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surajmukhis · 2 years

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vegaspetemacau headcanons

aka a long episode of 'can two fucked up dudes and one school kid make up a healthy family? the answer is yes <3'

both macau and vegas hate hospitals with a burning passion. it reminds them of their mom’s illness so the instant vegas’ doctor says he’s improving they’re in the car, yelling for pete to get in. (pete does not get in. the doctor’s next sentence had been to specify they still need to keep vegas under observation. the brothers try protesting for exactly three seconds before they see how the smile falls from pete’s face)

this is not to say pete is indifferent to their discomfort. within the first week, the hospital room is filled with flowers and huge, gorgeous bouquets. the brothers breathe easier without the oppressive scent of hospital chemicals but there’s barely room to sit. when vegas points t out, pete insists they’re from his well-wishers. (yeah ok his bluffing skills are poor. there’s a reason he got his tattoo) ‘i have two well-wishers,’ vegas reminds him flatly. ‘and they’re both in this room.’ macau tosses a flower stem at his face and vegas clarifies: ‘the second one is this doctor.’

it’s not all sunshine and roses but pete does his best to make the most of their situation. mornings mean family breakfast before macau is packed off to university. afternoons crawl by till vegas discovers pete’s uncanny talent with girl group choreographies. those are simultaneously torture and heaven to spectate. evenings are spent watching the worst of thai reality television, something macau claims to hate till he’s yelling at the stupid plot lines just as much as the other two.

(‘oh come on, he’s obviously lying about them being cousins!’ ‘didn’t you say you’re not watching.’ ‘you can’t call it watching if i’m trying to gouge my eyes out the entire time, hia.’)

somehow, the nurses never wake vegas up at the crack of dawn for unnecessary blood tests, which is pleasant but still shocking.

(ok fine maybe pete had a nice, very sweet chat with the medical staff when they woke vegas up minutes after he’d finally drifted off in the early hours one morning. but it worked, so who’s complaining?)

(macau overhears him bc of course he does. he doesn’t interrupt. when pete returns to the room, smiling, with a terrified nurse in his wake, macau has his favourite dessert waiting.)

casual murder-threats aside, the three of them have a fairly uneventful time. a good thing for vegas’ recovery and a shit fucking deal for his attention span. it’s only a matter of time before cabin fever brings with it the fever of competition.

see this is fun bc vegas is ten kinds of terrifying till you put him in a board game. there, he refuses to cheat, says something about morals and fair play which is unfortunate bc, as it turns out, he really fucking sucks at games.

pete and macau don’t give a shit. they kick ass at game night and take no prisoners. macau cleans vegas out so bad in the first few rounds that by the time pete flexes his skill at card games, he’s already irritable and betting on stupid shit like going to bed on time.

(he loses that one too❤️)

when the competition threatens to tear their family apart, all three decide to take a break.

the peace doesn’t last. macau comes back from uni one afternoon, stars in his eyes, smiling all wide. ‘it’s true love,’ he says, dazed. pete and vegas exchange looks. it’s some girl who doesn’t know macau exists.

their amusement dials down to zero fairly quick when macau asks for dating advice, though.

‘p’pete come on! you work fast! how did you get hia to fall for you?’

‘p’pete told me i need therapy.’

pete is affronted. ‘i also said you don’t suck!’ which, really—not the best improvement.

macau gives him a witheringly unimpressed look before turning to vegas.

a very unprepared vegas. taking a leaf out of pete’s book, he goes for honesty. ‘oh uh. my approach was a bit. hands-on. won’t be your style, buddy.’

pete, who has never missed a chance in his life, jumps in immediately. ‘oh yeah definitely not your thing, macau. he called my grandmother up to ask if we can go on a trip three minutes after we spoke properly for the first time.’

macau frowns, wants to know why but vegas is quick to mumble some nonsense about blessings for their relationship.

neither of them are sure why macau seems to believe this excuse. vegas doesn’t exactly have the best track record, but hey whatever sticks, right?

by the time the doctor is finally ready to clear vegas for release, the entirety of their medical staff is on the verge of quitting, macau has had his heart broken (he ignored their advice and composed a song for the girl bc chay said it works 100% of the time—it didn’t) and vegas has lost a little less than a million baht to both of them through their nightly game sessions.

‘and you’ll lose a million more,’ pete says cheerfully, helping him into the waiting car. ‘once we’re home.’

vegas can’t bring himself to complain. not when ‘home’ sounds so lovely coming from his love.

macau, getting increasingly good at interrupting their private moments, manages to seat himself right between the two of them. it mends something in all their chests, the quiet moment of togetherness, shoulders brushing as they squeeze into backseat together, driving home.

(the serenity doesn’t last long. macau captures the aux cord and insists on playing them his latest songwriting attempt.)

#im stopping here bc otherwise i never will jfc!!!!#vegaspete #vegaspetemacau #kinnporsche #vegaspete fic #idk i just think that they. them-- [blubbers incoherently]#[slaps roof of my found family]: these bad boys can fit so many of my self-indulgent fantasies in them #what i am trying to say is: s2 needs to deliver on them. Or Else❤️#queuing this bc i think i had fun with this but im not sure bc head achey :((#i need to write stupid amounts of fluff for them to feel sane sorry <3 #jaane queue

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iheartjameshetfield · 4 months

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inexperienced/virgin baby boy jason getting a blow job for the first time

JUST LOOK AT HIM!!!!!!

just imagine him being spread out on the couch, trying his hardest not to cum just at the sight of you on your knees and dragging his zipper down with your teeth.

you place open-mouthed kisses over his boxers, feeling him harden underneath your lips as you hum. already, he’s moaning, his hips lifting in impatience. you get the hint and waste no time to pull off the clothing, discarding it somewhere in the room.

while you drool over the sight of his pretty cock, your bring your hand up to start pumping him, the contact making him hiss. you pump slowly to tease him, but you start feeling bad when he already starts to whine.

“please..”

“tell me, baby, what do you want?” you question.

“i need you. please” he was so sweet with his answer, his cheeks reddening from the embarrassment and you decide not to keep him waiting anymore

you bring his tip to your tongue, delivering short licks to test out the waters. he lets out a soft “oh” when you take more of him in your mouth, trying his hardest not to close his eyes so he could see you.

you place kisses from the base of his shaft all the way to his tip, licking after. you inch down his cock until your lips are at his base, your tongue swirling around him. he lets out shuddered breaths, his hands grabbing the cushions to brace himself.

“oh fuck” he whines, scrunching his eyes shut before bulging them open again, tears springing the corner of his eyes.

slowly, your head bobs up and down while one hand lingers at his thigh, inching to his hips while you massage his balls with the other.

jason tries his hardest to keep his hands to himself, not wanting to hurt you by pulling your hair, but when you hum around him, he decides that it would be okay.

one hand reaches down to tangle in your hair as he nudges your head a little further down on him. your actions speed up when you feel him twitch in your mouth, letting you know he’s close.

as much as he tried to, jason eventually accepted the fact that when it comes to you, he doesn’t have any self control, so he let his other hand go to your hair as well, his hips thrusting into your mouth the same time he pushes your head down.

“sorry, shit i’m so sorry.” he cries, trying his hardest to refrain from using your mouth this way, but he just can’t stop :(( in between moans, he continues to apologize profusely, his face turning red as he watches your lipstick leave a stain on his base “fuckkk im so sorry, i just- shit your mouth feels so fucking good ohh” his words are high pitched as he hisses at the pleasure.

he feels bad when he gathers that the sound of your gagging only made him want to fuck your mouth even more, turning him on, but right now he had no time to feel guilty when you keep looking at him like that, pushing him to reach his orgasm.

“can i cum? please. please i need to cum in your mouth, i want it so bad please” he whines, more tears falling from his face.

you try not to die at the fact that he’s begging and instead you nod and hum in confirmation. his last few thrusts are harsh as he reaches his release, a few “ah ah ah”s fall from he lips

your knees buckle when his high pitched whimpers reach your ears as he empties himself into your mouth, his hands still pushing your head down. he’s still pushing his hips into your face, just a lot slower now that he’s all fucked out as he murmurs a bunch of “thank you”s to you

when he sees you visibly swallowing his cum, he becomes very aware of how sensitive he is, so he nudges your head off, a line of spit and cum still connecting you to his tip.

you smile, wiping your lips as you watch his chest heave, his body all tuckered out. you stroke his thighs, praising him and telling him how good he was, and just comforting him.

you get up and sit on the couch next to him and jason immediately falls limp into your arms, laying his head on your chest as you play with his curls, mumbling sweet words while you rest your cheek atop his head.

if me and jase don’t do this right now i’m going to make it everyone’s problem.

