#im losing my mind at this point

[qualityrain]

you put a stop to that sweet, sweet fairytale kingdom

that is the distorted world where i

met you

shuake week day 1: fairtytales / reunion / secret relationship

#hiiii all my stuff for shuake week is so out of point do NOT MIND IT #our light lives so rent free in my head i start crying everytime im always in pain #idk that that is where i met you is so……….intimate idk LOL #also i will never draw a background again this made me lose braincells i was suffering for like 10 hours #shuake #shuakeweek2023 #p5r #jokers hair took 3 years off my life #akechi goro #persona 5 protagonist #my art #doodle #doodles

[ganondoodle]

you know when you have an idea for a drawing and it just wont let you rest until you at least sketched it?

... yeah

....

demise and hylia (humanoid forms) sleepy cuddles o((>ω< ))o

#ganondoodles #zelda #art #tloz #loz #demise #hylia #doodles #i know this is a super rough sketch #i slapped some darker and lighter colors on it bc you else you wouldnt be able to make sense of it lmao #im up way too late #....this took me so many hours #i know it doesnt look like it #but god is it HARD to draw two people somewhat intertwined #you wouldnt believe how many copies of the same sketch are in one file bc i kept havign to redo it but was too scared to lose a better one #i had this in mind since yesterday and i just cannot get it out of my head #its a little scene from wayyyy late into the story but i dont know if im gonna keep it this way #still trying to make it .... less self indulgent #............................. listen i still feel embarassed about it all #i dont know how i will live through actually paint them kissing at some point #i know its my own comic and all but drawing it in the actual comic still feels -official- to me #none of this makes sense #its almost 2am im not thinking right anymore #but this sketch would not have let me sleep until i got it to this point at least #i love them so much i dont know how to express it ever aaaaaaaaaaarhdeskfbhgkdf

[akashis-waifu]

As someone who's used to rareships, this is driving me insane

#neuvifuri #genshin impact #neuvillette #furina #focallette #BRO AT THIS POINT I DONT KNOW IF MY MIND'S PLAYING TRICKS AT ME OR HOYO IS UPTO SOMETHING #like i have so much brainrot i've already watched their scenes in 3 different languages #ALL JUST TO FIND OUT WHAT THEIR RELATIONSHIP REALLY IS #like based on the AQ they're more or less co-workers #in her SQ they're friends #so i was like okay theyre not really THAT canon i can finally fcking rest my brain #BUT EVERYTIME I WAKE UP #EVERY SINGLE DAY #HOYOVERSE MAKES A NEW NEUVIFURI CONTENT #IM LOSING MY MIND SEND HELP

[decolonize-the-left]

IM: In her final communique, during what a friend of mine called revolutionary suicide, she told the world “I want to be identified as Aaron Bushnell” but from the LillyAnarKitty Twitch account.

I think it’s still ambiguous what those motives were. A few of us thought, you know, maybe this is strategic. She wanted to leave making Aaron the martyr and the icon, while also leaving breadcrumbs to Lilly for those of us in the know.

A friend of mine said maybe she just couldn’t bear to erase herself completely.

[...]Probably the biggest reference for who Bushnell was was her reddit account. She was a pretty consistent reddit poster for a month in 2014, then again consistently from 2020 onwards. And, for one thing, Bushnell was furtively hanging out in some trans reddit communities, just sticking her toe in. Like r/transclones [a reddit devoted to trans Star Wars memes] and r/unixsocks [a programming reddit where the overwhelming majority of users are trans women]. You see someone wander into the trans girl playhouse and you do… you make some assumptions. It was nothing definitive, but this would be the eggiest cis person alive, if nothing else. The other thing I noticed was just that she was incredibly passionate about trans rights. When Bushnell described the situation on the ground for trans people in the U. S. I could feel in it my own desperation. If you’ve read Zinnia Jones’ coverage of it, if you’ve read Erin Reed’s coverage of it, or if you’ve read, well, your own coverage at Assigned Media, there was a sense of that fear, that anger, reflected back at me. If Bushnell was a cis man, this was a cis man that got it in a way cis people rarely do.

