#im sorry i couldnt live up to ur dreams lil jen

[hebbifer]

do u ever feel like ur not doing enough :(

#i go to a UC and in just a simple art history major but everyone else around me is like #going into these super competitive and science based careers #this one girl took like 7 classes and got A's in all of them while still maintaining a job #and last quarter i barely passed the 3 classes i took with no job and a ton of free time #like??? im such a loser #i know i shouldnt be comparing but damn!!! #i also have been dealing with severe cycles of depression since highschool but like #i just feel like i should be getting better by now ya know #but i also literally do not have any goals for myself and do not feel compelled to care about my future at all #its so weird living at these crossroads of idealizing success and also giving little to no fucks about my life #anyways #i think im gonna apply to this drive thru place that sells coffee #fast paced environments have always scared me but i wanna change that! #so weird how im almost 20 but it feels like just yesterday i was still 14 in the backseat of my moms camry #im sorry i couldnt live up to ur dreams lil jen #but i promise you i'll try