#im kinda freaking out rn

[mossy-moth]

hahaaa what if i set up a donation post/emergency comms since me and my fiancee are in kinda deep shit money wise rn..... haha jk...... UNLESS.........

#the thing is paypal sucks but its the only thing we have in sweden that DOESNT include my phone number #but uh #if any swedish mutuals would like to send literally anything #please dm me #im kinda freaking out rn #we need 3000 (about 284usd i think) pretty like #like now #cool cool coolcoolcool

[give-grian-rights]

can someone tell me why im being abnormal about a character i've barely touched the content of. like yay yippie i watched like 20 hours of you. there's fucking 80 years of content get me OUT OF HERE?

#yeah this is about nightwing. yes im a freak about him no i don't do well with comics #shout out to duke thomas in the we are robin comic i've had in my browser tabs for three weeks now #sorry king. #i mean i guess it makes sense because theres So many characters in media that you can't even get 20 hours out of . but. BUT ITS NOT FAIR. #i want to read comics so bad. i try to. i have. i've started several #blue beetle 2009 nightwing 2016... superman & batman world's finest #i was able to finish teen titans world's finest but that was only. like. six issues #comics as a medium just has this thing where. you're dropped in and it kinda expects you to know what's happening #and leaves you feeling like you started on the wrong page. like blue beetle. loved you but man that was not the greatest first comic to rea #wait i forgot i read hawkeye 2011(?) and that also had the same issue. but more so each installment like #felt like it was starting on a point AFTER something happened like i was meant to be reading another comic before i got to that issue. #i got. like. idk 18? 19? comics into that one. and 12 into nightwing. nightwing wasn't as bad but it just. gah. like several-issue long #stories carried across batman and nightwing and its like.OUGH. #i know im mutuals with a comic person. hi. i know you're cringing. #there are so many good characters to come out of comics. its just SO HARD to get into. #rn i dont have an excuse with We Are Robin. just that i've been infected with needing to play the sims for 8 hours a day. #mika-posts

[silly-gloomurai]

alright im gonna put some bombs outside of my room and if anyone gets near my room the bombs are going to explode

and im giving the bombs knives so they will feel safe

#twst rp #twst idia #ngl im kinda freaking out rn ><

[imslowlydisintegrating]

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#I GOT A DRUMSET #AKSDBJLJAKSDJBKALDBJKAS #FREAKING OUT RN #SDJKjlaksDKJASDBL:ASDJBASD #AHHHHASDKBNLASJASHD #HASNDKASBLJ #AHHH #evvy talks to the void #innocent sin #<- kinda #im their drummer

[10hourshift]

Chapter 10

<previous -begining- next>

it's toddy time yay

#fnafhs #fhs #:*3 #freddy fnafhs #bon fnafhs #joy fnafhs #meg fnafhs #toddy fnafhs #i pretty much had the sketch done 4 this 4 some time now #when i wnated to move foowards from that i got like worried 4 like the designs. specially meg (and she isnt that important rn) #mainly the crutches thing i wanted to know why she would need them and ended up diving into medical websites researching how that works #and then forgot about the comic and move onto smthg else. :P (this happenend many different times also) #whatever im gonna post this now bc the colors look weird when they are on the computer and it kinda freaks me out lol

[httpiastri]

how about if... i just... don't do my work.....

#ohhh right i was supposed to connect my phone! i totally forgot about that!! and i didn't read that par #of the email you sent me... just all other parts... and even though you told me to do it this tuesday and also last week i just forgot... #pls i'm so unmotivated #i speedran a lot of my work stuff but now it's like #my job computer has freaked out and i should go to the like it services help but i just can't be bothered #idk the guys working there are kinda sketchy (and they're probs on lunch break rn) plusssss i don't have a like access card (????) so like #if i leave the office i cant really get back in so i'll have to knock on the door and hope someone lets me in lol i just don't wanna #the only assignment i have left for the day is something i need the work computer to do but i just don't wanna talk to people to get help.. #also none of my bosses or coworkers in my department are here... its just me and this one lady from the economy department so no one knows #she either listening to really loud music in her headphones or she doesn't even have headphones?? either way i can hear her music clearly 😶 #also!! the n1 thing i should do but just cant is #im supposed to go to the front desk and like connect my phone to my boss's number so i get her calls because shes on holiday or whatever #but like... i still really really *really* can't talk on the phone #there's just no way im doing that #i just don't know how to fake like #sounds believable? #much more fun to rant in tags than to work 👍 #and to think of how obsessed i am with lando norris #OMG PAUL F2 ANNOUNCEMENT RN AS IM TYPING AAAAAA #HELP