Assigned: And this is part of why you’re not quite as worried about being wrong, right? IM: If somehow I fucked this up completely and this person was not what they appear to me to be, if Aaron Bushnell, he/him was the only version that ever existed, I can only conclude that he would understand how the misunderstanding came about. And I think, I hope, this is someone who would understand that what is happening is in good faith and from a sense of love and obligation.

#im losing my mind that the twitch name changed the 25th #....my logic at that point would be I Might As Well Live My Truth Somewhere First #god #and i bet on some level they Knew their death would only matter if they were identified as Aaron Bushnell

[suffarustuffaru]

so i talked a bit about reinjulisuba on this blog in the past like in this one ask but now ive made a quick and easy diagram summarizing their whole deal <3

#rezero #re:zero #natsuki subaru #reinhard van astrea #julius juukulius #arc 5 spoilers #THE REZERO BOY DRAMA IS INSANE 😭😭 they are so mentally ill knwdjdnd #reinjuli having not one not two but THREE brain chemistry life altering first meetings is fucking insane #julius is always cursed to have the worst first meetings of his life with random twinks #and julisuba being so stuck in astrea drama is so horribly funny 😭 theyre honorary family members at this point #THEN THERES REINSUBA BEING FREUDIAN….. #im never not losing my mind over them #i need to make a diagram with otto included in it also bc it gets EVEN WORSE… #rezero boy drama is crazy as always. theyre all deranged in different directions. i hate these men #reinhard knowing that reid is Like That and never telling/getting the chance to tell julius is the cherry on top 😭😭 #i need a 100k slow burn reinjulisuba fic STAT. im begging on my knees #also julisuba being into each other but also reinhard (platonic or romantic) but also admitting OUT LOUD that reinhards a monster. im crying

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Lan Sizhui's no good, very bad day

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#Poorly Drawn MDZS #MDZS #season 1 #wei wuxian #lan sizhui #jin ling #lan jingyi #remember being in middle school when your friends would start testing fate and you were losing your mind cause you were still a lawful kid? #yeah thats this whole scene #Jin ling would throw rocks at a grizzly in the middle of a camping trip #feeling a bit dejected at my fluctuation with progress art wise #Im not a fan of this one at *all* especially as we're catching up to the point i start figuring out better paneling

[spinjitsuburst]

holy shit i've spent the past four real life days trying to beat a minigame in stardew valley and i couldn't beat it until today i was doing it and i zoned out while thinking really hard about the logistics of vengestone production and distribution prior to the events of crystalized and i beat it moral of the story zone out and think about a very specific aspect of ninjago you can accomplish anything

#pov my brain: harumi's secretive nature would imply that vengestone is only available through a black market but then how does that explain #the police having it in season 6 AND if it was a niche black market prior to this how would nadakhan have gotten his hands on it and him #doing so implies a level of understanding of elemental powers which makes sense given arrakore mentioned djinnjagan(?) dragons but that #doesn't explain how he- HOLY SHIT I'M AT 48800 POINTS OH MY GOD #anyways #also for anyone who knows stardew i was doing the get 50k points in junimo kart challenge #i was about to throw my switch #ANYWAYS I THINK I'LL MAKE A POST DISCUSSING VENGESTONE STUFF BECAUSE I NEED IT TO MAKE SENSE #losing my mind someone help me #spinjitsu screams #im not tagging sv or ninjago im not clogging the tags with my unhinged rambling

[what-are-even-humans]

Anyone got any recs for actual play dnd (or other ttrpg) podcast thats actually intended to be audio based and not "Visual but we turned the audio into a podcast"??

