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habeascorpseus · 6 months

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"just dont lose yourself, okay?"

"i cant. i've tried to."

"Don't forget to enjoy this, today. Cuz if you lose yourself in trying to hurt the people who took it, you might....just don't forget the good stuff, okay?"

"i cant. i've tried."

godddd cellbits recurring motif of "i cant. ive tried." whenever someone tells him not to lose himself, both the bad and the good is so.. the implication of a perpetual fruitless spiral of turning man to monster and monster to man, and failing at both because loves too deeply and instinct is ingrained into him deeper than the carvings in his knife. he cant fucking stand himself. he can't stand how he can't be normal and has to rely on drinking copius amounts of coffee to stay awake enough to not lose it. he can't stand how even in the depths of his desire for vengeance, he hears the pain in his loved ones' voices and still stops to listen. these two parts of him have to be incongruous, because he knows he was happier when he was one without the other. and yet, time and time again the people who care about him tell him not to lose himself like they view him as whole. and again and again, he tells them that he can't. because he's tried to break himself in half and it doesnt fucking work like that. and he'll continue until he destroys himself because hes fucking Tired of being whole.

#habeas speaks #qsmp #qsmp liveblog #qsmp cellbit #qsmp charlie slimecicle #qsmp badboyhalo #idk im just deeply interested in like. this character who. dont get me wrong. IS AWFUL but who put in effort to become better #and it didnt Fix Him.#but he was so good at acting like he'd been fixed that people forgot domesticated dogs still bite when poked too hard with sticks #and its not like he was manipulating them either he genuinely Wanted to move forward and be normal for his son and his family #but then his family was taken from him time and time again and he was humiliated and backed into a corner #and all of a sudden the teeth come out and he makes the choice to keep them out but now has to deal with everyone being shocked he has teeth #who wish he didnt but dont understand he tried to forget too #the incongruous image they have of him in their heads of man turned monster when hes always seen himself as monster turned man #who was always just a monster and learned to use a human face

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lemonadier · 9 months

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My own version of some of the monster high ghouls!!

#monster high #monster high redesign #monster college??#they are in college now #this is also just a first pass #so their designs will probably change if i draw them again :o #they are also just not fashionable enough but thats partially beause im not either :(#my art #fanart #digital art #art #lagoona blue #frankie stein #cleo de nile #draculaura #clawdeen wolf #ghoulia yelps #monster high au #au

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fishyfishyfishtimes · 4 months

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This isn’t like the usual posts I make but, I played through Monster Prom Second Term’s True Calling ending, and what the fuck!!?? TToTT I’ve read before that the reason for the True Calling ending is to expand upon Miranda’s character, but why like this?? Why make fun of their own writing and ignore all they’ve already worked up to? :(

Miranda is heavily reliant on her servants and refuses pretty much all work, that much is obvious. She has her serfs do everything for her while she does whatever she ever desires on a whim, lost and aimless and without a clear purpose, but… wasn’t it always implied that she’s that way for a reason? That reason being her father spoiling her with gifts and money and royal privileges. Her parents already conditioned her to see torture, murder and genocide as normal things! I always figured that her talking about true love and romance and romanticising not-so-good-or-healthy fairytale tropes was a part of that, that her parents more or less raised her to be the perfect little princess whose only purpose is to be married off to a prince of another kingdom to strengthen ties or as a peace offering or something (or for political reasons overall? It is strange that a princess would find herself in a high school of a foreign land, hmm…). That would explain why she really has no aspirations, besides love! She was raised to be that way and she didn’t just decide to be selfish one day.

So, how come the game comes out of left field and has Miranda’s own sister yell at her for being selfish and vague??? Suddenly it’s her own fault that she's spoiled with serfs who’ll do whatever she says? Hello, who gave her those serfs???? Yeah, maybe her sisters are crown heiresses or high priestesses but clearly they were taught those roles! Those were roles that already existed, waiting to be filled! And now Miranda suddenly is the only one who needs to figure out what to be all alone?

Worst of all I can’t believe they’d insult their own writing and literally call Miranda flat :( I know that’s the fandom perception of her but this is your own damn game!! You know how you wrote her! Did you not keep track of all you wrote!? Maybe Miranda’s twist (“sweet mermaid princess is murderous”) is open and out for all to see but that hardly makes her flat. She loves tradition and finds it very important, she’s super into silverware and napkin-folding, she loves singing and water sports (water polo and gymnastics to name two) and fairy tales and stories and she dreams of romance and even though her family’s immoral and murderous ways have been hammered into her so hard she doesn’t know it’s not normal to torture and kill serfs, she’s still kind and worries for people and their well-being, even if they’re commoners! She’s not very “bright” in many things but in the Revenge ending we see her formulate and execute a blackmail plot without any serfs at all, which does require intelligence. Dare I say, just like how everyone has a twist in their personality, another twist of Miranda’s is that she can be cunning when she needs to be? I just can’t believe that they’d go and agree with the people saying that Miranda is flat and make a WHOLE SECRET ENDING TALKING ABOUT HOW FLAT MIRANDA IS instead of… I don’t fucking know. Making a route where they feel they’re actually giving her more depth? They’re just lampshading the issue! They’re talking about how they made Miranda into a flat character and how sad and awful that is instead of doing anything about it.

