#im on new meds lmfao

[mrsrookhunt]

SPOILERS!! NEW TWST LORE ON ROOK

Confirmed, Rook Hunt is the hatman.

Yall really thought you were getting crumbs. You've been HAD. The desperation for Rook content is SHOWING I'm also desperate

Yall are PATHETIC so am I

Stop trying to manifest rook content same and start rioting against disney to get rook his own well deserved series delusional thoughts of a woman in love

In conclusion

How's your 2nd search of the day on the #rook hunt tag for new content going?

#rook hunt #no hes not im just taking new blood pressure meds and having strsnge dreams and this is my formal way to announce to the hatman that #if he comes im gonna mock him #no creature would want to be called rook #thats a travesty #its offensive to demons #anyway dont come for me hatman im legitimately terrified #disney #twisted wonderland #disney twst #twst #disney twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland incorrect quotes #twst incorrect quotes #incorrect twst #incorrect twisted wonderland #rook hunt x reader #pomefiore #this started out saying 'rook hunt is the hatman confirmed' but then i just changed it so heavily its now a personal attack and im so sorry #lmfao i needed antihatman comfort dont judge me #i couldnt find a distraction so i MADE one #goodnight rook's bimbos #goodnight rook's himbos #goodnight rook's thembos #goodnight moon #goodnight stars #goodnight hoes on their fourth search of the rook hunt tag in 12 hours.

[girlwithfish]

i feel so lame and failure core for not being able to handle my 9 hr shift 5x a week full time job but then i think of how shitty admin was and the whole structure of the center was it was so unsustainable and unsupportive for the staff and horrible and im super mentally unwell so no wonder i went crazy there lol 👍

#now im just chilling lmfao #im stressed cuz idk what my job situation is gna be in tbe near future #im lucky enough to not have to rush immediately to find a new job and #possibly just work part time for a little #it all just depedns on what kind of program i enroll in and the hours of that #some of these outpatient programs r very intensive like 9hrs a week 3 days etc so idkk #im just prioritizing that rn #im gna call them today like in the next hr i keep putting it off #and its a huge source of anxiety for me icwish i was normal Lol #I also rly rly need to fix the meds im on

[queenofbaws]

man, i'm not gonna get into it because i will start crying on a wednesday afternoon and i simply do not have the energy for that, but finally having a doctor that believes you and takes you seriously after dealing with specialist after specialist telling you there's nothing wrong with you or just throwing weird meds at you and brushing you off is like. fucking nuts lmfao.

to all my fellow spoonies and chronic illness buds, i know it sounds fake, but man oh man they are out there, and holy shit i hope you find yours <3

(and for the love of god, don't get lyme disease)

#im a medical mess #<- thats my chronic illness tag for anyone who might be new lmao #ive been having some Rough Days lately with these meds but man oh man. #to have someone say to you - AFTER EIGHT FUCKING YEARS - yeah here's how we're going to manage this #GOD it's some kind of feeling lmfao

[wawawawawawawawawawawawawa]

hospital............

2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and by 2 i mean . 3

#new heart meds!!!! #mmm..... tastes like iron! *vomits blood* #might answer some asks here idk lmfao #its like. have an ekg. okey go back to the waiting room. have an iv. okeyyyyy bye! wait no NOW have the iv. waiting room! #i have to get a blood test done and then another one 2 hours after the first one #but doctor im fucking eepy. and bored as well #at least gimme a swanky ass bed CHESTPAIN OUBGJFIDBDND #me: writing tags #my heart: GET BUSTED LOSER!!!!!! #HOURGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! #waposts