#HES SO AHHHHHHHH #HES SO CUTE #WHAT TJE FUCK #IM SO IN LOVE WITH HIM #I CANT DO THIS #i need him so bad shut up 😭#he’s so cute :((#sobbing rn dhmu 👎#metallica #jason newsted #jason newsted metallica

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ruewrote · 5 months

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𝑠𝑙𝑖𝑝𝑝𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟𝑠.

PAIRING: chloe price x fem!reader WARNINGS: mentions of possible death GENRE: angst SONG INSPIRATION: love me now by john legend WORD COUNT: 765

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it had been just over a week since rachel had gone missing and you had never seen chloe so...broken?

since she had gotten expelled she now spent her days in bed or out getting high. you were more than worried for her, she barely spoke to you anymore whether that be through person or messaging. always ending up with you getting left on read or delivered most nights.

joyce gave you sad smiles as you showed up to take care of her daughter or well atleast try to.

often leaving trays of food out for her, then coming back to get it and it would be barely touched. the curtains of her bedroom always closed, the strong scent of beer and weed making your stomach churn as you laid snuggled up close holding her.

you've never seen her look so small before.

for the boisterous girl you had first met seeing chloe in this state terrified you and the fact you couldn't do anything to make her feel better made the pit in your stomach grow deeper.

a few weeks later and rachel was still missing.

the students of blackwell reluctantly went back to their normal schedules, classes did too, even with the constant rainfall.

as for chloe she was nowhere near okay, but she was out of bed and determined more than ever to find rachel. placing missing person posters all over town with your help of course.

you would do anything for that girl...for your girl.

like now where you're stood close behind her, your hands in gloves gripping a bleaching brush which was covered in blue hair dye.

ever since the two of you had gotten together you had taken on the role of dying her hair, tired of seeing her miss patches at the back. you also happened to love the calmness of the process, that was when you actually got her to sit still.

her normal fidgeting was now still, the room that was previously full of music and life is dull and quiet.

you were just about done double checking you covered everywhere before taking off your gloves and picking up a piece of tissue, shuffling round to kneel in front of her.

she had been awfully quiet today, it had gotten so bad you wished that she'd just scream and shout at you, to do something. anything.

your fingers gently grasped her chin as you wiped away any excess off of her forehead so it wouldn't burn the skin, her eyes skimming your face as you did, a soft smile tugged at your lips as you went to give her a kiss only for your lips to be met with her cheek.

that sinking feeling coming back again as you backed away. peeling the gloves off of your hands, gathering your things whilst she tried to explain herself. the tears nearly spilling from your eyes as you swallowed the lump in your throat to speak to her.

"i-im gonna go home, give you some space. remember don't leave that on for too long, i love you." pausing to look at her seeing the regret and pain on her face. she reached out for you, but before she could catch you, you slipped out of the door.

you didn't know what to do anymore, this was all becoming so draining. feeling terrible for even thinking that, but you felt like you were losing her.

now instead of stopping off at her house before school you went straight there, sometimes even grabbing a coffee and still having enough time to be early.

your grades that were once slipping now back on track, you spent your time drowned in homework or extracalicular activities so you didn't have to think of her. of everything. every once in a while calling joyce for updates.

tonight was one of the nights where every had been done, school work, chores. so you ended up having a self care night. not remembering the last time you did something nice for yourself.

having a shower, slipping into some pjs and putting on home alone. a christmas movie that you once loved but now couldn't watch without thinking of her.

clicking off the tv, falling onto your bed. bundling yourself up as you listened to the rain beat against the window.

you missed her laugh, her sarcastic humour, her touch, you missed her.

for the passed few years it had been you two, she was your constant and having it all ripped away from you so suddenly hurt.

you felt forgotten. for the time in ages you were...alone.

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divorcedwife · 1 month

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hi! i love your art SO MUCH and i check your blog like the morning newspaper to see if you’ve uploaded anything new (you always have and I LOVE IT!!! thank u for keeping us fed) anyway i was just wondering if you had any advice for actively creating so much? i used to draw all of the time but i find it so hard lately to make even one tiny thing, especially something that i like…..but when i look at your work and how much you create i am always so inspired! i hope this makes sense eeeek anyway have an amazing day and thank you for sharing your incredible work with us!!!!

thank youuuu thank you so much!!! ;___;

i totally get that, and it used to be my number one problem, creating at all. i remember being in art school surrounded by people who were always drawing, and me, i just couldn't, and i couldn't explain what made drawing so difficult for me

and i think what blocked me is that i was paralyzed by indecision - too afraid to waste my time making "bad art" to do anything, or the wrong type of art, art that' won't look good in my portfolio, art that's too silly and specific to me. so in the end i made nothing

what's really been helping me lately is that i have dramatically lowered my standards for myself. i sketch every idea i have, even if it's just putting down three lines, even if it's self-indulgent and silly. anything that excites me and makes me want to draw, i follow that excitement as far as it will take me. maybe that's a fully completely illustration, maybe just a sketch, or maybe somewhere in between

if the goal is to have fun and not making a masterpiece, i feel less pressure and i end up drawing more. and drawing more leads to drawing better! if you make 10 sketches and really pressure yourself to make them great, that's torture. if you draw 1000 sketches, some of them will turn out amazing

when i have ideas i sketch, and when im low on ideas, i have all these already made sketches to revisit, and as i draw i find new ideas! this avoids me having to face a blank canvas and desperately scratch around my brain for ideas. creativity does not like being scrutinized like a bug, it vanishes under pressure in my experience

i find that creativity can be a negative or a virtuous circle. not drawing leads to less ideas and more pressure to deliver something good which will keep someone not drawing. but if you find something that gets you excited enough to draw again and keep going, then you will get more ideas along the way. follow them! draw the same character 1000 times in a row. i tend to focus on mostly one of my characters at a time - i draw her, i think about her, so i want to draw her more, and so on. that's fine

if there's any part of drawing that you like more than others, maybe try leaning on that more, and remember you don't need to do anything you don't want to do. if doing lineart sucks, don't do that. if coloring makes you want to stop drawing, use black and white

but also, where i've also been very lucky is having people like you around! :-) having people respond and connect to my art with such enthusiasm and such kindness, it's incredible

genuinely i owe more to people online who like my art than anyone does to me for making it. i would probably still make art if i had no one to show it too (which is what i did in middle school lol), but it's very lonely. it's harder to create something if it feels like no one will care. and i've been there, i spent years on deviantart having zero followers and attention. so i think every artist needs supportive friends they can show their art to for encouragement

some people feel shame that they don't do art just for its sake, that they want followers and likes and all, so i just want to say it's normal to want that :-) like i do make my art for an audience, if it was just for myself, i'd look at it in my head

i hope any of that helps!! in conclusion, i think any kind of art is worth making. and it should be fun. i also hope this makes any sense - i have to go to work soon but i wanted to reply before that. and thank you again for your kind words!!!!! <33333333

#anon #answered

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cray-cray-anime · 1 year

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Who to submit and vote for pluralsswagbracket?

RISE MIKEY

What makes him plural?

Well ofc his alters! And he has not 1, not 2

BUT FOUR OFFICIAL ALTERS/PERSONAS

And they all swag with the best scene of them

Dr feelings

Donnie: Uh, what is happening?

Mikey: Good Morning. I'm Dr Feelings. Welcome to my seminar, "Hug it out"!

Donnie: Dr Feelings? I thought you were Dr Delicate Touch.

Mikey: (evilly) Dr Delicate Touch feels nothing.(back to normal) Lesson one: Because I said so is not an answer. You need to learn a healthy way to express your feelings to your family.

Donnie: Yes, feelings. Hot, cold, sleepy, hungry - -

Mikey: (intterupts donnie by wacking donnie with his pointing stick)

Mikey: No. Feelings like anger. Remind you of anyone? (Shows a picture of donnie yelling at SHELLDON)

Donnie: Nope!

(Ominous music plays as Mikey gives him a suspicious look as he changes the channel to Splinter yells at Donnie, then he starts changing them all over as donnie slowly realises in horror)

Dr delicate touch:

Mikey: Bullhop, we're friends. So this will be easy to say. YOU'VE GOT TO GO! HIT THE BRICKS SLOPPY!

Bullhop:What? You’re kicking me out?

Mikey:That’s right! You have been working a nerve hozer!

Honestly just have the whole compliations

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Dr positive

Draxum:Baron Draxum needs the help of no one!

Mikey:Oh really? When I found you, were you or were you not living on the street?

Draxum: Maybe.

Mikey:Powerless because your soul got sucked out by the dark armor, wanted for crimes in the Hidden City and who set you up in style?

Draxum:(sighs) Dr. Positive.

Miley:That’s right. Dr. Positive. The one who’s gonna turn you from bad guy to glad guy. From sad heep to happy sheep. From devil to A level baby.

