#im not a threat to myself or others

[unexpectedbrickattack]

shenanigans

#pizza tower #peppino #pepperman #the noise #gustavo #spicy hot #suggestive #ONLY A LITTLE #heehee i am FREE from my commission shackles. this is a threat AND warning #gonna post some of the ACTUALLY not sfw stuff soon i think; dont wanna make a twitter for it #they wont be in the main tags but ill put them behind some jokey joke meme pic and then a readmore #bc like even if u put a readmore to cover the images. when its recommended to others from a DIFFERENT post #the first image u used still pops up any way #and i dont want to put peptitties out for everyone to see LMAO #anyway #ive had this idea for ages; peppino getting stuck w pepperman on the their way to a gala #and pepperman is like do not worry my friend; i will simply call in a helicopter to come pick us up :) #and peppino is like WHAT?? dont do that !!!! its just a flat; i can fix that! #but i just now thought of adding the others lol i wanted an excuse to draw them w some fancy hair :)! #noise is like. um. theres no way I can sit here for 20 minutes and NOT embarrass myself. im going to find a rock to sit on #and not look at him #self imposed timeout and naughty shame corner #gustavos comment is from a tag i saw on a post that made me scream laugh #and pepperman watches intently bc that is his muse and he likes committing peppinos form to memory heehee

[spyglahass]

..You're still here?

I was so heartbroken when they died I needed to get it out of my system-

#i needed like an hour to compose myself and watch other povs usfhgifd /normal /not attached to the ranchers at all #dl spoilers #solidaritek #jimango #team rancher #solidango #dlshipping #trafficshipping #hermitshipping #hermitshipblr #my art #i choose to believe this is tango talking to jimmy in the last part of the video #i dont care if its a reference to a movie #we are making it gay now /threat #also im gonna get to doing the request scheduled content rn

[catmanbowser]

Someone should blow me up so i dont have to do college anymore..

#do this deadline next week also dont forget abt other 700 works u need to do with the same deadline #KYS....IM SICK NASTY TIRED.... #need to sit down and DRAW for MYSELF... #and finish other things aghhhgghhshsgahahagsggsgghhhhhh #sending threats is a fucking low blow...like really? if you dint pay tuition then fuck you drop out #GOOD. I DONT CARE ANYMORE. #i cant get the pacing right this is going horribly <3

[enhanced-operatives-division]

Improvement :3

#turns out practice does work....who would have thought .. apparently not me... #im very proud I've stayed with it #me??? actually liking ny art??? and seeing myself improve more than i have in a year within a couple months?????????? #what a good hyperfixation/special interest does to you/silly #alas i need to keep branching out to the other ieytd characters because i wanna work on my fabby design #i have a hard time with costume and um she is literally THE fashion girlie so. i gotta work on that #because she DESERVES IT DAMNIT #also still working on a mental image for zor...sigh #im really into the vitti as zor theory and that 'zor' is a role/title that's kinna passed on....idk...i have thoughts..... #but yeah zor is so painfully human to me but also is trying to not be drives me up the WALL #THAT'S ANOTHER POSTS RANT how did i get here #alas #ieytd #[agent moose's art] #THAT'S IT not individually tagging these doodles? drawings? are not good enough for that #i don't have. the urge to draw in full colour rn <- so so so so busy <- leaves secondary education in less than 2 months #alas. I'm surviving. and very excited about next steps. just gotta get through. via ieytd. it's becoming my mantra #i keep saying i should make designs for solaris and redo my fabby so i can have triple threat explaining science to me on my flashcards #im. coping in my own special way

[22degreehalo]

Man, I know this isn't really anything new to anyone who's in the right audience and is going to be entirely incomprehensible to anyone who isn't. But I really am just enjoying 100 Kanojo ('The 100 Girlfriends Who Really Really Really Really Really Love You') lately, and I really gotta echo that it's a surprisingly great example of positive polyamory!

