#im not doomed to making it myself

[salthien]

bugs. gay ones, even

#hollow knight #quirrelhollow #hk quirrel #hk the hollow knight #thk #quirrel #ive been doing pomodoro method for packing and rewarding myself with ipad time #right one was initially going to have 'i survived being doomed by the narrative' shirts but i got lazy #please enjoy more gay bugs. i want to draw others eventually but i need to put thoughts into How i want to draw them #so will likely have to wait until after move #also shoutout to yrlocalghost for letting me appear out of nowhere slap art into a discord convo and then vanish again #i dont have anywhere else to test post/preview stuff (god knows im not posting qh art in the hk discord) #makes me less anxious when Someone Else likes it before i post anything :') #lorne art

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

why is job hunting.

that's it that's the post

#this is both radicalizing me even more & absolutely harshing my mellow #why. do i need. to communicate with a 'virtual assistant'. to apply at hot fucking topic #you know? maybe i Dont need to apply there. who wants em #everywhere is like you need This This and This #oh look an entry level job! aaaand i need a thousand certifications #Excuse Me Where Do People Who Have Done Nothing With Their Life Thus Far Apply??? #why do jobs exist. why cant we all just vibe huh #each application feels like a new death sentence #cant wait to work myself into the ground for a company that views me as nothing but an easily replaceable part! yeehaw! #cant wait to sacrifice my personal time / hobbies / wellbeing for a nine-to-five 5 days a week job i hate! #absolutely unprompted #this world we live in is miserable and infuriating and i want to SHAKE PEOPLE #fucking!! look outside!!! value yourself!! the company is not your family!! they are not worth dying for!! we are all worth so much more!! #gonna go out in the middle of a field and SCREAM #humans are made for art and kindness and for enjoying the short life we're forced into #why make an already doomed existence even worse huh. #why subject ourselves to that. we deserve better. our pasts deserve better. our futures deserve better. #sorry sorry im just. ARGH. this world!!! this life!!! could be so good!!! #but late stage capitalism rampant corruption among Many Other Issues said noooooooo #happiness is illeeegallllll #what if i BITE you. huh. what then. die #every time i sit down to apply i have to actively Not Think About It or i'll delete all my tabs and stop before i start #we as humans are not built for this life... we did not evolve proclivity for kindness and art just to stress ourselves to death #over silly jobs that do Not require the level of dedication we are forced to apply #abolish the 5 day 40+ hour work week... decrease the horrifying amount of funding given to cops and the military... etc... #i think i need to go lie down for a minute im feeling Too Much Anger at the absolute state of things #so happy to be an american. (sarcasm sarcasm sarcasm)

[brother-one]

:))

#drakengard #drakengard 3 #drag on dragoon #zero drakengard #fanart #yuikun-drws #i had to resize the drawing just so i could upload it to tumblr. pain #ANYWAYS i think she looks rlly pretty here. im proud of myself for making this #i cant believe i made this tho like WTF i can actually draqw and paint ?!?? holy shitttttttttttt #i am now thinking “why must i be doomed to be 14 years old and a dod fan” as i look at this

[medichamcham]

(wistful sigh) sometimes i do wish more ppl shipped orbitshipping... wah wah .

#medi.txt #i can only do so much when it comes to making fan content i guess . #i cant stand my own work tbh and i solely enjoy giorose art thats made by others #but obviously theres not a lot of it. so i have to cook for myself even though i cant really eat my own food lol #i just adore them so much and i wish that same feeling clicked for others too lmao. maybe enough for them to create fanworks for them #and that these others also find how much they have in common if you looked closely. idk. but what do i know. #and what else can i do. ill just continue to draw them until i have lost all interest in them LOOOOOL which is. not any time soon... #im hella doomed. anyway yeah

[maternal-extinct]

hey when it happens again, when my candor walks me right back into being lolcowed or pedojacketed, will you still give me the time of day?

i didnt deserve it then and i wont deserve again but that doesnt matter much when being mulched by the internet hate machine. it does matter to me who gives me the benefit of the doubt tho lol

#portents and doom delusions have been going brrrrrrrrrr this week #like im not exactly ruggedizing myself from the worst #i dont give my paranoia that kinda sway over my decision making #tired of making new faces for myself every few years tbh

[thecatspasta]

Do you think the corporations will realise that we will care about their straight ships if they're not a girl fawning over the first guy she sees and getting married within the year and it being treated like a good thing or is this thought process too advanced for them to handle right now.

#for legal reasons this is a joke. and also being posted at 2am my time. #just. im thinking about petrigrof and why i like it. and its because its tragic and doomed and makes me feel things. #and thats why i enjoy jmart and privateeyes and literally any queer ships. #its not that i dont like straight people its that I am being spoonfed the same relationships with the same sexist undertones #over and over again #idk im just tired man #Oh this is also why I like heathers btw. That movie slaps. I do not ship JD and Veronica or anyone in that movie making myself clear #anyways #garlic breath #petrigrof #relationships #rambling #idk what to tag this and im not trying #I will take media suggestions tho. Like. For literally anything I am bored and tired and want some happiness #might delete later. idk.