Dr rude (IT WASN'T EVEN AIRED YET WE LOVE IT so just watch the whole thing (def not cos I'm too lazy to type the transcript)

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A couple even made fics on him having DID disorder

This is my favourite which even mentions one not said in the show of "ninja mode"

and this one mentions mikey's DID

Why would he have DID

"There are a variety of triggers that can cause switching between alters, or identities, in people with dissociative identity disorder. These can include stress, memories, strong emotions, senses, alcohol and substance use, special events, or specific situations"

Which MIKEY DOES (quote from rottmnt wiki)

"To deliver a harsh truth in his "Doctor Delicate Touch" method, Mikey often starts off being sweet, but quickly becomes angry and frank ("Man VS. Sewer").

Doctor Feelings uses his emotional intelligence to advise others ("Breaking Purple"),

and Mikey faces issues with determined optimism as Doctor Positive ("Repairin' the Baron").

And well dr rude wasn't aired and was only when he was pretending to be a villain

BUT myyyy personal hc is that mikey gets burnt out from his alters trying to keep the dysfunctional family together and try to stop the distancing and fighting, as well as, the villains.

So to cope, another alter slowly comes out as dr rude

But hey why would he have DID, isn't it usually from trauma?

Ya telling me

a family raised in the sewers

who hasn't seen anyone like them in several years

with a traumatised dad that's not emotionally available

and villains trying to kill you and your brothers regularly

not traumatising?!

As for the swag, honestly he speaks for them self (or selves). LIKE LITERALLY NOT EVEN THERE THAT LONG AND WE ALREADY LOVE THEM

So y'all submit for mikey TO GET HIM IN FOR THE VOTES

@pluralswagbracket

Edit: MIKEY GOT IN

This is gonna be pinned till the whole thing over

Edit 2: IF MIKEY AT LEAST WINS AGAINST YOU KNOW WHO THAT BEAT OUR AUTISTIC TURTLE I WILL PUT MY DRAWING OF MIKEY ON MY SIDEBLOG @cray-who-nah-im-just-crazy-a-wip

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sunwarmed-ash · 11 months

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🔥Sinful Sunday🔥

Death changes everything Chapter 2: Don't you know who I think I am?

Fandom: Stranger Things

Ships: Mungrove, healing Harringrove, steddiegrove/harringroveson/metalsandwich

Tags: EmOTiOnz, Bad Ass Mother Fucking Wayne Munson, Abusive Neil Hargrove, inferred child abuse, harringrove catharsis, Billy hargrove needs a hug, and two boyfriends, emotional sex, M/M/M

Trigger warnings: homophobia, homophobic language

Chapter summary:

It had been three weeks, since their night together. And Eddie had become obsessed since. He only knew that because Robin had just told him,

“You’re obsessed,” while they were sitting under the oak tree at lunch. Steve didn't join them today, which Eddie is actually grateful for. He doesn't know how to broach the topic of sleeping with Billy, Steve’s ex, with his new best friend.

He told Robin immediately, had to, she was his absolute best friend, wingman, right hand man and partner in crime. Had been since 7th grade orchestra and they never looked back. They were the definition of The Odd Couple, but it benefited both of their strives toward queer anonymity that people just assumed it was natural the two weirdos were dating each other. They never bothered correcting the assumption, except with other queerdos who knew about The Code. Steve, recently awoken bisexual, fell into that category, and his relationship with Billy was complicated in the simplest, most convenient of terms.

Eddie let out a heavy sigh. He could feel tears brimming on the edge og lids, but he couldnt let them fall. Not now.

“He’s gonna hate me.”

Robin sighs heavily now too. And eddie hates hes the one who made her make that sound.

“Every day you put it off is only making it worse.”

“Gee thanks alot Rob,”

“Well im sorry! I’ve tried the kind and compassionate route! Look where its gotten you!”

Shes right, of course she is, but he still doesn't want to hear it.

“Eddie,” she sighs, interlacing her arm with his and kissing the edge of his bicep the way she does only when shes about to deliver some hard truths, “its gonna suck. Yeah. But, he will get over it. You gotta give Steve the chance to be okay with it before you convince yourself he won’t be. He won't hurt you, Steve’s not like that, but, it’s going to hurt him. I don’t think Steve will ever be over Billy.”

The tears fall anyway.

“Fuck.” Which is annoying because he let himself be convinced he could save two dollars and go without waterproof eyeliner and now he’s paying the price. “I don't deserve either of them.”

“Stop that shit right now. I think you might be freaking yourself out a little. It’s just sex.”

“Sex with Billy is not just sex to Steve.”

“You're not Steve.”

“You're right, I’m a slut and an idiot.”

Robin sighs at his self depricary, resting her head against his bicep now.

“Invite Steve over, make him dinner, then tell him. Then talk to Billy. If you’re asking for my advice.”

He was, he really was at his wits end after 3 weeks of no further contact, new injuries on Billy, and too long in his own head.

“I love you.”

Robin snorted.

“That’s so gay Munson. But I love you too.”

It got Eddie to laugh too, and he was so happy to have her as a platonic soulmate.

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sirdust · 3 months

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im so glad I'm not the only one who thought the show was so shit,, like is this really the thing we were waiting for 4 years since it was announced?? did nobody tell them to stop with unnecessary sex jokes and that god AWFUL camera movements is so bad it's funny. even my 16yo obsessed self wouldn't approve 😭 i only watched bc of pure nostalgia and oh my god, they did not deliver and i was disappointed. the ONLY characters and things I liked were Vox, Sir Pentious, and Zestial. they were pretty neat. It's so bad it's lowk funny,, was there NOBODY who told them to just CONSIDER listening to fans advice if they're too ignorant to see them themselves?? it seriously BAFFLES me that people were PROFESSIONAL people behind this,,...there ain't no way they were serious with that script man😭. I've read COUNTLESS of fanfics that were better. and that says something?

| sorry about the long angry rant before omg,, but I was also a fan just as you and i also feel so bitter about what they did with the whole narrative of the show. imagine if the creator was normal and that the script wasn't a cringe dumpsterfire. the POTENTIAL this show had was sooo big 😭 I don't think about it anymore, it was my biggest teenage hyperfixation but it randomly pops up in my mind every 2/3 months bc of nostalgia. and I'm like it was cringe but i was so happy back then. it had POTENTIALLL😭 |

i understand how you feel 😔 my expectations have been at rock bottom since hb s2 premiered, but it's still frustrating and disappointing to see a project with such a genius premise go largely to waste. testing the viability of a rehabilitative justice system in hell ??? i would do just about anything to be able to come up with a hook like that !!!

i really don't mind that the show is cringe, or that the comedy is weak, or even that a lot has changed from the pilot stage to the final (even if a lot of elements seem to have stayed the same on the surface). the biggest issue is ultimately the show's failure to give its story and characters room to breathe. it's cramming as much as it can into the short amount of episodes ordered, which comes at the expense of the storytelling quality.

#asks #anon

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ashthemadwriter-archived · 2 years

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Hi! Can I request a matchup? I can make mistakes while writing and sorry for that, English is not my first language 🥲

Im 18 years old, my zodiac sign is Scorpio, rising is Aries and moon sign is Leo.

I'm an INTP.

As my characteristic; I'm funny, I don't like to stay cold unless the situation needs it.

I am a problem solver, my friends always asks for my opinions if they can't decide.

I really like to learn literally anything and everything but I love history and art especially.

My hobbies are drawing, visiting museums and art galleries, shopping and reading.

Still I'm a bit lazy and a procrastinator. I always deliver my tasks at the last minute.

I'm so creative, I can say that it's a bit too much. My brain doesn't stop for a second even 🤣

I'm calm under the pressure, I always think logically but I don't forget about my feelings. I think I have a good balance about it.

As my bad traits, I'm a bit weird. I don't think it's bad actually but still it's not good either. I like to search the weirdest infos,songs, books etc.

I can lose my temper a little too quickly but I am not vocal about it, I dont like to make noises while I'm angry, sad or overly happy.

But when I have someone I cherish -which is pretty rare- I can make them feel like they are the most important person of the world. I can't say it to their faces but I am comfortable while texting or when I don't look at their eyes directly. Nobody gets bored around me because I have interest for nearly everything and I'm okay with any suggestion they will come with.

I don't like to talk about my problems but I am a good listener. I don't listen only but can help them to find the solution as well.

I guess that will be last, I'm not a jealous person and I like to give my all courage to them when I feel like they need it.

Thanks for accepting ❤️ if you don't, it's not a problem. Have a nice day

Fandom: Bungou Stray Dogs

Format: Headcanons

Warnings: None

Word Count: 0.7K

A/n: Tysm honey, and here you go :>

I match you with...

Ryuunosuke Akutagawa!