The last episode of the anime really impressed that on me, that it's not *just* about being poly-positive insofar as it supports the harem. When Hahari talked about still being in love with Hakari's father, I was really expecting some cliche advice about how he'd want her to move on and be happy, blah blah blah. But no: Rentarou tells her there's no reason why she can't love both him AND her ex all the same!!

It's not the sort of thing usually associated with polyamory, but I've seen it brought up in poly circles as an example of toxic monogamy, that current partners are supposed to *despise* their partner's exes, and that people are supposed to never have any relationship with their ex or it comes across as 'unfaithful.' I've even seen widowers saying they relate strongly to the poly community even if they're technically monogamous, because they can only ever love another person *in addition* to their old spouse, and any new lover will just have to be okay with that.

And then it goes even further when Rentarou meets the ghostly spirit of Hahari's old boyfriend (or maybe it was just a dream~?), and once again, Rentarou shows not so much as a lick of jealousy or possessiveness. Rather, he clasps hands with him as a comrade, as someone who made Hahari very happy back in the day, and as someone he still would like to make proud alongside, working together to keep making her happy! (And then the spirit is so satisfied that he has no earthly connections anymore and ascends from ghosthood... which is a bit convenient but which is also funny in context, so. Well!)

But honestly, even aside from all that... I'm reading the manga now, and it's just so. Refreshing. To see a romcom like this where everyone is just so happy and in love all the time...? Harem manga sorta have a reputation for everyone beating up on the protagonist, and of course all the silent angsty pining that lasts unendingly for hundreds of chapters because the 'plot' can never actually be resolved until the story is over. But in this story, everyone really does win! And that doesn't make it less interesting: it's still so crazy and weird and dumb, and just seeing all of these characters bounce off one another and be themselves is entertaining enough without the need for external stresses.

And that all just makes it so... almost wholesome? Everyone is so happy!!! And it isn't boring at all!!!!! Everyone really really really really Really loves each other (the protagonist even more than the girlfriends, if anything), and they gush over romantic stories and get really excited about kissing their boyfriend/girlfriends and love and support their entire family, and it fills me with such warm and fuzzy feelings that I really can't think of anything else to compare it to!

It's just so nice. Characters who really, genuinely love and like each other and work hard for one another and get what they want. And also, truly wacked-out comedy that has made me laugh aloud just reading it.

It's just great. It's so, so nice. :)

#don't know how to express myself here hahahaha #just woke up this morning like. yknow what???? im gonna make the post #so im probably phrasing this all badly but WHATEVER #they just really love each other!!! including the girls!!!!!! #are there things to be said abt how the girl/girl friendships and even maybe romances are more easily respected #because girl/girl relationships aren't seen as a threat to m/f ones? #or the way Papari disappears before he can really continually exist alongside Rentarou and interact with Hahari? #yes #BUT ALSO #HAVE YOU CONSIDERED #it's just sosososososo happy and loving and sometimes it is okay to just enjoy that :) #hyakkano #100kanojo

[just-illegal]

this is probably my favorite image. just in general

#take everything im saying w/ a grain of salt because im really tired but #this image is so funny #i saw it like a year ago and it hasn't left my mind since #i finally found it again while cleaning out my google photos #i found some other gems there so ill share those too but #i quote this to myself all the time. charles has 2 braincells. even if it's not about hs i still say charles #btw no idea who made this! if you know please tell me :) #also tell them that their handwriting is amazing. the has 2 looks more edited than the charles braincells #white background #henry stickmin #the henry stickmin collection #ellie rose #charles calvin #triple threat #i love their ship name. everyone saw that ending and went 'oh! a polycule' #and they're all right #being incoherent again

[fudge24-7]

