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fairydustblossom · 10 months

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losing control {part 4}

azriel x reader

summary: you and azriel have been best friends for decades. giving romance a chance takes some time to figure out.

category: angst, slow-burn, friends-to-lovers (kinda)

word count: 3.5k

warnings: none i think

Notes: i cannot believe it took me a month to finish this up. i apologize for the wait and i thank you all for being so patient! life got super busy for a second there and also i just was not liking this chapter at alllll. but i finally do! it's a good set up for the next few parts which im so EXCITEDDD to write!!! as always /please/ let me know y'alls thoughts i love hearing them,,,, anyways enjoy :)

{part 1} | {part 2} | {part 3} | {part 5}

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Half the night you tossed and turned filled with longing and regret and the other half you felt your anger reignite. The back and forth of your emotions leaving you rattled and unsure of what to do next.

When morning came, you felt like shit. Dark bags under your eyes, face a greyish color, eyes bloodshot red and hair a mess. You stared at yourself in the mirror feeling the weight of the day ahead. You had to go to training and more than likely see Azriel, you knew he wouldn’t skip it, after that you had a meeting with Rhys, and then you had to work all day at the library. A sigh left you as you thought of the long day ahead and all the responsibilities you had when all you wanted was to curl up in bed and sleep the day away. The thought of you and Azriel ending made you want to drop to your knees. If the possibility of that made you want to weep, you couldn’t imagine what seeing him today would do to you.

Closing your eyes you managed to quiet all your thoughts and started breathing in and out, telling yourself that Azriel hadn’t broken up with you last night. This was just a disagreement and everything would work itself out… You repeated this to yourself until you finally felt determination settle over you. Determination to work this out, to not let it consume you, and especially to not let Azriel see how much he had affected you. If he was going to act the way he did last night, cold and distant, then you would act the same.

So with one last look at yourself in this state, you turned around and started getting ready for the day.

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Every bone in your body begged you not to go to training. Your body was sore, thanks to Azriel, and the sleepless night did little to soothe your body. But you wouldn't give Cassian any reason to hold skipping for a second time this week against you, and most importantly, you wouldn't let Azriel get in the way of your duties to the Night Court. You owed much to Rhys.

As you walked into the training pit, you immediately noticed the Shadowsinger's presence. His back was turned to you as he adjusted the wraps on his hands. He continued what he was doing but you could tell by the slight twitch of his wings and the movement of his shadows that he knew you had walked in.

You wondered if he wished you had stayed back, if he wanted to see you, or if he simply just didn’t care. By the way he carried himself, it seemed like the latter. You fought against the pain blooming in your chest. You always wanted to see Azriel. Right now, all you wanted was to touch him, hug him, and rest your head in the space between his wings. But you were starting to realize your feelings for Azriel were stronger than his. Was he not filled with the same need as you? The realization came to you late in the night as you replayed the argument, the way he had looked at you, talked to you.

There was no doubt in your mind anymore that you felt more for him.

Training went by agonizingly slow, your heart never slowing down, your mind never letting you forget Azriel was nearby. You had tried sneaking looks at Azriel, hoping to catch him staring at you, but he seemed unbothered by your presence, never sparing you a glance.

You couldn’t understand how he could just turn off his emotions like this. You knew becoming involved with your best friend, as emotionally challenged as he was, would be difficult, and you were aware his profession relied on detachment of emotions but how could he act like you meant nothing after having consoled you just the night before? After showing you how much he cared for you. It didn’t make any sense and you felt that you were being toyed with.

Azriel was trying very hard to stay focused on his workout. He was ready to be done for the day, not wanting to be near you any more than he had to. He felt ashamed and embarrassed at his actions from the night before, and quite frankly he had not gathered the courage needed to talk to you. During all of training, his mind kept racing with thoughts of what to say to you, jumping from one thought to the other. Azriel felt all over the place and nowhere closer to finding the words to better explain his actions. He tried keeping his eyes off you, knowing he wouldn’t be able to carry on with his day if he saw how you looked. Instead he relied on his shadows’ descriptions of you- whispers of the bags under your eyes, the frown on your face, the looks you were sending his way- which didn’t aid his overthinking.

He wanted to comfort you, to hold you, but knowing he had been the reason why you felt this way made him feel sick. Training felt like torture, his self-deprication not letting him get the relief he seeked from a hard session. Deciding he was better off in solitude today, he started getting ready to leave. He figured if he could just get away from you, the smell of you, the whispers of his shadows, he could think of an apology. All night he had replayed the possibility of telling the inner circle, of becoming official, and he couldn't escape all the negative outcomes his mind had come up with. He needed to figure out an apology that would not compromise his belief in remaining private for as long as possible- until he felt assured that nothing would go wrong.