[queen0fm0nsterz]

Reading my fave thin man and lady fic. Kicking my feet a lot because tbh. Sometimes a sad man really is just a weird woman's science project in a way that is so homoerotic

#carols.txt #when i tell you i've been re-reading this single one shot religiously every single month for almost three years I mean it #《straight》 ship so good we call it queerbaiting #LMAOOOOOO #call it yaoyuri the way these old people r tragic and doomed by the narrative or whatever #listen as a bi person on the aroace spectrum whatever this fic was trying to convey really strikes a cord #while its not the same as my own this characterization of them is so intriguing. im so hooked on it #^^ one thing i think this person really nailed was thin man's immaturity (stemming from his emotions oftentime being too big to control) -> #and the desire of attention that comes with said immaturity while also having the lady be both cold (normal) and intrigued in a way that -> #that really fits her character. curiosity is one of the many facets that make up her character that don't get explored much and i think its #done so well here for like no reason💀 THIS AUTHOR COOKED TOO HARD YOU GUYS #like ofc she wouldnt send him away. shes studying him under a microscope. even though hes annoying as hell #thin man is plagued by sassy man syndrome in this which is really fucking funny cus it lasts a total of 3 seconds before she finds him out #PLUS THE TALK ABOUT THE TOWER AND THE WORLD... AUGHHH #i need this author to give me their brain NOW #AUGHHHHHAAGGGHEEHH #everyone needs to start doing thinlady the way this person was doing it #this is the biblically accurate old people (in case my theory abt baby lady having been in the pale city is wrong) #live laugh love. its my birthday. spoiling myself a bit. goddamn.

[ackee]

i need a new fictional man to be obsessed with. unfortunately i dont like things.

#txt #[shaking myself] CAN YOU JUST ENJOY MEDIA DAMN.. #and when i do finally find something its gonna be smthn that only one person is making art for 😭 im doomed fr

[thenothlng]

probably a wiz oomfie: tumblr user thenothlng also known as styx pass through here

wizblr: how can you tell???

wizoomf: Wizsein

#jext msg #is it about to be 5 am. yea. am i thinking about wizsein/beasein. yeah #like literally my stomach hurts rn thinking about them #pleaasepleapeleplasepelase it has to be ok. Please #and if it’s not just. put me down gently ok. let him at least be ok and let us make peace with it #god how would i even handle that. wow. wow. wow. fuck my stupid baka life #ship tht is so incredibly important 2 me #i know i’m like the 1% tht ships it romantically but it’s also like Beyond tht i’m afraid #like it rlly transcends human emotions and it’s just. A Thing. to all those oomfs who call it a secret third thing. Yeah #ohhhhhhh if i could just go back and experience all of that again. literally. man #guy who i would put myself into a doomed time loop for over and over again just to see again forever #relive it all just to experience guy all over again. try different things even if the outcome wouldn’t change (desperately trying to do so) #wizsein forever i’m so fr #my blorbos. i need to finish so much art still lol #ANYWAYS. i should lay down. enough indecipherable texts for the masses of wizblr to try and decrypt #im taking my big gay ass to BED #wizsein

[archirdarchernar]

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#vent #tw vent #i feel like im going to explode #i cant bring myself to do anything so all this energy is just gathering and building up and i feel like im seconds away from exploding #i want human connection so fucking bad but im so fucked up no one would want to compromise a relationship with me #immersed myself in fiction so much i keep dreaming of having relationships that ill never have because most other people just Dont Work That #Way #all my relationships feel so shallow now #ig thats my fault #for never presenting the real version of myself. showing others caricatures and exaggerations of my character so i can be more likeable #ill never feel safe enough around anyone to drop the act. and even if i do ill feel too guilty to stop #ive doomed myself theres no fixing me #theres no motivation to do anything anymore i can barely get myself to lift a finger #hey why didnt anyone tell me just sitting up would be so hard. why didnt anyone tell me just drawing a few strokes would take most of my #energy #if anyone ripped my heart out right now id thank them for putting me out of my misery #theres nothing here. might as well also become nothing #this feeling is awful id prefer being hurt instead #i cant make it go away #someone please just kill me #arc 3am logs

[orcelito]

ITNL chapter 12 is posted!

Vash is fiiiiiiiiiiiine. totally!