Wondering if tumblr is really good for me

#fudge does a talky talk #idk im just thinking #i keep on going to reply sections (bad idea) #and find myself getting into arguments #but what im most concerned about is how #idk harsh i feel im becoming? #like i try my best to somewhat be polite even in repkies but I find myself failing #and i feel like the hostility in tumblr reply sections in general might be a part of that #idk i probably just need to stay away from replies #i geuss whats concerning as well is that i usually tried to avoid arguments in the past #it felt like a pointless waste of energy that wouldn't change the other oersons mind anyway and woukd juetclead to anger on both sides #maybe in some ways its better that I'm more open to the idea people won't always be closed minded but #idk if thats worth the amount of aggression that usually comes with using tumblr reoky sections #or if replying and argueing at all is really worth it #or maybe I'm just blaming tumblr for a me problem idk #because I'll admit deep down kindness is not my first instinct #it is unfortunately to insult and attack perceived threats #i try to manage that but i don't always succeed #maybe tumblr doesn't help but idk #I know I don't usually make posts like these but #i geuss i should in case this leads to me not using tumblr as much? idk if thats going to haooen honestly but I'm thinking #In case it does i felt i should post this so people would udnerstand whats going on #i geuss i don't exactly owe anyone that but #I also wanted to get this off my chest #the more i think about it i think this is more of a 'tumblr bringing out the worst in me' then 'tumblr making me act a way i usually wouldn #idk what haplened with the reoly sections though i really used to not do that #geuss I've been desperate for human interaction? and getting into arguments is easier then starting a freindly conversation with someone #and idk maybe I've been feeling frusterated and like I can't really express my feelings to the people around me #so I've also been craving being able to actually say I don't agree with something #vent post

[astxrwar]

there needs to be more one-sided enemies to lovers content. by which i mean one person HATES and the other is like “aw you’re adorable + utterly nonthreatening to me *enrages them on purpose*”

OR!

One hates + has the power to actually make the other’s life miserable but the other one is like “well I admire you a lot and I know I can prove you wrong so *tries really hard and stubbornly shrugs off the criticism/mocking/cruelty*”

#astxrwar.txt #yeah im ttbposting again. i was looking at the enemies to lovers ao3 tag and it’s mostly 2 ppl who see each other as equals #i simply desire more unbalanced dysfunctional dynamic where either #one of them hates and the other is like ‘lol it’s cute because you’re genuinely no threat to me. like a kitten with claws out’ #or where the more powerful one hates and the other is like I WILL PROVE MYSELF!!! and #that just enrages them more because Oh actually maybe they were wrong + the person is competent #can’t deal with being wrong at all except to lean into the hatred and desire to take them down multiple pegs #and then they fuck. and the one that idolizes them a little is SO INTO IT that the more powerful one is like. oh no. #can’t even maintain hatred anymore just Wants Them is enamored with their determination and it’s Game Over #OR BOTH AT ONCE!! ppl contain multitudes #i just love fucked up relationship dynamics. #in FICTION where they’re FUN and SAFE #dkfjfkfkf

[mayxo-hxh]

Going to the same fandom from one social media to another is so funny feeling. its like two neighbors that never really spoke to each other with one finally knocking on the others door like "hello. i brought my cake to your house because my house kinda sucks right now. wanna eat together?"

#i hope my cake is accepted #im never truly gonna leave twitter until it all goes to true shambles but yknow. better safe than sorry #ive always wanted to try tumblr years ago actually. just... never got it. too intimidated. #i havent heard the best things abt how hisoillu stans were treated on here either #not that we're safe on twitter but it didnt reach... THOSE levels yknow. worse it got was death threats lol #never truly experienced those myself though. other ppl? they experienced that a lot. #why am i having an entire conversation with myself in the tags #anyways ive always thought tumblr was a really good archive place. i feel my content is much safer on here than twitter. #ive always wanted to expand in general... but instagram's been shit so what other option is there anymore lol #anyways. #HI EVERYONE ON TUMBLR

[bubblegumbeyotch]

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#i feel like such a loner nowadays #i went through a pretty intense time of isolation after j*cob dumped me but i just feel like i never quite got out of it #like i try to show up to things people invite me to but a lot of the time i end up feeling either really tired or annoyed or sad #and it’s like entirely a me thing #i just find myself getting so angry about little things that don’t matter and assuming threats that aren’t there #and it’s confusing? exhausting? like i don’t know why i feel so angry #i just always feel so… fragile i guess. like im on the edge of snapping #and being around others just heightens that. like i just feel like i can’t relax and i feel so paranoid #not about anything or anyone in particular just something i’ve observed lately. it’s very hard for me to make myself go out #just ignore if you see ig #personal

