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scrapcheese · 8 months

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MY PERSONAL HEADCANON OF THE DRAGON MAID CAST’S IDENTITIES

For context, Dragon maid is the first show i saw that has a same-sex couple in it as the main characters, so i have an emotional attachment to it. However, it is definitely filled with dubious stuff and things that make me uncomfortable!! (thanks coolkyoushinja (sarcastic))

Which is why i have created a version of dragon maid in my head that basically rewrites the series by taking out all the bits of canon that I don’t like and replacing it with my own interpretations! And that’s the version that all these headcanons exist in.

also i'm sorry that i made like almost all of these characters sort of aroace im projecting!!!

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My personal hc for Fafnir and Takiya’s identities are that they are both somewhere on the aroace spectrum but care about each other a lot, so my interpretation of their relationship is mostly platonic but also can be read as romantic because i toe the line between platonic and romantic interactions really closely lmao. Basically they don’t do much PDA, and the closest thing to “romantic” that they do regularly is cuddle with each other. I say cuddle, but its more like they sit really near each other and like... pile. idk how to explain it but you get the idea

Fafnir is aroace and also agender (He doesn’t really think about it until he meets Takiya, but he does deeply care for this human and would not mind being in a “relationship” with him, whatever that is. Also he typically presents in a masculine way but i really think he would not care if he was something else. Gender just isn’t a thing that matters in his mind)

Takiya is asexual and bi but in the most arospec way you can imagine. I don’t think he would label it but it's probably closest to bi-grayromantic and asexual (he’s very sex-neutral and also has a preference for men) Also he definitely still looks at things and think “oh that's pretty” but doesn’t really feel anything much other than that Also personally I like to think that he’s trans and has been ever since he was in like primary because I can and he’s just like me frfr

“They’re just friends, why can’t people be normal about it” well because i really like their relationship with each other and its really domestic and i think it can be read as more than just a basic “they are bros, pals, buddies”

“Why so many specific labels, just do asexual or bisexual or something” Because this is my headcanon and I get to be as specific as i want.

Kobayashi is demiromantic lesbian because i feel like she definitely knows she is attracted to women but when it comes to forming a romantic bond? would take some time with her actually getting used to and opening up to people (I mean that’s how she expresses her love for Tohru in the manga as well, took her a while to reciprocate and that’s only after she gets closer to Tohru!!) Also we’re ignoring anything that happens in canon. I like transfem kobayashi headcanon as well!! Her and takiya are both mlm wlw and ftm mtf solidarity i don’t make the rules

Tohru gives me unlabeled but really really likes women for sure, also she’s probably polyamorous.

Personally, I like to think Lucoa is aromantic and also on the ace spectrum (This one is entirely headcanon (as in no canon input); she’d still have a pretty flirty personality, i just think she really likes trolling)

Elma is full on demiromantic and demisexual with a touch of pan, also she is definitely polyamorous! Did you see her marriage arc in the manga (ch 106-111)?? She’s absolutely poly and personally her conversation with tohru in ch 111 really makes me read her as arospec teehee

Kanna and Saikawa are both children so i won’t speculate on their identities too much, but they are definitely not straight, especially Saikawa

Same reasoning with Shouta, but I think he is straight for now.

#haha i'm projecting on my favorite show because i can johnny #Miss Kobayashi's Dragon Maid #kobayashi san chi no maid dragon #mkdm headcanon #headcanon #dragon maid #apollo's dragon maid

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giftedfangs · 1 year

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i prefer your interpretation and Toxic's interpretation respectfully over what ever in the fuck Daria is doing.

And that's totally valid

Just remember that we don't own nor do we ever want to claim that we own the characters outright since they are still based on her original characters. Regardless of how the source material might be they are just re-imagining of the characters.

We also don't know what else is in store for Daria and she is still, regardless of imo her questionable storytelling at times she is still an extremely talented artist and animator it just--- Idk. I wish she had better takes on things because she makes such amazing things and has such good concepts I'm just finding myself more disagreeing with her when ti comes to these things.

It also doesn't help since I've been writing and being part of vampair in general for literal years it's a harder hit to me personally combined with my own traumas. I'm a very biased source of information so please take t hings and my opinions with a grain of salt as I have a very biased perspective based on my own traumas and personal life.

Creators are free to explore whatever themes they want, I encourage people if they want to tell their story to do it. My biggest issue with this is mostly it wasn't disclosed at the start especially now that we are getting an entire season *dedicated* to Duke, who is now revealed to be a borderline predator. The fact again we have no indication outside of "this isn't a series for children" to imply that is just. It really bothers me. Because knowing he is supposed to be seen as a 36 year old man being pervy to an 18 year old changes *a lot* when I had for context clues had assumed, he was just some stunted 25 year old who had that frat boy college attitude.

In comparison to Mina, who when I expressed interest in her book Mermicide, she did warn my from the start about some of the themes, she makes sure people know *ahead of time* that these things aren't okay, and doesn't frame them in the same way Daria does who seems to almost paint their abuse romantically at times even if she claims not to want to make it as such. Down to the very title being "vampair" - - - Pair usually meaning pairing, which many associate with ships, partnerships, romantic partners (thanks Tully for pointing this out cuz i didnt even consider this, it went right over my head) Various other things indicate intimate and possible like puppy love or a more than platonic relationship between them.

which yes, in some way Mina has a very similar thing goin on in Mermicide, where Astrid a very old Mermaid is literally preying purposefully being a predator to every single person in a lineage of family. Going out of her way to spesifically hunt those people down to seduce and what I think is kill??? them. So yeah, but it's never portrayed as *okay* or at teh very least takes the topic more seriously than Vampair which again I don't know what to take as serious based on the cartoony like parts of it, and how like some serious things are not taken serious, but we should take duke's age thing seriously and its important i just hfjkehwk idk.

I have a lot of mixed thoughts and feelings im not even sure what to do much anymore but idk. I'll try to like keep going and do me, with maybe just picking and choosing what I take from canon if much of anything as of now.

#Inquisitive Voices // Anon #Out for a Bite // OOC #Screams from the Abyss // MT

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bleulone · 2 years

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Lally Hicks and Theseus Scamander through the prism of visual storytelling: an interesting dynamic in sight…

Okay, just a random thought but— the fact that Eulalie and Theseus’ style of clothing are nearly similar just gets me. We all know for a fact that costume design in cinema tends to reflect a lot of (hidden) things about a character’s emotions and personality... but in this trailer— oh boy, there’s a lot to unpack. Studying visual storytelling can help us grasp/speculate on Eulalie and Theseus’ evident connection throughout this third installment of FB. I don’t know whether the nature of their relationship will be romantic or platonic, still, this refreshing duo appears to be as interesting as it is promising and I’m here for it. (aka in which im delivering a mini speculating meta nobody asked for).

Firstly, I think it’s necessary to understand why I’m specifically focusing on these two. On one hand, we have the official introduction of the queen herself, Ilvermorny’s Charm professor, the one and only Eulalie “Lally” Hicks. Her role in TCOG was very decisive. Let’s not forget that she was the one who ignited courage in Nicolas Flamel’s heart before Grindelwald’s rally at the cemetery of Père Lachaise. Without her words of encouragement to the old alchemist, Paris would have definitely been destroyed. Thus, her voice and knowledge constitute a powerful asset for Dumbledore’ squad. On the other hand, our war hero/auror Theseus Scamander is getting more and more amount of screen time as well (hell yeah!). Exploring his grief, his progressive trust in Dumbledore and the reasons explaining his complex relationship with Newt is going to be particularly interesting. Getting to know the conflicted man the war hero actually is sounds so good! In other words, those two characters are getting a proper introduction in the Potterverse (as it should be!). Not only they’re fully becoming protagonists, they’re also paired up together in 90% of the trailer.

Now that I’ve set the context, let’s dive into the visual storytelling. In order to do this analysis, it’s important to draw on the elements composing the image. I’m gonna focus on the shot where Lally and Theseus are back to back, ready to fight Grindelwald’s followers in (what seems to be) Tibet/China (not very sure?). There’s just so much to breakdown. This beautiful shot appears right after this title card :

“War of worlds” holds a lot of meanings. At first glance, we can think of the war between Dumbledore and Grindelwald, the good side/peace/unity vs the bad side/chaos/division, ignorance vs knowledge, lies vs truth… Yet, if we link the title card with this following shot, another shade of meaning colors our understanding of this expression. You need to keep in mind that each second, each frame in a teaser/trailer leave nothing to chance. Thus, “War of worlds” could eventually imply the clash between the two professional worlds in which Lally and Theseus belong to : the professorial corps vs the executive branch led by Hector Fawley, the British Ministry of Magic’s minister.

The rule of thirds highlights even more this opposition, though it also showcases a certain union. Studiobinder.com defines the rule of thirds as “one of the most common camera framing techniques used in film or photography. It's about positioning a character to show their relation to other elements in the scene”. In this perspective, after decomposing the shot in three distinct parts, a visible asymmetry is particularly telling of what we could expect from their relationship. Lally and Theseus’s different background and profession oppose them, hence their back to back stance. But their skills make them as powerful as they are equal (not them being the same height and i oop!). As such, their differences are strengths that build their union. Placed in the center of the middle column, their figure flirt with its frontiers as well as four intersection points mostly known as power lines. They’re usual points where the human eye tends to mainly focus on. The real essence of shot is going to be captured within those elements. Here, it’s the perfect asymmetrical closeness of our professor and auror’s bodies, emphasized by the look they’re giving to each other, a sign of understanding. They’re ready to join forces and fight Grindelwald’s minions.

