js just all fucking stupid #idk why im about to cry #but im reallt close #idk why im so fucking overwhelmed i hage jt here

[transgaysex]

and also now im just vaguely paranoid of where i talk about what.

#wind howls #when i was on drawcast i made a drawing abt me being gay and my sibling saw it and told me they still accepted me and it- #was the most terrifying thing in the universe to me. theres nothing i want less than any of my siblings knowing my social medias. #and i know they had tumblr at one point. dunno if they still do. #and like on one hand i could make a more like. journal/vent ish blog and only let very few people know about it if anyone at all #but the problem is. that i feel better about stuff when i talk to other people about it. #talking abt my problems with my friends helps me feel better because then im not just. holding it all in. #and most of the time im told im allowed to be upset or valid in how im feeling and that really helps. #because ive been very used to being told i wasnt right to be mad or such in the past as a child or with bad friends. #so just. saying shit where nobody can see it wouldnt help me feel better. i cant just write i need to be read #which is unfortunate i think. on one hand it makes it that im not all that hard to comfort i think. on the other i cant do it on my own #and its nobodys job to make me feel better. so it feels like im in a weird spot #that being said its 5 am and ill keep it real. im reallt fucking tired and i feel like ive had a long ass day. #so goodnight.

[tinyorangepotato]

food. who needs it

#tiny talking #ive done a lot of these rceently huh #also i have 2aten more today. i made some mrs grass soup and ate around half a cup #and i did get some yogurt at the store and had 2 of them and i have 9 left #so thays proabbly what ill mainyl be eating for the time being. but like i wanna complain some more #i know im grown and i legit applied for my own food stamps because i dotn even make 1k a month and i barely eat even bwfore rn #but like my grandma would cook here and there and soemtimes itll bw soemthing i like and can stomach and others i just wont eat it #like she made a zucchini casserole with other things and it just was gross so i didnt eat that. its a gamble if she makes soemthing #and then anither if its soemthing i like. whicn i mean go ahead. shes making qhat she and my uncle likes (hes diabetic and got ds so hes fa #r more improtnant) but this last half a week shes onyl mad eor gotten things i like #its adtually kind of upsetting. friday (when i got my teeth pulled) she got kfc which i love expecially their cppies #and then the next day my cousins came over and we got fucking pizza and breadsticks. i once again ate applesauce becsuse of ym teeth #which i mean pizza for expecting more people to eta amke sense and we get it fairly often so not too upsetting #yesterday she made potoyes and i think soemthing else just for her papa and my uncle #and now today i come home from work and theres a double batch of mushroom risotto. broccoli soup. and hamburgers #broccoli soup is so good and galf of the goodness is the whole pieces of broccoli and i eat it by crushing up saltines #int he soup so its more like gruel (mush? idk. no liquid really) #and mushroom risotto is super good too and she made a double batch because everyone likes it and usually theres not enough for eveyone #to have some and be full from it. but i cant have any of that #(i dotn reallt like hambuger meat just in general) #but yeah i gues si could have some broccoli soup but then i gotta be extra cautious of the smaller pieces of brocoli and jot use crackers #and not have the bigger pieces and everything so its just not worth the hassle. its not /that/ good #but yeah. i cant remeber the last time she made it. its been motnhs at least and now ic ant fucking have any #and its not going to kepe long enough because ill try to stick with soft foods for the recomnded week and myabe longer #and the risotto doesnt keepnlong either #its reallt seems targeted but i know foe a favt it isnt. ahe just amde things everyone likes and that will get eaten #but god damn. its still upsetting. im just gonan have like 3 yogurts and watch red vs blue if anyone needs me #(thats a lie. imma go through my notofications and then do that)but fuck man #again im grown and can amke rhat stuff myself any everything but still #anyqyas. doen with this tiny talking at leats for now. maybe ill complain some more later on tonight

[spoonski]

hhh?