Finishing up your last set of drills, you looked over at Azriel for the countless time that day. He was stretching, having just finished his drills as well, and the anger building up in you took over. You started walking towards him as everyone else headed out and his shadows rushed around him, probably letting their master know you were walking over. He looked from his peripheral view to confirm and straightened up, turning his back to you and starting to walk away to the changing rooms.

You were livid. The way Azriel had ignored you during training irked you in a way you had never experienced before. You had never been this angry at him. You understood the way the conversation went last night wasn't the best but he didn't have to ignore you. All morning you kept trying to make eye contact with him and he had refused to meet your eyes. And the way in which he walked away when he saw you headed towards him right now fucking hurt.

The way he was treating you hurt. Never had you felt so little and unimportant to Azriel and although you had promised yourself you would be as cold and distant as him, your anger had other plans and you were not going to stand by this treatment, not from him.

Trying to catch up to his long strides you marched after him into the changing area

pushing the door open.

"Azriel" you said stopping a few feet away, his shirt was already off, back facing towards you. You ignored the tightness around your throat and the conflicting emotions rising within you as you tried to not stare at the sweat gleaming down his back, his wings in all their majesty.

His wings twitched while the rest of his body went still at the mention of his name. He didn't respond which caused a scoff to bubble out of you. You were in complete disbelief. This did not feel like your Azriel. This dynamic between you two was completely new.

"Are you really just going to ignore me?" You asked, anger coating your voice.

He remained quiet and took a deep breath. Internally he was a mess. He didn't want to say anything that would make things worse than he already had last night. He felt if he opened his mouth he would completely ruin everything and he was trying his hardest to not let that happen by remaining silent. He knew he was being unfair to you, but he had already hurt you last night and he felt unworthy of even being in the same room as you.

You however were not understanding that. All you could see was his cool mask of indifference.

"I'm just confused, Azriel. I don't understand what's happened. I believe what I asked for isn’t unreasonable, considering we've been doing this, whatever you want to call this, for over half a year. I don't understand your reaction."

You wanted to plead with him, beg him to turn to you to listen to you, to love you. You wanted to cry and have everything be alright. But you wouldn't. Instead you straightened yourself up and narrowed your eyes.

"Azriel, turn around." you said in a low voice.

Azriels fists tightened in response, you could see his knuckles turning white.

"Azriel. turn. around. Look at me, I'm trying to talk to you. This feels weird, this isn't us. " Your voice softened, exhaustion and pain taking over you now. "I want to talk through this."

Azriel turned around, your belly fluttering with hope. You were sure if you could just discuss this, everything would be okay. Your eyes met for a second and you thought you saw sadness in his eyes when he looked at you but you blinked and his walls were back up.

"I don't want to talk right now Y/N" he grumbled, dismissing your attempts at fixing the problem.

"Then when Az? When are we going to talk? Why can't we just work this out right now? Why does it have to be a thing? Just talk to me Az." Your breathing was getting more agitated with every word you spoke, his silence cutting deeply. Still, you carried on

"I’m sorry for the words I chose last night, for how it came out but… What did you mean last night? You are enough for me, I don’t ever want you to think that you can’t give me what I need. I know you can. You already give me everything I want. I don't see how telling our friends would change anything between us."

"It would change everything, don’t you see? It already has" he said, becoming just as irritated as you. He was over this conversation, he didn't want to have it right now, not when he still hadn't found the words to explain his feelings. Gods he hadn't even been able to tell you he loved you . He wanted to do that before having to tell everyone.

"How Az? How?" You almost shouted, your patience running out, you were ready to argue it out.

Suddenly the door opened, Cassian walking in muttering about forgetting something when he abruptly stopped, noticing the tension in the room. He could see both you and Azriel breathing heavily, your fists were clenched and Azriel's shadows were mostly covering him, swarming frantically. The way you both stood looked like you were engaged in an argument and he raised an eyebrow.

"Everything okay?" He asked. He looked at Azriel's face, set on a scowl, and then at yours, noticing the tears lining your eyes and your cheeks flushed pink. “What’s going on?” he tried again when he was met with silence.

Azriel held your gaze before muttering “Nothing” and winnowing away.

You and Cassian stood in the changing rooms staring at the spot Azriel had just stood in.

You blinked the tears that had welled up away trying to not let Cassian see but it was too late. He could see the state you were in and he knew he had just interrupted an argument between you and his brother. An oddity, given how close the two of you were. What could his brother have said to have you at the point of tears? Cassian started asking “What happe-” before you cut him off “I don’t want to talk about it Cass.” and then you winnowed away, going to your meeting with Rhys.