So the main reason I matched you with him was because you have the same interests and likes (It's not like other characters don't enjoy it, but it's not as mush as Akutagawa does). Akutagawa is really into art (any type of it, but mostly drawing since he's a pro at it), so he would definitely enjoy going to art galleries, like you do. Sure, he's more comfortable with spending time with his s/o at home, but I can definitely see him going to museums, art galleries and book stores. BTW you have my respect if you get him to go shopping with you lol. He will be really helpful tho, you know what I mean if you've watched BSD Wan; and if you haven't? Well, I assure you, you won't be having any trouble carrying all the bags. Rashoumoun will take care of it.

Akutagawa needs encouragement, A LOT. The man has literally Zero confidence and self steam due to abandonment issues (All Dazai's fault tbh) so it would mean a lot and also really helpful if you encourage him over doing stuff. I mean he cares about your opinion a lot cause you and Gin are the most important people to him; so it would definitely make him feel better.

Becoming his s/o takes a lot of effort. Akutagawa has his guard on, and even won't open up to his sister about some stuff; so he needs someone who he can interact with without having to worry about them telling others or thinking lowly of them. It would take you a lot of time to reach that level where he trusts you enough to show his feelings toward you. I mean it will take him a long time to even realize them and accept them... Overall, patience is the key.

I think he would ask your opinion about almost anything since you don't seem to mind it and as I said before, you and your opinion are important to him. He just wants everything- especially himself- to be perfect in your eyes; so your opinion matters to him more than you think.

Please assure him that he's perfect the way he is and doesn't need to change anything :")

If he ever talked to you about Dazai... Just know that the man trusts you with his life. literally. Ooh and never bring Dazai up unless he really wants to talk about it. It reminds him all his insecurities.

Akutagawa is not one to talk much tbh. Even if he's that comfortable around you. His love language is Acts of service and he tries to show your value to him by doing meaningful things.

It would be nice to hear you adore him though, the man would furiously blush while having butterflies in his stomach when hearing you saying how much he means to you or how much deeply you're in love with him. Doesn't matter if you do it over text or without making eye contact, But if you do it while looking into his eyes, The man would melt.

Do I need to say that this man literally memorizes everything you say. Even the most random things or the things that you've only said once is always on his mind.

You seem like you can get along with a lot of people, and it would mean a lot to him if Gin is considered as those people as well <3 Gin is his most important. You two dating will never happen if you have any problem with Gin or the other way around. Don't worry tho, she's a sweetheart, and so are you :)

You can make your partner feel like he's the most important in the world? Please do it to him. The man needs it so much ngl.

He wouldn't think you're weird, or he will find it adorable if he does. I mean he's weird in a way himself lol.

Him closing his eyes when feeling your fingers gently caressing his cheeks while he's the little spoon which is really, really rare cause he thinks you'd think of him as weak when you have to take care of him; but he didn't argue with you about it that day cuz ROUGH DAY AT WORK-

tysm for participating, and hope you like it <3

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tapatiopickle · 21 days

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4224 stupid shit idk

“i believe your self-conscious is trying to tell you you simply can not fathom proper intimacy, but also crave it as well.” - moxxie, blitzos bad trip (helluva boss)

as i listen to disorder by joy division, i write this. i know all of my problems. i know i have attachment issues and daddy issues. those are the root causes of most of my problems. i get attached too easily to people, become obsessed even. but once they get close, i push them away out of fear they are going to leave me, like my father did. i do not know how to control this. i just feel the urge to keep them away so im not disappointed when they leave because its ME who did it, not them.

i used to pride myself on never having been broken up with, but now i think it is more of a defeat. i got so scared everytime. the most prominent one was 8th grade, going on to high school. i broke up with him because i thought he would find someone better in high school, that he would leave quickly the moment he got a chance. i ended up finding out that he loved me even after the fact. he never stopped, and neither did i. i no longer love him anymore (due to my other muse, who i dread leaving. i hope he never leaves, truly), yet we still remain friends.

speaking of my new muse, i find myself pushing him away at times too. i have to try to not do this, to tell myself that it isnt right. i end up overthinking all the things he does; why he turned off his activity status, why he leaves me on delivered for so long, why he refuses to be in a relationship with me. i dont blame him for any of these things, really. i wouldnt date me either, not with these physical and emotional scars. im too much baggage, as michael once said (fuck you, if you are reading this michael).

being told im selfish and only care about myself is quite painful. i love people, i want nothing but the best for them, even if they have harmed me (yes, even you michael). i want nothing but peace and love and i do not understand why people must fight. i love more than i am capable of. maybe that is why i am afraid of loving, afraid of not receiving the same treatment. but am i truly loving if im worried about how one will reciprocate it? perhaps, perhaps not.

anyways.

i have problems when it comes to intimacy. im scared of saying no because they might leave me, scared to upset or hurt them in anyway cause they might leave me, scared of everything possible. even if i have done nothing, i am scared. always on edge. waiting.

which is why i seem to take it upon myself to leave first, so they have no chance to.

haha, they cant hurt me because i hurt them first, i laugh to myself.

god, i could use a cigarette right now.

or a hug.

or both.

oh, anon, such is the woe and tragedy of an 18 year old girl with mental problems. i will be crying myself to sleep as i fight the urge to cut myself. goodnight, anon, and may you sleep well too.

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silentstarved · 7 months

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Back at it again bitch...

Right now I am just at my defeated moment, it's the all is lost moment. Except on the outside no one can tell anything is wrong. As I type this I'm sitting at work 2:48 am people all around me and not one person would ever actually know there is so much shit wrong with me. Sometimes I think about it and it's funny. Like somehow my life is secretly an ironic joke about someone who on the inside just a complete frantic mess but on the outside they are look so perfectly fine and normal that they themselves become convinced. It makes me feel like I can never reveal the sad in front of anyone. To me that means they'll never know the real me. Even though I understand I am more than my emotions I have been invalidated everytime when I reveal my true sad self. I can't even handle validation at this point, it just makes me too emotional if I genuinely feel it.

So, with that being said I've been falling down and embracing the depression. I have been ordering DoorDash way more often than my budget can even allow, call out of work more times than I can make it, sleep in the same clothes and not bathe for days on end, stopped putting effort into my looks for multiple weeks. The lack of actual happiness I stopped caring about because I needed something momentarily that could keep me going. Days on end I laid in my bed playing my Nintendo and ignoring all my responsibilities and things in my life because it was the only thing that made me feel a little bit better. I ignored my partner and my pet for what seemed like days at a time. We have different schedules and didn't see eachother as much. When he finally said something I couldn't contain the emotion I felt and broke down. Talking to him was too heavy to handle taking accountability for being a depressed pos. We want to do so many things and make plans that will never leave the notes app. All he wants is to talk about a future together. Which I am terrified.

Everything scares me. My absolute worst fear is being vulnerable with someone and not only do they hurt you or cheat and leave but taking advantage of that vulnerability. I am so scared that the love I give is being taken for granted and that what I receive from my partner is false. I'm so scared to find out everything I know about our relationship is a lie. Part of me is so scared of finding out but the other half of me wants to fight until it cracks and the real truth spills out. I know that deep down I am truly unloveable. My soul is broken and hopeless, I know that people might become attracted to certain features of mine but I am not beautiful and I have nothing to show for myself. I have never felt these things about myself. Just moments where I think I'm not so bad but the reality I've created of myself sets in and I immerse myself back into everything I hate.

During this spell of depression my issues with my body's image and self esteem has only gotten worse. Staying home and being unmotivated led me to being lazy, buying fast food, and having it delivered staying in bed and just eating. That trend made me gain weight in the last two months and I couldn't be more disgusted and ashamed. I was at the lowest low of hating myself. I got fatter, stopped doing my makeup, I didn't shave and barely showered, I was proud of myself when I brushed my teeth one day because they were so gross. At the height of this I was overeating falling asleep and getting myself sick when I woke up. Door dash really got the best of me and I'm really ashamed of that. I really wish I had that type of depression where I can't even handle food. At least I would be skinny and sad.

From this entire sequence I am at square one. I am at the beginning of where I started again. Same weight same gain and same pain.

It has been an ongoing cycle for me and I'm just tired of going the way I have been. I want to take my goals and the way I envision who I want to be seriously. I know im not going down a good path bc I've seen it before but I feel like ⭐️ ving going to give me some control over myself I've been longing for and I can't hate myself as much if im smaller.

#tw restrictive ed #ana meal #pro a4a #3ating d1sorder #ed bllog #tw ana diary #ed not ed sheeran #low cal meal #3dtumblr #ed rant

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81scorp · 9 months

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Some thoughts on AI in art

Here are some thoughts on AI genertade images in art.

Some of these are mine, one of them is from Richard Williams book "The animator`s survival kit" and two of them are comments to a youtube video that talks about AI in art. (I have given credits to the original authors of those comments.)

A.I. is good and all but do we need A.I. art? Wasnt the point of A.I. that it would take over jobs that were too boring, difficult or dangerous for humans? Is doodling on a piece of paper too difficult now? A.I. art is for the consumer who wants their product delivered right NOW. A.I. art can be used as trainingwheels for artists but it shouldnt be the finished product. Are we artists or are we consumers?