#speculation nation #itnl shit #now i need to make sure i actually go to bed instead of doom refreshing for 2 hours lmaoooooooooo #ive been rereading the fight over and over again. and the rest of it too. #Very Addicting if i do say so myself #im very excited to see what readers have to say about it. im Very proud of the results heheh

[the-faultofdaedalus]

IDEA. AIRON MAN BESTIES WITH A ROGUE DOOMBOT WHO'S JUST TRYING TO BUILD THEIR OWN PERSONALITY AND LIFE OUTSIDE OF THEIR IMPLANTED MEMORIES..........

COULD BE AN ACCIDENTAL GAINING OF FREEDOM OF CONSCIOUSNESS, LIKE W/ SENTIENT ARMOR, BUT I ALSO THINK IT COULD BE RLLY NEAT IF THEY WERE A PROTOTYPE DOOMBOT THAT ENDED UP HAVING MORE FREEDOM AND CAPABILITY FOR GROWTH THAN INTENDED AND THEY'VE BEEN LIVING THEIR OWN LIFE SINCE (IDEALLY W/ VICTOR'S SUPPORT BC RESPECT FOR THE AUTONOMY OF HIS CITIZENS AND CREATIONS AND ALL THAT)

BONDING OVER THE TECHNOLOGICAL FUNCTIONS AND LIMITATIONS OF THEIR FORMS, THE PRESSURE TO APPEAR A SIMULACRUM OF A BIOLOGICAL ENTITY AND THE FEAR OF HOW OTHERS WOULD VIEW AND REACT TO THEIR TRUE SELVES, THE "I AM CONNECTED TO MY CREATOR, BUT I AM NOT HIM IN THE WAYS HE WAS HIMSELF AND I AM MORE THAT WHAT HE MADE ME FOR," THE STEMBOY SWAG, ETC........

I ALSO THINK IT COULD BE FUNKY TO EXPLORE LIKE. I AM AN INDIVIDUAL DISTINCT FROM MY CREATOR BUT I AM STILL TIED TO HIM. DO I FEEL OBLIGATED TO ONLY DRAW FROM HIS VISION? DO I FEEL GUILTY FOR ADDING ELEMENTS OF MY PERSONALITY TO HIS DESIGN OF ME? WOULD HE BE PROUD OF WHO I'VE BECOME?

TRULY THIS WAS JUST MEANT TO BE A VAGUE NOTION OF A POTENTIAL CHARACTER BUT I STARTED THINKING AND GOT HOOKED DJSLHFLSHFLS BUT YES HELLO

oh there literally are already feral doombots just Around. thats canon. they are... already sapient as far as im aware (but like, sapient in that they have enough of victor's memories and personality to successfully pretend to be him and sometimes for them to not know they aren't him. also they can feel pain. questioning why victor has made ten thousand cannon-fodder robots with also his whole brain in them which also can fully feel pain is a different post) but yeah feral doombots my beloved

there’s like…. at least two i know of. the one with the fancy coat and the one calling himself vincent that actually looks like a human, i love them. i have so many thoughts about feral doombots just Around and Vibin and its not like victor gives a shit. he can make new ones. whatever.

but also ;-; that's So good, especially if its somehow pre-reveal for iron man being Known as anything other than like, a human in an armor so perhaps he meets a doombot somehow (maybe it's stealing replacement parts from SI and when IM realizes that its not... actually taking anything dangerous hes like. oh. oh. because he's smart enough to also know why he isnt just going to get repaired like normal) and it's just, this sense of Recognition that iron man cannot say anything else

i think it would be good if it was like. iron man offers to help fix the bot. oor just, helps him. no expectation of anything else. and the doombot is supicious because of course it is, it was programmed by Paranoid Bastard Supreme, and it's not like iron man can even tell it why he wants to help it so badly, because even if he doesn't think it's actively a danger that doesn't mean giving it the information that he isn't human like everyone assumes wouldn't be... an incredibly bad idea. it's still attached to a supervillan, after all

(also sidenote but i am frothing at the mouth about potential doomquest in this universe it would be SO funny,,,,,, king arthur sends a pretty lady to iron man's room for "companionship" and iron man is just like. ah. ok. i dont know what is expected of me right now. also doomquest is very good to me, specifically, because its one of the only early comics things where almost anyone has more respect for tony than for iron man, which i enjoy, i think it would be SO good for airon man au especially if iron man is like. in danger of just... running out of power. technicallyyyyy i think this should also be a problem in canon, i think doomquest happens during chestplate era, where hes largely not able to go more than about a day without Dramatic Wall Outlet Time and yet hes fine just vibin in camelot (famously deprived of wall outlets) for at least a couple of days, but YEAH SEND AIRON MAN TO CAMELOT i think hed be both freaked out and also. sad that tony couldn't experience it. i think the background radiation of iron man's life is just... sadness that tony cannot experience any of the cool things he does)