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In front of you stood your high lord and one of your best friends, Rhys. Immediately you wished you had winnowed somewhere else to compose yourself, Rhys could read everyone in the inner circle in a matter of seconds. There was no way he wouldn’t notice your current state. Your red rimmed eyes and your heaving breathing.

He took in your appearance for what felt like forever, but was really a matter of seconds, and raised his eyebrows in a questioning look.

You shook your head, letting him know you didn’t want to talk about it. He gave you a look that said he was sorry, but wasn’t going to let it go.

“Not only as your high lord, but as someone who cares very dearly for a friend, a friend that I consider family, you know I have to ask. What’s wrong?” he asked, going around his desk and leaning against it, arms crossed waiting for your answer.

You rolled your eyes “Really Rhys? You’re gonna pull the high lord card?”

He scoffed and shot you a smirk “Here I was thinking I was pulling the family card”

That made a small smile appear on your face. You knew Rhys was just worried and it wasn’t fair to take out your frustrations on him. If he showed up at your office in the same manner you would also ask.

“I’m sorry… just… feeling a little scattered. I didn’t mean to snap”

“My dear Y/N, you have been snapping at me since the day we met. I do not hold that against you. However, I will hold it against you if you keep things from me that are clearly disturbing you. I heard you missed training this week, I also heard you used your powers against Cass… and now you are showing up to our meeting, quite frankly, looking like a mess. So, what’s really been going on?”

You sighed and sat down across from him, head falling between your hands. “I can’t tell you”

At this Rhys stood a little straighter, eyebrows drawn in confusion. “You do realize one of my top spies telling me she can’t tell me something is cause for concern”

Your eyebrows rose in alarm “I don’t mean it like that Rhys, you know I tell you everything of importance. It’s just… it’s personal”

He sighed and went to sit next to you, placing an arm around you. “Alright… I won’t press you if you really don’t want to talk. Just know you can always come to me”

You leaned into his side and whispered “I know Rhys, thank you.”

He squeezed you into his size letting you rest there for a few minutes before proceeding with the meeting.

“As you know, we will be hosting a gala at the end of this week, it will be a chance to celebrate the alliances we have built after the war and for the courts to further strengthen relationships with one another. Eris is coming to stay with us for the next few days. Now that Beron’s rule is over, I have offered our courts help to Eris. I intend for the Autumn Court’s new High Lord to have as smooth a transition as possible, otherwise all our work to remove Beron was for nothing. Hopefully, in return, Eris will help us when it is time to change the ways of the Hewn City and fully be the Night Court we all dream of. Now, I need you to keep an eye on Eris. I have no reason to doubt his loyalties, but one can never be too careful. I have already told him you will be there to help with anything he needs.” said Rhys, concentrating on some documents on his desk.

“I have to babysit Eris?” you muttered, crossing your arms. You had learned to not hate the former heir, he had proved himself to the inner circle and he was often around, strategizing with Rhys and whatnot. He had asked for Mor’s forgiveness, and everything had for the most part been worked out. However, Azriel still despised Eris. The High Lord's attempt to right his wrong has done nothing to diminish Azriels’ distrust in him. Naturally, due to your proximity to the Spymaster, you had kept a professional distance from him. Never actually becoming friendly with Eris.

“If that’s what you wanna call it, yes.” Rhys looked at you with a glimmer in his eyes “But I like to think of it as giving you the honor of being an extension of me for the next couple of days” he said, shooting you a grin, knowing you would like the sound of that.

A laugh burst out of you, “Alright Rhys, you don’t have to butter me up. You know I’ll do it, shouldn’t be too bothersome. Eris hasn’t been a problem for some time” you drifted off “Although, I do I wonder how Feyre will react when I tell her I’m an extension of her husband” you joked, standing up and walking towards the door.

Rhys chuckled, muttering about the kind of trouble you would get him into.

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Cassian felt weird about the interaction from earlier with you and Azriel. He was running the events of the past weeks in his head and he felt that there was something he was missing. He thought of your skipped practice, of your outburst during training, of Azriel’s mood at the debrief the other day and what he had just walked in on.

Clearly he hadn’t walked in on nothing, regardless of what Azriel said. Set on finding his brother, he wandered around the places Azriel usually frequented. He found him on his balcony, face in concentration, leaning his body over the railings, wings drooped, and shadows swarming around him in chaos. It had been a long time since he had seen his brother so out of sorts.

Cassian landed a few feet away from Azriel and approached him cautiously. Azriel looked at him from the corner of his eye and stood up straighter. “I want to be alone right now Cass.” Azriel said, trying to harden his voice to deter Cassian from trying, but Cassian knew his brother. He could hear the mask covering his turmoil.