AI image generators is great for lazy, impatient people who have no intention to learn how make their own art and are too cheap to hire an artist to draw for them.

AI is a tool, a double-edged sword. It can be used for a lot of fun things it can also work as a shortcut for lazy people. To be good at art takes time and effort and people are not very likely to want to learn how to create a painting if it is just the push of a few buttons away. The journey of learning is also an important part of becoming an artist.

Calling yourself an artist when you upload fully AI generated pictures is like calling yourself a chef because you heated some leftovers in the microwave oven.

When you tell an AI to generate some pics youre not the artist, youre the one who commissions the artwork, youre the employer. Now dont misunderstand what Im trying to say, this doesnt makes you bad, it just doesn`t make you the artist.

"You were so preoccupied with whether or not you could that you didn't stop to think if you should." ―Dr. Ian Malcolm

One thing that bugs me is when people say that AI "democratizes" art. It does not. I have seen sites on the internet, channels on youtube (Istebrak, Winged Canvas) and profiles on deviantart (Ethertingtonbrothers) filled with tutorials that teaches people how to draw. (How to draw perspective, buildings, wrinkles in clothes and more.) Heck, even before the internet there were short tutorials in Disney comic magazines (just to name one example) on how to draw Disney characters (like Donald Duck, Goofy, Mickey Mouse and others). Art was democratized long before AI. Just like everyone else I started from zero and am slowly learning more. Just because you know nothing in the beginning doesnt mean that you cant learn and just because youre not good at something doesnt mean that you cant get better at it. "But it takes time." Some will say. Thats right, art takes time. Art. Takes. Time. Sure, AI is faster, but it`s also like taking piano lessons on a self playing piano.

AI generated images are like the photorealistic remake of the Lion King: Sure, the technology is impressive but still… why?

"But we can learn to draw. There's the myth that you are either born draftsman or not. Wrong! Obviously, natural talent is a great help and the desire is essential, but drawing can be taught and drawing can be learnt. It's best to have done a ton of it at art school to get the foundation in early. But it can be done at any time. Just do it."

―Richard Williams, The Animator's Survival Kit

A lot of what I've been seeing about the "wonders" of AI art, it's never really impressed me because it plays off of the novelty of this being able to replicate styles without an artist's hand. I'm more impressed with its application to speed up certain production processes by being a supplement to the artist's vision. I feel people get so enamored by the flashiness of some new technology and go all in on that for the news outlets when its practical application is more subtle and boring. -Yensid951927 (youtube)

The reason people don't mess around with the music industry is because they have conglomerates and lawyers in place to punish those who don't respect their property. It may be cynical but I think the only thing that will keep artists safe from these bro personalities are legitimate financial threat and follow through. I think a limited version of AI, as a tool, can help actual artists do their work better but never replace it. That said, it needs to be seriously regulated in a way that prevents art theft, first and foremost. -viqverglas (youtube)

#81scorp #editorial #no to ai art #Why have AI in art?

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boyfhee · 1 year

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OKAY IM BACK 🤩🤩 ( after some self reflection on my attachment to take two ) NGL I DIDNT EXPECT YOU TO GIVE ME A SHOUTOUT OR EVEN FOR ME TO HELP PLAY A PART ( even if its a teeny tiny bit ) IN THE ENDING ??? you can literally imagine my surprise when i opened the app after a goodnight sleep to see a new update and mentions of me in the a/n 😭😭 the ending was so fhdjsnjsnsks BITTERSWEET. it was so nice to know that they all found comfort in each other ultimately ( despite it not turning into something romantic wise at that moment ) and being such good friends ?? it really shows their growth as characters which behaved selfishly to ones that were willing to accept each others shortcomings whole heartedly ( at least imo ) . although yn doesnt have an endgame (cries cos my imaginations were running wild at the slightly open but not so open ending if you get what i mean ) , it feels very realistic that wonki hasnt moved on yet — especially since this happens a lot irl ( i never experienced it before but ive seen my friends go through it ! ). i think it was a very well written ending considering how you couldnt make everyones wishes come through ( talking about the readers choice of endgame ) but yet still delivered one of satisfactory level. it was such a wild ride watching ynki make every mistake we as humans could make. miya was truly a test - she was testing my patience half the time 💀💀💀. but miya also serves as a reminder to everyone of how easily it is to unknowingly cheat on your partner without having to lay a single hand or even touch the person. emotional cheating is JUST AS BAD AS PHYSICALLY CHEATING IF NOT WORST ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ i kinda feel bad (?) for wonki though because even though they were given closure and time to heal, it always felt more like a right person wrong time kind of thing so they will never be able to properly move on imo. IT MAKES ME EVEN SADDER THAT IT FEELS LIKE YN GETS THE HAPPY ENDING AND WONKI GOT A HAPPY ENDING TOO BUT IT COMES WITH A CHANCE THAT THEY MIGHT NEVER BE ABLE TO GET ROMANTICALLY INVOLVED WITH YN EVER AGAIN. its really giving “ feels like we have matching wounds but mines still black and bruised and yours is perfectly fine “ < the exit - conan gray >

okay i feel like i should stop here before i get carried away and keep repeating the same points but more aggressively with each sentence 🥶🥶 i was actually a pure literature student before i graduated from school and its been a while since i had graduated so it was really fun to be able to make analysis on characters again as well as figure out plots through diction 🤩🤩 i cant thank you enough for writing take two because it gave me a chance to put my literature to good use, it wouldve been a real shame if i studied so hard just for me to never use it ever again. thank you thank you thank you thank you.

please have a good rest and all the best for your studies ! i had national exams last year and it absolutely beat the crap out of my brain 😭😭 had me tearing at every math question and feeling hella defeated. its going to be tough but you can do it !! take as long as you need for your break ! you absolutely deserve it after dropping that bombass smau 😩😩😩😩 i will look forward to your return with full excitement ! take care ~

- 🎐 ( its been a pleasure being one of take twos biggest fans - self proclaimed )

WINDCHIME ANON HEHE HELLO 💗💗 no bc a shoutout was a must bc ur ask helped me pick the direction i wanted to go with the ending. and i was so scared bc ppl were hoping for a ynwon ending but i gave them kind of nothing i was like 'what if they dont like' BUT FUCK IT BC IN MY EYES YN DOESNT DESERVE A HAPPY ENDING JUST YET . tbh the whole point of the friends part was that they were willing to give their relationship another try despite the mistakes, call that character development. and miya was created solely to tell people how important communication is. none of this would've happened if riki told yn about miya, if yn told him ab meeting miya, if riki told yn ab his plan, the communication was gone on so many levels. the thing that ruined ynki, if you ask me, was the lack of communications. not miya, not jungwon, not media, not fans, but yn and riki themselves. SO CHIYUV NATION, COMMUNICATION IS THE KEY. ALWAYS. take it from me i love clearing things out and it always ends well unless u start phrasing things wrong ( dont do it )

AND ANON WE R GETTING A PART TWO WITH SEPARATE ENDINGS let ur imagination run wild again ☝️☝️ that conan gray lyrics r so ksdjfhhs fits so well fr. AND OMG HI FELLOW LIT. STUDENT i had science but also had eng on the side, spent my youth editing drafts and analysing proses and poetry it was fun . everyday i think about ur asks ab take two and it makes miso happy (sunghoon hi) bc they rlly made my day U ARE THE BIGGEST TAKE TWO FAN i will give u that medal 🥇

#—🎐anon.#@ : tt

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baekhvuns · 2 years

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IM BACK

THE CAT THE CAT THE KITTY CAT CAT EEEEEEEEE DUMBLES DUMBLES DUMBLES🤧🤧🤧 GOODBYE I CAN DIE PEACEFULLY NOW HWA WITH A CAT GOODBYE GOODBYE GOODBYE even though it was a short bit of the fic i'd say it's the most crucial mhm😁😁 why? BCS CATS❤️

anygays

bubbly sunshine rainbows marshmallows clouds yn with stoic fierce cold grr rawr growl seonghwa YES YES GIVE IT TO ME😚😚😚 him being persistent on calling yn maam is sexc ....HWJXHAHHAJAJJA okay MAAM AAAA maam maam

im sorry im malfunctioning

BUT THE GATE SCENE.. BFF THAT WAS PAINFUL not as painful as khronus lmfao that fic is on another level of angst🧍"i dont want anything to do with you" FUCK CANT BELIEVE WORDS COULD STAB ME IN THE HEART GOODBYE😭😭

