#im not -actually- gonna be sick i never am but

[lotus-sunn]

@katentines this is your fault/pos

So lotus-moonn I have been THINKING ABOUT HER. And I decided since my pfp is sweet mikey I thought maybe if lotus-moonn existed

they would use covert-mike (Mikhali) as their pfp since well if you know anything about covert mikey then its fairly obvious why I choosed him

I thought of her personality and I conclude..Shes a fucking dick. or atleast more blunt and straight forward not caring about someones feelings and wouldnt see the reason to soften the blow. Would say "that looks like shit" to your face and call you out for more of your wrong doings

I love the DRAMATICS but i think too much is wack so maybe she would have a love for all types of dramatics.

I love to make a good first impression and I am pretty sensitive when it comes to being yelled at in a aggressive way. I start to cry as the yelling continues, so she would NEVER (rarely) cry. It would take a lot for her to cry, and first impression? who gives a shit she is gonna do what she wants and not give a shit if you like her or not.

Not a hugger or very touchy its rare for her to even touch anyone (fucking insane i know) Suprisnly less of a realist. (im a realist) More of a lets just do it and find out. Doesnt care for people who overthink she doesnt get it. like cmon your thinking too much LETS GO.

Not much for reading feelings she just freezes if they confide in her. She is pretty serious. If you told her a joke she would take it literally.

social cues??? she doesnt know what that is?? context clues what??

(fucking dumbass)

Doesnt swear. literally man she doesnt. I swear like sailor so she wouldnt. Why use swears when you can insult someone in more creative ways? she doesnt get the appeal.

really really smart in the education level. Works slow and good, doesnt work well under pressure.

opptimistic? no? but also yes.

one thing I wont change. She is stubborn but not me type stubborn. She is fucking STUBBORN once she decides something its set in bedrock she ingraved it into its very core your not changing her mind

(people trying to rehabiltate lotus-moon get meet with her fist)

was a kid who was more reckless and got more injuries (i was the same. but she actually broke a bone.)

faking confidence? she doesnt do that depressing bullshit. her confidence is real but that gets in the way of most of goals she has so much faith in herself she grows arrogant. She thinks that whatever she puts her mind to WILL happen doesnt matter who come in the way

fighting? HELL YEAH. SHE FIGHTS WITH ALL HER MIGHT! exploding PASSION!

I dont get sick easily. She does tho (LOSER COULDNT BE ME) its cold and she doesnt wear a scarf and jacket GET SICK BITCH (and very sensitve when sick. Im not i can function well enough. she is like fucking DEAD like family guy dead pose.)

hopeless romantic? fuck no romance is icky she doesnt like it.

very Social. ikr what the fuck?? if anything she wouldnt be. And you'd be right but Im not very social i have a close friend group of 5 people THATS IT. so she would be very social despite her dumbass not knowing of social cues.

#ive been thinking about this for a while #and I thought of my personality and since evil lotus-sun is well evil. she would be the complete opposite of me #so I mapped my personality and reversed it. #in a way I would admire her. #but whos to say. #WAIT HOLD ON SHE WOULD TALK LIKE THAT. #''but whos to say.'' SHE WOULD TALK KINDA LIKE THAT #lotus-moonn

[anotherpapercut]

sorry if this is extraordinarily pretentious but I do think it's wild that lobe piercings count as piercings in the same way a lip piercing does. it feels wrong. I have never thought of ear piercings as real piercings it seems like you should just be born with those right like they should be just in there naturally

