#im not a violent person

[goofyjelly]

You know what would be helpful? Ripping apart something with my teeth like a rabid dog. That'll help.

#just wanna do that real quick #im not a violent person #i just think that would be very therapeutic #very beneficial to my mental health #goofy jelly thoughts

[songofsutarima]

A Story & A Promise

10:20, a work day done,

Parking at home, 10:51.

On my balcony, wife and cats

My calm and comfort, that.

And then appears suddenly, a little down the way,

A man who I thought I left on good terms with the other day.

“Hey you, come over here”

Nah, bro, you come, chill, have a beer.

But something in the eyes wasn’t right.

And then it was evident it was time for a fight.

I sent my loves inside, lock the door.

I don’t know what this guy wants to fight for.

Drunk, (I think confused also) agitated, simply irate.

Because of something someone said he felt was said in hate.

I said something in hate in front of your girl? Are you sure?

Because the one time I was at your place, she slept. I never met her.

I tried to calm, to have his anger quelled.

But he kept on with the p**** and f*****, and a fight is what that spelled.

Hit me once, a thought across my mind,

He hit me again, break legs, arms unbind,

Hit thrice, fine. The snooze button I’ll find.

Dip, then quickly up, touch the zygomatic.

Lights out, sleep is automatic.

I asked when he woke,

“Chill dude” is what I spoke.

But on his feet again, he restarted.

I watch the swing, easy deflect,

But make his head ring, I reject.

A touch on the jaw, just to stumble.

I don’t want this stupid, unnecessary rumble.

Eventually, finally, he leaves, thanks to a friend with a phone

Who heard the scuffle and didn’t want me fighting alone.

No blue boys called, but the threat was enough

To stop someone who apparently has unsettled stuff.

So with this in mind, I think I might have changed.

I am patient, I am merciful, it’s what I’ve chosen and arranged.

But maybe I was wrong. Maybe I need to be more violent.

Because maybe it’s wrong for me to let him yell and insult while I’m silent.

Know now, next time I’ll be faster

And next time I’ll put your head through the plaster.

You stupid motherfucker, attack me at my home?

Scare my wife to be alone?

Next time, I won’t let off til it’s a bloody mess of a dome.

Next time. You’ll be begging me to let you use a phone.

Because yeah, maybe I write poems, that’s how I flow.

I am soft and gentle, and have that glow.

But I wasn’t born in softness, I came from blood-soaked lands.

And I promise, poetry isn’t the only art I make with these hands.

#new poem #rhyme poetry #story poem #poems on tumblr #poetry #literally so angry this happened #im not a violent person #29 and this is the only fight I’ve had

[kittensintinytophats]

Oh how quickly my advice to friends changes from "You should dump him" to "You should set his bed on fire with him in it"

#im livid #hes lucky theres a whole ass province inbetween us now #or id drive over and beat his scrawny ass and take my friend away from there #im not a violent person #but fuck with my friends and i see red #ugh its almost 4am #ignore this i just needed to vent my frustration #tophat speaks

[herwinds]

15. January 2024

SO our company keeps a pretty nifty insurance on all of us. (we have universal in my country, but getting to go to private and actually get looked at etc is just wow)

This year it has an annual mental health check, which you needed to fill out on your laptop, and you immediately got your results back.

i didn't know you can get NEGATIVE scores on these tests.

i did.. its -11

when i say the alert message wasn't yellow, or orange it was fckin RED..

even the site said they are concerned for me.. bish i lived like this all my life, you dont need to be concerned :D

I am still howling and wheezing about it, while my coworkers plan to stay on my good side, in case something snaps.

#im not a violent person #i literally cried cause a mouse in my place chose the poison instead of the live trap #mental health #mental wellness

[lordoflightning]

gotouge was rly like, “here’s a nice kid!! now lets put him through the horrors”

#i am gonna be so violent #the shinazugawa bros got done so filthy #i hate demon slayer /s #i saw this and my brain was like. you WILL think about the ‘my nemi is the nicest person ever’ moment #LIKE STFU I DONT WANT TO THINK ABT IT #sorry guys im losing it #it will be so much worse when that shit gets animated u know what im talking abt #kny #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #kny spoilers #shinazugawa sanemi #kny sanemi #sanemi #shinazugawa genya #kny genya #genya #kny swordsmith village arc #kny s3 #demon slayer spoilers

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

i... wrote a smol fic (っ´▽`*)っ

also!!!!! If you haven't seen it - shoutout to first ever published fic in Ninja Showdown/My Immortal Soul tags - Lustrous Red by @missadmyre !!!

