#im so lucky and grateful

[chrisbangs]

231003 ♡ Happy Birthday Bang Chan!

#chan #bang chan #stray kids #cb97net #createskz #*gfx #*m #long post #all the stars in the sky couldnt compare to how much i love you... thank you forever and for always... #i will be by your side till the sun sets okay? #together always... im happy here with you #you changed my life and made me into a warmer person... #i think im so lucky that the universe led me to you... im so grateful that you exist here with me... #my everything... you are always my brightest sun and i hope to continue to be your moon #how many times can i say thank you till my tongue grows numb it still wouldnt be enough... to say thank you to you #because of you i am here still today... because of your kind words i was able to hold onto who i was that night #im never truly alone because you're always a part of my heart and who i am now.. you exist inside my very heart #you are so truly and deeply a soulmate to me... #i love you... so much..

[omrarchive]

#teary baby :(( #his relationship with his mom is so precious #i was listening to his summer talk podcast the other day and hearing the story of his childhood was very touching #im also lucky enough to have an amazing relationship w my mom and i feel very very grateful #omar rudberg #omarrudberg #omr #omar #så mycket bättre #gifs #mygifs

[kentopedia]

dear corporations: the lines "this position is entry level" and "this position requires 3-5 years of experience" should not coexist on one job listing. hope this helps

#its so frustrating ! #if linkedin has no haters im dead #burning that website to the ground #job searching is actually my least favorite thing in the entire world just btw #i think most of my current anxiety is spawning from this #which im very lucky and grateful bc i have a stable living situation and two jobs so im not like desperate for work atm but #this transitionary period really sucks sob

[crescentfool]

i love ryomina

no but seriously. even when i’m thinking about other things that captivate my interest, i find myself coming back to them and feeling like i fell down three whole flights of staircases every time i do. they are one of my favorite pairs in media and are very special to me.

it’s the way that ryoji and minato’s lives are inevitably intertwined with each other due to the circumstances 10 years ago on the moonlight bridge. without no minato, there is no ryoji. minato as he is today is because of ryoji. they have irreparably affected each other’s lives that you cannot discuss one without bringing up the other one.

ryoji mochizuki, who is death, pharos, thanatos, nyx avatar, the man of many names and identities, is the perfect summation of p3′s messages and themes.

minato arisato, the wildcard and protagonist, who has boundless kindness in his actions despite the unfortunate cards handed to him.

the two of them complement each other and tell a beautiful story from start to finish.

minato’s personas capture this perfectly. he awakens to orpheus, who’s flames burns bright, is snuffed out by thanatos during the encounter against the arcana magician. a visual precursor of the idea that ryoji stole from the life that minato could have had.

it’s the way that over the course of the game as minato interacts with pharos, talking throughout the dark hour, forging a bond that cannot be broken, that allows ryoji to exist. minato humanizes death.

november. the bells toll, calling the appriser. and yet, it’s peaceful... quiet, and full of life. ryoji, who breaks free from death’s chains, refusing his role, is given the chance to live for a month. to make the most of the humanity that minato has given him over those ten years. and what a life he lived. ryoji’s life is a reflection of what minato’s life could have been like in another universe.

it is the way the two of them are reflections of each other. ryoji with his hair down is just like minato. they are both stubbornly committed to choosing to be kind, to love life, yet are chained down by the cards the narrative dealt them with. they finish each other’s sentences, knowing each other intimately in a way no one else does.

how is that, a boy who lived for only one month, profoundly changes the course of the narrative? he is simultaneously relevant and irrelevant. blink, and you miss it, the beautiful life that he led.

ryoji is horrified at the revelations of being the appriser. he who so desperately wished to forget that his existence was meant to bring the end to all life, was unable to escape the inevitability of death. in a non-human way, of course. he becomes remorseful. a shadow of his brief time as a human who was enamored by the small beautiful things that life had to offer.

he is swallowed by grief. grief knowing that his very existence will take away not only minato’s life, but everyone else’s. the very thing that ryoji loved- life, fundamentally went against the role he was born for- to be the harbinger of death. and unable to grapple with this sadness he believes that the best thing for minato to do is to kill him, so that SEES can live in bliss not knowing about their inevitable end.