#i have had my lobes pierced 3 times so like i have 6 extra holes in my ears but theyre closed and if they werent i dont think id count them #because its just a lobe piercing? if you can get it as a whole ass baby it doesnt count to me jfksvsjsbdbd SORRY if this is mean its just #its SO normie. which isnt a bad thing just in my mind that makes it not count sjbsjsbs #just like if i say i have 3 piercings and I'm talking about on my actual face and then someones like oh i have 2 and its just their lobes #im gonna be like hm ok #anyway umm this is all to say that I'm sorry but if you have no facial piercings at all i am always going to think youre boring #and i dont mean that in a mean way. we need boring people to make the rest of us look cool #just funny to me when people are like oh no facial piercings seem so risky and scawy like have u seen an 80 yr old womans lobe piercings #those mfs may as well have been stretched for gauges. also ear piercings seem to get infected more ime #also ive seen people have their earrings fully ripped out but never a facial piercing unfortunately #also i can't think of anything more metal than that lmfao. that sounds gross and painful but sick as FUCK

[munamania]

i dont wanna be a dick and act like i have no responsibility in this but after a point dont u think if all you ever say to ur friend is Omg you never make it out why dont you ever come out with us you bail all the time youre such a flake etc. dont u think that person (me) is like. not gonna feel so inclined to. be there

#like. yeah i was bad last semester i get it. and probably i shouldve tried at least once or twice to push thru #but i was so exhausted. and every time they would bring up hanging out it was on my longest days #and when i casually brought this up they were just like Well we have long days too. Okay! #and i love and miss these friends and i know for the most part. or at least think. theyre just teasing #i hate being seen as the flake like any time i do have to be like Oh i cant make that or Shit im sorry i have to bail #i try to offer an alternative???? and they never compromise on that. how is that fair like im not just outright rejecting u all the time #not to mention most of the time last semester it was always gonna be somewhere super easy for them to get home and far from me #im not like constantly holding this against them btw but i feel like they're holding it against me and i dont have any more apologies in me #anyway. that said. if theyre somewhere really expensive and far from me tn and i get out of work early #i. probably will not make it. lol! if theyd be willing to come a little closer to my place to one of the dives or some shit thatd be great #and like im not doing much today until class and work so really like. i WILL try. but i think they could sometimes not go for the most #expensive and inconvenient option as well. and these r all things ill say if it becomes like a problem problem or smth #but rn im not gonna be a dickhead and shit on their plans #but also! ok whatever im not gonna keep going on i just feel shitty im not 100% better from being sick and im just frustrated #about having to fuckign grovel over and over and over. i meant it the first few times now im just like #u could try not to be an asshole to me for five seconds too. like. i am very clearly not someone trying to secretly stop being friends #w yall. things happen #abby talks #and maybe this is an esp sore spot bc like ive certainly had some of you bail on me or be flaky or whatever before. and i didnt throw #a fucking fit to your face about it. probably bc it actually did feel more mean spirited sometimes #OK im sorry im not trying to make my friends sound evil and its mostly just the one and like im working on forgiving her for it cause it #was years ago but also like christ!

[cult-of-dollbabies]

DON..... ALL WE ARE ASKING FOR IS MORE NICA/KYLE/ANDY CONTENT.....

#love how the show will introduce an intriguing premise only to fuck it over for some reason #i am very excited to see brad play charles again but that may be the only thing worth seeing this season #this is also a /j #obviously #would also love if they made their main characters even mildly interesting #would ALSO love if they didn't WASTE GENERAL POTENTIAL COMPLETELY #having eddie there would also be nice #never was too interested in eddie before but they be throwing in shit that lures you in only to fuck it up. again #why was that guy named Edward. why even bring that uo #*up #<- brought up to me by a moot who had opened my fuckin eyes #meant to type /hj a second ago cause actually im so depressingly sick of this but im gonna pretend im not hahaa #do people actually still pretend this is a good show.