[astrxealis]

hozier yoo

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #yoo his new songs ... the new ep ..... so good #personal fav is 'all things end' you're so right !!!!! #uhh i am a bit stressed bcs lots of things i gotta do but i'll try my best to manage things well #anyway. HELLO good afternoon !! i hope you all have a lovely day or evening or whatever? :< #also i'm still unsure. bs psych or compsci aaa i like both equally with the cons and pros so it's sucky LMFAO i can't decide #it's funny. i recently got woa i wna go to psych and med etc etc bcs i watched a video and was like i wna help ppl fr #but then the tried out chat gpt bcs my mom and dad mentioned it again and i was curious. ai is absolutely terrifying yet so interesting #there's a bunch of data that goes into that stuff and i've been interested since #i first went to this science museum here in the ph! i really wna go again sometime aaa i miss that place. i still rmbr it #robots are super interesting to me haha sometimes i forget my clubs as a kid were engineering robotics coding related #and only in middle school it turned to. more sporty clubs LMFAO but even then i always preferred tech stuff lol #except i am extremely interested in psych and the like and SCIENCE and RESEARCH and all that but compsci just as much #i am not fond as fond of. chem and bio? bio depends on the specifics of what it is #but then arghhh physics is uh. idk i prefer it actually now that i think abt it LMFAO but math is. smth i love but also it's hard #IDK OKAY i'm still conflicted. uhghm. i love both and both are difficult but i like that lmfaooo #research is smth im interested in a lot and so is data stuff! snd then eventually im interested in either compsci or psych as a career #and both are things im interested in a lot even if i dont end up. going into that career #IDK ANYMORE BYE anyway play gbf and have a lovely weekend

[baldursgrape]

i had a taser pulled on me by a cop last year for falling asleep at a bus stop and then refusing his "offer" for a ride home

#this was that time i went to jail lmfao #most dystopian situation of my life actually. i was 3 months out of major surgery (broke my femur into three pieces) #and started a new PRESCRIPTION!!!!!!! serious pain medication #which i needed because my identity was stolen during 2020 and therefore wasnt eligible for unemployment #and i had to keep paying my rent #so i had to keep working as a bartender which was unbelievably hard on my body #my PT even begged me not to go back to work but i was like sorry josh i dont have a choice #so i popped a pain pill after work. knocked me on my ass. #wake up to a fucking cop shaking me awake #saying im drunk (i wasnt) #i was like my crutches are right there sir im on pain meds because i destroyed the largest strongest bone in my body #he was like wheres your prescription bottle and i was like its at home i dont carry fucking hydromorphone around in my purse #and he was like bullshit youre drunk #was not so i was like okay breathalyze me #and he was like i dont have to. i get to make the call if youre intoxicated or not #i was like well i promise you im not and im going home #and he was like youll get a ride home or youre not going home tonight #and at that point my completely unhinged brain was like 'you cannot make me accept a ride home from you' #and he was like actually i can #and when i got up to walk he puLLED A WEAPON ON ME #and i was like thinking this guy was not even a real cop and i got so fucking scared #like i seriously thought he was a murderer and saw an injured girl alone and i was about to get fucking dumped in an alleyway #anyway next thing i know im being handcuffed #even the fucking guys who were booking me at jail were like whats going on here why are you here #anyway #just something im thinking about :-) #personal #i wish id sued him #i literally begged everyone in the precinct to breathalyze me and they were like youre not here for being intoxicated #youre here for how you treated that officer

[dragqueenpentheus]

mmmm

#ive been having pretty nasty vertigo for a week or two now and #i think it may be eye related #which is strange bc it only really starts going in the summer whihc. may mean more damage has happened #in between getting off meds and getting on the new ones #or i suppose even just manifesting in the new lesions #although they jjst said they were in my brain no one said anything about new ones on my #little eye nerve stems or whatever #ill fill out the trillium forms tomorrow and hope i can get on the IV waitlist soon #i have an eye appointment next month at least so i suppose we can check in then #ideally im not still staggering around for a month but 😬🙃 #what can you do #this disease can go suck eggs frankly #gunna make a character w the initals MS and then im gunna kill them so bad #irl #personal #what am i supposed to tag this as #multiple sclerosis cw #lmfao