#ninja showdown #my immortal soul #first ninja x chase young #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #rc9gn #chase young #xiaolin showdown #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #rc9gn plop plop #well i say smol fic.... but those 4k words felt very long. #i did say i was going to direct my energy into writing >.> and now look at me ive gone insane #no actually dont look at me im just gonna go cry over my 20k words of rough drafts for like dozen ideas that are now going #to haunt my every waking moment like JESUS i woke up today and literally wrote out 1k words of an idea for a modern au for those two TToTT #its literally an au where its a meet cute turned meet violent and first is randy's sorta dad and chase wants to adopt omi #not to mention a different AU where its an epic mystery adventure AAAAAAA someone heeeelppppp meeeee #also. its been a month but im still staring so intently at missadmyre's fic hoping for another crumb. like thank you sm for the food!!!! #ive literally been rereading it several times after i went insane about it on my main blog and im still slurping at it like a starved perso #Ive been collecting my ideas like a dragon but after reading that fic i was like: I WANT TO READ MORE FICS ABOUT THEM #but i dont wanna be a whiny baby&beg others and be annoying about it. So i put on my big person pants and was like f it WE R WRITINg NOW #so i dont care how bad my writing will be. we gonna be balling on those ideas and YES it doesnt make sense im just v rambly rn

[dustykneed]

very important question for all of the trek fandom ‼️(lol)

#star trek #star trek tos #tos #star trek aos #leonard mccoy #bones mccoy #spock #jim kirk #mcspirk #triumvirate #star trek meme #personally im a bones #who wouldnt want to wake up absolutely cradled in pillows #heaven on earth imo #one of mine ripped real bad so i had to throw it away and literally two weeks later i woke up in the morning and immediately #bruised half my ass by violently acquainting my pelvic girdle with the windowsill #hurt like a fuckin bitch #which is why more pillows is always correct

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a merry Between Week to everyone! rest well!

extra layers:

#sundown wishes you all well! #im not a festive person Unless Its Halloween #but i cannot deny the allure of the crisis Aesthetic #and im Always looking for an excuse to draw my guys <3 #i enjoyed putting them in a santa/reindeer themed version of their usual fits #they'd deliver presents So fucking violently. gusto! showmanship! Destruction! #ryan wears spiked horseshoes for a reason... a reason Other than ice.... #and then they'd dash off into the night with a Yeehaw & a Hawyee #scribble garnish #forced idiots <3 #oc #original character #puppet oc #i will say! the colors fell apart As Usual #the intricacies of hue continue to elude me #but oh my god am i proud of the lines #i spent. so much time getting this Mostly right #adding the line weight... soothing and yet oof ouch my wrists #this took a lot out of me! im tired! but happy! #a little gift to myself i think #also im sorry but i must be insane about sundown for a moment #GAH SHE ACHASDSAKLNADKML FUCKFUCKFUCK SHE'S SO IT'S SO I'M SO- #SHE MAKES ME UNWELL SHE'S MY OWN BRAIN GUY BUT SHE MAKES ME INSANE #PUPPET CORRUPTION ARC REAL BUT LIKE IN A POSITIVE WAY KINDA #not the arson. arson is not positive BUT THE OTHER STUFF LETS GO SUNDOWN SUMMER. MY BELOVED SUNNY #also bc i feel like someone's gonna tag her as such bc that usually happens: #friendly reminder! Her Ass Is Not A WH Oc. She's Just A Funky Fella From My Headworlds

[bonefall]

"Back in my day we loved our abusers or just disregarded them. We would never smash their heads against a wall until they agreed with us"

So... so you're just admitting you tried to Love and Kindness the abuse away?? You did that??? You think it's BAD to fight back against someone who is BEATING YOU?

Or does that mean, "we never demanded better treatment or justice. We just waited for our abusers to realize the error of their ways, like good victims."

