#im sorry idk how to perspective or anatomy

[itsaspectrumcomic]

man ok idk if youll be able to advise on this or something but like. do you know anything regarding dealing with like internalised ableism?

i live in a rural part of ireland, right? and idk what it is about rural ireland but some of the people are heinous. my school is in a small miserable-ass town and like. God, man. not everyone sucks, of course but like. jesus lol additionally i have a ~mildly ableist~ mother (a "we're all a little bit autistic" and "erm. youre not disabled because youre not in a wheelchair or blind/deaf" etc etc type stuff. + "npd = bad person" which isnt particularly good for me specifically because i have npd (that i both Cant get an official diagnosis for, for various reasons, and im not really Looking for one either because i know what i am and its not like you get support for it because ~ooh scary narcissist~.)

and like. idk if this is Obvious but that can kinda cause a weird-ass relationship with You (being Me in this case, yk how it is with the second person perspective when. ranting) and The Concept Of Being Disabled. like, objectively. im disabled. im autistic, ive definitely got adhd (that im hopefully going to get examined for at some point cause college stuff requires it for the disability forums and stuff. gotta love that. fuckin 80% comorbidity right?), ive got a laughable number of repetative strain injuries, i have a sensory processing disorder, an endocrine disease that effects my Entire cardiovascular system, a spine that felt a lil quirky and bent in too much. so on a so forth

but also like. it feels wrong to call myself disabled. yk, like im doing a disservice to all the other ~actually~ disabled people (being Anyone but me lol) (none of this is At All helped by the fact that my mother refuses to listen to me regarding Jack Shit about my health in Any way. "oh you nearly passed out on top of a hill because of your cardiovascular condition? erm youre just not exercising enough actually" "you dont have depression [said while i was filling out an assigned mood diary after being forcefully brought to camhs for Reasons" like. shut the fuck up and Listen to me please. at least Entertain the idea that i could be right about something for fucking once lmao. cause ive been right about EVERYTHING regarding my mental health so fucking far so. fuck off /nay ofc) (also man. like, even if you ignored the physical issues ive got im still disabled on account of being autistic. like, motor function is fine, despite being a lil clumsy and/or unsteady sometimes but like. my emotional needs are Fucked. think of the response youd get if you asked a. fuckin. 8 year old or something to do algebra. but with a very emotionally stunted and traumatised 17 year old lol. lmao, even /lh)

so like. if youve got. any advice or whatever on any of this thatd be Super cool + no pressure obvs. sorry this is a whole. like. fucking essay's worth of Random Guy Complaining To You On The Internet lol

-🐢 <- just so i can find this again if you respond. i Like Turtles. i am Normal about the tmnt and also turtles The Creatures. i wont talk at length about turtle mutant anatomy (i am deceiving you)

Internalised ableism is a really hard thing to deal with, especially when you're surrounded by people who constantly re-enforce it. I've also spent a lot of time worrying that I'm not disabled 'enough' to deserve certain accommodations, that I'm making an unnecessary fuss. But the truth is, autism IS a disability and if there are accommodations that can help support you, you deserve access to them. You're not taking away from others with disabilities by advocating for yourself.

It's taken me a long time to understand this and I still worry sometimes. What has helped is talking about my experiences with people I know understand, like my therapist or best friend, and learning about the experiences of other autistic people through books, social media, YouTube and even real life.

I'm sorry your mother and others aren't being understanding - remember that's a them problem, not you, and try to spend your time with people who do understand.