And they could’ve explored so much too. A character lacking direction in life is already a really interesting thing to explore. They could’ve surely done something with her basically being a tool for her family and kingdom! Alas… Maybe it’s silly to get so worked up about a video game but I don’t know. The game made me feel things. I love Monster Prom but sometimes it is a love-hate relationship :/

#all im saying is… miranda vanderbilt could be a princess of the arts and culture if theyre so adamant to give her a purpose suddenly #i tried my best not to ramble but it is something i do a lot! i tried my best to not get too deep into why i think miri is far from flat #and man… i JUST remembered bellanda’s strange comment. “to you femininity is pink. to me it is sharp teeth.” WHAT!!???#this sounds strange out of context but it makes no sense in context either. way to put down “basic” women bellanda! so cool!#erm anyway i will stop now! bye!#miranda vanderbilt #monster prom

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howlonomy · 1 month

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I really liked this idea and want to see more, but I also have a few questions.

Since Clover got the appearance of his friends, why doesn’t he have anything from Dalv?

Clover somehow interacted with the UT characters, except Flyu and Alphys. I mean, how did Toriel react to him? Or whether he became friends with other UT characters.

I really like your drawing style, but when I see your monsters it seems to me that they are very bulky, especially for the Martlet, which personally always seemed very miniature to me. (P.S. This is a minus and not a remark, I’m just wondering why you decided to draw them exactly)

1) in a meta sense, adding dalv’s elements just made clover’s design look really cluttered, like more than it already was ahdjsf. in the first draft they had a bat nose and one of their wings was a bat wing. but i think they would have some of dalv’s lightning attacks!

2) maybe ill do more ut characters at some point! but no ones really asked for more aside from alphys (which i might touch on more) and i dont think. theyre super important in the space of this au. theyre hanging out on the sidelines and are there sometimes :]

3) just for fun :] i like when people make ut monsters look more “creature” and “animal” than human, so i played around with the designs a lot! martlet in particular is the biggest change from canon bc i wasn’t expecting to draw her as much as i have; if i did i definitely wouldn’t have changed her so much

#asked and answered #monster clover au #i think ceroba and martlet suffer from anime girl disease so i wanted to make em more animalistic for fun :]#when i firstdid my silly little redesigns i hadnt seen a lot of fun/unique takes on them #but now ive seen so many i think i would designthem differently! specifically marltet and starlo #i saw an owl martlet recently i was really fond of so i would either go owl or woodpecker route today #but ive had so mant people bitch and moan about my martlet design im sticking with it out of spite #sorry i love yapping ab character design in the tags LMAO #mcau lore

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hella1975 · 9 months

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im so easy when it comes to immoral characters like okay do you bear your pain terribly? get behind me

#fandom is looking at a traumatised guy and going 'they deserved better'#but let me fucking TELL you if that guy goes on to let their trauma absolutely mutilate them then im gonna be there #bad victims etc etc #bear it terribly. bear it ugly and mean. bear it with your teeth stained by innocents that had nothing to do with the slaughter #let it make you worse. lash out. kick down. become the terrible thing #im defending that guy until the end of time #touya todoroki #andrew minyard #touya is the closest anyone has come to andrew in a very long time for me when it comes to this #like andrew is THEE baseline of this ive never seen anything like the way he does it #he was treated terribly and it made him terrible. shamelessly. he took the bad thing and decided to be worse for it #and while it's unsustainable in a person it's so fucking cathartic for a reader to just see that happening despite the tragedy of it #it's touya stood over his abuser and ripping his world apart with his bare hands while laughing #because he spent 10 years in hell for this moment. this single moment. and the audience and the characters call him a monster #it's andrew threatening his own cousin at knifepoint to defend a stranger's integrity simply because that is one of andrew's lines #and you do not cross them. no one ever will again. and the audience and the characters call him a monster #it's watching people who were treated awfully refuse to swallow that pain. refuse to forgive. refuse to move on #it's watching them embrace the wreckage of it and self-destruct either in one glorious explosion or gradually over years #because they are willingly choosing to live this way instead of getting over it. they are rejecting healing with their eyes open #because they were hurt so badly that healing now seems like a denial of that pain #and then u get to read fanfiction where they heal and are acknowledged for what they suffered and u cry and cry and cry <3