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

everyday i get closer and closer to writing wholesome fluffy gerbert rpf entirely out of spite for the bert villianizers who turned me away from listening to the used for years

#every day i feel the need to apologize to bert mccracken for just. blindly taking fanfic depections of hom as fact #in my defense i was in middle school and i had never heard of the used to i didnt realize he was a real person for a WHILE #and then once i figured out he was real i literally knew nothing abt him aside from what was in fics and they all treated him the same way #so i just assumed there was some fact behind it ig?? 😭 #and then as i got older it just sort of clicked that Oh Yeah all of this shit us Made Up and maybe i should Fact Check This #and now the used is one of my favorite bands and i love bert so much and i am still so fucking angry that everyone fucking treated him like #shit for absolutely no reason they just. needed a villan? #actually no ik the reason is bc he fucking struggled with addiction and people love to villianize addicts #especially bc hes seen as more masculine than gerard so even tho gerard struggled with addiction too HES not the villian bc hes too SWEET #and PURE and SOFT #but bert's seen as more masc and tough and loud so OBVIOUSLY that makes him a violent and abusive addict bc ppl love to equate masculinity #with 'strength' and violence and i could absolutely write a whole fucking paper on this topic if i had time to organize my thoughts #and idk if im even articulating this well rn but yeah. it makes me so fucking angry and disappointed and maybe its a stupid solution but i #know there are still SO many fics out where that do this shit and ik its still fucking with ppls perceptions of bert bc ive seen it!!! #ive seen ppl talk shit abt him and they dont even know *why* theyre talking shit #they just think hes an asshole bc of bullshit theyve heard/read and im sick of it!!!! im gonna write a novel where hes the hero just to #spite you fucks!!!! fuck!

[caffeinatedopossum]

I should not be on tumblr while I'm running a fever but here I am

#istg im always sick #while yes i am always sick cause chronic illness but i mean i have a virus #and i keep catching them ;-; #istg if i get another virus that makes me vomit im actually never gonna eat again (only half lying)

[hecksupremechips]

Actually cry so goddamn hard when I think about Shinjiro Aragaki healing and being loved and having to learn to be okay with himself and being taken care of

#writing him has just been like. OOOOWOEOEOEOOE i piss tears i cant handle this shit this gay ass shit #i came up with an idea for just like a cute short one shot i wanna do soon and hnnnghh im so emo about it #very healing its like very hard to write some of the shit im gonna be writing cuz basically #some of it is just a little too real man and while i crave the angst and the drama i am just like #AND THEN EVERYONE HOLDS HANDS AND ITS OKAY PLEASE DONT CRY PLEASE #and ive mentioned how shinji has accidentally become nb to me now because i just kinda happened to write him that way without meaning to #and now another thing im noticing is that in my fic hes kinda bpd coded #it definitely wasnt intentional but now im accepting it as truth no one can stop me #i just really need him to be happy its more important to me than anything else man i need it for me #and he needs to be gay with aki they need to kissy and i think its funny cuz even in the parts where shinji is mad at aki and pushing him #away its like. he kinda has it bad lol and its clear he feels no actual hatred towards aki but more just self deprecation because he doesnt #feel good enough and like idk i just think about their respective roles in society like #aki is an honor student star boxer hero very attractive very kind very popular got adopted by a rich family #hes going places you know meanwhile shinji is a drop out who never had a family ever hes homeless hes sketchy hes on drugs #his reputation couldnt be any worse and he just leans into it and feels he has no future and hes worthless garbage #and aki could literally have anyone he wants you know he has an army of girls pining over him but he doesnt want them #HE WANTS SHINJI AND NO ONE ELSE HE SPENDS YEARS CHASING AFTER HIM #and shinji HATES it hes trying so hard to push him away and be the crusty delinquent and make aki see how worthless he really is #but aki just doesnt stop he loves him so much makes me sick SICK #and shinji really loves him back hes like not gonna shut up ever about aki hes like either doing it in a gay ass annoyed way #or hes like ‘haha omg aki is so cute though hes always trying so hard to be tough but hes just so sweet and gentle you know i hope he #doesnt push himself too hard if he got hurt id fall apart hes so silly i hope hes eating good i desire him carnally’ #yeah sorry gamers this is just a pairing i cant be normal about they mean so much to me personally the fate of the world rests upon them

[pyrriax]

peace and love on planet earth.

this fic is. going places.