AND THE PART WHERE THEY'RE AT THE BODYGUARD HQ THINGY AND MISS YN GAVE HWA FLOWERSSSS AND THEY KISSEDDDD AAAAAA ILY ILY

overall i really loved it😭 bff i love everything i put out, your writing is just🤌🤌 CHEFS KISS MWUAH

and towards the end where yn is now all fiesty and rawr grr growl and no more sunshine and rainbows😞💔 BUT HWA BROUGHT HER OLD SELF BACK YEY

did i say i love the fic idk.. i feel like i havent said it enough times I LOVE IT OMG😭😭

please go relax and eat smth bff id want to treat you to dinner jus bcs u write fics so good MHMM its like,, every single au i was looking for,, i could just find it in your blog U HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONG IVE BEEN WAITING DOR SOMEONE TO DO MAFIA HWA AND BODYGUARD HWA😭 wanted to make it myself but bff i should just stick to science-y stuff and not writing bcs i suck at writing.

stay safe ms baekhvuns!! and stay healthy mwuah

-🍤

HELLO

I THINK THE BEST CHARACTER WAS THE CAT ABSOLUTELY !!!!!! STOLE THE ENTIRE FIC WITH HIS SMALL TIME IN IT 😭😭😭

kVDNWBDN YNS SUNSHINE WAS SUCKED OUT OF HER 😭😭🤚🏼 LMFAOOOO dbdb my friends now ask me to stop using maam bc it reminds them of this hwa 😭😭 so i absolutely get ur malfunctioning

OH PLS KHRONUS WAS MESSY 😭😭 if u think khronus was bad,,, there’s a fic that’ll absolutely be worst 😭😭😭 JFBDBDB

AND THE PART WHERE THEY'RE AT THE BODYGUARD HQ THINGY AND MISS YN GAVE HWA FLOWERSSSS AND THEY KISSEDDDD AAAAAA ILY ILY /// overall i really loved it😭 bff i love everything i put out, your writing is just🤌🤌 CHEFS KISS MWUAH /// and towards the end where yn is now all fiesty and rawr grr growl and no more sunshine and rainbows😞💔 BUT HWA BROUGHT HER OLD SELF BACK YEY //// did i say i love the fic idk.. i feel like i havent said it enough times I LOVE IT OMG😭😭

AAA I RMR SOMEONE SAYING A KISS UNDER THE RAIN AND WE DELIVERED 🤌🏼🤌🏼 thank you so much bestie 😭😭 so glad you liked it !!!!! was a little hesitant with it but!! RAWR RAWR 😭😭😭

thank u so much miss shrimp 😭😭 BFKWHDKWHDKW BET DINNER DATE WITH YOU WHEN 🔫 TIME 🔫 DAY 🔫😭 EEEEE IM GLAD IT FIT YOUR WANT OF MAFIA + BODYGUARD!!!! that’s rly the biggest compliment thank u so much im so glad that that’s a good thing cbfbb !!! SCIENCE-Y STUFF??? SIGN ME UP !!!! you too bestie !!! stay safe and drink water loads !!!! <33

#✉️ : ask #🍤 anon

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steampoweredskeleton · 3 years

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Hmm. It's now 5:30am. I'm now actually ruining my sleep instead of just lying here trying. I should put my phone down and stop reading but everything feels wrong. I need to be awake earlier than usual tomorrow. Feels like self destruction can I get a hell yeah

#delete later #my teeth hurt bc i keep ckenching them abd then forcing myself to relax #everything feels just about terrible #distractions are good but i require sleep. but jinkies my thoughts are bad and remembering sucks #and also bc my hrain is like YES FREL BAD YOU DESERVE TGE FEEL BAD #abd logically im like noooo im not a nazi or anything terrible i dobt deserve tgr feel bad #but at the same time #im not stopping the self delivered feel bad #trying to figure out what i deserve is hard. bc im a human so deserve good things. but im me and i dont so. but also i DO and me is good #but also i must be useful to deserve even slightest bit of kindness. but also thats dumb and if anyone else said that id be like NO #but it's me. must be helpful must fulfull tasks as useful person abd tally up those good actions so i can feel okay about being liked #which is FUCKED AND BAD. and im trying to be better. im not offering things i wouldnt enjoy or be fine with doing.#im doing things that ive been told are okay and they have remained okay so i know i can trust that. i know i dont have to repay #basic niceness and bakance out tge quote unquote strain of being my friend #but jinkies that urge still tgere and im too tired to fight it

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threepointseven · 2 years

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Hello! I was wondering if I could request headcanons for Venti, Mr. Fandango, Kaeya and Noelle with a really giggly s/o that likes to cling to one of their arms any chance they get?

As per usual, feel free to decline for any reason and stay safe! <3

-🧸 Anon

When you’re always giddy and kinda clingy

Type- scenario 🍄+HC’s 🌷

Flowers included!🌼= noelle x gn! Reader, scaramouche x gn! Reader, kaeya x gn! Reader

Note🍀= AHHH I ACCIDENTALLY CHANGED THE PROMPT UP A BIT PLS FORGIVE ME SHDBDJDBB BUT I HAD A LOT OF FUN WRITING THIS 😳😳 I HOPE YOU LIKE IT 🧸 ANON ILY FOR REQUESTINF MWAH MWAH ALSO STOP PUTTINF THAT “feel free to decline” SINCE I HOPE YOU KNOW FULL WELM IM GONNA ANSWER ALL UR REQS 🙄💕

Genshin masterlist

💐Your bouquet has been delivered <3💐

Scaramouche

- People assumed scaramouche wasn’t a fan of clingy lovers, to others he’s portrayed as a head strong independent killer who takes no shit from anyone

- Thats definitely right in a sense but you should see that claim become incorrect when people see him around you.

- You’re energetic, always giddy, and from the looks of it quite clingy.

- Everywhere whenever he’s seen with you you’re right by his side holding on tight to his free arm talking his ear off with a big smile on your face

- Its weird to see a blood seeking tiger with a stray kitten you know?

- On the outside he looks utterly pissed, hissing at your every word and teasing you for how clingy you are

- But tbh he adores it, hes trying so hard not to blush when you do so much as touch him

- In public the most he’ll let you do is hold his arm or something like that but in private he’ll welcome every ounce of affection.

- Your energy makes him feel ever so safe and the fact your clingy just heals his inner self sm

- Often times he’ll scramble out of your hold amongst other harbingers but there was this one time..

It was a day like any other, a work day where your boyfriend was to return to his duties in a matter of a few minutes but there you were in his hold, talking as loud as you wanted with a grin on your face, buried in the corner of his neck.

He’d stroke your back in a behaved pattern as you Bothe embraced the private moment, that is before a certain orange hair barged into the office, wide eyed at the scene he was witnessing “Ah- have I disturbed you two?”

“Oh archons- um I’ll get going-“

Before you could even attempt to wiggle out of scars arms he held on tight before ordering Childe to get tf out

“Your still hugging me-?”

“Yea and?”

“Usually you’d shove me off if someone were to see-“

“Well I don’t need to be that secretive about your skinship obsession.. .. ugh just keep rambling, the room is too quiet.”

Kaeya

- so weirdly proud of it

- Hes always got that proud little smug on his face that says “wish you were me?” Whenever you run up to him with a bright smile ready to cling to his arm

- He pats you lightly on the head the moment you wrap your arm around his and he just lets you talk while giving a bunch of commentary

- He isnt much of a listener, more like a converser. He’s really good at holding and making conversation so you both are talking quite a lot

- He doesnt mind your clinginess that much, unless he’s super busy doing knight work, he’ll happily entertain you and always welcome the affection

- He also brags about it so much to other people, mostly people that are kinda into you 😋

- In the most insensitive. Way. Possible.

“Ahg- my lover is quite closed off..”

“Sadly i cant relate to you as mine is head over heels inlove with touching me, in every way possible and everywhere.”

- he isnt scared of pda so if you cling to his arm he’ll take it another step up and kiss you on the cheek

- If theres a time where your next to him and you arent touching him or holding his hand he’ll assume your in a bad mood or he did something wrong😞

- You two look like such a power couple 🤕

- There are definitely lovers who mind the excessive skinship but he isnt one of them, and he reassures you he never will be but what if the whispers saying “isnt he annoyed of them always being around him?” Get to you sometimes

“Kaeya..”

“Hm?” The hand that was previously slung around your boyfriends bicep was relaxed and put behind your back.

“Do you think my thing with physical affection is annoying?” The question didnt surprise him, nor catch him off guard. He knew youd been listening to the whispers of jealousy, he was waiting for you to bring it up.

“Want my honest opinion sweetheart?”

“Mhm.”

“I would never be bothered by such a thing. Im more prideful that you’re so obsessed with me anyways-“

“Obsessed?! That is a leap.”

“Its not” the man winks while lengthening the ‘not’ in a singy song voice as you shake his shoulders annoyed

Noelle

- she is honored. Literally so happy you think shes fit to hug and spoil in touch like shes gonna cry bro hug her more pls

- Unless shes carrying something she welcomes your obsession with clinging onto her arm with a smile on her face

- She blushes everytime you do it and her heart is just doing summersaults

- Over time she came to just expect it, like whenever she could see your figure running up to her her first thought was “ah theye gonna hold my arm!”