SEES is left rattled, calling into question what the meaning of life is and what they do when faced against the inevitability of death.

and!!! minato chooses!! for ryoji to live!! even in spite of what ryoji is MEANT to embody, minato still stubbornly chooses to defy death itself! and if that’s not cool i don’t know what is!! minato wants everyone to have the chance to live!!

so he climbs. he ascends tartarus, to meet ryoji, again, who is now the nyx avatar. and i just think there’s something so so beautiful about being able to use messiah, minato’s ultimate persona, against nyx avatar.

messiah, being the fusion of orpheus and thanatos is peak ryomina to me. because ryoji and minato have established an unbreakable bond from having been entwined for 10 years, minato still has a piece of death with him, and by proxy!! ryoji is able to defy and rebel against nyx trying to bring the fall! and i think that’s fucking cool shit if you ask me!

even when all of the arcanas have been gone through, it’s still not enough to stop the fall. and yet. minato knows. in the way that ryoji was sealed in minato 10 years ago by aigis... minato becomes the great seal so that everyone can live. it comes full circle.

march rolls around. he fulfills his promise to SEES on graduation day. minato dies from exhaustion. but goddamn does his sacrifice make me weep- he’s had such, such a tiring journey. he’s been through so many things because he was at the wrong place at the wrong time. but at the end of it all, he’s reunited with ryoji in death.

and i think this is why ryomina continues to evoke so much emotions for me, to this day. the relationship that they have embodies so much of persona 3′s messages and themes that it makes me feel like a microwave with nothing running in it.

p3′s message is very hopeful, for me. my favorite takeaway from it is that even if death is inevitable, appreciating the life that we were given and choosing to live as best as we can with kindness (even if we can’t feasibly do everything), is just? really nice? and you see this manifest in both ryoji and minato’s personalities and what they do for the other characters.

ryomina just feels so distinct to me, the flavor that their relationship ties back to my favorite takeaways from this game and im just!!  god!! i love you minato arisato! i love you ryoji mochizuki! im so glad that i could meet them! i’m happy that they changed my life! they made me want to appreciate the connections in life even if they were fleeting! they made me!! want to pay attention to the good moments in life and cherish them!

i love ryomina so much!!! i’m so glad that these two could bring so much joy into my life! and i hope that others can have this joy too! 💛💙

#lizzy speaks #persona 3 #ryomina #ryoji mochizuki #minato arisato #meta #long post #(literally) #HI SO UM YESTERDAY I COULDN'T FUCKING SLEEP so to cope i was like 'i will talk out loud about anything and everything' #and somehow that turned into me talking about ryomina out loud and something about verbalizing my thoughts made me feel crazy about these- #two again. i mean for the record i continue to love them always very dearly but like my p3 braincells sometimes go into hibernation bc- #ive been on a really huge splatoon kick. but anyway my voice was like cracking at 3am because i was tearing up #i was like 'THE!! IM! SO NORMAL ABT WHAT ORPHEUS AND THANATOS AND MESSIAH SYMBOLIZE' etc etc etc #so i kinda just went to sleep like 'ok well you GOTTA type it out. everyone needs to know about this.' #and um i didnt mean to make 1069 words! sorry! not really! but i love them!!! even if im very quiet these days! #ohhh how lucky i am to have had the chance to experience ryomina they are such a gem. they make me so goddamn emotional #they really mean a lot to me because of well. (gestures at the entire post) but also they came at a really good point of my life and FUCK!! #im so so grateful to them!!! i love them!!!! the themes that their relationship and characters convey just !! IM SO NORMAL ABOUT IT!!! #they've affected me so profoundly and deeply and i wish i could make better art to get this across. but its ok. one day i can. one day #they make me so fucking talkative like actually but um. i had a lot of fun writing this! i dont think ive had like. a proper appreciation- #post for them that articulates why i like them so much (unless you count the essays i write in my art tags) so it was nice to make this. #admittedly theres a lot abt p3 that im rusty on since its been a goodwhile since ive interacted with the source material #and in a way you could say that like. i need to renew my p3 license LMAOOO but god some parts of p3 still have such a huge death grip on me #and what i mean by that is that the big Fucking Events have such!! clarity!! in my mind!! i recall them and i wilt on the spot!! #oh god i cant fucking shut up. the tags are probably 500 words long. enjoy my ramble. i wish every ryomina enjoyer a Good Life <3 #actually no. i hope that EVERYONE on the dash today has something that sparks joy for them the way ryomina does for me. #everyone deserves 2 have something that makes their brain do a little excited dance that makes them blow up and explode. its good for u! #BYE FOR REAL this is why i have to post my thoughts very spread out otherwise yall would have so many WORDS on ur dash pls help i have so #many emotions and i am so tiny i cannot possibly fit all the feelings i have about ryomina and other things inside my tiny little body