[citrusitonit]

thers this bitter passive aggressiveness between kids who secretly find a younger kid annoying and its really sad

#my little sister has very aggressive tendencies #she has no other playmate other than our younger cousin who she likes 2 act passive aggressive with #its sad seeing her make verbal jabs at our cousin and tries to play my callouts as 'favoritism' and 'acting weird' #ughh i try to defend my cousin when my sister starts making weird threats #like ugh idk its all so frustrating and complicated to deal with #theres so many factors to consider in her behavior and the problem is im not her psychiatrist #i recognize that shes a kid so i am patient with her and try to fill in with basic discipline #because alr our parents get irrationally angry with her so i forced myself to fix my same habit of yelling #guh idk #im just tired bro but i dont want her to grow up with that type of mindset #idk #my older sister isnt even doing anything cuz shes a pushover who bends when our younger sister just starts lashing out #i understand kids need to vent its healthy so i let her scream in her room #but what i dont allow is her hurting others just because shes mad #or smthn like that #idk im most of the time shes with me so i try to make good influences or smn #oh man this went on a long rant huh #is this considered a vent?? #ventish #vent #just in case

[nagdabbit]

im tired i don't care if it's christmas and i got help at the shop, if it blizzards tomorrow im not leaving my bed i am so fucking tired and i need A Break

#yes i can take one #and yes siobhan and all of my inlaws want me to stay home #and i understand that i can give myself a fucking break #but also i cant people are relying on us #so i gotta help cuz not everyone could make it and were a little nore shorthanded than other holidays #but i want to be selfish and sleep #but also i have to help #do you see why im complaining with zero chance of following through with my threat

[arsenicflame]

[in which i reread the angela comics for every reference to the anchorites so i can prepare for a post about sera i am probably never going to write]

#i am actually incapable of thinking properly #i have the thoughts in my head!!! but the second i try to write it out in any way intellectual i simply fail #i feel like yall actually dont get the worst of that. it stays in drafts. its way worse when i speak i stutter + slur + forget words So much #anyway #its probably for the best #ill stay silly :3 #nyxtalks #its just. so interesting. hevens society and the segregation and misandry and the way sera exists as a direct contradiction to everything #that is said about the anchorites and im just!!!!!!! #god i love sera so much. #they say thw anchorites are weak but here is sera; fighting alongside hevens greatest soldier #and just #it's affirmation of seras gender shes not like all the things they say about the men but also its a statement that we are wrong about them #and it can be read both ways and i like to read it as both because the plight of the anchorites is so important to sera #i don't see her saying it to distance herself from them everything she wants is to prove that anchorites are MORE #[screams] #sorry i said i wouldn't angela post but u already knew that was a lie these girls r everything to me #im like. 10x more unhinged about angela than izzy theres just. feedback with izzy? we encourage each other but I have to do angela to myself #read the angela comics boy [threat]

[prettyinpinkcatgamer]

omfg even here i can't get away from shit that literally makes me insanely mad.

i just saw a post where a transphobe was mean and before blocking them, i for whatever fucking reason decided to scroll through their blog.

i left an ask where i basically left detailed descriptions of many different torture methods/slow and painful deaths and hope they would happen to them.

i want to actually fucking stab them. just ram a knife into their chest and keep violently fucking stabbing until im too physically exhausted to keep going. i want to smash them with hammers until they are unrecognizable. just bite into their fucking throat and ripping it to pieces. sew their mouth shut and leave them in a room with food so they slowly fucking starve to death.

sorry to anyone i just disturbed or made uncomfortable, ill probably delete it later anyway

#you might be surprised #but i have a burning hatred for bullies and similar 'people' #i just can't stand it #i was bullied throughout my time in school and even got a bunch of second hand bullying #cuz i always defended other kids who got bullied #i still have fantasies about violently murdering and torturing my middle/high school bullies #on reddit i made comments similar to this post a lot #cuz there even being on a non-lgbt focused sub is enough to get a ton of bad content #that also got me banned on my first few accounts #my last one was also banned for this #but it i really tried to restrain myself #but apparently telling someone to drink drain cleaner is a threat? #anyway #ill go back to being cute now 🥺 #or at least once im not mad anymore #im sorry for being like this...