#vent post #so my ex from like 2 years ago texted me to be like 'i fucked up and none of my relationships have worked since us' #which i cant comment on bc one day he was just all 'i cant match your energy' or whatever and broke up with me #which i was upset by but i didnt let it haunt me bc hes in ireland and im in the US #and not to sound like a stuck up dick but i already could tell he regretted it bc he has been sporadically messaging me for 2 yrs #and swiping up on my story or commenting on posts to be all 'you look good' #ever since we broke up i have not once messaged him first #when he texted me that today i deadass had to check if mercury was in retrograde #ne ways i just responded that ive only reallt been in one relationship since but its currently kinda fizzling out #lil bit toxic but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[tallulah477]

LOL ty! im glad you think i could write JFJFFNND but nah i use a lot of run on sentences lmfao but i also have too many ideas that are in my head or on my notes app

but honestly the avatar universe is just so good on its own like i think u can make 28747373 fics out of the canon story like and still make more yk but i do love thinking of neteyam and loak in different aus like the royalty one 🤭 soon to be king neteyam whose bethrothed to another but loves his maid he known since childhood and plans to run away with her to a small cottage with a garden to sustain themselves

and prince loak doesnt reallt care for neteyams future wife (only cares abt training and finds her bratty) but as time passes when she goes to visit them he falls for her and her bitchy attitude (i imagine their relationship is all bark no bite)

and OMLLL loak who goes to visit her families nation/kingdom and as he's getting a tour of the place he can hear rumours from the knights or princes at the event later that night that theyve had sex with her and she was crazy shit like that

and then the first time they have sex he finds out shes a virgin and he would be just so SOFT with her and when she wants to ride him he says she just doesn't have too but shes like No I will then cue her getting the wind knocked out of her as she slowly inches further down on him and then he just takes over and fucks her from that position - he pulls her down to where theyre chest to chest and hes trying really hard to not go so fast bc its her first time but hes going crazy he gotta grip the sheets and lots of praise from loak saying shes being such a good girl for him and calling her his princess

im realizing i made their dynamics so 180 from eachother LMDAOKFJFNF

also i think yk whose who sending the messages based on the typing style but ill just do that emoji anon thing NFND

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I swear it's like you read my mind because I was just going to make a post today asking if you wanted to be my first emoji anon lmao

Welcome 🤍 Anon!!!

I completely agree that on its own the Avatar universe is so huge and one of the most ideal worlds to write in. It's so unique and real - like firmly settled in what it is and how thought out/meticulously it was crafted. But there's also so much room for fans to take bits of it and put their own spin on it while still staying true to the overall world as a whole. Like the queue play thing: we know how they work and what they do for the most part, but we're able to be like "hmmm, I think it would feel AMAZING if we put it here (wink, wink)" and play with it and attach it to body parts that James Cameron would probably be horrified if he knew what we were trying to do to the sacred alien appendage 😂

Catch up on the story:

Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four | Part Five

Extra: One | Two

CW:// None

I can just imagine Lo'ak's reaction after Neteyam and his girl run away together and Lo'ak becomes the future king-to-be. He'd be so upset because his whole life he's been compared to his older brother and always in his shadow and Neteyam always got everything, but at least Lo'ak got to focus on training and eventually he would be able to settle down with someone that he gets to choose. But noooo, Neteyam gets everything he wants, including the girl he wants, and just left Lo'ak there to take over every responsibility that he just up and dropped.

Now Lo'ak has to take be betrothed to the girl Neteyam was supposed to be with and she's got an attitude problem even more than before Neteyam left. But can you blame her? Poor girl grew up in a society where men ruled everything and woman were looked at as things to be used or bargaining pieces. She knows what's said about her - the rumors that other people make up about her to put her down. God forbid we ever have a strong, independent woman with any sense of self confidence. And she thought she was getting lucky with Neteyam, maybe she finally found someone who would respect her and treat her well. But he never gives her a chance, prefers the company of a maid, and then runs away with her.

