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98chao · 2 months

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its kind of funny that crk brought out such Emotion in me that i just whipped out all my knowledge on how symbolism and colour affects art. im not playing about those cookies bro.

#no shade to any of my other interests but nothing has really evoked the kind of feeling to make like meaningful art in this way #i almost did with sonic a couple times but i ended up not feeling interested enough to finish those project files #mephiles is too good to pass up an opportunity with but im not sure ill ever have the drive to draw something cool w/ him #back to the original point im actually very very happy when i see ppl talking about things i put in my art like #my vision is realized!!#i get worried that nobody cares enough to notice lol but now i know my vanilla milkshakers got me #i mean i try as hard as i can from someone whos entirely self taught i know theres artists who can do those kinds of things better than me #thats why i study a lot from other artists bc it helps very much #erm mucho texto anyway #hooray gay cookies #not art #txt

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crushedsweets · 7 months

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i’d love to see that, even if it’s just a google doc i would love to read it. writing is so fun

-🦖 anon

My tumblr anons keep me going . My #1 motivators

#asks #🦖 anon #I need someone to talk about this on a very deep level but I’m so awkward…. only like 4-5 people have dmed me from here and can prob attest #but wow do I wanna do like actual big projects instead of simple doodles #‘NOBODY DM ME IM TOO AWKWARD FHAT WASNT ME ASKING IM LIKE LOSING MY MIND AT ALL GOMES #TIMES

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palms-upturned · 5 months

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#meg talks #i forgot how much group projects make me want to become the joker #joined a strategic research group and 1) my research partner has done nothing and basically never says anything to me #2) the check in meetings w the other group members are always when i have work and nobody shares notes/takeaways #or like offers more than one check in time to accommodate scheduling #3) nobody has fucking LOOKED AT MY RESEARCHHHHH #horse staring out at the ocean.jpeg #someday i will actually get involved w organizers who know what they’re doing. someday.#ok that’s mean i think it’s important to do SOMETHING even if u don’t rlly know what ur doing or else how would you learn #i mean that’s exactly what im doing! i don’t know shit abt fuck and i joined this group to learn new practical skills #so it’s not their fault and im no better #but also jdsgsjdncj when it comes to the basics of like. actually organizing the resources we are currently gathering.#i feel like ‘’make sure you actually are communicating with everyone and looking at the research’’ is basic enough #that im allowed to be frustrated abt it #TALK TO MEEEEEEEE FUCKING HOLD A MEETING I CAN PARTICIPATE INNNNNNNN #ok im done. fkxhgzjxnc

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piplupod · 16 days

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would rly love to know why the brain and nervous system have decided to gift me with The Evening Horrors every day for the past ... week ? ish ? what the heck changed that made this start happening consistently every time dinner rolls around :[

#its just like suddenly everything bad becomes a crushing unbearable weight #like i can usually cope but this is just... Too Much fhdkdl #i wish i could just tell my brain and body ''hey i know this reality is intolerable but can we just like... chill?''#like theres nothing i can do for it fhdkdl so why do i have to act like a prey animal about it !!!#cant i just be silly and ignore the terrible reality around me ??? why do the body and brain refuse to cooperate !!!#its so infuriating dbjdksl #i know its looking for an escape or a fix but theres nothing !!! i have been attempting to figure this out for 5 years now !!!#unless something miraculous happens then there is no escape or fix !!! i would like to move on and just chill !!!#if there is no way out of hell then i might as well have fun w it yknow?#if nothing immediately terrible is happening then i should be able to just Ignore it all #but alas !!! nervous system and brain do not allow for that !!!#(actually there IS a way to cope w this and its called ''have a self destructive meltdown and forcibly get switched out'')#(but I'd prefer to not do that fhdkdl i have a lot of creative projects i want to work on rn LOL)#(also the others in the brain get very bored and lonely bc theres nobody to talk to and nothing much for them to do)#(thats the issue w having a host who fronts for large chunks of time!! its difficult for the others to make friends and find hobbies!)#anyways. rambling. im going to go eat dinner and hopefully that fixes at least a little bit of this fjfkdl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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crownomalous · 4 months

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little sneak peak on something ive been working on

#its only 24 seconds so far but ill get there eventually #valorant #valorant clips #iso valorant #isos ult is so fun #you can see the evolution of me having no skins to getting the battlepass and eventually there will be clips with my current non bp skins😭#i love playing iso hes so queercoded yes im projecting no i dont wanna talk abt it #this is what happens when i have nobody to hyperfixate with and i have too much free time