Overall, I love how this shot conveys both conflict and complicity at the same time.

In the other scenes Lally and Theseus share in the trailer, they’re always seen together : face to face in the nameless fancy train, walking side by side toward the German (?) ministry of magic, standing next to each other in Hogwart’s great hall as well as the room of requirement. We feel like they’re forced to work together, therefore, I can already picture some banter and disregard at first. After all, you can already sense Theseus’ wariness merely by the way he introduced Eulalie : “a school teacher”. Uhm, sweetie, she’s more than that, and trust me, you’ll quickly find out. A partnership might slowly blossom after a series of tensions, potentially transforming itself into something more : pure friendship or a slow burn romance.

Secondly, I’m digging how both of them are sharp dresser. Lally and Theseus sport a very elegant style : a long overcoat, a button up shirt, a tie, a waistcoat, and pocket watch. The finesse radiating from their garments invite us to notice a certain ressemblance. They are meticulous and sedulous, paralleling, mirroring each other. That being said, I tend to remember Coleen Atwood’s comment (FB’s costume designer) about Theseus’ costume design in The Making of Fantastic Beasts TCOG (2018). He’s “more by-the-book feel of someone trying to do everything the right way”… just like Lally right ?

Furthermore, two colors are mainly present on our characters’ outfits. Let’s start with Eulalie : Burgundy. According to Colorpsycologymeaning.com, burgundy generally symbolizes “high status, prestigious, elegant, luxurious, determined, ambitious, sophisticated and confidence. Dark reds like these are often used for the decor and branding for prestigious schools, universities and other institutions”. An interesting description indeed. This description perfectly fits our Ilvermorny teacher, doesn’t it? She’s almost wearing a formal teaching uniform (a bit like Professor McGonagall and Dumbledore) with her tie and her blouse tucked in her long skirt. Yet, that’s not it. Indeed, Lally’s also a woman of style. Her elegance is assertive, combining both femininity and masculinity. Delicacy and authority originating from her clothings could foreshadow her personality. In my head, she’s radiating a bad bitch energy— my oh my, what a badass!

After zooming on Lally’s shirt, I noticed how much the motif was practically the same as the handle of Theseus’ wand. The mix of tortoise shell/amber color dotting the black brings an exquisite touch highlighting a “more classic sense of the period” (C. Atwood about Theseus’ style of clothing). I don’t know if this point is relevant to the plot lmao…Coincidence? I think not!

As for Theseus, it’s blue. We can note a change of color of his attire between TCOG and TSOD. It radically changes form his grey suit he worn in the beginning of TCOG. It represented his inner conflict, his own confusion (and the viewer’s) regarding which side he’s taken in this war : Dumbledore’s? Newt’s? The ministry’s? The fact that Theseus followed Torquil Travers’ orders (the Head of Magical Law Enforcement), yet still listened to Dumbledore’s advices blurred the lines, translating itself into his attire. This conflict is similar to Newt’s, evidenced by his blueish grey overcoat. The magizoologist didn’t “do sides” in FB2 but still executed Dumbledore’s missions. In fact, blue (for Colorpsycologymeaning.com) represents “reservation, confidence, conservation, persistency, trust”. It also illustrates “independence, it is more of a leader rather than a follower and likes organization and is professionally minded”. These are definitions that perfectly captures Theseus and Newt’s personalities. But most importantly, blue is the color of unity, a symbol that the Scamander’s brothers are on the same side : resistance. The dark tone of their garments presage the dark turn their story arcs are going to take.

Anywho, what’s your take on this interesting duo? I might be wrong all the way 😅 but it feels so good to speculate on crumbs to fill the void. I seriously can’t wait to feast upon The Secrets of Dumbledore!

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seawing-vibes · 2 years

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Clay!

favorite thing about them

Hes so nice !! Just unapologetically kind! I adore him for just being this big ol’ guy with the biggest heart, hes so sweet and its so cute I love characters that are just nice without needing any compensation. Of course Clay can still like. Defend himself & stuff , being sweet isnt his only personality trait, its just an addition that is really good to have in a protagonist I think. I just like Clay, I need to re-read his book

least favorite thing about them

Why was he reduced to nothing after the first book </3 Im sorry he got his good moments but really Tui made eating his prime gag which sucked, I dont even mind that he likes eating, I just wish it wasnt his main thing?? Like can we just let him express his other traits too please??? Remember how he was so emotional and open to express emotion and emotion towards others?? What happened to that?? Where was him comforting & checking up on everyone when he could? Like,, poof gone. No more </3 I love him but the way he was written kills me, so I guess it wasnt him specifically but more so how he was written

favorite line

"I'd die to save you and Starflight over and over if I had to." This line kills me despite it being quite simple , I dunno just the context overall and that entire scene just makes me loose it

brOTP

Clay and Sunny!! Besties/Sibling !! Love their lil side friendship, Sunny using Clay as a microphone (megaphone?) when she needed to be heard and clay just being sweet and defending her wail still letting her be her own person just so good!!

Friendship wise outside of sibling-hood, I actually think Peril & Clay are best friends! I have A Lot of thoughts on Peril, but I like to think that she mixed up romantic feelings with platonic ones (no thats not a bad thing!! Do not think I’m framing this as bad please !!) and either way Clay doesn’t reciprocate any romantic feelings. Despite this Clay & Peril become very close friends and are very physically affectionate too <3! Lots of big hugs and hand (talon?) holding in a very platonic and best-friends way

OTP

hes Aro Ace what do you mean /lh

nOTP

U h , romantically shipping him & peril makes me extreamly uncomfortable!! Not just because I view them as friends and my hc of him being Aro, but just due to how Peril perceives them in a romantic light and I feel is very unhealthy for both of them. The fact that the abscesses of Clay in Perils life canonically makes her “”evil”” again just gives me funky vibes /neg and I dunno I just dont enjoy! I dont know many other ships with Clay though so thats all I can thing of sorry to any Cleril fans reading </3

random headcanon

He just really likes pointing out small things that he enjoys ALL the time! At the end of the day he’ll sit with whoever is around and just list small things, like he witnessed two cardinals feeding eachother and he thought it was cute (cardinals do do this by the way, its a courtship thing its cute), he noticed that Pike was starting to enjoy paining more, just small things he takes notice of and likes to talk about. Starflight loves listing to this, but Clay tends to purposefully go down to visit Stonemover to tell him about all the cool things he saw that day, Stonemover is extremely grateful

unpopular opinion

Oh no uh i dont know, are there really any unpopular opinions,, on Clay?? I dont know I think my thoughts on him vibe with everyone else ?? I’m not sure really BHGV

song i associate with them

I listened to 200+ different genres this year and I have forgotten every single one of those songs I listened to Im sorry I have no idea

favorite picture of them

This one really embodies him <3333333333

#Adore this lad if you couldn’t tell one of The Most Dragons of All Time #a cool guy and if you dislike him I will. uh I dont know actully #clay #rambling #ask #thank you for letting me ramble about clay Anon <3 Also the fact that you added an explication point made me go 💕✨💖‼️✨💕/pos #*Exclamation #I’m v sorry if my messages sound sparratic or anything by the way!! Im fixating really hard on an old fixation again and its makin me vibe!!

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randombubblegum · 2 years

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Hey so i kinda have a sad gay life advice ask,,,,, feel free not to answer for any reason ofc, but there was this girl i was best friends with for a good seven years, since childhood, and then around September she just.... Stopped talking to me? I mean we were seemingly fine over the summer, going on trips together and acting close and normal, but once school started i guess she just didn't want me around any more? And tho i know that what i felt about her wasn't quite platonic, idk if it was romantic or what, but i really, /really/ loved her, for years. I cant exactly stop seeing her in my daily life bc we're still in school so thats not fun, and we're both going to be counselors at a camp this summer so whenever i see her or think about that i feel like im going to throw up. But anyways, now ive felt like shit for seven months straight and it hasn't been improving. I keep trying to just get over it but i keep wondering what i did wrong to make her be so disgusted with me all of a sudden. Sorry for dumping or being whiny in your askbox, but idk any gay adults irl so idk where else to ask this. I guess im really saying, any advice on how to get over first heartbreak? Sorry about this

oh this is so sad…… im so sad for you :( im sorry this is happening to you…… im not sure if this will help or make you feel worse but its a really REALLY common shared experience among gay girls to have an intense and emotionally charged friendship with another girl growing up (that may or may not be lowkey romantic) that one day falls apart out of nowhere in a dramatic or upsetting way….. its literally sort of a stereotype just because its something weve basically all gone through?? it happened to me LMAO and its happened to legit every gay girl i know…… so this is a very normal rite of passage almost in growing up and being gay….. im sure that doesnt offer much comfort now but just know youre NOT alone and basically everyone else has also had this friendship

with that context being laid out tho….. its definitely not anything you did or didnt do. i really doubt shes “disgusted” with you….. sometimes these things just happen between friends!!! you having feelings for her isnt disgusting or dirty or a betrayal or anything like that, its totally natural :( its entirely possible or even likely that shes been struggling with similar sexuality issues and theyve sort of spilled out into the air between you two without ever being put into words.