Her confidence would be absolutely shattered after that and then here comes her replacement prince, the king of attitude himself, also scorned by his older brother's actions. They both have walls up, both have issues they have to deal with - but when those walls finally come down? Hoooo boy. Magic ��

#talie talks ♡ #🤍 anon #royalty au

[sharksa-shivers]

Want an idea of the beginning dynamic? Aitey lol

(Early af group chat stuff lol, Kristy still getting used to things…Max just drags her into one and then Sharky after a while lmao)

Kristy: Look, i'm fucking terrified of him okay???

Kristy: How in the hell are you not??? Did you see what happened earlier??? With that fish??? And you're still so set on him being harmless??? THAT WAS HORRIFYING TO WATCH HONESTLY…

Max: Lmao, i never said sharky couldnt be intimidating or scary or anything, he hella fucking can if he reallt wants to

Max: thing is that last bit tho, "wants to" would be your key phrase lol. Sharkys chill as fuck 99% of the time…Also he's a giant puss and would coward the fuck out of doing any of thay shit your so scared of. He memes but hed never get over it mentally if he actually hurt somebody like that lmao

Max: he harmlesssssssss uwu, you juwt don't wanna fuckin listen again

Kristy: IM…ARE YOU SERIOUS????

(~Mr. Darktide Rising~ has been added to the group chat. Welcome!!)

Sharky: Yo

Sharky: ….Oh we're on this shavinksta again? Ok.

Kristy: MAX, WHAT THE FUCJ???????

Max: lol, needa get over it, i ain't lettin ya worm out of friendship that easy

Max: Sharky, tell krista something fuckin cool, legit, like whatever

Kristy: God fucking damnit Max!!!!!!! AND IT'S KRISTY

Sharky: Erghhhhhh, hmmmm…

Sharky:(sends a picture of packaged gel pens)I got some new glitter gel pens, can't wait to use these bad boys on some art.

Sharky:(texts picture of a blue rock)Also got this cool aquamarine rock earlier too. It's my birthstone so that's pretty neat. (March, if you were wondering)

Sharky:(sends bunny gifs and stickers)Also bunnies.🐰Bunnies are cool.🐇 You like bunnies Kristy? Pretty sure everybody does… Kristy: anxiety overwhelming, can't do this, fuck…

(Kristy - Has left the chat)

Sharky: ……..Oh, ok.

Max: Man, don't feel bad, just gotta keep trying…

Sharky: I shouldn't fucking have to keep trying to get some basic fucking respect but whatever…

Sharky: Never mind, fucking hell…Gonna draw, maybe rest. Dunno, just…I need to calm down, fucking hell…

Sharky: Fucking hate myself more and more every damn day…And I never actually fucking do anything to earn that…I haven't ever hurt anybody but everyone fucking hurts me…Sick and tired of it…

Max: Dude, fuck, cmon!!!

Sharky: Nah, i can't like…Handle this right now, i need to lay down, really upset now…Just want alone time…

Sharky: I know you want to fix it and i appreciate it Max but you can't fix everything, you can't. You just can't…And some people are always going to fucking hate me for what i am and i can't change that either…

Sharky: Ffs…So fucking done…

Max: Plz, just wait a minute!!!

Sharky: Anyway, laters, peace…

(~Mr. Darktide Rising~ has left the group chat)