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roobiedo · 6 months

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OC-tober: Space

✧ lyrics from Moonlight by EXO ✧

This is Lyka, my werewolf OC who's in love with the moon ♡

They actually started out as a silly Monster Prom self-insert generated from a bunch of personality quizzes I did with my friends hh

As usual I got very attached overnight and sprinkled a healthy amount of angst into their backstory :)

#art #artists on tumblr #inktober #oc tober #space #moon #lunarpunk #monster prom #exo #(well barely but i just like to include my exolness everywhere. saranghaja)#lyka ann #roobiedoodle #yeah i know im incredibly late im not even gonna put which day its supposed to be hdfkjsh #the adhdies are beating my ass im just proud that its done now :')#weird that it took so long for me to create either a space themed oc OR a sad dog oc! huh.#anyway please ask me about them i have many thoughts!!!

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alchemiclee · 6 months

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been looking in tags for a few days now to see if anyone else found the whole high cloud quintet and related story to be a bit.....poorly written, nonsensical, contradictory, full of plot holes and loose ends, etc. apparently i'm not the only one. (and i'm not even talking about shipping stuff, because any time I saw someone mad about bad writing, someone always replies to be homophobic and laugh about failed ships. weirdos.) it could have been so good but was thrown into the garbage for the most part (IF you noticed all the plot holes and contradiction. if not, then it's a fine enough story tbh. I expect most people to see it on surface level and not read all the little hidden lore bits and try to piece it together like my autistic brain did. which is ok! enjoy it if you liked it and ignore me 😆)

#apparently one of the writers did it on purpose. wont explain here. you can find it elsewhere. but it makes sense now #that's why it fell apart and didnt make sense in the end #ive seem people say anyone mad about it is a shipper and thats why. they use it as an excuse to be homophobes #youre gross get out of thos fandom. im here as someone upset about the story who was very skeptical about any ship theories and focused #more on plot theories and overall friendship and stuff so its not even about shipping you het weirdos!!!#the contradictions and plot holes are bd regrdless of who you ship lmao stop reducing it to that #aure its fine if you ignlre those plot holes. but it happened to be the little plot holes that interested me the most so its obvious to me😅#cant wait until a talented writer in the fandom rewrites the whole story a lot better and fills in the holes and ties up the end better #please someone do this 😭#words #hsr #i just wanted a close found family who met a tragic end #my idea for a better way to write it is dan feng wanted free from the high elder cycle and yingxing helped him create a new elder #but it went wrong and failed because the preceptors fed him wrong info hopong it woukd destroy dan feng since they hated him #instead it was yingxing that died and dan feng selfishly brought him back somehow and thats why hes immortal and hates dan heng now #they created a monster in the process that made a mess and baiheng died trying to kill it maybe but hit its weak spot #so it was weaked enough for jingliu to slay it #maybe for a plot twist jing yuan somehow knew the preceptors were up to something and didnt stop the two because #they were too stubborn and he knew it would do nothing #we know the dragon heart disappeared so either it ended becoming bailu in the end #or it could be inaide blade bow. another fun possible plot twist. they never explained where it went so it coukd be a n y w h e r e #i had other ideas but i forget now. bht baiheng deserves better as well. just being a plot mechanism to make two dudes be stupid #is kinda bland and boring and wasted her character. she deserves better too!!!!#id write this if i had the time and brain power but ill hope someone else does it instead #OH yeah i forgot a big idea. dan feng and yingxing perhaps try to also kill the arbor and end the abundance and long life/reincarnation #and maybe that was one part that led to it all going wrong or something. since yingxing wanted revenge on the abundance for destroying #his home and family???? and dan feng wanted to escape the cycle? similar wants that worked together snd failed #these are all ideas from past theories i read and my own ideas i came up with all of which are better than what that bad writer did!#these are very incomplete ideas that im sure someone else can write better #lee rambles

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the-tired-commander · 1 year

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Hey, fellow monster hunter likers

What weapon would your characters use if they were hunters?