Cassian sighed and went to stand next to Azriel. “What’s going on, brother?”

Azriel huffed and muttered “I said I wanted to be alone”

Cassian grinned at him “Since when do I follow orders from you?”

Azriel rolled his eyes but didn’t try to argue with Cassian, he knew there was no point. The general wouldn’t be leaving yet.

At Azriel’s silence, he continued. “Brother, we have been there for each other our entire lives. I am not going to leave you alone when I can so clearly see something plagues your mind.”

Azriel debated for a second telling Cassian what was wrong, he wanted to ask how Cassian navigated his relationship with Nesta. How he was able to put aside the fears and worries of things going wrong, of Nesta getting hurt because of him, but he reminded himself that Nesta was Cassian's mate. The bond tethered them to one another, and the risk of things not working out was significantly less, given that the Mother had decided they were meant for each other. No matter how many times he had prayed to the mother, you weren't his mate. He didn’t have that same level of assurance, Cassian wouldn't understand.

“I’m fine Cass, just thinking about work” Azriel said. He figured that excuse would satisfy Cassian, it wouldn’t be the first time work consumed him and had such an effect on him.

Cassian narrowed his eyes at Azriel before asking “Is that what you and Y/N were arguing about? Work?” his tone letting Azriel know that he didn’t fully buy it. At the mention of your name Azriel’s shadows became agitated again, the Shadowsinger having to reign them in from becoming a frenzied mess. He cooled his expression, hoping Cassian hadn’t caught any change in him.

“We weren’t arguing” Azriel stated, looking at Cassian in the eyes briefly before setting them back on the horizon.

Cassian scoffed “Az she was literally about to cry. Y/N always tears up during arguments. I heard some arguing before walking in, that’s why I walked in. I don’t think I’ve ever seen you two argue. What happened?”

Azriel’s jaw tensed. His chest hurt at the thought of you crying. At the thought of him making you cry. He felt that he was only making things worse. He had to fix things with you, he just needed to figure out how.

Azriel ignored Cassian and turned to walk away “I have some work to catch up on. I’ll see you tonight at dinner” he said to Cassian before winnowing away.

Cassian was left standing there wondering what the hell was going on between you and his brother.

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iluvshinytwink · 1 year

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if ur still taking requests can u write for jude where he's insecure and doesn't feel like he deserves her and he doesn't tell her but she finds out when she finds him looking at himself in the mirror in tears and she makes sure he knows she loves all of him ❤️

Reaching Out - Jude Bellingham

"I just hope you realize how much you mean to me. I just wish I could remind you of how beautiful you are. I'm sorry I haven't told you in so long. But please don't think I have given up on you. I will never give up on you. My arms are wide open. There is always a place for you here."

A/N: NAHHH I SAW THIS REQUEST AND RUSHED TO A BOOK I BORROWED FROM MY SCHOOLS LIBRARY, its filled with poetry and the title of the poem was "Reaching Out" AHHH IM SO EXCITEDDD, I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS THANKS TO THIS BOOK AND THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING!! <333

Insecurity, the word hurts as much as how it feels. The feeling of no longer loving your body, the feeling of questioning someone's love for you based on your physical appearance. It's a horrid feeling that sends shivers down your spine and doubt all over your mind.

Jude adored you, everything about you, physically or mentally he always found himself stricken for you in one way or another. He found himself having a bashful smile every time he looked at you. But the question is, did you feel the same way? Do you feel nervous around him like he does? Do you look at him and think he's the most beautiful thing on this Earth like he does? Is he giving too much? Did you even like how he looked?

These cruel thoughts began filling his mind. These thoughts ate his heart out. He found himself looking at the mirror, examining himself, judging himself. He'd go up close to the mirror, examining his facial features and he'd feel tears brim his eyes.

He'd go on social media and find men who he thinks would be better with you. And every time he does, he feels a piece of his heart breaking away.

It's come to the point where he feels.. almost ashamed around you. He feels nervous, too nervous.

"Hi, babe!" You greeted with a heartwarming smile, putting everything in your hands down. Jude looks at you with a smile, but you couldn't see it. "Why're you wearing a mask?" You chuckled, sitting beside him as you stared at his face. "I've.. got a cough." Jude lies. Jude always thought that lying to you of all people would feel like tearing a piece of his respect for you away and he felt that in the moment. "But I really want a kiss right now.." you hummed jokingly. Jude felt another smile creep his face even though you couldn't see it.

You tug his mask down, fast enough for him to not realize and you softly place your lips on his. You closed your eyes, savoring the moment. Jude had his eyes wide open as his heart started pounding in his ears. Something within him was happy you had your eyes closed, so you couldn't see him.