#haunted ecosystem #my day can be summed up in : two shitty conversations that i hated & one nice comment on asomatous #and also shaking like a sick dog. but thats unrelatedly related #idk i was gonna make an actual post about this fic then i opened the vault and felt nauseous so nvm about the original point of this post #i drew something? i dont think it really counted as drawing but today has been. a day. its 2:50am. why am i awake #pro tip go the fuck to sleep when it gets dark. you arent going to make good choices when its dark. #i have an ending for artificial stars? i have the idea for the other main fics of the series. i have an ambition that'll kill me one day #remind me to delete this later #im gonna go watch some random videos and hope this feeling passes. it's going to be okay and there is love in the world. #there is so much love you cannot even imagine. you'll learn about it when the time is right. there is love there is love there is love #there is so so much love and it exists for everyone out there. especially the people who are hurt / hurting. i love you. forever. #i care and i will listen to your woes and hardships and i will be there god damnit. stay. stay just a little longer #i learnt i write hardships that i wish i hadnt had to overcome alone. i write love ive never understood. i write the world the way i see it #so brimming with life and beautiful. its so beautiful. #goodnight tumblr. so much love <3

[hella1975]

hey guys :)

#MY EXAMS AR EOVER HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII #IT WENT AWFULLY AND I LITERALLY LEFT EARLY BC I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA BE SICK LMFAOOOO #I WASNT WHICH WAS ACTUALLY EVEN MORE ANNOYING #i was like looking in the bathroom mirror like 'you did this for what? nothing?' #and then a random girl i have LITERALLY never met before goes 'hey how did you find the econ exam?' #so either i am more memorable than i think or she is just very bravely assuming everyone on campus sat the macro exam #either way she was super nice and we both immediately bonded over how awful it was lmao #i think ive at least passed though which is all i wanted #and me and my mates got celebratory maccies and my one friend played rizzle kicks the whole time bc she knows i love them #im now having a 3 hour nap to prepare for later #or at least i would be if maintenance weren't choosing EXAM SEASON to drill off all of the fucking doors #im prepared to get absolutely mangled tonight like properly obliterated #not blackout bc i hate being blackout (who LIKES being blackout? baffles me) #but i still deserve to reach ungodly levels of intoxicated #STUDENT NIGHT WEDNESDAYS IVE MISSED YOU BABYGIRL #THREE MONTHS OF SUMMER HERE I COME #hella goes to uni #also like ty guys for dealing with me lmao? ive felt really annoying and negative these past few months #bc exams just Get Me Down and you guys have just been really helpful even if you dont realise #like even humouring me and sending me a shit ton of econ questions idk it's just really nice and it means a lot #yuck it up whatever moving ON i am HOT and FUNNY and definitelygoingtohavetoretakeatleastoneexam and HOT

[harrowharkwife]

swear to god if i open a fanfic ONE MORE TIME only to be greeted with an author's note saying "i asked chatgpt to tell me a story about-" i am going to go fucking NUCLEAR

#it's NEVER tagged!!! #i am so sick and FUCKING tired of hearing about chat bot shit. it's irresponsible tech that is only gonna help spread misinformation #/be used as a tool by corporate America to crank out shitty computer generated content #bc anything is better than having to hire people and pay them what they're worth am i right guys! #my job won't shut up about chatgpt i don't wanna have to see this shit on AO3 dot gov! please! is anything sacred! #I've already started running into endless variations of the same regurgitated paraphrased clearly AI-written garbage misinformation article #half of the time whenever i try to google something! i just keep getting AI generated garbage instead of any actual helpful information #side note: is Google like... super fucking broken for anyone else in terms of 'i can't find any useful information about anything anymore'? #or is it just me? #but AUGH. tech bros will be our downfall i swear to god #keep the AI shit out of art and creative endeavors it's a slippery slope and it's not leading anywhere good #this is fucking nfts all over again #or at LEAST if you're gonna be posting chat gpt prompts to ao3 fucking TAG THEM AS SUCH #I'm at the point where i hear someone say AI or chatgpt in an excited tone of voice #and i just consider it an immediate red flag #I'll delete this later it's unnecessarily cunty and i realize that but my GOD im sick of it #is it not enough that all of these writing bots are training on ao3 fics without the authors consent or permission? #now we have to encourage it by putting AI shit on there to begin with?