Max: like fuckin hell i wont at least try to fix everything

Max: ……..This ain't over and i ain't deletin shit…Ima keep dragging both of you together until you get along on basic terms, this is fuckin ridiculous as fuck ------------- Yeah, so this is more a starting point lol Kristy at first is ABSOLUTELY PETRIFIED of Sharky...And for all the usual reasons... At first Sharky tries to explain and befriend her and whatnot but Kristy is so scared and distrusting of everyone (Probably because she got...yknow, kidnapped and dragged halfway across the world or something, idk lol) She doesn't trust him at all and is constantly thinking the worst of him... So thusssssssssss Sharky starts getting more bitter and pissy and angry towards her because...Well, fuck it. He's tired of being nice to somebody that's constantly throwing shit at him...Which, i do not blame him. (Sharky does have his limits as does...Everyone...) And Max is just like...The awkward middle man that's trying to fix shit because Sharky's his best friend/brother and Kristy's like his new bestie and "wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll we're a team now so you two dumbasses are gonna have to get along to some capacity!!!!" And Max isn't wrong there with the last point either lol... Kristy warms up more to Sharky as she gets more comfortable being in the Campsite and being forced around Sharky and whatnot...It just takes time...And Sharky isn't going to reject somebody who wants to change their mind on him (because he's had to do that a ton of times in his life and...He always wants that circle of close people to get bigger so...) Yeah, yknow lol Also Max is bad at remembering people's names (with Kristy tho, cuz she's being urhhh so bitchy towards the Campsite people who had absolutely nothing to do with her kidnapping and everything, he starts saying the wrong names on purpose cuz it pisses her off lol, that's a beginning joke...) And also also, in case you're wondering: Sharky ate a fish alive in front of em, that's what Kristy was going off about in the beginning bit lol...

#kidnappedseries #kidnappedseries dialog stuff #kidnappedseries rambles

[decayinghearg]

why do all my friends have so much more fun than me ??? we all do basically the same things since we are together 85% of the time but why are they so relaxed ?? they arent stressed like ever ?? i think we were just raised different. i had to be stressed and anxious abt everything to survive. now i feel like i can only have fun when im high, because when im high im not anxious. my mind finally can take a break and i can pause every racing thought i have. they judge me and the fact that im high all the time but i bet if they were me they would want to be high all the time too. it makes me so mad when my bsf ridicules me for smoking everyday. at least im not cutting myself or in the hospital every other month like i used to be. nothing in my life is super negative unless you wanna count how much i smoke. i just can never relax. its always been like that. to relax (not really relax but cope) when i was 13-14 i would just watch anime and cut myself all up in down my arms until i had no more space. now i do the same thing but im smoking weed and happy. if thats helping me cope why is it so bad? reallt tho. whats the worst outcome for smoking weed. the first time i ever smoked weed was september 2021. i was with my bsf (at the time) and my neighbor let us hit his cart. i didnt smoke many times after that until july 2022. since it was summer, i would go over my friends house and he was dating that same friend from the first time i ever smoked. they are still my best friends. from july thru september i would smoke maybe three times a month. until august i met a friend. i was having issues with my july thru september friends so i would hang out with this new friend, he smoked a lot of weed. we would hang out every weekend and get so high i could not walk. around october-november ish, i bought a cart. idk how many but the first one i bought was in october. i didnt have a battery so i would make a crack wire. the friend from sep 2021 found out abt this and called me a fiend, idk and basically just made me feel like shit. even tho !! she smokes every single day… i felt bad abt that. in january i bought my first eighth for a party i thru at my house. february 1st 2023 i bought a cart and a battery and the cart was finished before march. idk why i am writing all of this for tumblr to see. i guess ive just been upset with people judging me for coping in a way thay helps me. i say that but i see myself being too obsessed with weed. in october 2021 with those two friends, i was sucking on that fucking cart my neighbor gave me all night. im always the friend who is down to smoke no matter what. idk maybe i feel this way ibecause my bsf always judges me w how much i smoke. moral of the story, i smoke too much and i dont plan on stopping. i hope this doesnt bite mw in the ass and my whole life crumbles. i dont think it will. i applied to like 10 jobs, i go to school almost everyday, i havent cut since november, things r looking up.

[seraphimsinful]

My grandma gave me a card that says my name,"thoughts and prayers" and thats it. Thats it. No calling me sunshine,no long notes in her handwriting,no secret five bucks. What have i done to deserve this.