[naamahdarling]

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#my dad just congratulated my bf on his first maniversary #for his first T shot #dude is totally down with it and enthusiastically suportive of the quote neater than shit unquote science behind it all #and supportive of the work mf bf does in the community and of his social transition #and im crying because im so fucking lucky #the dude is 78 #we are so lucky #i hope to GOD i can marry my boyfriend before he dies #but the fucking social security shit may make that impossible legally and risky even if it's just a spiritual union #because they do hold having a long term serious partner against you and the word boyfriend has way more plausible deniability #than the word husband #i hate this country and the savagery with which they treat us #but at least my dad knows what we are and loves us not despite of it but including and embracing it #so im very very grateful tonight

[ilhand2nddraftt]

#it hits me every so often how lucky i feel that i can walk #i can dance i can run i can move - im so so grateful that i could recover

[cum-padre]

I didn't do much for my birthday but I didn't make plans or tell anyone tbh but everyone is so much more involved in my life now.. it feels like everyone's going out of the way to hang with me this week 😭😭😭

#i love my friendsssss im so lucky and grateful

[heartshaped-lou]

the past few days have been so wholesome. i will always be fond and emotional when thinking of the sweet girl who stopped me outside of the venue to ask me if i wanted a friendship bracelet even if i didnt have anything to swap it with, and her friend who gave me a rainbow heart sticker to put on my shirt! the two artists (@/mBartworks and @/_.watercolor_sugar._ on ig, check them out!) who gave us the cutest little artworks they had printed out and took a pic of me and my friends in front of the venue. and the person who was standing next to me in turin, saw me crying during hoth and asked me if they could hug me. the other girl that was standing next to me in turin who got emotional for every. single. song and who in turn made ME emotional for every single song cause apparently people crying make me cry. then gaia and valentina, the two girls i met while getting inside the venue in turin who we stayed with for the whole show, who i held as if we'd been friends for years (it surely felt like it!) while they got emotional during copy: we screamed lyrics at each other, danced together, held hands, swapped our phone numbers so that we could stay in contact and meet up for other shows in the future, ran around the venue together to try and catch louis at the end of the show. the group of young girls who were sitting next to us on the grass outside the venue before the show who entertained us and made us laugh so genuinely. the couple of parents who stayed in the back of the standing area in bologna and who looked amused but fond at the weirdos doing a conga line during all this time. alessandra, the girl who was squished behind me while we were waiting post show for louis to come greet us in bologna, who gave me her number so i could send her the pics: she was sure she wouldn't come up in any pic cause she was a bit behind and - hours later, after realizing she actually was in the pic with louis (because he is the selfie master, kudos to you king) - sent me a selfie of herself crying, captioned "IM IN IT TOO😭", and reduced my heart to shambles and made me break down while sitting on the ground at 1 am outside the venue. to the merch-clad louies who were on our same 7 am flixbus from turin to bologna who i shared sleepy but excited looks with. my friend with big incredulous teary heart eyes while looking around at the yellow lights during angels fly. my other friend who started crying as soon as bigger than me started playing in bologna. and really, i could stay here for hours talking about how endearing it was when anyone - literally anyone! - looked at you, smiled and told you "have a good show!!!" but i should probably stop cause this has gotten long enough. i am left with incredible memories, pics, a bracelet, and a heartache that i - for once - will proudly wear like a crown. begging time to not heal this one cause i wanna remember these feelings forever. to say it in his words: infinitely grateful for what we created! thanks louis but most of all thanks louies <3