I REALLY hope they get paid enough to go to therapy, this is actual factual abuse apologia. I am once again legitimately concerned for the mental health of these writers

#You can't 'TEACH SOMEONE TO BE LOVELY' out of DOMESTIC ABUSE #Abuse isn't about a person BEING MEAN it's about CONTROL #A conversation about retributive vs rehabilitative justice would be good. Im a fan of rehab justice #BUT NOT IN RESPONSE TO A FAN QUESTIONING A WIFEBEATER GOING TO HEAVEN #At NO POINT has any afterlife EVER been established as a place where rehabilitation happens #Even NOW #CURRENT ARC #ALMOST 10 YEARS LATER #SCREAMING LIKE A CHIMP CONTINUES #WHY HAVE THEY ONLY DONE THIS FOR THE WIFEBEATER #TOM AND CLEAR ALONE!!!!!!! #VIOLENT MEN WHO ASSAULT INNOCENT WOMEN AND CHILDREN #AND SEE ZERO CONSEQUENCES #Tw domestic abuse #Tw child abuse

[clownin44]

Something that doesn't sit right with me is that in Ben's backstory, Aiden said he was beaten everyday, everyday as in MULTIPLE TIMES

He was covered head to toe with bruises, and no adult intervened, not his parents, not the teachers, no one.

#no shade to his parents.. #(all shade) #im just kiddingg.. #maybe they did? #anyway #ben is not an angry or violent person #school bus graveyard #sbg #sbg (webtoon) #school bus graveyard webtoon #ben clark

[tin-can-iron-man]

I'm just gonna say it again real quick:

Yes!! Iron Man is a tragedy! It has and always has been since the very first appearance in 1963 which describes itself, Tony's life, and legacy, as such.

Tony causes most of his issues himself, he is his biggest villain, a majority of his rogues gallery are caricatures of the worst versions of himself brought to life (when they're not just being racist cuz...60s...). The worst thing about being Tony Stark is that he can't stop being Tony Stark (he tried!!) That is the point.

The majority of pain Tony goes through, is pain he inflicts on himself, whether intentionally or inadvertently. That is the point.

He is not A villain (at least. Not usually. There are...some rough moments and arcs that are. Not great. As there is with any character as old as he is). But he is his own main antagonist.

#I—just—*slams fists on floor*—I WANNA PUT HIM IN A PIETRI DISH AND VIOLENTLY SHAKE HIM #tony stark #iron man #616 tony stark #marvel #marvel comics #*screams cries throws up* IT'S NOT HIS FAULT HIS CHARACTER WAS ASSASSINATED IN 2005 IN A WAY THAT HASN'T BEEN RECOVERED FROM YET #***starts openly weeping*** if the next main IM series is bad it'll have been 20 years of this shit make it STOOOOOP #being his own antagonist! his actions and mental state and poor judgement calls reaonates with people!! #I'm wildly under qualified to talk about this stuff but #I feel like that's *why* people with mental health issues. self esteem issues. addiction issues. flock to him. #he is not a BAD person. he is a person. who makes mistakes. and devastates himself. and even leaves himself half dead sometimes. #who doubts himself. is simultaneously oversensitive and alarmingly oblivious. he is a mess. that is a fundamental requirement of being him #that. resonates with people. it's *relatable*. Tony Stark is a lightning rod of interest for people...like him. hurting. sad. desperate. #and he brings *enjoyment*. he brings jokes. comfort. #he brings hope #because if a guy like *that* can be *iron man*...maybe we'll all be ok too #it's solidarity but also it's a kick in the right direction. it's saying ''it's ok that this is how you feel. I'm right there with you.'' #''but you can't stay here forever. we always need to try'' #Iron Man is and always has been about the future. after all.