i know its hard and you probably dont want to, but i would really recommend talking to her about this? even just a text like “hey, are we cool? i miss talking to you.” or something vague could open a door, since shes definitely just as aware of the distance between you two as you are. she might be relieved and happy to talk to you again or have the ice broken so yall can talk it out….. who knows!!! you dont need to assume the worst, these weird distances happen between friends a lot and sometimes all it takes to solve it is pointing it out.

no matter what happens with this friendship tho im sorry youre feeling so heartbroken and bad but it WILL pass :( i promise. it might feel like the end of the world now but no matter the outcome youll be okay again, and youll have a happy first relationship someday and this will just feel like a funny bump in the road. im rooting for you :’)

#my personal Female Friendship Breakup in hs wasnt romantic on my end but #i spent basically all of 21 lovesick to the point of nausea over someone i was close to LOL i get it trust me #being gay in hs is rly rly hard. but it gets easier!!!!!!!#you may not have gay ppl irl u can go to for advice but u will someday….. probably in college…..#mail time!

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carinyms · 3 years

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I've scrolled through a lot of discourse on episode 4 of Loki and I need to talk about it

(good lord its a whole essay im sorry)

I gave myself a headache from crying while watching this. (I joined the Loki fandom post-IW so I’ve never had to see him die before while emotionally invested and boy!!! Is it doing things to my fragile psyche!!). But now I’m rehydrated and more stable and ready to party so let’s go

Right off the bat, I loved this episode — loved it loved it loved it. Silly, manic in-shock Loki is gone and shit is getting real. My thought while watching this was truly “wow this is my favorite episode so far” and damn am I in a minority with this opinion lol.

So here’s my perspective on some of the discourse flying around, and just general thoughts

On the whole ‘Narcissist’ thing:

IMO, Mobius saying this means nothing: he’s mad and he’s spouted lies at Loki to push his buttons before (see: every interaction they’ve had since episode 1).

Loki saying this to Sif-- well, Loki is and always has been an unreliable narrator on himself. The major theme of this show is that he doesn’t really know who he is, deep down, and he’s trying to figure it out. The TVA is taking advantage of this, and even though he’s trying to stay above it all throughout the series, he's still in a really impressionable spot and absorbing what others tell him about himself. (not to mention this scene is literal torture and he’s already proven that he’ll say whatever he needs to to get out of it.)

But he does admit one true thing when he says “It’s because I’m scared of being alone.” (And like wow okay same don’t mind my tears) but here’s a big brain idea!

Sif pulls him up and says ‘You are alone, and you always will be’, which is like, WOW that’s cruel after what he said, but it makes me ask wonder: Sif is sentient in this scene, but obviously it’s not really her. Who’s controlling her? And why is it so important for them to make sure Loki thinks he’s alone? I’d go as far as to wager that Sif never even said this to Loki, the big bad made this up. (he admits he forgot about this ever happening, I doubt he’d remember what she said.)

I think the nexus event on Lamentis that caused the branch was two Loki’s joining sides. Or, Loki no longer being alone. Loki insists while talking to Mobius that “she’s not my partner!” but she was, and they were partners from the moment they grabbed hands on Lamentis — right when the timeline broke off. I think Loki variants teaming up is the biggest threat to whoever is pulling the strings here — that’s why the post-credit scene is so significant. (Is Loki the only person who has multiple variants of himself who've escaped the TVA?)

And here’s where I’m gonna get salty--so I apologize but i need to rant about this-- but it’s seriously pissing me off that so many people are intentionally reading this as Loki/Sylvie and then being mad about it when that’s clearly not what’s happening and why is everyone acting like Mobius with one angry jealous brain cell and no critical thinking about the context of the characters.

If people ship it that’s chill, but for the people who are against it—it’s clearly supposed to be platonic, and it’s so upsetting that in the year of our lord 2021 we still can’t have a man and woman hold hands without people saying it’s proof they want to f*ck each other, like what in the misogyny??? STOP. This show was written by a bi woman and Tom the-most-emotionally-sensitive-man-on-this-planet Hiddleston — let them display an intimate loving friendship goddammit. This isn’t romance, this is Loki learning how to admit he cares for someone who cares for him in return — something he hasn’t experienced a whole lot of and clearly doesn’t know how to navigate.

(You have permission to personally come at me if it actually turns out to be romantic by the end of the show—but as of right now I will die on this hill.)

Him putting his hands on her shoulders to me was a clear indication he wanted to hug her, and I’d like to think he would have told her he cares about her, and that they can figure it out together. Because these are two characters who’ve never had anyone else to rely on and trust, and for the first time they’re not alone.

And I have to think about what prompted this from Loki. He just lost Mobius the moment after he called him friend. The way I see it, he’s just realized the true gravity of what they’re up against, and Loki is suddenly very afraid of losing Sylvie too before he tells her cares about her, of dying truly alone because he never told anyone what they meant to him. (Don’t think about this in the context of him also having watched his entire family die knowing he never told Frigga or Thor how much he loved them either don’t think about it—) He’s realized, finally, that he has doesn’t have to be alone, that he can choose to be close to people and have friends. And god it’s so heartbreaking that he never got to hug her or have that moment with her. I really hope they get that in the end. I hope he gets it with Mobius. I hope they have a group hug. I'm upset again.

Okay, deep breath, ANYWAY.

Hopefully this didn’t come off as attacking anyone else’s opinions.

Personally, I love this character so much, I’m just so happy to be seeing him in his own storyline that they can’t go wrong here. Objectively I think the production is amazing, and personally I love they way Loki’s character has been explored so far. (Yea yea, was I HOPING that the bad-memory loop would morph into Sanctuary and Thanos and like a full exploration of his true worst memories? Yes but let’s be honest my whump needs will never be met in canon and I have to accept that lol.)

Honestly I left all my own meta about this character at the door when the series started, because for me the opinions I’ve formed from the hundreds of (amazing) fics and meta I’ve read on this character and what’s true in canon are basically inseparable at this point, and no portrayal is going to live up to the way Loki exists in my head. Canon Loki and fic Loki are two different characters and I can enjoy both at the same time :) I’ve just loved seeing the character get given the different dimensions he deserves, and written by people who care about his story.

Also, it’s not over! If he was dead and this was it I’d be very upset, but this is the rock bottom of the storyline, and I think the whole next two episodes will be the build back up. I trust it’s gonna be worth it. SO hyped for flaming sword Loki. I would die for Sylvie, but I’m excited to see him on his own again.

My current most pressing questions are:

-what was the fallout of Sylvie’s bombing the timeline? (Have we seen that yet, am I just dumb and missing something?)

-Obviously, who’s behind it all? (Kang? Is there a head honcho Very Evil Loki at the top?)

-How much does Ravonna actually know, and to what extent is she just a pawn too? She asked Sylvie to prune her— she’s probably also been duped here.

-Is everything we learned about the sacred timeline BS? How much of what the TVA workers believe is real?

-my favorite theory so far is that the war of the timelines miss minutes talks about hasn’t actually happened yet, maybe making setting that into motion is the true endgame, leading into Multiverse of Madness?

(Side note: holy HELL im so excited for this soundtrack to drop on Spotify. It’s SO AMAZING I had CHILLS in the end credits.)

Open invitation to discuss anything with me if you feel inclined! :)

#if you read all of this please come say hi and be my friend because I don't know if even I'd read all this lol #loki #loki show #loki series #loki show spoilers #loki spoilers #loki series spoilers #loki show discourse #loki show positive #my disaster son has a show

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voidnoidoid · 3 years

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rambling about sk8 episode 8 (3/3) mega late renga edition

what the fuck its the third time Im typing this out mc every time I close my laptop on this screen the whole post gets deleted I'm so tired of this baaaaaa

In this essay I will talk about how much Langa misses Reki and how this is expressed in episode 8. Langa is deeply affected by Reki’s absence, which makes sense bc they are best friends.

despite the tournament happening all around him, reki is the only thing on Langa’s mind. He asks around if anyone has seen reki, and constantly looks out for reki. Langa feels guilty bc he thinks he’s the reason why Reki is ghosting him, which is only partially true. He thinks that because he didn’t keep the promise between him and Reki to not participate in the tournament, Reki is mad at him. My heart aches for him bc he doesn’t understand why he’s being ignored, because the both of them don’t know how to effectively communicate with each other.

guysss look at how his eyes light up when he thinks Reki has returned! He looks overjoyed!!! but no its just Ad*m.

WAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHH like seriously im gonna cry he misses reki so much.