#post concert depression has never hit this bad #i am so grateful and so happy and so lucky! sorry for whining in here - it will surely happen again and probably very soon cause look at me #im chaos #m #my show #no one is gonna read this long ass word diarrhea but it kinda helped me settle a bit

[clits-and-clips]

Haven't really been listening to music which is odd I think I mentioned this, but I always play music. But after mum goes to bed, I've been staying up with dad and watching YouTube reviews on different songs with him and its been so fucking good. The time spent with him and also being able to vibe to music is so healing

#txt #he and mum watch a lot of that stuff on yt #my exposure to music in my life is so grand thanks to them #some people have never heard bands like led zep #or the australian singer/poet paul kelly #like im just so fucking grateful to have such an extensive knowledge of music #i csnt think of the right words #im just lucky #i love my parents so much

[boxylic]

I drew a lot more this year than last, and with less pressure to finish things or even share them and while I wanna.. get back to sharing them and having that confidence I am. So genuinely happy that I haven't been as downtrodden when it came to art and creating this year

#my friends have been such an insane help in that regard i cannot overstate how lucky i am to have the people i do #harvey and noah and frei especially.... youve always been such big encouragements in my life and its always meant #so much #that their are people out there that care for the stuff i create #THERE'S MORE THAN JUST THEM ..I KNOW... AND IM SO INFINITELY GRATEFUL TO EVERYONE #anyone #if youve said nice things to me or to my art just know that i am in ur debt forever for this kindness #im feeling weirdly mushy rn . im just #so happy i got into drawing again. i was so scared id lose it with everything else happening . #.txt #weepy

[crowkip]

i would like you to know that i have not been able to Get that cass portrait you made out of my head since i saw it. you're my hero thank you so much for doinG what you do you have done incredible thinGs for the lesbian community <-(my friends who i've bothered about the drawinG)

THANK U LMAO i live to provide for my lesbian homies 🛐🛐

#this gave me a giggle but it rlly does mean the world to me :'] #im so so lucky to have such lovely people interact with me on here all the time!!! #its genuinely such a special little light in my life and im really grateful #anyway RAAAAH thank u for this it was v cute and made me smile #i'll do my best to keep delivering my silly drawings for the lesbians 💪💪 #ask crow

[placesyoucallhome]

Happy Summer to Q'ruhka. May the gorgeous cat get plenty of sun and beach time. He is worth it.

Well being worth it might be a stretch, he will take the sun and beach!

#q'ruhka #art #fdsafsa ty anon #i think i'm just stuck in my head today #got caught in a downpour and got covered in half rotten salmon juice so im just extra salty lmao #washed up and changed clothes and im still somehow getting whiffs of it #so it was nice seeing this really #just stuck in a sad mood #trying to let go of the idea of Ruhka getting a ship/writing partner #I'm lucky and grateful anyone would wanna interact with him at all tbh! #just need to stay out of people's way for a bit is all