🐢🐢🐢 <- the turtles wish you luck

#🐢 #ask #anon ask #autism #actually autistic #advice #autistic #autism is a disability #its a spectrum #long post

[mousepregnant]

how would you design a robot. now idk how to draw the transformers kinda shit it's really hard but if you were to make a robot humanoid how would you make it look like? would you give it wigs or any colors or greyscale

sorry for the weird ask im designing a dead oc's shell to reside it (it's complicated) and i thought I'd ask my local robot expert

also chunky metal robots gang woo

YEAH SURE THING. huge chunk of messy text below

yeah drawing humanoid robots can be like sorta medium-easy to learn to draw once youve learned a basic-ish understanding of anatomy and perspective. (and looking at robot references like every 30 minutes.)

with robots it almost always comes down to 3-dimensional shapes. of course this doesnt mean you have to learn how to draw in 3d. but with bots, their bodies are generally pretty angular and blocky unlike human bodies, which tend to appear softer and rounder.

but i think a good example of flat 2d humanoid bots would be like the homestuck bots lo

and depending on how complicated you want the design to be, there could be like multiple different kinds of shapes layered ontop of each other. if the shapes look flat and 2-dimensional, the design could get kinda complicated and hard 2 read.

um i think one of the fun things about drawing robots 4 me tho is how the limbs and body connect. unlike humans and how skin covers us from head to toe. robots have seams! (is seams the right word? 😅) theres like a bunch of different ways to draw joints/seams. from like bendy tube looking insides, shoulder/elbow/kneepad lookin things and maybe just regular human connecting looking parts with lil lines showing where which part is connected to which

anywho, its like 1am for me right now and ive pretty much slept the day away, so my brain is pretty fuzzy. theres so much more to cover and i cant right now. im gonna leave it at that for now. i'll update with a reblog with more things tomorrow.

and anon, if you can find pictures/characters of what inspires your oc maybe send me a DM and i can probably help! im nowhere near being great at drawing robots myself but i'd love to help anyways haha.

yes you can give your robot beautiful wigs too <3

#and i will add pictures in the morn #sorry this is so erractic #anon #asks

[waltenfiled]

how do you make them so squishy?????????

i don't like calling them squishy but i'll allow it for the sake of me showing off my art process ^_^ + this is NOT cohesive im sorry

okay okay, first of all; i dont use the ball and shield method, i find it really hard to really make the characters turn and make them, make sense if i use the ball and shield method, i use the bent paper method but the ball is in my mind, it's just completely invisible, i don't draw the circle, it's a fucking square, i think, it has corners. okay?

i draw a square that's turning to a specific side, really picky with this because if i dont draw the lines properly it'll turn to a completely different, perspective? and it'll ruin the drawing for me lmao

in specific perspectives, everyone has a thing?? like, cheeks, the cheeks stick out!!! everyone has those i think idk but, yeah

at this point i mostly do the proportion lines now, and the chin because i think, <- or ithink it's called the jaw, anyways, the proportion lines differ with each character because it tells you the exact place for eyes and noses and mouths if the character has that, and characters and people that are humanoid, vaguely for the lack of words, all have proportions - i also mark out where the ears are!! the little circle, the ears are always close to the eyes or exactly lined up to the eyes they're, there, the ears and eyes, anatomy things no idea

okay so this is when you put the detail. you do the perspective and all that stuff and you try to make it look cohesive, now i dont do perspective well, i would rather die but i just try my best. which is where the selection tool comes in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the selecting tool is my friend and with YOUR help, it can be YOUR friend too ^_^ no seriously it is the most helpful thing i would cry if it wasnt there

do you see that part?? at the, at the top, i circled it to point it out because i forgot what it was called, we're gonna put the hair there and i have this segment because the character im drawing requires hair and i love hair, i love drawing hair but you can skip this part if your character doesnt have hair or yeah!!!!!!!

you see that part where i also circled it in, that's where i guide my hair?? i dont, do that scalp hair guide thing, my art style kinda just ignores that part and i dont really care that much but yes, hair

now i find the neck and that's just, really it!!!!!!!!!!! i dont really want to share the other parts of my art process because it's insignificant but that's hwo i make them look 'squishy' ( i dont like calling them squishy i will die on the very hill i stand on before i say that unironically, please )

ALSO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I TURN THE CANVAS, I TURN THE CANVAS, I KNOW. I KNOW. IT'S TERRIBLE, but look look, i went ahead and did the horizontal mirror canvas thing and i adjusted it

okay, i gotta admit, there's no difference because when i flipped it there wasnt really much. wrong with it, i guess i did something right lmao

it even looks better this way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, but it does bring attention to the other ear, which makes me realize that i need to find a way to make that work in the lineart stage. fuck