Also, I don't have pictures, but Reki not being there has a huge impact to how Langa skates. Langa in this episode almost crashes into multiple people while going at rapid speeds. Usually, Reki is there to be the voice of reason, and is there to make sure Langa and the others are safe. Reki’s the one who taught Langa all the tips and tricks about skateboarding, so it would make sense that he would also keep Langa in check. They need each other. Langa is too focused on the thrill of skating since he’s an adrenaline junkie, and Reki is here to keep him grounded.

oh yeah dinner scene time

AUUUUGGUGNFDIKNDIBVIDNJ this is SO IMPORTANT bc renga break up happened on a rainy night! So, rain is associated with Reki and Langa’s fight and separation. Langa wants it to be sunny, meaning no more rain. He wants to be friends with Reki again and for them to make up! im crbyyyyingnfknv Also, TOMORROW! He desperately wants to be friends again as soon as possible!

and I adore how ms hasegawa is a genuine caring mother and tries her best to look after Langa, she’s doing a fantastic job as a single mother and I love her sm. She gives Langa really astute advice which actually helps with his problems! She’s attentive, and takes hims seriously. But funnily enough, she totally misreads the situation and thinks Langa is talking about his crush. And uhh... she says 好き, in the romantic context bc Langa BLUSHES and is EMBARASSED! And people still say it’s platonic

but that's besides the point because Ms Hasegawa is the best mother Langa could ever ask for.

hahahahaah look at that lil blush UEANRDIFN

Meanwhile Reki is feeling terrible. He doesn’t answer Langa’s texts and is moping around at home. He has also been watching clips of Langa skateboarding and the way he compares himself to Langa’s insane progress is pretty relatable. It feels really demoralising to have the person you taught surpass you so quickly. Then reki sees a thing on tv about this dude supporting athletes and finding satisfaction in that. This leads to something in episode 9 which I'll talk about in a later post when I have time bc of school lol

All in all I dearly hope Reki and Langa make up and become friends again. And I would also like to clarify, Sk8 is in no way a BL. Romance was never the focus of this show. Sk8, to me, is about having fun skateboarding and about the friendships you make along the way. Yeah. Besides, not every romantic aspect has to be thrown in your face, subtlety is beautiful.

#sk8 #renga #reki kyan #langa hasegawa #sk8 langa #sk8 reki #sk8 the infinity #sk8 anime

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thechangeling · 2 years

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I LOVE fict rambles ahh this is gonna be fun!

Ok hey Zia! You didn't specify a particular fic so I'm just gonna assume that means I can choose. Sorry if that's not what you wanted lol. Secondly I'm not sure if you've actually read the fic I plan to discuss so I'm going to do my best to thoroughly explain everything so you have context for what im talking about.

I hope you like this!

Ok so the fic I wanna discuss is Enough, which is essentially about Ty and my OC Alyssa (I think you're familiar with her) discussing feelings of love, fondness, friendship and sexual attraction. They discuss their perceptions on attraction, sex and relationships and how that can be worped and influenced by being autistic. Ty expresses his anxieties over sex and relationships and imagining what it would be like with allistic people because of the communication barrier and also because we just process things in such different ways. Alyssa gives him the offer to sleep with him as an experiment so he can see what it's like and hopefully make the first steps to better understanding himself. The fic ends with Ty deciding to take Alyssa up on her offer.

The fic itself doesnt have any sexual content in it but I think I might have rated it muture because of some of the things they talk about. The fic is meant to be an exploration of their relationship as well as a greater exploration of the dynamic between two autistic people and how we tend to navigate friendships, romance and sex (based on my experiences). It's also about the incredible bond that can exist between two autistic people and their shared connection and how this thing that refuses to be defined by allistic/neurotypical standards and put in boxes can be quite beautiful and profound. I based their relationship loosely on the one between myself and my ex girlfriend who I am still friends with. They are also autistic and it created this fierce sense of sameness and relatability and connectedness that honestly kind of scares me with it's strength. Part of why we didn't work out I think is because the strength of that bond overwhelmed me. (Also I'm a tad romance repulsed.)

But moving on, the fic isn't meant to be indicative of Ty's sexuality in any way. (So can people please put down their fucking pitchforks lol?) He doesnt really know what he's doing or what he wants and that's part of the point of the fic. Exploration and experimentation with someone he feels safe with is the point.

"You deserve good things and good experiences. You deserve to have your first time be somewhere familiar. Somewhere you feel safe, and with someone who loves you."

This line is heavily inspired by a scene from the movie Perks of Being a Wallflower. Where Sam offers to give Charlie his first kiss because she wants the first person who kisses him to be someone who loves him. Alyssa and Ty are not in love by any means, just like Sam isn't in love with Charlie but their story is a love story.

It is a love story heavily influenced by my demiromantic perspective that prioritizes platonic love as just as importent as romantic love, as well as my autistic perspective that constantly blurs the lines between romantic sexual and platonic attraction and has trouble distinguishing between them. But the message of this fic as well as well as their relationship in general is that it really doesnt fucking matter in the long run.

Ty loves Alyssa, and Altssa loves Ty. Just like the sun always rises and sets and there are always stars in the sky whether you can see them or not. And that will never change.

The nature of their relationship isn't supposed to make sense to allistic people because it is not for allistic people. We talk about "the male gaze" as a society and queer characters written by queer people that are clearly for queer people (see Casey Mcquiston's books) but what I really want is autistic characters written without an allistic lense for an autistic audience and that's what I try to do with Alyssa and how I wrote Alyssa and Ty's relationship.

"They had created something different between the two of them. Something that almost transcended labels or rules or traditional allistic boundaries. Alyssa was like the armor he put on every morning, with the strength and confidence that he wasn't alone in this world. In the midst of all of their jokes and late night heartbreaking conversations. In the midst of this fragile peace they had created, there was something there. Something indescribable. Something like the sound of the page being turned in one of his Sherlock novels, or the sound of their favourite songs. A connection. A lifeline."

Autistic communication isn't always like allistic communication, especially in the ways we show affection. There are literal autistic love languages that we have names for such as parallel play and Pebbling. Parallel Play is sitting in silence doing seperate activities together side by side just enjoying each others company. I do this with my stepsister all the time. Pebbling is based on penguins giving each other rocks to show their affections. It's not always so literal. Something it's making playlists and sending song recs and book/movie/tvvshow recs and sending gifs and art work and memes. It's "I saw this and I thought of you." @the-wckd-powers is probably the person I pebble the most because I know they'll get it.

These are not autistic exclusive, but are definitely more common amongst autistics. Most nts and some allistic nd ppl get bored with parallel play or find it rude. And a lot of allistic ppl would rather you did other things besides sending them playlists to show your affections such as actually complementing them or giving them a hug. Or actually get them a "proper" gift. (Whatever that means.)

In the beginning of this fic, Altssa and Ty are engaging in parallel play until Altssa speaks, asking a random question with zero context. This us how we communicate. Their affection is also very tactile but in an almost animalistic way (I really can't think of a better way to describe this). They dig their nails into each others skin, scratching at it and pull on each other hair. Ty twists Alyssa's long thick stands of hair through his fingers and stims with it. Ty does this to Kit I'm a lot of my other fics as well.

They touch fingertips and link pinkies and squeeze each others hands. It's very sensory seeking despite the fact that Ty us very sensory avoidant, he is frankly shown to like physical affection from people he trusts. He, like me needs to feel. "Tighter, I need to feel it". And Alyssa is the same way. They need to be squeezed. To feel pressure.

I also wanted there to be this feeling of melancholy present throughout the fic. Because Ty clearly still misses Kit and it influences a lot of his thoughts. And Altssa is perceptive. She doesnt exactly know what's going on but she can see the Herondale pendent and how heartbroken Ty seems and put two and two together.

And the end of the fic she is not only offering him a chance to experiment but also a chance to escape. A distraction from what's bothering him. She sees him list in the cocophany of his own mind and says,

"Enough."

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you liked it.

#asks #mutuals!#zia!#directors commentary #Enough #autistic characters #cw sex mention

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when do you think theyll make hawkdemetri canon; in s4 or later (assuming it goes to 6 seasons)? i think the romantic aspects of their relationship will be empathized more clearly in s4 (hawk's jealousy of yasmime, their deep understanding and love for each other, etc) but they won't officially get together until the fifth season, leaving the last one to explore them figuring out how to go public and all that. or or i was thinking they do get together in s4 but due to the cobras threatening demetri or smth like that, they break up shortly after and don't get back together until the s5 or 6 finale. i feel like i'm being bold bc nothings set in stone but w what jon and hayden liked/rted im just ahhh!! so excited!!

Oh man, are we actually doing this now??? Are we actually discussing when Hawkmetri would hypothetically go canon???

EH, FUCK IT

IF SHE-RA WENT THROUGH WITH IT MAYBE IT ISN’T A MERE GAY KARATE PIPE DREAM

I personally see them making Hawk/Demetri an endgame pairing, so they wouldn’t officially get together until close to the end of the series--maybe even IN the series finale (which, as I believe I mentioned in one of my other posts, I would strongly prefer to be the kids’ senior prom, where a giant karate fight breaks out and everyone has to battle in tuxes and dresses because it would be HILARIOUSLY AWESOME). I think they might do it like She-Ra did Catradora, where they don’t confess their love and get together until the last (or close to the last) episode (Ah, She-Ra spoilers, I guess...but anyone who doesn’t know by now that Catra and Adora end up together has been living under a rock XD) but there’s LOTS of ship tease prior and maybe even a stolen kiss/hand-hold or two leading up to that moment. Either way, if they decide to go the Hawkmetri route, it definitely has Endgame Ship vibes to me, which means...good news is, we’re gonna win this bitch, and bad news is, I don’t think we’ll be seeing Hawkmetri proper anytime soon, especially if the show goes on for 6+ seasons D: But hey, we sure as hell have something to look forward to, if our hope isn’t totally misplaced!