#i fucking hate myself #im so fucking useless and evil #my grandma hates me and didnt even wanna be around me #i feel so numb and i havent been clean for a week #im such a dissapointment #im just reallt fucking upset #i wish i could just die and nothing would happen but i wouldnt wanna potentially make anyone upset #idk would it even matter #i wanna just not wake up haha <3 #like im genuinely having the worst fucking day and i hate myself for being so selfish about it #what the fuck

[curiously-a-dreamer]

I’m smart, sexy, and incredibly good at learning, and that’s why this fucking university is out here with every fucking bit of theatrics

#im upset!!!!! #just let me take my fucking courses oh my god #does every course need its own two special websites? #is that reallt necesary?? #stop making me do inane bullshit #i will stsrt committing murderd #and then they want to charge me money #for something thats free on campus #even though i literally have no other iption? #devil’s work #anyhow if you have access to a pirated version of Maple labs #id appreciate it #sorry for yelling #but im so angry #WE DONT EVEN GET GRADED FOR USING THE SOFTWARE #BUT ITS MANDATORY???? #fuck all the way off mayhaps???? #cursing cw #osy mumbles

[movingmyselfon]

04/09/2022, 21:24pm

So disappointed with some 'friendships'

#like jabba got married and then suddely stopped talking to me properly #like stopped talking to me while she went on al to get married like either given me 1 word answers #or nothing at all #like wtf youre THAT busy every single minute of the day? i think the fuck not #and i havent met her since shes come back but shes fucked off on al again with her husband in her now halal relationship #and im just so disappointed coz this girl talked to me all the fucking time anf now i think aboit it its mainly wben she has an issue #like i supported her so nuch when she started helped me so much and this is what i get in return #i mean ill just wait for her messages when she has a problem at work or something goes wrong or someone upsets or annoyes her #as usual just uses me and im just done like its clear we're not reallt friends #i think we're more work friends for sure like if in some miracle i get another job i highlt doubt we'll talk much #fucking had a bf and wears fucking revealing clothing but she gets everything too literally wtf have i dont so fucking wront surely csnt be #jsuy thay fuckiny thing #fml fucking fml for eternity im so fuckiny done with my life and watching literally everyone get whay ive always wanted #and what i desperately pray for secretly and keep to myself whats the fcukiny point seriously #mytalks #t

[vivid-wisp]

Can the fireworks literally just fucking stop and shut the fuck up

God I hate America sometimes, and I’ve lived in this state my entire life

like I’m getting real sick and tired of getting out of bed to check on my dogs because I’m so paranoid they’ll also somehow escape and runaway because people ARE LITERALLY FUCKING SHOOTING FIREWORKS EVEN AFTER 4TH OF JULY

And you know what? Unrelated to the fireworks but the intrusive thoughts of me clicking google sync and syncing up my accounts even though it might still contain the malware because it syncs bookmarks and extensions makes me even more paranoid which just stresses me both, THEY BOTH STRESS ME OUT IS WHAT IM SAYING

I FUCKING HATE HAVING THESE WEIRD IMPULSES AND UNCONTROLLED THINKING LIKE STABBING MY EYE WITH A TOOTHPICK OR BLINKING HARD SEVERAL TIMES

and I thought I was just a fucking weirdo

#im going to lose my fucking mind #i am still reallt upset everytime i think about my dog being gone #but i just.. need to gone hardwiring that shes gone. rather than shes missing #because if i do that. i give myself hope.. and.. unforunately her being found is.. not a good chance anymore.. after 4 whole days of gone.. #so just... i just still need to wait this period out.. my emotions will eventually get a hold of themselves #and just.. ill get better. i just need to keep telling myself that.. ill get better. ill get better.. #in the meantime.. i need to distract myself with my hyperfixations... i need to dont that.. desperately #...sigh. it still hurts. and itll probably always hurt.. not knowing what ever happened to deeno #but i can only hope that shell be alright now.. i love you deeno... im sorry #vent

[homeofphobes]