[thelittlespanielthatcould]

beach day with my best friend 💞

#feeling so grateful for him today #he was so happy to splash around and chase seagulls and sunbathe together #we went back to the bnb to shower and now hes curled up asleep in my lap #he makes everything better i love him so much #he has been so happy to do every single thing I ever tried to do with him #how lucky am I to have a dog like that? #hes a one in a million dog. one in a billion dog. once in a lifetime dog.. #and im just so grateful for every moment I get with him. every second every minute every day #hes my everything dog. hes what I wanted. hes what I needed. my baby. my good sweet boy #joy is stored in the spaniel #kovu #ckcs #kovus face #kovu is a spaniel #dog beach

[cquackity]

love my friends so damn much shoutout to my friends

#despite everything that's happening i will always be thankful that being here #led me to forming such amazing friendships #i am so lucky and thankful to have found friends that uplift me and support me #people who i could talk to for hours and hours #im not going to support any content moving forward but #its comforting to know i can still write with my friends #in the end my true passion lies not with canon stuff #but with what i've made out of it with my buddies #man this has me in tears again 😭 i need to stop doomscrolling #im just so so grateful yknow #i really am #personal #dream situation #<- jic

[dandyshucks]

also like. im really honestly pleasantly surprised with the mutuals and followers i have made here - when i started this blog originally i was so terrified that ppl would crawl out of the woodwork to harass me or smth but nah i've received none of that thus far LOL. if i got much more attention than what i have now then i think it'd just invite mean ppl into my inbox esp since i tend to keep anon on fdsjkl

but yeah the amount of attention i have is more than i expected (which is to say i was expecting literally Zero interaction HFDSJKL) and i feel very grateful and lucky to have such a lovely little circle of mutuals and followers :] it feels like i really did luck out honestly !!! i think yall are really wonderful people !!!

#i try not to get too sappy but i do genuinely feel very lucky and grateful to have somehow found such a lovely little internet sphere #i feel like i got pretty lucky to have landed in such a kind group of ppl tbh #and maybe thats why i dont worry about notes so much ? idk #i think im also just . more focused on doing my own thing in a corner rather than sharing my stuff w ppl when it comes to a lot of things #not necessarily a good or bad thing! just some sort of a difference i suppose #but yeah im just happy to be here honestly and happy to have a spot to put all my silly blorbo thoughts in one place fdjkl #and its a super cool bonus that i have a few rly kind mutuals now yay :] #dandy.cmd

[whumpfish]

It's my 8 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

I cannot believe I've been living with ME/CFS for 8 years.

When I made this account, I was virtually bedridden. My mom had to push my wheelchair to all my Dr appointments, and I couldn't sit up. I'd lean over and lay down on the end table while we talked to them, and my mom had to do most of the talking. I packed for the move to her house sitting on the floor, some lying on my side and spinning around like Homer Simpson.

This is from my last days in the apartment, before I cut my hair off because I had trouble getting up and down to the bathroom and sometimes I couldn’t shower and had to use dry shampoo, and even when I braided it, it kept matting.

I had crashed out after one of the roommates had a party at our place, and once I was down, I couldn't get up. He brought me Yabu because all my dolls were on shelves in the living room and it was depressing to be laid out away from them.

Since I've been back at my mom's house, we've redone my bathroom to be ADA compliant, and I can shower most every night. I still can't do more than 1 major task a day most of the time. That and the pain and the brain fog still make working out of the question. I can't function when I lose words and have to spend 30 seconds describing a thing, or swap words and my sentences turn nonsensical. I can't hold multi-step tasks in my head, I have no concept of time, and my phone is the only evidence I have that I existed last week.

But I'm not bedridden anymore. I can shower most every night. My hair is growing out again.

I didn't think I'd ever get here.

Thank y'all for being on this journey with me.

#8 year tumblrversary #fish speaks #disability pride month #thank y'all #y'all gave me the confidence to write #and put my writing out there #it's revitalized stories and characters i had shelved #and im so lucky and grateful #for all the friends ive made #and all the support ive received