[thisfuckingloser]

I had a sandwich, my meds, took 4 hits and a punk scream along. I am normal again I promise :)

#i also had an hour long cry sesh but thats irrelevant #i am coming to conclusions and learning how to forgove myself #not just fir my own actuons but for my thoughts i have about others #been thinming alot about my family and trauma related to thag #being relied on and parentified at such a young age #and having to parent the older siblings as the youngest then when i becane the eldest i was telied on WAY more than i alresdy was #im realizimg i had a bad childhood and my mom wasnt that good of a parent #i dont even think about ricky(ex stepdad) as a parent cause he wasnt anything but a paycheck and a threat #i need to get on mainecare so i can go to therapy. #i hate unpacking and repacking this everyday #IM ALSO REALIZIMG that i put my thougts and emotions about my past onto people now ans thats not good #i have no where to put them so i feel overwhelmed and put it somewhere its not supposed to go!!!

[elsolaer]

i have many thoughts in general but this tidbit from tingyun's voice lines is one of the things i wanna elaborate some more on at some point...

" Every time I head out, I leave a letter behind and lock it in the drawers of my shop. If I come back, then I'll burn it later. If I don't... then it'll be something for others to remember me by."

#OOC. #this post is more of a reminder to myself before i go try to write some stuff for nat and/or stelle #but idk i like her concept of being pacifistic despite the inherent dangers of her position as... basically a galactic ambassador? #it says that most reps take weapons with them but she refuses to because she believes that you should build relationships from a foundation #of peace instead of threat of violence #which has worked in her favor but idk its kinda sombering knowing that she basically leaves her last words in a letter every time sh #e leaves for another planet to do her job because she knows shes leaving herself vulnerable if somebody wanted to do something to hurt her #and she burns it every time she comes back only to rewrite it again months later when she goes on her next trip #xi.anzhou's lore is ROUGH dont get me wrong but theres a lot of fun concepts in there that im smashing together LMAO #also her traveling the way she does opens up so much room to meet literally anybody #its just jarilo-vi right now but as more worlds open up it just gives her more room to work with #also the fact that it opens up a lot of possiblities for world building for her to come to these planets because she's there ON business an #trade & commerce is one of the BIGGEST things a society needs. one decision could steer the entire direction of their society in a complete #y different direction #like even just introducing more leisurely/hobby focused products can be a huge turning point for a war stricken world #or better materials for their tech and their buildings #new crops in exchange for what they have #literally the exchange we see in her lore is her discussing taking just a few samples of a world's plants and growing it on xianzhou for #commercial sale AND that world would recieve shipments of said crops along with wahtever other deals they struck #and blablabla yes i know capitalism whatever. tis the way of the world and i think its really interesting frmo a worldbuilding standpoint #tingyuns a very interesting character because she can change a lot of things in very little time in the big picture #i feel like she's commonly brushed off as a shallow character who doesnt do much but she's one of the most accomplished characters in xian #zhou EASILY #yes you could argue that jing yuan is more because of his general shit or yukong is the helm master blablabla like Yes they are also very #accomplished but she is the literal only reason that the grand fairs are FAMOUS throughout the galaxy. they werent until she took leadershi #she's completed trade missions to SIXTEEN different panets and is implied to have formed alliances with at least a few of them #and was the one to renew xianzhou's mutual alliance with the IPC #i dunno #also i think people see her as way more of a trickster than she is #like ... i thought she was too but she really isn't particularly mischevious? girls tried to leave MULTIPLE times during the story bc she