[wiltking]

its incredible to me the lengths people will go to to misgender trans men, because these people will literally see a trans guy with facial hair, leg hair, male pattern baldness, an honest to god adams apple, a deep voice and STILL refer to him as a woman...... but cannot FATHOM the thought of using she/her for a trans woman who might have a few if not all of these features too. mind boggling

#still thinking about yesterday's experience seeing a bunch of family i havent seen in many years #like yes hi hello i have an adams apple and a voice that gets me sir'd over the phone 100% of the time #and youre still gonna she/her and deadname me without batting an eye #and like i get it. a lot of those people probably straight up dont know im trans #but. theres obviously something going on with me. and i have to wonder what was going thru their heads #and im more irritated by the family members who do know and have known for years and still misgender me <3 #its never about our features its never about seeing us as who we are in a genuine light #its only ever about a false ideal they project onto us and it makes me sick. to be looked at and talked to #and know i am not actually being seen or heard #thats the worst part of it. it goes beyond using the wrong word here and there. its a willful rejection of my base existence

[nomaishuttle]

update on ME and my life btw. as it turns out i am not having my first ever plane ride next month -_- were gonna do a carride instead Since ill be taking stuff with me u see. but also i dont have rhat nuch.. but im sorr of.relieved bc it means i dont have to update my lciense until i get there :]

#my parents were fighting abt it bc my dad was like Im taking your van and my mom was like You cant just take my shit without asking and #like. shes absolutely right it ws shitty of him t just be.like Im taking it but also. we cant take his car. t transport my stuff #so idk. im gonna let them figure it out bc i rly rly rly dont want them t yell at me DJRBJFBFNF #but ya. as excited as i ws t ride a planei was also like Actually sick thinking abt it. bc im so incredibly scared of planes #but also ive never been in one so i think once im in one ill like it more.. but its ok #so my actual first ever plane ride will be umm #this may ! for my brothers bday.... #i am hoping umm. we get th van tho.. and im hoping that means theyre gonna let me take more stuff than i thought they would ^-^ Namely #th puter. and tv #bc we have ao many tvs bc anytime my dad gets any momey hes like LETS GET A TV AND A NEW CONSOLE !! when we r literally paycheck t paycheck #Bur whatever. so im.hoping i cn snag it and also rh puter thats in my room.... bc thatd be awwsome #but. luckily even if i dont get th puter umm. average monthly wage for housekeeping in wa is 10 TIMES MY PORTION OF THE RENT !?!? #bc we got so lucky th place we fojnd monthly rent is umm. 1525 or.somefing... and were splitting between 4 ppl #so my rent is just a little under 400 :]] im super super happy.. AND thats with bills included? in the rent ? #th lady seems pretty inexperienfed w/ this and also umm. like it seems like shes trying t get rid of th house or somefing #bc rent t own is only likeee. 1000 extra a month?? so were thinking if we rly like this place we might all just like. buy it JDBFJFBFJFNF #but thats a whileee off. so no worries ... i wouldnt mind buying it tho :] th pics r awesome and its got a nice garden zone.. #but ya !! its going prettyyy well.. ill talk 2 my dad abt me taking the umm. puter n tv maybe...

[goethitee]

oooo i think im in trouble…….