You break away, a blush on your cheeks as you chuckled. "You looked like a dumbass!" You laughed. Jude felt a smile on his face and his cheeks tinted red.

Lately, you've noticed something was off about your boyfriend. He kept to himself and you'd notice his lips would crack because he rarely spoke. His eyes would wander somewhere else.

"Jude?" You said softly. Your boyfriend looked at something without thinking, his eyes didn't even blink. Jude snapped out of his daydreaming and his eyes met yours. "Hm?" He hummed. "You okay, hon?" You asked worriedly. You placed your hand on top of his, they were cold. "I'm alright, go on with your story." Jude smiled, his voice came out soft and almost weak. "If something's on your mind, tell me, okay?" You looked at him with worry written all over your face. Jude didn't look back. Jude felt your eyes all over him, his heartbeat quickened. He glanced at you and felt his heart accelerating by the second. You smiled at him reassuringly, eyes softened.

He didn't want to tell you. He didn't know how you would react and he was afraid of that. He thought that telling you might've been childish and stupid and so he kept it to himself.

His feelings were buried deep within his soul, away from your reach.

You opened the door quietly, you felt your eyes droop lower by the minute. You sigh to yourself. The house sounds empty, hauntingly empty. You looked around, the presence of your lovely boyfriend which you craved for wasn't there.

Above, you heard sniffling. Your eyebrows furrowed, confused and scared of what might've happened.

Seconds pass and you hear the same sniffle again, accompanied by a strained sob. It echoed through your ears and into the core of your heart.

You quickly yet quietly ascended the stairs, heartbeat picking up.

The bedroom door was opened but no lights peeked from the door and the sniffling got louder. Your heart dropped momentarily. Never had you heard your boyfriend cry, this feeling of worry drowned you.

You made your way into your shared bedroom, inside the room was dark except for the peeking light from your shared bathroom.

You peeked inside and what you found shattered your heart.

You found Jude having a hand over his face, teeth gritting. His cheeks stained with tears. He had no shirt on. His hand curled into a fist as he cried, tears escaping his hand and onto his cheeks.

"Jude?" Your voice came out as a whisper. Jude flinched, harshly. His wet eyes turned to face yours. You had a shocked, sad expression on your face and he felt his heart drop. His mouth gaped open, hoping that something-- anything would come out of his throat, but nothing. A stiffed sob came out of his throat as he looked at you.

Instinctively you ran to your boyfriend, engulfing him in a tight hug as you felt tears of your own forming. Jude fumbled back. "What's wrong, Jude? Why are you crying? What's on your mind?" You asked, voice slowly breaking. "I--" he stammered. He desperately tried to find words, he begged for words to come to his mind. You closed your eyes as the first of your tears fell freely. "What's wrong..?" You asked once more, your grip around his body tightened. Jude bit his lip, mind blank of what to say.

"I don't look good." He managed to murmur, his voice cracking. "What do you mean?" You asked with a soft tone. "I don't feel good.." he slowly explained. You broke the hug, Jude's eyes shut tight as more tears poured from his eyes. You cup his face, his tears staining your fingers. "I feel so.." he croaked. Tears blurred your vision, your lips trembled.

Jude suddenly hugged you, so tight is started to hurt. His head buried in your neck. "Please tell me.." he sniffled, legs shaking. ".. anything." He sounded desperate. Your heart broke in that moment. "Why do you love me?" He choked on his words and you felt his tears descending onto your neck.

"You're beautiful, Jude. Everything about you makes my heart ache." You explained, arms wrapped around him. Jude's legs gave up on him, making both of you descend to the floor. "I love how you look at me, I love your smile, I love your voice, I love your soft lips." Your voice trailed. You went on and on and your voice broke with every sentence that left your lips.

"I love all of you." You finished with a whisper. His hands dug into your back, he sobbed even more.

This time, he felt that he wasn't crying because of sadness and insecurity, he cried because he was overjoyed. You said everything he needed and wanted to hear. You calmed the raging storm that infiltrated his soul. This burden, this feeling of regret slowly left him. You had a way of words that shot his heart every time.

"I love you, Jude. Everyday I love you even more." You cried into his back.