[coffee-bat]

do you guys think tumblr will be shut down

#sorry im kinda spiraling into anxiety rn #i need a second opinion bc im freaking out and i know it #ramble

[everymlmhybrid]

this part genuinely makes me feel like eating dry wall like i can't explain how i feel about it without making some of you finally tire of me and block me about it i think

#.txt #reservoir dogs - #sorry for just randomly posting clips . i was actually working on my vid i swear but then i started Thinking. and here we are. #anyways going genuinely insane in the tags . i'm so sorry. -> #(im only sorry for the sheer amount of tags or if u disagree w/ my interpretations / headcanons. if ur just annoyed lmfao sucks to be you!) #anyways. you guys ever think abt the way orange HAS TO know white's lying to him abt his odds of survival. #bc i think abt that genuinely constantly. all the time thinking about it. #also the ''joe's gonna get you 100% again'' -> first of all . lol. second of all -> ''he was the only one i wasn't 100% on'' hello? HELLO!! #also freddy's voice here makes me feel like punching walls . like it makes me wail in anguish. #no but yeah i think abt the theme of lying & the fact some of the first lies we hear are in this scene in a way #also this part is leaning wayyy harder on headcanon but i always think. like if orange WASNT lying abt who he is. then it'd be reasonable #forhim to not know how likely he is to die and/or how blatantly larry's lying (''i'm talking days!'') but as a cop he SOOO knows he's fcked #but like . what's he gonna do. ''hey i know that's bullshit'' like obviously not and partly bc of How he knows but also bc like #you just don't argue with the only guy who's caring for you while you're seemingly on the brink of death!! LMAO #and certainly not when he's the only one telling you you'll be fine!! even if he's just bullshitting you so you don't freak out!! #I DON'T KNOW i go kinda insane about this scene . as . you can tell. #if you too are insane about this and the implications . don't worry. in several months. my fic will feed you. you will see. #idk . larry lying to and/or for him <33333333 kinda makes me go insane. kinda makes me go wild. #idk. i should be getting ready for bed rn. WHATEVER. bye. logging off. if you read all these i'm in love with you okay #i've just been turngin them around in my head like a microwave for hours so i needed to infodump or else i would explode i think

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it #its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul #crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to #say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to #let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to #physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill #somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes #energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating #and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make #work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics #so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while #i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation #rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all #the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals #like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too #but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them #if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she #works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology #i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying #at least i get to work with some culturs this week #unrelated

[citrinide]

On a soft stupid Sunset shipper note:

#every quiet down it's 'Cin talks about Wheatgel again' time #Finally having updated Wheatley's design from it's last phase is so relieving #becaue now both of them are at a place where im happy with the way they look #and and and. elements of their designs are direct references to each other and. #listen im gay. wheatgel propaganda persists even in the game where you can actively pursue either of them #secret wheatgel ending where you fail so miserably at rizzing them up during their shared event that they just date each other instead /j #i wouldnt be that cruel. (says the man with multiple endings where MC gets... discontinued we'll say <3) #anyway wheatley and nigel are my faves of their respective sets rn and i am sobbing im..im going to put them next to each other #this js me coping hours okay #no time for wheatgel when i have a game to work on. the woes of a single person dev team </3 #this isnt a cry for help btw im fine ive made more progress in the past couple months than i have during the past 5 years #... probably because 4/5 were an indefinite hiatus to focus on school and my mental health erm #and now im doing this kinda shit for a degree! woo! this will be my job or something maybe! #going to start tagging these with sunset.am #sunset.am #since i also call wheatgel Sunset and idk. in case someone wants to filter me ralking about my comfort ship out ig... #or stalk it and like every single one like a freak (affectionate) you choose. #i like talking about them. makes me happy idk.

