#im so gd alone and uncared for and so unlovable that i utterly fucking hate myself and everything about me

[outerspaceman]

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(ignore this i’ll delete later i just need to vent)

#i am in so much pain mentally and physically #i feel so fucking physically sick to the point where ive broken down about it twice today bc i just cant handle it #im so gd sad and stressed that i can tell im right on the edge of a major relaspe #and ive thought of nothing but the dear wish i could be dead for the last week and a half #im so gd alone and uncared for and so unlovable that i utterly fucking hate myself and everything about me #theres literally no hope for a future or family for me despite i desperately want one #bc no one would ever want to be associated with me romanically even as a joke #no one has ever actually found me attractive or likeable and i cant blame them #the sheer amount of shit i would have to change to get someon even a TINY BIT interested isnt worth it and will never actually work #no one will actually like me for anything i am #even if i play make believe for them it doesnt matter anyway they wont care #i am the stupidest pos failure ive come across and theres literally no point to any of this anymore #i am so tired #i am such a waste of space #and god i genuinely would like to be dead #please let me give up