#ive got over an hour commute EACH WAY 5 days a week now and theres only so many educational podcasts you can listen to before realising that #youve essentially extended your workday another 2-3 hours each day. oh and i also have trainings which are another 40 minute commute IN THE #OPPOSITE DIRECTION #:'( #but yeah i digress. i need podcasts where i get to turn my mind off #ive been through taz and ive tried cr and dimention20 but its too visually based and i feel like im missing out or have to focus way toomuch #also did listen to dungeons and daddies but parents loosing their kids is a trigger for me so yeah... #so preferably tips where child endangerment / looking for lost kids / losing parents isnt a big plot point #not space

[hjemne]

I could go on for years and years about Knives in Trimax, but THIS makes me physically unwell. Knives was the one who was constantly worrying that humans weren't going to accept him or Vash, and he was the one who first raised the question of becoming friends with humans, not Vash. When he asks Conrad (the second human he's ever met) what he thinks of him and Vash, there is a genuine fear of being rejected and is so relieved by Conrad's answer he cries. Knives is the sensitive, emotional child who needs the support of Vash, Rem and other humans to feel like he has a place in the world.

Conrad says if they can love someone with their whole heart, they'll be able to work and live together, but then what happens immediately after?

Knives and Vash discover Tesla. She is the only other Independent like them, and humans treated her like a science specimen and experimented on her body fell apart and she died horribly. Knives is 1 year old, and he's having to process THIS, knowing he can no longer trust any adult around him. Knives - again, remember he's the sensitive one - faints and Vash says he wishes he had also been able to cut himself off from the agony of the realisation too.

I absolutely adore that bottom panel of Knives' hope that they can coexist being stripped away. The boy he was just is not compatible with the world he finds himself in and this is the foundation of his adult self we see throughout the rest of Trimax.

With Knives unconscious, the focus then shifts to Vash who has the chance to confront Rem. It's incredibly significant that Knives is not part of that conversation and never lets himself be emotionally vulnerable around Rem again to have a similar talk with her where he might have been able to process his feelings like Vash did.

Vash actually tries to stab himself with a knife (and there's metaphors in that for someone else to unpack) and Rem prevents him, injuring herself in the process. Vash then turns against Rem and tries to kill her, severely wounding her and saying he won't shed a single tear for her before suddenly becoming overwhelmed by remorse and rushing to save her. Vash, who had been refusing food, then finally starts to eat as Rem tells him he's got a blank ticket to the future and not to throw his life away because there are good people out there. Only after Rem and Vash have come to this truce / understanding does Knives wake up.

He has realised that Rem not only knew about Tesla, not only kept her a secret, but was also involved in her abuse. He goes from having a heart absolutely bursting with love and hope, to learning that even the person he loved was capable of unspeakable violence against his kind. His childhood, his dreams, his support is all taken from him, and when Vash seems to forgive and forget, he's also cut off from the one person who could fully understand him. He either genuinely forgets or (what I think is more likely) pretends to have no memory of the discovery. This is where Knives is separated from both Vash and humans, and this is the point where he starts on his path of no return.

KNIVES was the one who loved humans, who was deeply deeply upset at the thought of not being accepted by them. When he finds Tesla, he realises he and Vash can never be fully accepted or fully safe, and his actions are driven from this (justified) fear of what people will do to him if they find him. But he knows he is stronger and smarter than humans, he knows that he has the power and ability to protect himself, Vash and future Independents from suffering Tesla's fate. Knives was and is right about humans posing an existential threat to Plants, both dependent and independent, and his decision to crash the ships was not done out of malice but terror. Knives NEVER took the first shot. If Tesla hadn't been murdered, I really, really doubt he would have turned out the way he did.

#Also I think it's worth pointing out that after their final battle #Knives takes on the blame for everything that happened #(especially for separating himself and Vash) and asks Vash to kill him because there's nothing left for him and no way to undo his actions #he was deeply deeply traumatised and still at the end is able to realise that that still doesnt justify the pain hes caused (esp Vash) #trimax knives makes me lose my goddamn mind and i hate what they did to him in tristamp if im honest #millions knives #trigun #trigun maximum #trigun knives #vash the stampede #trigun maximum spoilers #trimax spoilers #this is the last chapter of vol 6 and the first few of vol 7 if you're interested!