but like... him continuing too help this doombot. maybe the doombot also helps him out somehow, as well. maybe subtly interveening in some fights. maybe giving iron man some neat lil tech tips. maybe a;klsdjfasdf the doombot still wants like. Something To Do and not just sit idle all the time or something so iron man hooks 'em up with a fuckin. tech support job. or like, product testing, for SI. something where he can just fix shit thats been broken in the stupidest ways or, try to destroy other things. who knows i dont. but maybe theres an attack at SI and iron man deals with it but hes damaged, and normally he'd like. hide away and do a quick n dirty patch job just so theres not obvious holes into nothing, but. the doombot follows him. and finds him. and its just... looking at eachother. knowing "oh fuck we're the same" and also "oh fuck he knows"

i think they should help fix eachother up and be buddies anyways it'd be good

#GOD good #wheeee bootleg doomtony go brrrrr #airon man au #just ;-; buddies #like i do think the rogue doombots are diverse enough #but i think Most of them would not go directly against victor #but also god. they help fixing eachother up and making eachother better im so. im soft #i do feel like generally the whole like. identity crisis from having made robot versions of yourself #is WAY less a thing in victor/the doombots than like. keeps happening with tony #tony: oh god what is me and what is not... at what point am i no longer myself #victor: if it has my face its me. and by face i mean the mask. #i think its fatal frontier where the ''if it has the mantle of doom it deserves the same respect as if it was me'' #i think its good i think its funny that victor just skipped the identity issues #i do hold this hc right beside the. theres Something about victor making killable versions of himself #maybe he will never allow himself to die but the doombots can #also like. theres Something about the fact that like.... victor very rarely and basically never Expresses feeling pain #(like whatever the newer comic was. judgment day or whatever. where he burns to death and doesnt even scream) #whereas the doombots on MANY occations like. scream in pain as they are killed #THERES SOMETHING. THERES SOMETHING THERE. I THINK. #theres something that i am Constantly rotating very quickly in my mind

[madsclinett]

#vis #[[op im still here if anyone else is #i fell into such a doom scroll hole im pulling myself out for replies rn #have this hot pic of mads as i start to try to applogize to the dash lmfaoooo idk im sorry im like this 🤣 #i never think anyone actually reads all lf my tags so i go off and say silly stuff to make myself lol k bye 😂😂]]

[ozcarr]

Actually Gabby hoodwinking me into revealing my D&D guy’s tragic and longstanding crush on Liv’s D&D guy was one of the greatest gifts she could have given me. Cause now I can draw all kinds of stupid and gay shit 👍

#imagine me mashing two action figures together to make them kiss but like. in a doomed way #imagine liv applauding #none of you will ever get it but just know that if we’d have been a popular actual play podcast…. #the themes and literary motifs motherfuckers would have had a field day. the fanfic would have been legendary #I have other shit to draw but I can’t pull myself away. I get how Jen feels about those c-drama guys now #ayy im talkin here

[dexaroth]

so funny to end growing up as the character guy with no social awareness or storytelling skills. yes this is my guy, he has no backstory because he represents a vague collection of traits i cant put into words and he also never changes and was just born like this. sorry

#ive said before that i personally cant connect with other pplscharacters that just have no bits of context to go off of like bios traits etc #but i also cant manage to come up with any of my own either #for bios like idk it feels just plain to write a backstory when it could be drawn in a comic or whatever. its boring to just read #and even if i try most of my characters are just sonas which ends up becoming rather redundant bc they share so many traits #and characters that arent sonas then end up facing my lack of knowledge to flesh them out enough for me to attach to them #like i literally havent met enough people to have a wide selection of points of view to apply to characters #and i dont watch any like series or anything ever to have a good basis of other characters to learn and draw inspo from #the impending doom of making my character directory approaches... #dextxt #eh... maybe im forcing myself to think of chars as these immutable boxes instead of just having fun but i dont really know #to me if a character has no story then theyre justa design. just an idea of a guy. when has an idea of someone ever been like the real thin

[cinnamon-notes]

the worst day ever.

#was denied lunch break at work #been starving since dinner last night #they're paying me only if i give 90% of my paycheck back #they're trying to force me to stay longer than i should and im definitely not giving in #my landlady's being a jerk and i need to move out for my own safety but i cant because there are no apartments available rn #it's just not apartment hunting season #my mother is mad at me because im being too condescending and compliant at work and she thinks i should leave but i actually cant #cuz my contract forces me to stay for another six months #my father is mad at me because he thinks im a failure and i run away from my problems instead of dealing with them and he thinks im a total #loser because if i were assertive none of this would've happened and i cant just wish i could leave now because i put myself in this place #so i deserve to live in it because im doomed to it and theres nothing i can do and leaving would make me a coward #rather than an emotionally smart person who can recognize where the previously drawn line is being overstepped #and obviously i couldnt study today because ✨work✨ and “what else do you have to do in your life beside work???” #so yeah- im mad. and angry. and full of rage. full of repressed fuck-yous #cinnamon vents #cinnamon notes