[izzypaw]

silly

#hi this doodle post is an excuse for me to monologue in the tags #ive been making a lot of quick posts for the sake of daily posts on instagram and at first i liked how much art i was making but now i wish #i could slow down and expirememnt more.??? i also miss drawing mother3.so bad but i literally cant make good mother3 art unless im VIOLENTLY #depressed so idk what ti d o... i want to draw i want to havr fun making drawing i want to draw The Character btu im not at my lowest point #alsoo feeling a bit of a weird disconnect between myself and my art style rn.. like it doesnt match my personality if that makes sende😭 #my art is so cute and im The Devil #anyway if u read all that thx i just wanted to say all this shit somehwere

[harbingersecho]

Marrassurma, God of Death (and Dreams) from The Abyssal

bonus Sol bc the hand kiss scene is cute

#the abyssal #the abyssal if #interactive fiction #mine #*23 #art #marrassurma #i really want to do the pestilence thing but like. why would marrassurma do that he likes humanity + the human world :/ #btw if u think marrassurma is edgy i originally thought abt marrasverisurma lol. but i was like thats way too long dude im sorry #it doesnt mean november death btw it means killing of an omen (of death) or being killed by one. google's stupid #finnish lesson ahead ig. surma can be a violent death/a killing/voluntary manslaughter/a tragic accidental death/the destroyer of something #or a poetic way to say kill. surma can ALSO be a very hard obstacle or opponent or a personification of death when w/ certain chs #and marras is just any omen of death/person who brings death/person who's about to die/any dead thing/a ghost. yeah uhh dw about it #so marrassurma can technically mean a combination of any of these but i'm using it as like. the one i explained before lol #why am i even explaining this. maybe bc im cursed with the ability to talk endlessly abt stupid shit i think is interesting

[antidotefortheawkward-art]

how fucked up would you be if you were told the embodiment of the worst parts of you was capable of killing members of your family

[ID: A sketchy two panel sepia comic. In the first panel, Sun Wukong is dressed in traditional deep mourning garb and kneeling before a grave, back to the viewer. The second panel is a close-up on his face. He has a hollow, terrified wide-eyed expression and half of his face is in deep shadow. He thinks, "Could I have done the same?" End ID]

#my art #journey to the west #jttw #xiyouji #sun wukong #monkey king #so. Six-Eared Macaque thoughts. #i think that in addition to simply being the worst parts of SWK (ie the actual parts of him that are flawed and bad)- #-he's also the worst of what SWK thinks of himself #cuz six-eared cannibalizing members of huaguo shan is good for hammering in how evil he is #but even for the 'worst parts' of swk i think swk doing anything like that is wildly ooc #so.... i think six-eared also embodies swk's intrusive thoughts #(intrusive thoughts as in actual violent reprehensible thoughts swk would never follow through on bc thats what intrusive thoughts are- #-not the tiktok misuse of the term 🙃) #so imagine how fucked up youd be if someone said This was the personfication of the worst parts of you and not clarifying* #* so youre just like. 'oh so my intrusive thoughts are right then' * #*'so they are actually a part of me and im a horrible person' #god the pilgrimage gave swk so much more trauma than ppl give credit </3 #sorry this is messy and sketchy i just wanted to get these ideas down gfdhjskd

[ccarrot]

I cannot take some of these old mafia era skk fics seriously. Why do they all follow this same premise of like . Dazai constantly gets on chuuya's ass for being loyal and following orders or whatever and chuuya just drops things to genuinely beat dazai up. Mori is like ready to kill everyone for some reason.

#i really really detest the toxic masculinityification of chuuya. #its like they saw him acting angry all the time and thought. well he CANT be anything otherwise. he cant show vulnerability or the likes #why's he so violent to dazai in these fics? for the drama of it..? bc it only ever makes chuuya seem like a terrible person? #😭 #this is chuuya 'gets immensely stressed at the prospect of dazai getting hurt' nakahara. #stormbringer literally flipped their dynamic from genuine hostility to slapstick for the most part. #his 500 ways to get back at dazai were all probably nonviolent like the spinning him upside down one. bc he doesnt actually want to hurt him #or maybe im just a weirdo who likes it when skk are actually kind and loving to each other 😡😒

[brucewaynehater101]

I know my name says I hate Bruce Wayne (and that's most true).

HOWEVER, IF I SEE JOHN WINCHESTER, :)

I'm sure there's a few entities out there who are willing to lend me a hand as I talk to John.

#i hate john winchester #fuck that man and everything he is #i will do some not so friendly things to him #listen im not typically a violent person #I've never even been in a fight #for this man though? #for this vile being that doesn’t deserve to think himself above the monsters he hunts? #i'm willing to have many meaningful conversations with him where he's suggested to stay put :)