(THANK U FOR THE PERSON WHO REQUESTED THIS!! As i said in the beginning i loved this idea and i loved it even more because it had a connection to a book!! if im being honest yall r eating good this week, since tomorrow is valentine's day im gonna give yall a valentine's day special and wednesday will be the long awaited part two of ARE WE STILL FRIENDS !! please stay tuned and ill see u when i post again <33)

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yourbpdgf · 2 years

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The pillars reactions to their traine thats super physicaly strong (like raw strength)

Their in a spar match and they just pick them up and bitch slam them on the floor straight on their back 😭

hii, i only write for 4 of the pillars, (mitsuri, obanai, sanemi and muichirou) so if they arent the specific onws you wanted im sorry abt that. here you go though 🤲🏼.

obanai, mitsuri, muichiro and sanemi with a vv physically strong trainee!

obanai:

• uhm excuse me... what the hell???? 🤠

• hes so confused

• if you could body slam the shit out of him why are you trying to train under him???

• like for all that you can rip the demons head off with with your hands! you dont need to learn how to wield a sword from him 😭.

• when oyakata first brought you to obanai to be his trainee he genuinely thought you were weak too ☠️.

• mans was like, "ha look at this dumbass they dont even know how to wield a sword 🥱"

• and you probably heard him bc that body slam seemed so personal-

• hes sorry just dont do that again, hell teach you serpent breath and everything :,).

mitsuri:

• omgomg OMGGGG

• shes always wanted a trainee! shes so exciteddd

• she almost forgot she had to spar with you to test your current skill. she just wanted to get straight into teaching you breath of love or helping you make your own breathing technique!

• but obanai reminded her and here we are now.

• shes still excited though! she even emphasized not to go easy on her, so you sadly had to body slam the nicest woman alive.

• but shes not mad, shes actually so impressed.

• shes extremely physically strong too you know! shed probably challenge you to a sparring match without weapons, who knows who will win! probably not you.

• anyway she thinks youre extremely cool and shes excited to see how strong youll be with a sword!

muichiro:

• see he was supposed to start your training like... last week? he doesnt know, he forgot.

• another thing he forgot, like mitsuri, was that he had to spar with you. unlike her though he didnt forget because he was excited he just deadass forgot.

• once yall were starting and he saw you didnt have a sword he immediately got defensive.

• hes forgetful not dumb, oyakata would not make him train you if you werent strong. so that means if you cant use a sword your probably as strong as the fuckin hulk.

• so since hes prepared, you probably wont be able to get to body slam him, but for the sake of this hc lets say you do.

• hes more annoyed than anything ☠️.

• hes like, "wtf that was mad uncalled for. now my back hurts. i cant even watch the clouds now because it hurts for me to lay down bc of you, dickhead."

• i hc sassy muichirou

• hell forgive you eventually probably.

sanemi:

• i love sanemi i promise not more than muichiro 🙄 but he would be the biggest dh ever.

• hed def be like "now why the actual fuck would i train a dumbass that doesnt even know how to use a sword??? you have to be really fucking talentless to-"

• he got bodyslammed before he could finish.

• contrary to probably what everyone would think, he smiles.

• he probablys like, "okay maybe i was being a douche, you might have a little potential."

• thats the best your gonna get from him so take it.

• in the end you got some respect from sanemi shinazugawa himself, be proud.

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ghostly-fulcrum · 18 days

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12/23/23 OH THIS IS SOOOO BEHIND BEIN POSTED😭💀💀 Anyways we finally been fully moved in comfy to Texas for a while so ofc we went to the xmas eve eve Collision, also one of my brothers bday! Yay first time at that venue too, it was awesome seein the Spurs trophies irl 🥺

It was a very fun n a good episode, the ROH content filmed was toooo long n so many left n we stayed forever cos tk kept promising Vikingo lol. His match in SD was so much funner but still cool to see! I really liked the arena it was cool n easy n im exciteddd to go back to see Korn in October there! I hope AEW comes more often, i had a lot of socal shows last year before N after i moved!

#my face #belle.txt #lmao my hair n eye brows r s lightly different since this #str8 brows n wispy bangs n my grey is neon blue n purple #tryiiiiiing to be more active here

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gojo-mochi · 8 months

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KISSING TGE CHEEKS OF MY FINEST BABYYYY!! Muaaahh CONGRATULATIONSSS ON MILESTONES 🫶 I LOVE YOU AND I M SO EXCITEDDD FOR YPUR EVENT !!!!

