#im posting this now i dont care that it's 11:30

[ghostlycorgi]

just let me watch ouran high school host club in peace

WARNING FOR MENTIONS OF FICTIONAL MISOGYNY AND SEXUAL ASSAULT (and ouran host club 8 + 9 spoilers)

(summary of episode 8’s scenes and plotpoints im talking about, from the wiki)

Scene skip to Haruhi looking for shellfish below a cliff with Honey when several girls on top of a cliff ask her to join them. While Haruhi tells them to be careful, two thugs turn up and begin terrorizing the girls. Haruhi joins them and confronts the thugs who pick her up and throw her into the sea. Tamaki and the twins arrive, having been alerted that Haruhi is in danger. She’s rescued by Tamaki who, once back on shore, scolds her for being reckless in taking on two boys as a lone girl. Haruhi claims she only did what was right, leading to a heated argument.

Haruhi expresses her limited understanding of the danger she and the other girls were in earlier in the day. Kyoya considers this before walking towards her, telling her what her behavior cost the club in terms of money. He dims the lights and suggests that she pay off the debt with her body before pulling her onto his bed. While kneeling over her, he chastises her for being naive about men and bluntly tells her that she is powerless against such an assault. Haruhi remains calm, saying she knows Kyoya won’t harm her because it would gain him nothing and that he’s only “playing the villain.” He lets her up, impressed by her insight into his motives.

Me talking lmao

as you can probably tell i just watched the 8th episode of ouran host club and i’m….. very conflicted. tamaki and kyoka are some of my favourite characters, and i know that after the incident at the beach tamaki is concerned for haruhi and criticises her because of the fact that she could have called for help, he really drives home the whole youre a girl!!11!! thing and it makes me uncomfortable

and now the kyoka scene… oh boy. i know he’s trying to prove a point about what could have happened if she wasn’t careful, but as to go that far? i felt sick to my stomach.

it doesnt help that the next episode tamaki is literally homophobic and tells the lesbian characters something along the lines of “women should'nt be in love with women! thats why god made adam and eve!!” i was in shock. also the lesbians are displayed as so violently feminist that they compare them to….a certain german party from the 30’s. in later episodes they include an openly bisexual drag queen as haruhis dad???? BUT THEY CALL HIM A SLUR???

i’m not sure what to think :( i’s really hard to enjoy the show now but i really like some of the parts and think theyre admittedly kinda cute,,,,but like i cant look at it the same. This whole post isnt an attack on the series, and like i said they do have some diversity with their cast and having a more masculine and independent female character as a protagonist is more inclusive than alot of shows in 2006!

i’m tempted to write a ohshc fanfic sort of making the characters grow and become better or just……. rewrite the whole 8th episode, because it’s short enough and the show has this sort of routine with it’s plots thus far

anyways! please share your thoughts with me if you see this~~!! sorry the section on my writing is so short :( it’s mostly to vent my frustrations, and please dont take this as a sort of intelligent and intuitive take on ohshc,,,,,,,,,cause it isnt lol. bye!

PS - i still like kyoya.......just please i want to ignore this episode

#ohshc #ouran host club #ouran high school host club #ohshc episode 8 #kyoya #ohshc kyoya #ohshc tamaki #tamaki suoh #text post #fandom

[thatforgottenbasilisk]

the unofficial adventures of the unofficial archive group chat

Chapter 1 (AO3)

Originally posted on 1/22/2024

Summary:

TIM TAM TOM: martin you do not owe him an apology

TIM TAM TOM: i think you promoted yourself to his best friend actually

sash (❁´◡`❁): He's going to be asking you out any day now

TIM TAM TOM: married within the year

sash (❁´◡`❁): However I wouldn't bring up spiders again with him he's got the 'intense arachnophobia' note on his employee file

mahtin: He showed you his file?

sash (❁´◡`❁): No

mahtin: Oh

OFFICIAL archive discord

#general

hibitchcus flower just slid into the server.

hibitchcus flower just changed their nickname to TIM TAM TOM

Turbo nerd as in the movie joined the party.

TIM TAM TOM just changed Turbo nerd as in the movie's nickname to sash (❁´◡`❁)

sash (❁´◡`❁): Acceptable only because of the kaomoji

Good to see you, Blackwood, Martin

TIM TAM TOM: ugh god marto please tell me you just made that account 5 minutes ago

Blackwood, Martin: I'm sorry I've literally never heard of Discord!!

sash (❁´◡`❁): Give him a break he probably thought it was an official work thing

sash (❁´◡`❁): Directly affiliated with the Magnus Institute, London

TIM TAM TOM: please sash no jon references this early in the morning

Blackwood, Martin: It's 11:30?

TIM TAM TOM: if it's the AM it's too early in the morning

sash (❁´◡`❁): You voluntarily wake up at six, don't act like you're one of us

Blackwood, Martin: You're a morning person?

sash (❁´◡`❁): He goes to bed no later than 10 pm except for on special occasions

TIM TAM TOM: why would you call me out like this

TIM TAM TOM: im wounded

Blackwood, Martin: You should be

sash (❁´◡`❁): You should be

TIM TAM TOM: youre ganging up on me already i see how it is

TIM TAM TOM: also your name is giving me hives

TIM TAM TOM just changed Blackwood, Martin's nickname to MARTY PARTY

MARTY PARTY: Now I'm getting hives

sash (❁´◡`❁): You can change it in the top left corner

MARTY PARTY: Thank you!!

MARTY PARTY just changed their nickname to mahtin

mahtin: There, more acceptable

TIM TAM TOM: what did i JUST say about jon references

mahtin: You don't pronounce the 'r' in my name either? Nobody does? This is London?

TIM TAM TOM: yeah but jon is the most intense about it

sash (❁´◡`❁): MAHTIN YOU FORMATTED THIS INCORRECTLY!! JAIL FOR A THOUSAND YEARS!!