I think most likely Demetri and Yasmine will date throughout Season 4, and I can see the writers using this to give Hawk a “green-eyed epiphany” of sorts, where he realizes he’s jealous of Yasmine in slightly more than a you’re-hanging-out-with-my-best-friend-more-than-me kind of way, and he’s just like “...oh fuck, am I gay? Shit shit SHIT” and cue Big Boi Angst! Probably by Season 5 Dem and Yaz will be broken up (because ain’t no one telling me a relationship founded on wedgies lasts more than one goddamn season), and that’s when we’ll start getting a lot more ship tease with Demetri and Hawk--subtle touches, a bit of hand-holding (but, of course, they’d find a way to do it in contexts where they can get away with it lol), “friendship teasing” that’s basically flirting, longing gazes when the other isn’t looking, getting a little TOO contact-happy when they spar--that kinda deal. Maybe at the end of Season 5, they’ll share a kiss, but they won’t want to address it or it’ll come with some complication. Like they’re both drunk, or maybe one kisses the other and then doesn’t want to talk about it afterwards because they’re too embarrassed, etc etc. And they’re both trying to figure out if everyone’s even going to be cool with them being gay anyways.

Season 6 I see as being more or less the same thing, with lots of ship tease and mutual pining and such, but it’s a bit more intense now and kinda complicated by the fact that they’re more directly aware of their affection for each other being romantic and they’re both trying to come to terms with the fact that they’re definitely probably not straight. They’re also slowly realizing they’re full-on in love with each other too, and they’re both trying to work up the courage to just ask the other to be with them. And then at the end of the season they finally do it, and then go to Karate Prom together!!! The madlads!!!

GRANTED, I’m REALLY trying not to get my own hopes up about all this, BUT the fact that one of the show creators liked someone’s tweet asking if Hawk and Demetri were gonna be the LGBT rep and another creator straight-up RETWEETING Hawk x Demetri fanart is...admittedly very promising!!! I’m really really hoping beyond hope that this ship happens!!! But Korrasami happened, Catradora happened...so anything is possible!!! It’s certainly easier to make a gay ship with semi-major characters canon than it used to be. I just hope the homophobic side of the Cobra Kai fanbase doesn’t mess this up for us by bitching about “PC” LGBT representation to the showrunners or something :/ Man...it’s honestly kind of alarming to see the amount of people who seem against shipping Hawk and Demetri solely because...they’re both guys??? Like people really be like “UGH these two guys are PLATONIC FRIENDS why must you make it GAY???” As if anyone in the history of EVER has said “UGH this guy and this girl are PLATONIC FRIENDS why must you make it STRAIGHT???” because...they’re already “defaulted” to be straight :/ Sigh...this is the depressing world we live in, I guess.

Fingers still crossed for Hawk x Demetri, though!!! Let’s make it canon through the Power of Karate!!!

Man I am on a ROLL tonight, I can’t fuckin sleep so instead I’m in my askbox shitposting about the binary boyfriends nonstop XD 3 asks in one night, babeyyyyy!

#hawk x demetri #demetri x eli #binary boyfriends #hawkmeat #demetri x hawk #eli x demetri #elimetri #demetri cobra kai #eli moskowitz #hawk #cobra kai #cobra kai season 4 #cobra kai season 5 #cobra kai season 6 #demetri #eli

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Summary: In which Ahsoka Tano has the most embarrassing Masters in at least two languages. Terms of endearment, Disaster Lineage Style. Aka: continued adventured in Jedi Order Conlang! Read on AO3.

“That stupid Senator, honestly!” Anakin started for the fifth time in the past twenty minutes.

Ahsoka and Obi-Wan shared a look behind his back. Ever since they had returned to their quarters from the meeting, Anakin had been throwing a hissy fit about how the Senator of a semi-important Core World had talked about the Jedi, specifically Obi-Wan. His comments had been downright insulting but Obi-Wan had led them through the negotiations anyway and achieved what they’d come here for.

There was no reason for Anakin to still be angry, and yet-

“-honestly every reference to that mission on-“

“Skyguy, you can stop proclaiming your undying love for Obi-Wan now. We get it,” Ahsoka said from where she was lying on her bed, checking her comm for messages from her classmates or teacher. Ahsoka had been supposed to take her exam on pre-Reformation Alderaani love poetry before they’d been called in for this mission and hadn’t had the time to sort out how she was going to get her grade in the exam now. She’d studied hard for it, even gotten Torrent Company to question her about it during downtime.

She might be just a little stressed about this exam. She’d certainly prefer taking on a squadron of clankers over this and Anakin wasn’t helping. Obi-Wan, who was sitting in a rather comfortable armchair, didn’t seem to mind. He was probably too used to Anakin’s antics already.

Hearing her words, Anakin stopped pacing around the room to look at her, first with annoyance as then something suddenly occurred to him and he began to smile downright mischievously.

“My undying love?” He echoed, then, in one swift movement, turned towards Obi-Wan, taking the other Jedi’s hands in his. “Oh, Obi-Wan, cahshee, ¿paialunru foh keelel zera ollun vii foh keelak?”

The words rolled off his tongue with a smoothness Ahsoka had not expected of her Master. Anakin’s Dai Bendu was always a little rougher, like the voice of a singer who had been praising another for hours already with their chants and was now a little hoarse.

“Enoah keel kyan kat fehl, kytal epal padenah fahk ve xariel ta. Denik anohrah kat fehl ru im sedorem det aainji foh tamaji kawa-”

“Oh Force, cadeo qa, Jaieh!” Ahsoka hissed, blushing brightly. Anakin’s words were downright obscene as sweet as they were. The fact that he had delivered this whole speech without breaking character and starting to laugh only made it worse. “Obi-Wan, do something! Make him stop!”

Why did she have to end up with those two as part of her lineage? She was sure Barriss never had to deal with Master Luminara saying such embarrassing things.

Obi-Wan rolled his eyes and sighed, so for a brief moment Ahsoka actually had the hope that he was going to put an end to this. Then, he too took on a sappy expression, fake like that of a cheap holonet soap opera star, matching Anakin down to the almost teary eyes.

“Yes, Anakin, ankyia kat fehl, do stop embarrassing our Padawan.”

She was sorely disappointed.

Ahsoka had read actual old love letters with less of an emotional impact than Anakin’s dramatic confession. It seemed like no matter what he did, Anakin always had to outdo everyone else.

Translation:

“Oh, Obi-Wan, cahshee, ¿paialunru foh keelel zera ollun vii foh keelak?”

“Oh, Obi-Wan, sweety, have I told you how much I love you?”

cahshee would, in modern contexts, be something like “sweety” or “sugarpie”. Most people wouldn’t use it in serious contexts anymore as it is a very sappy and over the top expression.

vii is specifically for romantic love.

“Enoah keel kyan kat fehl, kytal epal padenah fahk ve xariel ta.”

“You are my inner peace, the Light that guides me out of the Dark.”

kyan specifically refers to inner peace, the peace of a person. This is pretty much the state of being every Jedi aspires to achieve.

kat fehl is “of me” i.e. the possessive. Dai Bendu doesn’t have possessive pronouns so you have to make these rather clunky descriptions. Using this additionally instead of just saying “Obi-Wan is the light” makes it so much more personal and really highlights that without Obi-Wan, Anakin wouldn’t be able to achieve that state of peacefulness/inner balance.

kytal is Light as in Light side of the Force opposed to xari, the Dark side of the Force.

paden means to guide or to teach.

Putting this together, we basically have Anakin declaring that Obi-Wan is all that is good. He is Anakin’s compass, without whom he’d been lost in darkness. Even more so, his mere existence teaches Anakin which path he must take so that even when all around them the world is burning down, true darkness is threatening to suffocate him, Obi-Wan will save him and will stay by his side.

“Denik anohrah kat fehl ru im sedorem det aainji foh tamaji kawa-“

“My eternal home and no word I speak will be lovely enough-”

sedorem means word or truth. This means further that not even the truth can accurately describe how much he loves Obi-Wan. Anything that has to be said out loud is basically useless as it doesn’t accurately portray his emotions.

anohrah means home, but also refers to the main Jedi Temple.

You pretty much can't get any sappier. This speech is the love declaration you want and will never get in life because it just goes beyond everything.

“Oh Force, cadeo qa, Jaieh!” – “Stop it, Master!”

“Yes, Anakin, ankyia kat fehl, do stop embarrassing our Padawan.”

Obi-Wan is calling Anakin something that literally means “heartsong” but actually implies soulmate. Word can be used platonically or romantically. Here too the possessive makes this even more personal.