#uhh tw for animal abuse & death mention ig #TO CLARIFY IF YOU DONT READ THE REST OF THE POST I AM NOT THE ANIMAL ABUSER #anyways idk if any of you remember the friend of mine that makes poor dog decisions but thats who im talking abt here. #the puppy mill mini aussie of hers has been causing her problems (shocker). but these problems are mainly there because she literally does - #- nothing w her dogs. like she keeps them crated like all the time. theyre barely outside for like 5 min at a time. i only just recently - #- got her to try training them to settle. which hasnt been going well because she never actually house trained the mini aussie. she seems - #-to think omce a dog reaches a certain age theyll be well behaved. but she texted me tonight complaining abt the mini aussie again & said - #-abt how he chewed a hole through the bottom of his crate & carpet down to the hardwood. she then said abt how her bf was so pissed he said- #-if he does it again hes gonna take the dog outback & shoot him. she seems to think this is an okay thing to say. #anyways i told he needed to get the fuck over it shit like that happens when you have dogs your shit gets damaged. #i also finally told her that the fucking bones dont cut it the dogs needs mental enrichment & traing & that she needs to work him. #she mad at me now lol but im just so fucking sick of her shit & how she treats her dogs. complains abt them not being good while doing noth- #-ing to fix it. i feel terrible for her poor dogs. this also isnt the first time ive heard her say smth abt the bf threatening to shoot the- #-dog. ‘its just the way he is!’ thats not fucking excuse he needs fucking therapy if he thinks that that is an okay thing to say. #& honestly from what i know of him he might actually do it at some point. idk our bloodhound that we had to euthanize for aggression chewed- #-on the fucking walls of our house but never once did we even think of ‘taking him out back & shooting him’ & he did that after the first - #- attack. #also shooting your dog is illegal so i will definitely be calling someone if it happens. #i also told her to just get rid of him if she couldn’t handle him cuz im sick of her shit lol

[ayyyyysexual]

Tumblr on the Seven Seas

🏴‍☠️ white-beard Follow

Can we stop all normalising the use of "sc*rvy" as a fun little thing to call people?? I literally had sc*rvy last year and it was even worse than when I got my hand cut off. Fuck anyone who uses the S word without even considering how triggering it can be to those of us who have ACTUALLY suffered though it

🌅 castedaway Follow

No wenches?

🏴‍☠️ white-beard Follow

Honestly you people are so insufferable I genuinely hope you walk the plank

🌅 castedaway Follow

AHOY???

🍑 plundermebooty Follow

Okay but OP is literally a landlubber, mateys

🌴 pegmeg

nahhh why is it literally always landlubbers faking scurvy and sending plank threats ☠☠

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🗡wagscallion Follow

everyone says "land ho!" but never "land ma'am"

💨 matelotsaboteur

Really makes you think

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💃 crossdressing101 Follow

this whole crew was so gullible ngl, i just cut my hair and dressed in my fathers clothes and they all fell for it, hook line and sinker??

💃 crossdressing101 Follow

honestly im surprised no one has found me out yet. surely i dont seem that much like a man? i mean it makes this way easier but like. im still a woman. obviously

🕺 crossdressing101 Follow

mateys i have come to a shocking realisation,

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⛵ privatesteer Follow

wildest argument for piracy i've ever heard was that the gold stored on government ships is dangerous cause it weighs them down, so they're just 'lightening the load'

🧜‍♀️ kiss-pretty-ocean324 Follow

աaռռa ʟɨֆȶɛռ ȶօ ֆɨʀɛռ ֆօռɢ?

⛵ privatesteer Follow

no thanks

🕶 monstermaterdeactivated16520210

outta my way gayboy im boutta get it

🕶 monstermaterdeactivated16520210

i have drowned at sea

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⚓ shiveringtimbers Follow

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🌏 boat-enthusiast Follow

i am SO sick of the term "ship-shape" like, matey, which shape?? Ships come in so many fucking shapes like have non of you ever boarded more than one vessel in your career???? Anyway fake ship fans DNI with this post i can NOT be bothered with your tomfuckery today

💦 longjohngolder Follow

girl its not that deep ☠

🌏 boat-enthusiast Follow

to YOU. i just get it

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🙍‍♂️ dudeindistress Follow

honestly being held for ransom isnt that bad. kinda nice to be held

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🦜 pollypockets Follow

SQUAWK

🐦 aviated Follow

CAW SQUAWK SQUAWK

🦜 pollypockets Follow

CA-CAW

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🍑 plundermebooty Follow

the cabin boy just winked at me?? after offering to help clean my gun? privately. in my quarters. tonight.