TIM TAM TOM: MAHTIN THE STANDARD WAY THAT WE FORMAT THINGS HERE HAS TWELVE-POINT FONT, NOT ELEVEN!

sash (❁´◡`❁): MAHTIN I DO NOT CARE IF YOU HAVENT DONE A REPORT LIKE THIS SINCE YOUR MASTER'S THAT YOU GOT TEN YEARS AGO! I'M GOING TO BE A BITCH ABOUT IT ANYWAY!

TIM TAM TOM: MAHTIN!

sash (❁´◡`❁): MAHTIN!

mahtin: I mean, to be fair, I truly haven't got a clue on how to do half these reports and follow-ups

mahtin: It's been too long since I've done anything outside of, you know, Library Things

mahtin: I don't blame him for being frustrated sometimes

TIM TAM TOM: once you get used to it its not hard at all

TIM TAM TOM: esp since you did it in uni all u gotta do is dust off them memoreez

sash (❁´◡`❁): Jon is unecessarily dramatic and mean about it though

TIM TAM TOM: ^^

sash (❁´◡`❁): He's like that with most things, though, so it's fine

sash (❁´◡`❁): He doesn't mean anything personal by it

TIM TAM TOM: we only bully him a little bit for it

mahtin: ah

sash (❁´◡`❁): ... 'ah?'

TIM TAM TOM: ??

mahtin: I see

mahtin: I may owe him an apology?

sash (❁´◡`❁): You what

TIM TAM TOM: im torn

TIM TAM TOM: on the one hand hell yeah lets go marto my man

TIM TAM TOM: on the other hand jon? is he okay? did you actually hurt his feelings ? the only reason hes not in the discord is bc hes fucking insufferable rn and also bc electronics dont like him-

mahtin: I could tell you what I did? To make you not torn?

TIM TAM TOM: no

mahtin: Well I'm going to say it anyway to determine if an apology is in order

sash (❁´◡`❁): Yes go ahead don't let Tim convince you otherwise

mahtin: Well

mahtin: I may have started a bit of a fight with him?

mahtin: Might have implied that he didn't pay attention in Uni?

mahtin: I was completely pulling it out of my arse but I was tired of being corrected on a bunch of little things like I'm SORRY it's been over TEN YEARS since I did ANY education

mahtin: So I dug in my heels on some inane little thing and now it's kind of. On sight

mahtin: This has been going on for a few days now? I'm surprised nobody picked up on it honestly

mahtin: I mean who has an argument about spiders? Even most arachnophobes agree that the jumping ones are cute! They're small and fuzzy what's not to love!

TIM TAM TOM: martin you do not owe him an apology

TIM TAM TOM: i think you promoted yourself to his best friend actually

sash (❁´◡`❁): He's going to be asking you out any day now

TIM TAM TOM: married within the year

sash (❁´◡`❁): However I wouldn't bring up spiders again with him he's got the 'intense arachnophobia' note on his employee file

mahtin: He showed you his file?

sash (❁´◡`❁): No

mahtin: Oh

TIM TAM TOM: if sash says dont bring something up w someone it means she hacked into somewhere she shouldnt and saw things nobody wanted her to see

TIM TAM TOM: she does that with everyone btw

sash (❁´◡`❁): It's easier to just look at the 'phobia' part than dance around like "hey, most people at the Fear Research Institute are absolutely fucking terrified of something, which club are you in? what should I not talk about with you?"

sash (❁´◡`❁): It's EFFICIENT and not personal information in the FEAR RESEARCH INSTITUTE it's basically an icebreaker question in Artifact Storage

sash (❁´◡`❁): For example

sash (❁´◡`❁): No clowns or mannequins with Tim

TIM TAM TOM: or creepy dolls

sash (❁´◡`❁): Or creepy dolls

sash (❁´◡`❁): I'm fine with pretty much anything in all honesty but I'll let you know if that changes

mahtin: Does my file say anything? I don't remember what I said my fear was

sash (❁´◡`❁): Yours was something existential like 'loneliness' or something like that

sash (❁´◡`❁): I don't tend to get that deep with my coworkers so if it's not going to come up in conversation I don't put in as much effort to remember it

mahtin: ... Interesting

mahtin: I don't remember what I said my fear was but I'm fairly certain it was something concrete

mahtin: Might've been snakes? I used to be scared of snakes for a while

mahtin: Then I got a part time job at a pet store for some extra money and their snakes were cool so no more of that

mahtin: But I was only asked the fear question once? During my interview?

sash (❁´◡`❁): ... Weird

TIM TAM TOM: ... indeed

#tma #tma fic #my writing #the unofficial adventures of the unofficial archive group chat #the unofficial adventures of the unofficial archive group chat fic

[dracudyke]

1, 11, and 16 for newt + 15, 22, 23, and 27 for vince + 30, 31, and 34 for jamie (sorry if this is too many i just see u tag stuff as them a lot and im v curious abt them! u dont have to do them all if ur not up for it)

TY HEHE there's no need to apologize i absolutely LOVE talking about my ocs ^_^

Newt:

1: What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do? A long, long time. Newt spent most of her life alone in a swamp so she's used to a lot of downtime.

11: How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)? She mostly just stays quiet and hopes/assumes another party member understands. Either that or she'll ask for clarification (usually this is for when i, as her player, is also confused KJFDSS)

16: What makes their stomach turn? Losing or letting her friends down. The thought that something is happening that she doesn't understand [this is currently happening in the campaign shes in lol]. Worrying that her god will abandon her and she won't have the magic she needs to protect her friends anymore.

Vince:

15: How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first? She usually says what's on her mind unless she feels like its Personal or Compromising. She makes an effort to put off a confident, snarky, mysterious vibe but is pretty guarded when it comes to her own feelings.

22: How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)? Badly. Especially early on in the story, he can act pretty impulsively when he feels jealous or threatened and can end up hurting someone either by lashing out verbally or physically injuring or even killing someone. He gets a LOT better at this later though. He's still got issues but he's working on it :)

23: How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)? Similar to prev. It starts out as a villain in the story before it gets redeemed. It takes what it wants without any consideration for the people it hurts in the beginning and it does deal with a lot of resentment in its plot arc. but it gets better at dealing with that and its own emotions. eventually.