[gorgeousgirlbossgeniusmiuiruma]

the only thing keeping me from gal is my hands r too shaky for eyeliner

#realized that’s why I can’t learn even tho i keep tryint #my hands just. don’t do that LMFAO probably linked to one of my #several medical issues #when im less busy ill figure it out. will see if my new meds help too #cause I LUVVVVV gyaru

[courferre-stan]

You guys ever get stuck in the worst possible funk ever and have no motivation to do anything despite the nagging thought in the back of your mind that you have to do something instead of being a couch potato? That’s how I feel. Done with high school for two days and I’m immediately so beyond bored

#to add to it i started new adhd meds that just make me tired and run down minus my heart going a mile per minute #im struggling lmfao

[asteroidzzzn]

more than just a dream - the walker, 003

pairing: college!ellie x reader

synopsis: you transfer to a new school where you only know one person; your childhood best friend. he invited you to a beginning of the year party to meet some new people, but one person, in particular, catches your eye... his other best friend.

a/n: READ THIS ITS IMPORTANT hihihi im backkk i found a format i rlly like!! if u didn't see my other post, im changing formats because its taking way too long for me to make the other one and its very discouraging. creds to @starphires for making the format 💗 hope u enjoy

genre: social media au, fluff

series masterlist -- previous chapter -- next chapter

ellie

OMH IM SORRY IM HERE I FELL ASLEEO

dina 💋 👎 a message

dina 💋

ethan died

ellie

?? how did the main protagonist die what

dina 💋

i lied idk why i said that i didnt even watch the movie

what were yall doing for TWELVE HOURS??

ellie

why r u surprised hanging out for the technically first time for 12 hours is the average lesbian experience

dina 💋

ur like clinically insane

ellie

we were just watching our show

OUR SHOW wyd if i jump off a bridge RN 🧚

dina 💋 ? a message

dina

???

ellie

hold on ill tell the gc everything

ellie

ellie x y/n lore update

jesse 👽

there is no way u just said that.....

ellie

so basically

we got blankets and got comfy cozy and made popcorn and we were having sm fun like talking a bit and saying stuff ab it bc we've both rewatched it sooo many time like its our comfort show

and GET THISSSS

SHE LAUGHED AT MY JOKE

YUPPP I KNOW MHMM

AND POPCORN FLEW OUT OF HER MOUTH'//?! LMFAO

she was rlly embarrassed but it was so funny and cute and i started laughing too and i CHOKED

actual tears in my eyes and she was just sitting there laughing at me

dina 💋 ❤️ a message

jesse 👽

oh so ur deep in the trenches

ellie 👎 a message

dina 💋

thats so romantic

ellie

i almost died???

dina 💋

awww

ellie

she def wants me

jesse 👽

JUST REPORTING LIVE NEWS WE HAVE A DEVASTATING MAGNITUDE 9.9 DELUSIONQUAKE OVER HERE

ellie 👎 a message

dina 💋

DELUSIONQUAKE IS CRAZY OMFG NOOO

ellie

YOU MAKE ME PHYSICALLY ILL PLASE STOP

I AM NOT DELUSIONAL

jesse 👽

ok 🤗

ellie

NOOOASDHFKDFJSFD

but actually tho.. like shes so amazing and pretty and smart

like i dont wanna just hu w her or snything else.. it is a secret third thing

dina 💋

??????? thats called liking her

ellie

oooh maybe...

dina 💋

😭😭😭

jesse 👽

hey im sure this is all rlyl important but ELLIE? ARE YOU STIL LI MY DORM?? DID YOU SLEEP EHREA

ellie

UMM????

jesse 👽

I HEARD YOU AUDIBLY GIGGLE A FEW MINUTES AGO AND I THOUGHTIT WAS Y/N BUT SHES STIL LASLEEP..

ellie

NAHH GET HIM BACK ON HIS MEDS HES HALLUCINATING!!!