So basically their exchange is the following:

Ahsoka: We all know the dude was stupid and mean to Obi-Wan. Stop being so embarrassing about it now, we are all over it.

Anakin: Is this an invitation to proclaim that Obi-Wan is not just my soulmate, but also the reason I can be who I am and all that just to embarrass my Padawan?

Ahsoka: Obi-Wan, you’re my only hope-

Obi-Wan “I live to make fun of teeny tiny Padawans” Kenobi: No, I will, actually, go along with Anakin’s dramatics and reaffirm them.

#star wars #ahsoka tano #Anakin Skywalker #obi wan kenobi #obikin #fanfic #jedi #dai bendu #conlang #can be read platonically tho #your choice

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I’ve never personally been a fan of Derena after s1, but reading your posts made me sympathize a bit. I totally agree that them just being friends would be so nice. I hated the whole Serena pining after Dan in s5, it honestly felt like she only wanted him cause he didn’t want her. What do you make of Serena during the dair arc?

hi!! finally i have been re-united with my laptop and i can get to this ask! ngl, i was so excited to see it in my inbox, because i have a Lot of Thoughts about serena during the dair arc (some of which people have said before me, as some old LJ comments can probably testify, haha.)

this got very long and very serena centric *raises a mug of tea* cheers!

serena pining after dan and chasing after him like that was... i hated it too, and it made me.. uncomfortable is the best word i have for it, but also really deeply sad? i joke about serena’s ‘evil arc’ but as someone who genuinely loves her character and wanted good things for her, it was so painful to see her hurting so much and, instead of coping with that hurt in a mature way, causing harm to the people around her (two of whom she canonically loved very much; two of her favourite people in the world.)

the way i felt about serena during the dair arc was very much like... her reacting badly and not being sympathetic actually did make sense. i wasn’t a fan of how the show handled it and portrayed it, but given everything that happened with her in s3 and s4, i do think some kind of fallout was warranted and expected. everything that happened with lily, william and the fake cancer plotline was really messed up, and serena had spent majority of her life waiting for her dad to come back, and - i think we can blame lily for not being a particularly good (or present) parent, but i think serena had this very strong feeling that her dad coming back would somehow fix their family, or something like that. instead, his coming back caused a very new level of van der woodsen fuckery, and i think that would’ve been extremely traumatic for serena.

it’s also worth noticing that she doesn’t spend time after breaking up with nate in s3 to work on herself. she recognises that she needs to, recognises that she needs some time to recover and really find herself again. but s4 rolls around and she’s still feeling lost. going to paris with blair is fun for serena, but it’s also an escape - she’s actively not dealing with the stuff that’s happened, which i think is part of why her behaviour in early s4 is so chaotic and messy - leaving dan & nate hanging like that is.... mean. she should’ve been honest with them, she should’ve made a choice, even if that choice was ‘neither of you, i need more time, sorry’ or ‘hey, i’m not really sure yet, you shouldn’t have to wait for me to choose’.

i’ve said stuff very vaguely, mostly in tags, about serena & dan being very emotionally unintelligent, and i think this is serena’s emotional unintelligence - she wants things to be okay and alright again, but she doesn’t want to face her trauma and her insecurities to get through it (which... trauma is fucked up so i do understand that.) i think that’s what makes her such a sympathetic character to me. like, serena, you can run away from everything, but you can’t run away from yourself + your issues. you have to face them!! but she doesn’t really know how. nobody’s taught her this.

we’ve already gone into serena’s abandonment issues quite a bit, but i think serena during the dair arc was mostly those issues flaring up + the build-up of a lot of trauma re: the thing with her dad (that she was pretending not to see), serena feeling abandoned & lost because the only two people who she’s really ever thought of as ‘hers’, blair and dan, suddenly care about each other in a way that excludes her. we talk about the “dan and i have a real connection” thing in a dair way all the time, but the first time i saw that i was like “HELL YES” for dan and blair but like “ohhhhh noooo” for serena because the whole ‘we do things together that we could never do with you’ - which, i don’t think blair even meant in a hurtful way, but was probably the worst thing blair could’ve said to serena at the time??

it’s also worth noting that serena and dan keep going to each other when they’re at their lowest. serena reaches out to dan over the william thing, even though william majorly fucked over rufus, even though serena was dating nate at the time, it was dan she turned to then. when georgina takes milo away, dan immediately goes to serena, and she’s like, how are you, and he denies feeling bad about it, and serena (who probably knows dan well enough to know that it’s bullshit) humours him and goes “okay, let’s not talk about it” which nobody else was really doing at the time, which is why he went to serena. serena and dan’s high school relationship was very sweet and uncomplicated and i find it interesting (& a little sad, tbh) that when things go bad in either of their lives, both of them sort of immediately reach out for the other, almost like they’re trying to recreate the way their relationship was at the very beginning. gossipgirls has some great meta on this.

there’s probably also some jealousy over like.. dan and blair having found some stability and happiness with each other (without her! she’s no longer the person dan or blair loves the most and that hurts!) - and that they’ve found this stability while she still feels so lost and she’s drifting so much. serena’s gradual evolution into someone who really cared about being a socialite (??) and her reputation (to the extent that she was screwing lola over for her own benefit) felt very... drowning man clutching at straws-ish. like she’s lost everything else, might as well hold on to the one thing that she has.

this made me sad because i feel like... she still had dan. he didn’t want to be her boyfriend, he didn’t have romantic feelings for her, and he didn’t want to have sex with her. but he was still very much her friend. he confided in her!! he spoke to her about blair more openly than he did with anyone else (nate was right there, it’s not like the only person dan had in his corner was serena - serena was just the easiest person for him to talk to) and i really, really feel like if serena had just been like “dan, i want to be happy for you but i feel so lost, i feel like you and blair don’t need me anymore and i feel so lonely” or whatever... he would’ve understood!! he would’ve helped her through it! you know that bit with blair and serena in the elevator in 3x09? i can’t find the gifs right now Unfortunately but you know the scene im talking about - they both open up and talk and serena is finally honest with blair? i wish she’d gotten something like that with dan in s5 because like... this theme of dan trusting her with his heart (in a platonic way, but STILL, he was being soo honest and vulnerable and open with her) and her just being all supportive on the outside and sabotagey on the inside... like.. i didn’t like that for her, and i honestly think the level of evil they dialed it up to was cartoon villainny and very ooc for serena.

i DO see her having resistance and insecurity to the dair arc, but the sort of dishonesty and antics she was pulling felt so wrong and so un-serena, even in the light of all the trauma and the context to her acting out. the shephard divorce thing especially... serena spends so much of the earlier seasons feeling guilty and hating herself over the shephard wedding and the thing with nate. i don’t think she would do that again in any capacity - forgetting blair for a moment, i don’t think she would do that to herself. she hated the person she’d become back then & i do think serena is more strong-willed than most of us give her credit for (filming dan without his consent like that is a georgina move, it’s not a serena move.)

as for leaking blair’s diary... i feel like serena and blair have such a complicated and not always healthy friendship (that bit in s2 i think it is where serena says something about ‘im sick of always holding myself back so i don’t outshine you’ and blair is like ‘hey wtf??’ hits very hard because it’s so... understandable from BOTH of their perspectives, like i feel like i can understand how serena’s just been quietly holding onto all this resentment until she can’t be quiet about it anymore and it explodes, and blair’s insecurities make this moment one of her worst fears being actualised. but it’s an impactful moment because it touches upon the complexity of blairena.) serena leaking blair’s diary makes sense - i hate it, but i don’t think it was that ooc, and if that had been her only act of betrayal that would’ve felt a lot more realistic to me, tbh, given the way blair & serena’s relationship is and how often they hurt each other (sometimes even deliberately!!) like i would’ve just been like ‘serena! no!!’ as opposed to ‘that’s not my serena; what is this arc!!!” which is what s5 always makes me feel.

#meta #serena #this got VERY long!!#i hope it was worth the wait!!#anon #i got SO into writing this lmaooo i just love svdw very much #long post

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hi fae, how do you feel about people saying that kevin only tolerates madison bc of kate and therefore they won't work? :/

Hi! Well, I think these people are definitely not watching This Is Us (or any type of television, for that matter) or living on Earth. Or seeing and unseeing things according to their pre-established opinions. Either way, that’s absolutely not true. On most of their interactions Kevin is polite, as you can see it here:

I love this part because there are at least three other guests closer to him but she is the first person he offers a glass of champagne... If you pay attention to the scene, he is holding THREE glasses. He gives one to Madison and he puts another on a shelf, I don’t know about the third, but there were definitely more women in the room that could’ve had that(those) glass(es), he just didn’t care, lol. Also, Rebecca is looking and smiling at him, but he doesn’t even notice it because he is too busy looking at Madi... I mean, another direction.

CREDIT: https://thisiskevison.tumblr.com (all the gifs above)

Kevin doesn’t look very happy with the idea of dancing and still he doesn’t protest.

CREDIT: https://madsdefencesquad.tumblr.com/post/616600065662926848/kevin-x-madison-height-difference

This gif doesn’t show it, but he turns his head and watches Madison as she walks away just like on gif number 4.

Siding with her during a conversation with Kate.