27: What causes them to feel dread? Her sire (she's a vamp, her sire is Awful and the main reason she is Like That in the beginning) and the thought of having to feel the guilt over the bad things shes done. It takes her a While to be able to let those emotions back in bc she dreads having to feel the remorse. She also has a lot of dread around losing people she cares about.

Jamie:

30: Who do they most regret meeting? GOD THIS IS A HARD ONE. He has a professor that kinda kicks the whole story off by introducing him to the supernatural world. Even though they are a big mentor figure to Jamie, i think he really regrets meeting them sometimes because it completely changed the trajectory of his life. He is now in infinitely more danger and has horrible, painful visions that drive the story. It's not what he expected his life to be like.

31: Who are they the most glad to have met? Yknow what it may be the same person. He has very complicated feelings about the prof. Otherwise probably Marcos :-) They're a really good friend to him and have stuck with him through it all. Also much later the answer might be Vince! She's kinda the worst to start with but post-redemption they eventually get together and vince eventually kinda becomes a weird wife guy :-) they love each other <3

34: How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? Very, very difficult. He blames himeself for a lot of things, even things that are definitely not his fault. Somebody needs to get this guy a therapist.

If you wanna learn more about my Bite Club ocs and their story u can find my masterpost about them here!! I'd love to answer any more questions u have about them or just talk about them in general :3

You can also find out more about Newt here!

#shouts #THANK U #long post #newt #bite club #vince #jamie #PS: there's also lots of art of them all in both links!!!

[perenlop]

ok now that a day has passed i can post this without feeling mean now that he’s out of the anime and people were emotional abt it (including me dont get me wrong)

the pokemon finale felt.... so underwhelming. the team rocket thing happened for no real reason and that’s probably my second biggest gripe. let’s ruin their finale centric episode with a 30 second ooc argument, have a tiny moment in the next episode, and then have them make up in two seconds in the final episode after just going “yeah without each other theyre chefs or something who cares”. yeah its not like its the finale to these characters being mainstays after over 25 years or anything. its whatever

and then my second thing is like. really? we aren’t changing the status quo in the slightest? this is just another “oh ash comes home but decides he wants more” finale? i mean, i guess it’s in character for ash to be restless and unsatisfied even with where he is, and in my nextgen in my head he was always a guy who just kept traveling well into his adulthood helping people around the world. but the way he talks about being WORLD CHAMPION just felt... weird. like yes, he’s going to think that there’s more for him out there, but it just felt strange that this miniseries started with him going “wow i wanna see whats out there!” then he goes home, says goodbye to misty and brock, hangs out, and then goes “... wow i wanna see whats out there!” it’s like. nothing changed at all really? and it feels so weird because this is supposed to be the FINALE to his journey, we aren’t going to see his next adventure, and its weird he’s talking about this the same kind of way he talked in the other finales. 

and like again, it’s in character for him, i’m not saying it isn’t, but it’s just weird considering this episode also doesn’t feel like a multi season arc finale. nothing changes. like, pidgeot rejoins ash i guess... not like we’re gonna see any of what comes of that... he sees gary again... he got new shoes.... annnd nothing else. i was at least hoping for something with team rocket changing? like maybe the series ends because they realize that they’re unhappy in team rocket, and nothing has changed for them despite everything, so they give up on pikachu and finally open the restaurant of their dreams. sure, it wouldn’t be an end regarding the main character, but it’d be... something? and it’s not like people weren’t rooting for them to quit team rocket and be happy considering that’s something the show has set up numerous times. idk i feel like something should have happened in that episode to mark an end of an era rather than “yeah it’s an ending but like they’re still doing the exact same thing they’ve been doing after a break”, like, idk, ash turning 11 (which i KNOW would have become a meme but like it’d be something!)

im very cynical i’ll admit that, but this really just felt like a business decision where they HAD to keep the door open just in case horizons flops and people complain that they want ash back, and they can go “hey ash is in the gen x region!!”

#echoed voice #sorry for being a hater towards funny pokemon show but. hrm. youd think w an 11 episode miniseries #that SOMETHING would have changed by the end?

[brainlessrot]

✩ Toby's 1k special ✩

First and before anything THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR THE SUPPORT???? ILY GUYS AND APPRECIATE YOU ALL (sometimes i go thru my follower list and randomly chose one for an inspection, aka, i stalk you guys /hj)

and as a thank you for you all, here is a FAST REQUEST EVENT!!!!

☰ for the request event the rules are easy

only one prompt per request/ask (you can chose multiple, but make different asks for each)

only one character per request (or in some friendship request up to a duo)

please specify if you want it to be platonic or romantic

you can repeat prompts!

the event will officially end on the 115th of august, 7 days from now on!

The requests will be around 500 words, pretty short, but i will try to post the requests the same day they were asked!

❐ Example ask:

"Hello!! could i get number 03 (platonic) for the character _____? thank you!"

Now, to the prompts!

01 -- "wanna get married?" they ask their s/o to marry them

02 -- "i saw that, you just checked me out" one catches the other checking them out

03 -- "you are my pillow now" using the other to sleep on

04 -- "i think i love you" or! first time saying i love you to each other

05 -- "i had to move on, but no one is like you"

06 -- "i know you kissed me 20 times now, but just another one!"

07 -- "is that... my shirt?"

08 -- "youre so cute when youre so grumpy" or! s/o teases them because they didn't sleep much

09 -- "where is my daily kiss?" or! just as their s/o was about to leave, they ask for a kiss

10 -- "stop hogging all the blankets!" or! they wake up to their s/o using all the blankets

11 -- "this is why i fell in love with you"

12 -- "shh, youre safe now, I've got you, we're together" or! they wake up from a nightmare and their s/o conforts them

13 -- "no, im not letting go, its too early" they refuse to let their s/o out of bed

14 -- "we'd make quite a cute couple" or! friends joking about dating, but theyre not really joking

15 -- one falls asleep on their s/o, and they really need to get up, but dont want to wake them up

16 -- taking care of their sick s/o

17 -- they love the taste of their s/o lipstick/lipbalm, and keep stealing kisses

18 -- their s/o being insecure about something or just tired and they cuddle and give them kisses to make them feel better

19 -- they go to a roller coaster together, but their s/o regrets it and clings to them for dear life

20 -- their s/o helping with the small things (brushing their hair, buttoning their shirt, putting on jewelry) as an excuse to be close

21 --they love it when their s/o plays with their hair

22 -- how do they kiss?