NURSE HES OUT!

jesse 👽

FUCK TYOU I AM NOT CRAZY I EHAR UR PHONE BUZZING WITH MY TEXTS RIG TNOW

ellie

😜

dina 💋 ❤️ a message

jesse 👽 👎 a message

jesse 👽

PUT THAT AWAY???

ellie

im sorry

ill go buy u breakfast what do u want

jesse 👽

ellie stew

ellie

um idk i could get u a sandwich ig..

dina 💋

u should get me food too bc u dipped on me last night im On my way! 🙋‍♀️

ellie

a/n: typa shit i been on recently..... 😓 . i hope u all liked thisss! this format is sm fun and way easier for me i hope u enjoy reading it! tell me if the length of this chapter was good or if i should make them longer/shorter,, i appreciate all feedback 💋💋

taglist: @ximtiredx @gold-dustwomxn @elliesinterlude @fireflyelllie @trulygnomed @deluluwh-0-re @toesorhoes @elliewilliamsmissingfingerss @emluvselandabs @ariianelle @jokerpokimoon @lonelyfooryouonly @lil-elliesgf @yuaaa05 @ourautumn86

#ellie williams #ellie williams x reader #tlou game #the last of us #tlou 2 #ellie williams fluff #jesse tlou #dina woodward #wlw #tlou part ii #tlou smau #the last of us fanfiction #lesbian

[screechingengineerdreamer]

Reassurance 🖤

Billy butcher x (female reader)(no y/n)

Summary : You finally tell butcher how much you love him 🥹🖤

Warnings: Smut, piv, dirtytalk, mention of death, swearing, mention of drugs (compound V lmfao), praise kink, lemme know if there are any more !

Fandom : The boys obvi (if you haven't watched please do it's on prime)

Note : English isn't my first language so THERE WILL BE MISTAKES ‼️‼️ im sorry about that and i'll do my best 🫶🏻

I aldo changed the story just a little bit so not everything is 100% accurate !!

Let's go 👻

As I help Kimiko with her calligraphy on the couch, i hear hughie and M.M arguing but they are too far for me to properly hear them. It's been days since we haven't seen Billy and i've been so worried. It's not unusual but everytime he leaves our spot im scaredd of him never coming back. Since my hushand died because of Homelander, he has been the first one to make me feel safe again. I love him so much but with our hidden lifestyle, there is no time for love. After Kimiko's done with her "homework" for the day, i leave her to watch tv and join frenchie next to the rest of the boys.

-The funny thing is that i called butcher an hour ago. He chuckles to himself.

-So they're fussing about butcher ? I look at frenchie in disbelief. I swear M.M's going lose it soon.

-Imbéciles.. (Idiots).He mumbles before glancing at them again.

I feel bad for hughie, he must be feeling so unsafe and alone without his dad... I don't know anything about him except for Transculent but it's obvious that this hidden part of the world is new to him.

We suddenly hear some groans and some noises on the floors above us. I run next to Kimiko and point my gun at the stairs when one of Frenchie's friend fall from the top of the stairs in a pained whimper. All of a sudden, Butcher appears at the top of the stairs with a wicked smile. Everyone lowers their guns after frenchie does. That's when Hughie loses it.

-You fucking called butcher, Frenchie ? He asks. Hughie walks up to Frenchie rapidly.

-Yes i did, we need butcher to get out of this shit hole espèce de bâtard. (You bastard)

Hughie gets aggressive with frenchie but butcher stops him easily before anything bad happens.

Butcher walks up to hughie and after a quick pep talk with him, hughie calms down a bit.

-But don't you worry, daddy's home. Butcher says, looking around before making eye contact with me.

That smile will always make my heart skip a beat.

But i realise soon enough that his chest is bleeding alot. His coat is barely covering the scarlet circle on his aloha shirt.

Time skip (Few hours)

After the boys and I finished creating a plan, we decided to take the evening to relax before leaving tomorrow. Everyone's watching tv except for hughie who's probably crying in his room (aka one of the closet 💀). Butcher's sitting at the dining table while im making him something to eat.

-Did you need anything else? I ask him, placing his plate on the table.

-No no you've already done enough.

-Butcher. I look at him with a serious face.