My mum just came into my room and lectured me about not being happy enough

(Not in a concerned parent sort of way in a “shut up and smile I can’t be bothered” way)

#she meant that her bf has enough to worry about and i shouldnt make it worse #oh and she has to worry ahout work and loosing her job but i dont so i should be happy #AND LIKE I ACUTALLY HAVENT DONE ANYTHING TO INDICATE ME NOT BEING HAPPY #shes upset that i spend so much time in my room BUT LIKE BRUH I DONT LIKE BEING AROUND YOY WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME EVERY 2 SECONDS TO CHECK #WETHER I LOOK HAPPY OR NOT #LIKE I DONT SMILE ALL OF THE TIME #im reallt fucking sorry me having varied facial expressions and human emotions bothers you #you know what let me just stop. youre right ive got absolutely no right to have feelings #like i am an actual person... #and i just want to watch shit tv and sleep IM NOT GETTING IN UR WAY #and you tell me that you want me to come downstairs so you can see me #BUT WHEN I DO ALL I GET IS OH YOU DONT LOOK HAPPY AND OH STOP SULKING YOUVE GOT IT SO EASY #AND LIKE YES OFC I DO....IM ACTUALLY QUITE HAPPY #suprise suprise youre the one making me not happy. so just leave me alone

[z0roark]

hh

#i reallt hate that the iz creator is out there likr zim is an adult for his species ! #while also being like uhhhhh zim and gaz would of been cannon #ss.txt #its just so uncomfy and bad #pedophillia ment #i saw this wild post abt how he actually just changed the age bcs hes been homophobic and nasty to zim dib shipers for years #which sounds stupid but also i cant find anythknh older than this year where he says zim is an afukt ??? #just v much to clarify i dont ship adults and kids thats fucking nasty #im just *vibrates* bcs inconsistent cannon stresses me out so ove been looking into it and just upset myself :(

[softshouyous-archive]

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#i love being contacted just for the sake of someone needing something (~: #it feels really fucking shitty ladies #i called my friend today to see how she was doing #and shes like one of the irl friends i dont see too often bc we dont go to school together nor do we really mesaage each other #so i wanted to see how she was doing and ((((((: thst fucking backfired #she was like what do you need you dont call without a purpose i dont buy it #and i did feel bad bc for a while i would call to talk about something or a problem so i wanted to change that and yo just see how she was #doing. but she kept denying it and asking what i had to say and it was so frustrating and a little insulting #like she never fuckimg contacts me so i have to or else we wont reqlly talk abd this is the fuckimg result?? im trying to change a bit of #our friendship for the better and this is whay happens???? and then she said to she had to go and that shed call later #and she did and all she fucking asked me for was about dmv stuff and getting an official state id #i was so fucking upset like wtf????? idk i just felt reallt used and like she didnt give a shit and i know I'm probably making it a #bigger deal than it is but jm so upset and frustrated with our friendship right now??? and when she was done asking she was like 'okay bye' #and hung up #im so??? i feel lile she doesnt fucking care about me even if that may not be the case because that's how shes making me feel #and last year she forgot my birthday because it was after her and her bfs anni and that just makes it worse because she put SO much effort #into remembering and organizing their anni but didnt even fuckint bother to remember my birthday like!!! okay nice yo know that you care abt #him more than your friends!!! or just me!!! because it feels like she cares about everyone else more than me and im just there when #its convenient (~: and the other day she called me to study and i coulsnt bc i had?? school?? and i was like sorry i would if i could and #she wss like why dont you ask me to study and i was like?? you always get distracted and it felt like you blamed me once?? and idk whenever #youre free bc you dont know when youre free??? and when youre not free its too late bc you didnt let me know??? #god this whole thing is a fucking mess and i am judt so upset #i put in effort and it gets totally fucking dismissed and i get questioned and asked why i dont put in effort and am used for convenince #anf am not even thought of because im apparently below everyone else and am not evem worth putting effort into to spend time with (~: #dl