🍑 plundermebooty Follow

i think i hauve scurvy

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🌊 swabmydick Follow

mateys I SWEARR my captain and his first mate are gonna kiss before our next voyage. they literally have so much romantic tension every time i see them its nauseating

🕶 longjohngolderdeactivated16511205

wtf its so problematic and harmful to ship real people?? unfollowing rn i thought you were better than this

🌊 swabmydick Follow

i literally rob and kill people for a living?????? that's where you draw the line???

🌴 pegmeg

op killed them

🌊 swabmydick Follow

even better news mateys, they kissed ☠☠☠

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#tumblr dashboard meme #fake tumblr dash #fake tumblr dashboard #pirates #matelotage #pirateblr

[patheticgf]

fuck you.

#FUCK trying. fuck that shit. #im fucking SICK of the good sweet version of me that people love me for until they realise what i really am and fucking resent me for it #i don't give a shit. im fucked up and rotten and im not fucking ''good'' or ''pure'' and i never will be #and you can pretend that's not what you want but it is. you want me to be good and precious and kind and soft and fucking lovable #you never saw me as harsh and broken and cruel. you always saw me as good. #you wear those fucking rose tinted glasses and you see what you want to see. so when im actually broken and cruel and unforgiving and harsh #when im actually a bad person. you have the fucking audacity to be disappointed. #you have the fucking audacity to wish for something else. you fucking chose this. #it's not my fucking fault you decided to see things in me that were never there. #you want my love to be good and kind and fucking pure? that's nor something i have. im fucked up and messy. #im going to make mistakes and blame you for things that aren't your fault and hate you and it's gonna fucking hurt. #and you're gonna have to deal with the fact that this part of me exists. #i mean to be honest i don't even do or feel any of those things when im actually with you or interacting with you. #it all dissolves when you look at me. #it's mainly when im shut out and i don't know what to do. #i mean you don't even have to deal withit most of the time #if you'd just stop stalking me you wouldn't even see it #i don't really think he's stalking me on this blog but knowing my creepy loser boyfriend i can never rule it out #see i know ur a weird creep. i also know that u have no empathy and u genuinely think ur smarter than me bc my adhd symptoms make seem dumb #which this gives u a HUGE superiority complex and that u have massive jealousy issues and gross fantasies #and the worst of all: often times u pay attention to things that are not me #but i fucking love all that stuff about you. i always knew you were fucked up and that's half the reason i fell in love with you #and you don't feel that way. you see my love as being worth less because of how broken i am. #well fuck you. im gonna love you anyways but fuck you #anyways stop leaving me on delivered for 86 hours lol 😍 #I RESPOND IN .2 SECONDS. HE APPARENTLY FUCKING DESPAWNS #☾

[box-dwelling]

I regret to inform the university exam commission that my statement "I'm going to get this God damn chemistry degree or die trying" was intended as hyperbole and as I am in fact dying trying I wish to ask for a deferral to the next exam period presuming I am not on fact dead by then

#my partner has informed me i am not allowed to make jokes to them about the fact my seizures have suddenly gotten way worse #and i keep nearly suffocating because of them #but they never said i couldn't make the jokes on here #but yeah i just had to basically send that email lol #thank you to the excellent doctor i had yesterday who actually listened and referred me to a neurologist and got me a sick note #if we're lucky ya bitch is gonna live #but it does fucking suck that im having to talk to the people in my life and. be like. hey non zero chance of death from this it seems #and i can literally only do that by making jokes and the other people in my life are not appreciating it #anyway ema skye core lmao