-What? He says, mouth full of cheap mac and cheese.

-I know you're bleeding, i saw it through your shirt.

-It's ok. Don't worry 'bout that.

I glance at him but do not insist.

After a couple hours, everyone went to sleep except for butcher, i was still awake and i couldn't sleep knowing he was probably in awful pain right now. This motherfuker was so god damn stubborn.

That's why i got up and brought the med kit with me to the dining room where billy was.

The gentle moonlight was the only source of light in the room. I could only see his lonely silhouette sat on the chair. I clear my throat.

-Butcher, please let me at least put you a bandage, you lost alot of blood. You ask quietly.

-I told you i didn't needed one. Go back to sleep.

That man will be the death of me.

I walk in front of him, admiring his face.

-I won't go to sleep until i know you are patched up.

He stands up slowly and looks at me dead in the eyes. I can see his eyebrows frowning.

-I ain't gon' tell you twice, go. To. Sleep. He says, putting his hands in his pockets.

I feel so annoying but i need to know he will be fine.

-Billy, i swear to god let me patch you up real quick and then i'll go to-

-Listen, i fucking told you to leave, now get outta my face before i make you.

I glance at him angrily and try to lift his shirt. Before i reach the hem of it he takes my hand and slam it on the table, holding it on the surface. I look at him with shock.

-Billy, Im just trying to help yo-

-You aren't helping me right now you're just annoying.

This bitch was getting on my fucking nerves, but i needed to take care of him. I already lost so much people, i cannot lose him.

-Come on billy let me do this i don't want you to be in pain i love yo-

My eyes widen and i put my free hand on my mouth before saying another word.

He glances at me with a small shocked look on his face and he slowly let go of my hand.

-What did you say? He looks at me tenderly.

Something's not right, why isn't he making fun of me ?

Anxiety took over my body as my legs became weak. I couldn't stop looking at his face.

Why would did i say that ? He doesn't like me, he just said i was annoying. I finally turn my head to the side, breaking eye contact.

-Hey, look at me.

I looked at him slowly and realised he was smiling seductively.

I couldn't believe my eyes, he was so god damn beautiful. Someone give me a fucking medal.

-You serious ? He asks, looking at my lips.

Mental note : Change underwear cause the one im wearing are soaked.

I get taken back by his reaction, but since i said it, let's go with it. After all it's the truth.

-Yes, yes i am.

My cheeks must be so red right now.

He looks at me with puppy eyes and i can almost hear his heart beating.

-I swear if it's one of your jokes i will kill you with my bare hands right now.

I start playing with the hem of my vest.

-I love you william.

Billy puts his hand on my cheek and gives me a soft smile.

-You really do ? He asks.

-I always loved you.

He starts to kiss me slowly at first, almost like he's scared to hurt me, but when he sees that im enjoying it, he puts his hands around my waist and presses me against his chest. He picks me up and put my legs around his hips, sitting me on the counter. I laughs a bit and he takes the opportunity to slip his tongue into my mouth, deepening the kiss. I moan into the kiss as he caress my thigh with his hand.

Billy picks me up again, brings me to his bedroom, and throws me on the small bed before removing his coat. He goes on top of me and starts kissing my neck agressively.

-I dreamed about this so often, sweet girl.

-You did ?

Just the thought of him dreaming about me made me wetter. How will i survive this.

-Since the firs' time i saw you.

He kisses my earlobe and lift my shirt before pressing soft kisses on my lower belly.

-Let me take care of you, love.

He looks at me with that iconic smile before unbuttoning my pants, lowering his kisses until he reaches my soaked panties.

-Looks like you dreamed about this too huh?

-Show me how much you wanted this, Butcher.

He puts my panties to the side before pressing small kisses on my slit. My body aches for his touch, i must be dreaming, because this is impossible. Having the butcher, William butcher, on his knees, ready for me, sounds so impossible.

He finally buries his face in my cunt and it takes me so much control not to be loud. His hands hold my thighs around his face while he sucks on my clit, making me already feel that familiar feeling i missed so much.