23 -- how do they show love?

24 -- how do their hugs feel?

+ some mainly platonic ones! (that could also be romantic)

25 -- "should we get a pet? we can get shared custody" or! two friends adopt a pet together

26 -- "SLEEPOVER!!!" just friends having a fun sleepover

27 -- "we are just like siblings! i hate you. see? siblings!" friends being dumb together

28 -- "i need help... its 3am. please? fine." or! they call their friend at 3am, thinking they wont pick up, but they do

29 -- "excuse me? they asked for NO pickles"

30 -- making a pillow fort together

31 -- they hide in the closet to scare their friend, but that friend doesn't get close enough to the closet

32 -- they understand eachother without talking

33 -- watching scary movies together

34 -- playing in the snow

35 -- how do they show love?

36 -- how do their hugs feel?"

#disney twisted #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #disney twst

[unsaid-stardust]

I posted 650 times in 2022

88 posts created (14%)

562 posts reblogged (86%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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I tagged 390 of my posts in 2022

Only 40% of my posts had no tags

#hsmtmts - 24 posts

#ms marvel - 23 posts

#music tag - 22 posts

#stranger things spoilers - 22 posts

#hsmtmts spoilers - 18 posts

#aboutme - 15 posts

#julie and the phantoms - 13 posts

#5sos - 12 posts

#jatp - 11 posts

#ghost files - 10 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#i spent half the movie giving him and the principal the finger so like is i think this movie succeeded in what it was trying to do slkajdfh

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

listen I will never be over the fact that not only did we get an actual favorite song for max, but Lucas KNEW her favorite song. no one else. It was Lucas that sifted through the mixtapes and found it.

133 notes - Posted May 30, 2022

#4

I FUCKING FORGOT HOW MONUMENTAL "WELCOME HOME" WAS JESUS CHRIST HERE IS JYN SOMEONE WHO'S BEEN ABANDONED HER WHOLE LIFE HAVING TO FIGURE OUT EVERYTHING ON HER OWN AND THEN SUDDENLY HERE'S CASSIAN WHO'S LIKE "I DON'T NEED PROOF I BELIEVE YOU" CASSIAN WHO BECAME A PARTNER IN LITERAL CRIME CASSIAN WHO IMMEDIATLEY STARTS PROTECTING HER BC "THE REBELLION" NO BC OF SOMETHING ELSE AND HAS SILENT CONVERSATIONS WITH HER ON THE FIELD AND THEN SHE SAYS "IM NOT USED TO PEOPLE STICKING AROUND WHEN THINGS GO BAD" AND WHAT DOES CASSIAN FUCKING SAY???

"WELCOME HOME"

HE TAKES THE LEAP THE GIANT LEAP AND SAYS WELCOME HOME TO A GIRL WHO HASN'T HAD A HOME IN SO FUCKING LONG GODDAMMIT AND NOT TO MENTION THE GRAVITATING ???? THE CIRCLING AROUND EACH OTHER AS THEY SAY IT FUCK I MISS THESE TWO THEY MAKE ME ABSOLUTELY FERAL CAN YOU TELL IM SCREAMING

160 notes - Posted March 23, 2022

#3

the debate episode of community will forever make me feral. Jeff literally does not care about the debate at all (so he says) but he strives to make it super apparent that he's only doing it for a parking space. but then Jeremy teases at Annie, calling her by her insecurity, and suddenly Jeff is like "ABSOLUTELY NOT I NOW CARE ABOUT THIS BC YOU CAN'T TALK TO HER LIKE THAT".

LIKE HUH HOW DID THOSE TWO NOT END UP TOGETHER I DONT GET IT

172 notes - Posted April 14, 2022

#2

how come I see absolutely no one talking about the "...and yet I still hold your arm" line bc that line fucking MURDERED me

371 notes - Posted November 6, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Kenny was so right to start the show with “now or never” i literally remember sitting there so impressed like “THIS IS A KIDS SHOW?!?!”

482 notes - Posted May 22, 2022

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[sleevesareforlosers]

happy solstice jordan!! one thing i’m looking forward to for the new year that i’m also kind of terrified about is graduating and finally being done with school! i’m anxious about finding work but i think once i’ve got everything smoothed out and in place i’ll be really happy post-grad!

something i’m bringing forward from this year is the work i’ve put into my art, i really want to keep experimenting and pushing myself and not just letting myself get into a rut. i’ve been experiencing a lot of self-doubt this year with my art especially but i’m proud of the way i’ve been managing my time and the challenges i’ve faced so i want to bring that energy with me into 2023 :}

the weather here has been clear and sunny but pretty cold the last few days! right now it’s like 11 pm and it’s about 30 degrees F outside, so that’s like. -1C? during the day it’s more like 35-40 F. i don’t really care much for the cold so i comment on it every time i go outside BUT it’s still nice and it’s given me a chance to wear my new winter coat which is a very cute puffer jacket!

if i could be anywhere right now i think i would still pick to be home :) one of the things i’m most nervous about with moving out on my own is not being in my home where i’m comfortable and have all my stuff with me the way i like it but mostly about not being around my family so i’m enjoying spending as much time as possible living at home during the breaks and being around pretzel and my parents and siblings. also once i move my friends who live around here aren’t going to be as readily available though others will be so there’s that as well 🤔

definitely i am a serial rewatcher/listener/reader! i like the things i’m comfy with and it’s hard for me to go outside of my comfort zone and experience new things with media especially. i reread a lot of books and i rewatch youtube videos and movies and music. especially shows, i really don’t watch a lot of tv, and when i do watch tv i have a tendency to put on old shows that i’m comfortable with. i make exceptions for star wars shows but that’s it and aside from the mandalorian and andor sw has been very disappointing lately so that’s been tough. i think the one thing that may be an exception is music! while i like relistening to all my favorite bands over and over and over on loop i also really enjoy the experience of finding new music that i enjoy and playing that over and over also :)

i hope you’re having a wonderful day danny i love u!! 💝💝💝

pretzel says hello as well 💕

[ID: a fluffy golden puppy dog lying on a tan corduroy couch, looking into the camera with his paws tucked up. end ID]

happy day after solstice love!! enjoy a longer day today than yesterday

!!!! wah thats so exciting. i cant believe ive known you like. long enough to see you do your entire degree im SO excited + proud of you and im wishing you ALL the best w your postgrad stuff!!