- If you dont shes gonna assume she did something wrong and just stare at you like a sad little baby puppy terrified their gonna get in trouble

- If theres ever a day where you dont hold her arm the entire time shell be at your door with your favorite dessert in hand ready to apologize profusely for whatever tf she did

- Please say that it was nothing and give her cuddles she thinks so low of herself your touch fixes everythinf😞

- She just cant help that adorable blush on her face whenever someone points out how affectionate you are to her

- But at the same time she feels like she doesnt deserve it😞

“Y-y/n… are you possibly a bit bothered today?”

“Hm? Oh of course not dear, why are you asking?”

“Oh well..!” Embarrassed at her sudden spur of words she covers her blushed face with an ashamed pout

“Its just that usually youd be touching me a bit more and being more affectionate.. but i completely get if you dont feel like it cause we all have our boundaries and all that hut i cant help but feel a bit worried-“

Before the short haired woman can finish her sentence she finds you chuckling away at her rant, “Noelle, im not mad or anything! To be honest i was the one that was scared you didnt like me touching you! I always find you looking away whenever somebody mentions it..”

“Oh dear im just a bit shy about it uhm-“

The day went on with you two sticking to eachother with grins on your faces after that whole fiasco, now you know shes not ashamed of it atleast!

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yeoreos · 3 years

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hate sex || jjk (m)

pairing :: jungkook x reader

genre :: 18+, fwb!au, smut, basically pwp

summary :: jungkook decides to show you how much he loves hates you.

warnings :: jungkook is in love with you, smut (corruption kink, big dick!jk, size kink, pussy slapping if you squint, oral (f. and m.), overstimulation, unprotected sex [be safe], sex in front of a mirror, denied orgasm, overstimulation, dirty talk, hair pulling, crying but it’s because jungkook is not showing any mercy on oc, hard dom!jk, somewhat brat!reader, a pinch of soft dom!jk, tattooed!jk, i think that’s it?)

wc :: 3.6k (of pure smut)

note :: first imagine ever please be kind :(( lowercase intended !!! (unedited)

“strawberry funnel cake frappuccino for y/n?”

your ears perked up at your name being called by the barista, indicating that your order is ready. you pushed past people, shocked at how packed it was despite it being a wednesday morning.

as for your situation, however, you needed that coffee. last night, the night of your date with your tinder match, didn’t happen. you realized how much time and energy you wasted looking your best for someone that didn’t even appreciate it. the rest of the night, you spent crying; not for your date, but for the makeup look you worked so hard on not to even get a reaction from anybody. but you didn’t let that stop you.

you grabbed your phone from the beige purse you had in your hands and threw the purse on your bed. from the lockscreen, you swiped left to open the camera app. from the angle it was in, the camera captured your feet.

a few small pictures to upload to instagram wouldn’t hurt, right? and so for the next hour or two you spent in the bathroom having a photoshoot, silently thanking yourself for not throwing away the tripod that sat in the corner of your room, serving no purpose until that moment.

you took a few snaps in the bathtub with the water reaching the brim and your favorite scent littered into the water, along with a few rose petals to decorate it. this is going to be amazing.

you sat in the bathtub, naked, careful not to let the water touch your face. with one person’s face in mind, you took the pictures, added a filter on them, and posted them onto your instagram, without a caption, because you sucked at those.

locking your phone, you sat in bed and went back to sleep, approximately around the time when the sun started rising, so of course you needed that coffee.

your best friend, Jimin, had heard all about it and had even been the first one to like and comment on your post. he commented so many times about how good you looked and how it was your date’s loss that he stood you up. it got to the point where he almost got shadow banned.

that was until he flooded your private message with more comments.

there was a specific comment, however, which caught your eye.

jeonjk97: damn babygirl

of course jungkook would comment something like that. but it didn’t fail to make you feel like you were on top of the world.

fuck him and fuck his stupid self.

and the situation you were in was exactly that.

jungkook always had a preference when it came to girls. although he wasn’t the playboy type, he was still a boy and needed his desires to be satisfied. he preferred the innocent ones; “they have the tightest cunts” he would say.

but it was more to it than that. he knew that the innocence was fun to break down, to stain it with his touch where he knew his one-night stand would come back for more and fall to his feet, practically kissing it. he wanted to watch the way they would turn from someone so pure to someone equivalent to him in bed.

he figured that you were a virgin by the way you almost always had your nose in a book. but the first time he asked you to come over, he was shocked to see that the person you showed to everyone was nothing but a mask to hide it all.

this was the first time you had caught jungkook’s intriguing eyes.

jungkook always reminded himself that he was only there to take, not to give, but it was getting harder and harder to do that each time you gave yourself to him. for him to use but he couldn’t. not when saw you as something more than just a quick fuck.

to make matters worse, you hated him with all of your guts, yelling out words that shouldn’t be uttered to him when the two of you weren’t in the premises of your (and sometimes his) bedroom.

“you’re a small, pretty thing, aren’t you?” he murmured to himself, standing next to your bed. you were sitting up on it, looking at him with a fire behind your eyes and a small smirk playing on your red lips. at that moment, he didn’t care about the feelings he had as all he wanted to was to take his cock out of the confines of his boxers and fuck your throat until you were gagging and choking on it, digging your nails into his thighs for leverage and a request to let you catch your breath.

“yes.” with your chest heaving up and down, the wetness between your thighs became more, the ghost of your orgasm pulling at every nerve in your body. that tingling feeling in your veins has you in a haze, wanting nothing more than just him.

he smirked, his purple hair falling over his eyes, and from the light hitting his back, it casted a shadow over them, making everything more exciting. every feeling and craving of touch for him was heightened, and you were getting tired of waiting.

“hurry the fuck up, jeon!”

bad mistake.

immediately, he went up to you and grabbed you by the neck, pulling you so you were propped on your knees and in front of him. jungkook looked down at your lips and bit his own, thinking about the pretty sounds that would be coming out of them in a few moments.

with his free hand, he trailed his fingers down, teasingly running them down your skin to your shorts. the ghost of his fingers has your breath caught in your throat and as soon as he reaches your clothed mound, he presses his fingers down. you let out a sound near a gasp and shut your eyes immediately. a harsh slap is delivered to your pussy and you mewl out in pleasure.

“don’t raise your voice at me, understand?” his fingers toying your clothed clit was making it hard for you to voice anything back, so you nod your head instead. “words, baby.”

oh he was evil.

“y-yes.” he smirked, satisfied with your response. he had never seen you so desperate for him in all the times he had spent with you.

he was aware of the fact that your panties had been soaked with your arousal, wetting his fingers in the process. “tell me what you want, princess.”

you swallowed air, choking on your own words for a second. you couldn’t believe what you were about to ask for. “i want- want you to fuck me...” with the way you trailed off, jungkook was sure it was more than just that, so he quirked a brow, giving you permission to speak further, “want you to fuck me like you hate me.”

something in jungkook seemed to snap because his eyes went a shade darker and an animalistic growl rumbled from deep within his throat.

all of a sudden, you were thrown onto the bed as jungkook got on his knees and tore your panties open, a loud gasp echoed throughout the room.

at first, jungkook took all the time in the world, leisurely toying with your clit and licking your opening until you turned into a moaning mess underneath his tongue, tugging on his bright locks like the floor was lava or something like that. it was only until you begged him to go faster, that he sped up the process of his tongue, assaulting your pussy. his strong grip on your thigh blocked you from distancing yourself from him and whenever you would, he suck on your clit, pulling it into his mouth and using his tongue to abuse the little nub. you grinded your hips into him, embarrassed of how good you were feeling, despite your strong negative feelings towards him on a daily basis.

“perfect little pussy,” he mumbled against your clit, “made for me to fuck.” that was all it took for your orgasm to come crashing down on you, legs shaking, sinful sounds escaping your lips.

but that wasn’t it, he wanted to fuck you like he hated you, so he showed no mercy again when he entered two fingers into you right after your orgasm, the burning stretch making teas accumulate in the corner of your eyes. his mouth was back on your clit, still sensitive mind you, before you could protest any further. his hooded eyes stared at you, wondering how someone could look so beautiful in this situation.

it was only until your back arched off your bed as your mouth was gaped with no sound coming out, fingers holding onto dear life in his hair and pressing his face further between your thighs, that you came for the second time just by his mouth.

it wasn’t like you were against the idea, because in all honesty, you did ask for him to use you, but oh god if you knew the dangerous territory you were stepping in, you would’ve backed away a long time ago.

after you had calmed down from your high, although heart still racing, you slid down to the floor and got on your knees. jungkook wasn’t expecting this, all he wanted to do now was to fuck you until he rearranged your guts, but who was he to back down from your request of sucking his dick.

jungkook was haste to unbuckle his belt, already envisioning how you would look sucking his cock. however, he didn’t have to envision that for too long, because without any restrictions, you licked the crown of his dick, sending a shiver to go down his spine.

as for you, however, you didn’t realize how much you missed his dick until it was right in front of you and you could finally touch it. the pre-cum shined on his tip and it was waiting (im)patiently for you to give it some sort of relief. he reaches down for your hand and brings it to his dick, indicating that you do the action here. you grab it’s base and glide his tip over your mouth, smearing his arousal on your lips.

you part your lips and he allows you to have control over how much you were going to take in. when your warm mouth closes around him, he breathes out loud. you swirl your tongue over the head and taste the salty pre-cum. the feeling of his veiny cock feels so good in your mouth and you couldn’t wait for it to be shoved in your pussy. you start bobbing your head, using your hands for the parts your mouth couldn’t cover.