CREDIT: https://thisiskevison.tumblr.com (all the gifs above)

Comforting Madison.

CREDIT: https://madsdefencesquad.tumblr.com/post/618991372262916096/kevin-looking-at-madison-nothing-but-blue-skies

He isn’t smiling here, but does this seem to be a person that is annoyed with the other? He has soft, delicate, gentle eyes while looking at her.

And this whole thing about Kevin despising Madison and only tolerating her because of Kate is even more ridiculous because on this scene he is basically begging her to invite him to come inside.

CREDIT: https://madsdefencesquad.tumblr.com/post/616600065662926848/kevin-x-madison-height-difference

If he thought her company was so unpleasant, why would he accept it in the first place? He could’ve left and gone to Rebecca’s house instead, or come back after Toby got back from work, he could’ve called Randall, or Nicky, or simply gone somewhere else to make new friends because it’s not like struggles when he socializes with strangers.

And here is what Madison had to say about her night with him:

CREDIT: https://thisiskevison.tumblr.com/post/617836054621339648/do-you-want-to-know-why-i-think-i-slept-with

He made her feel comfortable enough to be her true self and he ended up spending at least a few hours with Madison. He spent the night at her place and only left the next morning... If her presence were so repellent, why didn’t he leave after the sex? Madison didn’t point a gun at him and forced him to stay. Even after he woke up, he kept lying next to her on the bed without a shirt on... Plus, there was the option of leaving without saying anything while she was asleep, but he didn’t do that.

Actually, the only time I believe Kevin was rude to her was at the hospital, but you have to analyze the context: his sister went into early labor, there was an endless list of possible complications to the baby and herself, it took hours until Kevin got some information, Kevin had been drinking, he was dealing with his failed attempt to connect with his uncle, the frustration of having relapsed after an entire year of being sober, feeling guilty for lying to everyone about it and the fear of losing Zoe because of those lies. He was going through A LOT. Those were probably some of the hardest hours of his life. Yet, at first he treated her just fine, it was the fact she wouldn’t stop talking (because that’s the way she was coping with the situation and usually what he does too when he’s sober, btw) that he said those things to her. Now, I don’t drink, but as far as I know people on hangover usually have headaches so it’s not weird that they will avoid noises and I remember Kevin saying a few minutes before that he was on hangover.

I also remember that he immediately regretted it and apologized to Madison, but she didn’t listen and left (I don’t blame her). And when she walked away he was hit by a dose of consciousness and realized his was being “an ass” and apologized to his family. She wasn’t the only one, he was snapping at everybody, because it wasn’t Madison, Randall or anyone else that was annoying him. It wasn’t personal. It was the stress of the entire situation that was making Kevin take it out on everybody. Plus, even though he didn’t specifically snap at Zoe, when he went outside to get some air and clear his head, she offered him company and Kevin shut her out.

CREDIT: https://thisiskevison.tumblr.com/post/618572824853069824/im-sorry-what-exactly-are-you-doing-here

By the way, Kevin bumped into Madison when he was getting out of the elevator and attempted to apologize for a second time.

Another scene people use as an ‘example’ of rudeness is this moment on the season finale, but I sincerely disagree. Here’s why:

Kevin was in the middle of a heated fight with his brother and that was almost getting physical when Madison arrived for the party.

And when she showed up at the door he just told her the truth: it wasn’t a good time.

Now, does that look like an angry, utterly annoyed and disdainful face for you? Because the way I see it, it’s just a guy who’s weary and not in his best state of mind, which is comprehensible since he was in a middle of an argument, his mother’s health is deteriorating, Randall had talked her into doing a clinical trial in the other side of the country despite her previous refusal and that’s just SOME of the heavy stuff he was dealing with at that specific moment.

However, Madison doesn’t bother and enters the place anyway.

And Kevin doesn’t yell at her, protest or leaves, he just lets her in and closes the door.

Again: does this look like he hates Madison so much like some people make it seem?

THIS is being annoyed and/or angry:

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And this is just being upset, tired, feeling like all your energy has been drained out of your body:

If you watch the scene, his face on the picture above and on this gif has identical expressions:

CREDIT: https://ltbelanna.tumblr.com/post/189147462109/this-is-us-4x08-sorry-im-sorry-me-too-see

And really, how did these people expect him to react? Did they expect him to smile, kiss her and propose a second round of hookup? His reaction made perfect sense to everything that was happening at the time.

Do they believe things would’ve been different if it had been someone else at the door, like Kate’s neighbor Gregory or somebody from her support group? Do they think that if it had been another person he would’ve hugged them, offer coffee and crack jokes? That the problem was Madison and not the situation he was in with Randall and Rebecca?

Anywaaaay, by the end of their conversation he had already softened up and was even slightly smiling at her.

CREDIT: https://millennial-mess.tumblr.com/post/613565105725194240/im-so-sick-of-chasing-ghosts-im-tired-of

CREDIT: https://madsdefencesquad.tumblr.com/post/620438418688704513/you-da-best

Sure, it wan’t a wide smile because it wasn’t like his problems had disappeared all of a sudden, but he had found a silver lining in the midst of everything.

And being exhausted, upset, annoyed, stressed or angry is part of the human experience and part of being in a relationship of ANY KIND: romantic, platonic, familial. Taking it out on someone can happen sometimes as well. It’s not always sunshine and rainbows. People are not perfect. People are not robots. They navigate through negative feelings and emotions too. It’s how things are in real life and also how things are on television, specially on This Is Us, which is a show that focuses on relationships and emotions.

Jack and Rebecca, Beth and Randall, Kate and Toby, Randall and Kevin, Kevin and Kate, Nicky and Kevin, Kevin and Sophie, William and Randall, Kevin and Cassidy all had moments like this... The list goes on. Would the same people define these relationships/friendships as unsuccessful and fake because of a few unfriendly moments? I doubt it, because what really defines a relationship as healthy and successful is the people’s ability to recognize their own mistakes, forgive each other, work on themselves as individuals and as friends/a couple/a family and getting even closer and stronger after facing the hardships. It’s not smiling, talking, hugging and kissing 24/7 because nobody does that. Maybe for a few days and weeks, but you won’t last even a month behaving like this, let alone YEARS.

And the complications are also what keep the story interesting and engaging. I don’t mean something like toxicity and abuse, but if couples, relatives and friends don’t disagree, argue and face problems out and within their relationship, the show doesn’t go anywhere. There must be conflict. There must be drama. And there must be happiness. It’s about balancing these aspects out.

If they want to watch something that’s always sunshine and rainbows and where the characters are always happy, they should watch a TV show targeted to three-year-old children, because honestly This Is Us has never been and will never be this kind of show.

And we know Kevin has a pregnant fiancee on season 5 and since This Is Us is not a soap opera, I seriously doubt Kevin will go out there impregnating multiple women with multiple children and multiple sets of twins. I reckon it’s safe to say it’s Madison. That means they will go through one of the most amazing and yet vulnerable and challenging experiences two people can ever face and instead of pulling them apart, it will only bring them closer to the point they will get engaged. For me, this sounds like a relationship that is DEFINITELY WORKING.

#kevin pearson #kevison #this is us #sorry I didn't have gifs for everything and this is long lol #anon

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aplaceforthesoul · 3 years

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my abandonment issues are making things really hard as i’m separating from someone who realized she was aromantic while we were together. she still wants to be friends although she hasn’t texted me hardly at all since before she said she didn’t want to be together anymore and it isnt her responsibility to make me feel better but i have been really scared lately and spiraling and i want to ask her to just explain some things that i’m not sure if it’ll be the same or different but it’s been over a month now that it just hasn’t worked out to have a conversation naturally and i’ve felt like if i nag at her about it she’ll just decide to cut off completely and i don’t think she’s doing anything that should make her deserve for me to feel that way and i think i’m just scared on my own but i just feel like such a piece of work to be in any kind of relationship with including a friendship and now that we aren’t in something with definition like our relationship had i feel like she doesn’t have a reason to stick with me at all. and i don’t want her to think that i think being friends is somehow less because i dont and i want to be friends with her just as much as i wanted to be dating or anything im just afraid that its going to fall apart on its own with no defined foundation to hold it together. that was always a difference between us too i want definition and for everything to make sense so that i can feel safe and she doesn’t like setting expectations or confining herself to them and so i feel bad requesting anything from her especially because she doesn’t owe me anything and i’m not doing anything to make her life better that really feels like it will matter when she’s deciding if she even cares about me at all and the thing is she used to be the only person i trusted enough to share my feelings with and now i feel like if i tell her how afraid i am about everything even still it feels like it will only lower her opinion of me and there’s nothing concrete ensuring that she won’t get rid of me anymore. honestly it all boils down to that i’m really really scared but i feel like if i let her see that she’ll only realize more and more how awful of a person i really am to know.

so you’re partly right in saying that it’s not her ‘responsibility to make you feel better — if she’s now realised that she’s aromantic and she wasn’t happy dating then she had every right to end the relationship. it’s not fair or right for her to remain in a relationship with you and sacrificing her happiness and well-being, it sucks but I think we can both agree on that.