YES its been very clear in the art ive seen that you're putting so much effort into it and its absolutely paying off. cannot WAIT to see where you go from here! ik self doubt is a bitch but you rly are so talented i hope you can keep up your energy w it into the new year and beyond

OUGH! chilly! im glad you have a nice new jacket to keep you all toasty esp if you dont rlly like the cold. and i hope you've got as much hot chocolate as you want to warm up w when you get back inside! ive been drinking sooooo much hot chocolate recently its life changing esp when its cold out

wah thats so sweet. i absolutely understand moving out can be SO intimidating but i hope when you do end up moving you find a place that you can make yours and be just as comfy there as you are at your parents place. and in the meantime! enjoy the being home! give pretzel a BIG BIG kiss for me im saying hello back to him and givin him a good scratch

this answer does NOT surprise me at all and props on being the first person to come down firmly on one side or the other. esp w tv i totally get that <- has been rewatching supernatural unfortunately. its so much more of a time commitment and esp with shows that are just coming out its like. you want a decent payoff for your time + energy investment. like w star wars shows i was SO excited for bobf and then. well. i think i watched like two episodes and then the Thing Happened and i was like 'yeah im not finishing this' but i have heard SUCH good stuff about andor and its done coming out for this season so i just need to sit down n actually watch it.

its nice that new music is easy for you its SUCH a delight to find new music you actually like so im glad that you get to have that!!! anything specific thats been in your playlists recently?

i DID have a wonderful day yesterday i hope you have a good one today!! love youuuu

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#seriously ive rewatched dr.stone. how i met your mother. the originals and moriarty the patriot multiple times now

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Senku hcs

Oh this shall be fun

Realizes he's aromantic asexual in middle school. Everyone else was going on about romance and dating and all that other stuff, and all he cared about was science.

Was the one lecturing people in elementary school about why certain super powers can't be real and crushed the hopes and dreams of those wanting lazer vision

Would secretly leave Taiju money or other things he needed but pretended he had no idea where they came from

Since hes the definition of aroace, his gaydar is never wrong

Tried to figure out if he could turn himself into a robot as a kid, it did not work

Speaking of robots, he had robot pj's up until he was 11 in which he traded them for science ones

His experiments would make stay up late into the night, so naturally, he developed a taste for energy drinks.

At night he will sometimes think of Byakuya and remember all the memories he has with his dad, he might try to act like the man was embarrassing and all, but deep down hes a kid who never got to say goodbye to his dad

The only two people he can fully confide in are Taiju and Yuzuirha

While its common for kids who are adopted to want to know about their biological parents, he doesnt. He had Byakuya after all, and Byakuya is his dad, nothing else matters.

Hope you like them. Senku is a very fun character to make headcanons for.

45 notes - Posted March 28, 2022

#4

no one in Dr.STONE is an autistic retard so why do you plan to make a post about it? just cause you're retarded doesnt mean they are

congrats you got me to use Tumblr Desktop instead of my phone because im going to have a lot to say.

First of all, fuck off with the R word here, its an outdated and harmful term thats rooted in Ableism. Secondly i was going to ignore this and delete it when i saw the first line but then you also decided to insult me so you know enjoy getting your ass handed to you.

But whats wrong with noticing that certain characters in Dr.STONE are ASD coded? Like everyone accepts that Ryusui has ADHD but being autistic is something bad right? News Flash it isnt. Also show me where in the manga that Sai and Yuzuriha dont show traits of autism? i feel explaining to you would be a waste of energy but just know this is only going to make my post on it even longer cause holy fuck the beginning will now have a rant about people like you. Do me a favor and never send an ask here again and kindly fuck off.

Also this comment really pissed me off and i was going to focus on just Sai and Yuzuriha but now im gonna add Magma,Senku and Ruri to this as well cause ive also been seeing them as ASD coded but have been keeping that to myself.

47 notes - Posted August 13, 2022

#3

so i finished fmab

sobbing crying wailing etc it was SO GOOD and completely destroyed me at the same time fhjfjkfjhfkjhsahjsdjhfkjdjghdkjsk definitely the anime of all time

welcome to the world of FMAB. The obsession will never leave, and the pain gets worse with every rewatch. But with that also comes seeing little things you never noticed before which makes the series even better. 

47 notes - Posted January 23, 2022

#2

Ok so ill be posting about the final chapter soon but. IM SO HAPPY SENKU DIDNT GET ANY LOVE INTERESTS. HES AROACE AND STAYS AROACE HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

54 notes - Posted March 6, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Ok but i really need to know what people have against aroace characters? Like theres nothing wrong with any character being aroace but for some reason it just causes others to be so upset and for what? Ive seen it with mostly One Piece and The Disastrous Life of Saiki K. Luckily havent seen it as much with Dr.STONE or at least on tumblr. The number of people ive blocked on tiktok for getting upset about Senku being CANONICALLY aroace is ridiculous. But yeah can someone just explain this to me? Cause aroace exist and we do deserve to have our representation in media and not in the "oh im rude because im aroace and thats my only personality" way. But in a way where we ardnt dehumanized for not feeling romantic or sexual attraction.