“oh fuck,” jungkook curses and entangles his fingers in your hair, pushing it back and holding it into a makeshift ponytail. it wasn’t until he wasn’t satisfied with how much you were taking into your mouth, that he starts bucking his hips into your mouth, going slow at first, then deciding to stay at a ruthless pace.

you opened your mouth and slacked your jaw, allowing him to use you as he pleased. jungkook curses underneath his breath when your submissiveness turns him on even more, but he’s quick to guide his cock in and out of your mouth. and truth be told, he could probably do this in his sleep with the amount of times he’s fucked your mouth. you gag around him, eyes glistening with warm tears as he continues his pace. jungkook holds your head when the feeling is too much and he becomes vocal.

letting out loud moans and groans, jungkook goes insane, almost cumming then and there.

but he couldn’t. he wanted to cum inside of your pussy.

your scalp physically hurt when he let go of your hair and slipped his dick out of your mouth, permitting you to catch a breath which he stole.

he picked you up by your waist and threw you on the bed, your head into the soft covers of your bedsheet. jungkook held you by your hips, pulling them up, so your ass was in the air and your head was in the mattress.

he took his sweet time teasing and making you push your ass back for more, but he wouldn’t give himself to you just yet. he wanted to teach you your lesson.

and once he bottomed out, you moaned into the sheets, aware that you were drooling on them. it just felt that good. you loved it all. loved the way he was balls deep into you, loved the way he gripped your hips that it was going to leave marks, loved the way he was chanting your name like a mantra when you clenched around him, loved the way that he was the one fucking you.

as much as you would hate to admit it, jungkook was an all-rounder; perfect at everything he did whether it be sports, gaming, cooking, fashion. you name it, he could do it. including fucking you and that was your favorite part about him. that no matter how much the two of you hated (and one even loved, but that’s a conversation for another day) each other, you would always go back to each other like two opposites on a magnet.

this view was nice, but jungkook wanted more. he wanted to see your face contort in pleasure, but at the same time, he wanted to see the way your cunt would take his cock. so, from the corner of his eye, he peeks at the mirror and considers the idea for a bit before moving around on the bed so you guys were in front of the mirror.

“w-what are you doing- mph!” jungkook enters you without even giving you a chance to complete your sentence. he brutally snaps his hips so his dick dives into your pussy, your walls doing nothing but contracting against his shaft.

jungkook bends down and grabs a fistful of your hair, pulling it as your neck cranes over to see the two of you in the mirror. through your reflection, you could see the way jungkook looks back with the same hungry and lustful eyes. your eyes travelled to your position and the sight alone had you gushing for him, more wetness pooling. you look at the way your hair now looked like (and probably did) it had knots in them, your lipstick smeared across your lips and some parts of it getting on your cheek and chin, your mascara smudged over your eyes. you looked bad, but a good type of bad. it had jungkook ramming his hips into yours even more.

“look at you,” he says although that was what you were doing the whole time, “such a dirty slut. who’s making you feel this good, huh? who?!”

“y-you, oh fuck jungkook, please don’t stop, don’t stop please, i’m going to-”

“don’t you dare.” the way the words came out of jungkook’s chest has your heart rate speeding up and you could’ve sworn he got harder inside of you.

in response, you mewl and shake beneath him, finding it hard to hold in your orgasm. with the way your vision blurred, you knew you were close, your release so close yet so far away.

jungkook leaves open mouthed kisses along the side of your neck, sucking into your skin, leaving a dark purple mouth he knew you were going to try to cover up the next day. for a little while, jungkook stills his hips, ravishing in the way your mouth is hung open and hands were shaking, trying their best to support the weight of your body. he holds that position, his lips pressing tender kisses on your neck. although you desperately want him to fuck you, another part of you wants to cherish this moment.

so, you close your eyes in return and moan.

once he finished torturing the delicate skin of your neck, his eyes get drunk on your body, intoxicating him. at first, he watches through the mirror, watching the way your chest heaved for air. his eyes soon travelled to your back, to your ass, where he saw how deep he was buried into your cunt.

“your cunt is taking me so well, babe.”

once he sees that you were ready to take more, he pulls back and in one swift thrust, he pushed into you, a scream ripping through you. he does that again and again, causing the same reaction from you. jungkook once again stops when he’s fully inside of you, torturing you just to make you beg for him. you need him to fuck you relentlessly, so that’s exactly what you vocalize.

“please, jungkook,” your voice is nothing but a whisper, “please fuck me.”

“you should hear yourself, baby, the way you’re desperately begging for me. begging to be fucked,” he chuckles, “you already came once? or was it twice? how greedy can you be.”

“i’m you’re slut, jungkook. please fuck me.”

it was a light switch. something in him flicked and jungkook immediately started snapping his hips into you. “say that again, you little whore. who’s slut are you?”

“jungkook’s. only jungkook’s- fuck!”

he pushed his cock back before slamming into you with both of his hands on your hips. the lewd and slick sound of your pussy and your wetness leaving onto his cock echoes throughout the room and you could’ve sworn jungkook whimpered.

when that wasn’t enough, the sex god behind you takes both of your hands, pulling it behind you, setting yet another brutal pace. he can’t help but wrap his tattooed arms around your small, fragile ones. his eyes lock with yours, your throat protruding a gulp of air you had swallowed.

“you look so pretty, your hands behind you as i’m fucking you, i wish you could see yourself. fuck,” he rumbles.

you moan at his words, because you couldn’t agree more. his hands were perfect; every inch of your body that he would touch, lick, kiss, all belonged to him. you belonged to him and jungkook was going to make sure you were aware of that by the end of the night tonight.

“moan louder,” he says while thrusting into you. “let everyone hear how much of a little slut you are for me.” he emphasizes the last word. his possessiveness was showing, but did either of you care? no.

as you give him exactly what he wants, he smiles while letting his cock fill you up, his hips hitting against yours with aggression. this all causes sparks of pleasure to coarse through your body, your veins felt like they were lit on fire, but not in the bad way. it was in a way only he could make you feel.

as you look at him through the mirror, you can’t help but find him extremely attractive. you watch the way he looks back at you with a cloudiness in his eyes and the way his pink tongue swipe across his bottom lips. jungkook keeps growling your name, thrusting into you with a different urgency every time

“please- jungkook please, i need to cum!” you were begging, not even caring how pathetic you looked and sounded.

“not until i tell you to,” the evil tone in his voice was evident and you didn’t know how longer you could hold in your release.

jungkook noticed the way tears freely fell from your eyes. something took over him, a sense of care. halting his hips, he leaned down and pressed gentle kisses to your neck. “just a little longer, yeah? you’re my good girl, and my good girl can do it. it’ll feel amazing, i promise.” you shuddered, a whole new feeling blossoming inside of you. a radiating warmth coursing throughout your body.

his hands could feel the way your body trembled and quivered underneath him with each thrust. the way he started his merciless pace had you losing yourself to the feeling of lust and desire. your face scrunches up, a feeling of your coil about to snap in your stomach.

jungkook quickly noticed and brings one of his hands which were previously wrapped around your wrists, made their way around your waist and to your clit, toying with the bundle of nerves. it wasn’t long until you were coming undone, with jungkook whispering praises and sweet nothingness into your ear.

a few moments and pumps later, jungkook feels his dick twitch inside of you. pulling out, he cums on you: your ass, your back, and your cunt.

still feeling high from your euphoria, the two of you stay in that position.

completely mesmerized in your afterglow, jungkook looks at you, you doing the same. the eye contact is far more intimate than what the two of you did just now. he never found anyone more beautiful after sex, but you? it was like a whole new perspective.

jungkook pulls his dick out a grabs a tissue from the table near your bed in order to clean you up, followed by a small, tender kiss pressed onto your temple. “you did so well,” he whispers and you feel your knees become weak. it was either due to exhaustion or because of his words.

you hoped it was not the latter.

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