EDIT EDIT EDIT, FUCK FUCK FUCK THE EYE THING IS OFF, THIS IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ANYWAYS, hii <3 TAGLIST ; @branzypierce @lolihavenoideawhatiamdoing @krabmeat @polyhermits @hashtaggurl <3

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[kekisu]

Lmao idk if this is weird to say, but tha facial anatomy and overall head on ur light and L beating the shit outta each other drawing is really pleasing. He has a really good distinct expression thats readable and his head tilt is slight but noticeable that it gives the right perspective, and like the distance between his facial features are like really nicely distanced from each other in ur style respectively. Idk sorry it that’s awkward but I just can’t get over how u draw his entire head and face

THIS ISNT WEIRD OR AWKWARD AT ALL thank u so much !!!!! lol its actually really nice to hear this, im glad people pay attention to detail in my art? also i struggle a bit with expression sometimes like. making it Just the right amount. i almost always make it too much or too little and its nice to know i did it just right this time, even if its just the sketch. thank u for this!!

#asks

[videcoeur]

I am legit going to cry I have 4 commissions in my queue, 2 fantroll comms and 2 anthro comms 

People keep referring me in the furry community and I’m just about ready to cry of happiness because I’ve struggled so long to like my art and now there are people willing to pay for it, people who really do appreciate my work

and like, anyone can say whatever they want about liking your own art being enough, but when you have people who show that they really do love your art, its really a great feeling

and its not even about the money, its more that...idk, the support?

oof sorry im being emotional on main but I’m just very happy with how my art is developing

also that tra/ining/for/comics thing is doing wonderful on teaching me anatomy basis, dynamism in my poses and perspective.

I’m just really happy you guys a;sldkjf

#happy tag #ooc.

[shawnskeds]

lost in japan // s.m

non-requested// based off of the most aesthetically pleasing song on shawn’s new album. idk how but it just is, fight me please. 

author’s note// im slowly gonna do all of his songs off of the album.... yeah :// also the little line things are perspective changes. 

masterlist || preference masterlist

You looked at your phone and saw yet another text from Shawn. It wasn’t like he bugged you a lot, it’s just he took every chance he could find to get into contact, or meet up with you.

You had a one night stand and promised to keep in touch, and for the most part you did. But you were absolutely terrified of starting something with someone so fucking amazing, like Shawn. He was this star studded guy, with a chiseled jawbone, and button up shirts that fit him as if God had sent them just for him, which was a plausible concept. When Shawn gave you his number, you didn’t think much of it. No celebrity is that perfect, and you had met more than plenty to say you had a reasonable grip on them, working as a celebrity travel coordinator and all. Even all of the Kpop stars who acted as if they were complete robots on television sometimes weren’t even close to as pristine and perfect as they seemed. Shawn’s company had just hired you last minute to coordinate travel plans for Shawn’s Japanese leg of his tour. He was beautiful and perfect, and he asked you for drinks, and in all honesty it was fuzzy. You just remember thinking.

Holy fuck, I cannot fall for this man. You cannot for those beautiful eyes, and the way that he laughs at even the stupidest of jokes that you make, and the way that he blows the stray curls out of his eyes, and fuck.

You tried, and you tried to forget what it felt like to be tangled up in his rather perfect body, and what his moans sound like, and you couldn’t help but wonder what it would sound like if he said I love you. 