Damai would use the insect glaive, because of course they would

#im just listing them for now #might ramble about other characters at somepoint #i use both glaive and hbg #so i either play the floor is lava or i become a menace to other melee players #also if anyone ever wants to yell about monster hunter i am here for it #always

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heyitsphoenixx · 26 days

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#personal vent incoming to just get off my chest don't be weird about it #i've known since i was a kid that my dad was overtly abusive but #just in the last 3-5 months i've learned my mom was and currently is almost just as abusive #but she's just covert about it instead #all of my adolescence was about surviving my dad who was so obviously a monster that he was almost easier to deal w in a way by comparison #this is. what an utter mind fuck #there's also like. no member of my family that i can turn to for help #bc they're either just as bad or my mother has ruined any relationship i might have w them over time #and i also fear being a burden #so i'm making a plan to get out but god it's overwhelming thinking about doing it all alone #and the thought that it might take years to actually get out or get healthy #she's kept me isolated from any support for so long #and im afraid any family that could possibly help wouldn't fully understand or they would be just as bad as her #and it feels impossible to progress at all bc im living w her and literally filed as her dependent on taxes #like ik this is gonna be the hardest thing to escape in my life and i've already escaped a lot #but this time i have to largely on my own #is v scary #and she's conditioned me to believe that i can't make any right decisions on my own without her #and that anything i do is always 'backwards'#makes it that much harder to make a clear plan #her work schedule is so inconsistent that it makes getting therapy online (since i don't have a license or car yet) nearly impossible #to do it without her or my brother listening #that i've just felt trapped for years #but. i can Tell i'm getting better now and rapidly. more than i've been for a v long time #so the process is just beginning and i think even she can tell #which is also dangerous #but ik i can do this its just the amount of time and effort and organizing behind her back and doing it alone thats v overwhelming #but anyway #we stay silly

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formosusiniquis · 3 months

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okay but what if I did a vandal rewatch and wrote about them having to deal with the approach of their 30s??

#i have been writing a lot of steve harrington dealing with what it means to be 'an adult'#but now i think sam and peter should get a turn #like what do you do when you accidentally make a career for yourself as an investigative journalist whose primary tool is social media #and your wits and your ability to relate to your generation when your generation is no longer dominating social media #what does it mean when its harder to connect to the tastemakers and the like because theyve left what youre used to and moved somewhere else #adapt or die but youre in the back half of your mid 20s and youve already been dropped by netflix once #do you force yourself to understand the tiktok generation or do you move on to something else #and how do you when you made a name for yourseld at 17 #v different vibes from forced to grow up because you had to fight monsters and now you dont know what it means to be an adult #but either way can you tell im approaching 30 and dont know what to do with the mish-mash of checked and unchecked milestones?

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yukinyaminyato · 10 months

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day no. ? of immense anxiety: start

#i feel so bad lately.... i just wanna go home for even a couple of days but i kinda can't. no point with the prices of plane tickets.#me two weeks ago: i don't wanna go home yet. me now: god i wish i could go home soon #idk it's like im constantly abt to cry #and scared of everything. month will go by quick right i can handle it right #i have italian friends here but idk i still have these persistent feelings that i don't belong anywhere and it's the worst #you know the tiny monster living in the back of your head telling that everyone secretly doesn't like u and just tolerates u? yeah.#idk what i would do in finland either but i miss finnish summer. didn't think i'd ever say that but i really do.#maybe i just need a hug. im so touchstarved. the last time someone hugged me was over a month ago when mom visited.#my posts

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raiswanson · 1 year

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Been poking around a WIP I said I wouldn’t write yet and using the characters within for a prompt list. And I said I’d try to share more excerpts after that poll, so!! Have a lil snip from a short that shows just how friggin weak I am oopsies

“Ki— Princess Kiara!”

The familiar cry made me turn, blinking owlishly. I saw Lethen standing on the path below, still in his training armor. He must have come to find me right away after being released for the day.

“Lethen!” I cheered, swinging my scarf like a trophy. “How did you know I was out here? You’re just in time! I’ve just staged the daring rescue of a particularly slippery article of fine silk.”

He didn’t look as amused by the joke as I’d hoped. Just a little panicked.

He was such a worrywart.

#writing #rai writes #Sea/Queen WIP #The Silent One #title is up in the air because I REFUSE to give it anything it doesn't thrust into my hands right now #if I dont engage with it long enough itll get bored and let me go back to Eye in peace #(......in theory)#((yeah I don't believe me either))#(((the plan is still to do more Eye for Camp NaNo tho so this young monarch better CHILL)))#Im already in love with this WIP tho #who doesn't love queens and sea monsters and queens potentially being in love with sea monsters...and also their bodyguards....#sometimes you throw your ruling monarch into the sea to be claimed by the waves. and the waves.....claim her >.>#I'll probably post the entire short at some point too hehehehe

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curiouschaosstarlight · 3 months

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On a lighter, less cranky note, I wonder what kind of "villain fucker" I am

'cause I don't think I line up with anything "typical", admittedly--