-So beautiful.. he mumbles under his breath.

I moan his name and put my hand on his head, guiding where i want him, where im aching.

He stands up, leaving my unsatified cunt and he unbuckles his belt, lowering his pants until i see his cock, already leaking a bead of precum. He is huge. I shouldn't act suprised, but his size doesn't fail to hypnotise me..

-Eyes up here beautiful. He says, now unbuttoning his shirt, revealing his strong chest and arms.

I see the wound he had on the side of his chest and i get up, thanking the universe he has a med kit in his room.

-Now, you shut up and let me patch you up or i swear i will-

-Calm down, pretty girl, go ahead, patch me up. He says, sitting on the edge of the bed.

I smile at him before sitting beside him.

I start to clean the wound but his finger start to draw small circles around my clit, making it more difficult for me to heal him.

I moan his name, trying my best to stay focused but he picks me up and sits me on his lap, not so far from his cock.

After a couple minutes, i finally close the med kit and hum at the kisses he gives me.

-Finally.

He lies down on the bed carefully not to ruin the bandage he has on. He lift me up and lines my heat with his cock.

-You ready for this, love ? He looks at me with a beautiful smile.

-Yes, please william make me feel good.

He pushes me down his groin, and i can't stay quiet. He puts his hand on my mouth, keeping me quiet while he puts his tongue on my breast, teasing me.

I try and grind down on him, but he is holding me down with his free hand.

-Please william.

-So desperate and needy huh?

He let out a small laughs before slamming into me again, making me cry out.

He gives me time to adjust to him before slamming back into me faster and rougher.

The sounds of our soft moans and skin collapsing together filled the room. My moans became more and more loud when he circled my clit with his finger until my orgasm exploded.

-Im im about to-. I stutter.

-I know i know don't you worry, go ahead, beautiful.

I let out the most sinful sounds ever known to mankind while William kept fucking me harder and harder, admiring me.

-You are dangerous. He says, smiling at me.

His groans started to fill the room and he started going even faster than before until he came inside of me, holding my hair and kissing my neck until he rode it off.

We eventually laid down, cuddling together. We didn't need to talk, we just enjoyed the moment. We fell asleep in each others arms, happily.

I woke up the next morning, next to him. It was still pretty early so i could stay by his side before leaving. After a couple minutes. He finally woke up.

-Well hello, butcher.

I could tell he forgot i was with him for quite a couple seconds, but when he remembered last night, a smirk appeared on his face.

-Hi pretty girl.

I put my head on his chest.

-Can i ask you a question, william.

-Sure, wha's up.

-Why didn't you want me to patch your wound.

He hesitated for a second, but glanced at me with a smile.

-I hate showing people that i'm weak. Since all that compound V shit, i've gotten some pretty bad injuries and i can't show that im hurt in this world.

-I understand, but you are strong butcher, stronger than alot of people.

-Thank you love.

HERE IT IS FINISHED.

#theboys #theboysamazon #amazonprime #smut #williambutcher #karlurban #billybutcher #butcher #smutbillybutcher #smutkarlurban #compoundV #prime #homlander #praisekink #petnames #names #noyn #hughie #hughcampbell #frenchie #MM #Theboyskarlurban #Theboyskimiko

#the boys #the boys amazon #the boys prime #billy butcher #karl urban #william butcher #the butcher #smut #compound

[whattheduckisupkyle]

So, I'm taking a new med and it makes me dream in a really "realistic" way. This night I've dreamed that I was a color and I went to a color world and made color friends, and had to fought my color dad I don't remember why but it came alright and I named my friend the líder of the colors and I went to live in the normal world but I promised to visit????????

ITS A WHOLE FUCKING MOVIE BUT MY BRAIN CREATED IT IM SO CONFUSED BUT HAPPY AND CONFUSED KSHSJXBSJSB

hope you don't think I'm weird and stop following me LMFAO

[manie-sans-delire-x]

I am incredibly parasocial for you and tonight my obsession is especially unbearable so… how have you been? Has life been slightly more fun lately?