[kummatty]

ok well I made the (apparently huge) mistake of taking out my nose ring for one (1) day and now I can't get my other one back in so I'm going to a piercing place in the hopes that they can fix it . I also learned I'm incredibly attached to it since I had a break down last night and this morning abt it..... pls pray that it works and everything's fine

#the whole thing is collossally stupid #like how could it close in one dayyy #and i cant even describe my attachment #im freaking out like what if it closed permanently and i have to get it stitched a 4th (?!?) time or worse what if i cant cuz #theres too much scar tissue #ffs #its such a small thing but i feel sickkk #my face isnt my face w/out nose jewelry ig #i know theres a lot of other stuff on my mind rn and this just kinda broke the dam but it feels soooo dumb all of it

[littlegoldfinchh]

ough spending the whole day alone sucks ngl

#not having anyone to talk to really fucking sucks #and like. i dont mean texting i mean actual physical talking #kinda freaking out over nothing rn im just lonely and stressed bc of it

[sanchoyo]

i start that new job tomorrow 😶 ...

#... im not sure if itll be a full day or just 'more paperwork/general tour/training' tho kinda hopin for maybe like a half day TwT;; #im very nervous and considering taking one of the old anxiety meds i still have #from when i was in therapy. except idk if theyre still in date + they made me feel like a zombie which is why i stopped taking them lol #like i was SO out of it on them. but would that be preferable 2 the feeling of Soon Entering Cardiac Arrest levels of anxiety im having rn? #maybe... #+ going to take a sleeping pill around 10 to make sure i dont stay up all night freaking myself out #jkdkjfhjjk can my brain be normal about this. i havent even started the job yet calm down!!! calm down!!! its ok!!!! #i just feel so bad bc everyone has been rly nice. like 'omg yay u found a chill job w insurance RIGHT before u get kicked off urs thats #great ik youll do well!!' and its like well what if i DONT do well what if i freak out again. and self sabotage. then what. like i KNOW #its bad and i KNOW what i SHOULD be doing but its like herding geese over here in my brain zone. painful and bad and i dont understand why #things happen at all its confusing and frustrating to deal with #logically i know i need a job. i need to pay my debts and start saving and I WANT to move out! but its like that fine dining and breathing #scene from spongebob. brain on fire. lol #sanchoyorambles

[screechwhisper]

So I think my mom might have bpd

#personal #idk what to do anymore #im kinda scared #to be around her rn #not bc of thst but she just freaks out a lot

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#it's so weird trying to describe yourself when u really aren't something u used to be #like until i was probably 21 or so id say i was shy. very very shy. but now im like was that even true? was i ever shy bc im not now #maybe i was just quiet and anxious. maybe thats just what being shy is. but im still both of those things but im not shy #im sorta like a hermit. i dont really go around ppl if i can avoid it but i dont hate being around ppl. its just that im less anxious when #im alone. but if u put me around ppl i like to talk to them so im not shy. ill say whatever. i dont really give a fuck #but if u throw me in a group i go back to being a non entity. i guess thats just being an introvert with an asocial streak #thats a thing i noticed while i was at the grad weekend i attended in march. the group would gather and do things while i kinda just #wandered away from them to poke at trees and sit in the snow. i dunno i just feel better away from ppl. my brain gets a lot louder if ive #been too social. which is a shame bc its interesting to watch ppl and understand how thry work #my friend came over to day goodbye before i leave next week. which was nice. i wish we would have hung out more in person but so it goes #and i think in my head im a lot more contained thst i actually am. like if u set me a task that becomes my focus but im also sorta all over #the place. partly bc i think my brain works on like a lag. and also my mood is a little elevated rn so im sorta like *jazz hands* and #talking too fast and too much and oversharing. yesterday i was instrucing an undergrad and felt so bad bc my brain was all over the place. #could not b made linear. im tired now tho bc theres nothing more draining than being emotionally honest and talking for like 2hrs. woof. it #so hot. like fucking so hot bc the monsoons have started and humidity is up so my swamp cooler is fucked and its gotta b at least 80 degree #inside my apartment. holy christ. and the temp has been over 100 degrees for like at least 2 weeks. its so hot its kinda alarming. and im #glad my friend was also freaked out by how hot its been bc oh god its hot. and i cant focus. ive done fuck all today. but i did get rid of #couch which is so so so great. ugh. someone make the sun stop making it so hot #unrelated #its been over 100 degrees outside for like 2 weeks. not on my apartment #and when i say i wish i spent more time with my friend irl. i mean it in a distant sort of way. like thats how im supposed to feel. like i #dont kno if thats actually what i feel or i kno im supposed to b social but idk if i actually mean it