You didn’t even open the message, tossed your phone to the side of your bed, and groaned out loud. You shouldn’t be feeling this way. You can’t fall in love, especially not with a guy who gets more and more perfect everytime you text. You can’t let him know that maybe, just maybe, you aren’t as perfect as you led on when you first met. You have quirks, and imperfections, you love reading classic novels, and you sleep with your socks on, and love supernatural horror but cannot stomach any sort of true crime. You couldn’t let him know that you weren’t as put together as you led everyone to believe. What would this beautiful perfect man think if he knew you cried during every episode of Grey’s Anatomy where there were shitty parents or gay couples being kept apart? Or that you are expected to keep all of the travel plans of A-List celebrities, mostly Japanese like yourself, in order but your bedroom is an absolute disaster, but your bookshelf is strictly color coded. Shawn wasn’t like that, his quirks made him much more likeable. 

If you answered that text, and gave in, everything could fall into place, but that gave it an opportunity to fall completely out of place. 

I’m not sure if you have plans tonight, i’m a couple hundred miles from Japan, and maybe i could fly over to your place tonight? I’m really sorry, i just cannot get you off of my mind. 

He sent it.  He sent the message he had been dying to ever since he found out it was possible to fly all the way to Japan and see you. He sat in his hotel room in South Korea, after one hell of a show, where there were hundred of girls that would have easily thrown themselves at him. But all he could think about was your beautiful, soft porcelain skin and your sweet smile the entire time. He wanted to hate himself for being so taken by you after only meeting one another once and texting on and off for a couple of months. 

He had hinted a large number of times that he wanted to see you, even times when it was more than possible to, times while you were within single digit miles of one another, but you always brushed it off. He was so confused with himself, that he hadn’t just given up, he would have with any other girl, just moved on to the next one, find someone who wanted him. But, like he said in that all-bearing text, he just could not get you off of his mind. 

You were smart, and quick, and snorted sometimes when you laughed. You used only three emojis, being the cowboy emoji, the sideways crazy eye tongue emoji, and the coffee cup emoji, and you were very strict on those rules. He felt like he was definitely in the “falling deep in love” process, and he would gladly say he was ready. 

He had never met someone like you, ever. And he thanked his lucky stars they hired your service to coordinate travel. Because ever since, he hasn’t seen anyone else the way he sees you, and he was more than ready see you and only see you. He just sat there, staring at his phone screen, hoping you would give him the go. Hoping that you would show him that it was more than a one night stand you felt guilty about and kept in contact with. That you were willing to fall in love with him, his flaws and exposed heart and all. 

Ten minutes pass, and then fifteen. 

Excuses didn’t do much, and excuses made it worse. You weren’t asleep or working, you didn’t want to see him. You didn’t feel the same. You didn’t constantly think of him the same way that he thought about you. You didn’t want what he wanted, and fuck? Was he going to cry? He couldn’t cry, over a girl he put everything out there for and she si-

He was interrupted by a bing on his phone that he literally jumped to get. 

well, i sure don’t have plans and if i did i would cancel them.

He smiled to himself, but then another text came in. 

get on that plane, mendes.

author’s note// my talents include binge eating, political rage rants, having the last word, procrastination, and implicating POC readers!!!!

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[haeroniel-doliet]

Hnghhh why does it require e f f o r t and p a t i e n c e and p r a c t i c e to get good at art????? I need to be good immediately and things i want to see appear at a snap of my fingers.......

Read more for what became an accidental full rant about why ive yet to post anything besides that one thing idkkkk

Aka im TRYING to be good and practice little by little but its BORING and difficult to not get immediate reward.... Also because for whatever reason i really dont wanna watch tutorials so im tryna be all self taught kinda and im OBVIOUSLY making a lot of mistakes like its part of the process but its FRUSTRATING

Basically im on my 6th??? Idk restart attempt at the same fennec portrait and its. Okay. Its at a point where im like nice as long as i suffer over the details here itll be decent ish. Probably.

But its not REWARDING.....

I know i want to do screencaps and character and face studies to get to the point of good art i wish i could be but .... I also just wanna draw like fun fic scenes and silly doodles of characters like some of the cool artists i follow do but i CANT because im not GOOD ENOUGH yet. ;(((((((

Yea i could post sketches or whatver i manage in a night but like who the fuck wants to follow that? Nah... I just idk. I DONT KNOW i dont know what my art goals are (i do, but DO I??)