however!!! she also said she wanted to remain friends, right? and right now she’s doing everything opposite of being a friend. she’s not communicating with you, she’s not really making an effort for you at the moment. you have a right to expect her to do things like that, because she said she wanted to be friends! if she needs some time and space to figure things out then that’s completely fine, but right now she’s saying one thing and doing another, and that’s not fair. if you want to be friends with someone then be a friend, if you can’t manage a friendship at the moment then say that. words mean something, they matter. she can’t say to you “lets still be friends” and then just…not actually be a friend.

we haven’t met so I don’t know what makes you think that you’re an awful person? but what i’m reading and the vibe I’m getting from you, you’re not :* people who are genuinely awful don’t think that they are! someone who is a real piece of work doesn’t think that they’re being nasty or selfish at all — the fact that you’re sitting here admitting you have flaws and worrying about being a bad person by definition makes you a relatively good person. we’re only human and yes we make mistakes and mess up sometimes, but that doesn’t make you a fundamentally bad person.

her happiness is important, yes. her sense of comfort and well-being is important, yes. but so is yours? so is yours.

saying that you’re worried the friendship “will fall apart on its own with no defined foundation to hold it together” is really vulnerable and poignant thing to say, and I agree with you. relationships do need to be defined and they need to have boundaries to be healthy and happy and stable — whether that’s a platonic relationship (friends) or a romantic relationship or any other kind of relationship. she does owe you something, because she was the one who said she wanted to be friends. she’s now doing the opposite of what she said, she’s being confusing and creating extra stress for you, she does owe you an explanation and some communication.

so…what to do now, how to go about resolving this? first thing is to figure out what you want. do you want to be friends, is that something that is going to be good and healthy and positive for you? sometimes as much as we might want something, it may not always be good for us ): sometimes the best thing after a breakup is to have some space, allowing yourself time to process the pain and to start to heal can be a better choice to make. you can definitely be friends with ex partners? but when a breakup is still very fresh and raw and painful, it can be almost impossible to continue to have a healthy bond with someone.

second thing is to talk to her. if you are determined to be friends then you need to talk to her, explain that right now she’s not being very fair and this isn’t how friends act. I don’t think that talking to her about things will make her think that being friends is somehow less worthy? 0: just be honest, that’s all you can really do. I think everything that you’ve mentioned here (needing things to be defined to make sense and to feel more stable, feeling worried the friendship won’t survive as there isn’t a lot of communication) is important and justified and valid. I hope she won’t see it as ‘nagging’, because it’s not! but if she does view it that way and gets irritated with you bringing up legitimate worries and issues…then I guess it shows her true colours, and it’s clear that it’s now time to step away and spend time away from her.

there’s a lot of conversation on tumblr about mental health, self care, being ‘responsible’ for your own emotions etc? but there’s also a lot of nuance that gets lost, these topics and discussions require context too. sometimes we get so tied up in the idea of ‘personal responsibility’ of others that it can become unhealthy, and concepts can get a little twisted. the idea of personal responsibility does have its limits! no you don’t have a responsibility to shoulder the emotional pain of others, no you don’t have a responsibility to place other people’s happiness above your own, no you don’t always “owe” people your time or energy or explanations (especially if they’ve been unkind or harassed you in the past). collectively though, we all have a responsibility to be kinder to each other and to build a better future by creating community is something to strive for. that starts by being compassionate, by knowing that even if you don’t have a ‘responsibility’ to emotionally support someone or be there for them, it’s still a good thing to do! I guess when it comes down to it, it’s all about balance. if you’re in a mentally good space then help someone, if you’re struggling then it’s 100% ok to put yourself first. your friend is going through the pain of this breakup too — but she was also the one who said she wanted to still be friends. she gave herself the responsibility of being a friend, if she didn’t want that then she shouldn’t have said it. so yes, she does owe you an explanation and some communication. good luck, I hope things work out alright for you xxx

- tash

#advice #friends #relationships #breakup #aromantic #aro #communication #Anonymous

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greatcomettexting2 · 3 years

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the thing about the mod steph and mod nero of greatcomettexting is that i never got to parse out how icky they made me feel whenever i drew boundaries but i really want to because i still feel icky about it so ill warm myself some cawfee and do it now

nero talks a lot about how “none of us what REAL callout worthy things hes done!!” but i figure so long as my skins crawling about how obsessed they both were with me then i can risk his constant talk in every new server he joined about how he “has attempted literal actual murder” even if it was just him having an episode in high school and lobbing a brick

mod steph’s already had a huge history of not knowing when to draw boundaries with people and theres a dozen fucking people who can vouch for this because they all stopped talking to her once she started this weird shit. whether it was suicide baiting people into pitying her and listening to her for like all of 2017 or copy pasting other peoples vents to send herself(wild?) in the Vent Channel. clara talks a lot every one or two years about how much shes “changed” but she continually tests these boundaries to fuck around with people and nero isnt better in this respect at all. it felt like sometimes theyd realize something was a boundary for someone and then trigger it on purpose

like. the first and biggest and weirdest thing is that nero and clara would take entire conversations i’d had years ago and roleplay them out WORD FOR WORD in text or on call. sometimes id get uncomfortable with how clearly they remembered each word in the conversation. this wasnt a one off thing, this went on from 2018 to today, and it really really disturbed me, but i had no idea how to talk to either of them about it, because when i did clara would act like she had no clue what i was talking about, and say shit like ““listen jules, i feel like this is one of those instances where you think somethings happening, but it isnt.” the excuse nero used for this was that “ive always thought jules was so cool” but that doesnt explain copying out entire conversations i had that he shouldnt really remember from as early as 2017. it did feel at times like he enjoyed taking on the role of me in these conversations and saying the things i said out loud. this got very very creepy very very fast

that brings me to the next thing which was this. weird obsessive fascination mod steph had with my approval. there is just so much shit. she picked up her other name “clara” from a friend i have named kai who used to go by clara--the reason steph picked this name was because i would gush a lot about kai to her (which made me really happy because clara would have borderline suicidal breakdowns when i talked about my other friends.) she got really really fucking uncomfortable whenever i gave approval to anyone else too and would act like. a petulant child if i couldnt give her compliments she wanted. the most recent example of this was that i complimented someones selfie that wasnt hers she stayed cold to me for two days. i finally decided to ask her what was wrong and she admitted she had felt “kind of bad” when i ignored her selfie and when i asked her why she didnt communicate this to me, she explained she gets kind of “mean when shes high” (she doesnt, she has a bpd break for julesyboy’s approval when shes high.) she would also get super uncomfortable when i expressed attraction to Anyone, (romantic OR platonic) and begin comparing herself to them (why do this) on text and on call. a most memorable recent experience of this was when i explained to her in detail about a guy i like who’d bit his knuckle, and then she posted selfies everywhere of her blushing profusely and. biting her knuckle (and it really really wasnt the same, poor thing, she really did try.) theres dozens upon dozens of examples of this

and i realise that whole paragraph is wild and kind of funny if you think about it in the context of... like, a kid who admires the attention of their friend. but clara and nero would try their hardest all the time to test everyones boundaries to the point where it got way too weird. if nero knew something was specific to someones abuse he’d make sure to push them about it or make posts about how “weak!” it was for people to deal with “x and x.” or if someone were to expressed a self harming behaviour he would jump in w “OMG! LISTEN! I DO THIS TOO!!.” or he would make jokes about him “selling pics! this is just a reminder! :3 happy valentines day!” (same post, all platforms) before three of my friends who were sex workers approached me asking if this was a weird little joke. it really did feel like at times he said things he knew would shock people the most. and it really did feel like at times every time someone said something out of the ordinary he would. go out of his way trying to say he did that too, it wasnt a big deal. “it doesnt matter if youve self harmed yourself a lot, have i talked about how i once attempted murder yet. does that sound too edgy? i know people are scared of me... omg... omg omg.” and like this is all fine because if you hear his tinkly baby voice on call none of this shit is all that scary, no matter how much he talks about “how his friends think hes really really tough” (where are his friends.) but it does get a little weird when you think about how much of my trauma i confided in both of these two only to have nero blow it off, and how much they enjoyed doing that thing where they would roleplay out my conversations from 2017 with nero in the role of saying the things i responded with.

the reason ive typed out this long ass post is bc it literally just made my skin itch a little. it still does. when nero and clara would Do The Thing where they played out jules’ old conversations and . when they would post a lot of selfies with captions like “ahhh i love myself! i promise!” only to see my pictures from 2017 and go “ughh... i was REALLY ugly back then, but i promise im pretty now! clara/nero was ugly too, not gonna lie!” before venting about how they were never satsified w their reflections in the mirror it was weird. when clara would vent every night i didnt compliment like. a fucking selfie of hers. about how Unloved She Truly Was it was weird. like bros i am an abused neet living at home and after im done college im fucking out of here forever... u have nothing to be weirdly obsessed about, and copying out conversations i had with you and things i said to years ago won’t make u love yourself any more

tldr: mods neroratio and stephclara were very microobsessed with my attention and with attention in general to the point where they would literally roleplay being me and act like i was “making things up in my head” when i asked them wtf was wrong. and if you remember them from greatcomettexting and admired them for speaking their truth then like. this is what they were like

#mod worm

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