Hahaha! Love that for you.

A little bit. Ive been more social lately, been going out more, talking to more people online too. I have a guy in mind that I want. Also have been drawing and writing. My new meds have been really helping, although Ive stopped taking them again for a few days now so Im expecting a crash soon. Idk if thats why but my hand is shaking and I feel weird today. Something reminded me of my sa a few days ago so I started throwing shit, so that was fun. Still looking for a therapist, process is taking forever ugh. This dumbass rapist on reddit has been asking me for legal advice and Im recording everything he confesses.

Soo yeah, lifes been interesting lmfao.

Tell me about your life!

#asks

[bright-and-burning]

im sorry, you are 22 and were already a phd candidate??

LOL this got long sorry!!! u get my evil academic origin story anon congrats

yeah! i wanted to be a professor for a while (like, most of high school, and then my freshman year of college i became disillusioned abt my original field choice but by junior year i had stumbled into a new field i was passionate abt and decided teaching was the dream again) so in my senior year of college i applied to a bunch of cs phd programs

idk how other fields/countries work but basically like if you apply and you dont have a masters already it just takes longer (5 years on average instead of ~4 or something)! and a lot of the programs i applied to preferred that you didnt have a masters already. so it's less impressive maybe than it sounds on paper?

i also wanna say i was one of three ppl from my friend group going straight into phds after graduating (not even counting my med school hopeful friends. or regular masters friends) so i also feel like it's not that uncommon?? maybe covid made it more common. i also went to a like ~high end~ research uni full of nerds. and was in with the nerd athletes (distance runners) so im like biased

i spent the fall semester of senior year applying to grad school, and the spring semester getting my heart broken by grad school decisions LOL

i got into one program but it was literally like. top 5 in the country for what i wanted to do. so i accepted, bc i made my undergrad decision based on prestige and that worked out like absurdly well for me lol. and then i had a mental breakdown the weekend of graduation and realized i didnt want to grind out a phd in a field that doesnt treat ppl like me (queer women w learning disabilities from lower class backgrounds... lmfao....) kindly for like no money in the middle of nowhere far from anyone i know + love when i could (in theory) get a well-paying job (or at least more survivable than 30k/year) and find satisfaction and a sense of accomplishment from things like. spending time with my friends. traveling. having money for my hobbies. etc etc.

so i dropped out like right on the deadline for signing up for classes/seminar/research groups. and then they kept me on the email list anyways so i was tormented for a few months by what couldve been which was Great for feeling secure in this life changing choice i made more or less on an emotional whim that deviated from a life plan i had had since i was 15

and then i spent 6 months unemployed bc the tech world is imploding . LOL . but i have a job offer now for something that's really meaningful to me that'll allow me to use my skills to help people AND it'll pay me more than double what my phd stipend was. so alls well that ends well or something

#if anyone ever wants to chat comp sci. or making strange illogical decisions abt their life and academia. hit me up <3 #this is kind of a long post sorry but i felt like i needed to make it clear that it's not like. #idk to me it's just a fact and like a kind of waste of time and energy and a Lot of emotional turmoil that i spent figuring out my life #essentially aimlessly but desperately grasping onto any path that made sense #rather than anything impressive if that makes sense #like i enrolled in a phd program. was 'sponsored' so to speak by a prof. had a placement in a lab. had funding and everything. #but then had a mental breakdown. and dropped out before even moving there (thank god) #ask

[tonberry-yoda]

hello may I request a romantic matchup for final fantasy vii?