331 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

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IMPORTANT PSA FOR MY LOVELY FOLLOWERS

Doubt anyones gonna read but whatever...

so, since now its a pretty strong possibility ive lost my oldest and only remaining irl friend (my bff since we where 14 to be exact, we are 30, living prrtty far but relationship hasnt changed in 11 years mostly apart) or at the very least ive damaged our relationship INCREDIBLY

and all because of her ashole, conceited, full of himself boyfriend that i can't stand, accusing me of something i didnt do without even considering any other possibility (cause fuck presumption of inocense apparently?)

and her trying to pacify the situation, and by doing so basically putting herself on his side, and this knowing full well my current mental health state (mandated medical leave due to extreme depression, eating dissorder, high stress levels and extreme anxiety, being heavily medicated) and she's defending/excusing his behaviour after his selfish actions/words about some UNIMPORTANT BULLSHIT (this is all... Prepare yourself... About a piece of costume, a vest, i borrowed from him like 5/6 years ago AT LEAST to make patters out of and he thinks i still have it but i can't find it and im pretty sure i give it back... But he says no cause he can't find it... So its only possible I lost it... He's God's perfect creation an could NEVER have made such a mistake...

And i was already looking into btw even tho hes not my friend and i HATE HIM, cause my BFF already had asked me, but he felt the need to push me AGAIN last night AT 1AM (very polite, writing someone you dont talk to in the middle of the night without kmowing if youll wake them...) insisting about it and making me feel even more guily when he has NO BUSINESS talking to me... We are NOT FRIENS...

he gave me a panic attack last night, barely slept and I've had to overmedicate today to stop from loosing my shit altogether...

Which has never happened like this before...

I right now currently have exactly 0 percent to loose, thanks, you son of a fucking turd pile that thinks himself the best most specialest boy ever...

So, i have more than 600 posts on queue (more people should use it tbh), set to 50 a day, so you will keep seeing me for a while, is just not "me, me".

I'll probably be gone after today. Don't know if ill be coming back this time... dont think so tho

Not that anyone here fucking cares 😂 i just thought it polite so say.

The few notes i usually get (if ANY) on my own posts are pity likes from mutuals 😂 (and even those are appreciated, guys❤️)

But hey, dont say i went without saying goodbye!

You wont notice my absence (like the few days i suddenly stopped posting this past week, and i didnt even had the queue), but ill sure miss seeing you in my dash. Wish i could have tall to you more ❤️

TLDR: my life is shit, i had little, now i dont even had the only good constant in my life since before my mom died (i was 14) who is my bff. Its all asshole boyfriend of bff. Can't do anything cause i love her too much to cause her any pain, so i cant escalate and fuck him up as soon as i seen him like id love to...

So im giving up, starting by abandoning this hellsite (beloved) and abandoning myself to ALL the drugs (legal or not) that i can get my hands on that make me numb until hopefully i get to die all chill during the high of my life... Here's hoping🤞

#bye and all that #maybe a miracle will happen and the pills start working again #but my life never gets better #only worse #so hope is just a word to me #a concept invented for the naive #not trying to offend #i wish i could believe in it #So i wouldnt have to numb myself like this #anyways lets try betting #i say this gets 0 NOTES #perfect send off #very on brand #im so relaxed i thunk in gonna bed

[writersblock0625]

So more to the journaling… so I acquired another job; an overnight grocery store stocker. It’s full time, $15 an hr, weekly pay…ON THURSDAY…I am still keeping my retail day job but I’ll probably have to go down to like 25hrs a week instead of 30hrs…ummm. I initially thought I would keep this job until august but that seems a little long…I’m just not with this whole ordeal I’m going through. My emotions are weird, I can’t bring myself to do ANYTHING really productive, I barely brush my teeth, I shower more now cause of the second job…I normally shower everyday but since my layoff it’s been every other day or like if I worked my retail job 1 day & im off the next & go back in that 3rd day, I’d shower when I got home, my skin is looking like trash (like all over; I’m not in my TOP BITCH form, which was normal) I finally see my therapist on Saturday (03/11/23) they are aware I need a new psychiatrist..they DONT know I’m off my meds cause they won’t validate my RX…I’m hoping to get back on track & making moves towards a new career & moving forward with my physical life by taking care of my mental life first…*heavy deep sigh* I figured once I get back on track & finish all my preparations I’d be able to locate a well, comfortable paying job and be able to have a life again…so I decided to plan a joint birthday celebration with my bestie since we are only a week apart🤣🤣🤣it’s a brunch… also I did do a poll on a JOONIE story and I am working on it but by bit…it’s a teaser…I’ll report back in 30 days hopefully I’ll post the teaser either by then or before…fingers crossed!

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#unfollow now because this is all im gonna talk about until november 15th this is all ive wanted in life what the f♡ck

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

My main idea for a Golden Guard/Grimwalkers au is that all of the golden guards are dead (besides hunter), and they have their own little world. It's a forest almost and a house (it's comedicly big to fit all of the grimwalkers) All of them are just chilling in their huge house and maybe one day hunter 'dies' or has a near death experience and finds it

And then one day Philip/Belos dies. He finds it and all of the previous grimwalkers+wittebro+wittewife are all traumatized and ready to fight

44 notes - Posted May 25, 2022

#4

MY MOM HAD A GENIUS IDEA

I WAS TALKING ABOUT FLAPJACK (because hes wonderful) AND SHE ASKED "Do you think its because hes a bird? And he flaps?" AND NOW IM RETHINKING EVERYTHING

47 notes - Posted May 17, 2022

#3

EXCUSE ME JUST BEING A FAN-KID SORRY

THAT MOMENT WHEN YOU REALIZE LUZ AND HUNTER SWAPPED BODYS SO LUZ TOOK HUNTERS PLACE WHEN HE WAS CAPTURED AND WHEN HUNTER REALIZED HE WAS SWAPPED (no one told him about this plan??? Like duh he wouldn't let her sacrifice herself but still) HE L O O K S AT HIS HANDS, FREAKS OUT WHEN HE SEES THERES NO GLOVES COVERING THEM AND SEES NO SCARS, DIFFRENT SKIN TONE, AND I QJDBEBSFJEJ

49 notes - Posted May 21, 2022

#2

Welcome to my slightly crack theory, i dont really believe this but i still thought it was cool

Remember this guy? Looks like the collector (we kinda established that a while ago) but it doesn't look quite like ours, you know the eclipse sun/moon chaotic child. This one seemed more... mature? If that makes sense? Nothing about being bored, wanting games, or anything (if he did and I didn't catch it let me know!) Also, he's so tall??? For being a child (in kings tide he was about luz's height or shorter in the top photo he's super tall. So what am I getting at here? I think I have an answer to the question everyone's been wondering. Does the collector have parents? I think it's a Ranboo situation. A sun-themed god and a moon-themed god had a chaotic child and possibly couldn't take care of it, or something happened and the Collector was alone.