My brain also obviously doesnt work very well visually which is GREAT so like, any original work its a lot like 'i'll know its right when i see it' but getting next to no other direction and you just gotta be like right. Okay uhhh my anatomy skills are stunted from when i was like 16?? Perspective?? Detail?? WHATS THE COLOR SCHEME

Never mind that i just... Dont understand the program or brushes that well idk why. Krita should be good and im too stressed to experiment different softwares.... BLEGH

i just. Part of me aches to go back to traditional for a bit but i just, dont have the means to make the scale of work i want ro produce with traditional materials yknow?? Maybe i should try just sketching scanning and then lining on computer again idk. At least for some of these face things.

Ok so my GOAL is to always have a very recognizable face. Like. I guess i cant hold myself to photorealism standards because hahahhah id die! But like, i want the face to be looked at and go ah yes! Its that guy! That actress! My friend! Me! Whoever! But like, recognizable. Because i know i CAN thats what i do! Thats all ive been good at !!!!

And like yeah i could hone that, yknow? Work on face studies and mini portraits of all my favourite actors and scenes and shit. Cool right?? Yeahh that could be sickaroni macaroni. People like faces they can recognize and good refined work. I can do that

But i want to be MORE

Id love love love to make like. Scenic paintings. Concept art level atmosphere and color and light and presence and as tory telling yknow?? Id like to substitute the literally colorless fog inside my head into vivid scenes. Id like to try and take the fics that in my head are set in ??? Space with some movement here and there and just idk emotions? Into fleshed out SCENES with backdrops and accurate anatomy and WEIGHT and like, everything incredible that i admire in true art.

But thats hard, yknow? I havent really ever done backgrounds and what i have have been so flat. I dont KNOW how to do that (here i would be willing to have a teacher i think but. Im tired. I cant even seek out a short term therapist for myself how am i gonna find the kind of teacher i want?? Because of course i want them to teach me how to achieve whata inside my dreams and not what they know how to do ykno)

Yeah so i want to try and paint screencaps in the meantime. See if i cant struggle my way to fit this putty of skill into a square box. Like i think i can paint. Digitally? Somewhat idk?? Maybe if i just. Keep trying itll work out?? Start with simpler ones and build up to complexity??

But also. If im juat trying to get myself to love art again, why am i trying to throw myself in the deep end of struggling with something im not good at?? Shouldnt i be just refining what i already know? Like. A character! Standing. Maybe in a cooler pose if going crazy. Refining basic anatomy. How does fabric work? How does hair work? Can i make expressions seem realistic?

Next step, could i make a picture of someone without direct reference?? Like. Could i draw maybe a wee dinluke holding eachother or whatever and like. Just. Do it?? Without doing a version of photoshopping two pics of the actors through art together. Idk.

Also NONE of this makes sense to anyone outside my head and im SORRY

Like i dont even have a resolution at the end here!!! Im just FRUSTRATED!!!

I wanna draw, i wanna have results and success and rewarding experiences. But i also want ro challenge myself and do super complex shit and like really push myself to learn impressive difficult shit and be proud of down the line.

Im so tired. I cant even feel ok drawing without having someone on call with me to alleviate the immense pressure of frustration and anxiety and stress and struggle!!

I just. Wanna enjoy it

Okay fine i need to find a show or smth to 'watch'

And tomorrow? I might whip out a sketchbook thats been last used 8 years ago and. Ignore everything in it hahhaha its bad

But no im gonna. Im gonna draw scenes. With minimal reference

I might make a face collage i definitely wanna for pascal and mar camel

But im gonna put PENCIL to PAPER and get to the roots of MY HAND CAN DRAW just give her a chance, and get your brain outta the game.

Ok so fuck me this rant has to end here or ill never stop

If you read this (i dont expect ANYONE to have) send me like a message or whatever lol imma need to ask if youre ok <3

#art woes #ended up being way too long OOPS #im just really TIRED and FRUSTRATED #take a peek in my brain #bless this mess or whatever