[suledins]

every wilmon kiss: [19/?] - season 2 episode 4

#:-) #losing my mind #wilmon #wilmonkisses #young royals #youngroyalsedit #yredit #mine #wilmon* #yr* #youngroyals #prince wilhelm #simon eriksson #young royals gifs #decided im not doing these in order like my others simply because i've finished this one first #(gonna do the dream one at some point) #yr s2 spoilers #young royals season 2 spoilers #youngroyalscentral

[artificialconditions]

"This message is the hope of a people."

#im wholeheartedly losing my mind at his expressions #on the other hand #the quality is none of my business at this point #tumblr destroys it #dont ask me about the pink patch. i have no answers it couldnt get around it LMFAO #detroit: become human #dbh #detroit: bh #detroid become human #detroit become human #dbh connor #connor rk800 #rk800 #connor #*gifs #dbhedit

[hillerskaroyals]

love that simon went from you expect me to sit around and wait for to for two years??? to i’ll wait

not bc his feelings changed but bc wille and wille’s actions changed

#i was going to add more to this but i feel like this gets my point across #shoutout to wille for proving fall out boy wrong #baby seasons change and people DO #when those people are the crown prince of sweden in love with a local hero <3 #ngl im really losing my mind in these mf tags tonight #although ig at his core wille didn’t really change #he just got the courage to be who he actually wants to be #but since day 1 he’s wanted to be with simon and even risked the cheeky public kiss during the walk in the woods #all that changed in s2 is he learned how to leverage his power to make his dreams a reality #young royals #young royals s2 #yr s2 spoilers #young royals season 2 spoilers #my yr thoughts #late night yr

[lottiemilfews]

simone kessell as sasha clarke in wonderland (2013-2015) - 3x09

#simone kessell #simonekesselledit #wonderlandTEN #wonderland #sasha clarke #tusermiles #her smile in the first gif is SO 2.7 lottie i am genuinely losing my mind #no coloured bg tonight sjhfsjhf its 1am and im half asleep but i also need her uhhhhhhhhhhhh #not coherent at this point. ignore dkjfhs goodnight #my post #*m.gif

[sterrenkijker]

Minkowski as the heart of the Hephaestus crew. Minkowski as the person holding not just the team but the ship together. She will die and kill if it means keeping everyone on the same side. The only thing keeping the station together is hot glue and the will of Renee Minkowski. Everything would wither and die if Minkowski was not at the centre of everything tying everyone together

#idk what point im trying to make i just listened to pan pan and had a glass of rose so im minkowski posting. im serious about this btw #wolf 359 #renee minkowski #did you guys know her middle name is yvonne? im losing my mind about that

[ectasymk]

YAALLLL HE IS ALIVE!!!!!!!!!! HE IS ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOOK AT THE TOP LEFT ABOVE MARIO!!!!!!!! There is no way that this is a piece of kart bc of the speed, direction, and shape. You can CLEARLY see a blue round shape which is the shell with two white pointy shapes on the sides which are the wings. There's NO WAY that this isn't him. I am SCREAMING CRYING SOBBING

urgghhudhfuisdhfuisdfhs

#i KNEW it fucking YES #MY LOVE IS ALIVE #NOWW I WONDER what does he do after??? where does he go??????? why don't we see him later on???? #I swear this isnt the only weird thing that I see about him there's much more in the movie that make me wonder what he does “off screen” #someone pointed this out in a comment under a yt video #i am not the same since this discovery #general koopa #blue shell #blue shell koopa #koopa #super mario bros movie #the super mario bros movie #mario bros #super mario bros #im going insane #im not okay #losing my mind #hihihihi #koopa general

[casually-slips-into-coma]

YELLOW DRESS IN THE BACKGROUND?????

#iwtv #lestat de lioncourt #claudia #iwtv season 2 #im losing my mind #i think its the trial #yellow dress #louis de pointe du lac #the vampire armand