my pronouns are they/them and I don't have a preference for the gender of my match^^

my mbti is intp. I'm a very shy and reserved person in public, I try not to cause too much attention but also express myself openly. I suffer from anxiety ( I don't take meds or anything so I'm usually on edge) and overthink about people/other things. If you get to know me, im a huge extrovert and cheerful person. I love making jokes and laughing <3 I'm airheaded and clumsy. I'm a very random person too, more eccentric for sure. I do the most offwall things because I'm bored ( like jumping off things or asking off-putting questions). I love talking! About anything I'm hyperfixated on atm ( as in old interests or new ones!) and I can go on for hours . I'm pretty childish, but mature and mother like when I need to be. I love physical affection (even tho I say I hate it) anything like hugs is nice for me! I'm a caring person and mostly a listener. Very sassy (which people say it's "cute" from me) and sarcastic, with a whole lot of blunt. I'm a flirt too, but anything flirty from someone else gets me shy. I get very bad mood swings and it is causing trouble for me to make friends or keep them, since I'll just isolate myself from them- I also have insecurities regarding my looks (particularly my body) so I get v sour when I think about that. Alot of the times you can tell when I'm in a mood bc I get quiet. Anyway I'm a lazy, procrastinater and plainn lmao.

I love playing the piano, anime/manga, true crime (i rlly wanna be a forensic scientist), horror/gore, sanrio, videogames (i'm ur classic gamer, mt dew and doritios), oversized clothings

I dislike insects, hot weather, exercise, any bright neon colors,crowds/parties, people telling me what to do , injustice , and mornings

my music taste consists of everything (exepct country or rap music) so like Deftones,Slipknot,Korn,Ethel cain, lana del ray, HIM, tyler the creator, any vocaloid or anime songs (specially nightcore) or i love video game music

as for my fashion i dress very alternative (ihaveaseptum), kind of like a pinterest board but mostly black or like chainsaw man (power style lol). I'm a big metal head so band t'shirts or recently scene emo is my favorite

hi there! you are my first person to request from any final fantasy games and I am so over the moon about it!! i didnt know how many people actually enjoyed the series on here or wanted writing from it so thank you!!! <333 i have the perfect character for you!

the character I chose for you is...

AERITH!!!

now consider

your more dark style contrasted with her more bright style

i think it'll work beautifully

she helps calm your anxiety and truly does love you

she laughs at all your jokes and will definitely bring out that cheerier side of you when she's around

she will answer all of your weird questions honestly and surprise you by asking one too lmaooo

she will listen to you talk for hours

loves to hear what you're passionate about

you and her are both very similar by being childish and mature at the same time and you both annoy Cloud because of it lmfaoooo

you'll flirt with each other, but get flustered when it's the other person's turn lmfao

play the piano for her

she loves the piano

supports you in your dream to become a forensic scientist, thinks it's amazing that you want to do that

she will sit on your lap and hug you while you play videogames

is a literal sanrio character, so you're all good (she will buy you hello kitty merch tho frrr)

you and her both beg Cloud to be the one to kill any bug in the house lmfaooooo

lots of cuddling and just being by each other's side in your perfect little contrast :)

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@tonberry-yoda

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[xwendigox]

Wendigo Mews + Updates

Okay yall,

First of all; sorry for my absence. Just got hired for an amazing new job. Ill no longer be a broke mf lmfao. So as you can imagine the past few weeks have been crazy prepping and getting in my paperwork for said new job.

Two; mental health kinda took scary dip. Im okay. I promise. Doing better now. Ive had an appointment with my doctor and all, so im getting the care I need. Just waiting for the new meds and shit. Considering going back to therapy. My CPTSD keeps getting triggered and causing a whole ass chain reaction which physically and mentally exhausts me in the end.

Three; due to the two things listed above, ive been tired and unable to have time to write, and the times that I did have time I would suffer writers block.

Four; Im back and ready to go again. Just finished the new COD MW2 game and OMG so many thoughts yall. Thanks for being patient yall

Also where the fuck did some of yall come from. Literally have been gone and only been reblogging shit for like two weeks or so and I swear to god every time I hope on I have 25+ notifications from you guys reblogging or liking my shit. Its not a bad thing but like damnnnn my page exploded 😂 love yall tho

Edit: LMFAO I put MEWS instead of NEWS im rollin

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