THANK YOU SOBBIG

KISSING YOU BACK MWAHHHHHHH

I’m glad YOU EXCITED AHHH IM EXCITED TO WRITE FOR IT WOOOOOO

#I might be dead after writing for 10 characters but I will do it #zen!! 💕💕#softy talks to you (·•᷄ࡇ•᷅ ) (•᷄ •᷅ ;)#softy moots (づ ᴗ ᴗ)づ♡#HEEHE AHH

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lovelylionh3art · 1 month

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im back, dk why i havnt used this acc in a while but anywayyss. thought id just come out loud and proud as a hazbin hotel enjoyer. huskerdust rules my life rn. and also why tf is life so confusing 😭 the ages between 14-17 is actually wild. so much shit has happened. i cant deal. but im going to college soon so ‼️‼️exciteddd. i have been doing more digital art but idk how to get it off my ipad thats stuck in ios 10 😭😭😭 help

side note but my dog is turning one in April and it makes me sad that shes growing 😔😔😔

#hazbin hotel #huskerdust #college #digital art

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aturnoftheearth · 1 year

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JAYYYYYYYY YOU GOT ME INTO LORD HURON BACK IN 2021 ANYWAYS GUESS WHAT???? LORD HURON IS PLAYING AT SUMMERFEST AND IM GOING AND OMG IM SO EXCITEDDD SORRY I JUST HAD TO TELL SOMEONE

OMG YAYYYYYYYYY GOD THATS GONNA BE SO EXCITING AND FUN FOR YOU!!!!!!!! THEYRE SO GOOD LIVE AND ITS SUCH A FUN AND WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE AGHHHHHHHHHH

#WHEN YOU HEAR MEET ME IN THE WOODS LIVE. AND BEN SWINGS THE MIC TOWARDS THE AUDIENCE BC HE WANTS U ALL TO SING WITH HIM. OKAY #EXPLODES EXPLODES EXPLODES EXPLODES #asks

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driaswrld · 6 months

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dria🥺 hope you're feeling at least a bit better today :(( again take care !!! ♡

i have a question??? did any of them ever get insecure about the fact that they are three in a relationship? either before or after things got official. in any way, too. of their feelings, if they all felt the same (like, are they okay with this kind of relationship? kind of manner), of what other people would say, or idk??

i'm v curious. i've seen many fics with different views when it comes to how they take the relationship and i'd like to know the tsr dynamic !!

p.s: i'm so excited for unhinged mc. yes, let mc protect the boys please

p.s 2: i'm gonna start reading the wip today during my in between study breaks!! i'll take notes first and add the comments when my thoughts are in place

-🫧

bubble anon my bby !!

IM SO GLAD U ASKED IM SCREAMING RNNN the wip is gonna go reallyyy in depth about that because as someone who has read alot of multifandom poly fics and took the time out to like research poly dynamics and the reality of just how it feels to be in one, IM SO EXCITED to touch on it!! rant below cut lololol

the answer to your question is yes! moreso before they got together than after but lingering insecurities and jealousies were still present up to the time megumi and tsumiki came around. however, in later more domestic tsr, they've become way more comfortable because each of them know the part they play and their own individual importance (naturally these problems still pop up from time to time though)

(also there is lotslotslotss of scrutiny from the jujutsu world ab their relationship which i will ALSO talk about dw ur in my brain😭)

each of them have had their own personal experience with this and i can talk abt it a lil bit without spoiling much but :

suguru dealt with major imposter syndrome after coming back and he felt as if he was playing catch up to satoru n reader alot ! honestly for a while he did not interpret it as a relationship, but rather an attachment (he felt like a glorified parasite) his pov in the wip really goes in depth with these feelings !

satoru on the other hand deals with alot of the jealousy part because he used to feel constantly excluded. reader is always protecting suguru, and by default shielding him as well?? so satoru felt extremely neglected at some points (the part i said abt suguru feeling the most in terms of the binding vow? well, the binding vow plays a huge part in toru's supposed feelings of exclusion) I WONT SPOIL IT THO 😭😭

reader however suffers heavily from insecurities in terms of what they could do but aren't doing (manifests as heavy survivors guilt) in apocalypse it's mentioned that reader was absent when the star plasma incident took place and after that everything went downhill in terms of how they view themselves in terms of strength and reliability bcus they always feel inadequate (pls i would say more but it'd spoil ittt)

AND YES UNHINGED MC !!

(im making those scenes as raw as possible bcus there's a specific way i want u guys to see mc through the boys' pov im so exciteddd!)

and omg have fun with the wipp! im actually writing for it rn too <33

#★ STVRTLK #🫧 ¡ anon

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wave2love · 7 months

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i will literally start drafting it when i get home bsf trust 🫡 at maths tutoring (my cousins house) rn though SAVE ME

should i go all out w tbe yn idol thing 😭😭 like make a proper post for his breakout hit EP or mini album or whatever.. w a cover and concept photos the whole shebang.. IM EXCITEDDD WAIT .

anw i hv to get back to that #GRIND 🔥🔥😢 i will talk to u later bsf ever <3 take some hyunwook pics.. HES SOOO LOML!!!! we do Not actually talk ab his recent vogue photoshoot I COLLAPSEDDD 🙁 best fc choice ever i was kinda cooking at 3am last night.. ok baii MUAH ⭐️⭐️

STOP I'M SO EXCITED. LITERALLY I AM UR NO. 1 FAN WHAT THE HELLLLL!!!

yes literally go all out w the y/n idol thing that seems so fun like actually

ts guy is so fine i have absolutely no clue who he is (he looks familiar) but he is so finnnneeee

#i am so seated for this omfg #🫧 — jj best friend

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onlyangelsupremacy · 2 years

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Smuttt updateee...this is my 4th one soo pretty excited.

