#im not doing it tho the initial gratification would almost instantly be killed by my anxiety

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#nowe talks #i seriously don't know how many more times I can say 'just three more weeks' to myself #that's the amount of time i have to focus on studying before a bit of a break #not a full break because i still have one exam left in january but it's going to be a lot more chill than these three weeks #just three wweks just three weeks just three weeks just three weeks yeah yeah yeah BUT IT'S STILL THREE WHOLE FUCKING WEEKS #it doesn't help that I currently have 2 different courses where they've put 8 weeks worth of material into 3 weeks of teaching #I'll probably be more okay in the morning when i have slept a bit but atm. god I'm at my limit #kinda fantasizing about just. stopping all school related activities. not opening zoom or email ever again or turning in any assignments. #not notifying any teachers just. stopping. taking a break for a month or two. trying again in late january or something #like whatcha gonna do? fail me? literally what the hell #im not doing it tho the initial gratification would almost instantly be killed by my anxiety #don't reblog