52 notes - Posted May 30, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Luz:Why do you hate titans?

Collector:I don't???

Luz:Really? Because your cult hated them

Collector:

3,777 notes - Posted May 22, 2022

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I also started on tumblr this yeah but oh wellll

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[sasarasfan]

has it been 2 months since the anniversary? yes. do i care? no.

I want to answer some questions <3

1. Sometime around the fourth anniversary? Maybe July/august of last year. I got into hypmic because of a post that said “Happy Birthday Ichiro!!” And I liked the art style so I watched the anime :3c

2. The art style of the anime!! Idk I really like the eyes of the characters lmao

3. Hmm it was the first music based media I got into, the others being Milgram and a bit of enstars. I love it a lot <3

4. I thought BB was kinda boring,,,, I didn’t really like MTC at first ngl,,,, I thought Ramuda was annoying and I didn’t like his voice, and then he grew on me, but I liked Matenrou from the get go and I wanted them to win the first DRB. Doppo stuck out to me a lot. His screaming somehow reached my heart and I love him lots. Of course I can’t forget Sasara <3 he was so scrunkly I didn’t want to listen to the other divisions at first, but after ah Osaka dreamin night I was a changed man

5. I think Doppo was my first favourite?

6. Definitely Ramuda. I really didn’t like his voice, but he grew on me. Also the entirety of DotsuHom? Yeahhhhhh

7. Matenrou!! Was a Matenrou stan from the first episode I saw them

8. Sasara is my favourite character now <3 but Doppo and Gentarou are a close second

9. Whatever was first in the anima, but other than that I think maybe don’t stop the party or black or white? Matenrou song I think

10. Don’t Stop the Party but Comedian Rhapsody is slowly catching up

11. I love Ah Osaka Dreamin’ Night. I want to kiss it so bad

12. I haven’t listened to the stage songs enough to have a favourite :[

13. Bonus??? Like??? Duet???? If so, Nausa de Zuiqu

14. I like Hoodstar+ and SUMMIT OF DIVISIONS

15. G Anthem of Y City I don’t get why people don’t like it as much as Gangstas Paradise I think it’s better than Gangstas Paradise. Also JACKPOT! But that’s just because I love Jackpot (and I haven’t seen anyone really like anima songs :[)

16. Yes. Dotsuitare Hompo my beloved. Sasara Nurude my beloved. DotsuHom can make no bad songs. I love all of their group songs so much

17. Doppo probably he can spit some fire verses 😈🔥🔥 or Dice, Dice is good too

18. I haven’t payed enough attention to the composers sorry ahah

19. Once again, I don’t pay attention

20. Ah Osaka Dreamin’ Night or Hella Awesome Banquet, those two are very, very good

21. I do! I recently passed DJ level 100! Cant get my friend code rn but I would if I could

22. Hmmm I kind of want to see more Sasara and Gentarou I think it’d be funny

23. Yeah!! Hifudo and Sasaro mainly <33 love my skrunkles <33 I also think Doppo x Samatoki is cool, I liked their interactions in the shuffle drama track

24. me and sasara /j

25. Rosho and I would get along well I think. Same with like Hifumi and Doppo maybe? Jyushi as well. Actually, maybe Jakurai too

26. I don’t think I really kin any of the characters. Maybe Rosho? I try to do things as best as I can, but end up giving up if I feel like I’m dragging people down? Kinda???

27. I DONT [cries] I really want a Sasara mochi plush, or any Sasara merch, or any doppo merch :(((((((

28. Not really weird, but I think if there were mics that looked like their mics i would buy it immediately

29. Uhhhhhhhhhh I don’t really know??? Nor care that much??? As long as they look cool I’m fine with anything

30. Hifumi and Doppo, especially with all their history. The same with Rosho and Sasara kinda. Rei and Ramuda maybe? OH! Dice and his mom im kinda interested

31. look. i think. rio should get. much more love. I am so weak to that man. He could give me a little :( and id crumble at his feet weeping and sobbing going “sir, sir, I’d do anything for you :,(“

32. Sasara is so scrunkly. His character goes a lot deeper than just “haha comedian” and im excited to see more of his true character unravel slowly. I also like his character design and his songs slap so hard. I like Doppo a lot because I kind of relate to him? His raps are so cool and I like his personality. I wish I could give him a big hug :[

33. I saw somewhere that Rosho can’t sleep without hugging something and urgghrhdhh that head cannon has me in a chokehold

34. Uh. Yeah, they’re cool ig. Don’t really know much about them other than surface level stuff, but yeah

35. I like Matenrou because their dynamic is so soft. Like you could walk into a room with them in it and they’d just be having tea and chatting over little things with small smiles on their faces and HRGRGRRB that image just makes me love them a lot. I like DotsuHom cause the combination of Sasara telling his stupid jokes with Rosho chastising him for it while Rei is just sitting there slightly amused makes me laugh so hard.

36. Matenrou just have gatherings in like a garden or a greenhouse when their schedules allow them to hehe <3

37. I don’t have a preference? I know I’m going to love them either way so….

38. I follow Rios VA on Instagram, but I’m pretty disconnected to the VAs otherwise

39. I have not, mostly cause I don’t know Japanese. I would if I could, and I really do want to

40. I have a 10k sasaro fanfic in the editing process rn <33

41. I like the manga!! I think ARB is cool, but I can’t read Japanese, and I haven’t seen the stage, but I do like it. I think manga is the most bite sized? Kinda way to consume hypmic lore, so that’s why I prefer it. I also do like the drama tracks though. Just hearing them makes me smile wide

42. Sasaros break up + getting back together. Additionally, when Rosho cried because he was so passionate about supporting younger kids. I teared up ngl

43. I have not made theories, I just like, consume a bunch and let them brew in my head

44. Hmmm I haven’t payed much attention to what’s happened in the manga rn so I don’t have much to say about this

45. I made a 57 slide presentation about hypmic and successfully converted two people into hypmicism like two days ago. I also got another friend around November last year into hypmic! I love my friends dearly and I made the 57 slide presentation just for them which I think I took like 5+ hours on.