Im exciteddd asf its been a whileee...

Plss gimme me ideasss im running out.

domrry, begging, dirty talk, oral sex, teasing.

This one starts with a fight. Here we goo....

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"No Kennedy I saw him feeling you up! Hell he was looking at you like he was about to pounce on you any second and you just stood the fuck there talking to him?!? Fucking hell"

"Harry i didnt know- i didnt realise i mean i kind of caught on soon but i thought he was just being friendly-"

"Friendly my ass". He whispered to himself clenching his jaw.

"Okay first of all you should trust me. He might have wanted me but i dont. You know that i love you right? Only you".

"Yea but that isnt stopping him is it kenny?"

I sighed realising this approach isnt helping in any ways and is just going to anger him further. I had to try another way or this might just end up going down hill. I dont mean to be toxic but i guess a little bit of toxicity helps.

"Harry you know at the end of the day...you're the one that gets to rip this dress off of me. They can all look but no one gets to touch cuz I'm yours. You know that dont you?" I strutted my way towards him, keeping my voice low in a seductive manner.

I held onto the collar of his suit as i stood on the tip of my toes while i whispered in his ear. "Im all yours. Yanno i prepared for tonight. I was gonna be soo good for you. Your good girl. But i guess you decided to be mean today so maybe i should just leave"

I could feel his heavy pants on my neck and his dick hardening against his pants as he gripped onto my waist immediately. "No dont i- im sorry i was just being a jealous son of a bitch".

"Mhm you sure were...well d'ya wanna make it up to me?"

He looked down at me as i looked up at him under my lashes tempting him as i bit on my bottom lip.

He responded by biting his bottom lips as he wasted no time in carrying me and throwing me on his bed. I fell onto the mattress with a bounce as i leaned back on my elbows watching him as he took his suit and pants off.

I romoved my panties slowly and threw it on his face teasing him even further as he caught them immediately bringing them to his nose. I spread my legs apart as i brought my hand inbetween them and played with my clit.

"Fucking hell Kenny i can't take this...you have no idea how much i wanna just bury my face into that wet warm cunt of yours and make you come so hard and fuck into you immediately after"

"Mmm then what are you waiting for im all yours" i told him giving him my best doe eyes as he licked his lips looking all over me once before his face was between my thighs. He looked up at me while using the tip of his tongue to give a quick flick to my clit as i whimpered rolling my head back.

He then buried his face in my cunt as he started licking all over it moaning and savoring my taste. My sensitivity caused me to shut my legs but Harry pushed them open forcefully as he continued to eat me out with no mercy.

"Harry please fuck- im so sensitive baby"

He hummed as i felt the vibrations of it right on my clit.

Harry started to kiss up to my tits and took one in his mouth as he slid two fingers in me. He started sucking and licking my nipple while fucking me with his fingers. I grabbed on to his hair screaming his name constantly.

"Shh...Shut up" he said as he brought his lips to mine and kissed me harshly stopping my screams abruptly.

"Harry faster please" i begged him as he chuckled and brought his mouth near my ear.

"What did ya say? Couldn't hear" he looked up at me with a smirk on his face.

"Fuck harry pretty please fuck me with your fingers harder"

Hearing that made him feral as he brought back his mouth to my cunt and started sucking my clit while fucking his fingers moved harder and faster in me making me quiver and shake.

My orgasm hit me like a train out of nowhere as my back arched as i moaned his name out and gripped onto his hair pulling hard.

As i slowly got down from my orgasm harry licked me clean and brought my panties back up my legs. My chest rised up and down from my heavy pants. He started kissing me all over my neck and face trying to comfort me as i smiled at the feeling closing my eyes.

We both dozed off soon after.

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I hope you guys enjoyed this. Wishing i was kennedy rn tho😮‍💨 lmfaooo anywaysss...getting real busy these dayss but imma try to do a update at least once per week.

Thank you guys soo much for 60 likes on my last one<333

Stay hydrated and healthy. Remember to eat :))

-Jan xxx

#harrystyles #solo harry #harrystyles masterlist #harry styles x reader #domrry #harry styles smut #harry styles au #harrystyles boyfriend #harry styles blurb #harry styles imagine #smut #sub reader #harry

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