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crunchchute · 4 months

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me itching to post some cosplay pics i just found because i look good there but also fighting for my life to Not post them cause i dont want my face online

#plus it feels like cheating cuz i do not look that good irl. idk the spirit of a prettyboy twink posessed me during taking those photos #i would post them on instagram but they would drag me for my cool emo hair and cool emo clothes and #im talking about the time i cosplayed glitchtrap but it was hot so i went a dawktrap route with just head and gloves #and paired it up with the classic ourple guy outfit with the purple shirt and black vest and badge so it was very silly #nobody knew who i was at the con btw. except like 2 kids literally awful #you dont know purple guy????#also found some that were from a project that i fucked up on. i still feel bad about it but oh well. was meant to collab with someone for #an edit and i had to take some videos for them to cut and edit but i suck at taking videos and am terrible on camera in general so i hated #every single take and they also didnt like it iirc. told me to take more and i had enough. and then i got locked out of my account so i was #like fuck it. and i didnt get back to them later so i am the AH #i got some screenshots from it that are cool but i cant post them as that would be mean and lame and whatever #oh well i dont even remember their acc anymore but i should have apologized and explained that i wont do more takes as they wont be better #do not ask me for a cosplay video ever #made me think of how many times people recorded me at cons only for the footage not be used in the aftermovies lol

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outer-edges · 8 months

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okay i know i haven’t been doing much writing lately but i did just finish plotting out the rest of the pre-outbreak miller family road trip fic, and i have the final part of the time loop fic plotted alongside some rough spiderman!ellie ideas outlined. so what I’m saying is, once I’m all moved in and settled, be prepared for an onslaught of fic.

#there’s no exact timeline on when that will be #but i move into my apartment the 19th #and classes start the 21st #so i’ll probably be stress free and in a writing space within the next couple of weeks or so #and we’ll see what im able to eke out in the meantime #there’s a solid chance i finish miller family roadtrip sometime in the next week or so #but yeah it’s gonna be a minute before the time loop starts loop again #also i may or may have written a couple thousand words for my spidersona oc #NOBODY TALK TO ME OKAY #it was just reworking/rewriting scenes I’ve written before #im not fully projecting onto the oc atp in time #but who knows maybe i send that bitch back to college #mattie talks fic

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cryptidofthekeys · 1 year

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answer.

the.

phone.

i dont care if you think hes coming for you

...and...

and...

OH FGKLDSJ GFDBS OH MY GOD OH MY FUCKING GOD

OH MY FUCKING GOD

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

#jse community #iris project #iris spoilers #NOBODY TALK TO ME FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK #IM NOT OKAY

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quenthel · 1 year

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Im supposed to be working rn but I remembered I was trying to contact a clininc for my surgery and they told me they cant do any surgeries anymore so I spent like 2h looking for a new surgeon and I literally found fucking nobody I legit had a panic attack too and I’m still crying I hate this so much I hate navigating websites that have no info on them and just send me in loops i hate how there is NO fucking info about anything anywhere and like I’m still too upset to start calling places and my MOM who is the one who has a million opinions about hospitals and shit is still at work and wont reply to me so its just this huge issue I cant solve rn and its driving me fucking insane

#quenthel special #im like half a mind to just ignore this and get my other surgery first #eventho this is the more urgent one #bc i think if i wait too long they have to remove one of my ovaries which would be fine by me but the phisical trauma of it is a bit scary..#i just once again feel like its something i was never prepared to do any nobody can really be there and support me #like my one friend who helped me really did and im glad but also im so angry at my mom #bc i know she will get angry at me if i mess this up but its bc SHE is scared #and she is projecting her issues onto me and we talked about this but she is making me SO unsure

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charliesinfern0 · 2 years

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bwomp

#vent #:( i feel really unmotivated and lonely #idont feel like working on any art or projects i feel really burnt out #which is making me sad bc i rlly WANT to draw and stuff but uuugghhhh #and i wanna talk to people and i know i just cant wait for ppl to talk to me but i am just shy #and worrysome #ill try to do better tomorrow i guess #idk sometimes i feel just like nobody wants anything to do with me and that im annoying and stuff and!!! mmmmmm -_-#im gonna go to sleep and write tomorrow. i havent written anything in a while #ill take a break from art #gn

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acaciapines · 2 years

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for a fic called the ‘krisralsei bad end au’ there sure is a lot of berdly in this first part....look i know what im doing ok. ‘krisralsei bad end au’ is like. one of three big things this fic is about. this thing has LAYERS.