46. DOSTUHOM UEUEUEUEUEUEUEUE wish Sasara and Rosho make it to the top together!! Rei too ig. Maybe. I think it would be really funny if Matenrou somehow won again, but I think Dotsuitare Hompo is most likely going to win next DRB, or MTC

47. I hope it doesn’t urrrgh. Maybe with all the character lore explored, and wrapped up. I really don’t want an open end to any of the characters stories

48. A lot. I was able to make a lot of friends through it. I found something that I really, really liked, and I got to share it with my friends. I love hypmic so, so much, and I hold it very close to my heart.

49. The characters are all so unique, and the songs are so good! There’s at least one song you’ll like, out of the 100+ songs. It’s so fun getting to cheer on your favourite teams :] there’s so many talented people in the fandom as well

50. Hello future me! I don’t know when I’ll read this again, but I hope things have been good!! I got River and Chair into hypmic 😈🔥🔥!! I really like Sasara Nurude (hopefully you still do 🙄🙄) go listen to Comedian Rhapsody again. I know you want to. Please tell me we get more banger Dotsuitare Hompo songs. They can make no bad songs, but still. God I love hypmic so much. Everything about it is so great. I love every character, their flaws and their strengths. I love the stories that we’re given. I love the songs which I could dance my heart out to. The fandom is so great as well. I wish it would never end haha

#hypmic

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I hate my special needs sister and I'm done hiding it

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I hate my special needs sister and I'm done hiding it - August 13, 2022

When my younger sister was born, she almost died from hypoxia. She suffered severe brain damage, to the point where doctors doubted she would survive. She has survived to 16 years old now, however, she is about as close to brain dead as a living person can get. She cant move, she can't communicate, she can't eat or drink on her own. She has no control over her bowels so she has to wear diapers. She will never get better and she will never live a normal life.

Despite that, my mother has ruined our family hoping she will have a "miracle" and recover. My mother has spent hundreds of thousands of dollars on my sister. Everything from wheelchairs to doctors visits. We had to live in a one bedroom apartment for 11 years because my mother spent all of the money she made on my sister. Nothing she bought made any difference. She will always be a drooling mess.

Since my mother believes she will get better, she made me treat her like she was a real sister. I lost all my friends growing up because my mom made me take her everywhere I went. If I told my mom that I was going to the park, she would say,

"Oh, a park, that sounds like something Jess would like, take her with you."

Not once did she stop to think about how absurd she sounded talking to her. One time, my mom took her to a movie theatre. They made it barely 30 minutes through the movie before staff kicked her out because my sister was making so much noise coughing and choking on her saliva.

Despite all this, I somewhat tolerated my sister, until a few hours ago. I mentioned to my mother that I had planned a date with a girl I met at work. My mom said,

"That sounds like fun, but Im having coffee with a friend from college, so can you take care off Jess while im gone?"

I told her that i couldnt because of my date, and suggested that she hire a babysitter. My mother then said that I should just take her with me.

And i just exploded. I told her how stupid she was for suggesting such a thing. Bring my severely disabled, crippled sister along with me on a date with a girl, because you are too lazy to hire a sitter? How crazy are you to think thats a good idea? Every moment of my life has been about Jess. Im not supposed to have a career or a family of my own because I need to take care of Jess when my mom dies. My mom even discouraged my from going to college because then I wouldnt be there to take care of her. I told her how much damage she has done to the family because of my sister. We struggled financially my entire life not because my mom is low income, but because she spent all our money on Jess. We drove a crappy 1996 subaru outback for years, and my mom "couldnt afford to buy a new car" but she had no problem shelling out thousands to see a specialist doctor who will say the same thing every other doctor has.

My sister is a glitch. Shes not supposes to be here. She will never live a normal life. Theres no reason she shouldnt be put in a home.

Im just so frustrated right now. Im thinking about cutting ties with her, and reconnecting with my father. My dad divorced her once he realised that the rest of his life was going to be taking care of jess. I cant fault him. My mom forbid me from contacting him, but hes not the bad guy here.

I hate my special needs sister and I'm done hiding it - August 13, 2022 UPDATE 8/13: Thank you all for your kind words. I realise now that my emotions should be placed towards my mother instead of my sister. As for everyone who says i should contact my father, that is my plan but hes not easy to reach. I havent spoken to him or seen him for a very long time and he lives across the country. I dont have any way to get his number or email address, so im looking through facebook and instagram to see if he may have an account i can message. I also dont have anyone on his side of the family who i can ask to get us in touch.

As for my living situation i am still living at home. I plan to stay for a while longer until i have saved enough to afford an apartment or enlist in the navy. I work part time while im in community college so im not making much. I hope i will have another update in the near future, and i hope things get better.

UPDATE - I hate my special needs sister and I'm done hiding it. - September 8, 2022

UPDATE - I hate my special needs sister and I'm done hiding it.

My mom is dead. I came home to a bunch of police cars around my home. My mom hung herself, and a neighbor saw her from the window. I didnt get a look at her and im glad i didnt. I dont think i could handle seeing anyone like that. She seemed stressed a couple days before but i didnt expect this. Right now plans are getting set to place Jess in a home. She will have around the clock care. Im not sure what stage of grief im at right now. I have a place to stay for a while, and im getting my finances in place. I miss my mom. She wasnt a good mom bit she was my mom.

I tried reaching out to my father through a family member on his side. To make a long story short, he basically said that he had moved on from us, and that he didnt want me intruding on his new family. Pretty much what i expected, but it still hurt to hear my dad say he wants to forget about me.

Im staying at a friends house right now. Im working and im doing school. Things are still rough but im pushing through. Thanks for all the well wishes.

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